A Moment of Truth

[Candleshoe]

The Board isn't what it used to be and I find myself less and less interested in posts and fics. Sucks.

Me too, it was quite The Place To Be once upon a time...

Topic: The UK government's budget announcements today gave me the biggest rush of adrenaline that I've had in a while...

[Willowtree252]

Sometimes we have to do things that are way hard not popular or cool. I find myself in this place a lot I find I am the type to say I take responsibility and I am proud to do it. Its hard , Its tough but its me. I wish my children where the same way. Damn I cant believe this.

[sweet satin lover]

I really want everything to work. I am fed up of being alone, I hope that the person knows and understands me as well as I think so. I really hope that something comes of this he is the most beautiful man I have ever laid my eyes on and he seems really caring too. *sigh*

[CrazyTaraWitch]

She sleeps better when I'm not next to her

[Nue]

I´m afraid... and lonely... and I had a bad night of sleep... I got home at 3am, cause I had a REALLY bad trip, so much rain... and I have to go back to work tomorrow.. totally scared of that...

and I miss her... Oh, God, I miss her so bad...

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I met my girl's parents today. I can't remember the last time I felt tat awkward, and I think her mom really hates me

[ashcrash71590]

it's never felt like this before. something feels so right about her.

Ash

[Nue]

dad´s an atheist... I´m okay with that, I´m catholic, the way that he and my grandma raised me was for me to be okay with all kinda of creeds... but I just hate when he thinks I´m wrong for believe in something illogical as religion...

[Guest]

This is a vibrantly dynamic Universe and whenever you place your desires in alignment with your vortex, instant manifestation takes place. Such as the question I asked the Universe yesterday while sitting in the bus: "So how's my girlfriend like?" and it replied in a most interesting way

Right there, seated in front of me was a man with a cap that said: "CANADIAN".

I don't believe in coincidences. Only in synchronicity. So...

Yay! Thank you Universe for your answer.

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I'm okay. I cried this morning when I had to go, because like always I wanted to stay, but once I as gone... I'm sad but I'm okay. I feel like I shouldn't be okay. I wish I could've stayed with her, but I don't feel like crying, I don't feel crushed... it's like I've accepted this is how things are. I don't want to accept. I'd rather be miserable, aching to be with her. It scares me that I'm okay. I love her and I ant to be with her. I'm never happier than when I'm there. So why am I not crying and feeling broken now that I'm gone?

[Emms]

I'm okay. I cried this morning when I had to go, because like always I wanted to stay, but once I as gone... I'm sad but I'm okay. I feel like I shouldn't be okay. I wish I could've stayed with her, but I don't feel like crying, I don't feel crushed... it's like I've accepted this is how things are. I don't want to accept. I'd rather be miserable, aching to be with her. It scares me that I'm okay. I love her and I ant to be with her. I'm never happier than when I'm there. So why am I not crying and feeling broken now that I'm gone?

Perhaps because you know that you'll be coming back?

[SJ]

And it's always harder the first time you have to fly home.

[Nue]

we survived... almost 120 people died in the last 30 hours, but we survived...

[Guest]

Grateful to hear that you and your loved ones are doing okay Nue. Blessings and love be to all affected families.

[Willowtree252]

Thank god you are OK This morning when we heard the news I felt fear for you.

[Emms]

we survived... almost 120 people died in the last 30 hours, but we survived...

What happened??

[Willowtree252]

we survived... almost 120 people died in the last 30 hours, but we survived...

What happened??

24 in of rain in 24 hours Flooding like crazy.

[Nue]

thanks guys, you rock!

Emms, more than 30 hours of massive rain, floods and panic... but we´re okay, we can go out now ^^

[Yours]

Jeez Nue, that's crazy! I'm glad you're both safe and sound. X

[umgaynow]

Sometimes I just like being alone

[CrazyTaraWitch]

I regret it, but I can't undo it or get back what I lost.

[tetyline]

I just can't handle all the things that is happening in my life right now, is class and work and driver's licence. It's TOO MUCH! and the worse thing is that everytime that i need to complain or just get mad about stupid things, everybody says that i'm weak and that i just complain. I really could use some suport right about now...

[amazon]

It's hard work loving her. But so easy at the same time. I have fallen so hard for her. I love her more than anything.

I just don't always know how. I never had a girlfriend before.
I've known this girl my whole life. But now i know her for real. There are things so precious and personal to her that only I get to now. She's been through so much bad in her life. And yet she's so amazing, The kindest person I have ever met. I always thought so when we were just friends. I am so proud of her for being who she is even though she's been through so much. How does a person turn out so good from so much bad?

This is why I feel like I can't always say the right things. I don't know what to say because I never had a bad life. I had a great childhood and lots of friends. Nothing bad ever happened to me. I've always been loved and cared for.
I don't feel qualified to help her. I almost wish my life wasn't so good. What does that say about me? I feel ashamed for thinking that. Because I'm really, really grateful about my life.

I do mistakes all the time. I say things I shouldn't have said. I hurt her all the time because I don't know. I'm inexperienced. I can't read people very well. And everytime things get difficult she automatically shuts me out. She won't let me fix things. She doesn't like me seeing that I hurt her. I don't care, I want in. I want her to let me get close to her. Closer than we are now. If not, I can never love her the way she deserves. She's so afraid of getting hurt that she won't let me all the way in. But I know there are good reasons for it and I will be patient.

Wow...that was a looong moment of truth. But I just needed to write it down.

[Yours]

I feel that I have so much love in my heart I may burst

[Nue]

I asked for a job transfer last night... now I just need to my supervisor send all my results to the coordinator and I´ll change cities... ok, I´m scared.. leaving all behind to go after a dream makes me fuzzy inside...

It´s gonna be hard, being in a new city, alone and far away from my family and friends... but I´m praying for it...

[RainbowNerdette]

Some truth for Amazon;

I'm sure just knowing that you'll always be there for her is the best thing that ever happened to her, she might just need time to believe it. It's hard if experience tells you not to trust anyone but I'm sure you're perfect for her; your moment of truth breathes so much love

[lilcheesenip]

Sometimes I just have to crawl into my closet and treat myself to a good cry.

[BeneathMyWillowTree]

I realized how deep her feelings run for me when she is afraid of my presence. Being afraid of my presence is having the fear of acting on them.

[Owl]

This year is kicking. my. ass. Not sure if I'm just weary or actually lacking the competence but there is definitely some kind of steady decline going on.

Giving up, dropping out, letting go: ideas that seem more and more enticing every day,

[CrazyTaraWitch]

Sometimes I really feel unimportant and unloved. It's no one's fault but my own, logically I know it's my own issues and I'm just too sensitive, but it still hurts, and sometimes it's really hard to feel good about myself.