Hey, I know I haven't updated in a long while, a lot has been going on. Well here is an update for those who actually like this fic. Again all thoughts will be in parenthisis, (like this) My Love goes to all.
Tara awoke 3 hours after she fell asleep in Willow's room. She slowly opened her eyes and pushed herself up on her elbows, and looked at the clock. 9:00 PM is what the clock read. ( 9 O'clock already, Man I've been sleeping for 3 hours) Tara slowly got up and opened the door and then headed downstairs where she found Willow sitting on the couch typing away on her laptop.
"Hey Will, What're you up too?" Tara asked as she sat in the chair across from Willow. Willow looked up and smiled. "Oh Hey Tara, I'm just working on this book I'm in the process of writing."
"You're writing a book?" Tara asked Willow a little shocked, She never knew the that Willow liked to write. The red head nodded. "What's it all about?" Willow then looked up to Tara.
"Well, basically, this book is just my fantasy life. I mean all the things that I wanted to happen in my childhood and all the things that I want to change from the past, I do in this book. Do you get it?"
"Yeah I get it, I think that's a great idea." Tara said to Willow, "I never knew that you liked to write."
"Well, I didn't either, But when you left and went to England to live with Giles, I was so depressed that I needed something to do that was extremely time consuming and that took my mind off of things for a while." Willow then looked back at her laptop afraid that she just mentioned a sore topic.
Tara looked down at her lap and played with her hands. "So, Where'd Buffy go?"
Never looking at Tara Willow answered, "Buffy went to work a late night at the Double Meat Palace, She'll be home around 1:30 if you need her for something."
"No, no I don't need her for anything, Uhm, Willow do you think we can talk, about the past that is." Tara looked up to see that Willow stopped typing and just stared at her laptop screen.
"Yeah, sure." Willow closed her laptop, but never made eye contact with the blonde girl sitting next to her.
"Willow, I want you to know that I never stopped l..oving you, and I only left because it was the best thing to do. I mean, Will, you took my memory, Instead of talking things out, you turned to magic." Tara then looked up at Willow with sad eyes.
"Tara, I know and I understand why you left. It's just that, I mean you didn't tell anyone where you were going, I was never able to say what I wanted to say to you after I got better and away from the magics." Willow looked at Tara.
"Well, You can say it now, I mean we're the only ones here so it's a good time to say what you need to say." Tara gave Willow a little half smile.
"I....I wanted to say, that I'm sorry, For everything. I should have realised that I was hurting people that I loved, and I should have listened to you. What I did to you was beyond wrong and I thought about it a lot, always wondering what the hell was wrong with me, that I chose magic over you, The only person that I ever really, truly loved. I ruined the best relationship that I have ever been in and I miss you. Everyday, I miss you." Tears began to run down Willow's cheek.
"I miss you too you know?, I miss everything about you and you know what really made me decide that moving back here was the best thing?...You, Us. I mean, I don't know about you, but I miss what we had, I...I understand if you don't want to try again, I mean I did leave you and you're problly seeing someone. and hey look, I'm babbleing, That's your job." Tara looked up and saw Willow smiling and Giggleing.
"I like Tara babble, and I would love nothing more than to try again, There's no one else Tara, there never was anyone after you, Didn't you hear me say that, You are my one true love, and you could never be replaced in my heart." Willow smiled and placed her hand on Tara's which was on Tara's knee.
Tara smiled a huge smile and said, "Coffee, Tomorrow, You and me, Sounds great, Well, I will leave you to your writing and head back upstairs for a while."
"No, No, I'm done writing for the day, Do You want to sit with me and watch some Discovery channel, That crazy Crocidile Hunter guy is on." Willow smiled at Tara.
Tara sat down next to Willow and smiled, "I love that guy." She said, and they sat and watched T.V. untill both of them nodded off on the couch.
Well, I hope you all like that update, It kinda stinks. But oh well.
Love to all. E-mail me with some feeback at
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Much Love,
Lisa
This is our Last Embrace, Must I dream and Always see your face.~ Jeff Buckley "Last goodbye"