Hey everyone,
Thank you for your kind replies to my dramatic, knee-jerk post. I'm still unclear on what happened to me, but I can say it was a mix between a near-death experience and a nervous breakdown. I was sure I was dying and wanted to do so with a clear conscience... hence my frantic confessions to family and this less than tempered post. I'm so embarrassed...
I'm recovering well enough, some memories are puzzle-like though. Erynn's story is based on a hodge-podge of stories I'd read over the years, and also from people who I'd talked to over the internet. Recently, some of the perpetrating groups are being dismantled and progress seems to be made. But, I got too invested in things I had no power to change and it all got to be too much when I found reason to doubt the agenda of some people.
In lieu of throwing my hands up and saying "fuck it" my mind kind of just shut down. Anyway, I've always been too curious for my own good.
I've thrown out the rest of this story. I can't seem to separate what's happening right now IRL, and where this story was going to go - so, it'll need to wait until I can put enough space between the two in my head. Some are all mixed together, still.
Again, I can't thank you enough for being so kind. Once I can focus on writing again, I'll be working more on the chronicles fic. Light-hearted is the way to go right now.