I will be the first to admit, that I am not a writer. However, in my post Gift sadness and the fact I was listening to the song Remember me this way, I have attempted to write a post Gift fic. What Willow is thinking as she waits for Angel.
Author: Lexi (
alexismq@hotmail.com)
I don't own the characters or the song, I have no money, please don't sue.
TISSUE WARNING. The song alone made me cry, of course, as bad as this fic may be, that can make you cry too!
I don't know how long I sat there in the hotel waiting for Angel to return, but it seemed like forever. All I could do it sit there and replay the battle in my head over and over again. Maybe if I had done something differently, Buffy would still be here. I know she wouldn't want me to think that, but I just can't help it. If it hadn't been for Tara, I don't know how I would have made it though the day. I have tried so hard to keep it together for everyone, they need me now to be strong, but it is so hard! Yeah, we saved the world again, but at what cost? Buffy is my best friend. Why did she have to sacrifice herself to save the world again? Do they even care? Do they appreciate her? Do they honor her sacrifice? My mind keeps going back to after the battle when we returned to the magic shop. Giles gave each of us a letter that he had in safekeeping for us. I opened the letter to find a picture of me and Buffy goofing off at some picnic. The sun was shining, the sky was blue, we were both laughing.
My dearest Willow,
If you are reading this letter, then it means that something has happened and I am no longer around. I wanted to let you know a couple of things, that I don't think I told you enough. I was listening to the radio the other day and the song Remember me this way came on. You know, that song by Jordan Hill, from Casper? Well, I decided to write the lyrics here because I think it has a lot to do with you and me.
Every now and then,
We find a special friend,
Who never lets us down.
You have always been there for me, Willow. Whenever I need you, no matter what, even when I wasn't paying attention, you were there for me. You are my best friend.
Who understands it all.
Reaches out each time you fall,
You’re the best friend that I've found.
I couldn't have made it this far in my life without you. No matter what, you were there for me. Angel, Angelus, slaying, Riley, Mom….. you were always there for me and I don't know if I ever thanked you for that.
I know you can't stay,
But part of you will never ever go away,
You're heart will stay
I know this doesn't make sense, I left, not you. But no matter what, I have always known that no matter where I am, a part of you is always with me.
I'll make a wish for you,
And hope that it comes true.
That life will just be kind,
To such a gentle mind
You have the most beautiful soul. Have I ever told you that? You are one of the smartest people I know, and my only hope is that you live life to the fullest and that you are happy.
If you lose your way,
Think back on yesterday,
Remember me this way,
Remember me this way
I will always be here for you. You just can't see me as much as you used to. I will be here for you, watching out for you.
I don't need love to see,
The love you bring to me,
No matter where I go.
You have given me such strength. I have always known that you loved me. I love you too!
And I know that you'll be there,
Forever more a part of me,
You're everywhere, I'll always care
And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you,
I'll be standing by your side in all you do,
And I won't ever leave,
As long as you believe,
You just believe
I won't ever be gone as long as you remember me in your heart. I will live on through you.
I'll make a wish for you,
And hope that it comes true.
That life will just be kind,
To such a gentle mind
Take care of each other. Look after everyone for me. I know it will be hard, but I also know that you can do it. Thank you again for being in my life.
If you lose your way,
Think back on yesterday,
Remember me this way,
Remember me this way
The hardest thing in this world is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me.
Always remember, I love you.
Buffy Anne Summers
[This message has been edited by AlexisMQ (edited May 25, 2001).]
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wiltar4evr
Cool Monster Fighter
Posts: 135
Registered: Mar 2001 posted May 25, 2001 19:09
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Wow, that was great. And yes it made me cry. I have always loved that song from Casper. Everytime I here it I makes me cry or get misty eye'd. Now the next time I here this song I will be reminded of Buffy and Willow's friendship.
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Roxton
Strong like an Amazon
Posts: 2010
Registered: Sep 2000 posted May 25, 2001 21:34
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Thanks for a wonderful story Lexi. It was so touching it brought tears to my eyes. You have captured the essence of their friendship.
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tara*goat
Blessed Wannabe
Posts: 19
Registered: Feb 2001 posted May 25, 2001 22:04
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that was very beautiful, it made me cry! actaully i still am, but n-e ways... that was very sweet. and don't sell yourself sort either, you are a talented fic-writer... good job!!!
~tara~
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knike74
Blessed Wannabe
Posts: 14
Registered: May 2001 posted May 26, 2001 02:04
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I that was so cool, I teared up.