Lost and Forgotten

[The Rose24]

Oz has completely lost it!!! Are you going to tell us what is wrong with him?

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Edited by: The Rose24  at: 8/25/04 9:24 pm

[photographer02]

Ok....does anyone wish to kill Oz now??? ARGHH!



Oh and anyway, great update so far! Love it!! Except the physcho Oz...@#%#$@$#!



Keep it up! Hope everything goes well!



photographer02

[wimpy0729]

Yay! I'm finally caught up with all the updates and get to reply.



Loving this soo much. It's very interesting and now the Willow and Nox (we know who) connection, but that stupid little creep needs some major attitude adjustment or worse. So, they both fell in the water? Was it off a cliff? Maybe they're still dangling there like us.



Okay, of course, they had to go for mochas .



Great job! Can't wait for more, so soon please.



Wimpy

"There was plenty of magic." ~ Tara

[CEsgirl13]

Anybody else have this little voice in your head telling you 'kill Oz kill him'? I'm not insane...This is an incredibly awesome story. Can't wait for the next update!

~Jamie

It hurts because you love me. -CE

[Irishgrl3]

Okay, the suspense is killing me... Nox is okay right? And Oz, did he fall in as well? Not that it would be a bad thing if he did! This is such a great story, hopefully you'll update soon.

[noellebrin]

I can't wait to hear more!!!! Please write more soon! I am so loving this story, The horse Willow dreamed of, was that a horse Nox had long ago?

Thank you for this story.

- Kristin -

[RaVeN]

Bless me, Father, for I have sinned,

It has been 6 days since my last update



Umm yeah still no update, I have been kind of preoccupied or something like that. A little distracted, yeah thats it..



Anyways an update may be up tonight, depends on how many request I get for it. Well you know I need a ego boost too sheshh

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WANTED: Looking for small poltergeist for personal use and a very talented muse. Please send resume to my inbox.



Update: Poltergeist found but its hard to find a good muse.

[tarawhipped]

Uh, okay, I'm not Catholic, but here goes: say three "Hail Tara's" and post Five updates and you'll be absolved of all, uh naughtiness or something.



That must be one awfully long fall to the water--6 days???



I'll let you get back to your...distractions...for the moment, but I hereby officially extend my plea for more.



-Cameron

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What should I be but just what I am? - Edna St.Vincent Millay

[The Rose24]

I vote for more as well.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[RaVeN]

I'm not Catholic either really... but lol



Three hail Tara's I can defiantly do... but 5 updates? I think I really should have done more stuff before I asked for penance..



Who knows, maybe those 5 will magically appear.



but I wouldn't hold my breath hee hee

Edited by: RaVeN at: 8/28/04 8:01 pm

[Arron CFF]

LMAO 3 Hail Tara's how exactly does that go? lol

"Hail Tara full of Grace blessed art thou.."

Um yeah I would like to include my vote in updates as well. I will e-mail as many mochas as needed. I need to know who this woman is cause I am not thinking she is Tara and I really wanna see Buffy go postal on that lil Cretan Oz.

Arron

She walks in beauty, Like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies; And all that's best of dark and bright; Meet in her aspect, and her eyes. ~ by Byron ~

[RaVeN]

alrighty should be up within the hour.. I am not happy with it.. but I think I'll live.

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I just kidnapped myself.



If I do not receive $1 million dollars within 24 hours you may never see me again. You have been warned.

[RaVeN]

blah update not happy with this one.. blah all disclaimers etc.

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She felt the stinging in her back as she hit the stones the bottom of the creek with Oz’s weight on top of her. She couldn't’t see through the murky water and instant panic made her wonder if he had dropped the knife or not. She had to think fast and she hopped if she let go of his jacket that he would think the knife went deeper then it felt like it had. Maybe it would be better for him to think he had killed her, so many thoughts went through her head as she felt him shove off of her and move away. Most likely to the bank if she could just hold her breath a little longer and use the current to help her get down stream she would have a chance to not have to fight him. Praying she could do as she planned with what little breath she had left she started down stream as far as she could.



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“So really Buffy that’s all there was to it, I went to get some thinking done and there she was.”



“Okay Will I really get it, I mean after the fourth time I got it but still, are you sure she isn’t evil?” I can handle that better then Oz has completely lost his yellow crayon from the pack.” Buffy says while still looking shocked.



“Hey no yellow crayon jokes! That was very traumatic thank you”



“Oh so sorry I forgot, fear of horses, frogs and yellow crayons but will take on vampires and zombies. Your resume is getting almost as crazy as mine Will” Buffy says while trying to joke with her to lighten the mood. “So what’s the plan with Oz?”



“I don’t know Buffy; I have asked him for space, I have tried to push space, well not in the literal sense of space pushing because well hello can’t really do that. Or at least I can’t but I hear some really good witches can manipulate stuff to...”



“Willow, I for one love Willow babble, but when you start going all magic Willow babble my brain kind of shuts down and becomes all mushy, like mashed potatoes begging for BBQ sauce”



“Sorry Buffy, I don’t know maybe try to avoid him for a bit and see if that helps? If it comes to it run? I have tried the nice approach, just seems to be hitting a brick wall” Willow sighs.



“Maybe you should try the slayer approach?”



“I really appreciate it Buffy but I don’t want him to think we have all turned on him. You know even I don’t know what all goes on in that brain of his. I just don’t want anyone to get hurt. So maybe we can keep this between us, at least for a little bit?”



“If you think that’s best, but I swear one more bruise and he is getting my boot all over him followed by a matching pair of my fist. I promise you Willow even you and your mojo won’t be able to stop me.”



“I know Buff, let’s just hope it doesn't come down to that.”



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Nox rested on the bank after pulling herself out of the water for what seemed a lifetime. After making sure that Oz was no where in site she had made sure that the gash on her stomach wasn’t going to leave her spilling out anything important. While she could use a few stitches in some spots she was surprised that the cut hadn’t gone deeper. “Pure luck I twisted when I did. Otherwise this would be a mess, and I can’t afford that at the moment.” She had decided to wait there till dark, that way she could move across the town easier without being detected. Leaning against a tree and closing her eyes she prepared for the images that haunted her sleeping moments.



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“Okay so what you are saying is that basically this soul sucking fiend is coming to town after that Nox person and there is nothing we can do. We can’t even throw it a welcome to town party?” Xander was desperately trying to understand why this was so different then any other time they had faced evil.



“Her name is Nox, not ‘that Nox person’ Xander.” Willow gave him a stern look.



“Very well then” Giles started seeing the look of protectiveness in Willows eyes “It seems really there isn’t anything we can do without putting Nox in danger. The Soul collector will only be looking for her. It will not be a danger to anyone else.”



“But, it will try to kill her?” Willow asked apprehensively.



“Well, yes I assume that the two that you seen her in the alley with was its trackers. Usually the Soul collector only arrives at the place the trackers tell it that the soul is staying. I am guessing that she was buying time for some reason and by killing them she knew that more would have to be sent out.”



“So how long will that be Giles?” Willow asked.



“I am not sure, it could be days or weeks, it all depends on how well she covered her tracks to here. But I am sure that she has dealt with this before Willow and am also sure that she has a plan” Giles said reassuringly.



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She awoke more refreshed then she had felt in years instead of the vicious and bloody dreams, another set of dreams had come to her. Dreams of a red head who spoke freely and whose smile was like a dawn sun on a cold winter’s day replaced the nightmarish dreams for the first time since her curse. As she started to rise she felt the throbbing from her stomach increase. She felt the dull burning of her cut and knew that infection was setting in. With all that had happened she hadn’t had the chance to properly take care of the wound. While she wasn’t going to die from it, she knew that the infection would get worse before it got better and she would be feeling it full force in the hours to come. It was dark, she wasn’t sure what time it was but she knew she had to find Willow. If Oz had come after her, he may also go after Willow. Making her way toward town Nox looked up at the clock tower in the middle of the town. Quarter to eleven, didn’t Willow say she was going to be at the magic Box till eleven?” she asked herself.



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“So since there is nothing we can do, I guess I will go out for patrol anyone wanna come with?” Buffy said hopefully.



“Well Buff, I think I just want to go home, kind of tired and need to think and all. Is that okay?” Willow asked her.



“Sure thing Will, and you Xander? You want to tag along and act as helpless bait?”



“Sorry Buffy unless everyone wants cranky Anya tomorrow I think I should head home as well”



“Why would Anya be cranky tomorrow if you didn’t go straight home?” Willow asked “OH! Never mind please don’t answer that, I really don’t want to know. Did I mention that I really just want to go home now?”



“Fine, I’ll be okay by myself I don’t need company. I won’t pout; see this is me not pouting. No pouting here at all” Buffy said while sticking her bottom lip out some.



“Well seems its Slayer against, well whatever is out there tonight. Sounds do able.”



“Well very well then, I will continue to research and see if I can find out anything more. Until then I think we should just continue as we are. Possibly meet here again tomorrow if needed?” Giles said while once again cleaning his glasses of spots that were never really there.



“Alrighty then I will walk you home Will and then head out to patrol.” Buffy says while going toward the door.



“Thanks Buff, I appreciate it.”



Making their way to the street Willow and Buffy watched Xander and Giles pull off.



“Well sure you aren’t up to a fun filled night of poking vampires? Oh that so did not come out the way it was supposed to”



“I am sure it didn’t so I will just ignore the comments that I could make and simply say no. I really think I need to go home Buffy.”



“It’s okay Will; I know you need some rest and stuff.”



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Nox watched them all walk out of the Magic Shop and then Willow and the slayer say goodbye to the two males. Why were they not driving Willow home she wondered. Granted she assumed that the slayer was more then capable of protecting her, but could she protect her from someone that she considered a friend. She wasn’t willing to take that chance. Stepping out of the shadows she thought she caught a movement in the alley across the street. But before her mind could process the shadow the site of Willow engulfed her whole mind. She could feel the warmth in her chest grow a little more, she didn’t understand its purpose or meaning, but she once again knew that as long as she breathed no one and nothing would ever hurt the red head again.



“W-Willow? Can I talk to you please?”



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At the same time a blonde stepped away from the steps of the bus with a new found hope in her eyes. This was where she had come to get away from all the pain, where she could start a life of her own. A place where all her dreams could come true.

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I just kidnapped myself.



If I do not receive $1 million dollars within 24 hours you may never see me again. You have been warned.

Edited by: RaVeN at: 8/29/04 12:16 am

[WillowFever]

don't be giving me no blah update.....that was awesome as usuall...ohhhh....and the blonde at the end...ohhhh.....are you trying to throw us all off....have us all thinking Nox is Tara...but really she's just Nox and Tara just got to town..lol....



I love Willow babble..the whole space thing was great....





This story is wonderful and you best keep writing...







Wooohooooo.....*waits as patiently as possible for next update*



laters,

Rachel

~ ~ Every so often, I like to stick my head out the window, look up, and smile for a satellite picture...~ ~

[photographer02]

Okkkk...



So Nox is not Tara? I'm getting a headache! Time for some panadol...



Good update! Please continue soon!



photographer02

[kindagay]

Okay, I'm confused



Nox isn't Tara? But, but, but.... Huh? Nox is just Nox? I don't understand, I need more please. Next update soon so that I can figure out what's going on.



Oh, & also, that was a great update, I loved it (even though it confused the hell out of me)



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[Arron CFF]

Woo Hoo awsome update and

I was right Nox isn't Tara

Still wish Buffy would have beaten the stuffing out of oz

but hey mabey she will once she finds out what he did to Nox.

And woo Hoo Tara has arrived

I am eagerly awaiting the next update.

Arron

She walks in beauty, Like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies; And all that's best of dark and bright; Meet in her aspect, and her eyes. ~ by Byron ~

[RaVeN]

HEE HEE so did that make anyone want to read the next chapter lol. Good news is I have half of it right here and the other half's currently marching into my brain like an invading army. Sometimes it amazes me how my brain works.



But I thought I would address some feedback now and then finish up the update while soaking..



with that note



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Sam Darls: Yup I left both updates right there on the edge. Kind of makes you want to reach through the monitor and whack me upside the head huh? Keep reading, I promise more WTF moments



Kindagay: I am actually starting to feel kinda sorry for Oz and how I am making him act in this FIC. Poor guy, he was never given a chance. Oh well, sorry time is over and he will be getting a reality check soon. By who is still a mystery to even me though. These fics should come with a road map, that way I would know exactly where I am heading. Nox isn't Tara? are you sure? Maybe the other girl is Tara is anyone sure? Hee Hee I have a secret and I am not telling Thanks for reading!



Irishgrl3 :Yeah 3 updates then a drought, but hopefully the last posted and the next 2 make up for that. I'm glad you are liking this thanks



alysagoddess85 : Are you less confuzled now? Do you want to help me find that road map to know where this is going? Keep reading I promise more confusion at every turn hee hee.



DarkChild : Thanks for thinking it is good. I still haven't reached that verdict yet. Maybe as time goes on I will. Once again who is Nox, thats the million $ question at the moment. Thanks for reading!



justin : Thanks for liking the last few updates, that gives me the power to keep typing. No certainly the attack on Nox wasn't in the plans but thing may change to where it turns out they aren't exactly not in the plans. Not sure, but I have a good idea things are going to get a little bloody.



bindingwiccan : Thanks for reading more soon I promise



The Rose24 : I promise to tell whats wrong with him.. just eventually hee hee.



photographer02 : But if we kill Oz the werewolf position will be empty and does anyone really want to go through those applications? Don't worry he is in for a awakening. Oh here is an ice pack for your headache



wimpy0729 : Yeah that was a long fall huh? Sorry for that, I am such a bad person. But they landed now and have moved on and we will see whats in store for Oz soon. Maybe I should take suggestions? That could be interesting lol. Thanks for reading and the kind words



CEsgirl13 : Thanks for reading hope the wondering isn't killing you anymore



noellebrin : Thank you so much for taking the time to read my little story. As for the horse I am thinking yes it was Nox horse in the past. It was also the first horse I ever fell i love with when I was little. YAYYY hmm maybe I should write him a whole story lol



tarawhipped : Does this take away some from my penance? Or is it still 5 updates? lol



Arron CFF : hmm emailed mocha that may be interesting and how about "hail Tara full of grace the kittens love is with you.." just a thought. Great am I going to go to hell now for blasphemy? Once again who is who and is the people we think we know who they are really who they are? Do you ever 'really' know who someone is?



Willowfever : No blah update sweetie? How about a EeeEKKkKK what kinda update was that? Yeah I had to add the space babble because well I actually had that conversation with a friend the other day about manipulating space and well anyways don't need to go there. As far as the best keep writing.. well I am open to any bribes you kittens can think of lol.. Thank you so much for your words and praise.



Okay I am off to soak and finish the next update



till then,

jackie

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I just kidnapped myself.



If I do not receive $1 million dollars within 24 hours you may never see me again. You have been warned.

Edited by: RaVeN at: 8/29/04 12:05 pm

[sam darls]

That was so great . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[WillowFever]

Well.....I know I can hardly wait for the next update...I'm totally intrigued as I have been from the beginning....



so I hope you had a great soak... ...ummmmm



....yeah.....I'm just gonna keep on writing... So...woohoo...new updatey goodness soon....can't wait



laters,

Rach

[amazonaa]

I am so confused.





great job. More real soon, please.





brittney







"Arn't you going to tell me to 'break a leg'?"

"Break 'em both." Amber Benson as Cheyenne in The Crush

[tarawhipped]

Hey RaVeN, I think I missed something--where was the Blah Update, coz I only read the really cool update in which Buffy offers to slay Oz, the researchiness gave us a few more clues, Nox didn't die but went off to find Willow, and a mysterious newcomer arrived to confuse all the Kittens. Maybe you accidently posted the wrong one.



Seriously, though, this is just getting more and more interesting. I have a suspicion, but I'm gonna hold off on it for now (that way, when you reveal everything later, I can claim to be right whether I was or not)



More soon, huh? Yippee!

-Cameron

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What should I be but just what I am? - Edna St.Vincent Millay

[alysagoddess85]

WAIT!! so....we have a 'mysterious blonde' stepping off a bus...but we have nox...and im thinking that said 'mysterious blonde' isnt like...buffys twin or something. hmmmm....yes the twists just keep on coming...



I LOVE IT!! haha



anyways...and that wasnt a blah update at all..just twisty...and twisty keeps me on my toes so keep up the great work!!



~mel

'The Cat in the Hat' is fine, just not during sex.--Alyson Hannigan

[WolfNightwind]

Oh Oh oh I got a theory! I think Nox is Tara but I think the girl from the bus is also Tara. I think the Tara from the bus is somehow the part of Nox's soul that she lost long ago and that some how they will be rejoined. Of course i could be way off but that's my theory! ~Bug.

[Irishgrl3]

What a great update. The blond getting off the bus is an interesting twist... I thought Nox was Tara as well. Can't wait to see where you are going with this. Wonderful job RaVeN!

[RaVeN]

alright update will be up in a bit.. after five rewrites I give up, but I think some people will be pleasantly surprised. Or maybe not.. anyways will be up later.

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I just kidnapped myself.



If I do not receive $1 million dollars within 24 hours you may never see me again. You have been warned.

Edited by: RaVeN at: 9/1/04 8:07 pm

[WillowFever]

Well....I for one simply can not wait for the update....my mind is picturing all kinds of scenarios to scratch out Oz... but I will be good....



And...just so you know I recall someone...cough* you *cough* saying they could deny me nothing...so.....I have one word for you......Finish....hehehehehe....you know you want to...



Okay sweetie....I will just wait here patiently....





Rach







~ If life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Then sell the lemonade and use the profits to buy an assault rifle. See if life makes the same mistake twice ~

[RaVeN]

Quote:

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just so you know I recall someone...cough* you *cough* saying they could deny me nothing...so.....I have one word for you......Finish....hehehehehe....you know you want to...

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WOW not only do you have a great memory you just took something I said and umm made it umm **looks dumbfounded** wow yeah really twisted that to your advantage lol. Ahh well we will see, it may just be fun denying you..

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I just kidnapped myself.



If I do not receive $1 million dollars within 24 hours you may never see me again. You have been warned.

[RaVeN]

Okay of course I don't like how this is, but I think how some things have changed it will be okay.



Same disclaimers as before, also want to mention the song borrowed for this fic is by S.J. Tucker aka Skinny White Chick. S.J. is an AMAZING performer and I just wanted to give her credit for her amazing talent.



Check her out at www.skinnywhitechick.com/index.php

you won't be sorry.



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“W-Willow? Can I talk to you please?”



Before anyone could think, Buffy spun around stake in hand and was aiming it for Nox’s heart.



“Buffy NO!” Willow screamed.



Nox once again felt herself twisting to avoid a weapon. The ripping feeling in her stomach was almost enough to take her to her knees. She watched as Buffy twisted with her and stopped the stake right over her heart. Breathing a sigh of relief she closed her eyes to gain control of the pain.



“Well yay for good slayer reflexes, you should really not sneak up on people like that”



“Buffy! Nox are you okay? Did she hurt you? There isn’t anything broken is there?”



Nox looked at Willow for what seemed like the first time. Taking in the small frame, the concern that seemed to be flowing from her in waves, engulfing everything she touched. Landing on green eyes she realized that they were windows into a gentle but very tired soul, “she doesn't look like she has had a good sleep in weeks” Nox thought.



“OH MY GOD BUFFY YOU CUT HER!” Willow screamed at her. “Why did you cut her?”



“Will take it easy it wasn’t me I swear. Tell her it wasn’t me and while you are at it tell me who did this to you?”



Nox looked back and forth from Willow to Buffy. How could she tell them that it had been Oz that had attacked her? Their trusted friend and Willows boyfriend, why would they believe her over him? Looking down she simply shook her head no to their questions.



“It was Oz” Willow said barely in a whisper.



“No Willow it couldn't’t have been Oz he wouldn't do something like this would he? Has he really lost it that much?” Buffy asked.



“Buffy, can you go back in the Magic Shop and get the dagger Nox left please? I want to ask her something, and she needs to have it. Also can you bring me some slippery elm and Echinacea, it’s on the back shelf on the far left side.” Willow said with a new found determination.



“Sure Will, you be okay out here by yourself?”



“I won’t be by myself Buff, Nox is here.”



“That’s kind of what I was meaning”



Nox looked up to see Buffy intently looking at her.



“I would n-n-never hurt Willow or a-any of y-you for that matter” Nox could feel the heat starting to take over her body. Her head felt cloudy, and she was becoming dizzy. She fought the darkness that was trying to stretch its existence over her mind.



“Sure thing I’ll be right back” Buffy said with a sigh.



“You have to tell me, was it Oz?”



Still Willow didn’t receive an answer.



“Nox please, I want to help you, I want to make this right, I want to…” What did she want? Willow paused for a moment and asked herself once again that question. Since she had first seen Nox in the alley she had felt some strange connection to her. But what was that connection? Why was she so willing to try to protect her from anything or anyone, even from the one she told herself she was so in love with?



“Nox, please just tell me if it was or not. I want, no I need to know. For all of us, was it Oz that did this? It was one thing for Oz to be aggressive toward me, but hurting someone just because they were near me is going too far and who would be next? Xander, Buffy, Giles even? I can’t stand by and let him hurt innocent people if he is the one that did this.” Willow pleaded.



“Willow you have to g-go somewhere safe. If he isn’t looking for you s-she will be.”



“So it was OZ…” Willow heard herself say.



“I am s-sorry Willow; I didn’t want you to know. I know how hard it can be w-when...” before she could finish Willow was cutting her off.



“I can’t believe I gave everything, thought that he was everything to me, to someone like that. Someone that could just...” Willow lets out a deep sigh.



Nox hated the look on Willows face, so hurt and lost, she hated the fact that she had helped to put it there even more. She looked to Willows hand and started to reach for it, maybe she couldn't say the words to make it all better. Maybe she couldn't take the pain away, but until her last breath she could be this womans friend. Yet her hand seemed to be suspended mid reach, why could she feel the fluttering of hope spread through her when Willow was in so much pain.



At the same time Willow watched as the emotions played across the face of her new friend. Was that what this person was? A new friend to her at the time in her life she needed one the most, or was she more? Why did she hate what Oz had done to this person and to her but also feel it was almost as though this is what she had wanted, this was her way out without questions. This was her chance to stand up and make a difference; this was her chance to be strong. Ohhh hand Nox hand coming toward mine, want to reach out, she looks so tired, Nox hand, comfortable hand, safe hand, warm hand that makes the tingly feeling come. Hand stopped, her hand stopped why doesn't’t she want my hand? Is Willow hand not good enough? I want to touch her hand, is that bad? Does that mean something? Reaching out slowly her hand felt the tingles before her skin even felt the first contact of warm skin.



“Willow I think I got what you wanted, but Anya really needs to label those jars better for the magically impaired. Oh umm sorry am I interrupting something?” Buffy asked while staring at the hands that were joined between the two.



Nox started to release Willows hand, but felt Willow squeeze her hand tighter. Her head was pounding like there was a marching band in it and she could feel the sweat starting to form on her body more. She had to make it just a little longer to make sure Willow was in a safe place, yet she could feel the darkness and it was winning. She fought to keep her eyes open but it was becoming harder, so she partially rested against Willow and the wall.



“Buffy we have to go somewhere safe, until she gets better. I know she can’t umm die from this but she is in pain. I don’t know where though. What about my parents place? Do you think it would be safer then the dorm?”



“Are you sure about this Will? You know what this means right? Some people aren’t going to be happy, some people aren’t going to accept, some people, well Will they won’t be part of your lives anymore. Are you okay with that?” Buffy asked.



“More then okay, now where’s the safest place for Nox and me at the moment? “



“I think we should stick with the dorm, one way in one way out and closer to everyone. I don’t think you should be in that big house alone. Tomorrow we will come up with a better plan. Until then I’ll help you get her there.”



Buffy helped Willow get Nox back to the dorm room and then set off for patrol before promising to stop by after she made a few sweeps. Nox, as weak as she had become had insisted on laying in the floor even though Willow had tried to reason with her that she needed the rest. After taking Nox’s damp shirt off Willow cleaned the gash and mixed the herbs and had her drink some tea before making her lay down to rest. Willow double checked the door and turned the CD player on low. Climbing in bed and laying on her stomach she listened to the lyrics of the song as it played,





You are there, the center of

the dreams that I must not discuss,

the vivid ones I just can't talk about.

You are there, and I can do naught

but watch you, never speak to you;

Afraid to; afraid that I might interfere.

But damn, you walk so sad and near,

at the sight of you, my eyes ache.

Damn, you walk so sad and scared,

at the sight of you, my heart breaks.

If I were your life, I would be haunting people, too.

Spectre of a spectre, dead man's dead son,

I dreamt of you.

I still can't see how sad you looked

without the catch in my chest—

skulking down the sidewalk,

soggy in your daddy's peacoat.

Just a dream it was; all inside my head it was;

still, thanks to your suffering, shattering gaze,

I had a night without rest.

So sad you were that I feared to follow,

wouldn't dare to, no clue that you

might have been there to meet me,

might have come with something for me,

I was far too fearful to believe.

Thanks to the pain in your sweet face,

I had a night without rest.

The next morning, there it is: the catch in my chest.

Crystal-singer, fingerdancer, your sort of damage I cannot undo.

I lie shaken in the morning light after the dream of you.

I dreamt of you.

We won't talk about the river while we're walking in the rain.

I would hold your hand, entreat your naked smile.

I'd like another chance to talk; my shyness gone, I'd try again.

I would brave your eyes, brave your advice, if given at all.

At the table at the bar, it is Midnight,

Other strong young women freely trading stories of their dreams.

You rule the dream I'm holding back, the jewelbox I've shut up tight.

Boy, did I miss my chance? Should I give it up and scream?

Crystal-singer, fingerdancer, nothing here for me to do

but live with it; try again; I dreamt of you.



Willow drifted off as the last notes of the song played “you have such beautiful blue eyes” she mumbled then sighing as sleep over took her, she didn’t even realize that she had put her hand on Nox arm mid song.

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Chantry: Now that, you know, the moon's dripping blood and all thats left is freaks and cockroches and all your old friends are zombie like. What's next?



Raven: You know the usual.



Chantry: Your going to Disneyworld with the freaks and cockroaches?



Raven: I was thinking more of survivng thanks, and NO 'Ratworld' that place scares me enough with just the talking rat.

Edited by: RaVeN at: 9/2/04 11:34 am

[WillowFever]

Yay...



I am sooooo lovin' this story...I've been hooked from the beginning and it just keeps getting better with every line...can't wait for more....



I love seeing Willow get all protective over Nox...hmmm...Buffy better stop the EVIL ONES...ohh....maybe Willow will do it....ooooohhh! can't wait to find out....





Now....as far as the denying goes....it's simply not possible...you will see...



Now...must study for my quiz......hehehehe...



Hugs,

Rach

~ ~ Every so often, I like to stick my head out the window, look up, and smile for a satellite picture...~ ~