Title: Connections
Author: The Lord J
Rating: Right now probably PG-13, but expect NC-17 to appear in this later on.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, we all know who owns the characters etc blah blah, Joss, blah blah ME etc.
Feedback: Yep, please. Constructive criticism is always welcome.
Description: Season 4 according to me (i.e. diverges from Canon almost straight away, never to return. This will be one loooong fic - I have lots of ideas, just gotta find time to pen them).
This starts sometime after Hush. And there's lots of time inaccuracies, like the Magic Box already being owned by Giles, Faith having already done the whole coma/wake up thing, the appearance of Dawn etc…it's all a bit topsy turvy, but just go with it and enjoy
Notes: Many thanks to Raspberryhat for beta-ing this on the Beta Pens board. I'm still looking for a private beta though (see 'One On One Authors/Betas' thread on Beta Pens).
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PART 1
Ugh. Morning.
Tara's right arm automatically reached over to hit the snooze button of her alarm clock; a subconscious and well-practiced manoeuvre that on one occasion had led to a late arrival at class.
As the blonde's senses slowly came back to reality, she became aware of some unseen force pushing her down into the bed, preventing her from moving. However, after her eyes finally broken free of sleep and responded to the 'open' command from her brain, she realised that the aforementioned force was in fact very visible and consisted of a sleeping redhead half-sprawled across the blonde's body. Tara's heartbeat doubled.
Oh goddess…she's asleep on top of me! Ohhh she's so gorgeous…I wonder if…stop it, Maclay! She's straight and it's just coincidence that she happened to end up over here. Dream on.
Tara started to move, but realised that there was also a tangle of legs further down the bed that would take some serious repositioning to escape. There was also the matter of Willow's left arm being wrapped around the blonde's mid section.
How the hell did we end up like this? Goddess I hope she doesn't wake up with us like this…I don't want to scare her off.
The two girls had started on opposite sides of the dorm room bed the previous night in a completely innocent sleepover. But during the night, somehow Willow had subconsciously crossed over to Tara's side of the bed and wrapped around her like she was afraid the blonde would escape - all in her sleep.
Do I dare to hope that this means something? That maybe she's attracted to me? No, surely not. No way. She ca--- oh goddess, my knee is touching her somewhere it shouldn't be! I've got to move. She'll freak out and leave if she wakes up…and goddess, I don't want her to leave. Ever.
Tara again started to move, but froze when the redhead emitted a low, husky groan. Tara felt her centre starting to heat up at the sound, and she couldn't help staring at the redhead's lips.
I wonder what it would be like to kiss her…that would be amazing. If only I could…
She sighed. It was out of the question and she knew it. One of those things she could dream of, but would never happen.
Oh, that groan…she must be dreaming. Yeah, dreaming of Oz or something. Great. The girl of my dreams laid on top of me dreaming of her ex-boyfriend. Talk about mixed fortunes.
Tara carefully extracted herself, prising Willow's arm from around her waist and gently laying it on the bed. Quietly, she swung herself off the bed and got up and got ready to go for a shower, leaving the redhead sound asleep. She paused at the door and turned to look at the girl curled up in her bed.
Oh goddess, look at her. She's beautiful. Perfect, even. And she's asleep in my bed. So close, yet so far. Damnit, why do I always get crushes on straight girls? Not that Willow is like any other straight girl I've ever had a crush on…Shower. Must have shower.
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Willow awoke with a strange feeling that something was missing. Added to that was the confusion of not knowing where she was. After a brief look at her surroundings and a 'wake up' command to her brain, she relaxed with a sigh. Tara's dorm room.
The two wiccans had fallen asleep after performing a spell the night before, and a few hours later they had awoken and after some contemplation decided that it would be easier for Willow to stay there than go back to her own dorm room. Hence they had ended up sharing a bed, as Tara had refused to let Willow sleep on the floor or in a chair or anywhere else for that matter.
The absence of the blonde wiccan caught Willow's attention, but the mattress underneath her left hand still felt warm, as if the blonde's body had been there until very recently. Upon taking stock of her position, the redhead discovered that she had scooted all the way over from the other side of the bed during the night, and had in all probability spent a good slice of that time snuggled up to the blonde.
She smiled as she thought about Tara. They had only known each other for a week or so now, but the hacker felt as if she had known the blonde for years. At the same time, there always seemed to be something new to learn about Tara, and Willow had made it her task to continue that education.
Her thoughts drifted back to the dream she had just awoken from; it had almost become indistinguishable as to where reality had ended and dream started. They had laid in bed talking for hours. Eventually they came to a halt in the conversation. An awkward silence ensued, and Tara had leaned over towards the redhead slightly, Willow had also leaned in until their faces were inches apart, their breaths mingling with each other's. Willow had stared into the deep blue eyes that held hers captive and just floated upon that sea, letting the waves within just crash over her and envelope her in blue. Her eyes then strayed further down, finally fixing on the full lips that were just slightly parted. The redhead had laid transfixed by them, fighting an overwhelming urge to touch them, to feel how soft and warm they were. She looked up to the blue above, and closed the gap between them a few more millimetres, tilting her head to one side slightly. Tara had started to close the gap a little more and just at the split second when their lips met, the redhead had been woken by a bird tweeting outside the window.
Willow laid there, trying to decipher the dream.
We were about to…what? Kiss? No. Of course not, we're just friends. And I'm not gay. I mean, hello, Oz! And neither is Tara. I think. But she was…and I was…it…oh who am I kidding, we were about to kiss. Just a friendly, best-friends kinda kiss of course. No smoochies. Definitely no smoochies. And it was just a dream. Right, dream yeah. Only I don't remember going to sleep…it was a dream, right? It must have been. Or maybe we did kiss and I passed out and then she freaked out and left and that's why she's not next to me now. Oh god what if that's what happened? What if I completely freaked her out? She's probably telling her friends how the freaky computer nerd tried to kiss her in the middle of the night right now.
No, she would never do that. She's too kind and gentle and sensitive and perfect in every way to do something that awful. Perfect in every way? Did I just think that? Well…I guess she is. I mean, there's nothing wrong with her. She's beautiful and intelligent and caring and sexy an-…sexy? Where did that come from? But it's true. Especially when she does that sort of lopsided grin and raises one eyebrow. Oh god that's sexy. There I go again with the 'Tara is sexy' thoughts. What the hell is all that about? It's not like I like Tara in that way. No, nuh-uh, not at all.
She shook her head as she thought. A frown crossed her face as she thought about it a little more.
Okay, so maybe I do. But only a little. Only a very small amount, tiny amount, totally NOT a lot.
She sat up in the bed and fiddled with the duvet. Then she realised something.
I'm lying to myself, it's a lot. I like her a lot. In a 'really like her a hell of a lot' kinda way.
Willow's head reeled from the implications. She realised that she and Tara had passed the "friends" phase in less than a week - some of the spells that they had done together had been somewhat intimate, but she'd never really entertained the possibility that maybe there was more to it than that. That maybe she was actually attracted to the blonde Wiccan. The idea that she could be attracted to a girl hadn't even formed in her head, let alone been dismissed as impossible. She headbutted the pillow a few times in frustration.
Why can't life be normal for once? As if demons and apocalypsi and exams weren't enough, now I have to deal with being attracted to a girl I do magic with? Willow, your life is more complicated than quantum mechanics. But not always as much fun.
The redhead looked at the clock and decided to get dressed - there was a scooby meeting in half an hour about some new big bad Giles thought was brewing, and as much as she needed to think, the world also needed some pre-being-saved research.
I wonder what it is this time…and more to the point if it's going to keep me away from Tara for long. Oh god, I'm obsessed.
The thought, however, was caught short when the door opened and Tara walked in.


I love it. I really love season 4 Willow and Tara. I can't wait to read more. 



soon? Update soon please.
I LOVE S4 fics! You sure are off to a great start with this one. I'm so happy to hear this is going to be a long, in-depth S4 retrospective... I hope you update fast and furiously!


Wah and hoo now tara gets to meet the gang and i hope willow and tara talk things over i especially like the introduction to the story where willow was all over tara
