I really enjoyed reading all your stuff, it's all great ^^



I'd love to hear your playing as well, I'll drop you an email...



"Opium" was really nifty too. you have a talented pal ^^

Wow...again with being MIA. I've been gone for the past two weeks and have gotten back and I believe that I have a bit of inspiration.







onyxsundrops: Thank you. Sometimes I look at my poems and I'm like..."wow..that's a dud"...but that one is my favorite that I've written in a long time. Opium is very good as well. Like I said, my friend is a very talented writer.



SJ: Thank you very much!



girlfriends actually: Thank you. It's good to know that something I create can be beautiful.



Lauren: I know I still haven't given you those files, but I think me playing in voice chat works, doesn't it? lol. And yes...my friend is very talented. She just came home after being gone for a month, actually. I missed her!



Expect poems soon.





Thanks, everyone!



-Kristyn

KRRIIIIISTYYYYN!



lol, Wooo Hoooo! Dance little man! Busta move i say! DAAANNNCE!!!



errr....*bell clears throat and grins* ello love!



Well lets just start this off with a "falls over" followed by a BIIIIGGG "passes out"........



*regains conciousness after a few hours*



BAH! Where am I? oh, right, kitten..... Woah........everything you write is so beautiful, some of it just haunts me. I really liked Signs Of Stopping, oh man, my favourite bit in that was



The last twenty minutes

watched your name flow

from my pen 180 times

each name spilled was another wish

that you would be mine



I don't know, just something about the detail in it got to me. I could just imagine the pain and longing. I like read it over and over and over until I almost cried lol. Very touching stuff. Big fan, big fan...huge infact...gargantuan even!



Everything I've read is like, *sighs* why can't i explain anything today?! BAH! Well, its beautiful...like, im usually a harsh judge on poetry but this, all of it, it's really just....beautiful.



You're asleep right now so sweet dreams! Oh! And keep it up *grins*





- Bell, Bellie, Bellie Boo, Bellie Bean...Bogan Bell....errr....me... <--- my manical grin....err....i'll leave now....

Internet girls are cool ... they got strong fingers

Haha.



Bell: Thank you sweetie. You crack me up and make me feel all good as a writer. Thank you for your feedback. I'm glad that you enjoy my writing and that it has that big of an effect on you. I gotta love ya, Bellness! *HUGS*





I swear I'll try and update soon.



-Kristyn

Wahoo for inspiration...



Dive



I feel your hand slowly caress mine

top down

speeding up to 95

wind in our hair

moonlight reflecting in your eyes

with your smile I’m enfolded

pulled to you like the tide



let me dive right into you

I don’t need air just let me go

let your waves crash over me

pull me out with your undertow



what I wouldn’t give

to live in this forever

the smile on your lips

as my heart flies

I’ve never felt so free

lifted up in your breeze

hold me again

I swear I’ll surrender



let me dive right into you

I don’t need air just let me go

let your waves crash over me

pull me out with your undertow



oh god I wish that I could bottle this feeling

spray it and let your breath bead against my skin

let your heartbeat sink into me

match mine pound for pound

and let you linger with me

when you’re not around



let me dive right into you

I don’t need air just let me go

let your waves crash over me

pull me out with your undertow







Let me know what you think.



-Kristyn

whoo I love it



plus I like the whole diving motif. it works wonderfully. lots of motion ^^



yay new stuff!

These poems...are freaking AMAZING!!! You must write more! Please? Id get on my hands and knees, but Im not the beggin type so....I guess you'll have to write more! Awesome, just plain awesome!

-rose

I didnt know what being happy was till i found you, i didnt know what love meant till i loved you.

Wow baby, I can't even begin to praise the greatness and amazingness that is you and your talent of writing. I'm happy I could be of some assistance for your most recent one



I agree with Maya about how its awesome and just really beautiful how you brought in the ocean/water aspect. Just..yeah.. really awesome! haha I'm sorry I'm so bad with words and expression.. thats your job



If any of you guys are ever in voice chat and want to hear this as a song, ask her to play it, or ask me to ask her! It's uberly jampacked with badassness!



Ok so I promised something long to make up for the shittyness that is me as a girlfriend for never leaving feedback... and this is still even kinda weak.. just me rambling on like usual.. *sigh*



So I am off to sleep, I love you sooooo much and everyday you amaze me with how wonderful and talented you are, and I can't wait to hear/read what you come up with next!



Ashleigh

"...A-and I'm gonna make it up to you. Starting right now."

(Starts to smile)"Right now?"

Great poem

Hey, I have to say that I love your poems. I’ll admit I’ve missed quite a few so I had to go back and read through all of them but they were all just amazing, very commanding and powerful material.



I think 'Beyond' is my all time fave of yours; I love the sensuality of it all. 'Dive' was also pretty darn great, loved it a lot. Congrats on the inspiration by the way, looking forward to reading more if you have them. Thanks for sharing and posting.

__________________

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." -Judy Garland

"Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." -Mahatma Gandhi

Kwwistyyyn....



*stumbles in exhausted* heeeey, you know when life stops bitching me around i'll actually get to talk to you lol but off that topic and onto the next...



*grins* you already know how much i liked this when you were working on it lol. Now it's done...woaah...love it dude! It's completely awwwwesome, wiiicked, badasss and all those kinda words that mean 'more than good'



lol yea, i'm so tired lol sorry if this doesn't make sense i'm juz bleeeeh tired right now. But i still want more dammit!! err..poetry that is, not tiredness, coz any more will like, kill me so...



*shakes head* yea lol, leaving now, need to attack my punching bag. Magnificant as always. In the words of KD Lang... you're 'a prophet of emotion'



stay happy and beautiful



*rubs eyes sleepily and runs away to de-stress*



- Bellie

Forgive me love For loving you, Forgive my heart For needing you, Forgive my mind For wanting you … So much … Forgive me Love

*raises eyebrow* um, paging Kristyn...Kristyn are you there?....



Now, well well well....weren't you telling me something about updating a few days ago? Was that just a dream? It probably was, aaah shucks! *kicks pebbles* well...either way...give me moooooore *yawns*



bubyyyyee!



- Bellie



OH! OH! PS: hehehe, i did that verse from Lean Back for Becca on voice tonight hahaahahahahha, you missed out man! me rapping is a funni funni thing *chuckles* i'll do it for you next time hahaha, later love!



PPS: . . . . . .

Yay for responses for feedback



Lauren: I liked the whole diving thing, too. Like, not only fully immersing yourself but doing it quickly. Thank you!



Rose: Lol, thank you very much. I'll try to write more. However, with school in session and our school drama production coming up I'm afraid I may be quite busy. I'll try my hardest though.



Ashleigh: Hey, baby! I'm also happy that you could be of assistance in this song. And I'm very glad that you enjoyed the ocean/water theme. I think that it's beautiful. Maybe even moreso from a surfboard? *sigh* I'm going to end up giving in on that one. I just know it. You are very very very far from being a shitty girlfriend and I happen to think that your rambling is adorable. I love you so incredibly much and I swear I'll try and write soon.



barnabasvamp: Thank you very much.



SJ: I'm glad that you enjoyed it. Thank you.



Renee85: Thank you. It's strange to think of my work as "commanding" or "powerful" just because, I don't know...it's just 'cause mine. Thank you though. I'm glad you enjoyed "Beyond". As a poem I really like it, but not as a song as much. I don't know why. I'm also very glad that you liked Dive. I am very proud of that song. Thanks for the congrats. I'm very happy about my inspiration as well. I'll try and post sometime soon.



Bell: Holla at the Bellness. I miss ya do! I was on the other morning before seminary and you JUST signed off. Oh well. It's all spiffs. I'm glad that you love the piece. I'll try and write more, I swear! I know I said I was gonna update, but I'm really gonna try this time. Thanks for reading!





Okay...I really AM going to try and write soon. Forgive me. I'm getting into the groove of school and stuff. I'll try. I swear.



-Kristyn

Okay, for real this time. I have been playing guitar a lot lately and I've come up with some really pretty guitar lines and melodies. Now all I need is words and I'm all set. As soon as I have them down I will let you all know.



Soon, I hope.



-Kristyn

Okay I TOTALLY was looking through my notebook and found something wicked random that I don't remember writing at all. It's from the same day that I was writing Dive and it was a middle section that I mustve looked over or forgot about or something. I just reread it and I like it. So anyways. Here goes..





Melt



vacancy lays along my side

waiting for you to occupy

my cheeks are stained

and my lips unmoving



how I need you to stay

I refuse to let you go

i need you there in the night

to fight off the cold

your warmth spreads within me

and you fly to my fingertips



spread your wings up high

you're beautiful

and I don't know how

to tell you

how your smile makes me melt inside



-----



All righty. Hope y'all enjoyed.





Feedback. Love it.



-Kristyn

You make me smile like a little school girl with a crush on her best friend's older brother.. erm... sister? Meh I have no idea what to compare it to.. maybe nothing can compare to the happyness you fill me with. Seriously, I dunno what to saaaay! I love love love love love you and of course I love your writing more than anyone else's in the wooooorld



Whoot! Holla back Youngin! hehe



I love you baby

Ashleigh

"...A-and I'm gonna make it up to you. Starting right now."

(Starts to smile)"Right now?"

Wonderful poem

Thank you all for the feedback. I'd do personal responses and such but I need to do this before I lose my nerve. And baby girl, you know I love you.



One night that held quite a bit of negative inspiration.



I hope you enjoy the work more than I enjoy the subject matter.









her face

your face

my stomach is churching

trying to hold it in

grasping for words

trying to form my explanation



I feel it building

feel the tears building

they built their own skyscraper

before they began their suicide



rolling



shaking



I'm not strong enough for this

I'm blocked

and I've been waiting





--------



I've turned myself over

inked, scratched and folded

I'm left wanting more

unhappy with my image

inked, scratched and folded

stained

restrung

I'm not strong enough



--------



photographs wanted

of things you can't have

you're longing

I won't let go

hollow apologies

and vacant replies

how could I let this happen

dormant too long

without the proper attention



--------



I knew from the beginning

pushed it aside

smiled



I knew from the beginning

tried my best to hide

laughed



I knew from the beginning

yet pressed on



tough exterior

light words

rough exterior

tight throat



choked on my words

pushed the pleasant pleasantries



always the comforter

always the one to take

the hurt

the pain

the betrayal



betrayal



now I'm dirty

hands clutching at loose earth

and my tears come so freely now

so freely now that it's all free



it's free in the once

clean crisp air

clouding me in my thoughts, words and actions



manipulated



don't be so surprised

that I knew from the fucking beginning











All right. That's it. Posting while I still have my nerve.





-Kristyn

Edited by: numbered words at: 12/7/04 2:43 pm

Great poetry

Just letting everyone know I'm not dead or anything.



Things are getting really hectic with school and the musical and stuff lately. Rehearsals are in full bloom and I'm trying my hardest to keep my grades up so I can get my academic letter. So, as usual, updates are most likely going to be few and far between.



I'll try and update as soon as possible.



-Kristyn

Tourniquet

sometimes I wish
there were a tourniquet for my heart
to could cut it off
and save it from the pain of beating

then maybe I wouldn't be sitting here
eyes raw and red
head in my hands
with my heart on the floor


-Kristyn

Great poetry.

Long time no...well I'd say see, but long time no ANYTHING really. I am back from my first year of college and thought I'd post some songs that I've written lately.

Spring Set Precarious

you just stood there
like a beautiful statue
that had just received its first chip
on that favorite shoulder of mine
so instead of crying out
you stayed just as still
as a frozen beauty is told that she should

i didn't mean to say
i didn't mean
i mean i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have said that
but i couldn't hold quiet
how can you hold quiet in your hands

i finally let that wall fall
and bury me with the bricks
of your dishonesty
that had kept it up so
so precariously
and what is this now
what is this now
i'm ready for the fight of a lifetime
but your corner is empty
i stand waiting in mine

i didn't mean to say
i didn't mean
i mean i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have said that
but i couldn't hold quiet
how can you hold quiet in your hands

i mean it when i say that i'm sorry
but it keeps bouncing back
from that icy cold stare
i highly doubt that spring will come
and melt them
the way that they used to
melt me

i didn't mean to say
i didn't mean
i mean i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have
i shouldn't have said that
but i couldn't hold quiet
how can you hold quiet in your hands

you just stood there
like a beautiful statue
that had just received its first chip
on that favorite shoulder of mine
that favorite shoulder
that used to be mine





Yet To Come

standing open chest
broken in
the lingering taste of cigarettes on your lips
for the life of me
i can't remember where
this all begins

close your eyes
sail with me on a silver tide
close your eyes
the best is yet to come

distant flickering
of the cars on the highway
i'll take you up
if you promise not to fly away
for tonight
if i could just prove to you
that this is right

close your eyes
sail with me on a silver tide
close your eyes
the best is yet to come

i live on your leaving
spread your wings
the night whispers your name
i listen every time
to hear if it is
followed by mine

close your eyes
sail with me on a silver tide
close your eyes
the best is yet to come

close your eyes
press your lips against mine
the best is yet to come



Come On

signature stealings
i lay waiting
you stand reaching
over my head
distant relations
we try to give it
give it a place to land

so come on
show me what you're made of
come on
and let me in
i've been waiting for so long
for you to come on
come on

you say it's too soon
and we need the time to wake up
worry lines on your face
while i take off my makeup
just tell me that you want something new
tell me that you need this too

so come on
show me what you're made of
come on
and let me in
i've been waiting for so long
for you to come on
come on

words fall so sweetly from your mouth
i want to make it
i want to make it break out
i'll admit that i was the type
to quickly run away
but here i am
and i'm asking you to stay

so come on
show me what you're made of
come on
and let me in
i've been waiting for so long
for you to come on
come on




That's it for now. I'm still working on new material. But let me know what you guys think.

Great songs.

Untitled


spent the day
seattle on the mind
a home
but left
so far behind
just want to
get in a car
drive to the emerald city
away from
my thoughts of you
and the new
boy you're sleeping with
his name so high
upon your list
in the spot I
used to hold
my simple seven letters
replaced by five

Great writing.

been writing. first two are new (written within the past two weeks). Lack Thereof is about 5 months old and November is over a year old. my, how time flies.


Evening In


you don't like scary movies
baby, that's fine by me
with you I'd gladly watch anything
you pop some popcorn
I stare at your lips
salty sweetness
sweetly taunting me

blue eyes
you see right through me
send a shiver down my spine
blue eyes
you blaze right through me
every time

you turn the steering wheel
and lazily rest your head
softly you sing to the rearview
every word you know by heart
maybe one day you'll sing this one

blue eyes
you see right through me
send a shiver down my spine
blue eyes
you blaze right through me
I'm awe struck every time

goosebumped flesh
pounding chests
as we say our goodbyes
goodbye
goodbye



Better Safe Than Sorry

we bend 'til we break
crippled by the choices we make
we lean then we fall
oh the glorious heartache of it all

you spend your evenings
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
for obstacles
that won't come up at all
you spend your evenings
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
you traded in everything

your mother's voice comes to you
she says "better safe than sorry"
but safe from what?
where was the danger?
why the sudden fear?
'cause you're suddenly so 'wise'
so calm and collected
I hadn't realized

you spend your evenings
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
for obstacles
that won't come up at all
you spend your evenings
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
you traded in everything

you say you're so sorry to keep me waiting
that you didn't mean to drag it out
but here are my things
there's "too much uncertainty for me to stick around"

well pardon me for being blunt
but my shit's no consolation for a broken heart

you spend your evening
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
for obstacles
that won't come up at all
you spend your evenings
sitting around
thinking of fabulous tragedies
then trade in everything
you traded in everything

we bend 'til we break
and we lean
we fall



Lack Thereof

I saw the man in the moon
for the first time in a while
uncluttered by clouds
and stars that
cramp his lunar style
spent seconds gazing
behind my steering wheel
like a peeping tom to the sky

it's a long way around that corner
sudden twists and bends
it's a long way to go before I'm older
to the point that I can deal with this
with this lack of bliss

long showers
meant for my own personal care
now spent with the faces in the tiles
frowning disapprovingly at my hair
what if I changed it then?
what if I
what if I changed for them?

it's a long way around that corner
sudden twists and bends
it's a long way to go before I'm older
to the point that I can deal with this
with this lack of bliss

my mind won't make up a reason to be made up
with the hours ticking
my fingernails clicking
I pop my joints
just needs some sense of relief
just need to take a break from this defeat

it's a long way around that corner
sudden twists and bends
it's a long way to go before I'm older
to the point that I can deal with this
with this lack of bliss


November

broken lines
dropped calls left in the air
stretching across the miles
a stupid joke
a simple laugh
anything to hear you smile
anything at all to hear you smile

there's this silence fighting
trying to break through
trying to find its way
between me and you

but I can feel you so strong
holding me through those nights
that feel so cold, so lost, so long
and I'm dying to reach the end
of this countdown to your love

combustion of calamities
and empty winds that make you freeze
I am drowning
but then I see you spinning with such ease
and my heart cries out
"please, don't stop.
don't ever stop."

but I can feel you so strong
holding me through those nights
that feel so cold, so lost, so damn long
and I'm dying to reach the end
of this countdown to your love

I wish that I could have stayed
finally been home to lay in your arms
forever
I swear I'll keep you safe
I swear I'll keep you safe
I swear I'll keep you
it's just
November feels
November feels so cold
November feels so far away

I can feel you so strong
holding me through those nights
that feel so cold, so lost, so goddamn long
and I'm dying to reach the end
of this countdown to your love

a stupid joke
a simple laugh
anything to hear you smile






-Kristyn

Great imagery in your writing.