FIC: Water and Oxygen

[willntlover]

Hi all! This is my second W/T fic, so I apologize for anything totally not character.



Disclaimers: There are general season 6 spoilers, up to I think 'Wrecked'. And words inclosed in [ ] indicate thoughts.

Rating: PG-13 at the most.





"They say I might have to restrain her at night. But sometimes she's fine. She looks at me and...she's fine."



"I'm sorry I couldn't-"



"It's okay- I can do this. I'm gonna take care of her. Even if she never... She's my girl."



"I understand."



"I know you do. Hear that, baby? You're my always."



She was right. I was there sometimes. I think that was what made it so frighteningly real. Knowing that she was right beside me the whole time, but I was unable to reach her in anyway. It was horrible. It terrified me that I might never get back to her. But she got me back. My WIllow got me back, restored my mind, loved me. And now she's...my love brought me back only for me to lose her. I should have stopped her when she suggested we bring Buffy back. It was my fault, I could have stopped her. I



Tara stopped writing.

"Damning yourself is no way to sort out your feelings."



Tara looked back over what she had written.



"I'm such a loser! Willow's proved that she can stay off magic, why can't I trust her!"



[Because she made the magic her everything.]



Tara shoved the book of her bed, it had been a stupid idea. Tara, being someone who talked out her feelings, couldn't describe what she was thinking into words. The wicca leaned against the backboard of the bed.



[She chose magic over my love. Our love.]



The tears started, finding their way down the blonde's pale cheeks.

[willntlover]

Please see previous part for disclaimers.





[Tara.]



Willow snuggled in closer to her blankets.



[Not Tara.]



Blurry eyes struggled to open. Disappointment and loss clouded WIllow's face. Her emerald eyes turning a pale jade.



[It felt like she was here.]



The redhead blinked, her gazed transfixed upon the figure in a nearby chair.



"Tara?"



Willow pushed her cocoon of bedcovers away, slowly making her way over to the figure.



"Tara?"



Willow reached out, catching a glimpse of her pajamas. Something was wrong with them, but Willow pushed it to the back of her mind.



"Baby, are you okay?"



The blonde didn't answer, so Willow let her hand touch Tara's shoulder.



"Willow?"



The hacker was starting to get worried.



"Yes. Tara, what's wrong?"



"Oh Goddess. Buffy!! Buffy!!"



Tara started to sob.



"No. No,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,"



Buffy rushed into the room, to find Tara crying in a chair.



"It's okay Tara. I- Buffy, what's wrong with her?"



The blonde seemingly ignored her, and pulled Tara into her arms. Buffy spoke, trying to reassure the witch.



"I know it hurts. But you can get through this. I know you, and this sin't anything you can't handle."



"How can you say t-that," Tara pulled back from Buffy. "How can you?! You d-didn't- I lost the love of my life! You, you lost Angel, only because he loved you. I lost Wllow because she did a spell! S-s-she couldn't, she didn't want my love!"



"No! I love you baby! I would never-" But it didn't matter they couldn't hear her. She watched, helpless as Tara- "No!!!!!!!!!"

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"No!!!!!!!!" Willow gasped for air. "Just a dream. Nothing else, just-" A warm hand on her arm stopped her before she could start babbling.



"Willow are you okay?"



"Tara?" The blonde sat down next to Willow, her hand holding oen of Willow's.



"It was a dream. A nightmare from your screams it would seem."



"It was. Oh, Tara, it was so so bad." Willow pulled Tara to her, burying her head in the crook of Tara's shoulder.



"Your awake now, Will. You don't have to be afraid."



Reality chose that moment to return to Willow.



""I'm sorry. I shouldn't." She removed her hand from Tara's.

Tara stood up, backing away from the bed. Willow quickly got up to.



"What are you doing here?"



"I came to see you." With that Tara closed the distance between them and placed her arms around Willow.



[She's here. She's really...] Willow tightened her hold on Tara.



"I'm sorry baby. I've given it up, but you knew that already. What I want to say is that I don't want to go on without you. Your my always." Tara said nothing, her hand tracing Willow's sides. "Tara can you forgive me for the spells?"



"I have already frogiven you." Willow's eyes lit up.



"Really?"



"I forgive you for the spells."



"Does this mean that we can, go out again?" Tara's movements stopped, and fear crept into Willow's eyes. "Tara?"



"This isn't right. I-I should go."



"Tara, no!" Willow kept her arms clasped around Tara.



"Willow this isn't." Tara let the words die in her throat. "Wil-low." Tara stared at Willow. [Her hair, her lips. The scared look in her eyes. They need to be that emerald color. I need to see it.] "Kiss me."



"What?"



"Kiss me."



Willow didn't hesitat again. [I love her. She loves me.] Willow brought their lips together in a desperate kiss. [Perfect.] Tara whimpered as Willow traced her bottom lip, clearly asking for entrance.



Tara pulled back. Willow looked down, ashamed of her actions.



"You don't have to ask Willow, ever."

[thehighpriestess]

Good start ! I can't wait to read your next installment.



I was wondering if you had a beta reader as the dream got a bit confusing as to who was speaking part way through. I worked it out though!



Keep writing

WILLOW: Where would you go? If you felt lost
and alone? Where would you go?

TARA: To you.

[Blue77]

Willow and Tara kisses ... sounds good to me!!! When's the next part?



Blue

"She should have died hereafter: There would have been a time for such a word ...

...it is a tale, told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."

Shakespeare/Macbeth

[witchbitchwillow]

heya,



i really like the neginning of this story!.willow and taras emotions about the break up were shown really well and the fact that tara had forgiven willow for the spell but she still chose magic over her.



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[willntlover]

Thank you for all the feedback.



I actually didn't think you guys would like it and only wrote those two parts. However since I can be persuaded to write more. SO look for somemore towards the end of the week.

-Will

[willntlover]

See previous chapters for disclaimers.

[ ] indicates thoughts



Tara's POV









"Good morning Baby."



I wake up to gentle kisses being lovingly placed upon my features. [Baby?] I open my eyes, my heart racing, praying that its not a dream, that the weeks of loneliness and heartbreak are a stupid dream caused by to much ice cream.



"Tara?"



I see her face, those green eyes speak to me, tell me of her love.



"Hey."



She smiles and I feel it echo in my face. She snuggles back into me.



"You've never been a morning person."



And she giggling. God how I have missed her giggling. Almost as much as her babbling.



"Willow?"



"Yes?"



"We have to talk."



Her smile loses a bit of its brightness and I want to smack myself for hurting her.



"I know."



Willow raises up into a Indian style sitting position on the bed. My breath catches as the sheets pool at her stomach, leaving my eyes to follow the creamy expanse of her skin. My mouth dries out as I gaze upon her chest. Willowbreasts. Suddenly a cough brings me back from my appraisal. [Not fair! I've waited long enough! I want willow breasts!] But the grin on her face more than makes up for my loss.



"S-sor"



"Tara MaClay you finish that and I'll- well I wouldn't do anything to you. Maybe give you a disapproving look. [Willow babble!] I sit up, folding my legs under my bottom, and call her name be fore she...



"Willow."



Too late. Her eyes, almost like a touch, are searching my body. I can almost close my eyes and go back to sleep. Only Willow can do that to me, make me feel safe. However, I reach out, taking her chin in my hand, moving her head up until I can see her sparkling deep forest eyes.



"As much as I want you, we really have to talk."



"Talk."



The cute pout on her face almost breaks my resolve.



"I can do that."



I lean in and kiss her, just wanting to feel her lips upon mine, and I smile, because for the first time in a long time I can.



"We'll work it out. I know we can."



I kiss her again this time to cut off her response.



"I love you Willow." Then I press my lips gently to her cheek.



"Always."

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I already have part four written out (Yay me!) I was wondering if anyone wanted a bit of smut? Tasteful smut really, there is an actual point. Oh wait there isn't Just let me know. I can do it w/o the smut.

-Will

[Catwalks]

you're the writer



if you think smut is the best way forward *snigger* then you go with your artistic bent!!!



we readers will of course respect you in the morning



ok now on with the smut



B



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"Dude! like you're getting in the Boob light alright!" - AB Stuff photoshoot

[The Next Tara Maclay]

I like smut.

[willntlover]

I am sorry that I haven't been able to update the story recently, RL sux, but at least all my stupid exams are over with!!!



See the first part for disclaimers



Willow's POV



The sun shines down on my face and I pull the covers up around my head. Or try to anyway, I would have if it weren't for the hands wrapped around my tummy.



[Hands wrapped around my tummy?]



Last nigth comes rushing back to me. Tara being in my, our room when I woke from a nightmare. The slow tentative cuddlling later on. I blush 'coz i now remember her making love to me. I've missed her so much and now she is back. Tara's still wrapped around me, her legs intertwined with mine.



[Heaven.]



We have to talk she's said so and I know it too.



"Good morning baby."



I trail kisses down her face, almost missing when her eyes open.



[So blue, like the sky.]



"Tara?"



"Hey."



I know my face lights up. Somewhere in the back of my mind I was waiting for her to recoil, run, because I don't deserve her. So I hide my face in her shoulder.



"You never were a morning person."



I giggle. My Tara always getting me to laugh. And then it hit me, she's forgiven me. She-



"Willow?"



"Yes."



"We have to talk."



My heart its being tap danced upon, but I won't give up hope. She loves me.



"I know."



I sit indian style then, because I could take it if shes...



[Bad thoughts, Willow! Tara would never do that, especially after last night.]



I need to see her eyes, so I look up into the eyes that have gotten me through nearly all of my pain. I find her gaze trained upon my breasts.



[Tara's having bad thoughts too! Okay not bad, just naughty thoughts, but still!]



I cough and she jerks her head up to my eyes. I'm grinning and I know it.



"S-sor."



Oh hell! No stuttering! Nope. No way, not around me.



"Tara McClay you finish that and I'll well I wouldn't do anything to you. Maybe give you a disaproving look."



[I'm babbling! Stop me! Please someone- helllooooo!]



The goddess has smiled upon me. My beautiful Tara's sat up, foled her legs so gracefully under her and forgotten about the sheet.



tbc



p.s. I am sorry about the lack o smut, i promise that I have some written, a friend of mine is looking at it right now though



thanks for reading

-Will.

[tommo]

You have some really nice ideas here and the dialogue is well worked out. However, I think you need to add some narration, if only to break up the dialogue more effectively. Try to describe the surroundings; tone of voice, actions or the emotions conveyed with the words.



Talking things over with a beta reader will help immensely. Try looking in the thread at the top of the board.

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"Smut now." - Dark Madfic Tommo

[jdcioffi]

It's almost like a screenplay. Nice.



I'd like more description, but, I'm very visual ... so .. whatever.



I think it's great tho.

JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[The Next Tara Maclay]

Hey, Nice fic, I will be waiting happily for the next update, I will give you a cookie and Vampire Willow if you update!!

[Little M]

Quote:

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My heart its being tap danced upon

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Wow how did u come up with that??? Great phrase!

I hope you will continue the fic soon

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'I go online sometimes, but everyone's spelling is really bad..it's depressing' - Tara