by brave-little-toaster » Wed Jun 22, 2011 4:14 pm
I'm not sure who I'm supposed to be addressing this to. Part of me thinks this should be addressed to Peter Pan, but I know (and have known for a long time) that it's more of a feeling than a person.
And I'm sorry to whoever is reading this, because it'll probably make no sense to anyone but me, but I just have to put it out there.
Thank-you. Things are alright again. I know it sounds ridiculous, because it's just a pair of shoes, but it's so much more than that. I'm not naive; it's not the shoes that make everything okay, it's the attitude the shoes bring me. Because every "right of passage", every big moment, every time I think I'm going to fall apart, something happens. Not always something like this, because this was huge to commemorate something huge, but there's always something. The re-appearance of my pinecone (thanks for that, too, I was a wreck without it), happening upon an old note, putting one of the albums in my Facebook sidebar, a call or text from one of my girls. It all means so much, but this meant the world. Because I didn't think I could handle this, but now I know I can. One step, one day at a time. I'll probably need a few more reminders every so often before it's over, but for now, things are okay.
Thank-you
"Thoroughbreds, both of them, right from the start. One by breeding, the other by heart." - Lines Scrawled on the Floor