I know I'm posting a day later than I said I would! Sorry.
spells42- It's really interesting to learn what you guys are predicting as I'm writing. I'm glad I was able to write something scary!
wimpy- Tara's gonna have some trouble explaining what Willow feels like, but she'll have a good description, I'm sure.
Zampsa1975- More for you right now!
ellisande- Yay, I made people worry! I actually worried myself.
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Title: First Touch
Author: theblew
Email:
the_blew@yahoo.com
Ratings: Will fluctuate. There will be violence of the killing vampires/demons nature, adult language, and perhaps some steaminess if you're good. So be prepared for a default of the fic being rated R. I'll warn you when it's NC-17.
Pairing: W/T
Distribution: It's all yours. Just tell me where it's goin'.
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon.
Spoilers: Up through season 4.
Summary: The aftermath and what would happen if the episode 'Halloween' ended a little differently.
Angst: Yes. You know you love it.
Note: Thoughts in italics.
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First Touch
Chapter Seven: Trickling
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She was on the verge of collapsing. Tara had been running so long that all her limbs felt like rubber, but although her muscles were numb, she still stood strong with fear. It was the only emotion she could allow herself when running away from that thing.
Well, it
was the only emotion until shock, utter terror, and complete dread barged into her emotions after coming face-to-face with her latest enemy.
Tara was running so fast she didn't have time to slow down when the thing materialized before her eyes. At first, when it started to take shape, she didn't think anything strange about the way the air swirled before her. The blurriness of her tears helped mask what looked like centralized mist collecting into the shape of a, somewhat transparent, human form. Then, fwap! It all converged with a slap, and there, before her, was a fully formed and dazed redhead.
She couldn't avoid the being. At first she thought it would open its arms and grab her, but when it did nothing but stand in a confused stupor, she imagined it would hurt very much when she inescapably barreled into it. She braced herself for the impact and then...nothing.
It felt a little like when one walks up a stairway in total darkness, and because that person doesn't know when the stairway ends, when they reach the top, they take a jarring step onto thin air.
It felt like that but most importantly, to Tara, it felt familiar.
And good. And safe. And... she didn't know what, but she had definitely felt it before.
Her steps slowed, and she turned around to look at the thing that was bent over at the waist and seemed out of breath even though it wasn't breathing hard at all.
It righted itself and turned to Tara.
"W-w-wh-..." She couldn't get a hold on her own breathing and was still taking steps from side to side. When her inflated lung prodded her diaphram a sharp bite of pinched agony let out, so with each short gasp for air, Tara let out a cry of pain.
Even though she was too tired to blink, more tears streamed down her face and she fought for breath. Tara started to feel dizzy and looked down to her feet. Why had she stopped? She still had the chance to get away, especially since she still had a head-start.
"I won't hurt you," a quiet and somewhat shy voice spoke fifteen paces away.
Tara looked up.
"I won't," the redhead looked into Tara's eyes. "You're safe with me, I promise."
Tara stared. She felt like vomiting.
"Which, I know doesn't mean much, because I promised you we'd be alright, but then I couldn't... and then they... and I swear I tried!" The redhead was on the verge of tears, herself, "I looked for help, but I couldn't leave you. And no one-"
Tara tried her voice, "Wh-h-what..." she took a frayed breath, "...a-a-are you?"
The girl's mouth was still hanging open from rambling, and she looked at Tara, "I'm Willow."
Off of another of Tara's cautious stares, Willow elaborated, "Is my name- Willow. Me. I'm a, uh," she looked down at her leather skirt, "I'm a ghost?"
Stare.
"A good ghost! I'm not a polterguest or anything, I'm good. I help- people," she paused. "I can help you."
No matter what Tara's mind was screaming, she started to relax with the girl's words. More seconds passed as Tara silently noted how the 'ghost' wasn't taking any dangerous steps closer to her. She also noticed how young the girl seemed.
"H-how d-did...m-m-my name?"
The redhead perked up, with a smile, "Oh! I know you!" off of Tara's crooked brow Willow continued, "Not like, I'm all knowing or anything, I mean, I've seen you around. On campus?" Willow struggled, to not seem like a creep. "I saw you at Wicca group, last Tuesday?"
Oh great, that's the day she sees me!? Tara was internally chastising herself for being embarrassed by a monster.
No, not a monster. She's... She looked at Willow's worried eyes and cautious smile.
She's good. But I don't remember...
"I d-d-d-didn't s-see you there?" Both hands had now gone to her abdomen to settle her nauseous feelings.
Willow looked anxious, "I know, you couldn't... but I was there, and those girls are so," she sturggled for a good description while her lips persed and she tightened her fists, "you know?" she gave up. "Yeah you know. Anyway, you didn't see me, but you- you heard me?"
Heard her? Tara's eyes narrowed in thought.
Heard her. Heard... OH! She remembered how the girl sighed just moments ago and was able to make a strong connection to the invisible sigh she heard a few days before. She also remembered how she had a good feeling that perpetuated her impulse to stand up for herself against the 'Wicca' group.
"T-that was y-you?"
"Yeah, uh," Willow looked guilty and small. "Sorry 'bout that." She kicked a little at the ground, and Tara noticed how the pebbles didn't budge, nor did her foot make any sound against the asphalt.
Another small pause. Tara felt sweat dripping down her temple and to her cheek amongst her drying tears.
"Look, I know you're scared right now and you don't trust me, but, we really need to get you somewhere safe," the redhead looked closely at the girl's bloody chest. Tara looked down and suddenly realized how much of a mess she was at the moment. "A-and it's you good you don't trust me, I mean, not that there's something to not trust, it's just, it's good you're being cautious, this being Sunnydale and all."
Tara had intimately started to realize what being in Sunnydale was all about that night.
"It's-it's just that, my apartment is only a few block's away and I assume you live on campus..."
Ghosts pay rent?
Tara looked around at her surroundings. Tall dark buildings with rickety fire escapes clinging to old brick surrounded her. She was in the poorer part of town. It wasn't very far from the wealthier part, but she was lost all the same.
The adrenalyne in her body was at its maximum and she started to shake.
Hurriedly, Willow kept speaking, "You're hurt, and it's late. I really don't want you to get into anymore-"
"Well, what do we have here?" The voice was low and menacing. It came from the shadows behind Tara with a growl.
Willow looked at the three forms that were quickly approaching, "-danger."
Tara realized what the real threat at the moment was. She turned to the voices and took wobbly steps backward towards Willow. Willow, wanting to protect as best she could, stood herself in front of the blonde.
They were vampires. With the degree of Tara's injuries, Willow didn't want to have to push the girl any furthur. Just as she opened her mouth to start speaking to the vamped out monsters in front of her, one of the demons spoke loudly, "Shit, it's the bait!"
The other two vampires looked confused at first, but then caught on when they noticed the small girl's ensemble.
"Slayer's gotta be close, let's get outta here!"
They took off before Willow could even close her mouth. She looked behind her to Tara, who was standing only a few feet away.
The blonde was too tense to think about the bait comment, and she looked to green eyes, "H-h-how far i-is y-y-y-ou-your-"
Willow just nodded her head backwards, and spoke softly, "Just a few blocks, it'll only take a few minutes."
Tara just nodded, and walked, following Willow farther into the night.
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When they arrived at the door of the apartment, Willow almost flipped.
Key! She wasn't used to carrying a key around, let alone anything else. She was on the verge of a nervous breakdown until she remembered where Faith kept a spare hidden.
After Tara opened the door with the key she found, Willow escorted her towards the bathroom to get cleaned up.
Tara collapsed on the closed toilet seat and just rested for a few minutes. What she really wanted was sleep, Willow figured by the look of the girl's drooping eyes.
"There's a medical kit under the sink. There should be plenty of stuff you can use," Willow pointed.
Tara nodded slowly and tried to swallow. Her throat was hurting badly from running so long. Also, the cut at the base of her neck didn't encourage her to turn her head much.
She stood up, shakily, and Willow stepped aside and into the open doorway.
Tara put her weight on the counter, bent over, and reached for a large gym bag. She grabbed it and shifted her body back to sit down.
The blonde unzipped the bag on her lap, and stared at its contents. It was filled with more than your average amount of medical supplies, but she was more happy than curious of that fact.
Willow watched her silently, from the doorway. Tara was just sitting there blankly and staring at her roughened hands. The palms were scraped pink.
She doesn't know where to start.
Willow cleared her throat a little to not startle the girl any further, and when the blonde looked up, she spoke quietly, "May I, uh, look at, um," she pointed to her own neck as an example.
Tara just nodded with tired eyes.
Willow went to her, and crouched. She didn't know what to do with her hands, so she just clasped them in front of her then leaned forward to inspect the cut.
It's not too bad. It's actually, kinda small. The bleeding's slowed... Only a small drip of fresh blood was running down her chest. "You should be okay. It's looks a lot worse than it is."
Willow moved back a little when Tara moved her own face down to greet her. Willow continued, "I don't think you need stitches, 'cause it kinda closes up by itself, and we have some stitchy glue we can use. But, I mean," she flustered, "if you want to go to the hospital, we can call for an ambulance." Willow stood up to leave and get the phone- not that she'd never be able to lift it, but stopped, "Oh, damn." She looked back at the girl, "But we'll have to wait a little bit. Faith- she's my roommate, she has our only phone. It's a cell phone. We thought it would be better than paying for a land-line, and we don't even pay for it. The Watchers' Coun-"
"Willow."
The redhead stopped and looked to the girl.
"T-t-this is m-more than enough," Tara lifted the bag a little.
Willow just gave a small smile and knelt in front of Tara again.
The apartment was silent except for a small water drip coming from the far away kitchen and Tara's heavier breathing.
Willow noticed Tara was still sitting without moving, "How 'bout we, assess your injuries? Can you tell me where you hurt?"
Tara looked up into green eyes, and a small crease developed between her eyes, "I," she paused, "i-it's hard to t-tell."
The redhead just nodded and sat up on her knees to get a little higher, "Okay, how about you, um, take off your sweatshirt and stuff?" her eyes got a little bigger, "you-you, can leave your tank-top on, of course."
Tara just nodded. She moved to take off her dark blue sweatshirt, and slid it off. The sound of fabric on fabric continued down her arms, and it flapped onto the tile floor with a jingle of the zipper. When she moved to take off her light blue button-down there was a rip like velcro. She hissed and looked toward her left elbow. Willow looked closer. There was a small rip in the sleeve where dark reddish-brown was pooling around it.
It must have clotted onto her skin.
"It's okay, just a little cut." She looked at the fresh wound. Bright red started to roll down Tara's forearm to her wrist. "We can clean it up easy," Willow reassured. She peeked into the bag, "There should be some antiseptic ointment in there somewhere, I know we just bought a new tube."
Tara nodded, and piled her shirt onto the other fallen garment. She then bent her arm to get a look at the cut, "Bottle."
"What?"
"I got c-cut by a glass b-bottle." She moved her arm like a bent chicken wing.
"Oh," Willow reassessed the tally of owies, "Um, hold that little towel to it and can you turn? I'd like to see if your back is hurt."
Tara nodded, and reached her hand over to the side of the counter for balance. Willow kept her eyes trained on Tara's lower back, "Could you move your shirt up a little?"
"Yeah," Tara curled her fingers under the bottom of the dark blue tank-top and rolled it upwards. Willow smiled at the unmarked skin, until she looked up at the back of Tara's head.
"Oh, gosh!"
"W-w-w-what?"
Deep red was showing beneath blonde hair, "You hit your head? Did you lose consciousness? Black-out? Does it hurt? Do you have a concussion? Are you dizzy? Sit down!"
"I-i'm already sitting?" Tara wasn't sure how to answer the questions that streamed out of the redhead's mouth so quickly.
The redhead moved her hand on the side of Tara's head, touching the blonde above her ear,
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't help you. I'm sorry I couldn't find help. I'm sorry I can't even help you now! "God, where the hell is Faith!?" She was frowning at the medical supplies that lay on the floor beside a pair of empty red boots.
"I'm okay. It's n-not that bad, I swear." Tara was calm at the redhead's distress.
"You sure?" she took her hand away and it seemed like Tara deflated a little until that hand came back to rest at Tara's knee.
Tara looked down at the small hand. Willow noticed the blue eyes, "Oh, sorry," she took her hand away completely.
"N-no, i-i-"
A door slammed and heavy footsteps sounded, "Willow, you home?" There was a splash of keys on a hard table.
The redhead looked toward the doorway, "Yeah, in the bathroom!!"
"Well, get out, 'cause I'm gonna need the mother of all showers." Once she entered the small space, she paused and looked toward the two women. "Okay, I guess I can wait?"
Willow ignored the fact that her friend was covered head to toe in green gloop, "Faith, can you help her? Her head, and her throat..." Willow was gesturing frantically at the seated girl, "...and, oh! Her elbow, and her palms. But I haven't even finished checking out what else needs-"
"Slow down, Will, can I just talk to you for a second?"
"Yeah..." Willow's eyes strayed towards Tara, who was looking intently at the puddles of goop at the brunette's feet. It grew with every splash of slime fallen from the edges of Faith's leather pants, "...I'll be back, quick."
The roommates stepped out of the bathroom and went towards the kitchen where Faith turned on the sink's faucet and grabbed the sprayer. The water was on full, but Faith didn't notice until she aimed it at her arm and pushed the trigger of the small hosed gun. Water ricocheted hard off her shoulder and through Willow to the floor.
Willow looked cross at what had just taken place and then disenchanted at Faith's grin.
"Whoops?" into the sink she started hosing, with lighter pressure, again down her arms to rid herself of the green goo. She nodded toward the bathroom, "So, what happened?"
Willow retold her quickly of how her night progressed to where they were right then.
"Are you sure we should trust her? I mean, I don't wanna be lil' miss tight-ass, but I want to make sure I'm not roomin' it up with a demon tonight."
"She's a witch, and you're already 'roomin' it up' with a ghost, so, I'd think you'd be more understanding, Wesley," Willow snipped.
"Okay, okay, we'll let her stay," she wiped her now clean face and above her black tank-top with a kitchen towel. Drops of clear water fell off the tips of dark hair, and Faith continued off of Willow's distressed look back towards the bathroom, "I'll fix her up, and she'll be as good as new. Promise." She gave a charming smile.
"Wait," the redhead looked towards the fridge.
"What?" Faith looked at the drawing.
"Can you take down the masterpiece? I don't want to remind her-"
"Man!" Faith relented but stomped over to the fridge when she ripped Giles' drawing down. "Happy?"
"Thanks." Willow genuinely was.
They headed back into the bathroom and saw Tara trying to wash her hands in warm water. With each touch, she'd jerk them back out as if being scalded.
At the set of footsteps on tile, she turned and looked toward the two friends.
"So, are you a demon or what?"
"Faith!"
Tara backed away, with shock, "A-a-are you gonna hurt me?" Her wet hands dripped onto the floor.
"That mean you are?" the slayer took a step forward.
"I-I-I-I-," her socked feet backed up on top of her boots and she stumbled a little. Tara was shrinking under Faith's strong gaze.
"She's good, she won't hurt us no matter what, I know it!" Willow stepped in front of Faith and looked to the blonde. "You're not, right?"
"No! I mean? I-I-I'm n-not sure what I am?" At Willow's confusion she continued, "No, I won't h-hurt you. But I...I-I-I-I d-don't know what I am?"
Faith pushed forward, "Explain."
Willow interrupted the tension, "Can we maybe chat while we get her cleaned up? Please?" Her green eyes were begging.
The slayer let out a sigh, and backed up, "Yeah, okay, sit down, Blondie-"
"Tara," Willow said.
Faith considered Willow's interjection, "-Tara."
Together, all three were able to fix the witch's injuries and discuss each other's demon knowledge and education at the same time, surprisingly, without judgement.
"I think we need to definitely hit the books on this one," Willow acknowledged Tara's story.
Something doesn't add up... "Anyway, I also need to talk to Giles about the whole, whooshy whoosh, thing." She made a strange gesture with her hands.
Both Faith and Tara looked at the redhead with confused faces.
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Willow showed Tara to her bedroom, and asked Faith to fetch another pillow and clean clothes for the girl.
"I-I-I can sleep on the couch. I don't want to t-take your-"
"Don't worry about it, I could sleep on a bed of impregnated bees and wouldn't feel any pain; a pull-out couch won't feel any different, I assure you."
Tara was too tired to even think about the redhead's statement, and her whole body melted at the sight of the small mattress.
She was asleep before Faith even returned with the pillow and extra set of sleeping clothes.
"Aw, man, it took me forever to find pajamas," she pouted.
"Well, you know, you could always wear them." Willow stated, still looking at the girl as she slept.
The slayer just directed a preposterous smirk towards the ghost, dropped the clothes, and shut off the bedroom light before heading to the shower.
Willow lay down on the large mattress in the darkened living room and couldn't focus on her breathing techniques. So much was floating through her mind: Tara, The Gentlemen, Tara, her confusing teleportation, Tara, speech, Tara, Tara, Tara.
She can't be a demon...
The shower's spray shut off with a heavy drip that kept flowing throughout the night after Faith went to sleep.
Willow's breathing slowed and became even when she held onto the image of Tara's eyes.
...she's too nice...
She remembered Tara's smile back when she opened the door to her dorm room, a few days before. Willow only had a side view of it, but felt it was breathtaking all the same.
...she's too beautiful...
And with that semi-conscious thought, Willow was off in a dream land again.
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End Chapter Seven