EDIT - the end of this post contains the real part 93. I accidentally screwed up and forgot to post that one, skipping straight to 94 in error. So to keep it in line for readers who haven't got here yet I've included it below. Please see after the end of my reply to feedback in this post.
K
Hey,
Azirahael - Glory's thing is she really doesn't care... until she does.
We never saw it, maybe effects cost, but I always thought Glory could just make herself over with the power of will. It was just that she enjoyed baths. And adoration. Kind of like a cat... (cept the baths part). In fact I like that analogy. Keep it in mind. She's an immortal, preening, bad-ass cat. Solitary until she wants to be noticed. Used to comfort but not requiring it. And utterly, totally entitled in her own mind.
Oh yes, I wish I had thought of that earlier!! I will have to work that into something now.
Funny what you said about the monk. I don't really remember it in the show, but when I just read it again... I wasn't as happy with it as I might have been. That's just me though. I have no taste

Nothing much has changed for the choice of where to send Hope/Dawn except... Faith is redeemed. And - as we've said before - she's the true Slayer. Not the (un)fortunate leftover. Basically everyone that turned Faith around and is around her now is what the monk meant...
But it's me, so I'm not going to give Xander that much credit.
It is definitely true to say that they'll need to try something new with Glory, whether it will work or not is another matter

The whole, re-written, ending revolves around that. Though you could call it 'something old, something new'
I did see what you did there. Though I never saw the thing that you did there

Katharyn
EDIT - And now the real part 93...
Title:
Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Ninety-ThreeAuthor: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: The aftermath of finding out the truth about Hope.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of
italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: Once again the necessities of perspective and logical behaviour of character interfere with the nice, simple switch back and forth between Tara and Willow. But we’ll see Willow soon enough. It’s a short-ish one though because you know what’s coming next…
We also start to get into some of the problems that exist in season five’s logic around Dawn/Hope, the nature of reality over memory and what happens when you know something is true but you’ve been told it’s not. That’s something I’ll keep coming back to as I try to create a more satisfying logic behind how it was all done.
Thanks to: Those who are still with me. A smaller band than we started with, but still merry! We’re merry, right?
“Faith! Wait!”
“Leave it, Tara. This is
mine. Mine to deal with. My
sister,” the Slayer told her the way it was without turning to look at her. Tara was struggling to get through to her. “Not yours. So butt the fuck out.”
If Faith had been caught on the hop, uncertain of what she was being told before, then she’d definitely adjusted and – if anything – become the angrier of the two Slayers.
Just peachy. Yeah, Willow would’ve put it that way. Bright side, I had two angry Slayers when I came out – just for different reasons. It’s not actually got worse.
Or has it?Yup, it really had got worse.
Buffy’s anger was something different now, she thought she might’ve been wrong about what was making her Mom ill and so she was frustrated that she’d wasted her time on this – important as it was – when Joyce was at home sick.
And she’d got her ass kicked. Just like Faith.
When she thought about it some more, she was sure Buffy would have her suspicions about Hope and her Mom again. There was a question begging to be asked, about creating those memories and what that might’ve done to Joyce.
But not the rest of them?
That was Buffy and… then there was Faith. Faith who felt she had more to be angry about.
Faith who had stepped right up, ready to go and do… what? Stepped up and brushed past her, pushing her bodily aside as she tried to keep her friend from rushing off to do something they could all easily regret.
“Hey, Faith, cool your jets,” Buffy said, reacting to the physicality that had left Tara rubbing her shoulder where she’d certainly have a bruise tomorrow. Not bad after an encounter with a Hell God, just to have a bruise.
Both the Slayers would look much worse, if only for a day or so until they healed.
“You say, B? When you thought Hope had caused your Mom’s illness, you were all in her face without anything more to base it on than being high on some potion Tara gave you. Now the holy man told us what’s going on and - ” she hesitated, searching for the name.
“”Glorificus,” Tara supplied, but she wasn’t done. Buffy was right, Faith did need to cool down. “That was who that woman was. She nearly took both of you apart, together, and I’d have been next. We
have to keep her away from Hope. That’s what matters right now.”
Buffy agreed and even Faith – in all her anger – couldn’t argue with that one. The end of the world wasn’t something you took chances with. Everything Faith lived for was in this one world that they had.
Including Hope.
“Yeah, Faith, what are you going to do? Give Hope to her?”
“Diana’s been trying to keep Hope away from Glorificus too,” Tara pointed out.
“Look – can we just call her… I don’t know, Glory or something? And no – no way that bitch is getting her hands on her,” Faith said, obviously holding that grudge hard too.
“So… what?” Tara challenged. “If you’re not going to give Hope to Glorif – Glory, then what is it you want to go back there and do? Kill her?”
“Hey! That’s my - ”
Faith lapsed into silence.
“Sister? No, but – she feels that way, right? I know I love her, and she’s just my friend’s kid sister,” Tara said. “I can’t – I know it must hurt because you love her so much more.”
“Oh, it’s going to hurt
someone.”
“But not her… right?” Tara asked. “Not Hope.”
“We need to figure this out, Faith,” Buffy said. “We’ve gotta be smart about this – all of us. Because Tara’s right. Glory could’ve taken us apart like pulling the wings off a fly if she hadn’t been showing off so much.”
“Maybe off you,” Faith said, but her voice gave away that she did recognise the reality of the situation they’d found themselves in. The fact was that the building had collapsed on Glory after she’d thrown a hissy fit. And not because either of the Slayers had actually hurt her. Just because she’d snapped the heel off her shoe. That was the reason they’d ‘won.’
Not one of them thought this was over just because the building had come down on her head. Not one of them actually thought they’d ‘won’ at all.
So there was a creature under the rubble, they didn’t suppose she was going to stay there.
“We – I don’t think we can tell her,” Tara said. She’d been thinking about
how to broach what they knew. To Willow. To Joyce. To Hope. The girl didn’t know she was anything but their friend and Faith’s sister. You only had to know her to understand that. Hope had no idea that – until whatever point she’d been ‘created’ - none of that had been real.
But it was real now. She still had those memories, so did Faith. Just because she knew… that was just making things confusing, but it didn’t change what she felt – for whatever reason. It had to be the same for Faith who’d just tried to defend her sister when – a moment before – she’d have cheerfully done… damage to her.
“Wait – you mean
not say anything about it to her?”
“Not to her, not to anyone. If we’ve got to keep her safe, how can we tell anyone? Being hidden is what’s protecting her – it – her. After what just happened to you both in the factory, it’s definitely not us; it’s the fact Glory doesn’t know who or what Hope is. The more people who are talking about that then the more chance that Glory can find out. I mean that has to be true… Right?”
The two Slayers looked at each other. She wanted their opinions, really. This wasn’t her telling them what to do because really, there wasn’t much telling Faith what to do. You just got her to go along with what she thought was a good idea…
“What about Willow?” Buffy asked.
“Yeah, what about Red?” There was a challenge there. Like ‘You’re asking us to keep quiet, but can you?’
And no, she didn’t like it at all, but of course, if it meant Joyce and Xander and Anya knowing too then… yes, it had to mean Willow stayed in the dark as well. At least for now. “Not – not unless I have to. To keep either of them safe.”
Buffy looked at her sceptically. “You’re going to keep it from her? Do you even know how to do that?”
“I… I can keep a secret,” Tara promised, after all she’d had plenty of practice. One day she might have to tell Willow, because her lover might have to take this burden on.
When Im gone. “For now only we get to know. And we have to act… carefully.”
“No one tells anyone without talking to the other two first,” Buffy said. “Not Willow. Not Giles.”
“Not Eddie,” Faith added.
“Not him either. And definitely not Hope,” Tara said. “She… we don’t know what it would do to her and even if the memories I have aren’t real, I don’t want to hurt her. Do you?”
Buffy shook her head slowly, while Faith didn’t show any sign. She thought that was probably a good thing compared to how she’d been a few moments ago. “We can’t even treat her differently,” she continued. “She’s a smart kid, you both know she’ll figure it out if we do.”
“And it’s not her fault…” Faith said, relenting at least that much.
“No, it’s not her fault.”
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“Where’s Hope?” the penguin asked.
“What’s that Mister Penguin?” Except Mister Penguin kind of sounded like… Tara?
“Willow, where’s Hope?”
“No, Mister Penguin! The bunny didn’t do it!”
Willow jerked herself awake and immediately realised – oww. She’d fallen asleep on the couch and her face was stuck to the black leather and her neck was sore and… what had Faith been doing on this couch?
Sitting up was kind of painful – after the noise of her face pulling away - but then she looked at Faith and Buffy and realised that she didn’t understand what pain was… “What happened to you two? Oh, God. You look like you went ten rounds with Mike Tyson… well, with your hands behind your back because you’d totally be able to take him down.”
“Where’s Hope, baby?” Tara pressed.
“Oh, hey, sweetie, you – you’re all dusty. No, don’t kiss me, you’re a mess. What happened?”
“Willow, where’s Hope?” Surprisingly Tara didn’t seem worried by the lack of a kiss. But then she had something else on her mind, didn’t she? They kept asking – they all expected – something about -
“Hope?” she asked.
“Is she in bed?”
“Umm, I guess – I fell asleep. There may have been drool. Why?”
“I need to apologise to her,” Buffy said quickly, though Tara had looked like she was about to answer.
“Good. She was really shaken up by what you did, Buffy. It wasn’t very nice. She put a brave face on it but - ”
“I know – I’m sorry,” Buffy said. “I want to tell her that.”
“You and Faith didn’t…” she threw a few fake punches which just tweaked her sore neck and ouchies.
“No. We – we think we ran into Glory.”
“Glory? You mean, Glorificus? We’re calling her Glory now?” Yeah, because the name was the most important part.
“It seemed easier,” Tara said, slipping an arm around her.
“You’re all messy,” Willow complained, but held the hand that encircled her anyway. “Did you guys slay her? Is that problem solved?”
“We – we got in a few punches, a head butt,” Buffy said, looking at Faith. “She didn’t really notice.”
“Oh…” Yeah, aside from all the dust the pair of them looked like they’d been smacked around something chronic. And Buffy looked like she had a bad arm. “Ouch.”
“Look… would you go see if Hope’s awake?” Buffy asked. “I want to apologise. But – I was – I don’t think that waking up to find me standing over her would be a great idea…”
“Not while you look like a ghost,” Tara pointed out. “I guess - ”
“You look like the ghosts of Christmas past, present and future. Yeah, I know what that is – even if I am a good Jewish girl. And talking of good ideas,” Willow said. “She’s just a kid, Buffy. You mentioned that, right?” Tara had an expression then. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing…”
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Tara waved over Buffy’s head, what she hoped was a reassuring gesture. Hope was… She’d been asleep, but woken up when Willow went into the room. Yeah, that was her girl… not the sneakiest cat on the lot. Especially when she was stiff and still sleepy herself.
Hope’s smile said that she was okay though. It had to have been scary with Buffy acting crazy, but she seemed willing to hear Buffy’s apology. And for a good reason.
“You’re worried about your Mom,” Hope said, rubbing her eyes. “You don’t have to say – I mean - I get it.”
“That still doesn’t make it right,” Buffy said.
Looking at her, listening to Buffy apologise to her for what had happened before, she could tell both that Buffy wasn’t quite able to disguise all her concern and also that Hope wasn’t missing the truth. But more than likely she was putting it down to awkwardness after what had happened.
“I didn’t mean to - ” Hope said. “I didn’t mean to make it seem like – I guess your Mom and I just get on. I’m… sorry.”
Ohh… Whoever had made this girl – and she was certainly a girl now – they’d done a marvellous piece of work. Hope was apologising to Buffy now? For what? Getting on with her Mom? Did she think Buffy was jealous? Maybe Buffy was, in amongst the concern about the illness that Hope hadn’t, in fact, caused.
Unless… unless the Monks, putting this into their heads – whenever that had been done – could’ve caused it?
There was no way to know, not yet anyway.
So maybe Buffy was a little jealous. Joyce had a relationship with a normal girl, the kind of girl Buffy hadn’t been for a long time. And it couldn’t help that Hope was Faith’s sister either. Buffy had needed to be shown where the bedroom was in this place… She’d never been here, even though Faith and Hope had moved in weeks ago.
They were getting on, she and Faith, but they weren’t exactly buddies.
“No,” Buffy said. “You don’t need to be sorry about that. It’s good for her. Someone pretty clever made me realise that.” Then she shifted to a stage whisper. “And she’s stood behind me.”
Hope giggled, looking past Buffy to meet her eyes and then focused on Buffy again. “What’s wrong with your Mom?”
Tara could see – and hear - that Hope was just as worried as the rest of them. Okay… the memories were false and the girl had been constructed, ‘made flesh’ somehow, but that didn’t – couldn’t – stop them reacting to what they
knew. They liked this kid and she liked them. There was no faking that.
It wasn’t faked at all. It was very real. And she thought that was what Buffy was realising too. She wasn’t just apologising to keep the peace and stop any schism that might put the all-important Key at risk. She was apologising because she’d done wrong by Hope.
“I don’t know,” Buffy said, stroking the younger girl’s hair.
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