Pineapple Head's Poetry

[The Pineapple Head]

I'm not usually one to display my poetry for the world to see, but I'll throw it out there and see what happens. I'm looking forward to any and all feedback from readers, so please do tell me what you think.



Thanks,

PH



Something....Else - The time period between "Wrecked"

when Willow starts her process of coming clean to

Buffy and her reunion with Tara in "Entropy."



FOREVER IS SUCH A LONG TIME

OR SOMETIMES NOT LONG ENOUGH

I LOOK BACK NOW

NOTHING BUT TIME



AM I STILL THAT SAME GIRL?

WHO WAS SHE?

NO, I'M NOT AND NEVER WILL BE AGAIN

SHE'S GONE FOREVER...ME IN HER PLACE



YOU WERE MY RITE OF PASSAGE

THIS GROWTH IN MY LIFE

YOU SHOWED ME ONE WORLD

AND I CHANGED FOR IT



THE CLOTHES ARE DIFFERENT

MORE CONFIDENCE IN MY STEP

MY ROOTS ARE SHOWING IN THE MIRROR THOUGH

MAYBE PART OF THAT GIRL REMAINS



PERHAPS THAT'S THE POINT

I'M NOT A GIRL ANYMORE

MY INNOCENCE IS GONE

THIS WOMAN KNOWS MORE



I'VE LOST MYSELF AND FOUND MYSELF

I SUPPOSE I WILL AGAIN

THE ROAD OF SELF DISCOVERY NEVER ENDS



THESE BLUE EYES TAKE ON THE WORLD

A LITTLE WISER, MAYBE NOT AS BRIGHT

LOOKING FOR WHATEVER IS NEXT

Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

Edited by: The Pineapple Head at: 12/26/02 2:39:09 pm

[Tara22]

ooh... wow...



I loved it!!!!!!

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I'VE LOST MYSELF AND FOUND MYSELF

I SUPPOSE I WILL AGAIN

THE ROAD OF SELF DISCOVERY NEVER ENDS

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LOVED THAT!!!!



I would love to see more from you



Thanks for that!!!

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"Oh, sorry. Uhh, I forgot that that doesn't seem normal, to the rest of society. It's just, we, well, we both really like cows. Really like them. To the extent of wanting to buy one, when we're older."- The Crying Game (by Vix84)

[pikescoob]

Thanks for sharing PH!! My fav part was the 2nd stanza I hope you post more cuz this was awesome!



--Michelle

[Ittybittykitty]

That was great! I'm just playing with the smiles .

"Well, if you blew a hundred bucks, we'd better make it worth your while," Tara said dragging Willow back into the laundry room and closing the door.-Happily Ever After

[barnabasvamp]

Thanks so much for sharing...

Quote:

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I'VE LOST MYSELF AND FOUND MYSELF

I SUPPOSE I WILL AGAIN

THE ROAD OF SELF DISCOVERY NEVER ENDS

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Never have words sounded as true as these. The questioning, and the reality.

BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin

[The Pineapple Head]

First things first is the business at hand of thanking those who choose to reply. My deepest thanks.



Tara22, pikescoob, IttyBittyKitty and Barnabasvamp - it is very much appreciated that you liked my work. I suppose it works like this....you write for the release and post for the opinions. Hopefully you will all enjoy future postings.



Rest assured that I would not be posting my work here if I didn't think there was a direct correlation to W/T.



That being said, enjoy the next piece.

PH





Something....More - I am of the belief that Tara and

Willow were lovers before the actual declaration of

love in "New Moon Rising," so this takes place after

they became lovers, but before they admitted their

feelings for one another.

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YOU ASSAULT MY SENSES

BLINDING MY EYES



BUILDING PRESSURE

MAKING MY NERVES COME ALIVE



I FEEL HEAT THROUGHOUT MY BODY

YET YOU DON'T RUSH ME



YOU ASK NOTHING OF ME IN RETURN

EXCEPT MAYBE SATISFACTION



IS IT THE WAY MY BODY RESPONDS?

THE QUIVER OF MY SKIN?

THE WAY I'LL COME SO HARD?

HOW I'LL SCREAM YOUR NAME?



MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I CAN'T SAY NO

EVENTHOUGH I PROBABLY SHOULD



I CAN'T THINK OF A REASON WHY

I CAN'T THINK AT ALL



RAPTURE SURROUNDED IN FIRE

THE WETNESS OF MY THIGHS

THE BLOOD UNDER MY SKIN

THE RELEASE THAT COMES IN A RAGE

WEAKLY GASPING FOR BREATH

SURRENDERING TO MY DESIRE

Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

Edited by: xita  at: 12/24/02 7:04:34 am

[tiredsoul]

That was gooood. Very good.

Quote:

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RAPTURE SURROUNDED IN FIRE

THE WETNESS OF MY THIGHS

THE BLOOD UNDER MY SKIN

THE RELEASE THAT COMES IN A RAGE

WEAKLY GASPING FOR BREATH

SURRENDERING TO MY DESIRE

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Great imagery. Thanks for sharing. Hope to see more.



--celia

[pikescoob]

WOW!! Loved it! I agree that the imagery was just...awesome! Thanks for sharing again



--Michelle

[The Pineapple Head]

IttyBittyKitty - Loyal to the end my friend. Easy with the smilies...unless I'm getting them good drooly ones *grin*



barnabasvamp - Absolutely love the Melissa Etheridge quote...intensely unhappy that I did not see her on the "Skin" tour.



Celia - Glad that you liked what I've posted so far.



Michelle - Thanks for posting again....it definately means alot.



I'd like to post more of my poetry and I'm hoping that their is an audience for it. So I'm very grateful for those of you who have replied and I hope that more of you kittens will as well.



Thanks alot,

Diana

Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

[The Pineapple Head]

This is a poem that means a lot to me. There is just something about that point and time when you realize that you're in love with someone. No matter what happens after that, where you end up, that moment will have always existed and you'll always remember it.



Diana



That Moment - Again, this takes place during that

period between "Wrecked" and "Entropy", when Tara

hears "I Can't Take My Eyes Off You" and thinks of her

dance with Willow during "Family."

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I hear that song and I'm gone

Lost not to be found



Beneath my tired lids

I'm in another world, a better place



I can see your face

Looming above me, beautiful



A smile tugs at the corners of your mouth

Your eyes are full of mischief



You're taunting me

Daring me into action



You don't have to try very hard

I am a willing captive



I feel your hands in my hair

Burying my face in the warmth of your neck



The smell of your skin is intoxicating

I inhale life, precious and sweet



Bodies swaying in time

Oblivious to the outside world



Nothing is more important than this moment in time

I will remember it waking and sleeping



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Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

Edited by: xita  at: 12/24/02 7:05:06 am

[thrilledbymaclay]

"I hear that song and I'm gone"



That line totally resonates with me.



Wow, this poem was my favorite out of all you posted, possibly because I identify with it the most. Though, currently my life revolves around working on accepting the idea that one day life will go on, past today's heartbreak, which is what the first poem you posted brought out of me.



I suppose the two tie together quite nicely. Thank you so much for sharing, your poetry is wonderful.

"Sadistic crap legitimized by florid prose... Tell me you're not a fan."

-Firefly, Episode 9

Heh- Sound familiar?

[barnabasvamp]

Very moving....

Quote:

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You don't have to try very hard

I am a willing captive

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Wonderful, and so true.

BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin

[funkyasian]

hey diana...just thought i'd drop in and give you a quick wave... you know i love your poetry...and i'm glad you're finally posting it and sharing with the rest of the world...i can't wait for more...



~steph

Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul. ~ Oscar Wilde

[pacou]

Wow, you know at first I thought "hmm Poetry and NC-17? Is that even possible to mix?"



lol And I read your poems...it IS possible! In a very good way



Thanks and Im looking forward to new poems of yours



-Viv-

You wanna know what my new last name is?
Forgetful... and its the invention of my English teacher....

[The Pineapple Head]

thrilledbymaclay - Sorry about the heartbreak, I know from that. In a way I'm working on the same thing. I'm glad that you could find something there for yourself in my words. Thanks.



barnabasvamp - Sometimes the best fight is the one you don't put up. Letting someone else take the lead and not knowing the answers. The exhilaration of the moment. Have I ever mentioned how much I love your handle?



Steph - What have I told you about waving that thing around in public? Sheesh, I can't take you anywhere! I thank you for supporting me and believing in me. I value your opinion as a friend and as an incredible writer. I'm looking forward to your lastest masterpiece.



pacou - Glad I could make a believer out of you. Thank you.



I'm grateful to all of you for posting your comments. It definately means a lot. Until a short while ago, I never would have posted my poetry, so thanks for that votes of confidence.



Diana



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Disclaimer - This would fit in nicely during that steamy piece of time when the cameras stopped rolling in "Entropy" and started rolling in "Seeing Red".



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A body in motion, stays in motion

A body at rest, stays at rest



Or so says the theory

I wake up with my body humming



Before my eyes open

Your scent fills my lungs



Skin against skin

Your touch could warm the coldest winter



There is only one conflict

Fast or slow?



To ravage

Or to savor?



Either way I'll devour you

No flesh left unloved



There is no need to rush

But I don't want to waste a second



Your taste surprises me each time

Each drop my rebirth



I feel you course through my veins

Forever a part of me



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Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

[pikescoob]

Another amazing poem!! I went to a very nice dreamy place while reading that!



--Michelle

[SJ]

Great poetry

[pacou]

Wow



Awesome new poem!

Quote:

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Skin against skin

Your touch could warm the coldest winter

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Loved those lines! Very nice written And thanks of course



-Viv-

You wanna know what my new last name is?
Forgetful... and its the invention of my English teacher....

[The Pineapple Head]

What's cool about this is which each poem, a new voice chimes in, as well as the ones from the beginning. I'm grateful to all of you for taking the time to leaves replies. It does mean a lot to me.



michelle - The dreamy place sounds nice, I'm glad I could take you there.



SJ - I thank you for saying so.



Viv - Thank you for the THUD! I love those. The first time I got one for "Heat Wave," I almost died from laughter.



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Disclaimer - This is darker from the rest, but I hope that you'll still enjoy it. This takes place at the end of "Wrecked" when Willow is having her sweats and withdrawl. There is nothing like waking up frightened and alone. Tara helped anchor Willow, but Willow needed to go through this experience to get back to her beloved....so it all works out in the end, a magic free Willow and W/T reunion



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Ripping - Clawing - Scratching

Dying to shred the skin that keeps me



An impossible mission

It's myself I can't escape



The knowledge I know

The knowledge that haunts me



Screams do escape my body

Fierce and frightened



My lungs ache for air

Collasped and depleted



I see the water below me

And instantly feel the coldness around me



I see the ice above me

Crystal clear and distorted



I break the surface

And find myself in the darkness of night



Sweat soaked and dazed

Reeling from the machinations of my subconscious



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Early one morning the sun was shining, I was laying in bed - Wondering if she changed at all, if her hair was still red.

[Jennpurr]

Diana,



WOW... girl... I can't think of any other word to describe what I've just read.



You know... fan fiction is wonderful, but there's something about poetry that just gets me. It can be so powerful. And you have certainly made me feel that.



I love all of these, I can't really pick a favorite. If I had to, it would be the one that takes place in Season 4. So good.



Thanks for sharing these with us and I'll look forward to reading more, sweetie.



Jen

Don't show me your weakness, I can't rely on you, To know my soul
Don't show me your weakness, I might become, Something you need
Something you need, Something you need... to destroy - THC, "Need To Destroy"

[funkyasian]

well, you've done it again...love the last one...see...didnt i tell you your poetry is incredible?! cant' believe you doubted me...still doubt me?!



~steph

Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul. ~ Oscar Wilde

[pacou]

No, absolutely no need for doubting your poems here



Cos each of them is wonderful!



And I will do the just for you again







Hey, actually I did it twice now

Thanks!



-Viv-

You wanna know what my new last name is?
Forgetful... and its the invention of my English teacher....

[SJ]

Another great poem

[The Pineapple Head]

Jenn - I'm happy to hear that you liked what you've read so far. I'll try to keep you interested.



Steph - Doubt you? Me? Never! I always try to listen to my elders It's a compliment that you love my poetry, because you can tap into places that I just can't seem to go. You know you rock



pacou - Damn! Thuds galore! Thank you so much for making me laugh



SJ - Again, I'm glad you like my writing and I hope you keep reading.



Thanks,

Diana



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Disclaimer - I thinking post "Restless," when everything was still new, mysterious and excitement of the unexpected.



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A pair of hands glide over my eyes

Turning to black everything in my vision



They slowly travel down my face

Stopping at my lips



These are familiar hands

Yet I tremble slightly



The sensation is breathtaking

The movements deliberate



The journey continues

Passing over my chin



Fingertips sliding down my neck

Every nerve ending tingling with anticipation



Warm hands settle on my shoulders

Turning my body around



Shifting just as slowing as those hands did

I feel them tangling in my hair



Face to face with the captor of my senses

Only a few inches separate us



Soft breaths like the whisper of a secret

Flutter against my skin



The breath becomes closer

Intertwining with mine



Eyes locked upon one another

My hands did all my looking



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Everyone in the house had heard that I was the "sex consultant" . I think they imagined that meant I stood over Gina and Jennifer with a riding crop, snapping, "Deeper , Harder, A Little to the Left!"
Susie Bright on the premiere of BOUND

Edited by: The Pineapple Head at: 12/29/02 8:49:42 pm

[barnabasvamp]

I'm so lucky, I peak in and find two wonderful poems



First Lifeblood so much emotion!

Quote:

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There is no need to rush

But I don't want to waste a second

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The mix of emotions rings so true.*sigh*



Withdrawl The inner turmoil, and fears everyone faces, especially those that are kept inside.



Thanks again for sharing.



BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin

[SJ]

Great poetry

[funkyasian]

i feel strangely compelled to leave you feedback...wait...that's cause i like this one!! as i like all your poetry...this one is definitely very thud-worthy...great work diana...now i'll have to scamper off and write more so i can keep up with you!



~steph

Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul. ~ Oscar Wilde

[The Pineapple Head]

barnabasvamp - A thud and a bounce, you certainly know how to show a girl a good time. Thank you for your wonderful compliments.



SJ - I'm glad that you keep coming back and that you're enjoying my work.



Steph - Yes, I do have to admit it, I am THUD-worthy. You found out my dirty little secret. And here I thought that I was the one trying to keep up with the fabulous funkyasian. You most certainly keep me on my toes my dear.



Thanks to everyone who reads and to those who posts.



Diana

Everyone in the house had heard that I was the "sex consultant" . I think they imagined that meant I stood over Gina and Jennifer with a riding crop, snapping, "Deeper , Harder, A Little to the Left!"
Susie Bright on the premiere of BOUND

[The Pineapple Head]

Hey there kittens. I'm working on something right now that just isn't ready, but this was written a few days ago and hopefully it's ready to post.



Thanks,

Diana



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Disclaimer - I was thinking this fit nicely right after "The Gift." When you get someone back, you tend to evaluate what makes you love that person and I imagine that Willow's head would have been spinning after she restored Tara's mind and her lover came back to her.



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MAYBE IT'S YOUR SMILE

ONE FLASH AND I'M AT YOUR MERCY



MAYBE IT'S YOUR VOICE

THE WORLD'S MOST BEAUTIFUL SIREN SONG



MAYBE IT'S YOUR EYES

THE GATEWAY TO ALL YOUR TREASURES



MAYBE IT'S YOUR TOUCH

SETTING MY SKIN AFLAME



MAYBE IT'S YOUR KISS

NEVER FAILING TO GIVE ME GOOSEBUMPS



MAYBE IT'S YOUR LAUGH

TO HEAR IT SENDS ME FLYING



MAYBE IT'S YOUR PASSION

OVERWHELMING AND INFECTIOUS



MAYBE IT'S ALL THE CLICHES

THE THINGS THAT EVERY POET RHAPSODIZES



MAYBE IT'S THE SMALL THINGS

LIKE THE WAY YOU YAWN WITH CHILDLIKE CHARM



MAYBE IT'S AS SIMPLE AS YOU

A ONCE OF A LIFETIME GIFTS OF THE GODS



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Everyone in the house had heard that I was the "sex consultant" . I think they imagined that meant I stood over Gina and Jennifer with a riding crop, snapping, "Deeper , Harder, A Little to the Left!"
Susie Bright on the premiere of BOUND

[barnabasvamp]

Again, wonderful words...

Quote:

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MAYBE IT'S AS SIMPLE AS YOU

A ONCE OF A LIFETIME GIFTS OF THE GODS

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All the wonderful things said, and to end with this. *sigh*

BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin