I saw the movie when it came out. It was okay, but I thought nothing special of it. I watched the movie because I had an obsession at the time with Beverly Hills 90210 and Luke Perry was in it. A few years later I was flipping channels on the television and I kind of stumbled upon it and I thought it was funny that they made a television show out of a movie that wasn't really good. I watched some episode when I came across it on the television, until my parents got divorced. My mother broke down and got depressed when my father had left. So when I was 17 I kind of took care of my mother and brother because I didn't want (and I was afraid) to leave her alone. There were reruns of Buffy every evening around 7 pm, and we watched it together. And it is weird, but it was almost they only thing that she enjoyed at the time. When my mom was doing better after a few months I fell back to my own problem, I was confused about my own sexuality and I didn't have anything I could relate to except Ellen and the lesbian doctor on ER. And these weren't really feminine, and that made me think I couldn't be a lesbian because you know, I was totally not butch. And then season four of Buffy aired and they introduced Tara. And when she became involved with Willow, a whole new world opened up for me, and it made it possible for me to cope with the fact that I loved women and tell people. And here we are, thirteen years later and I can truly say that the show was a big help to my mother to get her through her divorce and for me with the whole coming out thing. I am not a lesbian, but I can now say that I'm just attracted to somebody's appearance, attitude, creativity and humor, and I don't care if that is a man, a woman, or a transgender person. I don't really care what's between the legs.
Ofcourse I love Willow and Tara, and I enjoy watching them and they will always be special but it's more than 10 years later and I realized I don't see Alysson and Amber as them so much anymore. Ofcourse most of the time I see Alysson on television she is Lily. And Amber is just my big inspiration, she is doing everything I want to do in live. Writing, making movies, be creative, make things. And it might sound stupid, but a reply from her on Twitter made me make the decision, to just go for it. And I did. And it is going great. So I really see her as Amber and less and less as Tara, and that is really going to the background and I realized I see them as two completely different things. Amber just portrayed Tara, thank god, but Amber is way less serious than Tara and I like that a lot more. Amber is just awesome, hilarious, ffing creative and very kind and a total goofball. But I still watch an episode of Buffy everytime I feel sad
Damn, what a story. Sorry, I was on a roll hehe.
I eventually ordered Seasons 4-5 online. 
That's great!
