Name: “Seeing Willow”
Author: “The Next Tara Maclay”
Rating: PG, but it will have some scenes where its rated R.
Spoilers: None, unless you haven’t seen Season 6.
Where Story takes place: It takes place before Tabula Rasa, but its after Once More With Feeling, if you know what I mean.
Distribution: Yes do take.
Disclaimer; I do not own any of the characters, they belong to Joss Whendon and ME….
Feedback: Yes please.
Part 1.
Notes: ### mean Dreams…mhm.
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Chapter 1: The Dream.
It was a dark night, the stars where outside and there wasn’t a cloud in sight, the moon was shining in on Willow and Tara as they slept, it was a quiet, beautiful night and they had decided to keep the curtains opened so they could awaken to the beautiful morning which was to come in eight more hours.
“Mph, no…I don’t want to ride the big scary arm eating pony..” Willow mumbled in her sleep.
Tara woke up slightly to Willows talking, her sapphire eyes glanced at Willow noticing that her girl friend was just sleep talking, she scooted closer towards Willow and put her head next to Willows and her arm on Willows stomach drifting off to sleep.
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Tara glanced around slowly, looking from Willow, to Xander then to Anya. “: Not to be Miss Psycho Pep Squad, but we have *got* to stop obsessing about what we did and start trying to make things better for Buffy.” Her voice sounded very firm.
Anya nodded her head slowly as she opened her mouth to speak, “I'm with Miss Psycho Pep Squad.” She smiled brightly as she put her arms on the table.
Xander who was thinking deeply on what they should do, finally got an idea as he snapped his fingers “Ah, we need to spend more time with her, just hang out. Maybe have ... weekly dinners over here, or, uh ... a book club. Short books. Videos.” Now that was a great plan, that’s what Xander thought, greatest plan he has ever had.
Willow knew what she was going to do, a spell of course. “I can fix it! I know a spell…”
Tara glanced at Willow angrily, “No! No more spells!” Her voice sounded angry that Willow would want to do a spell after what she did to her.
Xander looks from Tara to Willow confused. He could tell that Tara wasn’t really happy.
Willow couldn’t believe that Tara was not working with her, she glanced at Tara, giving her a look that showed she knew what she was doing. “Then what?” She wanted to know what she should do since Tara thought she must have some better plan. “ This isn't something that's gonna be fixed by a video club. I know I messed up, okay, and ... I wanna fix it.” Her voice sounded determined when she said that last part.
The blonde witch looked almost shocked as she spoke again “I can't believe that we are talking about this again!” Her voice sounded displeased and frustrated. “ You know how powerful magic is, how dangerous. You could hurt someone, you ... you could hurt yourself.” She was more worried about Willow hurting herself since the red head was the one that was doing the magics.
The flamed hair witch shook her head as she looked at Tara with her emerald green eyes “I know a spell that will make her forget she was ever in heaven.” Now that was a great idea, then Buffy would forget that she was in heaven and all their problems would be over.
The blonde sounded even angrier with Willow.
“God! What is wrong with you?!”
Xander stood up from his seat and glanced at Anya nervously. “I'm gonna go get that ... phone you probably don't hear. High-pitched ring, ears like a dog.” He walked away quickly he couldn’t stand to hear his friends argue.
“I’ll help you with that!” Anya said quickly as she stood up walking after Xander leaving Willow and Tara to themselves.
After everyone was gone Tara started speaking again, her voice sounded angry, yet hurt at the same time.
“Do you think I'm stupid? I know you used that spell on me.”
“Tara, I’m sorry…I- ”
“Don’t!” Tara cut Willow off “Just … don’t” shaking her head continuing her sentence “There’s nothing you can say…”
“Tara I didn’t. mean to-”
“To what? Violate my mind like that? Violate my mind like that? How could you, Willow? How could you after what Glory did to me?” Her voice sounded hurt, and angry and disgusted.
“Violate you? I-i.. didn’t mean anything like that, I-I, Just didn’t want us to fight anymore…I love you”
“If you don’t want to fight you don’t fight, you don’t use magic to make a fight disappear.”
“But I-I just wanted to make things better. Better for us.”
“But you don't get to decide what is better for us, Will. We're in a relationship, we are supposed to decide together.”
“Okay. I'm ... I realize I, I did it wrong.”
“You did it the way you’re doing everything. When things get rough you.. you don’t even consider the options. You just …you just do a spell. It’s not good for you, Willow. And its not what magic is for” Tara stated quietly.
“ But I ... I just wanna help people.” The red heads voice sounded anxious.
“Maybe that's how it started, but ... you're helping yourself now, fixing things to your liking. Including me.” The blonde had said this and her voice sounded very upset and very hurt.
“Tara, no!”
Tara looks away. She felt tears come to her eyes as she opened her mouth slowly. “I don’t think this is gonna work…”
“Hey. It is, I-it’s working…” Willow glanced at Tara, who was now looking at her, but then she saw Tara look down. “Tara please. I need you, baby. I need you. I don’t need magic, I-I don’t… I…let me prove it to you okay? I, I will go a month without doing magic… I won’t do a simple spell I swear”
“Go a week. One week without magic.”
“Fine! Fine.. that’s easy!”
Tara nods slowly, she didn’t seem convinced Willow was truly addicted to magic and she had high doubts that this was going to work. “Go a week and we’ll see…”
Willow's face falls. She looked slightly scared on what was going to happen next.
“I don't know, I just ... think we both need some ... I don't know, space. Oh, I can't believe I'm saying this.”
Willows face looked very upset as she glanced at Tara “Are you saying you’re going to leave me?”
End of Dream ##
Tara woke up panting as she glanced over at Willow who was sleeping soundly, was it just a dream or was it real? Was this really going to happen? She had this fear that it was and this was never a good thing. It seemed real, but she had to prevent it, she didn’t want to break up with Willow or leave her, but something in her mind was telling her that it was going to happen. Could she be seeing the future and what was to come about their relationship? The blonde sighed quietly as she stepped off the bed and walked over to the window and hummed quietly to herself. Then she started singing.
“Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the Woman I used to know
I’d stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heartache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take it back would you still be mine
'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I could say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
She stopped singing, hot fresh tears where rolling down her cheeks, an aching part of her heart was telling her that this was going to happen this *WAS* a dream of the future. She glanced over at the sleeping red head not seeing any sign of wanting to hurt her, she just looked like a little angel having very sweet dreams. Tara glanced at the clock noticing it was 6:45 a.m, no point in going back to bed because now that she was awake, she didn't want to sleep. She sat down on the brown chair that was at the desk as she took out a peice of paper and began to write her thoughts... and a note to Willow.
TBC
I changed the Man to woman because well.. Willows a girl, tell me if you guys liked it and if you want me to continue, I know not a lot of interaction but the dream was the one I used the most anyway. More talking and goodness with W/T next part.
Latahz.
Edited by: xita 
at: 12/29/02 7:48:41 pm
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. It's not like thats the only way for Willow to mess up, heck her personality (overachiever, wants to please everybody) has plenty of options :-). Would be handy if Tara stuck around to help her overcome those though.