FIC: Coming Back

[Jennifer]

Bump. Okay, I didnt want to beg, but I need my vicarious smoochies. (I just re-watched "Hush" for the 10th time)

Willow and Tara's Love
|| Jennifer's Journal

[WillowTarafan98]

Checking for an update I really love this story!!!



~Stephie~

[tkheaven]

Update Update Update Update

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Tara Dead? ME HQ is on high quality crack. Then again, perhaps they weren’t, which is sad…truly sad.
Maybe they should be.

[hopico99]

update????

WILLOW: Usually I use that time to copy over my class notes with a system of different colored pens ... but it's been pointed out to me that that's, you know, insane.
TARA: I said "quirky."

[Darn Salem Judges]

What was it someone said....."UPDATE? UPDATE? UPDATE?"



Lovin' this story so much!



I just love how Tara has changed, the more open she is, and how she's affectively untouched by her father etc....I think that you have totally hit the nail on the head!!



It amazes me how you wrote Willow's analysis of Tara in the car, when she was talking about how she was seeing the "untouched" Tara...You wrote that so intricately and I bow down to you! Wish I had that insight!!



Bring on the kisses and gay love!



Love 2 all Kitties cuz u guys rock!

Em xxXXxx

"Sassy Eggs" ~ Tara in Forever

[Jennpurr]

Yes... UPDATE, UPDATE



Need more.



More W/T goodness. Please, soon?



Jen

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"It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured before passing out. -from "Answering Darkness" by Sassette




Tara: Can you just be kissing me now?

Edited by: Jennpurr at: 5/11/02 10:01:12 am

[The Rose24]

Bumping. Hoping for an update.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.

Tara: Willow, I got so lost.
Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Willow: Hi, um Tara. I was wondering maybe you want to go out some time for coffee? food? Kisses and gay love?

[pleasantlyblue]

*cough*update*cough*

the girl of my dreams is giving me nightmares

AIM: thiscalamity

[WillowTarafan98]

just checking for an update I really love this story!!



~Stephie~

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Love didn’t listen
It only hears what it wants to hear
Two hearts beating as one
The odds were against ‘em
Oh but they had something on their side
When doubt said it can’t be done
Love didn’t listen
~Chely Wright "Love Didn't Listen" *off the 'never love you enough' cd*

[The Next Tara Maclay]

Waiting for the update, Seriously, I am WAITING

[hopico99]

i'm just strollin' through the pens *bumping* fics up. *sigh* i've been waiting for an update, it's a wonderful story, i hope you return soon!

WILLOW: Usually I use that time to copy over my class notes with a system of different colored pens ... but it's been pointed out to me that that's, you know, insane.
TARA: I said "quirky."

[Shinnen]

anon! your fic! GOOD!



I'm very patiently waiting. *taps feet on ground, looks at time*



....when is the next update?

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When I Am Standing On My Head, The Sky Is So Deep And The Sea Is So High.

[Jennpurr]

KICK-Update, KICK-Update



Need more soon.



Just trying to keep this on the front page.



Jen

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"It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured before passing out. -from "Answering Darkness" by Sassette




Tara: Can you just be kissing me now?

[hopico99]

okay, i totally slightly just a little...stalked anon and asked if there was an update coming anytime soon. She wrote back and said she had just given something to her beta reader, sweet huh! soon we'll get more.

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Woo Hoo! Update soon? I can't wait!!



-Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[jdcioffi]

*stunned*



Upd ... um ... update? Th-this, here? S-soon?



*thud*

JD

"I smell the smelly smell of something that smells smelly!" (SpongeBob Squarepants)

[Blue77]

Coming Back



Feedback: Please, this story needs all the help it can get. Takes place five years from now.

Spoiler Warning: Through Season Six

Disclaimer: It's all ME and Joss. I do not have any copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights belong with the production company, writers etc, etc.

Rating: PG for now

Couples: Eventually W/T again

Notes: Anon is away on a trip and has asked me to post this for her, hope I've done a good job being the beta!! Anon wanted me to thank everyone for their patience and continued support!!





Part 14



Willow and Tara walked up the front steps of the house that Tara shared with Julie and Betsy. Neither of them expressed the nagging feelings of sadness that they were both experiencing. They quietly entered the house not ready to make their arrival known. They did not want to attract the attention of the party that could be heard from the backyard. The silence between them became awkward and they both avoided eye contact with each other.



"This is kind of awkward. It feels like the end of a date where we don't know how to say goodbye." Tara finally spoke up because she could sense Willow's anxiety and she could not bare the silence any longer.



"I know!" Willow nodded her head in an exaggerated manner. "With the exception that we aren't going to say goodbye. We are just going to go join a party filled with friends. Well actually with mostly your friends and two of my friends who are more like my family. And I am going to be in town for a while and we have just said hello and that means it is too soon to say goodbye. Not that I want to ever say goodbye again. Oops, I'm sorry, no pressure. Argh, I am so on the verge of a babble-fest." Willow reached over and lightly grabbed Tara by the shoulders and shook her with mock urgency. "Stop me. My babbling is legendary and it could go on all night!" she pleaded.



Tara's blue eyes lit up with amusement. She was enjoying Willow's teasing and her touch. She felt so at ease with Willow and began to mourn the fact that the sense of comfort would soon end. Once they went out the back to the party, even though they were her friends, she knew that she would feel watched. She would feel as if she were under a spotlight. Everyone would be looking to see how she was reacting to everything. Tara just wanted to blend in and not receive much attention, but now she would be going outside and everyone who knew what was going on would be observing her. They would be looking for hints of her feelings and analyze her.



In addition to her anxiety about the party, Tara was experiencing a strong physical attraction between her and Willow. She did not want to be a part of a couple under examination. She had avoided romance and dating and never felt like she was missing anything. But now, there were emotions that were flooding through her for the first time since she woke up in a hospital room five years ago and she didn’t know how she should act. Pushing those questions aside she focused on Willow. "I understand, well I don't understand babbling much but I know. I kind of wish we didn't have to go to the party. Don't you wish we had more time?"



"Oh no, I never wish! I mean yes, I want to spend more time with just you. I want that more than anything but I am not going to wish for it because when you wish, bad things happen." Willow saw disappointment and confusion begin to show on Tara's face and she realized that the other woman did not understand. Of course Tara didn't understand, she didn't remember being trapped in Buffy's house by a vengeance demon. Willow felt desperate to reassure Tara, so she began to run her hands up and down Tara's arms as if she was trying to warm the other woman up. And then slowly, she moved her hands up and began to massage Tara's shoulders.



"I mean, yes, I really want to be with you alone. I want to spend more time getting to know you and give you more of a chance to get to know me. I want to go to your favorite restaurant. I want to see the other place where you work. I want to see the room that you live in. I want to learn everything about you. I want to do all those things right now and never stop getting to know you."



Silence filled the air, as they couldn’t take their eyes off each other. They just both stood there looking for answers in each other’s eyes. The moment was special and intense. Tara knew what she wanted to do. She wanted to lean over and kiss Willow. She wanted to feel the strength of Willow's arms again as they held each other. She wanted to run her fingers through Willow's beautiful red hair. Tara felt shy as her mind processed all the things she wanted to do, and she could feel her face turning red. She had to look away and the moment was broken. Willow dropped her arms and began to kick the carpet. Tara felt as if something very important had slipped away and she didn't know what to do. She had never wanted to be so intimate with anyone else. She needed time to think and sort things out so she decided to continue to avoid what was happening.



"Um, I really need to take a shower before I go and be social with everyone. I really don't want to spend the evening smelling like horses!"



"Yeah, I actually … uh … have to use the bathroom" said Willow hoping that Tara did not think that she was making up an excuse to stay near her. She tried to justify this by shrugging her shoulders and meekly saying, "It's been a long day."



Tara immediately understood and felt guilty that she had not considered Willow’s needs earlier and her face directly expressed her feelings. "Oh, of course, how rude of me. You have been travelling all day. You probably want to freshen up. Come on, I will take you to my room where you can use my bathroom. I'll just use Betsy and Julie's shower."



Tara lightly took Willow's hand and led her up the stairs. The gentle grasp of Tara's hand reminded Willow of the times when her lover would lead her up to their room to be alone. Silently sending a prayer to any higher power that would listen, Willow prayed for the day when Tara would be lead her upstairs for other reasons. Until that day, being with Tara, seeing her room, spending time with her was enough.



As she led Willow up the stairs, Tara was overwhelmed by feelings of deje vu. It felt so right to be with this woman. She recognized that it was out of character for her to be so touchy with Willow, but here she was taking every opportunity to reach out and make contact. She was usually so shy with people. Distance made her feel safe, even to the people she was closest to. It had taken her a year to just get comfortable enough to hug Julie or Betsy. But today, with Willow, a woman who in her memory she had just met, she was taking her hand, sleeping in her arms, looking in her eyes, and thinking about kissing her. It was all so new to Tara but she decided to trust her instincts.

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Thanks for the update, Sam!! Just gotta go read it now!



-Aimee

*****
"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[ExtraFlameyWT]

That was a GREAT update!!!!!!



I can't wait for more!! Tara should DEFINITELY trust her instincts if they are telling her that she should be with Willow!



Wonderful job, Anon!



-Aimee

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"Pope John Paul today confirmed his opposition to gay marriages, said they're unnatural. Gay marriage is unnatural. Then he put on a pointy hat, his dress, and returned to never having sex at all." -Bill Maher

[frogfear]

This so sooooo good!!



Pls ..not so long between updates - I CAN"T HOLD OUT!!

"It's all about emotional control"

[The Next Tara Maclay]

*Hands Blue477 a cookie and anon.* GOOD GIRLs..or BOYS

[Karzia]

Way cool update. They are so perfict together that even loss of memory can't stop the magic. Thanks for the update, I await the next one

Give into the sunshine....give into the W/T love..let it take over"

--------Sassette

[LeatherQueen]

Great update! Thank you for this. So nice to see this fic continuing. I love it.

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"But when they're playing your song on the jukebox in Hell, you might as well dance." - K. Simpson


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

[Thanatopsis]

A most excellent update. Totally worth waitng for.

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"This world's no fun."
"You noticed that too?"

[VampNo12]

Glad to see another update Anon, with thanks to Blue for posting it. Really enjoyed this part, and I loved how both W&T didn't want to say "Goodbye". They both wanted the night to continue like before (ie being together alone), but knew they would have to enter the party soon. Instinct was very important in this part, and yes Tara should trust what her instincts are telling her. I thought it was important how Tara came to the realization that in the past she has kept a comfortable distance from people, but with Willow (a person she just basically met for all intents and purposes) she wants to reach out and touch her (ie feel she is there). Looking forward to the next update, and hopefully soon Tara will follow her instinct and kiss Willow.

[Jennifer]

Ooh! Update! (Not that I was waiting rather impatiently or anything like that. ) Thankyouthankyouthankyou

Willow and Tara's Love
|| Jennifer's Journal

[xita]

oh god i still love your fic. There is a real tension you manage to build. I think the characters are so spot on even though Tara has amnesia, she is still Tara. And Willow well is adorable. I need to know, cause I know tara will fall, has perhaps already fallen but when she finds out what Willow did to Tara.. argh.. so good. I hope you can find time to write more of this wonderous fic.

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"Everything is turning out so dark..."

"No, it's okay. Lost is good. Willow and I always know how to find each other!"

[tommo]

I love how you're taking this really slowly and carefully, lavishing on the fic the care and attention that it takes to build up a really gripping story.



Thanks.

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"Smut now." - Dark Madfic Tommo

[wizpup]

How did I miss this yesterday?



An update - excellent news - this Friday just keeps getting better.



I love the way Tara is so drawn to Willow, the fact that there is no escape from the bond they have to each other. Willow has aged so well - it is lovely to see her patience, her willingness to do whatever it takes to get it right. THIS is how we all know Willow really turns out.



Thanks

jo x

[pikescoob]

Trusting your instincts is a very good idea. Thanks for posting Blue77 and thanks for continuing this wonderful fic anon.



--Michelle