Thanks everyone, for your kind words and your suport. Here are some more, I hope you like'em.
Wrote this one about 4 years ago.
The Mask
At school, the day, I wear a mask,
But, you have to know that, it falls at dusk.
The second skin I wear
Becomes wrinkled and falls off,
Revealing pain , sorrow and Love.
But would you try to know me, would you dare?
The way I am in school,
Isn’t my real being, I try to be cool.
My sensitivity doesn’t show until it is needed,
And when you need it, you’ll have to seek it.
For I have been hurt before,
And I know what sorrow can be like.
Usually I get my feelings to take a hike
Because I don’t want my mask to shatter anymore.
If you want to help me,
Then don’t tell anyone about me,
About my sensitivity,
About the poem I just wrote, this story.
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Hate
The only feeling I get when I think of you,
Is hate, a loathing that goes all the way through.
For every morning as I awake,
Your angry screams shatter me like an earthquake.
Since I was a child, I have been beaten,
Humiliated, screamed at, defeated.
You are the sole master of my pain,
And I’m almost sure that you’ll drive me insane.
Every night I see you, I shake in my bed,
Bitter tears swelling from my eyes like blood fountains.
Sometimes, I actually think that’s it’s better being dead,
But you won’t win on all the ends.
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Corny, very corny, in my opinion:
Throw
Each time I think of you, inspiration comes back,
All my pain comes too, and I feel stabbed in the back.
Love and hate mix together like vinegar and oil,
Smooth and sweet and yet so sour it makes me recoil.
The day I met you will be etched forever in my heart,
Because the moment I saw you, I felt go through me a dart.
And I can’t remember ever feeling this way,
I don’t think I’ll feel like this ever, not another day.
You made me feel in heaven and in hell,
Because it was like you cast me a spell.
Even if I want to forget everything,
Not one memory vanishes, not a thing.
I would like everything to be erased from my mind,
Even the memories that were once so fine.
Oh, I would like them to melt like snow in sunshine.
But I can’t control what goes through my mind.
I was a cigarette to you in a way.
You lit me, you used me and then you threw me away.
But I won’t stick up for you to crush me,
I’ll just wait for another person to light his cigarette with me.
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Lesson of Love
Dawn is here, cool and calm,
I can hear the birds start to hum,
For another night has changed into day,
Another sleepless night filled with sadness and decay.
Reader, don’t worry, no one has passed away.
It’s a relationship that has gone bad and rotted more every day.
People never listen to themselves or to each other,
And then they argue and say that Love is a bother.
To them today I say,
And please try to see it my way.
Love is something that’s too precious for us,
And people never realize it until they receive a great loss.
So why spend your life with bitterness and regret,
Try to grab on to each piece of Love you get.
I know that sometimes Love can hurt,
Like hot wax spilled on your heart, I’ve been burnt.
But don’t just think that it won’t mend,
And for now that is what I demand.
Enjoy life to the fullest and you’ll see.
Who had it right, you or Washi.
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I guess that depressed you enough for now.
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The course of love doesn’t always run smooth, especially for the neurotic and accident-prone. ~ LadyB
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