poems

[mocha fiend 22]

This isn't going to be a lovey dovey thread. These poems are from me because I'm in a dark place right now. So I'm writing a lot more. This is my first thread thats all mine. Leave any messages you want.



"I was, I am"

I was once found

I am now Lost

I was once in love

I am now nothing

I was once everything

I am now hated

I was once yours

I am again not

I was once strong

I am now weak

I was once loved

I am now broken

I once had a path

I now only have a past

I once had a reason

I now only have doubts

I once had a life

Now I only have death



Anyone who has been in love and had their heart broken will understand this. Anyone who has been pushed to the edge will get this. My poems aren't the best but they are mine. I am going to share them. This just seems like the place to do so.

I love you my lil baby Tink now and forever and a week

[Miss Evanescent]

ooh poetry yay! youre in chat with us....so chat with us! we arent scary yay for new poetry!

[Spikeizmine87]

hello hello!! Welcome to the inward eye!!!! Im glad to see that you've decided to post your work here! I liked this poem alot, I too know what its like to be in love and have your heart broken...i know this too well "sigh" Well I hope you write more soon! Im looking foward to seeing more!

-rose

I didnt know what being happy was till i found you, i didnt know what love meant till i loved you.

[angel of salvation]

oo poems!

I really like your poems, I know how it feels to go through a dark part of your life...I'm like that alot.

Looking forward to more poems...



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[mocha fiend 22]

This poem has no name as do a lot of my poems.



These tears threaten to spill

They burn my eyes

Memories I have lost

The fears I can not quell

The lost we were

The sadness we exchanged

Pain replaced by hate

This can not be fate

The love I still can not relate

Never said how much

You really have hurt me

The rain clouds do not dissipate

Me in this land

Where the pain is ticking sand

The amazon that falls to heart ache

Defeated by her own disease

The strong will never last

Because the spell you cast

Blinded by love

Left with nothing but blood

Shot in the dark

Killed by the lasting spark

And the words that forever haunt me

" I Love You "

[Spikeizmine87]

Hey there karen! (go me i remembered your name! i never remember names!) I liked this poem, kinda reminded me of a few poems ive written like that...also reminded me of some stuff i went through because of those 3 words..."sigh" geez i sigh alot...ha...well i just wanted to say how much i liked this poem and hope you write more! Cheers!

-rose

I didnt know what being happy was till i found you, i didnt know what love meant till i loved you.

[SJ]

I like your poetry,great expression in your writing,thanks for sharing

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you all for the feedback it helps me a lot.



~The Corpse~



Hurt by you one too many times

Tried and Tried to keep you by my side

Should have known, Should have never told

I thought my life was for this, To be with you

Destroyed in the end, broken and in a bend

Had to get away from you, because the fear i had

Held to you by our memories, so i fight

For the words that once meant something

Forget the feelings I have once more

Forget the future we will never have

No more fighting my mind can't take it

Because i need to heal from the wounds

That are all too new, on the scars of old

So with one last breathe I say the words

Good bye and now I am dead to you

Like a corpse in the ground, hallow from the inside

But before I go, I have one thing to say

From the top you fell, Now I'm in hell

But I thought you should know, Before I go

Some part of me will always love you

[angel of salvation]

Great poems...I like Corpse a lil more than the others, but overall they're all great.



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[Spikeizmine87]

that last poem...that was....wowness....i love how you capture the same EXACT feelings i have been though, that poem brought back memories...wow....i love it when reading someone elses work can invoke so much emotion long since forgotten! Hope you write more soon!

-rose

I didnt know what being happy was till i found you, i didnt know what love meant till i loved you.

[SJ]

Powerful words,great poem

[Renee85]

Wow, your poem 'The Corpse' is amazing! Of course the others are great too but your latest one is my favorite of the three, very expressive and full of feelings that I somewhat relate to.

Quote:

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But I thought you should know, Before I go

Some part of me will always love you

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I love those lines! Thanks for sharing, looking forward to an update.

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[mocha fiend 22]

Sorry Girls and guys my Internet went down and I could not get on to update but I am now so heres the next poem



~Everything I Wanted~

I wanted you to open up

So I pushed

I wanted to know the truth

So I screamed

I wanted you

So I begged

I wanted us to be alright

So I left

I wanted a life with you

So I sacrificed everything

I wanted to help

So I tried

I wanted to show you the world

but now it's never going to happen

I wanted you to love me

But it's to late now

So I wanted you to feel my pain

But it's not really yours to feel

I wanted so much for us to be together

To take those final vows

Live a happy life together

But now I see everything I wanted

Was just a dream, now faded away



A mighty big Thank You to all the feedback. You are all great and having a group of people that know what im going through makes this just that much more easier.

[angel of salvation]

Hey, and woah...great poem! I love it, i could feel everything behind the words...its brilliant

Hope you post more poems soon...



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[onyxsundrops]

Nicely done. Thanks for posting your work.



Yvonne

[Renee85]

I agree with everyone else.

Lovely poems and I’m always looking forward to reading more, thanks for posting.

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[SJ]

Your poetry is great

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you all for the feed back. I am working on my next one but it's taking some time. I should have it up tomorrow. Thanks again you are all wonderful and inspire me.

[mocha fiend 22]

OK so I said it would be up yesterday but I just got it finished. Which means it will probably change when I put it up. So with out anymore talking my next poem.



~The Picture~

Here I lay, wondering about you

I look up at my walls

the same walls that closed me in

I open the journal, out comes the picture

Of happy times when everything was OK

All the memories flood back, and once again

The tears threaten to spill

Every tear and ever memory is just that

Not because of hurt, or pain

But because of Lose and the void

If I said I missed you would you care

Things have changed between us

But In that picture everything is perfect

Love was in our eyes, before the bad times

Before the storm rolled in, Destroying any hope

I put the picture down, not willing to destroy it

Like so many things in the past, all I have

Are these four walls, and a picture to show me

Sometimes life can be good, and we were happy once

[SJ]

Great poem

[angel of salvation]

Hurrah for an update, yet another great poem, filled will that oh so great emotion...ahhh great. Hope to see more!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[fairydust]

Just wanted to tell you that I read your poems...and I think they are awesome. I'm very glad you decided to share them. Im sorry that I have put you through so much...through so many hard times, but in the long run, you will see that I did what I had to.

And just so you know, you never had to make me love you, it always came so easily.

I LOVE MY KARE-BEAR

[mocha fiend 22]

Seeing as I really have been posting all that much. I decided it is time to update this lil thread. And so here is a whole new couple of poems

~ Abby ~

Driving home this summer

With my window down

Summer air coming in

As the sunshine fades (away)



Never thought I’d end up here

My childhood dreams

The smell of vanilla cream

Driving up the hill

To the house above



The sunsets on my home

Where I am safe

This is my place

Where my dreams came true

I look over and smile at you

Holding my love in her arms



She’s nearly two

Playing with her mamas hair

As I walk in the hall way

I see my dreams came true

Smiling at all the things

That makes me just a little

Happier each and everyday

My sweet little girl

I hold you in my arms

Keeping you safe



Abby is my everything

My dream come true

My sweet lil thing

She’s my lil girl

And I will fight

Away all to keep her safe

To keep her mama by my side

My heart and soul

In just a little thing

In my lil girl



~ End of the Rope ~

I got some things that need be said

I’m done lying to you and your kind

Think what you want cuz I’m the one at the end



Of my rope cuz you did dope

Breaking down now cuz you cant

Keep up with my feelings making me dead

(Rope)

(Down)

(Feelings)

I got something to say before the end

You can’t hold me down never had that power

You were always there to make me cower



Because you hate like you love

You fall to your knees and I got nothing left

Lock your feelings inside so I never know

(Hate)

(Fall)

(Inside)



So watch me as I fall

For you for the last time

Breaking down this time

No more lying

I will be there to watch

You as you fall

Hang me like a guilty conscience

Cuz I know you better than you thought

Smoke up breaking down again



Fall to your knees

I got nothing left

I won’t feel bad

When you say good bye



Hate me all you want

Beg me for some help

Watch me as I laugh

Hold it all inside



I’m at the end of my rope now

I said I have to say these things

Before I fall down the cliff

Or before I pull the trigger





Ok here are just two I have about 30 more...I have been kind of busy in the poems lately. So tell me what you think.

[SJ]

Like both those poems,great writing

[angel of salvation]

wow great poems! i liked the 2nd one the best can't wait for more...post again soon!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

.:~*My anime site*~:.

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you for the feedback heres two more

~ Sorry I am ~

I am sorry that I was never

I am sorry that everything is gone

You can’t trade me for a happy life



I am sorry for EVERYTHING

You will never ever be

Just a girl, that sees NOTHING

I am still me

I am sorry for these THINGS



I am sorry that I am me

I am sorry that you still can’t see

I am who I will always be

I will always be me

You can’t change me



I am sorry for WHATEVER

You still don’t get it

I don’t care ANYMORE

You see what ever you want

Cuz I left to mend a broken HEART



I walked away for good

I took a new road

I got stronger

I became this person

That will never love

YOU EVER AGAIN





I am sorry that I am happy now

I am sorry you can’t find help

I am sorry you can’t be a bigger man

You know what I am just sorry I am



SORRY I AM

SORRY I AM

SORRY I AM…





~ Tare it off ~

Take another part of me

Take me away

Show those cuts       

You will never know

Just hard it is to show



COME ON

Tare it off

Take it away

Burn it out



Those are my scars

You will never see

Those are my tears

You never seen cry

SO



COME ON

Tare it off

Take it away

Burn it out



Take another part of me

Oh come on you can’t

Really see those things

I made them up

Just like this



Come on

Tare it off

Take me away

Burn it out



Cuz ill never be that fool

I will never see you again

I thank the sky for that

So I say one last time



Come on

Tare it off

Take me away

And Burn it out

[SJ]

Like both those poems,great writing

[angel of salvation]

Wow great poems! I could feel the angst in the first one... greatness! The second one was just as great...write more soon please!



Jess xxx

'You're my angel of salvation, and hope, and strength...your my multi-angel'-Jay (My baby)

"Denial, Party of one, You're table's ready"-Spud

]|My Anime Site|[

[Renee85]

I like both poems as well, the first one is pretty angsty (like Jess pointed out) and I’m a fan of those. It’s filled with such raw emotion which I can definitely feel from reading this, the second one has the same effect. I really like the other one titled ‘Abby’ too. Thanks for sharing these.

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"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

[mocha fiend 22]

Thank you all for giving me some feed back, I have been using most of these as songs for my brother and me. So lately I have been writing a lot more and just getting all the feelings out and living life, which by the way is going great for me. So here are the newest ones to be up.

~ Foolish ~

I may be foolish

Even though I know

All these words are meaningless (To me)

Right now you see

The lies I tell you (tell you)

Damn don’t say sorry (sorry)

You did nothing wrong

Even though I played it out (on you)



Life is worth living

If you know how to live it

Love is worth loving

If you know how to love



Never think for once I tried

I’m just a fool who didn’t know

The rules of the game

The trick of the trade



Maybe Foolish Even though I know

That all this is for nothing (all of nothing)

In the end we all fall

To the lies we tell each other (each other)

Damn don’t feel bad

Even though I played you (played you)



Life is worth living

If you know how to live it right

Love is worth loving

If you know how to love the game



Never think for once I tried

I’m not just any kind of fool

I made the rules of the game

I made the tricks of our trade





~ Things I never said ~

What I really wanted to say

Where the things I never said

I tried to hide away



All these fears I’ve shown

All I wanted was to show you

I was everything I could be

I never really knew me



What I really wanted to say

Where the things I never said

I tried to hide away

Oh I tried to hide away



All these fears got in the way

Of something really good in the end

I’m sorry I never was

The person I am today



What I really wanted to say

Were the things I never said?

To you even though

You knew

I cant



All these fears broke me down

All I can say is I never shown

The way I really feel

Till the day I fell to my knees



What I really wanted to say

Were these things inside?

The fear I had, you never saw

I really wanted to stay

But we knew oh we knew

~ The Life I lost ~

The life I always saw myself having

Was the one you took from me

White picket fences and green shutters

The home I always will see



My dreams so far gone

Taken by the starlit night

I was hopin for something

To change your mind



Oh this life I live

Meaningless without you

Here with me cuz its yours too

I guess I lived it once



I saw the scars that night

Painted on your black heart

Crushing me down takin me out

Hopin to change your mind



Oh tonight oh oh oh

I wanted to see

Just how far

We can go

COME ON



Take me down show me the scars

Break me apart and see my wounds

Cut me deep, deeper then you know

Then you will ever see



Laugh at my emptiness

Because you cant tell

If I hurt tomorrow

Will you SEE



Oh I want to see

Just how far I will go

Alone, alone…





My dreams, My life

MEANINGLESS NOW

TAKEN APART

BROKEN DOWN!!