Very true, Xita.
Ladies and gentlemen, the event you have all (probably) been waiting for...NMR begins.
TITLE: Outside and In
AUTHOR: Kirk Baldridge
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DISTRIBUTION: You want it? Take it. Just let me know where it is.
SPOILERS: Nothing, really. I mean come on. The show is over. What's left to spoil?
CONTENT: W/T B/R X/A
RATING: PG-13
DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of these characters. If I did, I'd treat them better than...some people.
SUMMARY: A look at some of the college years, through the eyes of an outsider who ended up being the heart and soul of the Scooby gang.
NOTE: This story is told, obviously, from Tara's point of view. Hopefully I will be able to describe the events of season four in a way that you will be able to recognize individual episodes.
**
That evening Tara accompanied Willow and Buffy on patrol for the first time. Luckily, at least as far as she was concerned, nothing actually happened, though Tara decided she didn't like Sunnydale cemeteries after dark. After a while Buffy left to see Riley, so Willow and Tara headed back toward the school.
"Hey, Willow?"
"Hmm?"
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Didn't you just?"
Tara chuckled. "Hah hah. Okay. May I ask you one after this one?"
"Sure."
"How come you never invite me to any of your Scooby meetings?"
Willow stopped. "What?"
"I know you guys meet all the time at Buffy's or Mr. Giles. I was just wondering, how come you never ask me if I'd like to go?"
"I, uhh..."
"I m-mean, it's not like it's a big deal. I'm just, you know, curious."
"Honestly? Tara, it isn't some great conspiracy or anything. I-I never invited you, 'cause I didn't think you'd want to go. Most of the time these things are really boring. Buffy and Riley tell us how patrol went, Giles tells us how much luck, or most likely lack thereof, he's had researching Adam, and then we generally go out for mochas. But you're more than welcome to come with. If you want."
Tara nodded. "I do. When's the next one?"
"Unless there's some pressing evil, we usually meet every other day."
"So?"
"What?" Willow started. "Oh! Tomorrow. Today. Whatever."
"And I can come? The others won't mind?"
"Of course not. I-I mean, of course you can come, and no they won't mind. After all, Anya's not officially a part of the gang and she comes with Xander all the time."
"You guys don't sound too worried."
"About what?"
"This whole Adam thing. I think if I had a cyborg-demon after me I'd be, you know, concerned."
Willow shrugged her shoulders. "I guess it comes with the territory. Evil villains are par for the course with the Scoobies. Sooner or later Adam will probably hatch some insane, diabolical plot for world domination, and we'll all be there to back the Slayer up and help her defeat him."
"Then you'll go for mochas?"
Willow nodded. "Or rent some movies. Whatever."
"Sounds like fun."
"I'll tell you one thing. I don't know about Buffy or Xander but I'm perfectly happy that everything's quiet on the home front for a change."
"Why?"
Willow slipped her hand into Tara's. "It means I get to spend more time with you."
"Cool. I like that too." They walked in silence for a few minutes, just enjoying one another's company, then Tara cleared her throat. "Hey, do you, maybe, wanna have breakfast?"
"What, now?"
"No. Tomorrow. Or is that, today?"
Willow shook her head. "Either way. And sure, I'd love to."
They said good night and Tara went back to her room. She grabbed her mail along the way, and thumbed through it as she was changing clothes. Most of it was just junk and she tossed it, but one catalogue caught her eye. It was for pet supplies. She sat down at her desk to read it.
Tara had never actually had a pet. During one of her family's rare trips into the city when she was six she'd been drawn to a pet shop, where she begged her parents for one of the cute kittens in the window. Her father had flatly refused and her mother was in no shape to argue on her behalf. Later, when she was ten, she found an injured bird in the woods and hid it in their barn, but her brother Donnie found it one afternoon and plucked its feathers off in front of her, laughing as she cried and slapping her when she tried to fight him.
"I wonder if pets are allowed in the dorm?" Tara was pretty sure they weren't, but she thought it might be nice to try and get one anyway. The pet shop she frequented was always well stocked with kittens, which seemed to be in high demand in Sunnydale for some reason. Then she found herself wondering how Willow felt about the subject of pets, and made a mental note to ask the redhead when they met the next morning.
**
"Do you like cats?"
Tara and Willow met for breakfast and now were on their way to Giles'. Tara had thought to ask the question on the spur of the moment.
"I'm more of a dog person myself," Willow replied. "But I'm not like, "death to all cats." Why?"
"Cause I was thinking of getting one."
"Can you have one in the dorms?"
Tara shook her head. "No, but this would be a sneaky cat."
"That would be cool. You mean it'd be sort of like a familiar?"
A familiar? That thought gave Tara pause. That hadn't even occurred to her. "Actually I-I was thinking it would be sort of like a pet. You know, we could...we could name her Trixie or Miss Kitty Fantastico or something." There. She had said we. She wondered if Willow would notice her use of the word.
"And we could make kitty go bonkers with string and catnip and stuff?"
Vintage Willow. Tara nodded and smiled. "Absolutely."
"Fun! I'm in."
Tara was relieved, though something else then occurred to her. "So, you're not allergic or anything?" There were still a few things they didn't know about one another.
Willow shook her head. "Nope."
"Good, cause ... I want my room to be Willow-friendly."
"Me too."
Without either of them saying a word they clasped hands, and began gently stroking each other's fingers as they walled. They had gotten into the habit of holding hands in public. Tara noticed the curious stares every once and a while but Willow seemed oblivious, so she never said anything.
"So, I'm excited about the Scooby meeting...I think." She really was. It was the last part of Willow's life she was not directly involved in, and now that was about to change. "What's it about?"
Willow shrugged her shoulders. "I'm not sure. Probably just your garden-variety disaster."
"Zippo." That was the way Buffy talked Tara had come to realize, concise and to the point. "Patrol's been totally uneventful. My kill count's way down."
Tara was sitting by Willow, just as Buffy stood close to Riley and Anya was sitting in Xander's lap. The Scooby gang. They were so comfortable around one another and it amazed the blonde. She was not used to being part of a group like this, but she found she was enjoying herself.
"She means there's been less bad-guy activity."
Tara nodded. Willow had been doing this since the meeting started. She wondered why.
"Well," said Giles. "We know what that often indicates."
"Buffy doesn't make her quota?" Xander shook his finger at Buffy. "Bad slayer!"
Giles, obviously accustomed to such outbursts, just continued talking. "Well, I wish it were that innocuous, but with Adam around, I feel he's involved somehow."
The redhead leaned close. "When things get slow, it's usually because there's some extra evil brewing."
Tara nodded, again. She understood that.
"Except the weird thing is, we've been busy at the Initiative," Riley added. "Our squads are pulling a lot more captures. We got demons coming out our ears."
Willow leaned in close again. "That's a metaphor."
Tara knew she was just trying to help, but she couldn't take it anymore. "I got it, thanks."
"I'm overhelping, aren't I?"
Tara couldn't help laughing at that. Willow was just so cute.
"So the activity's shifted," Giles continued. "But not stopped?" He offered a bowl of snacks to Willow, who was apparently not hungry and shook her head. "That's fascinating."
Anya spoke up. "To an extremely bored person, maybe."
Shortly after meeting them, Tara quickly came to recognize that Anya always spoke her mind, regardless of the effect it had on those around her. The others, including Xander, did not usually appreciate her 'outbursts' but Tara found them, and her, to be fascinating.
"Well," Anya continued. "That was a thrilling hour."
The group started to rise, though Tara sat where she was and watched them.
"You know, I really don't appreciate your snide remarks, Anya." This came out practically as a snarl from Giles, which seemed to surprise everyone else. Tara could see the deep emotions raging in his aura though. There was a lot of repressed anger within him, and every so often it slipped out.
"Now, I have a great deal of experience in these matters." The Watcher continued. "And if I say there is a matter of some import brewing, I-I..." Giles stopped as he realized no one was listening to him any longer. Everyone but Tara was looking behind him, so he turned.
Tara followed their gaze. A grungy, short young man in a worn leather coat was standing in the doorway. He had his hands stuck in his pockets, and an expressionless face.
"Hey."
The mood of the room had shifted. Everyone looked stunned, especially Willow. Tara noticed a huge dip in the redhead's aura. Whoever this young man was, his arrival shook her to the core.
"Oz."
Tara knew the name, if not the face.
"Oz." There was recognition in her voice, and her eyes. Oz was Willow's boyfriend. Or ex-boyfriend. She wasn't exactly sure which. The problem was, neither was Willow. They hadn't talked about him much and all Willow had said to her was that he was a musician and a werewolf.
"When did you get back?" Willow asked.
"Pretty much now."
Tara suddenly felt cold inside. If Oz had returned, what did that mean for her and Willow?
"Oz, man." Xander looked around then stepped forward and extended his hand. "Hate to sound grandma but...you don't call, you don't write."
"Yeah, sorry."
Tara started to feel like she didn't belong there anymore. Willow, Xander and Buffy were friends with Oz. Anya and Riley didn't know him, but they also didn't seem to have a problem around strangers. She wondered how their confidence would do against their beloved's old flame returning unexpectedly.
"So," said Buffy. "Are you here here, or are you just passing through?"
Tara took some small comfort in that. Buffy didn't sound too happy to see Oz. She almost smiled. Perhaps they had something in common afterall, besides being friends with Willow.
Giles cleared his throat. "Well, um, let's not, uhh, bombard the poor chap with, uh, questions right off. Can I get you something, um, tea?" He picked up some glasses and headed for the kitchen.
"I'll pass, thanks."
Tara lowered her head so no one could see the tears welling in her eyes as Oz approached Willow. "Look...I'm going to Devon's to see if he's got a place I can crash." She hardly looked at him. "But I was hoping that we could talk. Later. Tonight."
"I guess so." The redhead definitely looked uncomfortable. Tara could see it in her aura too.
"I'll come by your place?"
"Okay."
Oz smiled. "It's great to see you guys again. Really."
He left, and Tara was silently glad.
Anya, ever the observant one, spoke up. "Everyone's uncomfortable now."
Tara tried to decide how to get away without making Willow feel any worse than she already did, but she could not come up with anything. She needed to think about things.
Buffy, meanwhile, walked up to Willow and touched her arms. "You okay?"
"I..."
Tara had to leave before she started crying. "I just, um - I realized, um, I'm-I'm late for study group."
"Tara, wait." Willow reached for her.
"No, no, it's okay. You-you should be with your friends, and, and I-I should go."
Willow shook her head and Tara went toward the door. "Wait..."
But it was too late. The blonde was gone.
**
Kirk B
Life is much too serious to be taken seriously.
Willow is a tree that weeps, but Tara is firmer and will hold.