hi everybody! So i'm starting a new thread coz im under a new name and my other one [Random Scribblings] is waaaaay old anyway.
This first one is kind of long, but iono, its an intro
i'll post two recent ones in a few days no doubt
Thankyou for reading
any feedback would be greatly loved and swooned over
A Life; Edited.
I am not ready
To understand who I have become
So perhaps I’ll take you through
Who I once was
A tiny girl
With blistered hands
Who loved to climb things
Loved to reach the very top
But hid away in the dirt
When she was caught
And disciplined.
A small girl
With folded hands
Taught to smile and be polite
And yet rebelled every rule
She still loved to climb
To the very top
Of the highest things she knew
So she could see the world
Unclouded
Unshrouded
And live amongst the Gods.
A growing girl
Not yet able to grasp the scope of her feelings
Hiding in the boyish arms
Of the only thing she knew..
Hiding away in the dirt
Again.
A girl in transit
Buried by ideals of wealth and etiquette
Of service to God
And (ironically) empowerment to women
This girl in transit
This girl.. Still in hiding
Broke
And hid in the arms of another like her
This girl in transit
Finally landed
And learned to love
She learned the curves and the soft soft secrets of women
This girl in love
Found herself betrayed
By the softly curved beautiful girl.. closest to her.
Again
And
Again.
This wounded girl
Fell from her space in the clouds
Into the dirt
Wet and bloody with her cuts
Hungry beasts with boyish grins
Got to know this wounded girl
Got to know her very well
A woman of the world
(Or so she thought..)
Closed her eyes and let them take her
Again
And
Again.
Walking through the shadows
Her eyes still looked for some escape
A ladder
A window
Anything to help her climb out of the mess she’d made
Steeled
She tore herself away from sin
And learned many lessons
In many ways
This healing girl
Finally forgave her past
And looked towards the future
There she was
A growing woman
With steady hands and an open heart
Focused on all that surrounded her
Cold determination to compete
Succeed
Wealth
Power
Her….
(wait.. that wasn’t part of the plan
and she wasn’t..)
Her...
Stacey;
Exotic
Erotic
Ecstatic
This growing woman I tell you of..
She fell before she even looked
They both did.
And months past
And now years
And here she stands
This smiling woman
With love by her side
And trust on her sleeve
A belief in good
And an understanding of bad
She treads the dirt
She smiles at the sky
She hides from nothing
She has been hurt
And She has healed
She has come to understand
How she came to be
Oh.. And she still loves to climb
To reach the top
To Breathe the air of Gods
And live amongst the world of birds.
This has been
A life; Edited.
-Isabell XxX
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let me live forever.. in the space between our lips...