Oh, good goddess, I was cleaning all the crap out of my office and I found my old poem book, I've had this thing since I was ten, that's four years. I haven't seen it in ages, and now you all get to see my melodramatic preteen poetry!
Har har har, don't laugh your ass of at my terrible butchering of poetry.
So WrongWhat is wrong
Why do I feel
So pained so hurt
It's all too real
My head is pounding
My heart beats fast
I hate this feeling
I hope it doesn't last
Please go away
Get out of my head
Is it because of you
I feel so dead?
I wish I could I wish I wouldI wish I could
I wish I would
Feel more then pain
Feel some gain
This is getting old
I shouldn't have told
Now my friends stare
Back into their eyes I glare
I once was a kid
So happy that I did
Make head bands out of clover
But now my life is over
Then I look at those who have it worse
My life is far from a curse
Perfect Life?Honestly my life is perfect
I have good grades
And parents who care
Friends who I love and like to think I'm happy
But those who know me really don't
I hurt so bad but my life is so perfect
My mum says it's called depression
A chemical imbalance in the brain
Does that mean I'm phsyco?
I'm so confused...
I have so many questions
And so little time
Do I have a perfect life?
Or am I just leading Me on?
CountingDo you always count to eleven?
Count when you walk, count when you eat
Count when you sleep, count when you talk
I may be occupied by I always
Count in the back of my mind
One-two-three-four-five-six-seven-eight-nine-ten-eleven
And start all over again...
I'm sorryI'm sorry I've dragged you into this
I'm sorry I asked for your help
I'm sorry if I make you worry
I'm sorry if I make you cry
I'm sorry if I left you traumatized
I'm sorry if you don't get it
I'm sorry if you don't understand
I'm sorry I've urged you into depression
I'm sorry if I've left you all alone
I'm sorry if I've hurt you
And you know most of all
I'm sorry for dragging you into this
Crush no loveTry as you may
You'll never win
Try as you may
You will not find
The secret which I hold inside
My secret fear
My secret pain
Try as you may
You will crush no love
Because my heart has not felt
The feeling
Though it yerns so desperatly
FriendsIf you know me or think you do
Take the test, are you true?
Name my friends off one by one
If you can't that's no surprise
A simple penny what's to hide?
I search desperatly until my hand
Falls upon the copper round
And then I sit and wash away
All the feelings all the pain
Hunger, sorrow
Counting, torment
Anger, frustration
What comes next?
True LoveTake your time
A simple crush
Is no true love
You say you love them
Is it true?
Think about it,
It's easy to get confused
In this world where all we hear
Is "Dear, I love you"
"Baby, I love you too"
A simple sigh or an eyeroll
Washes it all way
There is NO true love
HeartbreakWhen you like someone
And they like you
It's like the world is spinning so fast
And it only slows down when you're with them
All is well until that fateful day
Which will come to everyone
But that's not true heartache
For you have gotten wheat you wished for
True heartbreak comes
From one you cannot have
You watch from afar
Catch their glance between classes
Never to be imbraced in their arms
That is true heartbreak
ErinYou see me pained
unhappy, hurt
What you don't see deep inside
Is the one fear that I hide
No one to love
No one to care
No one to whom my feelings I can share
The blood is wet
But the wound is old
For my tears on it have spilt
Tears full of emotion and sorrow
You mean a million times more to me
Then you will ever know...
Cause I'm hanging on to every word you say
Without you I would be dead
KaraThe days are gone
They were so full
So fun
Science was my favorite subject
Because I knew I could talk to you
I know you'll be there forever
but forever always ends
You have to understand
How much I need you here
MarisaYou of all people
In this world
Have touched my heart
You make me worry
You make my cry
You make me hate you
For doing things you shouldn't
You made me grow up
I couldn't be a little kid
Surrounded by drugs and violence
You were a splash of cold water
A smack to the face
But somehow you mannaged to be my
Number One
ColdSitting on the kitchen counter
Naked cold and all alone
Numb and shivering
My lip is cracked and bleeding
Shoulders shake with silent sobs
I feel so cold my hands are ice
My muscles twitch and spasm
It's painful I'm so weak
My secret scars stay hidden
My screams echo in my mind
Each shiver has me wincing in pain
My insides hurt and my head swims
I wipe the blood off my lips and
The tears from my face
Oh so cold...
AloneSo alone
Deep indide
The more you ask
The more I hide
Tear stained
I wasn't left alone
So one thing
Take two steps back
Leave me be
But be sure
You come back to see me
The WorldThe world is such a lonesome place
So lonely and so big
Forever are we yerning
Forever do we cry
The world just uses us
And leaves us there to die
InsideI have an inside
And an outside
All are aloud to see
Meet
And poke fun at
My outside
But my inside
Becomes desperate
More and more each day
It reaches out for love and care
But it gets shunned away
So don't mind if I don't trust you
Don't mind if I don't care
Don't mind if I try to hide
My inside gives what it recieves
So you'd best stay outside
DeepDeep inside
I hurt
In pain
my heart is shattered
Beat up
Beat down
Screwed up
Bloodied up
Deep down
Indside
Bruised
Battered
Burned
Deep inside
BrittanyDoesn't it seem weird
Doesn't it seem strange
How you only talk to me
When I don't know if I'm sane?
I just don't think it's fair
The way you ignore and shun me
Like you don't even care
But I know you do
I don't want this to end anything
I just want you to know
I hope you're not mad at me
TeatheredTied
Teathered
Bound
Leashed
Choked
Tight chain
Short reach
BloodSomething to cry over
Something to drown in
Something to wash out
All that's within
Okay, that's all the angsty melodrama I have for you today! Get out of here! but leave me notes first
Spero eorum amo donbit tu animus magnamus
Why yes, the rumors are true, I have patted the Great One's ass...