FIC: Coming Back To You

[willowtarafan18]

Title: Coming Back To You

Feedback: Please, this story needs all the help it can get.

Spoiler Warning: Through Season Six

Disclaimer: Its all ME and Joss. I do not have any copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights belong with the production company, writers etc, etc.

Rating: PG for now

Couples: Eventually W/T again

Notes: If you want more of this fic let me know. I need encouragement to post more.



Willow sat Indian style on a plot of land in front of a headstone that read “TARA MCCLAY.” Her face was solemn and evidence of tears about to flow were apparent. It had been approximately four months since Tara’s death and Willow came to her gravesite everyday to talk and be close to her lover.

“You’re dead.” Willow whispered breathing in deeply trying to hold back her tears

“What kind of punishment is this?!” she demanded looking up at the sky

“Why?!” she screamed loudly demanding an answer that seemed would never come.

Tara sat on a cloud looking down at Willow from above. She thought it sweet that Willow would come visit her each day to give her an update on life. But it also saddened her that Willow was so distraught by her death.

“Is there anyway I can go back?” Tara asked knowing the dark figure was behind her watching her watch Willow.

“There are always consequences to going back, you know that.” The voice answered.

“You mean like Buffy?” she questioned

“It’s one of the consequences that can occur.” He answered

“I can’t feel lost if I’m with Willow we love each other and that’s all we need. We find each other if one of us is lost. She’s looking for me now it’s only a matter of time before she finds me. You know that don’t you? If I sit and wait she’ll come, I know she will.” Tara replied

“Why would you want to leave here? It is so peaceful and down there…you have so many demons to fight.” The voice questioned her.

“Because I need Willow…and she needs me…we’re two halves of a whole. Without me she’s incomplete she said the other day and it’s killing her, can’t you see? I can see the change daily…when she comes to visit me.” Tara said with anguish

“You can talk to her and reassure her you’ll always be near.” The voice bargained.

“That’s not enough, not for Willow and I.” She refused

“You haven’t even tried.” The male voice huffed

“I don’t want to start and then have to stop.” Tara answered logically.

“You’re willing to risk everything to go back to her?” the voice questioned

“Everything.” Tara replied without hesitation.

Tara knew she had to go back Willow couldn’t last without her and she couldn’t last without Willow. Every day in heaven she’d spent thus far had been peaceful but only to an extent because she always knew Willow was still searching for her. Willow was down on Earth trying to find her and bring her back. Tara felt stuck in heaven only able to see Willow and the urge to hold her and kiss away her tears was so strong it made her heart ache not to be able to reassure the red haired witch that once slept in her arms.

“Very well then I will take this up with the Powers.” He said and with that the shadow behind her was gone in that instant.

“I’m coming, darling…” Tara whispered hoping Willow could hear her.

Edited by: maudmac  at: 12/28/03 12:38 am

[IsayAmberBensonsgorgeous]

cool start! you must update

C

"Es ist fuer einen Menschen unertraeglich, ertragen zu werden." (Jean Cocteau)
"Ain't never gonna love you any better babe - And they'll never gonna love you right" (Kozmic Blues - Janis Joplin)

[MissQuirky]

Love the start!! I hope Tara gets back to her Willow soon! Lookin forward to more!

"W-well, I-I was wondering, maybe, you would wanna go out sometime? For coffee ... food ... kisses and gay love?" - Willow (Normal Again)

[snuggle79]

Yay! Tara's coming back! Excellent start!!

Tara:"Maybe we dreamed it."

Willow:"Right. Right. Wrong! (points at her head ) Different Brains." Tara:"Oh yeah."


Can we just skip it? Can...can you just be kissing me now?

[umadamber]

Keep going please this is good your already better than Joss cos Tara's coming back yay!!

Willow: Oh, um. Various sounds of hesitation.
Tara: She was just a friend.
Willow: Friends are nice.

[willntlover]

cool, where's the next part???



-Will

"Hear that baby? You're my always."

"well, you know, when you play a lesbian witch you've gotta get killed in this fun kind of exciting way, so the heart was the way to go..."

"we have the most amazing fans though they LOVE us."

[BigMac]

Love the start and I hope you will update soon.

Tara: Assume Crash
Positions

[eccentrictulip]

woohoo!! love it, love it, love it, love it!!!

i'm even excited for the ensuing consequences.....as long as tara comes back great start, hope there's more soon!!

*please use both hands....*

[Rane018]

yup yup, this certainly needs an update. the consequences to her return cannot be as dire as life without her soulmate can it? i wonder if the powers would make her have to do trials and stuff, maybe willow needs to redeem herself too.... gosh, lots of possiblilities!

TARA- It looks like gibberish.
SPIKE- (moving to them) Gibberish?
TARA- Or possibly gobbledygook. It's not words, anyway…

the yoko factor

[willowtarafan18]

Part 2

        "Tara?" Willow gasped in shock.

        "It can't be. I'm imagining things...maybe Buffy and the gang are right...maybe I need to make more of an effort to let go. Tara? Am I too clingy? Oh boy... I'm talking to you like you're gonna give me an answer...I'm all clingy-like." Willow frowned

        Tara sat looking down watching Willow begin to babble and she smiled at the thought she might be able to once again kiss away Willow's worry and babbles.

        "I'm coming, darling..."Tara repeated again more loudly and definitively to try to reassure Willow she had really heard her.

        "It's you! I swear it's you! Where are you baby?! Can I come get you?!" Willow stood up after hearing Tara's words echo in her ear again.

        Tara sat nervously watching the scene unfold. A little twinge of sorrow for making her lover worry more. Knowing that Willow had gotten her hopes up now was a bittersweet event. On one hand she was happy to see Willow so eager for her return but on the other hand she hadn't tried to speak to Willow for fear she would have to stop, disappointing the red-headed lover was not something she wanted.

        "Tara? Baby, if you're there talk to me! I need you! I need you so much!" Willow begged looking at the sky as if she knew exactly where Tara sat up in heaven looking down on her.

        Tara stayed quiet scolding herself for being so selfish for talking to Willow. The truth was that she missed Willow and needed to connect with her as much as Willow wanted the contact.

        "Baby? Oh Goddess...don't do this to me! Don't play games with me! Tara, I've been here almost everyday waiting for your return." Willow spoke to the sky.

        "I know darling, I've been listening." Tara's thought slipped into Willow's mind in a whisper.

        "Oh baby, it's you!" Willow closed her eyes tightly envisioning Tara. Somehow Tara was sending her thoughts to Willow, she wasn't quite sure how but she was glad. Upon closing her eyes Willow got a brief image of Tara's view looking down on herself.

        "You've been watching me!" Willow said allowed but it was more her thoughts that wree passed back to Tara as they created a link across the distance.

        "Always." Tara managed to whisper becoming overwhelmed by the emotion of having a conversation with Willow.

        "Tara? Baby? Don't be sad!" Willow somehow could sense the change in mood of her lover.

        "It's been so long, Willow..." Tara gasped a tear roling down her face.

        "I know baby, I know..."Willow tried to soothe her lover feeling a bit unsure how. If Tara had been there she would scoop her lover into her arms and cradled her. She would kiss the top of Tara's head and rock her in the embrace but all she could do was send her love through her words.

        "Soon." Tara whispered.

        "Soon, what?" Willow was now the one who needed reassurance.

        "I'm coming back. Whatever it takes Willow, I'm coming!" Tara closed her eyes and remembered to the last time Willow and her had hugged tightly in their room before she'd been shot. She somehow projected the imagine of the embrace to Willow who seemed reassured by this.

        "I'll find you, Tara. Tell me where to look." Willow begged.

        Just then the dark figure appeared behind Tara once more. He seemed quieter than usual. Tara was a bit scared at this change thinking whatever it took to get back to Willow would be too difficult. Somehow her thoughts slipped out and Willow heard her fears of returning to the red-head altered.

        "Oh goddess." Willow gasped as she heard her lover think she couldn't come back to Willow if there were too dire of consequences. Tara wouldn't put Willow through the torture of her coming back differently and it splitting the group apart like Buffy's return had.

        "Oh Willow!" Tara began to sob having realized her words were sent to her lover.

        "Don't Tara, don't come back if you're scared. Baby, if you're happy there tell me, I'll move on...I'll try!" Willow echoed back to Tara in her mind.

        "I'm not happy here, Will. I need you to be happy." Tara answered honestly the truth in her words were felt by Willow.

        "Whatever it takes Tara, we're strong enough to get past it. Do what is best for you." Willow seemed to calm herself a bit hearing her lover say she needed her as much as Willow felt she needed Tara. Tara was like oxygen to her lungs...pure oxygen that kept her alive and kickin'. Without Tara she needed an oxygen mask...mainly the Scoobies to stay alive.

        "Tara McClay?" the voice beckoned her to turn her attention to him.

        "Yes?" Tara cooed as she sat watching Willow refusing to turn and face him.                

        "I've spoken with the Powers. They've set a meeting up for you to meet with them. They wish to bring this up directly with you. It wasn't be easy to get them to do this but they have agreed that you should bring this to them yourself. " the voice explained.

        "I understand." Tara shook her head.

        "Who is that?" Willow asked Tara as she heard a voice speaking to her lover.

        "You've made a link with her?!" the voice growled

        "Uhh...I spoke to Willow...you said I could..."Tara jumped feeling his hostility.

        "I never said you could link with her!" he growled.

        "Link?" Tara questioned obviously she wasn't understanding the extent to which he was referring she'd gone.

        "She's practically here with you!!" his voice crackled.

        "I talked to her I didn't link...I didn't mean to 'link' or whatever." Tara shrugged innocently.

        "Break the link now!" he commanded.

        "Huh? No! I can't leave her now!" Tara said frantically.

        "Baby, what's going on? I don't understand." Willow questioned the blonde haired wiccan.

        "He wants me to let you go. I won't Willow, I won't!" Tara answered fiercely

        "You're leaving me..."Willow thought and knew it had been heard before she could stop herself from letting it flow through their connection.

        "Willow, I said--"Tara was about to dispute Willow's words but the voice's hand came too quickly to her head and all of a sudden a bolt of energy cut off the connection. Tara screamed in horror and shock.

        "Willow? WILLOW?!!" Tara screamed her lover's name in agony.

        "TARA!!!" Willow screamed knowing something had happened to Tara.

       

Still want more or am I killing it? I'm trying this whole cliffhanger thing out and I don't know if it's working to my advantage or not...let me know.

[Jennpurr]

Yes, need More! More! More!



That was an evil cliffhanger. Poor Willow and Tara. That stupid idiot. Why did he do that? Damn him. Grrr..



I hope things will be okay. I'm interested to see how Tara comes back. I hope she will be okay, Willow too.



More, soon?? Please??



Jen



Edited: Darn those spelling errors.

------------------------"Love is beautiful, no matter who you share it with." My Dad
"Love is never wrong." Melissa Etheridge

Edited by: Jennpurr  at: 8/5/02 7:08:33 pm

[MissQuirky]

Damn that cliffhanger! I want more! I am really lovin this fic!

"W-well, I-I was wondering, maybe, you would wanna go out sometime? For coffee ... food ... kisses and gay love?" - Willow (Normal Again)

[BethanyB3]

yes want more.

[xita]

I am finding this interesting. The powers of be are the right people to get involved here and that separation was heart wrenching.

- - - - - - - - - - - -

Tara's eyes once again found Willow's in the rearview mirror. "Don't worry. I've got your back.
And Jimmy Gorka's loss is my gain."         - Willow grinned.

The Wisdom of War - Christopher Golden

[snuggle79]

damn, why did he cut the line!!? I want some more!!

Great update!

Tara:"Maybe we dreamed it."

Willow:"Right. Right. Wrong! (points at her head ) Different Brains." Tara:"Oh yeah."


Can we just skip it? Can...can you just be kissing me now?

[tkheaven]

hey Hey HEY!! Eeeeeeeevil cliffhanger....ok, we need a stable link here, would dsl do it (ok, that was bad)...I need to know what happened!!...oh dear...

Tk's new and improved "GrrArgg"

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Tara was similarly riveted, her body on slow burn as Willow's lips parted and her mouth opened, the food slipping inside and being consumed. Never in her life had Tara ever wanted to be a chicken casserole so badly...Later that night..."It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured, before passing out. ~ Answering Darkness by Sassette

[Centauri2002]

Okay, that's just plain evil! You have to update soon and unravel the plot for us a bit... we'll get impatient and you don't want that.



Seriously though, that horrible shadowy man... I'm gonna go kick his butt (well, I would if he weren't a fictional character). How could he be so mean to Tara... and poor Willow.



Looking forward to more. (hint hint)



Caz

Tara: I got so lost
Willow: I found you... I will always find you

[mollyig]

Nothing can keep our girls apart! Right?

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[AmberBensonRockzMyWorld]

Wow, This is good. I like it....I hope that there will be happiness for Willow and Tara soon. Update soon?

Much Love,

Lisa

Must I dream and Always see your face.~ Jeff Buckley "Last goodbye"
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Recomended Reading: IttyBittyKitty's fic...
"7th Hellvan"
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[jdcioffi]

EEK! You stopped there?! How could you stop there? That's like a big



Please continue -- you may have already hooked me.

JD

"Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying, "maybe..." (Jeff Buckley - The Last Goodbye)

[eccentrictulip]

oh goodness....oh, you have to write more!!!!! what a cliffhanger!!!!!! i hope tara's okay.....more soon?

*please use both hands....*

[willowtarafan18]

I should be posting more tonight so look out...I've been motivated

Shelly

[willowtarafan18]

Alright tons to say tonight. One thank you to everyone who has been reading and checking for updates I'm sorry it took so long I got all lazy...bad habit I know my apologies. Secondly I'd just like to say Yay I have a second page!!! Thirdly, I'd like to dedicate this part of the story to a certain driving force behind this update tonight...Caz. Hope you all enjoy...like I always say you want more tell me!



Part 3

        Willow was thrown a few feet from Tara's grave by the force of the bolt that disconnected her link to Tara. Willow didn't let the sudden action keep her from her main focus--something happened to Tara.

        "Oof!" Willow groaned as her butt hit the hard ground. She stood quickly and dusted herself off. She stared up at the clouds looking to see Tara looking down on her. No such luck and Willow slumped her shoulders foward.

        "Tara?! Tara, what happened?" Willow questioned hoping maybe Tara would respond.

        Meanwhile from above Tara screamed in agony from the bolt that shocked her and disconnected her from Willow. She grabbed her head tightly after the man took his hand away from breaking the link.

        "Willow? Honey?" Tara thought softly hoping the shadow wouldn't harm her or her lover any further. She looked down and saw that Willow was moved from her original spot by her grave. Realizing she must've been thrown by the bolt of energy Tara became enraged.

        "She can't hear you, you've lost that priviledge." the voice snarled having heard Tara's thoughts she hoped to convey to Willow.

        "You hurt her!" Tara scowled.

        "Just a little." he shrugged innocently not seeing the big deal.

        "Connect me!" Tara commanded.

        "You are in no position to be throwing out orders." the voice chuckled.

        "I said connect me!!" she bellowed a bit louder.

        "I can not do that." the voice said coldly.

        "And why not?!" Tara furrowed her brow.

        "You practically had her here with you, Ms. Maclay, it's against policy for such things to be allowed." the voice answered and somehow Tara could hear compassion in his voice now.

        "I didn't mean--"Tara began to apologize.

        "I know." the voice said holding up a hand to silence her apology.

        Willow fell apart at the thoughts that she imagined were happening to Tara at that very instant. Willow began to sob and sunk to her knees on the ground. Pounding the ground with her fist.

        Suddenly, Willow felt a hand on her shoulder. A glimmer of hope passed through Willow but it was too quick for even her to register it rationally.

        "Will?" Buffy's voice whispered softly.

        "Buffy, it's not fair." Willow whimpered.

        "I know, it's hard." was all Buffy could say.

        Buffy scooped Willow into her arms in a strong embrace and began to rock Willow gently to soothe her pain.

        "Maybe you should stop coming here alone, Will. We'll make it like a Scooby thing to visit her, we lost her too." Buffy bargained.

        "She's been watching me, Buffy." Willow spoke softly still crying.

        "Yes, of course." Buffy agreed in theory thinking Tara must be somewhere watching Willow because it only seemed logical the two could not be kept apart for long.

        "No, no. She really has been watching me!" Willow backed out of the embrace a little to stare Buffy in the eyes.

        "Willo--" Buffy began.

        "No. She spoke to me, Buffy. We had a conversation--"Willow started to explain the events that had taken place but Buffy stopped her.

        "Willow, you have to stop this. It isn't healthy, you can't move on if you keep trying to convince yourself she's waiting for you. I know what it's like, Willow. I went through it with my mom, thinking she'd come back. I even thought I'd spoken to her. But I didn't." Buffy sighed.

        "But I did! I spoke to Tara. She said she's coming back...there was this man speaking to her and he...he did something to her Buffy...he hurt her and I felt it. I landed on my butt a few feet from her...grave. I was sitting there. Now I'm here." Willow tried to explain fragmentally.

        "A man? Hurt her?" Buffy crinkled her nose in confusion.

        "I dunno who he was but he was talking to Tara... then bam this bolt of like--like...energy was thrust out and now I can't hear her Buffy! She said she was coming back...but I could feel her doubt and how scared she was she might come back wrong...I told her not to if it wasn't safe I don't want her miserable." Willow sobbed.

        "Willow, you're telling me Tara really spoke to you? As in had an entire conversation, and you felt her?" Buffy questioned intrigued.

        "Yes! The man was speaking about some 'link' or other right before we got cut off...he was yelling at her...I don't want her to be hurting Buffy. If she's happy I will move on." Willow answered.

        Tara watched the scene unfold as Buffy had approached and how Willow sobbed in her embrace. Tara felt awkward feeling like an intruder on such a personal conversation about herself.

        "When is the meeting?" Tara turned her head slightly to stare at the darkened figure.

        "Soon." the voice answered vaguely.

        "Cryptic much?" Tara raised an eye brow

        "You should prepare." the voice advised.

        "Prepare? Like strategize?" Tara asked.

        "They don't just let anyone go back...but this is an extreme circumstance and I'm sure they need you now...since everything is getting very close to the time." the man pointed out.

        "They need me? What is getting very close to the time?" Tara began to play twenty questions with the dark figure almost beginning to forget about the state Willow was in down below.

        "She needs you to help her through this." the voice instructed.

        "What does Willow need me to help her through, getting over her loss? Is something dangerous coming for Willow?" Tara panicked.

        "The Slayer needs your help...that is all I can say for now. Bargain with the Powers they are soft on exchanges of mutual help." the voice advised further.

        "Buffy needs me? That's quite imposs--oh no if Buffy goes too Willow won't be able to live! First me then Buffy!! No, they can't let that happen!" Tara jumped quickly to the next page she hadn't turned in the chapter the voice had been unfolding for her so cryptically.

        "Bargain with them." the voice repeated.

        "Okay, okay let me think...Willow needs me. Please can't you connect me with her again? She's really frightened and I don't want her doing something--" Tara shook her head at the absurd thought of Willow turning to dark magick again.

        "Use your ability to find solutions, Tara. You have been cut off from Willow." the voice said and with that he was gone in that instant.

        "My ability to problem solve? Buffy and Willow are in trouble and I need to save them? Bargain with the Powers? This is all just a little overwhelming!" Tara grunted scrunching her face in a huff.



So as Tara said in this part "Cryptic much?" hope you all enjoyed check back soon tell me what you want to see come next or if you want anything else to come.

[XWickedXWiccan]

Update soon please cause I wanna see Tara and Willow back together and put some smoochies in!!

[MissQuirky]

Yay an update, a good one too! Buffy and Will r in some kinda trouble, want to know more! I want some W/T togetherness, hopefully its comin soon, right! Can't wait 4 more!

"Don't warn the tadpoles!...
I-I have frog fear."

[mollyig]

I trust that Tara will find a way to get back to her girl, but am concerned as to what is in store.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[willowsgrrl]

love it is there more coming soon? i cant wait to see what happens with the Powers.



christina

[XWickedXWiccan]

Grrrr.... Some hasn't been updating *tsk* *tsk*. That's just mean.



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Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstacy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bare. If we can live without passion maybe we'd know some peace. But we'd be hollow, empty rooms, shuttered, and dank, With out passion we'd truly be dead. Angel in "Passion"

[ally02]

OOO I'm liking this!! This is the least depressing "Tara comes back" fic I have read so far lol. Although the "going to Tara's grave" scenes were depressing. I heard that Xander is going to bring Willow to Tara's grave in Season 7. Waaa!! Oh now I'm getting depressed...pffft!! Ok i'll cheer up...hey an update will cheer me up (hopeful smile)



Aly xxxx

You all didnt happen to do a bunch of drugs did ya?

[willowtarafan18]

Alright kittens retract those claws of yours. I think I got the hint some of you out there want more huh? Well, I didn't get much feedback after the last update so I just dropped the story but if you want more I'll give it to ya'll. Just give me sometime and keep hitting me up with those posts that you want more. A little motivation might dop me some good.

Shelly