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Directions to hellIt was Scooby story time once again. And the gang was sprawled around the lounge in various states of disarray.
Giles was seated in his favourite chair sipping hot tea from a fine china cup. This evening he had forgone his usual tweed and 3 piece suit in favour of jeans, a leather jacket and an earring, which begged an explanation he had yet to give.
Buffy was dressed in a different, if similarly inexplicable fashion. She was wearing bib-front overalls that looked as though they could have been salvaged from Willow’s least-cool bottom drawer, and her blond hair was in pig-tails.
Dawn was sprawled on one of the couches, her head resting on Buffy’s knee and her feet stretching across Xander’s lap to the arm of the couch. She was a bit longer than her sister.
Xander had forgone his semi-traditional bottle of caffeine-frenzy for a big mug of coffee.
Buffy looked around, pig-tails waggling. She was tapping her foot impatiently and jiggling Dawns head up and down.
“Hey!” Dawn grumbled.
Buffy ignored her. “Where is everybody?”
Xander waved with his oversized coffee mug. “Foody goodness. They should be here soon.”
“I love having a chef on tap, I swear it has to be the best thing ever,” Buffy said.
Giles spoke up. “I should probably say something about Mary not being here solely for our benefit. But yes, it is wonderful. Not to disparage your ah, Mac & cheese Xander, but the standard of cooking has improved immensely.”
“Hey, I’m just looking forward to trying pizza made by an expert, instead of from the pizza place in town.”
Buffy sniffed the air experimentally. “Pizza! And uh, lasagne I think?”
“Who needs a bloodhound when we have Buffy,” Dawn said from Buffy’s lap.
“Hey beanpole, you’re stealing my spot,” Faith said, wandering in with a stack of covered trays.
“Aww! I just got comfy,” she grumbled.
Faith shrugged. “You don’t have to move, but if you don’t, I’m gonna sit on your head.”
Dawn grumbled a bit, but she shifted to the floor by Xander’s feet.
She grinned cheekily. “You know if you did that, Jules would never speak to me again.”
Tara and Willow strolled in just in time to hear Buffy say. “Ok, enough with the face sitting, I wanna eat.”
“Oh, uh, should I ask about the face sitting?” Willow said.
Buffy face-palmed. “Really no,” she mumbled into her hand.
They added their trays to the ones Faith put on the table. Everyone dove in, grabbing pizza, garlic bread or lasagne seemingly at random.
Dawn made almost embarrassing sounds of delight as she ate her first slice of pizza. “Uuuhh! Oh. My. God. This is the best pizza in the world.”
Giles sighed, a quiet sound of gastronomic delight. “Oh my. I don’t know what you are paying Mary, Willow. But I don’t think that it’s enough.”
“I am so going to get fat. I’m going to look like one of those round Russian dolls,” Willow sighed. “I won’t be Tiny Jewish Santa anymore, I’ll just be Jewish Santa.”
“Which is why you are joining us for a morning run,” Tara said with a smile.
Willow looked grumpy.
For the next half hour, there were only happy eating sounds.
Afterwards, cheerfully stuffed Scoobies stared into space as they processed their gastronomic wonders, and their tummies processed the food.
Faith spoke up first. “Whoa, that was good. Like, lighting up a cigarette good.”
Happy sighs greeted her comment.
“Hey, no to the cigarette lighting. I thought you quit?” Buffy complained.
Faith held up her hands defensively. “I was being metaphorical. I did quit. I mean I never really wanted to start, but there’s not a whole hell of a lot to do in prison if you’re not a fan of bull-dykes, which I ain’t.”
She smiled. “I like my girls small and sunny. And Xan? Quit looking surprised that I know what the word ‘metaphorical’ means.”
The little family sprawled in satiated silence for a time, before eventually Dawn spoke up. “Tara? You might wanna start story hour, before everyone falls asleep.”
“Good thinking Dawnie, just give me a moment to read my journal...” Tara said, trailing off as she read. She winced and looked embarrassed.
“This next bit was a little later after some, um, bad things had happened. There’s a small amount of drunken singing and just a little dancing on tabletops.”
Faith look pleased. “For real? Go Blondie, get down with your bad ass self!”
The Scoobies tried quite hard to not look as though they were suddenly paying attention.
Tara sat down and Willow assumed ‘Tara story-time position’, sprawled out on the smaller couch with her head resting on Tara’s lap. Faith relaxed into Buffy’s embrace.
Dawn saw all the cuddling and pouted. “Xander, I need some snuggles.”
Xander lifted his arm in invitation and Dawn snuggled up to him.
Tara started. “Well...”“We’re going to need another sword-arm,” Melchior said evenly.
“We are under strength, and we will need to fill the hole that Rinaldo has left in our ranks,” he said as he took off his tricorn hat and scratched at his metal head.
“I do not say this to cause hurt, simply to address his loss.”
Tara was conflicted.
One the one hand, Rinaldo was a deeply disturbing man, distant and highhanded, invading her personal space and manhandling her whenever he though she was likely to get into danger.
On the other hand, he never failed to protect her, and in truth had died doing so.
Willow looked puzzled, Tara had mentioned Rinaldo in passing, but had not really spoken of him.
Tara pressed a finger to Willow’s lips.
Dawn piped up. “That sounds kinda creepy. I mean I’d feel pretty wigged out if people manhandled me all the time.”
Tara nodded sadly and returned to her story. Catherine also seemed to be conflicted. She once told Tara that she had never been particularly close to Rinaldo, but that they had been working partners for a number of years. Over those years she had come to rely on him.
Tara imagined that she was grieving for the loss of her partner, in her own way.
Melchior continued. “I have made contact with a person, a warrior, known to possess a number of skills useful to us. I will interview him later today. If he seems to be a good match, I will introduce him to you at some point afterward.”
Various grunts and nods greeted this proclamation.
“I will contact you all after I have interviewed him, then you can have a look at him and see what you think.”
The group stood and filed out the door, happy enough to leave the grunt-work to their putative leader.
“Time to get thoroughly rat-arsed,” Catherine said, as she and Tara stood in the hallway.
Tara raised an eyebrow at this and gave Catherine a look.
“Look, we were never what you’d call close, but he was my friend. I think it appropriate to get totally nozzled in his honour,” Catherine said.
“I like how this chick thinks! Shame she’s not around, we could really tie one on,” Faith said.
“Nope,” Buffy said, swatting her leg. “No drunken hooliganism for you.”
“Hooliganism?” Faith said, eyebrows raised.
Buffy shrugged. “Blame Giles.”“Um, I’ve never really been one for drinking, but I’ll keep you company if you like,” Tara replied.
Catherine nodded. “Sweet, you can get me home when I’m useless.”
They stood in silence for a time.
“I’m guessing you’re feeling a bit weird about this?” Tara asked.
“Oh yeah. Big time. I mean I feel bad that he’s gone, but not as bad as I figure I should. So I feel bad about that, which means I do feel bad, just not in the way I expected. And then I start to get worried, ‘cos we had a great setup. I kept him out of trouble with actual people, he covered my arse in a fight. It was great. Plus he didn’t care about money beyond the basics, so he usually gave a good chunk of his share to me. And now I feel bad that I’m shallow.”
Tara goggled at the monologue that streamed from Catherine. Not quite a stream-of-conscious babble, but pretty close. Catherine actually took breaths and used sentences, albeit highly compressed ones.
“I really need a drink. Time to drown my confusion in a comforting fog of strange alcoholic beverages, in many unusual shades,” Catherine said as she left.
Takarn raised his eyebrow at Tara.
Tara shook her head and followed Catherine.
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Two hours later, Catherine was standing on a tavern table belting out the fourth verse of the ‘Hedgehog song.’ She was accompanied by the rest of the Tavern, who were understandably friendly towards anyone providing free booze and entertainment.
Tara was hiding her head and pretending not to know her.
She shot the barkeeper a pleading look, and was terribly disappointed when he just grinned at her and held up a fat silver coin.
The band played on.
“The spines on his back are so awful thick,
you'll end up with naught but a painful prick.
He has an impregnable hole when curled up in a ball,
Hence the hedgehog can never be buggered at all!”
Catherine howled and stomped on the table in time to the rhythm. “C’mon Tara! Live a little!” she said as she shoved a cup of something suspicious and blue into Tara’s hand.
“No way! Uh-uh. I am not joining you d-dancing on the tables!” Tara protested.
Still bopping to the beat that had yet to die down, Catherine encouraged Tara. “I’m not saying get completely pissed, just have a couple cups of this weird fruit punch stuff, and relax a bit!”
“It’s blue! And glowing! I don’t think it meant to be drunk by humans!” Tara protested, eyeing the wooden cup and its contents suspiciously.
“Perfectly safe! I’ve been knocking them back for, ooo... several minutes at least, an’ I haven’t exploded once!” Catherine laughed.
“Seriously Blondie, you meet the most interesting people, I mean this Cathy chick sounds like a blast,” Faith said.
Tara smiled. “You remind me of her a bit, I think you’d get on pretty well.”Tara sipped the faintly glowing drink with infinite suspicion. It was... fruity. Sort of Pineapple-y and a bit coconut-y. And a bit alcoholic of course.
It seemed safe enough.
Half an hour later...
“With one lusty lunge you can stick it to a sponge
Promiscuous porifera will swallow all your gunge
You can hang up their corpses on your bathroom wall
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at aaaall!”
The whole tavern joined in for the last line, the musicians thumping out a solid rhythm for everyone to stomp to.
Both women were stood on the table in the middle of the tavern as they finished off the last line in grand style.
Tara blushed furiously as she read what she had written. Faith howled with laughter, the image of Tara dancing on a table top just tickled her funny bone.
Xander had an ear-to-ear grin, but Buffy and Dawn looked shocked. The image of a drunken Tara dancing on tavern table just did not fit into either head.
Faith shook her head. “Damn girl! I knew there was a fire under that innocent exterior! You gotta give us a demo sometime!”
Giles looked at her over his glasses and tut-tutted sadly. He tried to look terribly disappointed, though his disapproving glower was spoiled by his surprisingly cheerful chuckle.
If anything Tara looked more embarrassed.
The real prize winner in the shocked expression competition was Willow. Her face attempted to convey shock, amusement, pride and incredulity all in one go. She was in serious danger of spraining her face.They collapsed laughing on the table, swinging their feet over the edge of the table like kids, to the sounds of applause and whistles from the patrons.
“That song is awful!” Tara complained, laughing.
“You still sang it!” came the reply from somewhere in the tavern.
“Gunge! Yuck! Brrrr!” Tara said, shivering theatrically.
“Poor Hedgehog, none for him,” Catherine said sadly.
“Well, maybe he can find a like-minded boy-hedgehog to take care of his... needs?” Tara suggested.
Catherine looked deep in thought. “There must be a way, otherwise there’d be no more little hedgehogs.
“I’m not sure that’s how you get little hedgehogs,” Tara said uncertainly.
“Yeah yeah, I know, but... Butt! Ha! Where was I? Oh yeah, not that different, so little boy hedgehogs and little girl hedgehogs... how does that work?” Catherine said unsteadily.
“Ouch?” Tara said. “I’m not sure I’m the right person to answer that question anyway”
“Heh, who is?” Catherine said with a shrug. “I’m not sure I’d want to meet anyone who was an expert on hedgehog reproduction. You’d have to be a bit creepy to spend that much time figuring it out... and watching. Eeew!”
“Red? Your girlfriend is a weird drunk. We really have to go party sometime,” Faith said, grinning at Tara.
“Well, there’s that dress up night at the Peach this Friday,” Willow said.
“That was a very weird situation,” Tara protested. “A-a one-time thing that I am in no hurry to repeat.”
She looked into her lap to discover Willow had settled her expression on ‘Impish Grin’.
“I promise you sweetie, no drunken dancing on tables.”
Willow pouted. “Aww, I was sort of looking forward to seeing that, I mean it’s not every day you discover your girlfriend has this hidden wild streak.”
Tara sighed. “I was really tempted to add this to the list of boring stuff that no one wants to hear-” she was immediately cut off by sounds of protest from everyone.
“-but I realized I’d be missing out on the best bits of the story. Even if they are horribly embarrassing for me.” “Mind if I join you ladies?” said a warm male voice.
Both women looked up to see a well-dressed, dark haired man.
“My boyfriend has a crossbow. And a licence that says he’s allowed to shoot anyone he wants with it,” Catherine said, while making cheerful ‘shoo’ gestures with both hands.
The man bowed with relatively good grace and left.
“So you two are serious then?” Tara asked.
Catherine shrugged. “Nope. He’s a nice guy though, we have fun, it’s good.”
Catherine looked at Tara with mock suspicion. “So, how long have you been hiding your angelic singing voice under a bush? ‘scuse the confused metaphor.”
“I used to sing when I was little, and with my mother, but I was never confident enough to sing as a grownup. Well, except for Willow,” Tara said.
Catherine looked a little cross-eyed. “You should sing us a song. And who or what is Willow?”
Tara looked away for a moment blushing.
“Your special guy I imagine?” Catherine said with a growing smile.
“Um, no. Willow... Willow is my girl,” Tara said nervously.
“Darn tootin!”Willow said, kissing Tara’s hand.“Aha! I knew there was fire in there somewhere girl! So tell me about her, I imagine she’s back home? ‘cos that’s the only personal stuff you ever mention, that you are trying to work your way back there.”
Emboldened by the fruity blue drink, or perhaps just a need to tell someone other than Takarn, she opened up to Catherine a little.
“I’m not from around here,” she said.
“Duh. I’m drunk, not stupid.”
Tara blinked in surprise, prompting Catherine to explain. “You have an accent that sounds Brelish, except you’re not from here. Aaaand you act like a foreigner, all amazed by the littlest of things,” Catherine responded.
An attractive man approached the pair, but before he could open his mouth, Catherine thumped one of her pistol-shaped weapons down on the table. He turned and walked away without word.
Before Dawn could open her mouth, Buffy jumped in.
“No guns on tables. I would have thought you’d have learned with the crossbow incident.”
Willow winced.
Tara spoke up. “Crossbow incident?”
“Dawn Summers, here named miss ‘left the crossbow loaded, Southern California’ forgot to unload the crossbow after she’d been practicing. A curious kitty found it, and there was a thing involving shooty-ness.”
Tara looked devastated. “Miss Kitty was cross-bowed?”
Dawn squeaked. “God no! That would be awful! She, um, slayed my breakfast, and the back window.”
“Slew,” corrected Giles absently, clearly not over his stint as a teacher. Dawn shrugged.
“And nearly gave me a heart attack,” Xander said. “Guess who was in the back yard working?”
“After that we kinda realized that it was too dangerous for her to be around us. I mean if a demon had squished her or she’d had some kind of accident, we’d have been devastated.”
“Or if Xander got shish-kabobbed. We have a strict ‘no killing Xander’ policy,” Buffy said.
“Page 2 of the new rulebook. ‘No killing Xander,’” he said with a grin.
Willow stroked Tara’s hair with a soft smile. “We found her a nice home on a ranch outside of town.”
Tara smiled. “I’m glad Miss Kitty is ok.”
Willow’s expression was sad. “I just couldn’t let anything happen to her. She was almost all I had left of you baby.”“I’m really, really not from around here. I’m... I’m from another world Catherine,” Tara said hesitantly.
“Huh. Cool. Never met a dimension traveller before,” Catherine said.
“You believe me?”
“She believed you?” Xander chimed in.
Tara spoke. “Yes. Mind you, we were a lot like the Scoobies in terms of the strange things we had seen. So a revelation like that? No big deal for her.”“Sure, stuff like that happens all the time. Plus you are stranger than a bag of chocolate spoons. You being from another world fits pretty well.”
“It does?” Tara said, clearly surprized.
“Yeah. I mean you are fairly clever, and good with people. But you don’t know an-y-thing,” Catherine said, spelling out the last word for emphasis.
“Like, you are a powerful spell caster, but you know less about magical theory than I do, and I’m no caster. You talk about a Goddess, but she’s not part of any pantheon that I know of. You are really good with people, especially foreigners, but you know nothing about any culture we have ever encountered. Even if you had never stepped outside the great Forest, you’d know more than you currently seem to.”
Tara looked slightly nervous as Catherine rolled out her observations.
“Hey, don’t feel bad, it just says ‘I’m a foreigner’ is all,” she said a little unsteadily. “This is the city of light, everyone here is from somewhere else. Mostly.”
Catherine drummed her fingers impatiently. “Come on, let’s get out of here. I have a powerful desire to move around and to breathe actual air, rather than beer fumes.”
Outside, the pair wandered side by side toward the market. Even in the middle of the night the market never closed. In the lower part of the city, concepts like day and night were optional.
“So. You were telling me about this Willow person, and where you come from,” Catherine said. “Is it all like, clouds and stuff?”
Tara looked puzzled at this. “Um, no. Why clouds and stuff?”
Catherine shrugged. “I dunno. I figure when people say stuff like ‘I’m from another plane’ I think either heaven or hell.”
She eyed Tara. “And you don’t strike me as particularly hellish. Actually I have no idea what a demon would be really like, but if you are hell-spawn, I’m really thinking that we need to rethink our attitude towards demons.”
Tara looked a little embarrassed. “Um, right. So, no to the clouds and such. I lived in a place called Sunnydale, in a country called America, on a world called earth.”
The noise and bustle of the market was making itself felt as they approached. Tara and Catherine stopped and leant on a stone railing, overlooking the lower market.
“Cool, so tell me about the place, ‘cos it’s not every day I get to talk to a person from another world.”
“Um, ok. Well, in many ways it’s like this place, mountains and trees and oceans, all just like here. The sky is blue and clouds are white and the sun is yellow. The difference is in the people and what they do.”
“Whoa! It’s like déjà vu or something,” Xander said. “This is just like when you told us about the other world, and now you’re in the other world telling them about the other-other world, which would be us... I think.”
Dawn patted him reassuringly on the knee.Catherine made encouraging gestures.
“Well, almost everyone there is human. The humans think that they are alone on the planet.”
“Are they?”
Tara shook her head. “No. There are vampires and many other types of demons, but there are so few of them that people overlook their presence. I mean, there seem to be too many of them at times, but not enough of them for an entire nation or even a tribe particularly.”
“Wow. And the humans don’t know they exist? It sounds like a feeding frenzy to me.”
Tara grimaced. “It’s not quite that bad. There are some who know. Demon hunters, the Watchers Council and there’s the Slayer.”
“Why did I just hear a capital ‘S’ on there? What is
The Slayer?” Catherine said, with exaggerated effect.
Buffy groaned. “Oh no, I think I know what’s coming.”“One girl in all the world, chosen to stand against the darkness, she is the Slayer,” Tara recited.
Buffy nodded. “Yup, exactly what I was afraid of.”“Whooo! I got the shivers when you said that! Sounds like one of them ‘Chosen of the gods’ types you get in all those cheesy comic-books.”
Tara nodded. “I don’t know who chose her, but yes, she is the chosen one.”
“What’s she like?”
“Exactly like one of those comic-book heroes. Noble, courageous, utterly unstoppable. Absolutely anyone who goes up against the Slayer loses.”
Faith grinned horribly. Buffy flushed pink, unsure whether to preen or hide. In the end she hid her furious blush behind a pillow.“Wow, scary. Wouldn’t mind meeting her, y’know in a brightly lit room with plenty of witnesses.”
“She’s not what you expect, really. She’s tiny, and sooo cute and perky, like a little bouncy ball of sunshine.”
Tara blushed furiously and ducked her head as she read this out. Dawn giggled hysterically and Faith threw back her head and laughed hard enough that she was in danger of falling over, despite being seated on a couch.
Buffy glowered at the top of Tara’s head. The tips of Tara’s ears were pink with her blush.
Xander and Giles swapped a look of mirth amidst the hilarity.
“Little bouncy ball!” Xander mouthed silently, miming bouncing a basketball.
Giles looked away in a totally unsuccessful attempt to conceal his mirth.
“You’re not helping here B, I mean you are dressed like pippi longstocking,” Faith said.
“Hey, no fair! Don’t mock my overalls, I was cleaning out the basement with Xander,” Buffy protested.
“It’s true,” Xander said. “She protected me from all the spiders.”
“I am the spider Slayer,” Buffy said, waggling her braids cheerfully as her head bobbed.
“And the oh-so-cute pigtails?” Faith asked, tugging gently on one. “What caused that?”
Buffy rolled her eyes. “Little sister, who do you think?”
Dawn glowered. “I am your sister, not your ‘little’ sister,” she said, making air quotes.
“Pigtails,” was all that Buffy said.Tara held out her hand at around chin-height to demonstrate the height of the fearsome ‘Slayer’.
“Damn, that’s pretty short. You sure she’s a human and not a Dwarf or a Halfling?”
“Don’t say it! Don’t say it!” Buffy protested, pointing her finger.
“I’m five foot four!” Dawn and Faith said in near perfect harmony.
Buffy battled with Tara for the ‘most furious blush’ award.Tara shook her head, making her hair swish. “Just short. But when she gets her game face on, whoo watch out! Hurricane Buffy!”
“Heh heh.”
“I’m serious. She’s been killed twice and got back up both times, she’s destroyed Master vampires, Demon Lords and a God. There isn’t anything that she can’t bring down.”
Buffy perked up a little. “Go me,” she said with a happy smile.“Not bad for a bouncy, perky ball of sunshine. So, this Slayer, she your girl?”
Faith burst out laughing again. Buffy tried to cut her off with poke in the ribs. Faith only stopped laughing long enough to say “Ow,” and kept on going.Tara jerked, looking quite surprised.
“Um, no. Willow is my girl, Buffy is friends with Willow.”
“Oh yeah, I remember now. Hey, seriously drunk chick here, cut me some slack!”
Tara laughed softly.
“So, that’s the Slayer, and your girl is friends with her. Ok, tell me about your girl.”
Tara’s face took on a dreamy expression. “Red. She has red hair, like fire in autumn leaves. And her eyes are green, with little brown stars in them, and her smile is so cute, like a cheeky little pixie.”
Willow lit up at this description, and gave a demonstration of her ‘cheeky pixie’ grin. Tara smiled and pinched her cheek, granny style.Tara stared off into space as she painted a picture of her love. “When something makes her happy, her whole face lights up, and when she loves, she loves with all her heart and soul. It takes my breath away.”
Catherine looked at Tara’s dreamy expression. “Damn Tara, you fell for this girl pretty hard.”
Tara sighed. “Oh yes. I am hers and she’s mine. Always.”
Tara leaned forward to place a tender kiss on Willow’s lips, Dawn looked melty and sighed.“Uh, so this might be a dumb question, but if she’s in another world, what are you doing here? Because it would have to be the mother of all fights, for you to run off to a whole other world.”
Tara looked sad. “I have no idea. I can sense her out there, I have made contact with her, and I can feel her inside,” Tara said touching her chest above her heart.
“But I have no idea what I am doing here in this world, or even how I got here. Elder Gann told me I fell from the sky over a Hellmouth, um, a Dimensional Gateway. So I guess I was travelling dimensions and ended up here, I think by mistake.”
She turned to look at the slightly dizzy-looking Catherine. “I was damaged by whatever it was that happened, that’s why I can’t remember a lot of things. But love? I can remember love.”
“I hafta say, that sounds familiar,” Catherine said.
Tara raised a questioning eyebrow.
“Rinaldo was the same in some ways. Big gaps in his memories, chunks of stuff coming back with a rush, sudden emotional reactions as some random thing reminded him of something important. That sort of thing.”
There was silence between them, threatening to become a long, awkward silence. Sounds of the market drifted through the night air.
“I never liked him, he was weird and awful to me,” Tara blurted.
She covered her mouth with her hand and looked mortified.
Catherine looked surprised for a moment. She laughed softly. “Yes he was.”
She patted Tara comfortingly on the hand. “Don’t feel bad about your honesty. You’re allowed to dislike the guy and still feel bad that he died.”
Words poured forth from Tara. “He followed me everywhere, it was like being stalked! And he manhandled me! I don’t like being picked up and carried places when I tell people that I don’t want to go! And he told me he’d kill me if he got a note telling him to! I don’t know about you, but I find that sort of thing very frightening, especially in a man as big and skilled at killing people as he was!”
Catherine looked on with mild amusement as Tara gasped for breath, before processing what she had said.
“Uh, yeah. Look, I’m not gonna excuse the guy, he always did what he thought was right, and damn everybody else,” Catherine said seriously.
“But he was like you in a lotta ways, lost and alone in a world he didn’t remember or understand. And whatever happened to you? He got it worse. He never remembered anything except the vaguest flashes.”
Catherine paused for a moment, thinking.
“When he staggered out of the shattered ruins that had claimed millions of lives, he found a care parcel and a note from some woman. It was all very mysterious, but the note told him what to do, and that was what he needed right then. Ever since then, he got a note, regular as clockwork every Friday, giving him orders. He came to rely on them.”
Catherine blew out her breath, making a horsey noise. “All this happened before I even met the guy. By the time we buddied up, he was fixed on those little notes like they were truth handed down from the heavens.”
“Yeah, that right there Snow-white? That’s pretty screwed up,” Faith said.
Tara nodded. “It was. It wasn’t long till we found out why. Don’t worry, the explanation isn’t too far away.”“Whoever wrote those notes, they knew something about what had happened to him. They knew and never told him, dangling hints of the truth like a carrot on a stick.”
She looked irritated. “I hope that one day that I can find them, and do painful stabby things to them.”
Tara though for a moment before speaking. “I’m sorry that you lost your friend.”
Catherine pulled her into a one armed hug. “Thanks Tara.”
“I feel so bad, I didn’t like him, and he died to protect me. All because someone wrote him a note telling him to do it,” Tara said.
“It’s kind of my fault, I mean, tentacle-face was getting ready to do something when I shot him in the face. That distracted him a bit. Then he exploded. I think the two events are linked somehow,” Catherine grumbled.
“And then Rinaldo stood up, and took the blast for me,” Tara said sadly.
Catherine nodded. “Yes he did.”
“And now I’m glad to be alive... so thank you Rinaldo,” Tara said, raising her wooden cup.
Willow whispered as she stroked the side of Tara’s face. “Thank you Rinaldo.”“Right, that’s enough fresh air. I’m feeling altogether too sensible, and that means I need booze therapy to cure my ills. Also some food. Come on, let’s head back to the tavern.”
The pair turned and walked back the way they came.
“So tell me a little more about Willow,” Catherine said.
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“...and we were finding bits of oatmeal in the strangest places for the next week!” Tara finished.
Willow was blushing furiously at the reminder of their failed experiment in transmutation.
“Hey, I remember that,” Dawn said. “That stuff was everywhere!”
Tara’s face was perfectly innocent as she added. “You have no idea.”
Willow hid her face in her hands.Catherine was all but falling off her stool laughing, reduced to helpless wheezes due to lack of air, a tankard of blue punch spilling down her arm.
“Oh god!” she gasped. “Oh god! Just don’t speak for a second, I need air!”
“I’m just glad it was oats we were practicing on, and not something like chilli-peppers,” Tara said, wincing. “That would have really stung!”
“Ow, ow, ouch, Dammit! Stop woman, you’re killing me!” Catherine gasped out as she sprawled helpless and red-faced across the table.
She gasped for breath, making a convincing impersonation of a landed fish. Groaning, she regained her seat and made a valiant attempt at staying upright.
After a number of deep breaths and a small amount of complaining, Catherine piped up. “Hey! You owe us a song.”
“What? Where did that come from? I’m confident that I don’t. No owing of songs is occurring. None of that here.”
“Yes! I distinctly remember talking about you and singing earlier. And you have a great voice. It’s a shame to keep something like that locked away.”
Tara shook her head. “I’m not drunk enough to try something like that. Really.”
“Perfectly understandable. I know it’s scary, getting up there in front of all of those people and singing a song, one not involving hedgehogs,” Catherine said wisely.
Tara smiled sheepishly.
“So instead, stay down here with me and have another drink. I mean that HAS to be safer than singing a song doesn’t it?”
Tara thought for a moment. “No, it really doesn’t. I don’t know how many of these fruity blue things I’ve had now. If I drink any more of them, I’m likely to wake up somewhere strange... er, wearing clothes that aren’t mine.”
Dawn’s face was the picture of mischief and her eyes were huge as she hid her smile behind her hand.
Willow raised one eyebrow in a passable imitation of Tara’s ‘raised eyebrow of mild disapproval.’
Buffy just giggled.
“Holy crap Snow-White, we are just seeing a whole ‘nother side to you,” Faith added.
“Yes, well, might I just say that your attitude towards drink and getting into trouble is very mature,” Giles said with a mild smile. The smile did nothing to hide the mischievous twinkle in his eye.
Tara’s blush had not had a chance to fade, if anything it intensified. Unsteadily she returned to her story.She stood and drained the last of her blue drink. “If it’s all the same to you, I’m going home to bed.”
“Aww come on Tara, don’t be like that. You have a beautiful voice, it’s a shame to waste something like that.”
She turned to the tavern population, who were moderately well behaved while the musicians took a break. “Hey guys! You’d like to hear Tara sing again wouldn’t you?”
The response was uproarious, possibly because the crowd liked her singing, possibly because they associated her with free drinks.
Tara blushed furiously and hid her face in her hands.
Catherine lead a chant. “Tara! Tara! Tara! Tara!” the rest of the tavern got involved and chanted along with her, hoping that something entertaining would happen.
Eventually Tara waved her hand in acquiescence and Catherine waved both hands in the air excitedly. “Woohoo! Victory!”
The crowd cheered, perhaps in the hope of getting more free drinks.
Tara spoke to the musicians, spending a couple of minutes making musical suggestions and listening, before nodding and turning to the small stage.
She stared at the stage as though it were some kind of large predatory animal.
She clenched the microphone-like wand in both hands and looked around the bar at all the cheerful and cheerfully drunk faces.
And relaxed.
Really this wasn’t so scary.
So she stepped up onto the small stage, closed her eyes and picturing her beautiful Willow, she sang.
Lost in the darkness
Hoping for a sign
Instead there's only silence
Can't you hear my screams?
Never stop hoping
Need to know where you are
But one thing's for sure
You're always in my heart
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day
I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul
Lost in the darkness
Tried to find your way home
I want to embrace you
And never let you go
Almost hope you're in heaven
So no one can hurt your soul
Living in agony
Cause I just do not know
Where you are
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day
I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul
Wherever you are
I won't stop searching
Whatever it takes me to know
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day
I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul.
Faith spoke up. “Hey I know that song, isn’t that one of the ones you always listen to lil’ D? You know them Norwegians?”
“Dutch, they’re from Holland. The other guys I listen to are Finnish. But yep, I’ve heard it before.”
Tara smiled an off-centre smile. “I’m not a bad singer, but I’m no songwriter, so I just sang a song I remembered, that fitted how I felt.”
Faith tossed a cushion at Tara. “Open mike night at the Peach. You should go, give G-man a run for his money.”
Tara caught the cushion and poked out her tongue at Faith. “I might just do that. I think I have a couple of other songs in me.”
“I’d love to hear you sing baby,” Willow said. “It’s been so long since you sang to me.”
“Every night, my Willow, I sang to you every night.”
Willow smiled up sadly at Tara. “But I wasn’t around to hear.”
“Then I will sing you a song when you can hear me,” Tara said.
‘Got a song for my girl too,’ Faith sent to Buffy.
Buffy’s eyes widened, ‘You’d do that for me?’
Faith planted a soft kiss in Buffy’s hair, ‘Sure B. I love you, ‘course I’ll sing you a song.’
‘No one has ever sung for me before. I feel so special.’
‘Wait till you hear what I have to sing, it’ll blow your socks off.’
Dawn watched the pair carefully. Something about the way they were acting was familiar.
Buffy saw Dawn staring at them with a calculating expression, ‘Oops. Busted, Dawn’s spotted us.’
Faith looked up and found Dawn beaming at her with a radiant smile. She tapped her nose conspiratorially and winked.When she finished, the bar was silent.
She stepped down from the stage and gave the wand to one of the musicians, drifting over to her seat almost as if floating.
She felt as if a great weight had been lifted from her.
Catherine just stared for a while.
Signs of life slowly filtered back into the bar.
She said thickly. “Whoa. Just whoa. I had no idea you had that inside you.”
Tara sat down, still buzzing slightly.
“I’m guessing that song was pretty close to home for you,” Catherine said, handing Tara another cup of blue punch. Tara waved her away. “I think I’ll stick to juice for the rest of the evening, I have work tomorrow.”
Catherine frowned. “Can’t you just,” she wiggled her fingers. “y’know, magic it away?”
Tara nodded cheerfully. “Yep. There’s an even easier way though. Just stop drinking. No spells, no hangover.”
“A very wise idea. You have wisdom beyond your years Tara,” Giles commented lightly.
“Geez British, live a little,” Faith said rolling her eyes.
“I assure you Faith I have lived. In my youth I made enough mistakes for three lifetimes,” he said completely straight faced. And then he winked.Catherine snorted. “Bah! I like not this crazy plan! Common sense has no place at this table tonight!”
Tara rolled her eyes at Catherine’s barbaric phrasing. “How about I walk you over to the Citadel, and you get Gerald to look after you? Snuggles don’t usually leave you with a hangover, you know.”
“Though a small amount of soreness is good,” Catherine responded, waggling her eyebrows. “Lets you know you had a good time.”
Tara laughed. “Come on, let’s get to over to the citadel. The walk will do you good.”
“Urgh. No cab ride?”
Tara shook her head. “You need the walk and I don’t think the cabby would be impressed if you threw up in his cab.”
“Nope, no throwing up here.”
“That’s what they all say. Come on, snuggles await you.”
“Awesome. Snuggles are good. Especially after a bout of dirty, sweaty sex!” Catherine laughed.
Tara didn’t know where to look. “Yes, well... um, good.”
They left the bar amid a sea of disappointed looks.
“Oh man! She’s like the sister I never had!” Faith laughed.
She bounced a pillow off Dawn’s head.
“Hey! Quit it!” Dawn complained.
“You lil’ D, are the sister I do have,” Faith said.
“Aww, you’re just a big softie aren’t you?”
Faith squirmed a little.“... and that’s why ribbons are better than platemail,” Catherine finished, her voice echoing down the poorly lit street.
“Hmm. I hadn’t thought of it like that. Still, I’m not very acrobatic, so I think I might stick with leather and metal, when I go shopping at least,” Tara said.
“I suppose. Well at least you’ll match Takarn, and have you noticed we are being followed?”
Tara sighed. “Yes. Two in front, one in the rear. They must be pretty confidant to try to grab us with only 3.”
“Two drunk women, how much trouble could they be?” Catherine grinned evilly. “Wanna be bad?”
“Goddess help me... yes.” Tara frowned. “What was in that drink?”
Catherine shrugged. “It’s just fruit punch.”
Tara bashed her heavy bracelet against the wall, activating the protective spell contained within.
She stood up straight and squared her shoulders. “When I was a girl, I was always told to hide my power, to avoid frightening people,” Tara said.
Her eyes started to glow. “I think sometimes a little fear is a good thing.”
She let loose the bonds of her power, feeling the magic pour through her body like living fire. White flames licked across her body, spreading out from her chest
Catherine turned to Tara. “What did you... never mind.”
Tara was wreathed in white fire from head to toe, wings of flame surrounding her, the light growing until it lit the alleyway with stark intensity.
Catherine winced at the bright light and looked behind them. The trailing man was transfixed, illuminated by the blazing light. She drew a wand and gestured with it for him to drop his weapon.
The man looked down at his dagger and looked at the weapon pointed at him. He dropped his knife and backed away with his hands up.
Tara fixed her burning eyes on the two would-be robbers. Her voice crackled with power. “You should be running.”
“Woo-hoo, go Tara! Check out your badass self!” said Faith, making like a cheerleader.
Tara ducked her head reflexively, though it did her no good, her braided hair resolutely refused to fall in front of her face.
Willow said nothing, her huge grin said it all. They turned and ran without a second thought.
In moments they were alone except for the sound of running feet, fading into the distance.
Tara’s burning halo faded to a less blinding intensity.
Catherine wove her way unsteadily over to the dropped dagger and picked it up.
“Well, that was different,” she said as she wandered back to Tara, still obviously quite drunk.
Tara chuckled. “I think I know why they call it liquid courage,”
“Very impressive, and not what I was expecting. I was expecting you to talk them into going away, or maybe wave your hand and put them to sleep.”
Tara looked embarrassed. “Um well, I really didn’t want to spend all night explaining myself to the watch, and I have nothing to tie them up with. And... it felt good to just cut loose.”
“Uh Tara? You’re still on fire. What is that anyway?”
“Nothing,” she said.
Catherine gave her a look.
Tara protested. “Really, nothing. I let some of my power bleed into my aura, to make it visible. It wasn’t even a spell, just a bit of a light show.”
“Well it was very impressive. And you’re still on fire.”
Tara grimaced. “The energy takes time to bleed out of my aura, it’ll last about an hour or so. It should keep us from being bothered while we walk home, um, and light the way.”
“Must be handy for reading in bed,” Catherine said with a grin.
“Not really. The flames make it hard to read.”
Catherine poked her experimentally in the shoulder, waggling her finger cheerfully when it didn’t burn.
“Hooray for not burning. Come on then, let’s get home. Suddenly I’m in the mood to sleep, not so much get sweaty.”
+++
Tara leaned against the wall, gasping for breath. She looked up to see the tentacle-mouthed creature staring at her, gathering himself for something. In slow motion, she saw him lift his hand toward her, some form of energy rippling in his hand like water.
And his head was engulfed in a blast of fire from Catherine’s weapon.
A scream echoed in her mind, and he exploded, a watery sphere of energy expanded out from his head, tearing his body apart.
Dreamlike, the expanding sphere of force filled the area, ready to tear apart her defenceless body.
And at the last moment, her view was eclipsed by Rinaldo’s armoured form.
Battered, bleeding from many wounds, he placed himself between the blast and Tara.
He opened his arms, almost accepting annihilation.
The wall of force hit him.
And blood sprayed as he was driven back.
“Ahhhh!” Tara cried.
She sat bolt upright in her bed, sticky with sweat and profoundly dizzy from her sudden change in position.
She panted as though she had been sprinting.
Swearing and muttering accompanied a muffled crash from outside her room. The door opened softly and a croaky voiced Catherine asked “Uh, hey Tara, you ok?”
Tara nodded, not trusting her voice at the moment.
Faint light spilled into the room from the lounge.
Catherine wobbled unsteadily over and flopped on the bed with a groan. “Uh, ‘cos I always scream when everything is hunky-dory.”
“You look slightly green,” Tara said in a similarly croaky voice.
Catherine nodded carefully. “With that in mind, I’d really appreciate it if you didn’t scream with me in the room. Unless you want to see me bleed out of my ears. Ugh.”
She patted Tara comfortingly on the shoulder. “So, um, why the screaming?”
Tara sat silently.
Eventually she spoke. “Rinaldo, I had a nightmare about Rinaldo.”
Catherine sat in silence for a while, eventually breaking the silence. “I can guess what the nightmare was, I’ll bet.”
Tara nodded sadly. “It was w-when he...” she trailed off.
“It’s ok honey, I know,” Catherine said.
“I was so scared. I was sure I was going to die. I would have if he hadn’t got in the way,” she said unsteadily.
“Yup. I’m sure of it. Rin was one tough dude. Guy was like a rubber ball, you pound him down and he just bounced right back. If the blast killed him in that armour of his, it woulda pasted you.”
Tara looked at Catherine with a look of horror.
“Uh, right. So I’m no good at this stuff. This is normally the sort of thing we leave to you. For a good reason.”
She groaned and flopped on her back, trapping Tara’s feet.
“Look, all I’m trying to say is that, yeah it sucks that he’s dead, but he knew what he was doing when he stood up in front of you. And he didn’t do it for no reason, you would have gone smoosh if he hadn’t. And now that I think of it, there was nowhere for him to go, he’d have gotten blasted anyway. So, yeah, uh, he died, but for a good reason. Yeah that’s what I meant. So I’ll shut up now, before I make it worse.”
“It’s alright. I feel a bit better now,” Tara said.
“Hooray. I’m normally pretty bad at this sort of thing,” Catherine said, lying on her back with a sigh.
“Well you did great tonight Catherine,” Tara said.
Catherine murmured indistinctly.
And was asleep.
“Wow, that’s pretty rough baby, I’m glad you had someone to, y’know, give you a hug and stuff,” Willow said sadly.
Tara smiled a little. “Catherine wasn’t much for hugs. She tended to show her affection by beating up people that upset you, or busting you out of jail.”
She looked up into Faith’s grinning face. “Sound familiar?”
“Hey, your honey is in jail, you bust em out!”
Buffy’s face fell, and an awkward silence fell with it.
Faith’s grin vanished as she twigged as to what she had just said.
She turned to Buffy, stricken. “Shit B, I’m sorry. I’m an ass. I didn’t mean...”
“I’m sorry Faith, I... I was so bad to you and I...” she trailed off, her eyes glittering with unshed tears.
“Hey! No B! Don’t feel bad. Don’t you frikkin dare! B, I was broken and twisted and well, evil. I needed to be away from real people to get my head together ok? It wasn’t fun, but I needed it. I needed to be surrounded by people who had screwed up their lives like I had, so I could see myself, and what I had done clearly.”
“I know, I just feel so bad about you being there all that time.”
“Hey, for a Slayer, that place was like a holiday park. Exercise, free food, time to think. Real assholes to make you think ‘I don’t wanna be like that’. Babe it’s all good. Now stop it or you’ll make me cry, an’ no one wants to deal with that,” she said with a smirk.
Buffy smiled slightly. “Sorry Tara, I slightly broke your story,” she said with a sniffle.
“It’s ok Buffy. It’s just a story, take your time.”
“I know, I just feel like a bad girlfriend.”
“B, we were busy hating on each other. I screwed everyone over and shot your honey, you stabbed me ‘cos I had it coming. I shoulda been in jail. So no bad girlfriend ok?”
Her face lit up with a goofy, almost star-struck smile.
“Buffy Summers is my girl. I am never going to get tired of that.”
“And Faith Lehane is my girl,” she said with a shiver. “Wow, that still gives me goose bumps.”
“You two are very cute,” said Dawn, grinning.
Buffy poked out her tongue and Faith gave her the fingers, English-style.
Dawn returned both gestures with a grin.
Buffy scowled. “I can’t believe mom brought you home from the hospital. How hard could it have been, to grab the kid one bassinette to the left?”
Dawn blew a cheerful raspberry.Tara sighed and carefully extracted her feet from beneath her sleeping friend.
She knew she had little chance of getting to sleep tonight.
Still not quite resolved on the whole Rinaldo issue, she carefully clambered out of bed and pulled on some clothes.
The night-time of the city of light was only slightly cooler and slightly darker than the daytime.
‘They call it the city of light for a reason,’ Tara mused.
Without thinking where she was going, or what she was doing, she found herself climbing the stairs toward the rooftop garden.
She stopped and shook her head ruefully, ‘I still forget sometimes,’ she thought.
Glancing around, she unfurled her wings, ‘and it feels so good to fly.’
She leapt into the night sky, barely restraining a Xena-esque cry of joy.
+++
Geoff was standing watch in The Garden.
He could not help but mentally add the capital letters to ‘The Garden.’
He had been present weeks ago when The Miracle had occurred. That was another thing that had capital letters.
He had been eating his lunch on the rooftop, a city watchman having a lunch break, waiting for his girl to arrive. It looked like she was going to stand him up again, so he had tucked in to his lunch. As much as he enjoyed his lunch, he was rather glum. Being stood up did that to him.
And then The Goddess had touched the earth.
He had been eating a particularly nice herb-bread with cheese and tomato paste and just a little olive and garlic, when the hand of the divine had touched his soul.
Later he had eaten his bread, and wondered afterwards if his bread was a holy relic. He felt vaguely sacrilegious after he thought of it.
He had been only vaguely aware of the girl and her huge, winged companion. Until he had roared, and she had screamed a name.
Willow.
The naked longing and desperation in that cry had harrowed his soul.
While the column of white light reaching down from the heavens was very impressive, and the Salica tree turning white was a permanent reminder of what had happened, it was the presence of the divine that he remembered.
A feeling that had changed him forever.
He had knelt in the presence of a Goddess, he had felt her power, her love, her purity wash over him, and been cleansed. He and a handful of others had been touched, blessed, changed. So they had gathered together, pooled their funds, and bought the whole garden. None of them could bear the thought of some careless idiot or malicious soul profaning something so holy.
And so they locked the gates and stood watch over the holy place, day and night.
Tonight was his watch, and he was glad of it. The peace of the garden and the sanctity of this place filled him with serenity, something he sorely needed after his recent breakup. His girl just had not understood his change. If she hadn’t been late, she would have seen the Goddess and it would have been so clear to her. He shook his head ruefully, in truth they were separated by a vast gulf of experience. No man could see what he had seen, and remain unchanged by it.
So intent he was on soaking up the peace of the garden that he did not hear the sound of approaching wing beats until they were almost upon him.
Worried, he drew his service wand and picked up his sturdy shield, lifting it into a well-practiced cover position.
The sound of powerful wing beats grew, and then
She arrived.
She rose over the edge of the tower, like the dawn of a new day. She reminded him why he guarded this holy place. He had known she was special, though they had barely spoken. And now he knew why, for she landed in front of him, her wings spread, and she was an angel.
Willow smiled up at Tara. “I get that feeling every time I look at you.”
Tara smiled and tweaked her nose. “No kneeling.”
‘Except for, you know, special occasions’ she sent with a naughty wink.
The image and accompanying emotion made Willow feel all warm and tingly. ‘Mmm, Tara-worship. I think I know what I’ll be doing tonight’ she sent back.He knelt, awestruck, and lowered his eyes respectfully. Her form was illuminated in the faint blue and purple light of the sentinel lanterns strung about the garden.
And
She spoke to him. “Um. Hey. Um, P-please don’t kneel.”
He stood, putting his weapon away. “I’m sorry my lady, I meant only to show respect.”
She winced when he said ‘my lady.’
“Just Tara, please. I’m no ladyship.”
“Sorry, uh, again. I only intended to show respect.”
She breathed deeply, as though gathering herself for something, and stuck out her hand. “Hello, I’m Tara.”
Geoff cautiously took her hand, raised it and softly kissed her knuckles. “Geoff, my lady... Tara.”
Tara blushed.
Geoff looked horribly embarrassed.
Dawn sighed. “They still do that in parts of Europe. I think it’s very romantic, um, elegant.”
Tara smiled. “It wasn’t the weirdness of it that made me blush. In that part of the world a kiss on the knuckles was the equivalent of a handshake between men and women.”
“What made me blush was the naked adoration and worship in his eyes.”
She looked away or a moment, gathering her thoughts. “I have never been comfortable in the spotlight, and to suddenly become an object of worship? It’s a very strange feeling.”“I, um, couldn’t sleep, so I came to do some meditating. I didn’t realize anyone would be here.”
“Of course my... ah, Tara,” he corrected himself. “This place is holy. We guard it day and night from those who might accidentally or deliberately profane it.”
Geoff withdrew. “I will be outside while you meditate. Please let me know when you are ready to leave, so can resume my post, or if you need anything.”
“Th-thank you Geoff,” she said, a little overwhelmed.
He smiled awkwardly and bowed slightly as he left.
‘Everything is so strange now,’ she thought.
This place was sacred to her, it was where she had made contact with Willow. But it was more than that, it was sacred to others too, it was the place where the Goddess had touched the earth.
The Goddess had many names, Mother Earth, Gaia or simply
THE Goddess. Many called her the unnamed goddess, believing her true name was too sacred to be sullied by the tongues of mortals.
Faith spoke up. “You know, I’ve been meaning to ask about the whole ‘Goddess’ business. What’s with you always saying ‘Goddess’ when you get a surprise? Or Red here, when she remembers to.”
Tara thought for a moment. “There are many gods or goddesses in pagan mythology and the more recent Wicca movement. Some favour a specific deity, some send their prayers to whichever deity favours their particular need. My mother and I honoured the Mother Goddess.”
“Like Brigit?”
Tara nodded. “Mm-hmm. As Willow has already told you, there is no patron goddess of Slayers, but if there were, it would be Brighid.”
She closed her eyes.
“Wisdom, excellence, craftsmanship, druidic knowledge and skill in battle. All these things are hers,” she recited.
“I venerate The Mother as THE Goddess, adding in prayers to other gods or goddesses as needed. Willow is a bit more cosmopolitan.”
“I tend to stick close to Brighid these days, she’s closer to what we’re doing and, um, safer than some of the others,” Willow said.
Faith thumped herself on the chest. “Check it out, I'm all enlightened and shit.”And the Goddess never intervened in the affairs of mortals. Many prayers paid homage to her, many spells referenced her. But only tangentially, for she did not answer.
Here she had answered.
In this place she had answered the desperate plea of a mortal woman.
Tara sat cross legged, reverentially beneath the tree.
She meditated upon what it meant, upon why The Goddess herself had touched the world here, and for her.
She opened herself to the world and simply listened.
Her mind drifted.
Drifted to thoughts of Willow.
Such thoughts filled her with a bittersweet mix of joy and loss. The joy was simple, she loved Willow and knew she was loved in return. The loss was equally simple. She was not with her beloved.
And the sense of loss felt strange. As she meditated on it, she realized that she felt that sense of loss to one side of her. It was a strange feeling, emotion with direction, almost as though the pain of loss were not inside her, but outside her, like a physical injury.
Her eyes opened.
She had a direction.
+++
Tara and Takarn were staring fixedly at a pair of maps. One map was of the city, a thick black line drawn from ‘their’ garden tower to a convenient landmark, giving them a bearing.
The other was a small scale map of the surrounding countries, also with a thick black line drawn on it.
That line passed out of the city, through two small villages, a small lake and through the heart of the mourn-lands. The former capital city of the kingdom of Cyre: Metrol.
Takarn glanced sideways at Tara. “You know where we are headed. There is no chance that we will be looking in either of these villages.”
Tara nodded. She did not know a great deal about this world she had found herself in, but she knew about the Mourn lands. Everyone knew about the Day of Mourning. The day when a nation had died.
The Mourn Lands were the shattered remnants of a once vibrant and culturally sophisticated nation, destroyed by the cataclysm now simply called the Day of Mourning.
Some kind of dark magic caused the staggering devastation, though no one knew how or why.
No-one knew who was responsible, though theories abounded. Even years later, no one had claimed responsibility, and the subject was still likely to lead to raised tempers and fights.
Now the centre of culture and technological advancement for the world was a blasted and shattered wasteland, home only to the dead and the damned. The lands were permanently shrouded in shadow and mist, home to dangerous unpredictable magic and the restless dead. Many adventurous souls ventured into those ruined lands. Noticeably less, returned whole and intact.
Those that did return, told tales of death and carnage on a scale unimaginable. Of the angry dead, of magic turned unreliable, even hostile to its wielders.
And nothing grew in the whole country. Nothing was born, no injury would heal, no food found would sustain. The very air and water was tainted.
This was where it seemed their answers lay.
Tara’s heart fell. The horror of this place was legend. There was little chance she would survive a trip across this land by herself, and no way she could ask her friends to enter a place so hostile, so dangerous, just to help her find her answers.
Xander interrupted. “I gotta say Tara, I don’t like the sound of this place. It sounds like Hiroshima after its big day.”
Tara gave him a hollow look. “It’s worse. It’s almost indescribably bad.”
Giles spoke in a distant voice, looking off into the distance. “The blasted steppes.”
All heads turned to face him.
“Ok Giles, make with the ‘splainin,’” Xander said.
Giles gaze lost its distant quality. “Hmm? Oh, terribly sorry,” he said sheepishly. “I didn’t mean to interrupt.”
Everyone continued to look at him.
“Oh er, right. Ah, there is as you might imagine, a shortage of information about the goings-on of other planes. However, in the demon world, most have heard of Alkeir, now known as the blasted steppes.”
Xander made a ‘go on’ gesture.
“It is said that Alkeir was once a paradise, but like Earth, it’s dimensional proximity made it a common byway for dimension travelling armies.”
Giles sipped his tea, before continuing his explanation.
“Over millennia it was ravaged by invaders who wanted access to other dimensions, or to occupy Alkeir in order to control access to those dimensions.”
“However, the final battle of Alkeir included an event of such cataclysmic violence that it laid waste to the entire world. It is a shadowy wasteland where nothing grows or even truly dies. Not even the demonic inhabitants of the other realms can survive there for long, though armies still use the realm as a thoroughfare or battleground.”
“None know the cause of that event either.”
Tara looked surprised. “That sounds awfully similar Mr Giles.”
He nodded.Takarn rumbled thoughtfully. “This will take a good deal of preparation and planning. This will be a difficult journey for us,” he said, putting emphasis on the last word.
Tara closed her eyes. She was eternally grateful for his unswerving support and endless courage, but she could not ask this of him.
“Takarn...” she choked out, dreading the conversation to come.
He held up his massive hand.
“You are about to say ‘I cannot ask you to come with me.’”
She nodded silently.
“You are right. It would be terribly unfair of you to ask that of someone. Which is why I am volunteering. You don’t ask. You go, I go.”
She looked at him amid tears.
“You would go by yourself,” he stated.
She nodded. “I... I have to. My soul is pulled in that direction, I can f-feel a link to something or someone there. Sooner or later I must go there.”
“And you will die,” he stated. “Entire expeditions go missing in that hell hole. You are strong. But no one is strong enough to go through there alone.”
He locked eyes with her. “You remember Brother Marcion?”
Tara nodded.
“He said big things were happening around you. I feel that he is right. And. I’ve always wanted to go there.”
He grinned. “It has been said, that if you owned Metrol and hell, you should live in hell and rent out Metrol. If you can survive in there, you can survive anywhere.”
He eyed her seriously. “How much harm will you do Willow if you die now?”
Tara shuddered silently.
“Tara. There is something in the waters. I can taste it. I am with you until the end. Come hell or high water.”
He grinned again. “Hell I can fight. Water I can swim thorough.”
Tara knew her friend. Once he had made up his mind, he was implacable. It was like trying to reason with a rockslide. In the end she said the only thing she could.
“Thank you.”
Willow looked up at her love with glittering eyes. “Thank you Takarn.”
Tara smiled wistfully.His grin widened, which for him was saying something. “Let us take destiny by the throat. And squeeze until it delivers what we desire.”
+++
“You wanna go where?! Are you nuts?!” Catherine said, her voice raised almost to shouting.
“I d-don’t want to go there, I h-have to!” Tara said, her stutter returning with her stress.
“Again with the nuts comment,” she replied.
The rest of Melchior’s team of on-call heroes were standing or lounging around his meeting room. They were watching the two women converse or fight. Whatever it was they were doing, they wisely kept quiet.
“I am missing, Catherine! Big pieces of me are gone!” she said, an overtone of desperation in her voice.
“And I need to get them back,” she said softly.
Catherine glared at her.
Tara slumped in defeat. “I don’t know if there is a way h-home there, or just some answers. There may even be more questions. All I know is that I can sense pain there. Deep pain, and a connection to me.”
She looked up into her friend’s blue eyes. “I have to go.”
Catherine took a deep breath and let it out with a huff.
“Fuck it. I’m in,” she said, flopping down on the couch next to her.
“What? B-but-” Tara sputtered as Catherine held up a forestalling hand.
“My best friend lost part of his soul in that place. Since that day, someone has been controlling him, playing him like a puppet.”
Her voice hardened. “And it cost him his life.”
“In that place are the answers my friend never got in life. I owe it to him to find them, and I owe whoever is responsible some pain, for their lack of concern.”
“I will accompany you also,” Melchior interjected.
“Ya know Snow White? This guy kinda reminds me of the G-man over there. Kinda bookish and brainy, but badass as well,” Faith said.
“Giles? Bad. Ass?” Buffy said disbelievingly.
“C’mon B, look at him. You’ve seen him fight, you’ve seen him chasing Xandude around the track. Pushing 50, looks 30, and still kicks more ass than anyone who isn’t a Slayer.”
Giles looked everywhere but at Faith, and even seemed to have developed a slight pink tinge. “You have never been any good at lying, Faith,” he muttered.
Faith just grinned at him, until he was forced to return a small smile.Tara stared at the mechanical man in shock.
“I have questions as well. In that lost and fallen city is the place where my people were first made, as is a faction of rebel warforged. I have many reasons to go, but mainly because my friends are going too.”
Tara kept staring blankly.
“You are friends of mine,” he said simply to the three on or near the couch.
“Damn, this is a hell of a first day!” said the unnamed man.
Melchior’s face made what can only be described as a grimace. “Forgive me, in the excitement I neglected to introduce the newest member of our party. Everyone, meet Govakri.”
The newly introduced Govakri flashed everyone a quick grin, his white teeth flashing against the dark background of his coffee-coloured skin. Everything about him was quick, even standing still he seemed poised to burst into furious activity at any moment.
Melchior took him around the room, introducing him to each person in turn. “Govakri? This is Takarn, Paladin of the Flame; Tara of the Woodland Realm, healer and seer; Catherine, lady adventurer; and lastly Izolda of the north, sorceress.”
Tara examined him as intently as politeness allowed.
He was a densely packed man, wrapped in tight clothing in dark shades of blue and green. Much of his clothing was literally wrapped, almost bandage-like around his body.
He was armed with a short sword and dagger, lightly armed in comparison to the others of the party.
“What do you do?” Takarn rumbled.
“Climb, fight, get into places that are not made for getting into, find things that are not meant to be found. That sort of thing.”
Takarn growled. “A thief then.”
“I am no thief! I am a fighter! I just do my fighting in different circumstances from you. And I do it without half a ton of clanking shiny plate strapped to me!”
Takarn grinned. “Touchy.”
“Hey, how would you feel if someone told you that between the polished metal and rainbow wings, you look like a big gay hood-ornament.”
Tara hid a smile behind her hand, Catherine grinned unabashedly.
Takarn’s brow wrinkled in thought. “I don’t know. Is it something someone is likely to say?”
Govakri stared at him for a moment, before bursting out laughing. “I like you big man. You can be on my team.”
He turned to Melchior. “So, the Mourn-lands then?”
Melchior shook his head. “Not just yet. We have a number of smaller cases to complete first. The bread and butter of our work.”
He looked at Tara intently, his green jewel-like eyes glowing faintly. “We will need a few smaller cases to work, together. To find a new balance for our efforts. However spectacular your abilities may be, we still need to learn to work with you.”
Tara met his gaze and nodded. They were going to the Mourn-lands. They would not be going for a few weeks, and they had cases to work beforehand as practice for Govakri. But they were going.
She turned to look at Izolda, the self-styled ‘White Witch.’ While Tara had always thought of herself in those terms, the other woman clearly had a different take on the term.
Everyone else turned to look as well. If Izolda was discomfited in any way, she hid it well.
Since they met, Tara had become more comfortable with the term ‘healer.’ Few people objected to healers, and referring to yourself as a ‘White Witch,’ was unwise in the presence of people who had actually met Izolda.
Izolda gazed back coolly.
“Our next case?” she said.
It seemed that Izolda was not coming with them. Tara wasn’t sure whether to be relieved at the revelation. Her icy magic could be invaluable in many situations, not just in battle. That having been said, the witch herself was emotionally cold and unpleasant, as well as physically cold and unpleasant.
This was a woman who had devoted herself to a particular element of magic so thoroughly, as to have been changed by it as deeply as any dark mage.
In her more snarky private moments, Tara often thought that Izolda could do a wonderful public service, touring schools and academies. Demonstrating in person the effects of magical obsession.
More compassionately, Tara wondered what had happened to Izolda, that she would desire to separate herself from others behind walls of ice, both figurative and literal.
Melchior eventually broke the awkward silence. “Our next case is relatively straightforward, a favour to our friends in the watch,” he said with a polite nod toward Catherine.
Catherine grinned a little, a good chunk of these cases came from her boyfriend in the citadel. Often Gerald would send cases their way that were too political or tricky for the watch, or even the citadel elite to handle easily. Melchior’s cunning and his wide array of friends with special talents, had improved Gerald’s prospects at the citadel immensely. In return they had been well rewarded with bounties, reward money, and the gratitude of the citadel.
Later in the day, they were going to spend some of that reward on Tara. As much as she had disliked the idea, Tara had been persuaded to purchase some armour for their adventures.
Her first instinct in battle had always been to head off fights with calm words, or stay out of the way and cast defensive spells in the event of a fight.
Recent events however had highlighted the fact that not all of their enemies discriminated in who they attacked. And many of their enemies had a nasty habit of attacking from stealth. And after Tara had staggered home from the clinic battered and bruised with 3 crossbow bolts sticking out of her body, he had been insistent.
Truth be told he was incandescent with fury. After that, he had flat-out ordered her to go and get armour
“We will be looking for a wayward husband, the bread and butter of our caseload. Half an hour’s quiet poking-about has turned up suggestions of drug involvement and illegal magic, along with hints that he may have married only to gain access to the government buildings.”
He took off his hat and scratched his shiny head. “I doubt our client is going to be pleased with what we are likely to turn up. Luckily our fee has been agreed upon beforehand, and if we end up where I think we will end up, we are likely to get a reward from the citadel. As well as putting a feather in the cap of a certain up and coming young officer.”
Catherine smiled happily.
Melchior sat on the edge of the desk facing the assembled investigators. “We are likely to be in some rough parts of town, a good chance for our more subtle members to shine.”
He looked at Tara and Catherine as he said this.
“If things go wrong, there will be a chance for the less subtle members of our group to show their mettle.”
His emerald gaze shifted to Takarn as he said this. Takarn grinned back.
Catherine chuckled and poked Takarn in the shoulder. “You realize he’s only including me in the subtle group in comparison to you, right?”
His grin widened. It was a terrifying sight.
“I think our usual approach should be fine: Tara and Catherine doing the talking, me dealing with my contacts and the two of you,” he pointed to Takarn and Govakri. “Waiting quietly in the wings, in case of disaster.”
Govakri grinned. “Never been the backup before, I’m usually on point.”
“All in good time. We play it safe for now.”
Melchior turned to Tara. “You, young lady, have some shopping to do if I recall.”
Tara grimaced.
“That’s twice in this story that someone has prescribed a shopping trip for Tara,” Buffy said. “I hope you are taking notes Giles.”
Giles sighed. “Buffy, there is no shortage of money in your account. If you wish to go shopping, then by all means do so.”
Buffy pouted. “Giiiles! You are missing the point! It’s like the difference between getting presents and buying your own stuff. It’s two completely different things.”
Giles though for a moment. “Very well. Buffy? We need large quantities of clothing to make outfits for the junior Slayers. For the good of our organization and for my own mental health, I need you to go shopping. Buy things. Buy many things.”
Buffy smiled charmingly. “That wasn’t so hard was it?”
“Please check with Xander and Dawn for the requirements of what you have to buy.”
Buffy rolled her eyes. “Only you could make shopping into work Giles.”
“Well hey, it’s got to be dark and fit under armour,” Xander said. “Remember when you complained that Tara had armour and the Slayers didn’t? Well we fixed that problem, and are expecting our first delivery in a day or two. You get to pick out what goes under them.”
“Yay me! Buffy Summers: fashion… chooser… person!”“I know you think armour will make you a target, but you are getting hit anyway. You have come a long way in terms of battlefield survival Tara, but you need protection for when spells and acrobatics are impossible,” Melchior said.
Tara nodded. His training and Takarn’s help had taught her valuable skills for avoiding injury, but he was right, she could not evade expert swordsmen, or attacks she was unaware of.
Admittedly, the most damaging injuries had occurred when she would not have been wearing armour anyway, but the principle was valid.
Takarn held out his huge hand to help her up. “Shopping time.”
+++
The foundry was filled with noise and activity, the roar of furnaces, the grinding of machinery and the general cursing and swearing of the workers. It was a masculine haven.
So it came as a surprise to Tara, that the forge master, was in fact a forge mistress.
Takarn and Catherine poked and prodded at weapons, armour and less identifiable items with the thoughtful nod of the seasoned professional.
Tara was completely lost.
The forge mistress was a powerfully built woman of medium height and braided dark hair. She wore faded blue pants and tunic under a heavy leather apron.
She eyed the group speculatively as she approached.
“You again! I told you before, adamantium is too heavy for you to fly in.”
Takarn grinned and cheerfully bumped fists with the woman.
She kept walking toward an empty workshop, gesturing over her shoulder for everyone to follow.
“Not me. Her,” he said, gesturing to Tara when they gathered in the much quieter space.
She raised one eyebrow. “Huh. You’re friends with this walking advertisement of the smith’s art?”
Tara mirrored the expression.
The woman smiled warmly. “You must be Tara. I’m Sondra. Truth be told, I was expecting someone bigger, the way he talks about you.”
“Um, sorry?” Tara responded.
“Armour. She needs armour,” he said, thumping his breastplate with his mailed fist. “Good armour.”
“How good?” Sondra asked.
Takarn pulled out a heavy bag of jingling coins. “This good.”
Sondra hefted the bag experimentally and whistled. “That buys you a lot of ‘good’ my friend.”
He looked at her seriously, turning his head to catch her with both of his eyes.
“She matters.”
She nodded, all professional now.
“Evidently,” she said, tucking the heavy pouch into her leather apron.
She turned to Tara and held her arms out to the side like a scarecrow. “Go like this please.”
Tara complied and the smith measured her upper body, massaging and probing the muscles of her shoulders and upper arms.
“No warrior you. Why do you need armour?”
“We go into dark places. There is a good deal of, um, fighting. I try really hard, but I can’t get out of the way of it all,” Tara said.
“We also have special requirements,” Takarn rumbled.
Sondra gave him the questioning eyebrow again.
Takarn shoved the heavy sliding door shut. “Show her, Tara. She is a friend I promise you.”
Tara looked worriedly at Catherine.
“She will find out sooner or later. Better now,” he rumbled.
She nodded, and looking terribly self-conscious, she unfurled her wings.
“Fire and Fury!” Sondra blurted.
Catherine just whistled, clearly impressed.
“Now there is a sight you don’t see every day,” Sondra said.
Catherine shook her head. “It’s always the quiet ones. Damn girl, you been holding out on us!”
Tara blushed furiously.
Dawn went dreamy-eyed at the memory of Tara’s landing in the back courtyard. “Your wings are so pretty,” she sighed.
Tara smiled bashfully. “Thank you Dawn. I think so too.”
“You know, you still haven’t given us a demonstration,” Xander said. “I mean I’m all with the ‘let’s not embarrass Tara’ thing, but I have to say that I'm as curious as a... a very curious animal of some kind.”
“I got a look, but it wasn’t under the best of circumstances, being kinda dying at the time,” Faith said. “I remember them being pretty.”
“Very cool entrance though, very X-men-y,” Buffy said squeezing Faith tight.
“Well, it’s a nice night, and Willow wanted to test her latest flight spell. Perhaps you could join us on the roof for the take off?”
“Now with no nakedness, or exploding things. Guaranteed!” Willow said.
“There was nakedness? You told me naked witches was a made up thing,” Xander complained.
“Mostly it is. Only a very few rituals involved being, um, sky clad. Usually initiations and some serious cleansing rituals,” Willow said. “Stupid Gardener and his obsession with naked women,” she muttered.
“Uh, what?” said Xander.
Willow blushed and squirmed slightly. “Um, Hey! My first spells exploded stuff because I hadn’t tuned them properly. I pulled the focus in close for the last version and ended up exploding my clothes.”
“I was worried she had exploded herself,” Tara said. “Instead she launched herself into the sky as naked as the day she was born.”
Willow’s blush intensified and Xander laughed softly.
“Sounds like fun,” he said.
“Hey! No laughing mister! It was fun in a totally, you know, completely terrifying way. Finding yourself out of control, miles in the sky, without a stitch on, is a whole new experience.”
“I did wonder what that big ‘flash’ was in the sky a little while back,” Xander said.
“Yeah? I thought it was a ‘full moon’ that night,” Faith said grinning unrepentantly.
They were both punished for the awful puns with pillows and vigorous pillow bashings.
“Um, that was me. The flash, not the moon,” Tara said. “Willow needed a navigation aid and I was in a serious hurry. I panicked and I pushed a bit too hard.”
“I’m sure I don’t need to remind you to be careful. That light was visible for a number of miles,” Giles said quietly.
Tara met his gaze steadily. “I’m sorry mister Giles, I know we don’t want to expose ourselves to the outside world.”
Tara winced as she said ‘expose’. Dawn giggled.
She continued. “But Willow was in trouble and I had to act fast.”
“I know, and I’m not criticising you my dear. I just want you to be careful.”
“That was a hell of a flare Blondie, it lit up the clouds. Just how much light can you make?” Faith asked.
“Light is part of me now. Spells of light are far easier for me to work with, both metaphorical light and lightbulb light.”
She thought for a while. “If I pushed hard... I could make the sun rise.”
“Wow. Really?” Buffy asked.
Tara nodded. “I was named for a star. And what do stars do?”
She held out her hand, summoning warm sunlight to her. “They shine.”
The sunlight lit the room with warm gold.
The little family watched in wonder.
“Plus: no trolls,” Willow said quietly.
Dawn said in a dreamy voice. “Can you teach me to do that? The light, not the um, trolls?”
Tara smiled, illuminated by the sunlight she had called. “Yes Dawnie, I can teach you. As spells go it’s fairly simple. It won’t be quite as easy for you to do, but it’s doable.”
“I don’t know, she used to be a big ball of light, maybe it’ll be easy for her,” Buffy said with a smirk.
Dawn poked out her tongue at Buffy.
“It takes a lot of practice to be able to just wave your hand and cast a spell. You’ll have to work your way up to that level of skill, but it can happen.”
“Is that like, real sunlight?” Buffy asked.
Tara nodded.
“So vamps and demons won’t like it much?”
Tara shook her head.
“Good. Dawn? I know you don’t like it when I tell you not to do stuff, so I’m going to try something different.”
Dawn met her eyes.
“I want you to study magic with Tara and Willow. I want you to learn how to defend yourself with magic. I want you to learn how to fight with your Slayer buddies, and I want you to learn about demons with Giles and Xander.”
Dawn smiled. “Thanks Buffy. I’m already doing all of that stuff, but it’s nice to hear you say it.”
“Maybe that’s your way. Not Slayer, not Watcher, not Witch, but all three,” Tara said softly.
“We’re using the term ‘Hunter’ for non-Slayer, demon-killing types. Not everyone can go toe-to-toe with evil like a Slayer does you know.”
Buffy smiled. “Dawn Summers: Vampire Hunter. It has a nice ring to it.”
Her face took on a more serious expression. “Just remember Scooby rule two: Don’t die.”
Dawn looked puzzled. “I thought that was rule one.”
Buffy shook her head. “Nope. New rule one: Listen to Tara. Rule two: Don’t die.”
She turned to Tara. “You can skip rule one, but I want you paying extra attention to rule two.”
Tara nodded cheerfully.
Willow joined in, also bobbing her head. “Uh-huh, no to the dying missy. This is an official dying free zone. Everyone is banned from dying, and you, Tara Maclay are double banned.”
Willow felt the sudden change in Tara, ‘What’s wrong Baby?’ she sent on their private line.
‘Nothing bad Willow, but there’s something I want to talk about later,’ she sent back.
“Where were we?” she said out loud. “Oh yes, well I had just done my big reveal, and my friends were still dealing...” “This explains a few things. I always wondered how you keep ending up in strange places,” Catherine said.
The smith eyed her with a calculating look. “You’re in luck lovey, you may have come to the only armourer in the city who knows how to fit armour to angels.”
Tara laughed, a little dizzy from the tension and relief thrumming through her. “This sort of thing h-happens a lot does it?”
Sondra grinned and pointed at Takarn. “Took me ages to get him right, got lots of practice.”
She prodded Tara experimentally in the shoulder. “Not much in the shoulders. That’ll change,” she said.
She hefted the bag of coins thoughtfully.
“Yep. I can do it for this.”
Takarn spoke. “The same as this?” he said, thumping his chest.
Sondra nodded. “Flame-Touched and Mithril? Yeah. It’ll need to be, in order to keep the weight down.”
“Two things lovey. I hope you like pretty things, because you’ll be wearing a queen’s ransom in jewellery. And secondly, beings of darkness will not be able to abide the touch of it. The forging of such metal is known only to the priestesses of the forge Goddess, and to make it is an act of worship.”
She counted off her fingers. “Strawberry, Vanilla, lemon. Pick one.”
“Um, vanilla?” Tara said, confused by the sudden subject change.
“Damn, no one ever takes lemon,” Sondra groused.
Takarn hissed his version of a chuckle. “No one likes roaming round smelling like dishwashing liquid.”
“Hey! Lemon’s ok,” Buffy interjected.
“Just because you like smelling like sherbet,” Dawn responded.
“Like blueberries are so special,” Buffy protested.
“It’s the only thing that covers the smell of exploded apples!”
“You’re still exploding apples?”
"You can thank me for last week’s entire supply of apple crumble. And it has to be apples. Oranges are worse and more sting-y.”
Willow piped up. “It could be worse. When Tara and me were experimenting, we were going to use fresh chillipeppers. Thank the goddess we switched to oats. I can’t imagine how much it would have stung to get fresh chill salsa jammed in your… um.”
She blushed furiously, and went silent.
Buffy just gave her a disbelieving look.Tara hesitantly put her hand up. “Um, excuse me? What are we talking about?”
Takarn held out his arm. “Enchanted gambeson, stays clean and stink free. The padded suit under the metal.”
Tara sniffed cautiously and smelled the faint cloves scent she’d always associated with his presence.
“Oh! Definitely vanilla please.”
“Right. I’ve got your basic measurements. Come back in two days for your first fitting, after that I’ll probably need you to visit daily.”
Sondra patted Tara on the shoulder. “Scoot. I’ve got work to do.”
“See you in two days,” Takarn said.
“Thank you,” Tara added.
+++
Several hours later, the workshop had been laboriously cleaned by the smith’s own hand. A sleeping pallet had been moved into the room, as had a large supply of food and drink. While she was working on this armour, she would work on no other project, see no other people, and none but she and the one the armour was made for, would enter this cleansed place.
She blessed her tools, ritually cleaned and polished.
She intoned the prayer to begin her work.
‘Blessed be Brighid,
Maiden, Bright One
Goddess of the forge.
Teach me to bear the fires
of transformation,
The furnace that tempers my blade
and makes me strong.
Be with me as I blaze my trail.”
She sprinkled the tools and forge with holy water.
The forge lit when the blessed drops splashed against it, burning with a blue flame.
She gazed at the forge levelly, thinking.
“Yeah. I had a feeling about this job.”
The smith goddess was watching.
Something whispered in the light of the forge, a voice almost beyond the edge of hearing.
“For her. For the child.”
The voice carried with it near infinite sorrow and loss, and perhaps if Sondra let herself belief, a tiny sliver of hope.
Sondra took a deep breath and cleared her mind of everything but the work. Time to show her goddess what she had learned.
She went to work.