*huggles rose* my one and only fan
yayayayayyayay heres more for my poetry whore....ment in only the nicest way
rosary beads swung round my shoulder
as i enter the shadowed courtyard
around me sweet sticks of incence smolder
the courtyrad open but i feel barred
i move to sit beside a grand fountain
with sparkling droplets everywhere
that i envy them is certain
for they can stray anywhere
some say that i am pure
that with god i'll surely walk
yet this i can endure
with god i cannot talk
so take from me my eyes
that i may never see
blacken and my sight surely dies
and so i may be free
and im free from all temptation
free from all my sin
free from devastation
please let my peace begin
so take from me my ears
that i may never hear
and take with it all my fears
and know that im sincere
and im free from all temptation
free from all my sin
free from devastation
please let my peace begin
so take from me my tongue
so i may never sound
take all the songs ive sung
and let my silence surround
and im free from all temptation
free from all my sin
free from devastation
please let my peace begin
and with god i will remain
wandering with him forever
my faith i shall sustain
in him i shall endeavor
and im free from all temptation
free from all my sin
free from devastation
please let my peace begin
{I am not religious the words just kinda popped outta me one day}
is there something youve been meaning to tell me is there somthing eating you alive why cant you hear me im standing in your way why cant you look at me can you see yourself im me i see right into you, you see right through me i see right into you you see right through me cant you see i hold your pain its eating me inside im sacrificed for you im sacrificed for you can you feel me feel the tears within can you love me can you even love yourself i can feel you i can hear you i can see right into you see the pain eating you alive i see right into you past the inward change you see right through me past the pain i hold for you you see right through me past the love thats only you..only you
in the inside past right left and wrong these truths bleed drowing all in unshed tears and salty unbled copper filling my inside past the brim spilling out through sad eyes and broken wrods it stabds with jealous treachery it burns with acid to the wick i can hardly breath.....hehe gee i wonder...where i got the idea for some of my poems...maybe from that fragment...look at the words....one poem always have one line close to the same.....one leads to another you know!.....mostly.....just have to follow the order....
'night'
at night im truly dreaming
with wishes all to see
i cant remember thinking
what are you doing with me
sometimes alone and lonely
the whispers run down the lane
i cant remember feeling
what have you done to me
the dark surrounding always
the leaves yet touched the ground
i cant remember blinking
where have you gone from me
though morning always came
it may not come tonight
i cant remember loving
why did u die on me?
"still life"
haunting beauty etched in stone
watching over the world today
her story is unknown
her soul lost to earthly decay
she is always frozen
trapped inside these walls
her screams encased within
no one hears her at all
she weeps for our sin
she weeps for her own
tears wear her thin
this statue made of stone
her cheeks are always wet
even with no rain
her face is always set
with a look of grotesque pain
she stands alone forever
this girl made of stone
all love time did sever
all except her own.
"souls undone"
Imminent shadows of the past
creep gently in my wake
truth is, true happiness never lasts
and love is to forsake
bittersweet shards of broken glass
shattering and haunting inside
its memories that never pass
and tear i cannot hide
the past elegantly burns within
devouring my last breath
it glorifies my sin
comdemning me to death
salty tears spill unshed
i bleed unspoken lies
the future i no longer dread
all i am simply dies
death whispers in my ears
with sad relections of you
your cold cheek still wet with my tears
a love time cannot renew
for when i cried i drowned
and when i bled i knew
tht loves no face no sound
it was only you.
if your face was but a dream
and you eyes belonged to strangers
you voice to another time
could i even love you then?
and...........
if you only knew
that i would fall to pieces
would you have walked away?
ive been so numb for so long
i dont care what i feel
as long as i just feel
to stop hiding behind the pain
afraid of love and loss
i want to know how you feel
and share in how you love
you always looked so happy
eyes closed and swaying slightly
giving your all to a god ill never know
if i knew how to ask i would to be forgiven
and ask for help.
Soft sensual they stare into eyes
That are everything special
But that will never be theirs
They do not know the feelings are so deep
For friends but never more
Soft light flirting
Always saying just joking
But never really meaning it
For it is forbidden and can never be touched
Leaving a heart to yearn and a mind to wander
Tainted
Darkened days lost and lonely
They flow beneath my wings
Harkened comes my one and only
Save what twilight brings
Tainted moments freeze inside
Fear is on my breath
Frozen teardrops in the tide
Remind me of your death
Expressions cannot be caught
Nor dreams loves nor fears
Their presence cannot be bought
Not even with my tears
The silence it cannot speak
Yet the mind still does hear
The stillness I must seek
Tainted by love so dear
I look to the above
Where darkened shadows cling
The hardly forsaken love
Tomorrow cannot bring
Distraction
Twisted blood of devastation
In my arms does bleed
Curdled black with realization
Soiled with dangerous need
A wanting so utterly depraved
Waiting for satisfaction
Desire so deeply engraved
Letting loose to bold distraction
Unlawful sacrifice of search
Inbedded within my soul
Never forgiven by the church
Spinning out of control
Chained passion of your creation
Longs beneath my own
Flutters with anticipation
And heart made out of stone
Hiding beneath satin sheets
Raging with perfect movement
The searing body heat
With each and every improvement
As we way very still
Reflecting on what took place
Cant get enough erotic thrill
Why don’t we restart this race?
On reflection
Memories are like photographs
A still one scene from the past
A glimpse of what has been
The love pain and loss
Captured in an instant
Enhanced by all these years
And what we had was great
But it was really never enough
Because nothing ever was
That’s the funny thing about reflections
They are always brighter shinier and backwards
It seems so long ago now
But also just like yesterday
If I ever felt old before
I feel ancient today
It was a gradual change
A parting so slowly by inches
So the shock never came
Only pangs of loss in reflection
But everything has its ends
If all who are born die
And all who suffer live
What kind of good am i
If ive nothing more to give
I’m not feeling very introspective
Just here quiet and still
But that’s to be expected
When life has lost its thrill
The world has so much pain
Everywhere I turn
Pouring down like rain
Rain that likes to burn
Sweet salvation
Carry me from here
End this realization
Let pain disappear…