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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Morrigan » Tue Dec 15, 2009 4:30 pm

Aaaand angst ensues. I love it.
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby perchiper » Tue Dec 15, 2009 11:41 pm

....and love prevail :kgeek

Right, everybody has secret. More skeleton in the closet, please (without sounding so rude) :pride
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby abarda » Wed Dec 16, 2009 6:37 am

I loved the update! But now I don't know what to think about the whole story... I really liked, though.
Finally Willow admited to herself that she loves Tara! That's great! :party
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby AmberGoddess » Thu Dec 24, 2009 8:55 am

No update as of yet, having issues. Merry Christmas to all my kittens!
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby AmberGoddess » Tue Jan 12, 2010 4:09 pm

Zampsa1975- Don't worry! I fully intend happy endings to abound, and that's impossible without love.

taranwillow4ever- Good catch. Didn't see that.

Laragh- Betterness is coming!

Morrigan- Glad you like it, but I'm not the biggest fan of angst. At least, not when I'm writing it.

perchiper- I'll try, but I make no promises. I do promise love, though.

abarda- Don't change your mind on the story! Read!
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Author: Ambergoddess

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, Joss Whedon rules all. ME, UPN, blah blah blah

Feedback: Oh please! The more the merrier.

Rating: R! Finally.

Summary: AU fic, no monsters, Hellmouth, or magic. Willow's a sophomore, Tara's a junior. Willow is alone and very depressed. Tara has to help.

Spoilers: None

Distribution: Fine, but tell me first, okay?

Notes: This is my first fic, and I don't have a beta, so bear with me. I love criticism, helps me write. Anything else, message me please.
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Part Seventeen



After four more periods of utter monotony, my lunch period finally came around. I had the same one conclusion that I'd had this morning. Willow + Tara = Good. That was also pretty much the only notes I took today. Now if only I could find her to tell her that. I'd been looking for nearly fifteen minutes, but this goddamn campus was massive! My lunch break was going to end in half an hour and I had only covered a fraction of the grounds.



I took drastic actions. Spinning around, I launched into a quick jog that wouldn't seem urgent but would move me faster across the campus. Before long, the administration building loomed up before me. I paused for a few minutes outside to catch my breath and let the flush from the exertion recede. Smoothing my hair back, I shoved open the doors and marched inside.



Thanking every god in existence for the fact that I was such a good liar, I ventured back into the office. Ms. Jenkins was right where we'd left her, only a bit more bored. She perked right up when she saw me, though. Her magazine, The Capitalist, explained that. I guess she thought I was related to Tara.



Marching up to her, my mask slid into place. "Ms. Jenkins, it would be absolutely fabulous if you could get me another copy of Tara's schedule. There's some arrangements to be made that require us to know where she is, and you wouldn't want her to give up her own copy, would you?" I finished my request-cum-threat with an icy smile that left absolutely no doubt as to what I meant.



The poor woman was so flustered. "No, Ms. Chase, of course not! I have it right here, don’t worry." Pulling a small sheet out from a printer, she flourished it at me. "Here you go. If you need me, I'll be reading about the money." I grinned.



"Here, for your trouble." I dropped a twenty on her desk and turned to leave. Behind me, Ms. Jenkins was muttering quietly to herself, something about all the lovely money. Chuckling, I unfolded the schedule she'd given me and scanned it to see where Tara was. Gotcha.



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At the art hall, I was scanning the crowd for any sign of Tara. Blonde was in this year, apparently, but I couldn't see her platinum hair anywhere. Then, behind a wall of finished canvases, I caught a glimpse of white-blond hair and just the tiniest streak of blue. I dashed over, slowing before I reached her. Smoothing my hair back, I crept around the canvases, peeking to see what was happening.



Tara was curled up in a two-person couch, nose firmly stuck in a book. A glance at the title informed me that it was a history of Renaissance art. Maybe it's an Art History class? I'd expected -- a little foolishly -- to see Tara with one of those floppy hats, a palette in her hand, standing in front of a canvas with a rakish grin. Just the hat. Mmm…



Shaking my head to clear it of distracting (but yummy) fantasy Taras, I moved towards the chair she was seated at. I maneuvered myself so I was positioned behind her, without her having even seen me. I glanced around, noting the absence of students in the little nook Tara had found for herself. Taking advantage of our solitude, I flopped myself down in the space behind her, fitting my body snugly to hers.



She jumped, only avoiding an embarrassing tumble through my quick reflexes. I caught her before she could overbalance, and immediately launched into my prepared speech. "Okay, now I need to get this out fast, so don't interrupt me please. First, I'm sorry for being such a royal bitch before. I needed to think, and I have thought it through. I don't care who you are, and I don't care if your family is the LA branch of the Mafia. I don't care if your brother is Beelzebub and your father Satanus himself. I will stick with you no matter what happens, and no matter who tries to split us up. I do admit that it's a little scary to think that there's a large man searching for us, with the express purpose of bringing you back, and probably damaging me in some unpleasant way, but I'm grateful to be here with you now, and not safe but alone at home. I love you, Tara Maclay, and nothing can change that. Um, unless you don't want me around."



I looked expectantly at her, waiting for her to say something. As the minutes ticked by, though, I began to think she wasn't going to say anything. Stupid! What makes you think that she'd want you? No one would want such an insensitive jerk. Oh god, she's probably gonna make me leave! I deserve it. Worthless idiot. My face twisted, and I jumped up, convinced that Tara hated me. Mumbling something, anything, I sprinted away, trying just to find a quiet place to let loose with the emotions building up inside me.



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I hadn't felt such a maelstrom of pain and fear since the day I'd thrown myself from the cliff. The temptation to take a blade to my wrists now and drain out all of my suffering was overwhelming, but for the first time in my memory, I resisted. Tara had shown me that I could live without the blade, and I was determined to honor her by turning around my life. If I couldn't have her, I could at least have the memory of how she made me feel, dependant on nothing but myself.



Finally I found a huge tree, situated in a way that made it impossible for other overly inquisitive students to see me. I was positive the only thing visible was a tiny bit of my hair, but no matter how I shifted I couldn't cover it up. Whatever. Seated here, I left all of my fears come out in one huge convulsive sob, degenerating quickly into a storm of them. Doubling over, I hid my face in my knees and cried.



Unrequited love. The hopelessness of abandonment. The loneliness you feel, even surrounded by others. I cried for all these and more, thinking of the suffering visited upon both me and my beloved by others. The base cruelty of humanity hit me at that moment, all at once. I'd never thought about how much evil could be contained within one person before this moment. Abuse. Torment. Rape. It was just too much to bear, and the only thing left to do was weep.



I'm sure I could have stayed there all day, but after a few minutes, Tara's voice filtered into my shattered consciousness. Uncharacteristically, she sounded seriously pissed. Taking this as more proof that she hated me, I drew my knees up to my chin and hid my face. Footsteps sounded, coming closer, but I sheltered myself behind my big tree. Didn’t help.



"Willow Danielle Rosenberg! You… you… stupid bitch!" My head shot up. It didn't seem right, somehow, to hear Tara swear. The thought left my mind as her enraged rant continued. "You are utterly unbelievable! You're perfectly normal this morning, better even, and then we get to school and you totally turn around! You act like the bitch queen of the world, and you don't even talk to me, then prance off on your high horse. Then you come back and flop down like everything's normal, and give me this speech about how my family's in the Mafia -- which is utterly ridiculous, by the way -- but you don't care. You say you love me, and then you run away? What the hell's wrong with you?" She seemed to be losing steam at this part, but my poor heart was tentatively perking up. She hadn't said she hated me- yet.



"Three things, Willow. One: You're an idiot. Two: My family isn't in the Mafia. I changed my records before I came here." I frowned. If she knew how to do it, why did she have me do it? Tara anticipated my question, though, and answered before I could even open my mouth. "You were just having so much fun. I didn't wanna burst your bubble. Third thing: I love you too." If I was stunned before, it was likely I wouldn't be able to talk ever again.



She appeared to think for a second, then added, "And four: You're an idiot."



My mouth opened, and shut, and opened again. I probably looked like a fish, but I didn’t care. Did Tara just say she loved me? No, she couldn't have. I must have misheard her. "Yes, I said I love you." I felt my face light up, and saw an answering smile creep up one side of Tara's face. Before I knew it, I was off the ground and in her arms.



Showering her face with kisses, I gasped out, "Oh god I love you! I was so scared, I thought you hated me."



She looked at me as if I was a Martian. "I could never hate you, sweetie. You just… need to listen sometimes. And stop reading so many conspiracy theories. It's not healthy." I nodded, ecstatic. I'd go along with anything she wanted right now. "Now, darling, we have to get back to class, but after that, we will talk. Nothing bad, just getting everything straight."



As she led us back towards the quad, I simply marveled at the dramatic change. Half an hour ago, it was all I could do to keep from cutting myself. Now, I was over the moon. I stopped thinking about it and bathed in the euphoria that overtook my soul. I love Tara. Tara loves me. Willow and Tara forever. Oh yeah.
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby taranwillow4ever » Tue Jan 12, 2010 5:26 pm

I think I get Dibs. I love this story. Keep up the good work, this is great reading and writing.
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Laragh » Tue Jan 12, 2010 5:35 pm

That was awesome!!!

I loved Tara's rant at Willow and the "you're an idiot" (plural ) was so funny.

"Yes, I said I love you."


Heart officially melting! That was so cute!!

"I could never hate you, sweetie. You just… need to listen sometimes. And stop reading so many conspiracy theories. It's not healthy."


Very true. It's not.

I love Tara. Tara loves me. Willow and Tara forever.


As it is written, so shall it be.

Really glad you're back posting, I love this story

Update soon!
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Zampsa1975 » Tue Jan 12, 2010 11:51 pm

Yay for good update-y goodness... Good that Tara set Willow "straight" about Tara's feelings for Willow...
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby abarda » Wed Jan 13, 2010 11:49 am

Oh, this was SO cute! :pinky I really liked it, though I got a little worried when Tara started to talk to Willow... But, anyway, it was absolutely fantastic!
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Morrigan » Wed Jan 13, 2010 2:17 pm

I do agree its hard as a writer to put characters we love through pain.

Much goodness on the horizon though, with "i love you" being said on both sides...
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby arsyadriani » Thu Jan 14, 2010 8:23 am

ooohh...they sorted things out already :pinky
"And four: You're an idiot."

that brought the smile out of me..knowing that they were going to set things straight between them :party
no more secrets I hope :pray
well,I would like to see the talk they were planning to have :kdevil
so more please
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Füchsin » Sun Jan 31, 2010 12:54 pm

OMG this Story is great! So thrilling and cute :clap
Please update soon!!! :pray :pray :pray :pray :pray
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby AmberGoddess » Mon Feb 22, 2010 1:18 pm

Author: Ambergoddess

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, Joss Whedon rules all. ME, UPN, blah blah blah

Feedback: Oh please! The more the merrier.

Rating: R! Finally.

Summary: AU fic, no monsters, Hellmouth, or magic. Willow's a sophomore, Tara's a junior. Willow is alone and very depressed. Tara has to help.

Spoilers: None

Distribution: Fine, but tell me first, okay?

Notes: This is my first fic, and I don't have a beta, so bear with me. I love criticism, helps me write. Anything else, message me please.

Yes, I'm aware it's been a while. I apologize from the bottom of my heart, and hope this makes up for it. And I also know I am much too fond of cliffhangers.
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Part Eighteen

"Come on sweetie, let's get you home and cleaned up." I started, shocked out of my happy fantasyland. The school gate had snuck up on me without my even noticing. I frowned, wondering how I'd managed to space so badly.



Shrugging it off, I stopped suddenly as a thought occurred to me. "Uh… Tara? Can we leave? I mean, we still have like half a day of school left. It just seems-"



I was cut off by Tara's raised eyebrow and disbelieving interjection. "School? Willow baby, school ended almost an hour ago. What were you doing all afternoon? Sleeping?"



I grinned like an idiot, the only thing in my mind Tara's casual use of the word 'baby'. It was music to my ears. It finally dawned on me that she was staring expectantly at me, apparently waiting for something. "Huh? What was the question?"



She stared at me for a second, then chuckled. "Wow, Will, way to be out of it. What were you up to all afternoon that got you so mixed up timewise? Daydreaming? Math homework? Diabolical yet tasteful plots to take over the world?" Thinking of what I really had been doing, I could only muster a weak smile at her attempt at humor. Sadly, Tara knew me too well, and spotted my hesitation. "W-Willow? Are you all right?"



The return of her stutter didn’t escape me. I knew that if I tried to lie to her, she'd know and be hurt. But, if I told her the truth -- that I'd been crying because I thought she hated me -- she'd hate herself. Damn I hate it when it's a catch-22. Thankfully, we got to the gates right then, and something else occurred to me.



"Oh, crap! We have the open house today! I'm all teary-eyes with the redness and people don't want to sell to some drama queen! We're screwed!" My hands fluttered uselessly through the air, waving random patterns as a testament to my panic.



The melodic sound of Tara's laughter flowed through the air, reaching my ears and calming me -- slightly. "You're a major spaz, Rosenburg. The open house isn't for an hour and a half, you've got plenty of time." I grinned sheepishly, since I knew she was right and she knew I knew.



"Yeah… I knew that."



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By the time we'd reached the motel, I'd managed to calm down enough to give Tara's poor ears a break. I was eighty-four percent positive that she would have gone deaf if I'd kept talking so much. Swinging the door open, I waited for her to pass through, and shut it behind us. "Soooo…"



Another raised eyebrow greeted me. "How do you do that? I try and try, but I always end up looking like an idiot." To demonstrate, I contorted my face in an attempt to raise a single eyebrow. Tara took one look and cracked up.



"Oh, god, Willow, you look- hilarious!" I would have been offended, but the combination of Tara's joy and my current state of floaty happiness combined to leave me standing there with a stupid grin on my face, watching her laugh. A random thought floated through my mind: This is a girl who lived her whole life in fear and pain. She never had a friend, or someone to support her through anything. There was no light and laughter for her, not like now. She deserves -- everything. The world, my life, my love -- everything.



"W-Willow? Are you all right? You look a little-" she broke off, gesturing vaguely to her face.



I crossed the room and knelt before her, taking her hands in mine. Seeing - something - in my face, Tara sobered, looking down at me. "Tara Alyssa Maclay, I love you more than life itself. Never doubt that, and never forget it."



A smile crept onto her face, and she freed one hand, curving it around my cheek. I leaned into her, never taking my eyes off hers. "I don't, Willow. I don't know how I've found you, but I'm never letting you go. Not in this life, nor the next."



She leaned down and kissed me tenderly, then with growing passion. I felt myself being lifted, and my legs wrapped around her back, effectively seating me in her lap. She hesitated slightly, enough for me to pick up on, but before I could draw back to look at her, she'd fallen backwards, taking me with her. "Tara?"



"I love you, Willow." Her voice was strong, with no trace of a stutter. "Make love to me."



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We collapsed back onto the pillows, gasping for air. "Wow."



"You can say that again."



"Wow."



"Goof."



"Yep."



She looked at me, a glint in her eyes that made my stomach flip. "Well then, goof. Wanna go again?"



I nodded eagerly, even as her lips descended down my body. "Tara!"



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Hours later, we were woken by a violent banging on the door. I moaned, throwing the covers off of me, covering Tara by accident. Figuring I'd fix it later, I stumbled over to the door, throwing on a robe as I went. I cracked the door, peering out to see who was on the other side. "Hello? Can I help you?"



Two men stood there. Both were slightly unkempt, looking as if they'd been on the road a few days. One, younger than the other, stepped forward. "Yes, ma'am, I hope you can. I'm lookin' for Tara Maclay. My name's Donny, and this is our father. Have you seen her?" He held out a picture, showing a younger Tara, with dark hair. "She ran away a few weeks ago. Normally we'd let a kid go, but Tara's not all there, if you know what I mean." He made a gesture in the air next to his head. "Girl's got delusions. She could get hurt, or could hurt someone else, and I got no idea what she's tellin' people. Any clue where she is?"



I glanced back into the room, seeing instantly that both beds could be seen from the hall. Thankfully, Tara was still covered up, but I didn't know how long it would be until the voices woke her up. "I'm sorry, gentlemen, but I'm afraid I can't help you. Have you tried the public high school? That's easy to register for."



Donny looked at his father, a man whose name I still didn't have. "That's a good idea, miss, we'll try that next. Thanks for your time, and if you see her, give us a call." He handed me a card and the two men walked off, searching for another occupied room to interrogate. I shut the door and turned back to the bed. Tara was awake by now, and I could see two sleep-muzzy blue eyes peering at me inquiringly from beneath her cocoon of blankets.



I rubbed my head. There aren't words to express how much I don't want to deal with this. I'd been fighting a red-hot anger from the time Donny had identified himself. Odds are, the next time I see either one of them, I'd punch them , and that's something I didn't want to do. Their lies about Tara made me so mad, though.


Sighing, I sat down. "We have a problem."

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Edited to fix minor name issues brought up by a reader. Sorry!
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Zampsa1975 » Mon Feb 22, 2010 3:49 pm

Yay for great update-y goodness... I hope they soon figure out a way to deal with Tara's "father" and "brother"...
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby abarda » Tue Feb 23, 2010 5:43 am

Oh-oh. Tara's "family" never means good things...
I'm happy this story continues! I thought it had ended.
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Füchsin » Wed Feb 24, 2010 6:10 am

That's bad, isn't it? I'm scared now :yikes
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Taralover » Wed Feb 24, 2010 12:33 pm

Willow and Tara...so sexy. :wtkiss
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby willowlily » Sat Feb 27, 2010 12:15 pm

love love loved it. wow the twist with the names and the background glued me to this story. please update asap. for your first story this is amazing. keep writing. :)
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby rawrmeister » Thu Mar 11, 2010 5:28 am

um.....update? :pray

i just read everything this morning, and......

pwetty pwease, update?

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awesome story
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Laragh » Sat Apr 03, 2010 10:03 am

Okay, first off, I have to apologise for it taking me six weeks to comment on this wonderful chapter, but I've been in hospital for the past three months and am just starting to catch up on all the wonderful W/T fic I've missed in that time!

I'm glad they both felt ready to take their relationship to the next level and Willow's babbling is always too cute for words.

Introduction of Tara's family always tends to be a bad thing, but I trust in everything to work out in the end here!

As ever, this is a great story and I hope you choose to continue it!

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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby LittleBit » Sun Apr 04, 2010 6:36 am

It's interesting to see where you've taken this story ... please keep up the great writing! :D
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby AmberGoddess » Sun Apr 04, 2010 6:00 pm

Author: Ambergoddess

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, Joss Whedon rules all. ME, UPN, blah blah blah

Feedback: Oh please! The more the merrier.

Rating: R! Finally.

Summary: AU fic, no monsters, Hellmouth, or magic. Willow's a sophomore, Tara's a junior. Willow is alone and very depressed. Tara has to help.

Spoilers: None

Distribution: Fine, but tell me first, okay?

Notes: This is my first fic, and I don't have a beta, so bear with me. I love criticism, helps me write. Anything else, message me please.

*slinks in with head down* I'm really, really, oh-so-very sorry! I promise to do better and not make you wait months next time. And yeah, this one's short. I needed to do *something* with it, so hopefully more soon.
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Part Nineteen



Tara sat up, drawing the covers around herself. I could almost see her erecting a shield in her mind, a wall between her and the world. I really, really didn't want to have to be the one to tell her that the monsters she ran from pursued her, but I didn't see how I had a choice. They might go away, without ever seeing her, but then again, if they didn't and she found out I knew, she'd never trust me again. Right then. Into the breach.



I sat down next to her, gathering my thoughts and trying to think of a way to say what I had to say gently. Before I could think of anything, it just popped out of my mouth. "Your family's here. They're looking for you, and I think they might find you."



Well that certainly was gentle. About as gentle as a sledgehammer! You idiot.



As I castigated myself, Tara's eyes got wider, and her face got paler than I would have thought possible for a living human being. "W-W-What? They k-know I'm h-h-h-h-h-here? Oh g-goddess, I-I have t-to go." Her stutter hadn't been this bad in, well, ever. I'd never heard her this bad before, and it concerned me.



"Tara, baby, you know I'll never let them get you, right? You're safe. I don't care what happens, you will always be safe with me." For a second, I thought I'd gotten through to her, and maybe I had, but then her eyes got even wider, and she shoved out of the bed.



"Oh, god, they'll hurt you! I'm here and they'll find me and then they'll hurt you!" Her stutter had completely vanished, I guess because she was so sure of that one fact. She scrambled out of the confining bedclothes and dashed to the closet, yanking out everything she could and stuffing it in her suitcase. A little voice in the back of my brain noted how I hadn't even seen her get the thing out, before I shoved it away to concentrate on her.



Carefully but quickly I moved forward, dodging an errant flying sock that came hurtling towards my face. Reaching her with no further mishaps, I placed my hands over hers, stilling them and forcing her to look at me. "Tara. Stop. This isn't helping." Her hands shook in mine, and her lovely blue eyes were clouded with tears. The fear radiated off her in waves, and I knew that it wouldn't help to panic.



Keeping her hands in mine, I drew her back, until we were both sitting on the bed. I tugged her sideways, leaning her against me and draping an arm around her shoulders. Planting a gentle kiss on the top of her head, I began speaking, telling her random things from my past, just hoping that the sound of my voice and the thought of these random trivialities would soothe her.



After maybe half an hour of this, she snorted, shaking her head into my neck where she had nestled. "I really made an ass out of myself there, didn't I?"



Chuckling, I shook my head. "No, not at all. I know you're scared of them, and we do need a plan. I just think it'll help if we're not panicking and running around like a couple headless chickens."



She seemed to mull over that. Her brow crinkled, and I could see she was thinking about something really deep. I waited, knowing that whatever it was, it was most likely important.



"Did you know that cockroaches can live up to eight minutes without their heads? They keep moving and everything."



Or maybe not.



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We woke up slowly the next morning, groaning and stretching before finally dragging out of bed. It seemed that all of those irritating doctors who say that at least eight hours of sleep is necessary were right.



I did tell her that we shouldn't have stayed up after that panic, but apparently panic makes some people horny. Ah, well, you can't say it wasn't worth it.



Of course, now that we needed to get coffee and get to school, we were both extremely sluggish, but since neither of us thought school was at the top of our priority list, naps were anticipated in class. Never thought I'd be advocating sleeping in class. It's all her fault!



"You're a bad influence." Without even thinking about it, I just said what was on my mind.



She raised an eyebrow. "Me? What did I ever do to you? I'm just the innocent little stuttering girl who sits in her corner."



I raised my eyebrows in return. "Can we just remember whose idea sex was? And with the going again? On top of which, you've got me thinking it's okay to skip classes!" By the time I was done, I was bouncing on my toes and pointing an emphatic finger at her. "I think, most emphatically, you!"



She laughed, sauntering over to me and drawing me into a kiss. My brain was blank when we separated. "Now, who's the bad influence?"



Blank. Blank. Blank. "Uh, fire bad?"



She smiled. "Exactly right."
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Zampsa1975 » Mon Apr 05, 2010 1:34 am

Yay for great update-y goodness... I hope Willow and Tara start to make a plan to get rid of Maclay poop-heads... Tara sure is "bad" influence to Willow for Willow to even think about skipping class ;-)
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby Laragh » Mon Apr 05, 2010 2:58 am

Lol, being a bad influence on someone can only be of the good when it's these two involved!!

I'm really glad you updated and I can't wait to see where this goes (The Maclay's better not get a hold of Tara!!)

Love this story!

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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby abarda » Mon Apr 05, 2010 5:20 am

Nice update.
I really hope Tara's family won't hurt any of the girls. That would be really bad.

...And who cares about Tara being a bad influence for Willow? I mean, she's Tara... ;-)
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby LittleBit » Mon Apr 05, 2010 6:34 am

so what's the plan? how are they going to shake Tara's family?
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby willowtarabuffyfaith » Sun May 02, 2010 9:34 am

ooOOoo!!!!! need more!! please update as soon as you can :pray :pray mmmm..... :wtkiss :blush but tara's family :paranoid the story is amazing so far!
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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby ms_psyhco_pep_squad » Sun Aug 01, 2010 10:27 pm

...we do need a plan. I just think it'll help if we're not panicking and running around like a couple headless chickens."

She seemed to mull over that. Her brow crinkled, and I could see she was thinking about something really deep. I waited, knowing that whatever it was, it was most likely important.

"Did you know that cockroaches can live up to eight minutes without their heads? They keep moving and everything."

Or maybe not.


LMAO that's too amazing for words. :rofl :rofl :rofl

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Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)

Postby love_2003 » Mon Aug 02, 2010 1:15 am

Glad that I found this story. You got me hooked by just reading the first couple of chapters. I'm hoping that Willow and Tara can think of some sort of plan to help keep Tara's family from finding her.
Looking forward to reading more.
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Re: False Euphoria (AU) [Final Chapter]

Postby AmberGoddess » Mon Aug 30, 2010 8:37 pm

Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 5:00 pm Post subject: Re: New fic: False Euphoria (AU)
Author: Ambergoddess

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, Joss Whedon rules all. ME, UPN, blah blah blah

Feedback: Oh please! The more the merrier.

Rating: R! Finally.

Summary: AU fic, no monsters, Hellmouth, or magic. Willow's a sophomore, Tara's a junior. Willow is alone and very depressed. Tara has to help.

Spoilers: None

Distribution: Fine, but tell me first, okay?

Notes: This is my first fic, and I don't have a beta, so bear with me. I love criticism, helps me write. Anything else, message me please.

This may seem rushed, but I need to finish this. I apologize to any and all who hate this ending.
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Part Twenty



"Miss Rosenberg!" My head shot up. Blinking, I looked around, already preparing my excuse for sleeping in class. Maybe an illness, or a family emergency…



As it turned out, I didn’t need one. A woman I didn't recognize at all stood at the door, staring expectantly at me. It took me a second to remember that my name had been called. "Uh, yeah? I mean, yes? Is something wrong?"



The woman didn’t answer me directly, instead telling me I was needed in the office immediately. I rose, packing my books automatically as my mind raced, trying to recall anything I had done in the last few days that would merit a trip to the office. I came up empty, nothing springing to mind even after meticulous thought. If it's not me, then it's either paperwork or Tara. God, I hope it's paperwork. Ignoring the ominous 'Oooooh…' that followed me out the door, I left, trailing the woman as she walked away.



I was getting worried. The woman in front of me hadn't said a single word after she summoned me, not even to introduce herself. I decided to break the silence, if only to spare my increasingly ragged nerves. "So, Miss…" I trailed off, not sure how to continue without her name.



Surprisingly, she spoke up. "Palazetti. My name is Jennifer Palazetti."



I nodded. "Thank you. Miss Palazetti. What's going on? Is everything all right?"



She was silent for a few seconds, her steps thudding on the tiled floor instead of the clicking of heels I had become accustomed to. Glancing down, I saw that her shoes were well-worn cowboy boots, seemingly used often and hard. I controlled the thoughtful frown that wanted to show on my face, not wanting Ms. Palazetti to think… I don't know, I just wanted everything to seem normal with me. Call it instinct, but I didn’t entirely trust her.



I took in the rest of her appearance, examining her from head to toe. Physically, she wasn't very imposing, standing probably only five six, shorter than me. Straight blonde hair fell past her shoulders, a color I thought was from a bottle. I couldn’t be sure though - I couldn’t see her roots. The brief glimpse of her front I'd gotten gave her blue eyes and a face that was startlingly pretty. I put her in her early twenties, twenty-five at the latest. Her clothes, though nice, were slightly creased and dirty. Either she hasn't washed her clothes in a while or she's been sleeping in them.



I was so deep in thought that it came as a shock to me when she answered. "I think it would be best if we discussed this privately, and with Tara present. I only want to have to explain everything once." Hoo boy. That doesn’t help my nerves.



There was nothing I could do, however, so I nodded and kept walking. Not for the first time, I cursed the sheer size of the campus. I wanted to know what was going on, damnit, and I wanted to know now. The enormity of the campus prevented that.



Unconsciously I sped up, catching up to and then leaving behind Ms. Palazetti, forcing the woman to increase her pace as well. We arrived at the office a few minutes later, me slightly out of breath. The blonde irritatingly showed no signs of the near-sprint we'd ended up in, even managing to keep her hair in place. I, on the other hand, was sure I looked like a furry tomato, with my face matching my flyaway hair. I sighed, trying to catch my breath.



Looking around, I noticed that Ms. Palazetti was leading us straight back to Dr. Calendar's office. Somehow I doubted that the principal (or headmistress, whatever) would be directly involved with paperwork mishaps, and my stomach lurched. Oh god, please be all right… The sight of Tara, present and unharmed, sent a surge of relief through my entire body, allowing me to relax. I walked over to her and took her hand, waiting until our eyes met to mouth, 'Are you okay?' She nodded, and seemed just as confused as I was.



Dr. Calendar's voice pulled our attention - unwillingly - away from each other. We glanced up, our hands still joined. "Well, girls, it's come to my attention that there is a problem with your backgrounds. Not so much you, Willow, but Tara, I've been contacted by a gentleman claiming that you're actually a runaway-" her voice lifted on the word, making it sound like a question- "-and that it's my responsibility as dean of this school to turn you over to his care." Tara shrank against me, her grip on my hand tightening to painful levels. Her head shook frantically, trying to deny the awful truth. "I'm sorry, Tara, but he seems to be in the right. All his identity checks pan out, and he's actually on his-"



The door swung open. A large man, one I recognized from the night before, stood framed in the doorway. Behind him, Ms. Jenkins was returning to her desk, tucking what looked to be a sheaf of bills into her pocket. I closed my eyes briefly, taking a second to fume about the lack of security in the school. As I returned my attention to the man I knew to be Tara's father, his gaze alighted upon Tara herself. A light of triumph burned briefly, quickly suppressed and unseen by all but me. Tara cowered even farther into me, now actually completely behind me. I squeezed her hand reassuringly, keeping my focus on the man in front of me.



He took a step forward, towards Tara and I. We both retreated, afraid of this man, but for different reasons. I knew why Tara feared him, but I didn't fear him for any physical reason. It was simply that his aim was to take her away from me, and that frightened me more than anything he could do to my body.



When he took a second step, the trance that had seemed to fall over the office snapped. Tara and I kept backing away, while Dr. Calendar came out from behind her desk, moving so that she was between him and us. "Excuse me, but do you have a reason to be here?" I couldn't see her face, but I could imagine the glare she'd be giving him right about now.



Unfortunately, it didn’t seem to have the effect on him as it did on her hapless students. "As a matter of fact I do, lady. That there's my daughter, and she belongs at home with me and mine, not here in this… place." He smirked as he said this, and stepped forward yet again, this time reaching for Tara. Dr. Calendar wasn’t done, though. Not by a long shot.



"Do you possess any identification that can verify this allegation?" She seemed to realize that this wouldn't be understood, so she clarified. "Do you have any ID? That can prove you're actually her father?"



His eyes widened, then narrowed. Guess he didn't think of that. Growling, he advanced on her. "Look, lady, this is none of your business. That's my kid, and I don't need no damn papers to prove that!" Brushing her aside, he came straight for Tara, gripping her upper arm and yanking her to him. "Tell her the truth, girl. Tell her what you did!" He glared at her downturned head. "Not gonna say anything? All right, I will." He spoke to us now. "She attacked me and her older brother, then took off on us. We been tracking her for days, and now with Ms. Palazetti's help we found her." He reluctantly gestured to the said woman, who had been quietly observing from a corner the entire time.



I raised my eyebrows, marveling at the sheer idiocy of the man who stood before me. That entire story can be disproved with a few simple questions. I opened my mouth, but before I could ask anything, Dr. Calendar overrode me. "You expect me to believe that this girl-" She gestured to Tara, hanging limp and acquiescent in her father's grasp. "-assaulted both you and your son, who I'm assuming is not without considerable physical prowess, and was able to incapacitate you both adequately enough to flee?" His mouth opened, then shut, and I could almost see his brain trying to muddle out what she'd said. She sighed. "You've got to be kidding me."



He understood that, all right. He seemed to be getting angry at her not believing his story, but he couldn't protest because then he'd be belittling his own masculinity. I smirked. "Can I ask two questions?" Not waiting for an answer, I continued. "First, do you or your son have any actual wounds? And second, how do you explain the wounds on Tara herself?" I heard a sharp intake of breath from behind me, and Tara abruptly pulled her hand from mine. I turned to look back at her and winced at the anger I saw in her eyes. "Sorry, Tara, but he needs to be put away, and I'm willing to endure your anger if I know you're safe." She didn't say anything, and the anger I saw didn't dissipate. Sorry, love, but whatever it takes.



Tara's anger was matched by Mr. Maclay's. Shaking the girl he held in his grasp, he roared, "Girl, what you been tellin' people? What- what lies and slander have you been spreadin'?" She didn't answer.



Stepping forward, I answered him calmly, working extremely hard to keep my nerves out of my voice. "She didn’t have to say anything, Mr. Maclay. I saw with my own eyes."



"Yeah? And what is it you think you saw?" He did his best to intimidate me, looming and growling and glaring quite impressively. I was intimidated, too. I suppressed it, though, seeing how cruelly he held Tara.



I stepped forward, getting almost but not quite in his personal space. "The results of exactly what I'm seeing now. Get your filthy hands OFF of her!" What had started as a controlled tone had morphed into a snarl, and I'm pretty sure I looked a little bit feral. Whatever he saw in my face had him take a half step back, and I swear he almost obeyed me and released Tara. Sadly, though, he regained control of himself and stopped.



Staring at me, and only at me, he tightened his grip on Tara until I could see her biting her lip so she didn't cry out. My fists clenched, and I moved to take a step, before a new voice shocked me. "Mr. Maclay, please release the girl." We all turned to the source.



Ms Palazetti wasn't in the corner anymore. Everyone in the room had forgotten she was there, and she'd moved forward until she was in the central spot of the room. What was startling was that that spot was right behind Tara's father. What was astonishing was that she was addressing him with a complete lack of fear. And what was completely mind-blowing was the gun she had aimed at the back of his head.



Mr. Maclay had enough sense to release Tara, and she instantly scurried back behind me. He turned slowly, hands in the air, and looked at Ms. Palazetti. "Turn around, Mr. Maclay." He just looked at her, murder in his eyes. "Don't even think about it. Turn around!" He did so slowly, and in record time she'd holstered her gun and handcuffed him. "Let me introduce myself again. My name is Jennifer Palazetti, and I'm with the Special Crimes Squad of the SFPD. You, Donald Maclay, are under arrest."



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After reading Mr. Maclay his rights and placing him in the care of two uniformed officers who had responded to Ms. Palazetti's call, she came back in the room. "You guys probably want some answers." Off our nods, she explained. "We knew about your… crappy home life for a while, Tara. We being the police. Unfortunately, we could never get enough evidence to arrest him without him being alerted and running. I've been undercover on your case ever since you ran away, Tara. I pretended to be a PI, specializing in tracking down runaways. You'd be surprised what a man admits to a pretty lady, especially one he think is on his side. He hired me, and after and extremely large amounts of dead ends and wild goose chases, I'd compiled enough evidence that all I needed was to find you. The doctor's reports should be the nail in his coffin, and you won't even have to stand trial." I tried to interject with a question, but she anticipated me. "My colleagues weren't just sitting on their asses eating donuts while I was working. They collected evidence, interviewed neighbors, and just got as much dirt on the family as possible. You're free, Tara. We got him."



Tara seemed almost dazed. I couldn't blame her, really. This was a lot to dump in her lap all at once. "F-free?"



Ms. Palazetti smiled. "Yeah, honey. You don't have to worry about being hurt anymore. Oh, and we got Donny too."



Tara turned to me. "Will-"



"I know." I cut her off before she could speak. I'd seen the anger and hurt in her eyes as I told her most guarded secret, and I didn't want to hear what was coming spoken out loud. Before I could go on, though, she interrupted me.



"No, you don't. You might have spilled a couple of secrets I'd rather weren't common knowledge, but that doesn't negate the fact that you were willing to do whatever it took to save me. You're still my knight in shining leather, and I will always love you."



I looked up at her, and the sincerity and love shining out of her eyes would have been enough to convince me, even without the gentle kiss that followed. I sighed, loving the feeling of peace that radiated off of her. I hugged her, and realized that for the first time since I'd met her, Tara was completely relaxed in my arms. Kissing the top of her head, I vowed, "You will never be hurt again."



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I can't say I kept that vow. Couples fight, it happens, and someone gets hurt. But what I can say is that it's never been on purpose, and I've always done my utmost to comfort her afterwards. I was blessed that day on the bus, when a shy, stuttering blonde chose to sit next to a wounded redhead. It was the beginning of love.


~fin~
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