Oh my God, I can't believe I posted this as an altogether new story... Can someone shoot me now?? *mortified* And three people looked at it while I was fixing it! *even more mortified* Yeesh... Can you TELL I'm new-ish here? Note to whoever fixed it: THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!
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Hey all! Here's the second chapter! It's still PG13, but that's for some lovin', sort of... *grin* I hope you enjoy!
But first! Disclaimer: See first chapter, please! *smile* Thanks.
And! Reply: WickedReds: Thanks for the comment! But... Don't expect any smut any time soon! I'm a firm believer in that it takes a while to get that far, especially with someone as shy as Tara. Besides, I don't write it well, sadly. *pouts*
So, here it is! Willow's bite is being subtle... For now. *snicker* Enjoy!
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Willow felt so warm, so warm. She also felt Tara’s lips against her own. After the initial pressure, Tara’s lips had opened against her questing tongue, and Tara-taste had assaulted her senses. She had been right. Tara-taste was better than mocha-ey goodness. A thousand times better. A million.
Infinity.
Tara moaned against her, one of her arms sliding around Willow’s waist, the other tangling in the hair at the nape of Willow’s neck. Feeling Tara’s fabric covered arms moving against her skin made her shiver. Blonde hair brushing against her shoulders made her shiver.
The look in Tara’s eyes when she moved back made her quiver.
Tears were slowly gathering in her eyes, and, as Willow watched, one slipped down the left side of her face. Instantly, the redhead’s fingers were there to catch it.
“Oh Tara… What’s wrong…? Did I, did I do anything wrong?” Her heart and her breath stopped.
The blonde shook her head, her hands suddenly beginning to tremble, clutching onto Willow’s skin. She moved forward, resting her forehead against Willow’s, her breath coming fast and hard.
And then she understood. An emotional overload – for both of them – had just happened. But of what kind? Willow didn’t know. All she knew was that she enjoyed feeling Tara against her. She could feel Tara’s eyelashes flutter ever so softly against her cheek. She knew she wanted to kiss the blonde again.
As she moved, Tara’s eyes shyly met her own. Hesitating for a second, her gaze alternating between blue eyes and pink lips, Willow finally settled her mouth ever so softly against the waiting ones that called to her… and Tara’s watch started to beep.
Immediately, Willow jerked back, overcompensating her movement because of her shock. She toppled over backward, landing with a thump at Tara’s feet.
She blinked wildly, surprised to suddenly find her bottom on the floor. “Uh… What?”
“It’s-It’s time to leave for c-class…” Tara explained, reaching down and offering her hand.
Willow accepted it, frowning. Tara was stuttering. Why was Tara stuttering? A cold feeling started to creep into her stomach.
She had done wrong.
Okay, she wasn’t quite sure why she had kissed Tara – well, that was a lie; she did - but she still didn’t know why she had kissed Tara. She had been standing there, staring into eyes so blue they sucked her in, slightly cold without her shirt on, and then suddenly she was kissing the most beautiful person in the world. She mentally squinted. No… That wasn’t right. Her wound had twinged, just a bit, and then she was kissing Tara with all that she had.
Willow chewed on her lip. Facing Tara once again, she suddenly grabbed the blonde’s hand, holding it in between them. She was shocked at how cold the other girl’s skin felt. “Tara,” she asked softly, “Is, is everything… okay?”
Tara swallowed. She looked everywhere other than at Willow’s face. “O-okay?”
“I… I mean, me… Me kissing you…” Willow swallowed. The blonde looked so vulnerable, her shoulders’ hunched. Before her nerves fully ran out, Willow said quickly, “Was it okay that I kissed you?”
Tara’s face fell, and she dropped her hand from Willow’s grasp. Immediately, Willow felt small, and she could feel it get harder to breathe, her throat constricting.
“N-no, it d-doesn’t have to m-mean anything,” Tara stuttered.
“What!?” Willow surged forward. “Tara, what are you talking about?” She grabbed the blonde’s shoulders. “I
want it to mean something!”
Tara’s head jerked up. “You, you do?”
The hopeful look in her eyes almost killed Willow. She lowered her voice, bringing up one hand to gently wipe away the tears that had fallen from Tara’s eyes, cupping her cheek, “Yes.” She looked directly at the blonde.
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Buffy glanced at the clock on the wall. She was in her Psychology class. Minus Willow. Willow was late. What was she talking about? Willow was never late. But she was. The one who was always early was late. Was that even possible? Some sort of oxymoron. Her eyes roved around the classroom, trying to see if Willow was sitting in another seat or something.
Riley caught her gaze, and he smiled at her, causing her heart to beat ever so faster. She smiled back, blushing a bit, before returning her gaze to the front of the class. How could Riley be so hunky?
…And so not right for her, a voice whispered up to her from the middle of her brain. She pushed it away. She didn’t need to hear her inner voice right now. Especially hear it talk about Riley. She was worried about Willow. The redhead instead of the brown-haired one. The female, not the male.
She frowned. Why was she babbling in her own head?
Buffy looked at the clock again. There was only a half hour left in the class. She mentally shrugged. Oh well. At least she didn’t have to do laundry duty that weekend. Willow hadn’t been there to see her arrive to class late.
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Checking her watch while madly dashing to her first period class, Willow knew that she was seriously screwed.
After convincing Tara that the kiss
had been meant, an uncomfortable silence had descended onto the two. Tara had walked over to sit on the side of her bed, starting to sort the herbs and ingredients she had gotten out. Feeling ignored and so prickly and lightheaded standing in the middle of the room without her sweater on, Willow moved to stand awkwardly at Tara’s desk. She had picked up a small square shaped candle to study, trying hard not to jump onto Tara, press her into the bed, and cover her with kisses. Once she had gotten a taste of Tara, she craved more. She didn’t know where she stood.
“Tara,” she murmured, her gaze never leaving the candle in her palm, “I didn’t know you liked this color…”
A light touch on her shoulder turned her around. “I don’t,” Tara said simply, moving past Willow to take the candle from her grasp, “I like the scent. Here.” She moved the gray candle up to the redhead’s nose. “Smell.”
Taking a deep breath through her nose, all Willow could smell was Tara’s scent, warm and substantial, vanilla and spice. She could clearly smell the herbs Tara had been sorting. “I… don’t smell anything.” She turned confused eyes onto the blonde.
Tara grinned, her eyes quiet for the first time that day. “That’s the point.” She set the candle down. “Sometimes I want the light without the scent. This was only the real color without a scent of this shape.”
Willow nodded. “Is it… extra flamey?” she asked, her lips quirking. Her heart had started to pound again, the smell of Tara fresh and musky in her nose. She swore she had never noticed it so powerfully before.
Tara grinned back, the shape of her lips so enchanting - Willow couldn’t stop thinking about them… “Yep. It’s extra flamey.”
The silence returned. Willow was just about to ask for her sweater again when Tara’s eyes widened, and she squeaked. “Willow!” she exclaimed, “Do you know what time it is? We have to get to class. Here, let me redress your wound.” Tara pulled her over to the bed.
Willow now smelled like the Magic Box. She wrinkled her nose, laughing softly to herself. Any self-worthy witch or warlock would be able to smell her coming. Ah, such as she did for love… She could still feel Tara’s hands on her, so gentle and knowing…
As she skirted the edge of the quad, she could see the building her class was located in.
She could also see a large gaggle of college students streaming out of the entrance.
Her heart sank. She had missed her class. How? It didn’t seem like she had been
that long in Tara’s dorm room. She stood on her tiptoes, trying to catch a glimpse of her blonde-haired friend. As she expected, Riley was with Buffy. She hurried over.
“Hey,” Buffy said as the redhead got close, “Look who it is! Weren’t you the one who got up early this morning?”
“Hey Buff’, hey Riley,” Willow nodded at them, juggling her book bag up to hold it in her arms, unconsciously hiding behind it. She smiled sheepishly. “I missed class, huh?”
They nodded.
“Great. I… uh… Something came up with Tara and me, and so we had to go back to her dorm room and work it out. It… It took longer than we thought it would.” She lied through her teeth, knowing she wasn’t the best liar ever. She just hoped the Slayer and Commando Boy wouldn’t ask her about it. A blush crawled up her neck. What would she say? ‘Oh yeah, Tara helped me strip my shirt off, and I ended up kissing her senseless. And then she had her hands all over me, and oh yeah. It happens all the time. No, I’m not weird.’?
Really.
“Spells, huh?” Riley asked, settling his arm around Buffy’s shoulders. Willow wondered idly how he managed to do it without stooping over too much. Goodness knows he was so much taller than her!
She blushed even harder. “Uh, yeah, spells, right. Research tonight?” She blurted out, walking next to the happy couple as they made their way to the cafeteria.
Buffy blinked over at her. “Eager, much?” she asked, brushing her hair off of her face, “I really don’t know why. It’s dead, isn’t it?” She shrugged.
Willow stopped, her mouth dropping open. “Not research? What are you, crazy? What if it stalked in packs? What if it’s a portent of what’s to come? Buff’, we
need to research! Giles would kill us if we didn’t!”
Buffy stared at her, her eyebrows twisting over her eyes, “Wills’, chill. Calm. God, you’re such a Research Hag. We’ll research, alright? I just thought we could relax for once. You know, Bronze?”
“Yeah.” Riley nodded. “As much as I’m all for keeping up diligence, you really have been working hard lately, Willow.” He looked at her, concern in his brown eyes. “What’s up?” Seeing as they were coming upon the cafeteria, he added, “Ah, here’s my stop. I have class soon.”
Buffy leaned up to accept his kiss, smiling as they separated. Willow waved him an easy goodbye.
If she thought hard enough, Willow envied their easy companionship. Look what I did to Tara, and already it’s strained, she thought sullenly; if I try it anytime soon, Tara’ll probably run away from me! At least she enjoyed it…
A smile bloomed on her face. Tara-kisses… Tara-hands… Too bad I have to take it slow…
As Riley disappeared from view, Buffy suddenly whirled on the redhead. “Alright,” she said, “Spill. You smell like you rolled around in a witch’s garden. What did you and Tara
do? Did you have a freaky herb-wrestling contest that I don’t want to hear about?”
Willow felt like hitting her head. With her Slayer senses, of course Buffy would smell all of the herbs on her! “Eh… No…?” she said tentatively, grabbing a plate of assorted fruit to set on her tray. She really wasn’t feeling like eating anything substantial.
Buffy grabbed the plate next to the one Willow had confiscated. She also added a chicken salad sandwich, a muffin, and a carton of chocolate milk. At Willow’s look, she looked down and mumbled, “Missed breakfast…”
“Aha!” Willow crowed, handing in her food stamp at the cash register, waiting for it to be punched, “I knew it! You were late, weren’t you?”
Her best friend managed to look smug. She led the way over to an empty table, opening her sandwich, taking a huge bite out of it before answering. “Hey! You weren’t there to catch me, so don’t try to push laundry duty on me! I believe, in accordance with how these rules work, you should be the one to do it. Seeing as you missed class altogether!”
Willow knew she had a point. Shoveling a piece of cantaloupe into her mouth, she nodded. “Alright. You have a point. I’ll do it. You monkey pooh.”
“
I’m the monkey pooh?” Buffy laughed, “You were the one who skipped! Hey, isn’t that Tara?” And, before Willow could stop her, she waved Tara over.
Willow could feel her before she spoke, “H-hey.”
Tara fiddled nervously with her denim jean jacket, taking a seat to the right of Willow only after Buffy pointed it out to her. Her smile appeared and disappeared. Her hands didn’t stop moving, Willow noticed. She constantly fixed her hair, brushing stray bangs behind her ears. She had never looked more beautiful to the red-haired witch. Willow, seeing that she didn’t have any food in front of her, scooted her fork and fruit bowl over.
“Th-thanks,” Tara said softly, and her smile filled Willow with warmth, her eyes so deep and blue she almost couldn’t look away.
“So, Tara,” Buffy leaned forward, oblivious to the tension between the two wiccans, “I hear that you and Willow were herb-wrestling…?” Her brown eyes danced teasingly.
“Wh-what?”
“Buffy!” Willow protested, a blush heightening her cheeks again, “We didn’t!”
Without realizing it, Willow’s right hand had slipped down and found Tara’s left under the table. She squeezed, and after a second, Tara squeezed back. Feeling Tara-warmth spread through her from her hand, she realized that she could smell Tara again. It was exciting and calming at the same time, and she could feel Tara’s heart beat strongly in her palm. She glanced at Tara out of the corner of her eye.
Red had spread across the blonde’s face, and she was looking down, picking at the fruit with her other hand - Willow ached to kiss away the shyness from her face. She laced their hands together, feeling the swell of magic run through her again after Tara’s fingers linked with hers.
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Tara could barely think, process what Buffy was saying. All of her thoughts were centered on the redhead’s hand in hers, in her presence next to her. She couldn’t believe that Willow had kissed her earlier that morning – that knowledge buzzed through her mind, making any contact with Willow even that much more elicit.
And Tara had reacted by beginning to cry, sure that life was playing a cruel trick on her.
But than Willow had looked at her with her luminous green eyes, her expression serious, her voice controlled, asking, hopeful. Tara had looked deeply into her soul, seeing all of the emotions Willow had held back – and she had fallen even deeper in love with the girl known as Willow Rosenberg. So why was she hesitant to entrust her heart completely to her? Why was she still running?
Because you’re afraid that she’s acting this way because of the bite wound, aren’t you, an inner voice piped up. Willow confided in you that she was sure something had been injected in her blood system, and so you can’t trust anything she does until you find out exactly what it was, can you? It’s just a side affect. She surely hadn’t kissed you before, had she? It must be shock.
Tara felt miserable. She hated thinking the way she was, but it was true. She was skeptical. Maybe Willow was just getting close to her, seeking comfort because she was afraid of what was inside of her.
But oh, what she had felt when Willow’s lips had met hers…! She had dreamed of those Willow-lips for weeks! Of Willow-arms, Willow-skin, Willow-kisses. And she had gotten all of it. Willow had felt so good in her arms, so warm, fluid-like. Her smaller frame had been the perfect size and shape to fit inside of Tara’s arms. Her lips had been so pliable, so demanding; Tara had actually gotten weak-kneed. Willow’s hair had been so soft under and over her hand, her scalp so warm. The skin at her waist had been so soft and heated, and Tara could have sworn Willow had pushed into her touch, craving for more contact.
But then it had gotten too overwhelming. When Willow had pulled back, even as Tara’s lips had felt so lost and alone without the other’s against them, Tara could feel relief, sadness, pain, and happiness swamp her body, making her tremble.
And Willow had been so sweet, knowing exactly what to say. But still there was that niggle at the back of her brain. She couldn’t keep it away, only shove it down into the niche of her brain it had come from. It was just Tara’s manner to be pessimistic.
But she hated being pessimistic, so she squeezed Willow’s hand again. She almost jumped when Willow’s thumb started to stroke the back of her hand. She could see Willow’s grin from the corner of her eye.
She sighed. Yes, how was she supposed to pay attention to Buffy when there was a fiery goddess next to her?
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Edited by: WildLonelyNeko at: 8/29/04 12:33 pm