Title: Intensity of Need
Author: Lady Marmalade
Spoilers: season 4 but none really
Ratings: NC: 17
Disclaimer: Not mine I would have loved them more.
Intensity of Need part 1
I watch you sleep; exhaustion has taken you from me. I go to the mirror in the corner of our room and inspect the mark you have left, where you have ravaged my neck from the depth of your passion and need. I give myself a little smile, looks like I will be wearing high collars again.
Closing my eyes, bringing back memories of the night…oh who am I kidding, it’s a Saturday so morning, afternoon, evening; you never stopped but it’s become more than that, our life, our love has become so complex. I’m sure our friends would freak if they had any idea.
How did the complexities, the layers start, maybe from the very beginning. Our pretence at friendship, when we both knew what we wanted. We danced around our feelings for weeks, hiding behinds reasons why this could never be and all the time the fire burnt.
I took the lead; I started by dropping hints knowing you were over Oz, but you didn’t really bite. I made the first move; had to. The funny thing is I was so scared when you finally came to my room that night, standing there so shyly babbling about irony, but then I knew with absolute clarity you would never reject me and all my fear was gone, strange huh? I mean I’m supposed to be the shy one, but I couldn’t allow you to slip away. Needed you too much, still do, desire you…That familiar feeling starts to buzz under my skin, bringing me to life.
You’ve admitted to me that you would never have taken things further. I often wonder why? I never have any fear you might not love me or want me; quite the opposite, so why? You even told me that if I hadn’t made the first move you would eventually have had to stop seeing me that you couldn’t carry on with just being friends. You’d rather have walked; too worried about the rejection that has haunted your life. It gets me you know because you are the brave one, the beautiful one. The woman who I love with my entire being.
I go back to the bed and stroke the red hair off your brow. The covers have been thrown off you, I gentle stroke my hands over your body, basking in the feeling of the smooth silk. You start to stir and a groan escapes your lips and my pulse rises with the sound.
TBC