Remember to Breathe...

[bluewillowwitch]

Yellow Crayon ,

I loved the update! They are so cute. YAY got her a presnet! Oh and told her mom and is still alive. Will mircals never end. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[Yellow Crayon]

Chapter 14



All disclaimers apply.

Remember to Breathe

By Yellow Crayon (Tori)





Tara’s trip home seemed longer than it was to get there in the first place. It was boring, dull, and all Tara wanted to do was fall into Willow’s arms. Her trip seemed both long and boring, she didn’t know how she would be able to do it for possible months on end. She had written Willow a note for everyday she was away.



Tara was in the car home with her parents. The blonde had been dazed until her father asked her, “So, Tara, what are you going to do today?”



“I’ll probably catch up with Willow…” Tara sighed, “Help her pack for school.”



“Sounds good. You’re going to miss her a lit aren’t you?” He asked, solemnly, as if completely understanding his daughter’s pain.



“Yes, very much.”



“I’ll pick up everything you left behind,

Cross your fingers, and pray for winter,

I’ll be there, painting the town your favorite color.”

(The Starting Line)



Tara got home, showered had a snack then went off into the town in search of Willow. She was walking, practically jogging, practically running, practically going sixty miles per hour in search of her love. She was almost there, Tara just began to feel the rain.



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Willow was sitting at the Espresso Pump, as she always does on those mellow days, and she watched as the puddles gathered water. She sipped her mocha, looking up and down the street outside the Pump.



“Hey.” She heard out of the corner of her eye.



She turned excitedly. “Ta…” She stopped, smiling fading eyes turning a shade of grey. “Oz.”



“Can I sit?” He asked, pointing to the chair across from Willow.



“Um… yeah.” Willow said, watching Oz as he sat, subconciously staring into his eyes.



“I heard that you were living well,

But you don’t look like you’re living to me,

Tough the sparkle is gone and your smile is in place so that everyone watching can see.”

(Dashboard)



“I’m sorry.” Oz said. “For everything. I know this means nothing coming from me. But, its worth a shot.” He sighed, blinked, then continued. “I’m not expecting you to come back to me, I don’t want you to. And I don’t even expect us to be friends. But, I just needed to apologize, maybe rid my conscience a little bit.”



“Oh.” She paused, she didn’t quite know what to say. “Apology excepted.” She stated simply, yet not whole-heartedly.



“Okay.” He said, patting his thighs. He stood, uncomfortably.



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Tara almost running down the street turned the corner to the Espresso Pump, knowing that that’s where her Willow would be.



She stopped, dead in her tracks. As she saw Oz sit down at the table where her beloved sat. That means nothing, she thought. He just sat down. Its not like anythings going on. What if there is? No, Willow wouldn’t do it. I don’t know enough to just jump to conclusions. Well, what else am I supposed to think?



“Just bend the pieces till they fit,

Like they were meant for it

But they werent mean for it.”

(Dashboard)



Tara turned. Rushed home fell onto her bed. And did nothing but weep for the rest of the day. Even though it felt like forever without Willow by her side.



Maybe she’d have to mail those letters…



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Feedback.



I’m sorry for the glumness, I’m in a glum mood. But, good for ya’ll, I cant stay in a glum mood for long. I’ll be peppy in no time.

[The Rose24]

Ugh! All Tara has to do is go sit with Oz and Willow to know nothing is going on between them. She jumps to the wrong conclusion.



I know Willow will make it up to her.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[Tempest Duer]

Ugh. Tara and her tiny ego. If she only knew...



But somehow, I have a feeling that Willow will make it up to her.

Saying that up is down will not make up, down.



~Gene Burns

[littlecrazy80]

Always the wrong conclusions. Tara should have talked to them. I hope some smoochies are coming in the near future.



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[Arwen276]

oh! this is just too sad!!

PLEASE GET OUT OF YOUR GLUM MOOD SOON!!

I hope they sort it out, even if Willow's done nothing wrong!





~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[sam darls]

Aww that was so sad..I loved it though. I hope you're feeling better soon Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[TaraBaby77]

YC (aka Tori), heehee -



Just wanted to say that I just got up to date with your fic. I LOVE IT!!! But..... that last update ended too sad. But, anyhoo, I have enjoyed your work and hope to see more soon. Take care and keep up the awesome work. =)

Aaron

'TaraBaby77'

[The girl who talks but do]

Heysies,

just wanted to say I'm loving this! but oh...poor Tara! and the lyrics thing is a fantastic idea, i may have to steal it! lol. Keep up the good work...and update soon please!

love'n'hugs

cath

[Yellow Crayon]

Good news- My glumness is almost gone.



Bad news- ummm... I actually cant think of any right now. So, yay!





I should have an update very soon.



*Thanks for the feedback, I love it like whoa.

[ApplesauceHorsies]

Just got caught up with this fic, and I love it!



That last update was sad. Happy update-age! Please?

I have a feeling Tara's present will be something along the lines of "Screw Connecticut"



-AH

[bluewillowwitch]

Yellow Crayon ,

I loved the update! Damn Oz. Be a man, keep your feelings to your self! should have gone in. Then she would have know that wasn't doing anything bad. You are a leaving off there. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[Yellow Crayon]

Chapter 15



Remember to Breathe



Yellow Crayon



Chapter 15



“Okay.” He said, patting his thighs. He stood, uncomfortably. “Nice talking to you.” He smiled, as he patted her hand.



“I have a girlfriend.” She said quickly, staring at her hand with Oz’s on her’s.



“I know.” He pulled his hand back and started to walk away.



“If everyone’s a little queer,

Can’t she be a little straight?

Im dumb, she’s a lesbian

I thought I had found the one.

We were as good as married in my mind

But married in my mind’s no good.”

(Weezer)



Willow stood after she watched Oz walk away. She looked in both directions searching for Tara; she should be here by now. Willow took out her cell phone, and called Tara, no answer. She decided she’d call again later. She sat back down, and called again…



~*~*~**~*~*



Tara heard her phone ring, for the 19th time that day. It was probably willow. She couldn’t bare the heartbreak of actually hearing her say the words.



Tara heard a knock on the door, “Come in.” She said.



“You, you have a visitor.” Her father said, and he stepped aside, revealing a dripping wet, soggy Willow, with red eyes mirroring Tara’s.



Tara’s father shut the door, and as soon as Willow heard the click she rushed over to Tara, “What’s wrong, darling?”



“Nothing.” Tara said. Standing up and moving to her window.



“No, Tara, tell me.” She said, her face scrunching, attempting to hold back tears. The redhead rested her hand on Tara’s cheek, with Tara’s head still facing outside.



“I saw you.” The blonde whispered.



“Saw me.” Willow said crying. Almost like the rain outside.



“With Oz.”



“No! No, Tara. It was nothing like that I promise you.” Willow tried to get out without a weep. “Look at me.” Tara turned. “Darling, he apologized. He touched my hand, and I cringed. The only person I ever want to touch me, anywhere. Is you. Tara, I am 100% head over heels in love with you. Can’t eat, cant sleep, cant help but dream of you even when I’m awake, in love. I love you. I love you. I love you. I’m in love with you.” Willow said crying. Turning, so Tara didn’t have to see her face.



“And after all we’ve been through,

I will make it up to you,

I promise you,

And after that’s been said and done,

You’re just a part of me I can’t let go.”

(As Yet)



“I’m.. I’m sorry.” Tara sighed, hopeful. “I saw you with him, I jumped to conclusions. I’m sorry.”



“No Tara, its okay. I’m sorry.” Willow said turning, rushing into embrace with Tara. Both crying. Sighs of relief upon them.



They stood there for a little while until pulling back. Willow ran her thumbs around Tara’s cheeks, rubbing away the mascara lines. “I love you.” She said, drawing Tara’s face in closer, kissing her deeply.



“I’m sorry.” Tara whispered. “I love you.”



The two held each other for a little while longer. Eyes closed, shivering. Grateful for the other, held each other like they never would let go. While they would hug, at random times the other one would arrange their hands differently, and squeeze the other tighter.



“Will.” Tara whispered. Tears subsided.



“Yeah.” She said, sniffling.



“You’re all wet.”



“It doesn’t matter.”



“You’ll catch cold.”



“I don’t wanna let you go.”



“I’ll be right here, Will. I promise.” She looked into Willow’s eyes. I will always be right here.”



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



Willow left Tara’s house reluctantly around eleven o’clock. She was leaving for college, soon, she didn’t want to.



She looked up at the falling rain. She missed Tara’s embrace already. Distance wasn’t gunna work.



“Keep in mind, we're under the same sky

And the nights as empty for me as for you

If you feel you can't wait till morning

Kiss the rain”

(Billie Myers)

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TBC



Feedback?



Update soon.

[The Rose24]

I am so happy Willow and Tara gets things straightened out, but now they are going to have to deal with the distance. If it isn't one thing, it is another

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[sam darls]

Aww that was so lovely Love sammi xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[littlecrazy80]

I´m glad that everything is ok now. Willow´s "speech" was really cute.



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[bluewillowwitch]

Yellow Crayon ,

I loved the update! OMG! I can't believe that thought that about . But at least they straightened it out. I don't know what they are going to do when they are at college across the country from each other. That isn't going to work. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[The girl who talks but do]

YEY!!!!! Willow-and-Tara-ness!!! Can't wait for more!

love'n'hugs

cath

[ladydameon]

Hey great idea for a story....I've read up to chapter five so far...but if you would allow, I would like to make a few constructive suggestions.....This is only meant to help you out with the creative processes....I'm not claiming to be all that but I like to share what I know.....First thing I noticed is that your transitions from one scene to another seem rather disjointed, they're not really messing, and as a result, the reader gets this jumpy feeling.....Another thing, you've got a lot of spelling errors. Its hard to find a good beta that doesn't want to write the story for you but they are helpful. And spelling / grammar mistakes greatly subtract from the story.....You have a wonderful idea here. I just want to see more people read it and enjoy it.

ladydameon

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Goddess of Violence

[her BRIGHTeyes]

Quote:

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“You’re all wet.”



“It doesn’t matter.”



“You’ll catch cold.”



“I don’t wanna let you go.”

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awwwe. more soonish?

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she had eyes bright enough to burn me --conor oberst

[Kytzya]

aww...wat a wonderful update...i hated oz for a minute there because of wat he made tara think...but then again everything went back to normal, well as normal as anything can be...oh, and update soon please...i really wanna see how tara and will work the whole distance relationship.



Vaya can dios.

[Tempest Duer]

Aww... very cute. Reconciliation and understanding are good, and cuddles and cuteness are also very nice.



Plus you updated this story... I just hope Willow actually does remember to breathe when it becomes necessary.

Saying that up is down will not make up, down.



~Gene Burns

[numbered words]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TORI!





Kristyn

[Yellow Crayon]

All disclaimers apply.



Thanks Kittens for the feedback, reading and constructive criticism.



Chapter 16



After Willow left Tara’s house, Tara found herself looking out her window, catching a raindrop in her eye, and following it until its end at the pavement. Her blue eyes simply staring at the closest object to her, because the only thing she wanted to follow, was the thing furthest away.



“Tara.” Her father called up the stairs. “I need to have a word. Come downstairs for a second please.”



Tara’s father had a tone in his voice Tara rarely heard, and when she did, made her heart hurt. She felt like there was something coming, to break her. The only other time Tara had heard this tone, was on the night of her uncle’s death. Tara walked steadily down the stairs, and came to a pause when she saw her father and mother sitting at the kitchen table, both had coffee mugs clenched between their palms.



“Lets have a chat.” Her father smiled weakly.



~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*



Willow approached her own house in a daze, as though she was walking into emptiness, even though her heart was at it’s fullest. A light spring in her step, and a faded smile upon her face, she held herself high. Yet, there was something in her eyes, as if looking into her eyes you see her brain thinking, quickly.



She stopped at her porch, turned, and sat. Facing the road, which was almost vacant and watching the puddles gather rain. She looked into her palm, her cell phone embedded between all five fingers. She pushed a simple button and brought the phone up to her face, “Buffy? Could you come over, just for a sec?”



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



“Okay, dad. Thank you. Both.” Tara said, smiling to her parents.



“Now go pack. You’re leaving soon.” Her mother nodded towards the stairs.



Tara nodded her head, “Yes ma’am.” Turned and walked up the stairs.



“My college girl…” Her mother whispered at the empty staircase.



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



“So what you’re telling me is… what?” Buffy asked, hesitantly.



“Buffy, look around me. I live in this house by myself over three- hundred days of the year, my parents forget my birthday and I don’t need a job until I’m at least thirty.”



“And that means…”



“Buffy, everything I am…” Willow stood, and snuffled back tears. Her face scrunching, “Everything I want to be, will soon be leaving, halfway across country! I wont even be able to see her smile, Buffy.” She closed her eyes and inhaled a deep breath. “I have nothing here when she leaves.”



“Everything you’ve said to me in the past ten minutes makes complete sense, Will. Its sweet, and Tara’s lucky. But, what are we proposing here?”



“This is my plan…” Willow started.



~*~*~*~**~*~**~*~*



Feedback?



I know there was a lot of jumping around there, and I apologize, but it was the only way I could tie in both stories without finishing each conversation. Mystery’s always good, right?



Update soon.

[Spikeizmine87]

cant believe i havent given you feeback! (have i?) cause im a feed back whore! I really love this story! Ive been following it along, read every chapter, its one of my fave fics, and thats a real special thing seein how i never remember the fics i love! ha, anyway, love the fic, great update, more soon!

-Rose

Im here. And Im queer. Need I say more?

Yes, I shop at "Dykes R Us"

[The Rose24]

I am guessing Willow is going to go with Tara? Am I wrong?

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[SilverWingedNemesis]

short and vague..



but keeps me wanting more!





Nickole

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[Mikaelah Braenna]

I recently found this fic and I absolutely love it...



There are so many possibilities here...



Please do not leave us wondering too long...



~Mikaelah

Willow: "Where would you go? If you felt lost and alone? ..."

Tara: "To You..."

~~Truly and Forever~~

[littlecrazy80]

I´m really curious about the conversation between Tara and her parents. And Willow will follow Tara to college?



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[bluewillowwitch]

Yellow Crayon ,

I loved the update! Okay, I wonder what it is that 's parents wanted to talk to her about? And has a plan that involves needing Buffy's help. This can't be a good thing. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos