"She left me" (28/04/2010)

[tarawillow<3]

TITLE: "She left me"
AUTHOR: tarawillow<3
DISCLAIMER: The oh mighty creator of life, Joss Whedon ! , owns these beautiful beings. Only us Kitten beg at his feet to write a little fic of our beloved gods.
FEEDBACK: Yes please ! I'm rubbish at writing, so anything will be valuable info for me !
PAIRINGS: W/T
RATING: R (maybe more later on *smirk*)
SUMMARY: Tara left Willow in season 6, Willow ran off to LA and now lives with Faith.
NOTES: Though Will and Faith are in bed together, THEY ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP, they happen to share a bed, but only as friends.Like In my name is Earl, Earl and his friend live together and sleep in the same bed.

« I don’t think this is gonna work » Tara said sadly, tears in her eyes, looking at the woman she loves. Willow displays a petrified look on her face, in sudden realization of whats to come.
« You’re gonna leave me ? »
« I am... » a tear made its way down her face as she finished « I can’t believe i’m actually saying this » Willow sniffed then whipped her eyes and stood up .
She kissed the blonde’s cheek before saying « I.. I guess this is goodbye » she caressed her cheek before murmuring « I love you » and leaving, sobbing.
She ran back to Buffy’s house and packed her bags quickly. Enough to fit in a backpack. She silently made her way down the stairs and ran out.

Tara ran to the Summers house and entered, crying.
« Tara ! What’s wrong what happened ? » Buffy asked concerned, as she and Dawn made their way upstairs to join the other girl.
They look at her confused as Tara looked at the cupboard. Many of Willow’s clothes missing.
« Tara ? » Dawn asked as she hugged her « What happened ? did you and Willow argue ? i’ll have a big macho talk to her if it was her fault your crying »
Buffy looked at the cupboard and several clothes scattered on the floor.
« She left. »
« Why ? » Dawn asked her sister who looked at Tara.
« W-we broke up »
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I sit next to Faith on our bed in our small flat.

« how did we get here ? » I ask her with a hint of sadness in my voice.

« You screwed up with T, i’m a murdered » She replied bluntly. I look at her frowning.

« You’re not a murdered. You messed up. Just as i did » She smiles back lightly and stands up and grabs her clothes.

« Sure Red. Anyhow, i’m going to go get dressed » She said as she left for the bathroom.
I sigh and crawl back under the warm covers.

, I start to think as i remember the sweet smell of breakfast with Tara, the pancakes, funny shaped ones always seemed to taste the best. The laughs of the residents of the household... Everything i’ve missed so, for these 3 months.
I grab Faith’s pillow and squash it on my face, trying to block out my thoughts. ‘Cause if you met the champion babbler, thats nothing compared to me !
OK, getting up now.
I roll off the bed and stand up. I grab a t-shirt and kakis slip them on and head to the kitchen.
I grab two bowls and fill ‘em with milk and cheerios and serving two glasses of apple juice.
« No cookin’ this morning ? » Faith asked as she entered the room, still drying her hair with a towl.
« Meh, not in the mood. »
« One of those days huh ? » I nodd, she smirks and we both eat our breakfast.

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should i continue writing ?

[tarawillow<3]

« Buffy, i don’t want to go to class » Tara sat on the couch, frowning at her friend who looked back at her, defeated.
« Ok then. Oh ! i have a day off, want to do some girl-like-shopping-time ? » Buffy offered. Tara sat considering the option of doing so, instead of laying in her bed and thinking about Willow, smelling the clothes since they smelled of her or even simply fall asleep, so that the dream land would make her feel happy. But then again, a day out with Buffy could do her some good.
« Ok, but you’re paying everything »
« Sure, since i am pay day gal ! » she grinned before heading to the hall and shouting « Dawn ! get you lil butt down here ! you’ll be late for class ! » as she finished her sentence, she ran down the stairs hushing her sister and leaving for class.
Buffy waved and headed back into the living room and offered Tara a big breakfast. Which, of course, she accepted.
Tara closed her eyes, trying to relax, as she finished that thought, Buffy came back through, phone against her ear.
« You sure Giles ?... Yes, really ?... when ?...where ?...Yes !, go talk to her !.. good luck.. yes, you too » she hung up and fiddled with the phone.
« What ? » Tara asked, frowning.
« You’ve probably guessed what. He followed her and he’s going to go see her later »
« Oh gods ! i got to go see her »
« Nope, no sir, your shopping with me remember. And let Giles do his work. He’ll bring her back i promise. »

«Piss off Giles ! » Faith shouted to the watcher as he came up the stairs to her flat.
« Faith please. I’m not here to cause trouble , i just want to talk to her » He said as he stood in front of her, cleaning his glasses.
« What if she doesn’t want to see you ? » Faith replied, arching a brow.
« Oh hey Giles ! Come in ! » Willow called out from inside, peeping through to Giles through the doorway.
Giles smiled at Faith and walked in. Faith Guided him to the living room. He sat down on the dark green couch and awaited for his daughter like friend to come through.
« Cookie ? » The red haired girl offered as she entered the room, he accepted then studied Willow’s face a moment. Noticing the great scar across her face, from the top right of her face, across her nose to the bottom left. She smiled nervously, realizing his stare. He smiled and then asked :
« How have you been dear ? » his voice soft and father-like, as usual.
« Good... A-and you ? and the others ? » She asked eagerly, wanting to know how Tara has been. To know if she’s dating anyone, to make sure she was happy.
« I’m good thank you. The other are doing good Xander and Anya are getting married next week ..»
« Oh ! when exactly ? i might drop by with Faith. Don’t tell them. Cause i don’t think I’ll stay long. I might say ‘hi’ and run off, but thats all. Please don’t tell them where i am, i... I’m not ready. I’ve stopped using magic ! no more spells... » She sighed.
« I won’t, dear. And the wedding is this Wednesday. »
« That's tomorrow... I need to buy presents... » as she continued to babble, Giles started to wonder where she got that dreadful scar. It cut through her cute charm. By the look of the scar it was slow, not too deep, but deep enough to scar her skin for ever. .
« Giles ? did i lose you ? » Willow asked as the man seemed not to be paying attention. He realized it and smiled.
« Yes ? »
« Are you OK ? » Her voice concerned for his quiet-ness and lack of paying attention.
« I was just thinking... I was wondering were you got the scar ? »
She sighed and breathed in deeply « I knew you’d ask that » she spoke in whispering voice. « I.. i did it » Giles raised his brows, surprised that Willow would do such a thing to herself.
« I left Sunnydale... I couldn’t stay... I hurt Tara, it’s unbearable just to think of it. Even though all i want it was to protect our relationship. But as always, Magic has consequences. So i came to LA, i lived on the streets for 4 days. I was depressed, alone. I wanted to remind myself how bad i am. I took a knife a knife and cut my face. I bled so much and fell unconscious. Then found myself at the hospital with Faith. She helped me through it all. Helped me stop using magic, let me live with her, got me a job, and she’s like a sister to me now. Remember how i used to hate her guts just 2 years ago ?, gone, zero, Nada,zilch. »
Giles nodded frequently. And at the end of her speech he spoke ;
« I’m glad you are OK, the other have been worried sick. Definitely Tara. » Willow sat up properly, suddenly interested since Tara’s name was mentioned.
« Go on » She grinned. He smiled.
« All of them had searched over Sunnydale for you, Buffy got Angel to look through his part of LA... They tried lots and never found you. They miss you dearly. Every time you name is mentioned the room goes quiet. Even Anya, and i mean, Anya >Never< shuts up » He bit into his cookie then continued « Tara didn’t even leave her room much. She hasn’t gone to class, and unseal spend her time in the house. Buffy told me how she went into her room one time to check up on her and saw one of your t shirts on a pillow, and she was hugging it, fast asleep. The only time she leaves the house is the occasional trip to the magic box or patrol. Most of the time when she goes out, she spends time with Dawn or Anya. Xander now gets the daily news paper, always checking to see if your mention in it, for good or bad. God, even Spike sent out words through his fellow demon friends about you. »
« Tara and Anya friends ? and Spike ? »she questioned « Never knew they could develop that friendship, i mean, Anya is so annoying ! And Spike ? I’m surprised »
« Same here Willow » he smiled. Faith had come through and they all made with the small chat. Giles looked at his watch and realized the time and left.
He got into his car and headed for Sunnydale, and as soon as he got there, he headed to Buffy’s. He knocked at the door and Dawn politely showed him to the living room.
« So did you find her ? » Dawn asked hopefully.
He though before saying «It wasn’t her... » He lied.
« Oh... » She sighed then called out to Buffy in the kitchen « Giles is here Buffy ! »
Buffy came through and hugged Giles.
« So ? » she asked him.
« It wasn’t her »
« But you said, you >saw< her »
« She led me to a apartment, not hers. Some guy in a towel's place »

Tara stood at the top of the stairs, listening. She felt like throwing up.
She didn’t notice Dawn making her way up .
« Tara ? » the younger girl asked, wondering why she was there and what she’d heard.
« Yes Dawnie ? » She replied.
Dawn smiled and when she got to the top, hugged her. « I love you »
« Me too » she whispered back to the girl before letting go to let her head to bed.
She went down into the living room and stood in the doorway.
« What do you mean she misled you ? she took you there on purpose. There must be a reason for it. And so, if she took you there and went inside the place, she obviously would be in there. » She frowned at him, angry, but yet keeping her cool.
« I’m going on patrol, see you later or tomorrow » Buffy smiled, hugged them both and left.
« Tara is Dawn in bed ? »
« Yes »
« Then listen. It was her place. She told me not to tell anyone. But i think you deserve to know. »
« It was ? » she said wide eyes « Why not ? how is she ? is she OK ? is she happy ? »
« I can’t tell you. I promised. But she is... OK i guess »
« OK ? what do you mean great or terrible .»
« Between the two.I cannot tell you why, or any other of your questions. I’m sorry, but believe that she’s OK. You can tell the others, i just felt you should know first » He smiled and Tara returned it soon after.
« Thank you so much Giles, you can’t believe how much this means to me » She hugged him, her voice full of delighted-ness and happy. Happy to know that the person she love was safe. Was not dead, or in any harm.
«You are welcome Tara . If there is anything you want me to tell her »
« That’d be great ! ... » They continued to chat about it till they both headed to bed. She listened to Giles’s car’s motor turn on and drift away in the distance. She got under the cover and smiled. She squeezed Willow-pillow against her and smelled the pillow, inhaling the strawberry smell. She soon fell into a deep sleep. Full of dreams of Willow. How they come back together, and everything is OK. Willow took her to a lake, beside a Willow tree and made sweet love to her. Her moans darted thew the air like lighting bolts. He voice as loud as thunder as she shouted out her name. When she stopped, Her love layed beside her, and they sleeped through the warm night in each others arms. Happy. Complete.

[viximon]

Of course you MUST continue. You can't leave the story there.
So Willow and Faith ends up roomating? Cool. What now? Keep it up

[viximon]

Wow, that was fast. I just posted a reply and the second chap came about.
I like it! So next round at Xander and Anya's wedding, no? Great. There can happen anything. Hope to read more soon. God work

[taysla]

Of course You should continue. This is not a question anymore..


I like the story so far...


Please more...

[rhh21]

dude
U totally have to continue
This is awesome!
Rhiannon x

[tarawillow<3]

Sorry i haven't updated, my other computer is being weird with the internet and is the one with the update on it, sorry! i promise i'll get it up as soon as i can!

[willowtarabuffyfaith]

awww nooooo! I'm sorry to hear about ya internet BUT can't wait for another updare soon!!!!

[tarawillow<3]

« Willow. Hit that anymore and you’ll make a hole through it » Faith laughed as she watched her punch widly at a big black punching bad. Her knuckles red, probably going to bruise, but the adrenalin took away any pain. She took the liberty of also kick it a few times before returning to the punching inferno. Faith had told her to stop, but Willow’s determined mind and thoughts told her to continue. To punch more. To let out her feelings with this harmless violence. If it was up to her, she’d stay all night. But Faith would get anoyed and pull me away by force.
She punched it once more before Faith’s hands pulled her away.
« Take a brake Red. I made some Tea ? »
« No. I’m going to bed » she said bluntly, leaving to retire to bed.
Faith sighed and left the basement to go up tothe living room. She drank her tea, then the once she made for Willow and layed back on the couch.
She shut her eyes and sighed she thought, but soon after, asleep.

Tara stood in her green bride’s dress, in the dressing room with Anya. Anya practiced her vowls and She did the back of her dress.
« You’re not listening to. I’m the bride, your supposed to listen ! » The ex demon complained.
« S-sorry » She smiled faintly as she stood up.
« You were thinking of Willow ? » she turned to face Tara and continued « How do i look ? »
« Like a Bride » Tara smiled, then turned to the door to see Dawn peep in « Ready ? » she asked.
« Ready ! » Both Tara and Anya said, heading out of the room.

« Do you think Will will come ? » Buffy whispered to Xander.
« Dunno, does she know theres the wedding ? »
« Just keep a look out, see and and run to catch her, ok ? »
«He nodded and looked over to the door, where Anya cameinto the room. She wamled gracefully down the ile and stood beside Xander.
The ceremony passed by, without any trouble between The Harris’s and the Demons. Then came the time where the Official said :
« By the power vested in me by the State of California, I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride. » They kiss brefely before he continued « I present to you Mr and Mrs, Alexander and Anya Jenkins-Harris »

« Hey Red, i’m going to go say hi, wanna come with ? » Faith tugged her friend’s dress’s sleeve.
« N-no, you know i can’t if there is Tara ! »
« T isn’t with them. Come on » Faith dragged her to the group, then, Willow realised Faith had lied. Tara was there.
« Congrats Xand, to you and the Mrs. How are things ? »
« Good thank you Faith » Giles said as he watched every one hug Willow at the same time. Tara started to cry and left with Dawn.
Willow pulled back from the hug as she saw her run out.
« I got to go, i-i hurt her again ! » Willow frowned but her friends held her back from leaving. Buffy took her aside to talk to her.
« Don’t you dare leave Will. I’m you’re best friend, i’m here for you no matter what. But don’t ruin this chance to get back with Tara. She still loves you »
« Really ? » Willow beamed at Buffy
« Go find her ! » Buffy pushed her friend in the direction the leave the building.

Willow ran as fast as she coulld, checked the building and most of sunnydale. She stepped on the bridge in the park where Tara had once sang to her. she walked across it and sighed as she couldn’t see her. She looked towards the lake where Tara danced, then noticed Dawn by the tree. she ran across the grass and tripped on one of the tree’s roots, flying through the air and hitting the floor, flat on her stomac.
« Uh... hi ? » Willow blushed as she sat up correctly, though she was covered in mud and her white dress stained.
« Hey Will » Dawn offered her a hand up, willow gratefully accepted. She stood up and brushed her clothes to get some mess off « Before any of you say anything, i want to say something to Tara. Tara, i am so so so isorry ! i’ll do anything you want, >Anything< to prove it to you. And look ! I don’t use magic magick anymore ! No more spells, remember ? I’m so sorry i hurt you before and that i made you cry and hide today. I’, so incredibly, super, hyper, mega, utimatly sorry » She looked down in shame but beamed up at Tara when she said « I forgive you »
« You do !! ? » She exclaimed, Happy.Tara smiled approvingly and they both hugged.Dawn pouted « Don’t i get a hug ? » Willow run hugged her, knocking them both to the ground. Tara burst into laughter, the first time in too long. The two girls sat on the floor sat up, laughing.
She thought to herself. Heard « I love you » but wasn’t sure if it was actually said or not. She frowned.



« How « bout we hit the after wedding party huh ? » Dawn suggested, both women agreed and they all made there way back to Buffy’s. Dawn had noticed on their way the glances they sneeked at each other, and it made her smile
When they arrivec, the party had already started, coworkers of both Buffy and Xander came and one of Dawn’s friends also.
Xander and Willow sat in the back garden, drinking they soda’s under the night sky.
« So, how’ve you been Will ? » He asked her as he observed the star filled sky.
« Not bad, how’ve you been ? »
« Don’t know. For three months we searched for you. Oh ! And apparently i look like Giles when i read the news paper, but now i have the most amazing woman with me »
« Yeah, Anya’s not all that bad »
Xander looked back up to the stars and asked : « How did you get that scar across your face ? »
« I uhh.. did it »
« Why ? »
Behind them, Tara stood at the door and listened to them.
« To remind myself i’m bad. That i hurt Tara, and that i need to be punished. And still do. I hurt her with out realizing it, Xander. She warned me about my magick. I ignored. And she was right... I mean, what if i went psycho and destroyed Sunnydale or, killed someone ? I can’t even think about it. And it haunts me that i hurt her » Willow started to cry and Xander held her into a warm hug. « I just love her so much ! » she sobbed.
Tara wiped a tear from her face and headed back inside.

« Who wants to play twister ! »Dawn shouted.

[rhh21]

yay update whoop whoop!
I felt so bad 4 willow.
I cant wait 4 the next update.
Keep up the good work!
Rhiannon x

[taysla]

Aww, I love it....

I love Faith's idea..

Now more update..

PLEASE...

[tarawillow<3]

rhh21: Thanks! I know,I'm so horrible, i always make them suffer before they get together ! *hits self* But at the end a surprise :D

taysla: Thanks! Faith will play a big part in the next update, who is bellow :)

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« Heya T. Not gonna play Twister ? »
« I’m fine thanks Faith... I’d prefer just to be just left alone in here »
« Alone time, eh ? Sure, if there is anything i can do. And also, y’know that time at the bronze ? I’m sorry for being mean. Anyways, i’ll make sure no one bothers ‘ya T »
Tara smile softly at the once rogue slayer, now her ex’s cherished friend.
« Thank you Faith, and you can stay up here if they’re bugging you » Faith put her soda on the closest surface she could find and jumped on the bed.
« Spill out ‘ya blues T » the Brunette smiled. Tara smirked, then frowned sadly.
« You wanna hear a lonely girl’s problems ? »
« Well, i did have to put up with Red » Faith laughed, then returned to a serious face. « Come on T, it’ll help »
« Well... It’s hard you know, we fell in love, and slowly, she got addicted to magick and did one thing wrong. I scared her off, she ran away. I mean, i was so hurt. I love her more than anything and braking up was so, so hard. But she ran away. I felt like i was torn apart. An empty shell. Then out of the blue, she comes back » she laughed slightly « i ran off, startled. But when she found me, tripped over in the mud in her nice white dress. We had fun as we came back, like before. At the party, i over heard her conversation with Xander... She has a scar on her face, her beautiful face... because of me » Tears trailed down her cheek. Faith hugged her.
« It wasn’t your fault. Don’t blame yourself. Hell, blame magick » Faith smiled, doing her best to cheer her up.
« Which i could blame magick Faith. But i use magick, so do many others. Even slayers have magick »
« Point taken. » Faith wiped the still visible tears off Tara’s cheek, slowly, not hurting the sad girl. From the door, Willow watched, not visible to them.
« Thank you Faith »she smiled « Don’t mention this to Willow... I don,’t know how she’d react »
« She’d be fine with it T, she loves you »

Willow sat all grumpy on the couch in Buffy’s living room, ruining the mood of the party.
« Hey Will, what’s up ? your a real mood killer tonight ! » Buffy laughs as she sits beside her friend.
« Faith and Tara.They were in Tara’s room, they were talking. Tara said something about not telling me something. I think she and Faith are together or something »
« Willow ! you really think after all this she’d be with some one else but you ? »
Willow nodded
« Dummy ! she loves you more than anything. It’d be good if you guys actually sat together and talked. Or do i need to tie you both up ? »
« Well you could tie me to a train... »
« Will ! » Buffy hit her playfully « Oh, when we speak of the devil, here she is. » She gestured to Tara who entered the room « Go talk »
« But Buffy... » The red head complained. Buffy stood up and held Willow’s hands, pulling her up. « GO ! » she ordered her friend, pushing her towards the blonde.

« H-hey » the red haired girl blushed and looked down. Tara noted that her habit had been taken up by Willow, which meant she was feeling insecure, nervous and alone.
« Hi...do you want to talk ? »
« yes » she whispered, relieved that the Blonde had asked first.
« Outside ? » Tara offered as their way out. She sat on a bench and Willow sat on it, leaving a space between them.
« Willow, you can sit closer, I’m not going to bite you » she thought to herself.
She shuffled over beside the taller girl and looked down nervously.
« So.. »
« So... » Willow sighed in agreement to what Tara had said.
« How’ve you been ? » The blonde asked.
« Terrible, you ? »
« Same »
« Tara, I’m so sorry and ---»
« Willow, don’t apologize. It wasn’t your fault »
« It was more mine than yours ! » she argued.
« But lets stop apologizing, OK ? »
« OK » Willow smiled, and Tara returned one too.
« Willow... I’ve got something to important to say. And you may think i’m crazy, and rushing things, or stupid or all of the above... »
Willow frowned worried « What ? »
Tara looked at Willow in the eyes, with hope and worry.
« Willow Rosenberg... Will you marry me ? »

[rhh21]

dibs!
OMFG! dude married make her say yes she has to say yes!
Faith=awesome!
I totals luvd ths more? please!!
Rhiannon x

[arsyadriani]

I soo..didn't see it coming
more pleeaasee..I really want to know how Willow would react..

[tarawillow<3]

"Marry you ?" Willow repeated confused "I mean, now? i just got back and i need to get back into the system, get to know you again, and you know, make it up to you for being sucky and running away, which was sooo immature of me"
"I get it, s-sorry. It's just..." She looked down, avoiding Willow's stare.
"What? And don't do that, you're much prettier heads up you know"
"Sorry" She looked over to Willow smiling and looked at the house "It's just, i don't want to lose you again"
The red haired girl returned the smile and put her hand on Tara's.
"I don't want to either Tare, But There's so much to work through. Trust has to build again, on both sides..."
"I know"
"you have to learn if you're even the same people you were, if you can fit in each other's lives, it's a long and important process and can we just skip it?" Her eyes met Tara and then she continued "Can you just be kissing me now?"
"Godess Yes" Tara sighed happily and they kissed in mixture of emotions, but all positive.They interlock fingers, holding on to each other as tight as they can. Not letting go.
They keep kissing. It is intense, it is passionate, and it is, above all else, love.
Truly and forever.

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Likes? I think this is the last bit, then i'll post the epilogue >:D

[rhh21]

whoop whoop! She said yes (at least i think she did) lol.
Rhiannon x