Early Days

[pipsberg]

Helen,



I just found this fiction and caught up. Great job! I love it. Can't wait for more...

-pipsberg



"We live our lives, do whatever we do, and then we sleep - it's as simple and ordinary as that."

Michael Cunningham, The Hours

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!! Sorry for not updating for so long, been a bit busy and things just seem to get in the way lately. I had a cold, then Granny (my Step-Mum's Mum) went back into hospital after having another stroke- she's fine now, apart from randomly using the word "tomorrow" in place of other words, gets kinda confusing. And now I'm going to be moving house in a couple of weeks so been both busy and stressed with that. I will start writing this story again soon, I'm not sure how soon it will be but I do miss writing it.



So hopefully, inspiration willing, I'll update soon.



Love Helen xxxx

"Embrace me, surround me, as the rush comes" -As the rush comes.

[Shy One]

Hi Helen!

Glad to hear everything is ok now. Hope the move isn't too stressful and that everything gets back to normal for you real soon. I totally love this story and would be absolutely heartbroken if you didn't finish it.

BTW - You and Michelle are just too cute for words!



Hope to hear more from you soon!



Shy One

[VixenyTarasHot]

Hey, I just found this fic and read through the whole thing within like two sittings, I just couldn't stop! So anyways, just letting you know how great it is, and that I hope to be reading an update soon!

"...A-and I'm gonna make it up to you. Starting right now."

(Starts to smile)"Right now?"

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens.



Believe it or not I have an update written, first though a few thank you’s to those of you who have left such kinda feedback and been so patient- thanks everyone, you are the best!!



Taras Shadow- thanks for the feedback. I’m glad you like all the in-betweeny stuff. Some of it can be kinda hard to do, well when it’s not W/T centred anyway.

The Rose24- thanks for the feedback. Who are you will indeed be coming up soon, but just a lil something first *grin*

Pikescoob- dude!! Thanks as ever for the feedback.

Kop4parker- thanks for the feedback and for the patient waiting. There will indeed be naked Tara soon, in fact I think I see it featuring very soon- keep reading *grin*

SJ- thanks for all of your feedback.

BARE1975- thanks for the feedback. I’m sorry it’s taken so long to update. I just hope this makes you “Wow” as much as the against the wall stuff, oh and I also hope that your co-workers can’t read minds when you read the next update, not that I’m saying anything *evil grin*

Warriorlove- thanks for the feedback, glad you liked it so far. Hope you enjoy the next instalment.

Gimpgirl- hey baby *snuggles you silly* Mmmm you’re so gorgeous and yummy and oops, I mean thanks for he feedback baby. Methinks I should go call you coz I’m in a really soppy mood today, coz you know the Earth is rotating and the day is ending in “Y” Heh heh. *sigh* I love you

Sam darls- thanks for the feedback. Don’t worry, not so poor Willow in the next update. Lucky, lucky Willow.

Kerrison20- thank you for the feedback. I’m glad you’ve been enjoying it. Hope you keep reading, always good to meet fellow mushballs

LizPuRR- thanks for all your feedback, hope you enjoy the next part.

Nazelhuts- thanks for your feedback. I’m glad you liked my lil fic when you stumbled across it.

ApplesauceHorsies- thanks for the great feedback. I can’t believe you read it so quick but thank you. Hmmm, alarm clocks should die but cell phones (or any phone for that matter) should too meet a horrible and very destructive end. Damn things, just damn interruptions really- alarm clocks, phones, sisters- grrrrr.

Girlfriends actually- thank you for the feedback.

Shy One- thank you for the feedback and for your concern, so sweet!! All is ok now, tons of stuff all just happened at the same time as these things do. Oh and thanks for what you said about me and Michelle, we both awww-ed a lot over that. Michelle is in fact too cute for words.

Pipsberg- thank you for your feedback.

VixenyTarasHot- thanks for the feedback. Oh and I love your username just coz yes she is.



Ok better go post the update. Thanks again everyone.



Love Helen xxxx

"Embrace me, surround me, as the rush comes" -As the rush comes.

Edited by: Lost in blue at: 6/7/04 1:27 pm

[Lost in blue]

Ok so for anyone who actually still has any interest I’ve finally written an update. I know it’s been forever but so much has been happening, plus I was kinda depressed from missing Michelle waaay too much. Anyhoo she’s gonna be visiting in a few weeks so I’m all cheered up now. I’m so excited!!!! Anyway for those of you who still want to read this, thank you for your patience, I won’t keep you waiting any longer- here it is:



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Tara walked back into her room wearing her towel, unaware of a certain redhead’s eyes watching her every move. Willow watched Tara’s movements hungrily, her eyes intense and full of desire. Tara sashayed gracefully over to her laundry basket in the corner of the room and casually threw her clothes in. Turning round she started slightly at the redhead sat on her bed staring at her.

“Willow?!” Her surprise quickly turned into a beaming smile as she recognised the look in the eyes of the beautiful green eyed girl. “What are you doing?” She asked as she elegantly sauntered over to stand before Willow. Willow looked at Tara with glazed eyes.

“Waiting.”

“Waiting? What for?” Tara asked knowing the answer, she smirked a little.

“You.” Willow stated simply as she lay back, pulling Tara down with her. Tara landed with a gasp of surprise on top of Willow, her arms bracing her on reflex so as not to crush the girl beneath her. Tara chuckled softly as she suddenly became aware that her towel had somehow disappeared in her fall.



The girl certainly has talent. Tara grinned down at Willow. She couldn’t help but be pulled in by the warmth of Willow’s body beneath her. She bent her head down as Willow raised her own towards her. Their lips collided in a hectic haze of passion and desire. Willow arched her back, pushing her aching body into Tara’s. Suddenly the blonde found herself very aware of her own nakedness, or more to the point, Willow’s lack of nakedness. She pulled back from the torrent of kisses, Willow moaned in protest and attempted to pull Tara back into her. Tara resisted Willow who was displaying an unusual amount of strength.

“Ummm, Will. Don’t you think something’s a little unfair here? I seem to be naked….” Tara lingered on the word momentarily as Willow’s eyes grazed her body, an appreciative grin flashed across the redheads face. “Whereas you seem to still have clothes.” But rather than the response Tara had been hoping for in which the redhead would obligingly lose her clothes, Willow had other ideas. Tara found herself flipped onto her back, Willow above her, a playful glint in her eyes and a slightly pleased with herself smirk on her face.

“Hey!” Tara mock protested, she could inject no enthusiasm into her protest however as she caught the look in Willow’s eyes that took her breath away. Willow chuckled softly at the sound of Tara’s breath hitching. She ducked her head down and kissed Tara softly. Pulling back she looked down at Tara with adoring eyes. She lifted her hand to softly stroke Tara’s soft hair from her eyes. Willow leaned down and kissed her again, this time with even more desire. Tara lost herself in the feel of Willow’s lips dancing against her own. Tara moaned hungrily as Willow sucked gently on her full bottom lip. Her own need had built so rapidly to the point of desperation that Tara was almost taken by surprise, her own desire for the redhead never ceased to amaze her. She had never known it was possible to want someone so much, and for that desire to be there constantly astounded her as much as the desire itself. Tara bucked her hips impatiently against Willow as the redhead faintly ran her fingertips down her sides.

“I had to wait the whole time you were in the shower, do you know what that was doing to me? The thought of you naked, the water cascading down your body.” Willow’s voice was thick and husky, nearly growling as she spoke hungrily, her voice full of her desire. “Do you have any idea how much I want you right now?” She murmured in Tara’s ear. Tara moaned at the sound of Willow’s voice, at the desire in her voice and in her words. “But right now it’s not about me, this is all about you, it’s all for you.” As she murmured the words her hands trailed down Tara’s body, Tara gasped in anticipation. Slowly, tenderly Willow entered Tara, the warmth enveloping her. In this moment all there was was the two of them, nothing else existed or mattered, this was their everything, their eternity. Tara moaned softly, arching against Willow, wanting more, wanting all of her. She found herself being consumed by the redhead, her mind was swimming, all she could see was Willow, all she would ever see is Willow. Willow stayed where she was above Tara, looking down, her gaze intently gazing at Tara’s face. Her face so beautiful in the pale light of the room, relaxed from desire her mouth partially open, her eyes deep pools of lust, reflecting all the want and need coursing throughout her. Willow continued to push her fingers into Tara, Tara’s moans spurring her on. Willow’s own need was increasing by the second, she felt sure she would explode soon if she didn’t find some release. She deftly stroked her thumb over Tara’s clit. Tara moaned loudly, bucking her hips against Willow as her orgasm over took her. Willow gasped as she too found herself falling over the edge suddenly as Tara’s leg thrust against her. Willow’s blood coursed around her body, her head spinning, every nerve singing as it came to life. As her world centred itself again she looked down at Tara who was now looking up at her smiling, her face aglow.

“Hey.” Tara beamed, her voice soft.

“Hey.” Willow returned the smile. She reached down and kissed Tara gently. Pulling back she found herself lost in the features of the girl below her. Tara saw the look in Willow’s eyes, it was something new, something she had only started to see more recently. She still wasn’t sure what the look meant but she knew she liked it. Neither girl knew how long they lay there like that, just looking at each other. Neither one cared, when they lay there like that there was no time. There was no classes or Scooby meetings to get to, just the two of them like this, in each other’s arms, safe from the outside world. Finally Willow became aware of her arms which by now were aching from holding herself up so long. She rolled carefully off of Tara and onto her side. Willow pulled Tara towards her and continued to gaze at her, her hands gently caressing Tara of their own accord. The girls continued to simply gaze at one another contently. Finally Tara broke the silence.

“So when do I get my turn?” She smiled mischievously.

“Ummm, that was meant to be your turn, did you not….?” Willow trailed off suddenly mortified that she had left Tara wanting.

“What? No, I mean yes I did, that wasn’t what I meant.” Seeing Willow visibly calm she continued, “ I-I meant you know…. when do I get naked Willow?”

Willow looked won at her own still fully-clothed body and chuckled.

“Sorry, forgot- I was kinda distracted by…. things.” She grinned cheekily.

“Things?” Tara quirked her eyebrow playfully.

“Yeah these things….” Willow stated brushing her hand over Tara’s still over-sensitive breasts. “And this….” Willow’s hand stroked down Tara’s stomach.

“Uhhh, Will. You’re insatiable.”

“Can you blame me? Sexy body like yours.” Willow beamed. Tara blushed and looked down, her hair blocking her face. Willow reached out and lifted Tara’s face towards her, her face full of adoration. “No hiding that beautiful face from me.” Tara nodded, an apologetic look on her face.

“Sorry, I’ just not used to it you know?”

“Well you should be.” Willow stated firmly. Tara smiled a full watt smile, her dimples making her look cuter than ever as far as Willow was concerned.

“So ummm, did you have to be anywhere tonight?”

“Nope.” Willow grinned.

“So ummm, I get you all to myself tonight?”

“Definitely, why do you have something in mind Miss Maclay?”

“Maybe, but I think it might require naked Willow.” She grinned sexily.

“And you call me the insatiable one.”

“Well can you blame me? Sexy body like yours.” Tara smiled playfully at Willow.

“Cheeky.”

“Uh huh, must have caught it from you Miss Rosenberg.”

“Are you calling me cheeky?”

“Uh huh.” Tara smiled adoringly.

“Oh.” Willow chuckled.

“So cheeky girl, fancy staying over tonight?”

“Always.” Willow’s voice suddenly lost it’s playfulness, her voice was strong and her eyes reflected that the words were a promise of something more that she could not yet put into words. With that the girls once again found themselves lost in one another.



….to be continued.



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Ok so I hope that was ok, it’s been awhile. Thank you to everyone who has been so kind and patient and I’m sorry it took so long to update. Hopefully the next one should be in a few days, whenever I next have time to write. I hope everybody enjoyed it. Oh and yay England 6, Iceland 1, go England!! Let’s just hope they do well this summer.



Love Helen xxxx

"Embrace me, surround me, as the rush comes" -As the rush comes.

[Gimpgirl]

Hey baby....*snuggles into you*



All I can say to that update is ..... . Boy am I glad that I came down to read it. And I did mention the missing you thing too didn't I? It's only 24 days, not that I'm counting or anything. Am I there yet?



Anyway-Brilliant update baby. I so can't wait for more, and this also means that I should write on my story too. Hmm, where did that get off to...? But must go now so I can talk to you in a bit.



I love you baby,



Michelle

"just when you think you got me figured out the seasons already changing...."-Meredith Brooks

[The Rose24]

As always, I love the interaction between Willow and Tara. Good to see you writing again.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[sam darls]

That was so beautiful, I loved it . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Lost in blue]

Gimpgirl- thank you for the feedback baby. You know I’m counting down too, I so can’t wait to see you again, so gonna snuggle you like crazy.

The Rose24- thanks as ever for your feedback. It’s good to be writing again.

sam darls- thank you for the feedback, I’m glad you liked it



Thank you for the feedback and for still reading after all this time. I will try to keep writing when I can, I've missed it so much (missed my feedback fix too!!)



Love Helen xxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!! I've written a very short update, hope you all enjoy it:



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Willow gazed down at Tara, she looked so peaceful asleep. Willow’s hand caressed over soft skin as her mind drifted contently. Her mind wandered back to a few nights before. She had been worried about Faith, wondering where she was, what she would do next. Tara as ever had made her feel safe that night. She had told her she was hers.



Mine. The word rang through Willow’s mind and she smiled affectionately down at Tara’s sleeping form. She knew how much unsaid feeling was behind those words, she had seen it in Tara’s eyes, seen it written on her face. Willow was also very aware of how difficult it had been for Tara to say, to put her heart out there like that. She had so wanted then to tell her how she felt but the words would not come, words would not suffice. She had made love to Tara that night, slow, sweet, tender. Her feelings expressed through her actions, if not her words. She knew that night had been a turning point for them both, that something was happening between them that was beyond mere desire.



She looked down at Tara’s serene face, so beautiful in the room’s soft light. She felt her heart swell, she half wanted to wake Tara, tell her everything in her heart at this moment. At the same time she did not want to break the peace of this moment. Everything was so calm and peaceful, only the soft sounds of Tara sleeping. Pausing for a moment Willow leaned in and kissed Tara softly. Tara murmured something inaudible and smiled in her sleep. Willow smiled back; Tara was just too adorable for words. Snuggling back into Tara Willow sighed contentedly, basking in the perfect moment, she never wanted this feeling to end.



Mine, all mine. A sleepy, contented smile adorned her lips as slowly sleep reclaimed her.



....to be continued.



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Ok I know it was really short but Tru Calling was on tonight (and was a really great episode) so I have a good excuse- Eliza is distracting (not as distracting as you honey honest) Anyway I'll write more soon as possible I promise.



Love Helen xxxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

Edited by: Lost in blue at: 6/8/04 1:56 pm

[Shy One]

Yay!! You're back!!!!!

I just got back from outta town and looky what I found........an update!!!!!!

Woo Hoo!!! And what a GREAT update it was too!

I SO cannot wait for more!!!!

And you two ARE the cutest!

Helen + Michelle =



Shy One

[Gimpgirl]

Hey baby....



That was a very good update, short or not. Being short doesn't mean anything and we both know that for sure. I did love how you got into Willow's head and just put her feelings out there. Funny thing, Willow and I had the same thoughts...strange that.



Anyway-more please. But I do understand because Eliza can be very distracting.



And thank you Shy One, but she is the cute one not me. But you are definitely a sweetie for saying that. You rock dude!!!! Ok so 80's but what can I say, twas my decade. Going now.



I love you honey.....



Michelle

"just when you think you got me figured out the seasons already changing...."-Meredith Brooks

[The Rose24]

You say a lot even in a small update like this one. Willow's thoughts are beautiful.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[SJ]

It was a good ep of Tru Calling and yeah Eliza can be distracting.

Lovely update,great fic

[BARE1975]

I'm really glad you've returned with energy... two nice updates, I specially liked the "short one". It's not how long it takes to say something, but what you feel, and what you say, don't you think?



hope to read more soon

[sam darls]

That was so incredibly beautiful . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!! Ok new update will be up in a few minutes, but first the thank you’s:



Shy One- thank you for the feedback. It’s sooo good to be back. I’ve missed the feedback fix so much. I’m really glad you enjoyed the last update, hope you like the next one too. And again thanks for saying that about me and my girly. Most people think it’s cute for about 5minutes and then they go into the “Will someone pass a bucket?” mode- you she hear her poor sister every time we start the I love you more’s, heh heh heh- sooo much fun *evil grin*

Gimpgirl- hey my gorgeous sexy girl *snuggles you silly* Thank you for the feedback baby. Shortness is a good thing I agree. And you are the cute one babe, not me. Heh heh, the 80’s was indeed your decade, you old woman you…. wait I’m the one dating you. Hmmm. Anyhoo, I love you baby.

The Rose24- awww, thanks for the feedback. I’m glad you liked Willow’s thoughts in the update. I just wanted to try and put into words how she felt when Tara said she was hers, I kinda just kept getting the picture in my head of that lovely smile Aly did- so cute. Plus I wanted to try to show that she is starting to feel things for Tara, but at the same time give reasons why she won’t express those feelings, at least not in words.

SJ- thanks for the feedback. Yeah Eliza is distracting, there wasn’t much running this week though but I’m not complaining too much coz the episode was great, although a little distressing at the beginning coz I love Davis, even though I knew he’d be ok I was still all eeep!! I think Tru and Davis have such a lovely friendship growing. Her brother was being a moron this week though, for a start: how can he still be questioning her gift? How many times did she have to prove it? Although in his defence it would be kinda hard to believe. But anyway he annoyed me at the end, he normally just makes me laugh but he was all with the cocky and selfish of how this could benefit him. Ok my rant is over, please nobody kill me for my opinions on that.

BARE1975- thanks for the feedback. Yep lots of energy, especially today but then I’ve been drinking lots of Diet Coke so I’m on a caffeine high- whoo!! Anyway I’m glad you enjoyed the updates, especially the sort one coz I wasn’t sure how I’d done on that one. You’re so right though, definitely not how long you take to say something but what you feel and say that matters. In fact sometimes you can say more when you say nothing than you do if you give an hour long speech on something (ok so not even I can babble for that long but you know what I mean) But take the words “I love you” for instance, when spoken with true feeling and all your heart they mean more than anything else in the world and it’s only three words. I’m realising I’m definitely in babble mode today.

sam darls- thank you for your very heart-warming, feedback. I’m all fuzzy with happiness from my feedback fix now.



Love Helen xxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!! I’m back again. This update is a little longer than the last (although that wouldn’t be exactly difficult) I hope you all like it:



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Willow felt a wave of relief flood her as she left Giles’ apartment. It seemed that they were rid of Faith for good this time. She couldn’t wait to tell Tara the good news. Luckily the Scooby meeting had been short, she couldn’t wait to see the blonde again. It seemed she could go less and less time without seeing her these days. They had agreed this morning that they would meet at the Espresso Pump later that day. Willow glanced down at her watch, she knew Tara’s lesson would be over by now but that she probably wouldn’t be at the Espresso Pump for awhile yet. Willow quickly summed up the pros and cons and quickened her pace just in case.



Willow arrived at the Espresso Pump flushed and slightly out of breath. As she entered she spotted a familiar beautiful blonde sat alone at a far table. She watched Tara for a moment. She was sat slightly hunched over, looking down so that her hair blocked most of her face. Willow smiled fondly as Tara nervously tucked a stray strand of hair behind her ear and glanced awkwardly around her. Blue eyes met green and Willow noticed Tara visibly relax and her face lit up in a warm smile.

“Hey.” Willow exclaimed brightly.

“Hey.” Tara’s response was soft and warm, her face still smiling, eyes reflecting her adoration of the babbling redhead. Willow sat down opposite Tara.

“What?” Willow asked noticing how Tara was observing her oddly.

“You’re, you’re glowing. Your aura I mean. I’m guessing the Scooby meeting went well?”

“Wow. You’re amazing.” Willow’s voice was filled with awe.

“N-not really.”

“No you are.” The girls paused gazing at one another for a moment.

“So ummm, it was good?”

“Oh yes!” Willow went into full over-excited Willow-babble mode. “It was great. Buffy came and she told us how she had kicked Faith’s butt. The police took her away but then Giles told us that the Watcher’s Council sent in a retrieval team to deal with her, this special operations unit. So now she’s going to be taken to England.”

“W-what will happen to her?”

“I’m not sure, but the Watcher’s Council will deal with her.”

“Oh.” Tara’s voice was quiet, she looked slightly perplexed at the thought of what the Watcher’s Council may do.

“It’s ok.” Willow started, sensing Tara’s concern. “She deserves what she gets. I mean she hurt a lot of people.” Willow’s voice faltered slightly. Tara looked up quickly and felt a pang deep in her heart at the look on Willow’s face. Tentatively Tara reached over and took Willow’s hand in her own.

“I-it’s ok Will, I didn’t mean…. I mean, I know what she did. I-I’m just not sure violence is the answer. B-but you’re right, s-she deserves what she gets.” Tara tried her best to but some conviction in her voice. She did not believe in violence but she knew Willow needed her support on this.

“Yeah, maybe.” Willow sounded less sure now. She paused for a moment, her brow furrowed in thought. “But you’re right,” she continued after a few moments consideration, “you can’t fight violence with violence.”

“Isn’t that meant to be ‘you can’t fight fire with fire’?” Tara asked smiling at Willow’s change of heart, this was the compassionate Willow she knew and loved.

“Yeah well, it still goes. I just hope that whatever happens, she doesn’t hurt anyone else you know?”

“I’m sure everything will be ok.” Tara spoke reassuringly, her hands calmingly caressing Willow’s. Willow looked from their linked hands and back up to Tara, she smiled softly, the earlier happy feeling once again encompassing her.



The two girls sat idly chatting over a few mochas just revelling in one another’s company. Eventually they decided it was time to go or Willow would be up babbling at hyper speed for the rest of the night. They decided to make their way to the Bronze where Willow was hoping she might be able to tempt Tara onto the dance floor. She just hoped she wouldn’t show herself up in front of Tara by dancing like a total spaz. Willow inwardly cringed at the mental image of herself dancing, arms and legs flailing as Tara looked at her mortified.



Maybe the dancing can wait. Willow glanced at Tara. Her eyes travelled over Tara’s form, the way her clothes were showing off her gorgeous curves. Definitely not waiting, I need to dance with her tonight, hold her close as our bodies sway. Whoa Willow look where you’re going.



“Hey watch where you’re going!!” A gruff voice hollered. Willow quickly stepped aside as a big, over-muscled student pushed his way past.

“Sorry….rude.” Willow mumbled. She turned to Tara who she had knocked into in her attempt to avoid the inconsiderate guy. Willow gasped at how close Tara was to her. Sensing eyes on her Tara glanced up. Willow felt herself get lost in Tara’s eyes as both their faces lit up in mutual smiles. They stood there for a moment, so close there was barely a ray of light between them, their breath mingling to become one. The girls snapped out of their reverie as more students came past. Smiling Willow took Tara’s hand and led her towards the Bronze.



…..to be continued.



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Well that’s it, hope it was ok, I know it wasn’t exactly captivating. I’m starting to get all nervous and excited coz we all know that a certain scene is approaching closer and closer, yay!! They just have to do the whole Bronze thing and bumping into Faith-in-Buffy first. Anyway I will hopefully update again soon. Thank you to everyone who has been reading so far, especially all those of you who give such lovely feedback.



Love Helen xxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

[sam darls]

That was, again, so beautiful. . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Gimpgirl]

Hey honey....



Well done as always. I just love how you get inside their heads and show us what they didn't on tv. And of course I just love your style of writing. Yes I'm biased, but so what. Anyway-I know this is a short feedback, but so am I am my phone will be ringing in a few minutes. Wanna make sure that I have antenna in order to hear that gorgeous voice of yours...and you are the cute one baby, not me.



I love you......



Michelle

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"just when you think you got me figured out the seasons already changing...."-Meredith Brooks

[CEsgirl13]

this is a really great story. Keep up the awesome work!

~Jamie

When you choose to hold the rose you are also agreeing to bleed.

[The Rose24]

The way Faith treats Tara at The Bronze is the main reason why I find it hard to like Faith after all of this time, but I look forward to seeing how you will deal with it.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[SJ]

Great update

[Shy One]

Another masterpiece!!

I can't wait for the next update!

Oh, and Michelle, the 80's was my decade too.





Shy One

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!!



Okay I have an update written. But first the thank you’s:



sam darls- thanks as ever for you’re feedback. I’m glad you enjoyed it.

Gimpgirl- thank you for your feedback baby. You are indeed biased but you’re opinion is still invaluable to me, as long as you like what I write then nothing else matters. I love you baby.

CEsgirl13- thank you for the feedback. I’m glad you have enjoyed my work so far.

The Rose24- thanks again for your feedback. I know what you mean about Faith. I always loved her but after she was mean to my lil Tara, well let’s just say I’m uber-protective of Tara. Anyhoo I still love Faith coz you just always knew that she was in pain beneath all her bitchiness, plus you know- Eliza’s hot, I just can’t help it. And I have to admit I associate the meanness with Buffy coz Faith was in her body at the time which I know is dumb but I don’t like Buffy and I’m really not attracted to Sarah much, where as I love Eliza and always had huge sympathy for Faith- just makes everything easier to blame Buffy. Still my affection for Faith was never the same after that scene, nobody’s mean to Tara and gets away with it- grrrr, feel my wrath (I mentioned the uber-protective thing right?)

SJ- thank you as ever for your feedback, it’s good to know people are still reading.

Shy One- thank you so much for your feedback, you’re so sweet. I’m really glad you like it. So you’re an 80’s child too huh? So you’re an oldie like my honey? Not that I can say anything coz I’m technically an 80’s child too, being born in ’83 n’all, I just remember the early 90’s more. Anyway I’m babbling.



Thanks everyone for your feedback and to those of you who are still reading. The update will be up shortly.



Lots of love (especially to Michelle- I miss you honey),



Helen xxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

Edited by: Lost in blue at: 7/11/04 10:00 am

[Lost in blue]

Hey Kittens!! Again I have to apologise for my absence, once again life has just managed to get in the way. Granny having another stroke (she’s okay now), my sister getting a tumour cut out of her leg, Michelle coming over, my Mum getting married, my step-sister coming to stay in my room for the summer- lots going on. But today I managed to sit down and write for most of the afternoon and had a bit of an over-load coz I have in fact written about 4 maybe even 5 updates, I haven’t actually counted. So for the next few days I will update regularly again, just to tease you all before I go absent again. I promise I will really try not to let that happen. I love writing and it’s a good distraction from everything so I will try to be good and keep the updates coming for those of you who like this lil fic of mine. I hope you all forgive me, again, for my absence and that you’ll still enjoy the story. Anyway enough pre-amble, on with the update, hope you all enjoy it:



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Willow was babbling excitedly as they entered the darkly lit club. “I can’t believe you’ve never been here. The Bronze is the coolest place in Sunnydale. Of course, there's not a lot of competition. I think the vending machine at Bergen's came in second.”

“You used to come here a lot?” Tara asked, eager to hear everything about Willow’s life. She loved hearing all of Willow’s stories, learning about what made this amazing person she was coming to know and love so well. She loved how excited and animated Willow would get telling the tales of High school and slaying.

“I lived here, me, Xander….” Willow paused looking over at a raucous crowd making a lot of noise by the bar. Her eyes nearly popped out of her head.



Buffy? But what is she doing here? She was meant to be patrolling. And why is she with those rowdy Neanderthals? Willow crinkled her brow in confusion.



“Buffy?” Willow questioned aloud. “I didn’t think she’d be here.” Willow paused for a moment unsure what to do. This didn’t look like the best time to introduce Tara to Buffy, beer chugging with brainless jocks was not exactly the image she’d given Tara of her best friend. She realised however that if she didn’t introduce Tara now that the shy wiccan may think that it was because she didn’t want her to meet her friends, that she was embarrassed or ashamed of her. Whilst Willow was not ready to come out to her friends just yet she most definitely was not ashamed of Tara and she wanted her friends to know the amazing blonde. Steeling herself she took Tara’s hand.

“Come on, I want you to meet her.” As she pulled Tara across the room she missed the slightly surprised look on Tara’s face, followed by a shy but full smile.



The two girls approached as Buffy pushed one of the boys away. Willow subconsciously dropped Tara’s hand. Tara folded her arms over herself and ducked her head down behind a curtain of hair, her nerves clearly visible. She could feel butterflies in her stomach; she knew this was a big meeting. Buffy was Willow’s best friend, she meant the world to her.



I hope she doesn’t hate me, I know what she means to Willow. Just don’t say anything stupid. Be cool, don’t be nervous. Ok you need to breathe.



“Hey Buffy.” Willow kept her voice light, trying to hide her own nerves. She knew this was a big meeting. Her best friend meeting her….



Ok now is not the time to start questioning what Tara is. Stop panicking and, ok need to breathe.



“Willow and uh-”

“Oh Buffy, this is Tara.” Willow gestured towards Tara.

“Hi.” Tara muttered shyly.

“So… we’ve never met?” Buffy asked. Tara simply shook her head, admonishing herself for her sudden lack of vocabulary.

“Cool. Just have a thing with names.”

“Tara was in my Wicca group.” Willow explained.

“Uh huh.” Buffy mumbled uninterested as she walked off to an available seating area. Willow frowned at Buffy’s disinterest; it was so unlike the Slayer who usually wanted to know everything. Inwardly shrugging she followed and sat down. She made conversation, asking about patrolling but the conversation was proving unusually forced and difficult. Willow thought that maybe the awkwardness was down to the fact that Buffy and Tara didn’t really know each other. She decided to give them a few minutes to talk and get to know each other better.

“Anyone want a soda?” She offered, standing.

“Water?” Tara asked glancing up at Willow, her face conveying her nerves at the thought of Willow leaving her alone with her best friend even for a few moments. Willow nodded and glanced over at Buffy who simply shook her head.



Willow walked over to the bar, she desperately wanted to look round and check that everything was going okay but she knew she should give them a few minutes. Whilst waiting for their drinks Willow busied herself with looking around the club. Suddenly she spotted a girl who was with what was clearly a vampire. Willow anxiously waited for the drinks and then quickly made her way back to Buffy and Tara.



As Buffy went to deal with the vamp Willow turned to face Tara expectantly.

“Well?” She asked hopefully. But then her face fell as she saw the look on Tara’s face. She hadn’t seen her look so withdrawn since the time she’d first seen her in the Wicca group.

“Tara? Are you okay?”

“Y-yes, I-I’m fine. W-well, I-I…. I just don’t feel to well. D-do you mind if I go?”

“Of course I don’t mind, but I’m not letting you go alone, it’s not safe. I’ll walk you home okay?”

“Oh no, I-I don’t want to r-ruin your night.”

“Don’t be silly. This night was meant to be spent with you so the only thing that can ruin it would be to not be with you. So I’m going to walk you home and take care of you okay?”

“O-okay.” Tara reluctantly conceded.

“Ooh, I can make soup!!” Willow exclaimed excitedly, “and I can dab your forehead with a damp cloth, and-and I can keep you warm…. Oh I don’t mean, coz you probably wouldn’t want to what with the not feeling well and everything and I didn’t mean….”

“Will.”

“I was doing it again wasn’t I?”

“Yeah kinda.” Tara giggled lightly.

“Oh there’s Buffy, I better go tell her we’re leaving.”



Willow quickly hurried over to Buffy and made sure everything was poofed before telling her that they were going. Willow then rejoined Tara as Buffy said something about going over to Riley’s.



“Ready to go?” Willow asked smiling at Tara.

“Ummm, yes.”

“Ok. Let’s get you to bed, oh ummm- you know what I mean.”

“Y-yes, no need to go into that babble again.” Tara smiled affectionately.

“Hey!! I thought you liked my babble.” Willow pouted.

“I do, I love when you babble. I just don’t want you to wear yourself out.”

“I’m going to need all my strength so that I can take really good care of you tonight.”

“Exactly.”

“Come on then Miss Maclay, lets get you home.”





…..to be continued.



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Okay that’s it for today, I hope you all enjoyed it. Really must go eat something, I haven’t eaten yet today and my honey will tell me off if I don’t. I’ll post another update either tomorrow or at latest on Tuesday.



Love Helen xxxx

"You see eveything you see every part, you see all my light and you love my dark." -Alanis Morrisette

Edited by: Lost in blue at: 7/14/04 12:53 pm

[Gimpgirl]

Hey honey....*snuggles you silly*



I'm glad that you went to eat something cause I would have definitely told you off. I just want to make sure that my baby stays healthy.



Anyway-the update was very awesome baby. It just makes me see the scenes in my head and makes me wish that we could have seen what else happened....ok imagination going wild.....moving on. I can't wait for the rest of the updates which reminds me that I have to write one.



Ok babbling kind of and don't want to babble too much. Can't wait to read more baby.



I love you......



Michelle

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"just when you think you got me figured out the seasons already changing...."-Meredith Brooks

[sam darls]

Aww that was so cute . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[SJ]

Great update