by leipreachan11 » Thu Feb 23, 2006 2:52 am
AlysonGoddess, I'll try my best to provide some light angst, but being the aforementioned lovely person that I am, I can't guarantee it.
Okay, you will find above the various disclaimers re my poverty and lack of anything worth suing for, bar of course the recipes to the previously mentioned delicacies.
In the next couple of chapters, thoughts will be in italics while the first few words of memories will be in bold.
Chapter 4
The next day
Hospital visiting hours started at 9 a.m. As she had so many other days, Tara arrived at Willow's bed at 9.02. She was still asleep. Tara watched her, gradually slipping into a daydream, something she was doing a lot lately. Usually when she had them in the past, it was of her and Willow up to no good in various different cities, but lately she'd been having the strangest ones involving the pair of them dancing in a cornfield.
Like the day before, Willow woke up at first terrified that she had lost an eye. Yet even if that had been true, the loss would have been irrelevant because with only one eye, she could see the beauty before her. She lay perfectly still, drinking in every inch of Tara's body. She realised that these moments may be her last opportunities to watch her in total silence. Ever. This thought cut into her like a knife, though over the last month she had begun to try to maybe start to accept the idea, thanks to Buffy dragging her out of Deep Denial Land after a fortnight or so of wallowing…
"It's just… I think of her so much. All the things we did together, that we might never do again. There's so much." At this stage Willow was talking as if to herself; spilling out things she would never sanely admit to anyone but Tara.
"I could tell her anything, and she'd just kiss away my worries. And those kisses… She knew me so well, knew when I needed her gentle, reassuring kisses, or if I just wanted her to jump me, right there and then. And those jumps… Now who's gonna jump me, tear off my clothes in like two seconds? She could do that, you know. Tear them right off, didn't matter what I was wearing. It's a talent, really, she should put it in her C.V. 'I can see exactly where I have to pull to open those 50 buttons at once.' You know, the word 'ravish' was made for us. And who's going to look at me across a room and with like one glance let me know exactly what we'd be doing later? And how could anyone possibly come close to what she – we – could do? Oooh, maybe I'll be lucky enough to hook up with one of those people who's proud to last half an hour. What the hell did we ever finish in half an hour? Even when we were in a hurry we'd be hard pushed to finish up in that. That's why we were always late, clocks totally aren't important when we're together. It's like, finish that in less than 3 goes and I'll kill you. But the killing part's fun too. Well, not for the person on the receiving end, because it can be torture lying there with the teasing. Well, there wouldn't be torture there, that's at other times. And I wouldn't quite call some of the stuff we did torture, 'cause real torture really is all about pain, it's not really designed for pleasure at all, so I suppose I've never been literally tortured. Plus, real torture would really involve weapons; we never used weapons. Like, I'd never be using a crossbow or punching her or whatever. But God, never cross Tara, because she is so evil when it comes to the teasing. She could use every one of her moves, almost to the very peak when she'd suddenly stop, wait for you to eventually cool down, then move on to something else. Devil woman. I've been known to cry when she does that, but it really is worth it in the end, especially when it's this one in particular…"
To Buffy's eternal relief, Willow faded away into her memory of that one in particular.
Wow. And Willow gives out about Anya's straight talk. The phrase 'Too much information' was made for this little chat. Truly, truly desperate for this conversation – this monologue – to end, Buffy began to stand.
"Will, I really don't think-" Willow was far from finished. She turned to Buffy, getting increasingly worked up.
"What if I turn into one of those weirdoes who thinks a double bed is just big enough for one? A double bed is huge when you're on your own! What if I'm alone for every shower I take for the rest of my life? Just me, standing there all on my lonesome doing nothing but showering. And whipped cream – how can I ever be one of those people who only ever has whipped cream with dessert? Or eats bananas for the potassium? Or watches Xena re-runs for the plotlines? Or reads 1984 just as a good book?"
"Okay, all good points, Will, though I have no idea what that last one means. But, and I by no means mean to be a bitch here, you're going to have to accept that things may never go back to what they were. I'm sorry, and it kills me to say this, but it's true. So I think you're gonna have to start working on stuff like what you said. Showers and double beds can be nice alone. And who doesn't like whipped cream on their apple tart? And you know that bananas are full of energy. As for Xena, it's not a bad show, and 1984 – well I'm not sure how exactly that fits into your list, but I've a feeling I don't wanna know. I've never read it but that's the one with Big Brother, right? It's supposed to be good, if you're into reading the classics. We did The Call of the Wild in high school, and you loved that, right?"
Willow smiled at Buffy's comparison of The Call of the Wild to 1984. "Right, thanks. I know you're right."
Buffy fled to the kitchen, wondering if she maybe went out and let herself get punched repeatedly the images that Willow had just shared might be knocked clean out of her head. Fingers crossed.
"You're right."
This time, it was Tara who broke into Willow's daydream, seeing Willow staring at her, her eyes glazed over.
"You alright? You're not spacing out on me, are you?"
"No, just enjoying the view." Don't push your luck! "So, how are you?"
"I'm fine, Willow, I'm not the one with a million injuries. All healable, stop looking scared. Are you sore? Will I get Dr. Danny?"
"Is that his first or surname? He called me dear and he's like thirty."
"Thirty-six, married, wife's a lawyer, no kids. Dog named Joseph, long story why. His full name, the poor guy, is Dr. Danny Dempsey. Still, he's luckier than his big brother, he's a surgeon upstairs. Dr. Denny Dempsey. I think their parents were on crack when they named them. In case you're wondering, all the info is courtesy of Nurse Emy. You'll learn a lot from her and Jenny's chats. So, should I call the guys? I didn't do it yet in case you weren't ready. Do you mind saying you asked me not to? I don't want them to be mad that I didn't tell them straight away."
"Sure. Yeah, I'm ready."
"Okay, I'll tell them to be gentle. Back in a few." Tara smiled gently. Willow tried to smile back but thanks to a face half-covered in bandages, it came out as a suggestive wink, something neither of them wanted just yet.
Chapter 5
Tara calls
As Tara walked to the phone, she realised things were about to get complicated. If nothing else, the last few days had proved that she still loved Willow deeply. Not only loved but wanted – needed – her. She knew the feelings were mutual, but should she act on them? While she couldn't soon forget what Willow had done to her, the question was, could she forgive her? Tara had heard many times of how addictive magic could be, how it could completely consume someone forever. If Willow had truly been off it for a month, she was a lot stronger than the many who had tried and failed to quit. Was it time to start building their relationship again? And what did Willow think now? She'd seen Tara stroke her arm and no doubt she'd seen the pure love in Tara's eyes. They'd watched a cheesy straight-to-TV film once which was built around the idea that hardship brings people together. Did Willow think that things had already changed because Tara was worried? That was a very suggestive wink.
All Tara knew was that having not seen Willow for 34 days – she could almost count the hours, and would be surprised if Willow couldn't – seeing her lying in a hospital bed with all those plasters was torture. And when she woke… it was all Tara could do to not jump across the bed and kiss every available inch of her beautiful face.
It wasn't until a passing nurse gently shook Tara and informed her that she had been standing staring at the receiver for 5 minutes that she remembered she had to ring everyone. The Scoobies arrived separately but remarkably quickly. Tara felt a little guilty: she'd probably disturbed Xander in his distraction techniques. He really was afraid – a not unfounded fear – that Anya would collapse with a heart attack if she saw the state the shop was still in. He and Giles were trying to come up with a way to break the news to her that not only had thousands of dollars' worth of damage been done to the shop but all the money been stolen from the till. The last thing he needed at the moment was both his girlfriend-come-ex-fiancée-come-current-no-strings-lover and his best friend in hospital. On top of that, Buffy had deemed it her personal mission to find whatever had done this to Willow and had been out every night beating up everyone – or everything, at least – she could find for information. Giles could do little to the shop before his insurance cheque came through and with Tara holding vigil by Willow's bed, joined by Xander, Anya and Buffy when they weren't having sex or beating things up, he had plenty of time for research. Unlike Buffy, he thought the damage was done, probably by humans, simply for the cash, with a little pointless destruction thrown in for fun. Xander and Anya could remember almost nothing so until they could learn anything further from Willow, theories were all they had.
Agus Kaia, cá bhfios duit an gaeilge? Do they speak it in Santiago or did someone just teach you that phrase?
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leipreachan11 on Tue Mar 21, 2006 8:55 am, edited 1 time in total.
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