new fic: The Outing

[Puppyfantastico]

Cool story. I never usually like fan fic but this is great. I was convinced that the video at the beginning was going to be Desert Hearts or somesuch...



Next installment soon please!

[Mainer]

Title: The Outing

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: All the characters belong to Joss Whedon.





Part Ten:





"Was your whole conversation with Anya like that?" Willow asked as she walked Tara back to her dorm.



"Yeah," Tara said blushing. "She's very detailed."



"That's one way to describe her," Willow said. "We'll get together with everyone again sometime."



"I have plans to go to the museum with Anya next weekend," Tara said.



"You really like her?" Willow asked. "Because she's the one person in my circle of friends you don't have to like."



"I do. I don't know why. She's just so genuine," Tara said.



"I guess she is," Willow said. "Well, we're back."



"Yep," Tara said not letting go of Willow's hand.



"So, it's time to say goodnight," Willow said still holding onto Tara.



"You aren't going to walk me to my door?" Tara asked.



"I can do that," Willow said excitedly, "but it won't be any easier to say goodnight up there."



"I don't want you to say goodnight," Tara said. "There are some things we were supposed to talk about."



"I didn't forget," Willow said waiting while Tara opened the door. "I just didn't know you'd want to talk about it tonight."



"Don't take this the w-wrong way," Tara said closing the door behind them, "but I'm never going to want to talk about it."



"It's not me?" Willow asked trying to decipher whether it was telling her or telling anyone.



"No, it's like I said b-before. I just don't like to talk about it," Tara said. She sat cross legged on her bed and picked up a small square throw pillow to hug.



"Maybe if we both do a little disclosing it won't be so bad," Willow said. "Go ahead, ask me anything." Willow said sitting cross legged in front of Tara. "First give me one of those pillows."



"What is your family like?" Tara asked. She figured she would start with the biggie.



"Well, it's just me, my mom, and my dad. I don't really talk to my parents much. They're really busy with their jobs. There isn't really anything to tell," Willow said. "Sometimes I wish they cared more, but sometimes it's nice to not have them butting into my personal life. Buffy, Xander, and Giles are like my family now, and Buffy's mom is great. She's always there when I need advice or I just need to talk. What about your family."



"This is really hard for me," Tara said clutching the pillow tighter. "I want to tell you, but I'm scared."



"Scared of what?" Willow asked gently.



"Scared you w-won't love me if you k-know," Tara said a tear escaping her eyes.



"I will always love you," Willow said touching Tara's arm. "Nothing you say can change that."



"My family isn't v-very nice," Tara said. "My mom d-died a couple of years ago, and my dad. He just isn't nice, t-that's all. Neither is my b-brother, but my mom was w-wonderful. She was so kind and caring. She always made me feel special, like you do. After she d-died things got r-really bad. I left and they d-don't know where I am."



"I can't believe you thought I wouldn't love you if I knew that," Willow said moving closer to Tara. "It makes me love you more, if that's possible. The way you describe your mother makes her sound like you. I wish I could have met her. If you ever want to clarify not nice, you can always talk to me. You can talk to Xander about it too. His dad isn't nice either."



"I didn't know that," Tara said wiping away the tears. "He seems so happy."



"We all have our own family issues in the scooby gang, that's why we're a family. Buffy's mom is everyone's mom, and Giles is the dad. We're all like their kids. I'm sure that Mrs. Summers and Giles would be happy to welcome a new daughter in law. I mean they took Anya in."



"Are we getting married?" Tara asked smiling at Willow.



"We might as well. Seeing as how I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with you," Willow said.



"You know that already?"



"Don't you?" Willow asked.



"From the minute I saw you," Tara said. "I just didn't want to scare you off."



"I thought we already covered that you could never do that," Willow said waving her finger at Tara with mock sterness.



"We did," Tara said. "When did you first know you were attracted to me?"



"That's a tough question, because I knew when I first saw you, but I didn't want to know then. I really knew and wanted to know when we were studying at the library about a week after we met. I didn't learn anything about psychology that night, but I learned every inch of you. When did you first know?"



"The very first time I saw you. Your eyes. It felt like they were looking right into my soul," Tara said. "What did you first notice about me?"



"Your lips. I couldn't stop looking at your lips. I still can't. They're so amazing," Willow said tracing Tara's lips with her fingers. "They're so soft and beautiful, and kissable."



"How kissable?"



"Very kissable. You wouldn't believe how hard I have to try, just to stop myself from kissing them right now," Willow said.



"You don't have to try," Tara said. Willow instantly leaned forward and captured Tara's lips. She knew she would never get tired of kissing Tara, or touching Tara, which she currently had to restrain herself from doing. Willow could feel her resolve fading so she broke the kiss.



"Do you want to stay the night?" Tara asked. "Not for that, but just to stay," she clarified.



"I'd love to stay the night with you," Willow said. "I feel like all my dreams are coming true. Well almost all my dreams."



"Some of them are just gonna have to wait," Tara said.



"They're waiting. They're just impatient. See, they've been wanting this for a long time. They were angry at me because I didn't tell you sooner, but they also understand your position and respect your wishes. If they get unruly, don't worry, I can control them."



"That's good to know. Maybe tonight my dreams can keep your dreams company," Tara said.



"What will they be doing?" Willow asked coyly.



"There is no way I"m telling you that," Tara said. "At least not yet."



"Before we do it, you're gonna have to say it to me," Willow said.



"Why?"



"Those are the scooby rules. If you can't say it, you can't do it," Willow said. "Xander made that up. Plus I want to hear you say it."



"Are you prepared to wait that long?" Tara asked.



"I'll wait forever," Willow said.



"I don't think you'll have to wait that long," Tara said. "My resolve isn't that strong."



"Have you ever....done it before?" Willow asked.



"No, well, not officially," Tara said.



"What does that mean?" Willow asked.



"It means I don't want to talk about it," Tara said. "It's

n-nothing I like to remember."



"Okay, I won't bring it up again, but if you want to I won't object to listening," Willow said.



"Thank-you for being so understanding about everything," Tara said stroking Willow's arm. "How about you? Have you ever had sex?"



"Yeah, with Oz," Willow said. "I always thought it would be better than it was. Buffy assures me we were doing it wrong if it wasn't good."



"Buffy's experienced?"



"Yes and no," Willow said. "Not a lot of people, but, well let's just say I'm surprised her and Riley made it to the Bronze tonight."



"I thought you were exaggerating about the level of infatuation, but I don't think they knew anyone else was there tonight," Tara said. Willow moved up beside Tara on the bed and snuggled into her.



"Can we stay like this forever?" Willow said rubbing the arms that were encircling her. "I feel so safe here. How do you make me feel so safe?"



"I don't know," Tara said smiling down at the redhead. "For a long time, like my entire life, I didn't fell safe, but I always feel safe with you. You have this way of pulling me out of myself, of making me feel like I"m special and important. How do you do that?"



"Magic," Willow said looking up at Tara and smiling.



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'Pain has an element of blank. It cannot recollect wen it began, or if there were a day when it was not. It has no future but itself. Its infinite realms contain its past, enlightened to perceive new periods of pain.'
Emily Dickinson

[mollyig]

"Are we getting married?" Tara asked smiling at Willow.



"We might as well. Seeing as how I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with

you," Willow said.



Lovely. Their love growing stronger. Well done!

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[Mix]

So Sweet. I'm 100% in love with this story and the way you're writing it! Thank you for the update!



M

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If you love men so much, go love men! - Anya before walking off with Willow's coffee in Entropy

[snuggle79]

very sweet! I really liked the part, when each of them told the other one, what they first "registered" at each other.

Oh baby, want me to rub your tummy? She likes it when I ... stop explaining things.

Hi, um Tara..how are you? well...I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time...for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?


Looking down and hungry for your love, but no way to feed it...

[Karzia]

Wonderful update lots of thanks again for this awesome story, with it look back at the early times of their love.

Give into the sunshine....give into the W/T love..let it take over"

--------Sassette

[fidds]

aaww so cute ! i love it when they just open up to each other , it shows how much they love each other



Thank you Mainer for a great update



*Hannah*

[hellmouthhottie20]

excellent.

Taras lips, yummy.

you are a great writter.

keep it up.



Caz

one by on the penguins stole my sanity

So what if my grades are lousy, you always said its not what you know its who you know - my little sis

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Caz--can I just agree with you about the lips? Yeah..



Great update..I love how Willow says that she's going to spend the rest of her life with Tara like it's something that Tara should have already known..



-Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[jdcioffi]

Taralips ...



Nice ... and yummy update!

JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[xita]

mainer, that's lovely. I like them just talking about their feelings, it's so intimate.

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Willow and Tara Love

Truly and Forever

[Grimaldi]

very cool update

You are what you eat, you big pussy

I got news for you pal, you ain't leadin' but 2 things right now Jack and shit..and Jack left town

Wash your hands, they've been up a bear

[The Rose24]

W/T are taking things slowly as it should be. Beautiful and Powerful at the same time.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[AmberBensonRockzMyWorld]

I Love this fic, It is so awsome, Cute and sweet. Thank You for writing it. I love it. Well I must go for now, Much Love to all of you,

Lisa



I / Amber 4 Life

This is our Last Embrace, Must I dream and Always see your face.~ Jeff Buckley "Last goodbye"

[The Rose24]

Just checking for an update. I hope you are still writing this story because it is beautiful how you are developing W/T's relationship slowly but surely.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[Puppyfantastico]

Hurry with the next installment for pity's sake! It's been over a week now.



Not meaning to sound ungrateful or anything!





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Those whom the gods love die young

[witchbitchwillow]

this update was lovely. i managed to miss it some how but ive caught up now and i loved it!!



need more :d



love ellie x x x x

*thats me as a vampire im so evil and skanky and i think im kinda gay*

*no candles? well i brought one its extra flamey!*

[Mainer]

Sorry that I haven't posted an update. I do have parts eleven through thirteen written, and I'm working on part fourteen now. Things have been really hectic and I haven't had the time to post any of them yet. Hopefully in the next couple days I can get parts eleven and twelve up. Thanks for being so patient.



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'I wonder if it hurts to live- And if they have to try- And whether- could They choose between- It would not be- to die-'
Emily Dickinson

[SquishyTrishy]

Hey



I just started reading your fic and it is really great. I was scrolling down on the last page hopeing for more and there wasnt any :'( but ill live. Just droping u a line and tellung u that ur fic kicks!



~Trish~

[KJchicago]

Mainer - aww, another great romantic, sweet story. I always love your spin on W/T's blossoming love.



Look forward to more of this story.

[Mainer]

Title:The Outing

Rating:PG-13

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon.





Part Eleven:





Willow woke up to the unwelcome rays of the sun shining in on her face. For a minute she didn't know where she was, then she felt the arms wrapped around her and the warm body she was cuddled into. She shifted carefully, propping herself onto her elbow. She looked down at the sleeping beauty and wondered if she hadn't dreamt it all, but she knew she could never dream anything as wonderful as this. Tara seemed to be stirring, but not like she was waking up. Her sleep looked restless. Whatever it was that happened to her must have been pretty bad if it disturbed her in her sleep. Half of Willow wanted to know everything that had happened to Tara, every detail of the trauma she lived through. The other half didn't want to know anything about it, because she didn't think she could handle it. She couldn't imagine how anyone could mistreat someone as sweet and wonderful as Tara. Willow had spent many nights as a child wishing for different parents. Seeing how Xander's father treated him made her thankful that her parents only neglected her. Could Xander have turned out like Tara if he hadn't had any friends? What even made Willow think that Tara didn't have any friends? They hadn't discussed it at all. Willow focused her attention back to the sleeping figure in front of her. Her muscles were tensed and she looked like she was in pain, Willow was tempted to wake her up, but she wanted to let her rest. 'What kind of rest is this?' Willow thought. 'How much pain are you hiding from me? I wish I could take all that sadness in your eyes and just wash it away.' Tara's body tensed again and her face made a fearful expression. That was it, Willow couldn't take it anymore. She began to softly stroke Tara's hair hoping it would soothe her into a more peaceful sleep. Instead her body flinched at the touch and she was startled awake. Tara looked into Willow's eyes and relaxed, and Willow began to stroke her hair again.



"What were you dreaming about?" Willow asked.



"I don't remember," Tara said relaxing more into Willow's touch. Every time she lied she felt terrible, but her dreams weren't anything to talk about. She had been dreaming about what she dreamt about every night. She dreamt that her family found her and took her back.



"I usually always remember my dreams," Willow said.



"What did you dream about last night?" Tara asked.



"No laughing," Willow warned. "I dreamt that you and I had this beautiful house, with a white picket fence and a big back yard. We had three kids and you were making cookies in the kitchen with them."



"I like this dream," Tara said a smile forming on her face.



"Well it gets a little scary. See all our neighbors were frogs and horses, and they kept trying to come over and play with us. Then they wanted to invite us to their barbecue, but I wouldn't open the door."



"That's very strange," Tara said.



"Not really. Almost every dream I have contains frogs," Willow said. "Did you remember what you dreamt?"



"I dreamt my family found me," Tara said. She didn't want to hide things from Willow. She had been hiding for too long, and no matter how hard she tried to keep secrets they kept coming out. "I always dream that my family finds me and takes me back. Willow I don't want to go back," Tara said crying.



"I won't let them take you. I promise they'll never take you," Willow said trying her best to comfort Tara.



"I'm sorry," Tara said between sobs. "I didn't mean to cry."



"Whoever hurt you before. I'm not them and I'm never gonna hurt you. I'm never gonna let anyone hurt you. You don't have to apologize for crying. You can cry on my shoulder anytime."



"I know," Tara said. "It's just. I never wanted you to know how bad things were. I wish I didn't have to know. I'm always afraid they'll be waiting around the corner for me."



"I wish I could change that for you. I don't like to think that anyone would hurt you. I'll just have to spend every second of every day with you and then I'll know you're safe," Willow said. She looked down at Tara and saw her smiling, that's exactly what she was trying to accomplish. She knew she couldn't change Tara's past, but she could garuntee her a happy future. "You think I'm kidding don't you?" Willow said. "I'm not. I'm never gonna let you out of my sight."



"I'd like that, but it's not possible," Tara said. "I have classes that you aren't in, and you told me last night that you were telling both sets of parents today."



"You can come," Willow said. It would be a lot easier if she came.



"I can't. You should do this on your own," Tara said. "I'll be here for you when you get back."



"Why can't you come?" Willow asked disappointed.



"This is something between you and your family. If I'm there you might not get their honest reaction," Tara said.



"I know, that's one of the reason's I want you there," Willow said putting on her best sad puppy face.



"That face, as cute as it is, is not going to work," Tara said. "Besides what if they blame me. Do you really want to subject me to that?" Tara asked playing to Willow's protective side.



"That's just low," Willow said, "but you're right. I'll go by myself." Willow got a mischievous look on her face that Tara didn't fail to notice. "Since I have to go all by myself to tell my parents, do you think you could accompany me to the shower?"



"Vixen," Tara said giving Willow a half smile. "No, I will not shower with you, yet."



"You gotta give me something," Willow said. "I have a very hard day and I'm being very brave."



"That's true," Tara said. "I'll give you a kiss now and maybe something more when you get back." With that Tara leaned forward and thoroughly kissed Willow. When they broke apart Willow jumped from the bed and started gathering her things. "Where are you going?"



"The sooner I leave, the sooner I get back," Willow said running out the door.



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'I wonder if it hurts to live- And if they have to try- And whether- could They choose between- It would not be- to die-'
Emily Dickinson

[fidds]

Great update! very cute! loving this fic !

can't wait till the next update



*Hannah*

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I'm on the outside , i'm looking in , i can see through you , see your true colours , cause inside you're ugly , you're ugly like me - STAIND-Outside

[WTsnuggles]

I just started reading your wonderful story. Very well written.



I love how nice and slow there relationship is. Loved Anya so funny. I like that Tara and Anya like each other, Shame about Buffy.



I hope its going to be a long story



Looking forward to the next update. Thank you for writing it.

Snuggles.

"You take my soul with you. Tara "Once more with feeling.

[hellmouthhottie20]

brilliant.. And you got that amazing word in there "vixen" mmmhhhh, i go weak at the knees just thinking about that. lol

Cant wait for the next update, iam a greedy little fic reader.



Caz

one by on the penguins stole my sanity

So what if my grades are lousy, you always said its not what you know its who you know - my little sis

Edited by: hellmouthhottie20 at: 6/1/02 8:21:23 am

[xita]

lovely update and can't blame willow for trying to get tara in the shower with her. And Tara, still hiding, scared. Poor darlling.

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Willow and Tara Love

Truly and Forever

[The Rose24]

Awwwwww. So cute. Things are flowing very nicely.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[LeatherQueen]

Great update, Mainer! Love vixen Willow trying to get Tara in the shower with her.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Puppyfantastico]

Cool! Thanks. Very nice.





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Those whom the gods love die young

[The Rose24]

Just saying hi and give this a little bump.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[foreverpiper]

Love this so far...I can't wait to see how Willow's parents are going to react!