so, the first part of this is Fuffy-centric.
There's a little second base action

And then some drama.
It wouldn't be Buffy without drama

Enjoy!
Unexpected guests part 2Buffy woke, feeling contented, warm, loved.
Whole.
A hand gently stroked her hair. Tenderly, lovingly.
Buffy smiled sleepily, inhaling the spicy, almost cinnamon-y scent of Faith. “Did I fall asleep?” she said sleepily, opening her eyes.
She looked up into Faith’s gentle gaze, seeing her deep brown eyes, watching her so tenderly, as if she were the most precious thing in all the world.
Faith smiled back. “For a little while,” she said softly.
She leaned forward and kissed Buffy gently on the head. “Everything's going to be all right.”
Buffy snuggled into her, feeling as safe and warm as a child in her mother’s arms. “Now that you're here.”
“You trust me?” Faith whispered.
Buffy responded with a happy sigh. “With my life.”
They lay like that for a time. Side by side, Buffy snuggled up close to Faith, Faith’s arm wrapped protectively around her.
Eventually, Buffy sighed softly. “God. I could stay like this forever.”
“We can’t stay here forever B, but we can do this any time ya want.”
Buffy, hummed happily. “Did you watch me sleep all night?”
Face made a face. “I feel a little stalker-ish. But yeah, I watched over you all night.”
“I feel so safe” said a shy Buffy.
“I feel so... right, watchin’ over you B. I feel whole, filled up inside, like I’m finally doin’ what I was made for.”
Buffy smiled. “I’m home at last Faith. I’ve found my home, with you.”
“It sounds a little sappy. But yeah, I know what you mean.”
Buffy pouted. “It’s not sappy, it’s true.”
She looked up at Faith. “It’s going to take me a while to really get over myself. There’s going to be moments when I freak, and I’m sorry.”
She squeezed Faith tight. “But I want you to know that I am not ashamed, and that I love you Faith, even if I sometimes panic before I think.”
Faith smiled softly, a look more tender, more gentle, than anything Buffy had ever seen on her face before. It made Buffy feel so special that Faith reserved such tenderness for her, and her alone.
Faith stroked her hair gently. “It’s ok, B. Whatever stupid mistakes we both make, we’ll still be there for each other.”
Buffy smiled radiantly. It was as though she loved two women. She loved fierce and wild Faith, who fought the world with such passion it took her breath away.
And she loved gentle Faith, who held her and looked at her, and only her, with such tenderness that it made her heart ache.
“And uh, B?” Faith said, a note of awkwardness entering her voice. “I love you too.”
Buffy melted. She fought her almost overwhelming urge to say ‘Aww!’ at the sheer adorableness that was awkward Faith.
“I wanna do this right B. I wanna do this forever. I meant what I said before.”
Buffy’s forehead gained a tiny puzzled crease.
Faith explained. “This is the first and last time I am ever gonna fall in love. So much shit has gone wrong in my life B, gone wrong with us. Well not this time, not any more. I want one good thing in my life, one thing that’s good and clean and right.”
“So, it’s gonna be flowers, and long walks, and holdin’ hands and snuggling on the couch and kissing, before we get to the other stuff.”
Buffy needed a new word to describe what Faith’s words meant to her, what they did to her inside.
Words were not Buffy’s friends, they wiggled and squidged around when she tried to use them. But inside herself she felt as though some kind of warm, hot, melty thing was going on.
Faith’s next words caused the tiny hamster in her brain to fall off its squeaky wheel in shock.
“But I’ll wait as long as it takes B, for you to be ready, y’know?”
Buffy was speechless. Incapable of thought.
How long she stayed, stuck, she had no idea.
Croakily, she said “You mean... sex?”
Faith looked embarrassed. “Uh, yeah. ‘cos I know you’ve never... done stuff, made love, with girls before,” Faith said haltingly.
Buffy buried her head in the crook of Faith’s arm, hiding her furious blush.
“And, uh... me either,” Faith finished softly.
Buffy looked up in surprise.
“But I thought...”
Faith shook her head slowly
“B? I’ve hooked up. I’ve fucked.”
“I’ve done shit with guys, girls, whatever,”
“But I have never made love with anyone before. I’ve never had anyone to make love with. I’ve never even cuddled like this B. So it’s a first for me too.”
“I’ve never even had someone to hold hands with before.”
Buffy’s heart sank as she realized that Faith had never had this simple human contact before.
“Um, Faith?”
“Yeah?”
“I have... issues, with sex.”
“I know Buffy, that’s why I said... y’know? Cos I didn’t want you to feel like, weird or pressured or anything.”
“It’s a trust thing and an image thing and a Buffy is strange thing,” Buffy said quietly.
She moved back a little to better look Faith in the eye. She interlaced the fingers of her free hand with Faith’s.
“The very first time I made love with anyone, it-it cost them their soul,” she stammered.
“It cost Giles the life of Jenny, and some other people their lives too.”
“When I let down my guard with Parker, he used me and moved on.”
Faith kept silent as Buffy spoke, but squeezed her hand tight in silent support.
“When I finally got over that, got myself into a good space, I met up with Riley. Who turned out to be a government spy guy, and um, sex magic was involved.”
“And he left me.”
“And then when I came back from the dead, I couldn’t deal, couldn’t feel anything.”
She choked up. “I let Spike use me, beat me, abuse me. And I did the same to him, just to feel... anything.”
Faith did not speak, the crumpled expression on her face and her silent tears spoke volumes.
“And when I tried to stop, when I had had enough... he tried to r-rape me.”
Faith broke. Silent sobs wracked her body as she wept for Buffy.
Buffy couldn’t take it anymore, the floodgates opened and she cried. “Every time I let someone in... every time we take that last step... it ends in disaster and pain and death,” she sobbed.
Faith held Buffy as she wailed, pouring out her fears and insecurities into Faith’s chest. She wept her own bitter tears as Buffy cried.
“I’m cursed, I’m poison!” Buffy wailed.
Faith held Buffy tight as she gave voice to her terrible fears. If anyone had ever asked Faith what she had expected, it would not have been this, she would have expected to be the one speaking these words, not Buffy. Never Buffy.
Slowly Buffy wound down, her bawling giving way to sobbing, eventually to shuddering breaths and sniffling.
Faith lifted her chin and stared fiercely into her lost and despairing hazel eyes. “Never! You hearing me B? Never and no way are you poisoned or cursed! You’re Buffy Summers, the best and the brightest thing in the whole damn world!”
Faith was angry, she wanted to reach out and destroy everyone and everything that had made Buffy feel this way. She sighed, she knew that wasn’t the way, but it was just so frustrating!
She leaned forwards and pressed her head against Buffy’s. “B, I’m an ass. I’m not angry at you, I’m pissed at the world for making you think that.”
“It’s ok Faith,” Buffy said with a sniffle. “my Faith.”
Faith smiled sadly. “My B, my Buffy.”
“Faith, I know you’re not going to lose your soul, turn me over the government or try to make like Spike. But I’m frightened. It doesn’t make any sense, but I’m frightened that this good thing that we have will change after we, um,” her voice lowered. “we make love.”
Faith said softly. “We’re not on a timetable. We don’t gotta get sweaty to prove anything to anyone. Whatever we do together, we do ‘cos it’s the right time for both of us.”
Buffy stroked Faith’ hair softly and gazed into her eyes with wonder. “How did you get so wise?”
She looked away. “B? I... I got stuff too. Bad, bad shit. Shit that makes me the way I am.”
“Were you,” Buffy asked hesitantly, her voice tiny. “Were you raped?”
Faith’s voice was hollow, the dry whisper of a damned and hopeless soul. “Worse.”
Buffy felt something break inside her. She pulled Faith down to her and sheltered her in her arms. She knew how viscerally terrified she had been the night Spike tried to force himself on her. She couldn’t think of anything worse than that, and was shaken to the core of her being that it had happened to Faith, and that she had survived it.
“B-Buffy, I promise I’m not trying to hide anything from you, b-but some of this stuff is so b-bad I can’t let myself even remember, or I’ll kill myself,” she sobbed.
“Shhh,” Buffy soothed. “It’s ok Faith, there’s no need to remember. It’s behind you now.”
“Hold on to me B. Don’t let me run, don’t let me screw this up,” Faith said in a small voice.
“I won’t Faith. I’ll hold on so tight it’ll leave fingerprints in your bones,” she squeezed Faith tight. “And if you do run, I’ll always find you.”
“Promise?”
“I’ll tear the world apart to get to you, honey.”
Faith sniffled. “You say the nicest things B.”
Buffy smiled a watery smile. “Nothing like dating a Slayer.”
She pressed her forehead against Faith’s, their breath mingling. “I know you’re strong and you can handle yourself Faith. But if you ever need to let go for a little while, I’ll watch over you and keep you safe.”
Faith smiled her own watery and wobbly smile. “Ditto.”
Buffy smiled and ran her hands through Faith’s hair, gazing at her one blonde lock wonderingly.
“You know, even just spending time with you, holding hands and snuggling,” Buffy said wonderingly. “I feel closer to you than anyone I’ve ended up in bed with.”
Faith leaned cat-like into Buffy’s hair stroking. “That goes double for me babe. I’ve scratched the itch plenty of times and never thought too much about it. Now I feel nervous, y’know? Like, this matters to me, an’ what if I do it wrong?”
Buffy smiled tenderly. “Me too.”
They lay together for a time, simply gazing into each other’s eyes, not in a rush, not in a hurry, content to simply be.
Buffy’s expression changed subtly. “Can I tell you a secret?”
Faith’s smile spread. “Sure B, you can tell me anything, I mean I already told you about my dark past as a cheerleader, so shoot.”
Buffy pulled her down and whispered in Faith’s ear. “I think you are beautiful.”
Faith shuddered and whimpered slightly.
“Oh god B, I want you so bad,” she moaned into Buffy’s hair.
“I thought we were taking it slow?” Buffy whispered.
Faith pulled back, looking a little upset. “We are B, I promise ya. I swear I ain’t gonna push ya at all.”
Faith’s gaze was like a furnace and she spoke in a raspy tone. “But you don’t make it easy. I swear, the only thing I’ve ever wanted more than you right now, is to do this right.”
Buffy’s eye went wide. “Do you have any idea how that makes me feel?”
Faith’s eyes widened and she tried to pull away. Buffy refused to let her go and held her tight.
“It makes me feel deeply, deeply loved and wanted. I can see how hard it is for you Faith. The fact that you want me so bad that I can feel you trembling, and that you are willing to hold off so I don’t feel pressured. That feels... amazing.”
She smiled at Faith. “I’m not ready for, you know,” she said awkwardly. “Not yet. But I do want to...” she trailed off.
Buffy gently rolled Faith onto her back and straddled her hips. She peeled off her own pyjama top, and smiled down hungrily at Faith.
Faith was a little surprised at Buffy climbing on top.
Surprise was no longer sufficient and she was forced to resort to astonishment, when Buffy stripped off and looked down with dark, hungry eyes. Faith had seen Buffy without clothes a number of times, but this was different. Buffy was not nude, she was
naked.
She was more naked now than she was in the shower, and she was looking at Faith in a way that she had only dreamed of in her most hopeless fantasies.
“Faith, I want you. I want you to touch me, right now.”
Faith reached up to Buffy’s pert breasts, and hesitated. “You mean...” she trailed off.
“Please?” Buffy whimpered.
Faith reached her hands up toward Buffy, but somehow couldn’t complete the journey.
Buffy moaned. “God, Faith! If you don’t touch me right now I’m going to die.”
Faith cupped Buffy’s breasts, feeling the pink nipples press hard against her palms. Both women gasped as contact was made.
Buffy let out a visceral groan and shuddered, her head thrown back in abandonment.
Faith was blown away. She’d never seen anyone get so much out of simple contact before. She stroked and massaged, listening to Buffy’s sighs and squeaks as they rose in pitch.
Buffy rolled her head forward and looked down with a gaze of consummate lust.
“More.”
Faith smiled. “Babe, we haven’t even started yet.”
And with that she rolled over, trading positions with Buffy once again. “My turn to get a little naked.”
She peeled off her top, and shimmied.
Buffy’s expression could only be described as ‘Wow!’
Faith smiled down at Buffy as she stroked her hands up Faith’s soft skin, marvelling at the musculature moving in Faith’s sleek form.
Delicately, almost hesitantly she moved her hands to Faith’s breasts. Faith hissed and sucked in a deep breath as Buffy explored her erect nipples.
“Wow. So different when they’re someone else’s.”
Faith closed her eyes and groaned softly “Uh-huh.”
Faith smiled, eyes still closed. “S’ok babe. Play, have fun.”
Buffy looked slightly embarrassed. “Are you sure?”
“Buffy, I’m lovin’ this. I love that I get to be your first. An’ I am definitely lovin’ you exploring me.”
Faith groaned and luxuriated in Buffy's delicate touch. After a while she fell forward, her hair falling around her head like a curtain and her dark eyes bored into Buffy’s hazel gaze. “You make me feel like... like I’m brand new, like I’m unexplored territory, like I’m a thing of wonder.”
“Wow. I make you feel all that?” she said, circling her small hands around Faith’s full globes.
“Oh man, that feels so good,” Faith said.
“This is ok?” Buffy said, still hesitant as she gently fondled Faith’s breasts.
“Totally. It feels like nothing else babe,” Faith said looking down at Buffy’s marvelling expression.
Normally Faith appreciated a certain level of confidence and even aggression in her lovers, but Buffy’s hesitant touches and wondering expression did things inside her that she had never felt before. Good things.
Faith moaned again. “God B. I love the way you look at me, you make me feel so wanted, an’ I don’t just mean that ya wanna fuck me.”
Buffy whispered. “You are.”
She pulled Faith down closer and kissed her, digging her fingers into Faith’s tousled mane. Kissing Faith was like nothing she’d ever experienced. Kissing Faith was like, somehow tasting the true Faith. Passionate but soft, strong but tender, desperately hungry but not demanding.
As Faith moved atop Buffy, their breasts rubbed against each other, soft skin rubbing on soft skin, taut nipples dragging against yielding flesh.
Faith felt Buffy’s hand slide from her hair and roam about her back. Faith knew the feeling, wanting to be everywhere at once, and just not having enough hands to touch everywhere you needed to touch right now.
Their kissing grew more heated. How long they engaged in passionate smooching they would never be able to say, minutes perhaps, though they felt like hours, happy hours.
Heat radiated from them and both were covered with a faint sheen of sweat as they moved and gasped. Together they discovered new sensations, new feelings, together they allowed long-held walls to come down. To come down, and give way to hope.
Buffy wanted her hands everywhere, to touch every part of this new experience and to taste it with every part of herself. She looked up into Faith’s deep and heated gaze, feeling the need that Faith had for her, bound behind the iron wall of her truly given promise. It made her feel safe, wanted and fulfilled all at once. To have someone who cared about her so much, was like a lost dream given form.
And the form of that long forgotten dream was amazing, so different from anything she had ever known. Faith was built like a dancer, sleek muscles rippling beneath soft skin, steel wrapped in velvet. Every cliché Buffy had ever heard about women flashed through her head and she was struck by a sense of wonder,
‘women really are softer.’She kissed Faith with renewed passion, realising that even in her fierce hunger, Faith’s lips were still the softest she had ever touched.
Her hands roamed freely around Faith’s body, eventually working their way down to Faith’s butt.
Faith groaned as Buffy’s hands slid daringly beneath her pants to the firm, lush flesh beneath.
Buffy’s experience may have been limited, but Faith’s behind was seriously different from any she had felt. Not that Faith was in any way fat, but her behind was so much softer and curvier than the few she had encountered. Buffy explored, running her hands all over Faith’s rear, alternating between stroking the soft skin, just feeling Faith’s ass in her hands, and digging her fingers in.
Faith groaned and pulled back, breaking their lip lock. “B, I ain’t complainin’ I swear. But oh god, if you keep goin’, I am gonna explode.”
Whether it was the safety she felt with Faith, the sense of control she felt at making Faith groan and writhe, or the sense of adventurousness she had at this new and amazing place she found herself in, Buffy could not later say. But whatever the reason Buffy felt daring. She ducked her head and to take Faith’s erect brown nipple into her mouth.
“Oh Fuck!” Faith cried as her body clenched and her stomach rippled.
Impressed at the reaction, Buffy nuzzled and sucked one nipple, pressing her face into Faith’s breast as though hungry, she tweaked the other nipple with her fingers while Faith bucked.
On some level Buffy had worried that however much she loved Faith, that her sheer femaleness would prove an insurmountable obstacle to the physical expression of their love.
She was no longer worried, Faith’s very female nature was exciting to her on a primal level and she embraced it. Faith’s skin tasted indescribably good and her scent smelled like home.
She switched to Faith’s other nipple and sucked hard.
Faith gasped, gripped Buffy in a vice-like grip and threw back her head. She cried out her release with the one name that had defined her world for so long. “Buffeee!”
Faith collapsed on top of Buffy, gasping, barely able to lock her elbows and give them some breathing room.
She stayed that way for some time, breathing hard and drilling her gaze into Buffy.
“Oh my god B! What did you do to me?”
Buffy blushed. “You mean you’ve never...?” she asked.
“Well, yeah. But not like that! God B, you barely touched me!”
“So, um, I did good?” she asked.
“Oh baby, you did good. Goddamn! I thought screwing’ was pretty good, but this love-makin’ thing is gonna tear me apart.”
She stayed in position for a moment, panting and catching her breath.
She kissed Buffy gently, with tender passion. “Time to take care of my girl.”
She rolled the both of them over, Buffy ending up on top.
Faith ran her short fingernails up Buffy’s taut stomach and lightly scratched the underside of each small, perfect breast, eliciting a sigh from Buffy.
“I wanna see if I can do for you what you did for me, ‘cos damn girl, that was un-fuckin’-believable.”
She looked at Buffy with a hesitant expression. “Uh, if you are ok with that?”
“Oh yeah,” Buffy sighed, almost dreamily. “I'm all puppies and kittens.”
She pulled Buffy up and closer, kissing her way down Buffy’s slender neck, revelling in the sensation of her ability to give pleasure as Buffy bared her throat in total surrender to the feelings that Faith was producing in her body.
On some instinctive level, Faith knew with absolute certainty that Buffy had never given herself to anyone else as totally as she did now, had never bared her throat in total trust.
The feelings that simple act generated in Faith just blew her away and she nuzzled into Buffy’s neck with deepest affection.
As she rubbed herself, almost animal-like against Buffy, she knew on a primal level that she was lost. She would never love anyone else as long as she lived. She had found her mate, her love, her home, and a silent tear rolled down her cheek at the intensity of the moment.
Determined to make Buffy feel as good as she herself felt, Faith kissed the hollow at the base of Buffy's throat almost worshipfully, and she felt as much as heard, the hitch in Buffy’s sigh of pleasure.
She lifted Buffy up a little, bringing her pert breasts up to head height. She licked one erect pink nipple and blew on it until it could cut glass.
“Oh... Wow,” Buffy sighed.
Faith switched her attentions to the other nipple, playfully flicking it with her tongue, making Buffy twitch and shiver with each flick, before moistening it with a low sensuous lick and blowing across it.
Buffy groaned again
Faith slid one hand down Buffy’s back, sliding her hand under the waistband of her denim pants and underwear. She massaged and fondled the soft skin of Buffy’s petite behind.
‘Tiny and perfect, a butt you could bounce a quarter offa.’ Faith mused as her hands and mouth worked their sensuous magic.
Her other hand stroked languorously across Buffy’s breast, tweaking the glistening nipple as she switched her oral attentions to its unsuspecting twin.
Abandoning Buffy's breasts for a moment she used both hands to grope Buffy's taut buns beneath her cotton panties.
Buffy moaned. “Oh... Faith. Oh god that feels so good.”
And it did. Faith realized that she was feeling more than she would expect at this point. Yeah, half naked Buffy in the throes of ecstasy was hot. And it was freakin’ Buffy! But Faith realized that as intense as this was, there was no way her excitement should be rising this fast. Not after a big ‘O’ of her own only a few minutes ago. She shrugged mentally and flagged it for later, having more important things to do right now.
She pulled her hands from Buffy's pants and cupped both cheeks with her hands. She kissed Buffy on her breastbone and lifted her up slightly to place another kiss below it, and another and another, lifting her and slowly working her way down Buffy's belly.
She could feel her/Buffy's arousal building as she approached her forbidden goal. She wasn’t sure how she could sense Buffy's anticipation, but she could tell that the idea of Faith violating her boundaries excited her enormously.
As much as Faith wanted to excite Buffy, she knew at this fragile stage in their relationship, trust was more important than any amount of excitement.
Still, boundaries needed a little push every once in a while, and she lay a series of tiny, nibble-y kisses across the tender flesh of Buffy's taut belly, just above her pants.
Faith could smell Buffy's arousal, not that she needed a Slayer’s sense of smell, given her proximity.
‘I swear B, I am gonna eat you until the sun comes up,’ she thought to herself, ripping the button off Buffy's jeans with her teeth.
Buffy’s eyes snapped open, and she gasped, breathless with anticipation.
And shockingly, Faith lowered her down, putting distance between her mouth and Buffy's crotch, and took a hard nipple into her mouth.
She gently ran her teeth across the aching bud, forcing a high pitched gasp from Buffy. She sucked hard, and Buffy tensed like a bowstring.
Buffy’s hand dug into her dark hair and pulled her in tight as she cried out. “Oh, god!”
Faith felt Buffy explode, and felt something similar happening to herself. The two feelings echoed from each other in a weird way and sustained one another, generating far more excitement than Faith had ever imagined from something so simple.
Faith held tight as Buffy clenched and spasmed, finally collapsing on top of her.
She had her eyes closed and was breathing hard.
They rested together, Buffy collapsed on top of Faith for a few minutes, until brains were capable of coherent thoughts once again.
She opened her eyes with a slightly spacey expression.
“Not just me then?” Faith said with a smirk.
“Nope,” Buffy said, still breathing hard. “Definitely not just you.”
She gathered her wits for a moment and flopped bonelessly to one side of Faith.
“God, that was incredible!” she sighed.
“Been a while huh B?”
Buffy sighed. “Too long. I think the last time was like, 2 years ago.”
“Whoa, that’s some dry spell girl.”
Buffy smiled, looking a little embarrassed. She snuggled up close to Faith. “Well what about you? I barely touched you.”
“B, I’ve loved you for a long time, and wanted you since the day we met. Alla this is like a dream come true. Plus, uh, I haven’t really been taking care of my, uh, needs. For a while.” She looked nervous as she said this.
Buffy looked surprised. “You mean, um...” she waggled her fingers.
“Uh, yeah. Every time I got wound up, I’d go to do something about it, but when I did, you’d pop into my head. It uh, didn’t feel right gettin’ off on you, when we weren’t together y’know?”
Faith shrugged in an attempt at nonchalance. “I guess I didn’t wanna drag you down to my level, or somethin’.”
Buffy sighed sadly. “My level is not a good one Faith.”
She sighed wistfully. “I’ve always envied you your confidence and your sexiness. I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m pretty.” Faith smiled as Buffy spoke,” “But I can’t really do sexy.”
“Babe, you got no idea. B, you’re like, my shining goddess. No word of a lie, I kinda worship you.”
Buffy lifted up to make eye contact with Faith. “Really?”
“Cross my heart.”
Her eyes glittered. “You say the most wonderful things.”
Her expression changed, like a light was switched on. “Ohmigod! I think I figured it out!”
She looked across at Faith, excitement shining in her eyes. “I know what’s so different about being with you Faith!”
“I’m a girl?” she said with a smirk.
“Um, yes, that too. Actually, that might be part of why, um.”
“S’ok babe, just take your time.”
“Everyone else I’ve been with has wanted something from me, to take.”
She gazed lovingly at Faith. “You are the first person who just wanted to give me something.”
“Well, yeah. I love ya B. Who doesn’t wanna do something nice for someone they love?”
Her expression softened. “Did the boys not take care of your needs?” Faith asked softly.
“Well, no, it’s not like that. Angel, Parker and Riley were all very considerate.”
Faith noted that she had very deliberately left Spike out of the list.
“But when you get right down to it, they were there for themselves. You were here for me.”
Faith sniffled. “You’re the best B. I know I love ya, ‘cos I let you get on top.”
She smiled sadly. “I wouldn’t do that with anyone else, I couldn’t.”
Buffy met her gaze with her own sad smile.
“Faith, our future is going to be sooo bright.”
“I swear B, if a little second base felt like this, the home run is gonna wreck me.”
“Then we’ll be wrecked together, because that was the best orgasm I’ve had in a long, long time, and you only touched my boobs.”
She groaned and let her head fall back against the pillow. “God, I sound like Anya. She’s poisoned the word orgasm for me.”
Faith grinned. “I always kinda liked her. She always told it to you straight. Called me a psycho slut-bomb once.”
“Well, you did go off,” Buffy said with a cheeky grin.
“Buffy Anne Summers, well I never!” Faith said in her best sitcom-mom voice.
“C’mon Faithy-poo, time to get up and face the world.”
Faith poked out her tongue and made a yucky face. “After a shower, ‘cos we live with Slayers, and I don’t want to broadcast everything we’ve been up to.”
Buffy groaned and reluctantly crawled out of bed. She stood and held out a hand to Faith. “Together?”
Faith grinned. “Always.”
+++
A decidedly chipper Giles was beavering away amidst a pile of books in his office.
Willow had put on her resolve face and forced him to have a proper breakfast with the rest of the gang. It seemed to have cheered him immensely.
Currently he was sipping a cup of tea and reading one of the more interesting books acquired from the council. A ‘how to’ manual for the training of Slayers, occasionally he would chuckle at a bit of dry wit, or frown when he encountered a passage that he disagreed with.
There was a polite tap at the door and Xander stuck his head inside.
“Hey Giles, what’s the what, watcher man?”
Giles smiled and waved Xander inside with the book he held. “Xander, come in. I’ve been comparing training manuals both old and new. It’s absolutely fascinating.”
Xander sat down in the comfy chair. “There goes that wacky British definition of fun again.”
He put his feet up on the other chair. “You weren’t kidding last night when you said ‘weird book nerd’ were you?”
Giles chuckled, his good mood unassailable. “I finally feel as though I’m penetrating behind the curtains of the council at long last. As an active watcher, all my energies were taken up with research and training, so I had little time for, or knowledge of, council policy. And given that the leadership of the council was destroyed by Caleb, there is no one to left to consult or ask questions of.”
“Or get in the way, or generally act like a tweedy twit.”
“Twit?” Giles said, surprised. “We’ll make a Watcher out of you yet, dear boy,” he said smiling slightly.
“Not a lot rhymes with tweed. Anyway besides saying ‘howdy,’ I stuck my head in to let you know Andrew is back,” he said, holding up his phone.
“Or he will be soon, Vi sent me a message. They’ve left the airport and will be home soon.”
Giles smiled. “Splendid! I can only imagine what we might find. Those books are the most closely guarded records in the Council’s archives.”
“You look like someone who’s been visited by tiny Jewish Santa,” Xander said, taken with how cheerful Giles was at the prospect of new ‘secret’ books.
“I must confess to feeling rather cheered by the prospect. I feel ever so slightly vindicated, poking through books that the upper echelons of the council never wanted me to see.”
Xander felt as though he was getting a peak behind the mask Giles wore, and looking at the ‘real’ Giles. It made him smile.
“In truth Xander, the council never treated the, ah, ‘Front-line’ watchers with much respect, something you might have noticed.”
“Oh yeah, I remember that Travers guy. Not my favourite person in the whole wide world.”
“Yes, well. Same principle as a security guard really.”
Xander looked confused. “Ah... What?”
“There was only ever one Slayer, but thousands of Watchers helping and training their potentials. All against the one in a thousand chance that they might become a Slayer. In all likelihood a Watcher would never really matter in the grand scheme of things.”
“And the security guard thing?”
“Like a security guard, we were generally ignored and disrespected until something went wrong. After all, unless there was disaster, or our charges were called, we didn’t really seem to be doing anything. Like a security guard.”
Giles sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “Which is why most of us became researchers, teachers and historians. Something to while away the time after our potential had reached a high level of readiness.”
“Wow. Giles, I had no idea.”
“Yes, well. It’s astonishing how many people are reluctant to admit, that their illustrious career will never amount to anything more than being the tutor to a young girl.”
“In a completely non-astonishing way,” Xander said.
“We formed a loose sort of underground network, keeping each other informed, if the Council hierarchy was being particularly obtuse. Whenever you saw me on the phone to someone, it was usually to one of my other Watcher chums. Honestly, the council-proper took ‘need-to-know’ to ridiculous levels.”
Giles looked at Xander with a wan smile.
“Truth be told, the council had grown to such a huge size that most of its business was concerned with staying in business. The Slayer side of things was rather minor, all things considered.”
“That’s not what I expected Giles.”
“It happens with any large organization Xander, if they lose sight of the reason for their existence. In a way we should be thankful to Caleb. He removed pretty well everyone who was that way inclined, leaving only the people who actually believed in their charges and did the actual work.”
“So this thing with the Council acting...” Xander trailed off.
Giles raised an eyebrow. “Like idiots?”
Xander nodded. “Yeah. That”
“Quite normal, unfortunately.”
+++
Andrew stalked through the halls of Slayer central, his eyes glinting hard, his expression thunderous.
His hair was a mess and he looked as though he had slept in his clothes, but the slight blond man carried with him an aura that brooked no interference.
Rona and Vi were flanking him, though they lacked the air of angry determination.
Faith caught Vi’s attention as they barrelled through the entry area. She peeled off to talk to Faith.
“Hey Indigo! What’s up girl? That Andy-Pandy? ‘Cos it looks like him, but it sure as hell don’t act like him.”
The redhead bumped fists with Faith, something of a ritual they shared. “Yeah. Incredibly it is. He found something that poured molten steel into his spine. I don’t have any idea what’s going on.”
Faith gave her a funny look.
“That was a metaphor Faith, not some new demonic menace.”
Vi sighed and rubbed her face. “He’s been like that for a couple of days, ever since he read that big book he’s carrying.”
“Yeah? What is it?”
“I have no idea. Something we dug out of the vault, hidden away in the secret stuff.”
Vi closed her eyes and leaned against the wall, obviously tired. “He was excited at first, reading top-secret watcher books.”
Faith snorted. “Top secret recipes for tweed? And how to get a big stick up your ass in 9 easy steps?”
“Then he burst into tears.”
Faith’s eyebrows rose at this.
“Then he got angry. Really angry. Like, he swore a lot and shouted a lot and kicked stuff. I’d have been really worried if I wasn’t a Slayer and he wasn’t, y’know, Andrew.”
Faith grunted. “Huh. Wouldn’t a thought he had it in him.”
They leaned against the wall in companionable silence.
Vi groaned. “So, did I miss anything while I was in darkest Giles-land?”
Faith grinned hugely. “Girl, you got no idea.”
Buffy bounced up to Faith and Vi, her ponytail swinging.
“Hi cutie-pie, I got us some breakfast. We should go eat it before the ravenous hordes slay it all.”
Faith laughed and looked thoughtful. “Nah, that one didn’t work. Scratch it. Breakfast sounds good though.”
Buffy held out her hand for Faith to take, and like a shy teenager, Faith reached out and took it with a soft smile.
The pair left, Buffy almost skipping with happiness.
Rona moved slowly up to Vi and looked down the corridor with an expression of shock. It was as though the sky had spontaneously turned green and decided to rain jello.
“Did that... just happen?”
Vi nodded slowly. “I think so.”
“Buffy skipped.”
“Uh-huh.”
“Faith laughed.”
“Yep.”
“And they left, hand in hand.”
“Yeah, I’m having a little trouble with that one myself,” Vi said.
The pair stood in silence.
“So… pod people, magic or possession?” Vi said with a resigned sigh.
Rona looked thoughtful. “Magic,” she said finally.
Vi nodded tiredly. “Yeah, pretty much what I thought too. C’mon, let go find Mr Giles.”
+++
Giles and Xander were still chatting when Andrew shouldered open the door. He strode through the room and slammed down the tome he carried, right into the middle of Giles’ desk.
Giles looked rather shocked at his sudden appearance and even more astonishing behaviour.
“Read it!” Andrew hissed.
His tone was commanding, his stare was the look of a man who had looked into hell.
“Andrew what-” Giles said, before he was cut off.
“Read it!” Andrew shrieked, almost vibrating with fury.
“Now Andrew, calm down,” Xander began.
“No! You be quiet Harris! Don’t you dare tell me to calm down! I’ve read some of that book. I’ve seen the betrayal of everything I held dear! Everything!” he raged at Xander, red faced.
“Betrayal is too light a word, this is blasphemy, this is sacrilege!” he hissed.
Giles put a very serious expression on his face. “I shall read it at once.”
Giles handed his diary to Xander. “I need you to cover today for me while I investigate this.”
Xander nodded slowly. “Sure Giles, I can do that.”
He stood up with the leather bound diary in one hand. “Come on Andrew, let’s give him some time to read.
Andrew shrugged off Xander’s hand on his shoulder. “Don’t. Just... don’t touch me. I can’t bear to be touched after...” he trailed off.
Xander took in the dark circles and red eyes. Andrew was swaying with exhaustion and looked as though he had not slept for days.
“Get to bed Andrew, you look like you’re going to drop at any moment.”
“I haven’t slept in days. I think I need to drink myself into oblivion. Xander, I need alcohol. Lots of alcohol.”
+++
Faith ran into Xander as he was coming back from Andrew’s room.
“Yo, Xan, what’s with the geek queen?”
Xander ran his hand through his hair tiredly. “He passed out after one shot of whisky. So I had to put him to bed.”
Faith smirked. “Y’know, on any other day he’d be creaming his PJ’s over that.”
Xander made a face. “Eeew.”
“What’s happening? Vi said he’s been acting crazy for the last couple o’ days.”
“I have no idea. He stormed into the office, slammed down that huge book and demanded that Giles read it. I’ve never seen him like this.” He scratched his chin thoughtfully. “Possession maybe?”
Faith shook her head. “Nah, Vi already checked. No possession. Just Andrew.”
Xander chuckled softly. “What does it say about our life, that possession makes more sense than this?”
“Our life is weird?” she shrugged. “What’s more likely, Andrew messed up by possession or mojo, or he suddenly grew a pair?”
Xander made a show of thinking, resting his chin on his fist. “Possession, definitely,” he said.
“What about the G-man?” she asked.
“He’s locked himself in his study and doesn’t want to be disturbed. Hung up a sign and everything.”
“This is serious. Xan, what did Blondie-boy say?”
“Really scary stuff. That he hadn’t slept in days, that he needed a drink, that it was a betrayal of everything he believed in, whatever ‘it’ was. He also used other words, like blasphemy and sacrilege. Then he downed a double shot of JB and passed out.”
“Didn’t know he was into the hard stuff.”
Xander grinned. “Very manly, he didn’t even flinch. Of course there was the slightly less manly passing out immediately afterwards, so it’s still Andrew, not some evil clone.”
“Maybe he got hit with that thing you got zapped with a couple years back? Maybe there’s an extra geeky, extra fruity Andy-Pandy floating around out there.”
Xander laughed at the mental image this produced. “Elton John glasses maybe?”
Faith grinned and gently punched him in the shoulder.
Her grin faded and her expression became tense. “I got a bad feeling about this Xander. All my instincts are screaming at me to run. I can feel something big coming down.”
“Yeah,” he said quietly. “I feel it. That feeling you get just before the hit comes in. When you are hoping, just for a split second that it’s not real, that this can’t be happening again.”
Faith bumped her shoulder against Xander’s.
“Yeah,” she said softly.
He looked at her. “I notice a total lack of your absence.”
Faith looked away, almost embarrassed. “I’m done running. I can’t run Xan.”
She stared at the wall opposite them, clearly seeing something other than cream painted concrete. “Everything I got in the whole world is right here. An’ no-one is gonna take it from me without a fight.”
“You really love her?” he said softly.
“With everything I got man.”
He nodded. “Good.”
“I ain’t gonna let anyone hurt my girl Xander, I’ll fight the entire fucking world for her.”
He smiled. “I gotta say I’m surprised that you two got together, because, uh, girl. Also with you two hating each other.”
“We just didn’t know any other way Xan. We couldn’t let each other go, and all we knew was how to fight.”
“Well, I’m glad. A little wigged out, but glad. Buffy has really lit up since you two made friends again. It’s been nice to have girl-Buffy around, instead of Colonel-Buffy.”
“Yeah. Girl-Buffy I like, but Colonel-Buffy just makes me wanna smack her.”
Faith grimaced. “That didn’t sound so good, did it?”
She ran a hand through her hair. “I should find new words, ‘cos beating on your girl just ain’t cool.”
Xander smiled. “I’m not sure the usual rules apply to you guys, fighting always seems to cheer you two up.”
“What you really mean, is that it turns us both on. But yeah, it’s true. Enough about that stuff. So how’s lil’ Bitty’s plans for the new place?”
“Really nice. I’ve seen the plans and the sketches. It looks amazing. Sort of a big symmetrical mound made of circular buildings, all connected to each other.”
He smiled. “I think she’s done an amazing job, but there’s no way it could be passed off as anything other than Scooby central.”
“Huh?”
“It looks beautiful, almost like a temple. Everyone gets their own space, like a little house connected to the others. So we’re together, but without living in the same house. There’s a lounge and a meeting room and a library and a sanctuary for spell study.”
Faith looked impressed. “Sounds pretty flash. Can we afford it?”
Xander laughed softly. “Bridey showed me the cost estimates, and I nearly fell off my chair. When Willow showed me the capital budget, I did fall off my chair. The Watcher’s Council has been around since the beginning of time. We have more resources than some countries. And Willow is planning to build a lot of it with magic, so it’ll happen pretty darn quick.”
“Cool. I like the idea of having my own place. But I like having you guys around. I guess I’ve gotten used to you after all X-man.” Faith ruffled his hair.
“Aww shucks,” he said. “Hey, where’s Buffy? I haven’t seen her since you guys did the mojo thing.”
He muttered under his breath. “Stupid Slayer Central needing running and everything.”
“Getting munchies. An’ Xan? Thanks for being cool about us. Just be nice to her about alla this ok? She’s dealing, but it ain’t easy for her.”
Xander held up three fingers. “Scouts honour, no problem.”
He brightened. “Oh yeah, I have a little present for you when you have an hour or so.”
Faith gave him a funny look. “An hour for a present? What, like a makeover or somethin’?”
Xander grinned. “Pretty much. We got the first shipment of armour in, and you get first shot at it.”
Faith poked him in the shoulder with her finger. “Better not be in pastel shades or some crap.”
He grinned some more. “I think you’ll be pleased. Kevlar plates. Light, tough, and available in variety of fashionable designer colours including black, ebony, pitch and very very off white.”
“Wicked. I swear, we are gonna look like an army of ninjas or somethin’.”
+++
“Okay, so some of you will have heard this before already, some maybe not. That’s ok, it won’t kill ya to listen again.”
Faith strolled across the grass of the training field in front of the latest batch of Slayer recruits.
Her black armour gleamed in the floodlights.
She was dressed in a black body suit, over which were strapped lightweight pieces dark kevlar. Stakes, a heavy short-sword and equipment pouches adorned her body. She carried her axe across her shoulders, her hands resting on it possessively.
Standing out from the unrelieved black were her gleaming axe, her red bandana and a triangular golden medallion at her throat.
“You are Slayers. Warriors, protectors, defenders of humankind and all that jazz.”
“Some of you are here to join the fight an’ become warriors, the ones that the monsters fear. You will be joining the Slayer program and you will become the meanest fighters ever to walk the earth. You will do what others can’t: fight the evil that walks the night.”
“Some of you have lives outside being a Slayer. Family commitments, college plans, an’ stuff like that. So you will be joining the Guardian program. We teach you to how to fight, how to defend yourself and how to spot evil at work. We also keep you up on your schooling so you can still get into college an’ help you hold down jobs an’ such. You ladies will be our eyes and ears, living your lives like regular folks, but with your ear to the ground, so the rest of us know what’s coming.”
Faith spied a familiar blue jeep bouncing it’s way erratically across the grass toward her. A warm smile split her face.
“There’s a Witchy program and a Watcher program as well, but that ain’t any of you guys, so that can wait,” she said as the jeep closed on their position.
“As a Slayer you get a boost to strength an’ speed, also you can take a hell of a beating and keep on coming. You get to heal faster an’ better than anyone else too. Ya won’t scar for long, an’ stuff like broken bones will heal in a few days.”
The blue jeep skidded to a halt right by Faith, Buffy leaned out of the driver’s side window.
“Hi baby-doll. Behold, I return with delicious treats!”
Faith raised an eyebrow. “I’m a doll now?”
One of the new recruits snickered and muttered under her breath. “Doll.”
Faith looked annoyed. “There an echo out here all of a sudden?”
She turned to the offending girl. “Oh yeah. Shoulda mentioned, Slayer hearing? Really good.”
She stared at the girl until she looked away in embarrassment.
Buffy grimaced. “Sorry honey, still working out the name thing.”
“Nah, it’s alright B, I just don’t think ‘doll’ will work for us.”
Buffy nodded thoughtfully. “Ah-huh, crossing that one off the list now.”
Buffy hopped out of the jeep, similarly dressed to Faith, save for the axe and bandana.
“I brought the two major food groups: sugar and caffeine,” she said, holding up a bag of cinnamon donuts and two cardboard coffee cups.
“You’re a life saver B, don’t know what I’d do without ya,” Faith said, pulling her in for a brief, passionate kiss.
“Wow, someone really wanted munchies,” Buffy said, smiling as they broke for air.
“You swing by the Peach dressed like that?”
Buffy shrugged. “Pffft, most of the customers are Slayers anyway, I just told them I was going to a fancy dress party as a ninja.”
“Funny,” Faith said.
She turned to the new recruits sitting on the grass. “Kids, meet Buffy Summers, the oldest and most successful Slayer in the history o’ mankind.”
Buffy rolled her eyes. “Great, make me feel like an old lady why don’t you?”
Faith just grinned.
“You’re Buffy?” said one of the new girls. “I thought you’d be taller.”
Buffy huffed. “Why does everyone say that?”
Faith’s grin changed to a smile. “Do the thing with the jeep, that’ll shut ‘em up.”
Buffy handed Faith the donut bag and drink holder, and stomped her way to the front of the jeep.
“Pay attention chil’un. Slayers get stronger as they age and train, like this,” Faith said, handing the bag of donut and coffees to one of the girls.
Buffy grabbed the steel bars on either side of her jeep’s winch and lifted smoothly, hauling the front of the jeep up until it was over her head. Faith grabbed the tow bar in her gloved hands and lifted the back end to match.
There was silence as the two women held a jeep over their heads.
“Can we put my jeep down now? I’m starting to sink into the ground,” Buffy asked.
“Heh, Xan is gonna be complaining about holes in the lawn again,” Faith said as they lowered the vehicle to the ground.
One of the stunned newbies blurted out. “Holy shit! Was that for real?”
“That look like a fake jeep to you?” Faith asked.
“That had to be a couple of tons!”
“Hey! It’s only a little jeep, it’s not that heavy! It’s... jeepy!” Buffy complained.
Faith snagged the bag of donuts and the coffee and took a swig. “Hey, cool. You got Red’s favourite.”
Buffy nodded cheerfully. “Coffee and chocolate, it’s a double hit of goodness.”
“Right, you lot. Amscray while I catch up with my girl. Go run laps with the others. I’ll whistle when I want ya back.”
The freshman Slayers dawdled, reluctant to take up the task of running around in circles.
“Ya waiting for an engraved invitation? Move!”
They scattered.
Watching them leave Faith put her arm around Buffy’s shoulders affectionately. “I dunno about the leadership stuff, but this drill sergeant crap? I love it!”
Buffy leaned into the hug. “Faith the teacher, who’d have thought?”
“I know. It’s kinda weird, but in a cool way. I mean, even before tweed-girl showed up on my doorstep and told me I was one a’ the chosen ones, I never thought of ‘Teacher’ as somethin’ to do.”
She shook her head. “But there’s just so much shit about the world and bein’ a Slayer, that I had to learn the really hard way. An’ I wanna have that count for somethin’ y’know? I don’t want someone else to deal with the crap that I had to.”
Buffy slipped her arm around Faith’s waist. “I hear you. Some of the stuff we lived through,” she sighed. “Yep, it’s good to take that horrible stuff and turn it into a learning experience for the sophomores.”
“Giles is being extra tweedy at the moment, he’s writing up a thing about new council philosophy or something. He wants us all to get together and talk about it when Andrew, Vi and the gang get back from the land of tea and scones.”
“Yeah. Sounds kinda dull, but he wants some not-stupid rules for when some of the bad stuff happens again. I mean, a couple thousand Slayers? Someone is gonna skewer someone they shouldn’t, sooner or later. And the old council was hugely stupid about this stuff.”
Buffy made an ‘ick!’ face at the mention of the old council. “Sending assassins to deal with a scared teenage girl? Stupid doesn’t cover it.”
“Preachin’ to the choir sister. Anyways, Giles wants a look at their top secret books and stuff before he finishes his thing, which is why we are waiting for Andy-pandy, Indigo girl, and Princess to show up.”
“Princess? You still don’t like her?”
“She ain’t so bad. I just don’t like the bitchiness. Or the fact that she’s a cheap knock off of yours truly. Aside from that she’s ok.”
“Genuine Faith, accept no substitutes,” Buffy said with a smile.
Faith pulled Buffy in close. “Damn straight, no substitute for Faith,” she murmured into her ear.
Buffy shuddered. “Oh god, I hope I never get used to that.”
“You know, this armour X-man got us is cool and all, but it’s got it’s down side,” Faith said.
“Hmm?” Buffy murmured.
“Look down babe.”
Buffy looked down and saw Faith’s gloved hands cupping the ‘breast’ part of her breastplate. “Faith!”
“Heh, too easy. Don’t ever change B.”
“Notice how I haven’t made you move your hands. I’d say I’ve already changed.”
“You’re awesome, you know that?”
“Come on sugar lips, let’s go rescue our littlest Slayers from the juniors,” Buffy said, leading them back to Slayer Central.
“God that sounds so wrong coming from your mouth. Strike that one from the list ok?”
“This relationship stuff is hard. How many have we gone through now?”
“Most of ‘em. C’mon, ‘honey’ is ok. And yeah maybe ‘honeybun’ at the right time. You’re ok with ‘babe’ what’s wrong with that?”
“Yeah but everyone says that. I want our own special one,” Buffy said, sounding just a little bit whiney.
“Maybe that could be our thing, we just keep working through them?”
“Sugar plum?”
“Nope.”
“Cuddle monkey?”
“Nope, and you already tried that one.”
“Sweet lips? Uh, never mind.”
“That one’s kinda fun if you think about it, but nope.”
Buffy blushed, but soldiered on.
“Cuddlebum?”
Faith laughed. “God, ‘bum.’ Are you Giles now? I mean it’s kinda fun, but can you imagine saying that in public?”
Buffy pouted a little.
Faith said softly. “Relax B. We got forever to figure this out.”
She took Buffy by the hand and they walked together in search of the newest Slayers.
+++
Giles stared blankly at the painting hanging on his wall.
It was a beautiful rendition of Jeanne d'Arc, a painting he had admired for a long time.
His thoughts mocked him,
‘What would she have thought? What would she have done if she knew?’He slumped in despair against the couch, an overly large glass of scotch in hand. He had drunk too much, he knew. But somehow he couldn’t seem to care.
He ignored the faint pounding on the door. He wanted to be left alone amidst the ashes of his life, and the door was warded against both sound and entry.
He glanced morosely at the ancient text on his desk, abandoned when he could read no more.
His eyes were red with the tears he could not shed, and he sat on the couch, a broken man.
Quietly, without fanfare, the door opened. Dawn slipped inside the room and looked about. The room was not greatly different from any other time she had been inside. The smell of alcohol and the haggard appearance of Giles were new though. Ignoring the daggers that Buffy glared at her, she closed the door behind her.
Giles spoke up hollowly. “Thank you Dawn. I don’t think I could have faced everyone right at this moment, especially not Buffy... or Faith.”
Wordlessly she moved to the couch and knelt in front of him.
She was shocked. Often Giles would look rumpled or tired after working late at night, but not like this. His eyes were red-rimmed and lost, his glasses nowhere to be found. He looked defeated. She had never seen him like this.
She reached up and stroked his cheek. “Giles? What’s wrong?”
He pulled away from her touch and laughed, a hollow mockery of humour. “Don’t. Please, I couldn’t stand it.”
Her grey eyes filled with sadness and worry. “Giles, please tell me, what’s the matter?”
He could not meet her eyes. “Betrayal,” he croaked. “Millennia of betrayal. The abuse of a sacred trust, so absolute, so profound, that it borders on sacrilege.”
He stared blankly at the floor. “My whole life has been a lie. A mockery.”
Dawn’s eyes were huge. “Giles you’re scaring me! What lie? What betrayal?”
Giles stared unmoving, unblinking at the floor.
Eventually he waved indistinctly at the computer on his desk. “Turn that thing on. Bring up the model you showed me last night.”
Silently she went to the computer and waited while it came out of sleep mode. She clicked an icon and typed a short address for the model data.
“It’s up. What am I looking for?”
Giles laughed again, a terrible self-hating sound. “All of it.”
“I’m sorry Giles, you might need to be a bit more specific than that,” she said.
“Bring up the profiles of the wild Slayers,” he said.
Dawn clicked a couple of icons.
“Do you see anything?” he asked in a hollow voice.
“Uh, yeah? These are almost all the ones with longer than average careers.”
“Indeed,” he said acidly. “Now check the dates that the watcher’s council made contact with them.”
Dawn clicked icons and rearranged things.
“Um, according to the records they died less than a year after the council made contact, usually months after...”
“Indeed,” he said bitterly.
She went silent for a while as she processed the information.
Dawn’s eyes went wide as she caught on. “But Giles this looks like they got them killed! They’re supposed to watch over the Slayers, not get them killed!”
Giles chuckled. A horrible sound completely devoid of humour.
“Watchers were perfectly named. We were never meant to watch over our charges. We were meant to
watch them.”
Dawn’s face was a picture of horror. “But, why? Slayers destroy evil, defend the innocent! Why would the Council do that?”
Giles stared out the window at the girls training in the field.
“I do not know. This book details ways of ensuring that Slayers are kept under control or ‘dealt with’ if they become troublesome. It does not contain an explanation as to why.”
“It also explains some of the gaps in training that I have encountered in my reading. Deliberate adherence to a rigid training method that hampers the Slayer’s ability to adapt. It almost ensures that at some point they will encounter something they cannot deal with.”
He buried his face in his hands.
Dawn got up from her chair and moved robot-like over to sit next to him.
“Are you sure Giles? Maybe you’re misreading it? Maybe it’s not as bad as all that?” Daw said desperately.
Giles shook his head. “No. There’s no interpretation, no metaphors, no hints. It’s all there in black and white. I do not yet know
why they did such monstrous things, but the
how of it is clear.”
She put her arms around his shoulders and hugged him tight. “We didn’t know Giles. You didn’t know.”
He struggled, trying to resist her attempt at comfort, but he was too exhausted, too tired to fight beyond a pretence.
He collapsed against her and suffered her to comfort him.
She stroked his hair comfortingly and stared into space only slightly less lost.
Her eye fixed on the painting of Joan of Arc that Giles was so proud of, as the eye is wont to do in desperate times.
They had whiled away a number of evenings debating whether the French Maid of Orleans was a Slayer or not, and whether she was more or less heroic for being purely human, rather than a Slayer.
Giles had long felt that the young French girl that lead an army to victory centuries ago, was in all probability a Slayer. They had the records now, thought he had not yet taken the time to check.
That the watchers council were a bunch of hidebound incompetents, did not surprise Dawn. But that they should be watching the Slayers with the intent to arrange their deaths? That was an idea that just didn’t fit in Dawn’s head.
And she was starting to get angry.
“Giles? How could they do this for so long? Without people finding out?”
“Tradition. History. The way things have always been. You must remember, the information that you have access to has never been available before. Slayers and their watchers have always been widely separated, communication difficult. Only in the last hundred years has there ever been anything approaching easy communication.”
“The others need to know this, especially Buffy and Faith.”
Giles slumped. “You are right of course,” he looked away. “Perhaps later, I... I just can’t face them right now.”
Dawn squeezed him comfortingly.
“These were my people, people that my family have been connected to for generations. I share their guilt, even if I personally never knew.”
“Giles, you’re the good guy. You fought the council and they fired you over the Cruciamentum thing.”
Her eyes went wide. “The Cruciamentum!”
He groaned. “The signs were all there to see, if only you happen to look. How could I have been so blind?”
“So this test, that we all thought was stupid and awful, was
meant to kill Slayers?” Dawn said, incredulous.
Giles nodded sadly. “It would seem so.”
“So what was that business with Glory?” Dawn asked.
“I suspect that was the council getting everything they wanted, handed to them on a plate. The world saved and Buffy dead.”
“If they wanted her dead, or Faith, why not just kill them?”
“You mean like sending a wet-works team to kill them? I think that might be why they went after Faith and Buffy in Los Angeles with submachine guns.”
Dawn blinked. “Oh. I feel stupid now.”
“I think we all will, once the rage and horror has passed.”
He squeezed Dawn’s hand in desperation. “I don’t know what I’m going to do.”
“I don’t either, so we’ll all figure it out together, ok?”
Giles looked at Dawn.
“Hey, we’re family remember? When one of us hurts, we all hurt. That includes you Giles,” Dawn said.
He smiled sadly. “Thank you my dear.”
He clambered unsteadily to his feet. “Just give me a moment to splash some water on my face and I’ll break the unpleasant news to the others.”
Dawn shook her head. “No way. We’ll both break the news. I’m a watcher too remember? This is my responsibility as much as it is yours, and don’t you dare tell me that it doesn’t count just because I haven’t being doing it as long.”
He frowned as she spoke, but eventually he nodded somewhat reluctantly. “As much as it pains me to admit it, I do need your help.”
“Hey come on Giles. We lean on you often enough, it’s ok to lean back occasionally.”
She fiddled with the little green finger puppet Giles had sitting on his desk, a reminder of happier times.
She put it on her finger and held it up to Giles. “Grr. Argh,” she said with a smile.
It prompted a ghost of a smile from Giles.
+++
Down in the library, the Scoobies were gathered together again, looking somewhat refreshed from their last library meeting.
Dawn walked in and looked around intently before speaking. “Guys I need your help.”
“What’s the matter Dawnie?” Tara asked.
Dawn paced, clearly on edge.
“Giles has some bad news. Super bad news. Worst possible news, ever.”
The level of tension in the room ratcheted up noticeably.
Buffy groaned. “God I hope it’s not another apocalypse, we just got through the last one.”
“No. Worse,” Dawn said sharply.
Willow looked worried. “Worse than an apocalypse? That’s worrying. What could be worse than the end of the world as we know it? I mean that last one was a doozy.”
Dawn held up her hand to forestall the torrent of words. “I’m going to let Giles explain so I don’t get any of it wrong. But we’ve been betrayed almost from the beginning.”
Everybody spoke up at once, demanding answers, pointing fingers and making wild ass guesses until Dawn just couldn’t take it anymore.
She screamed at the top of her lungs until Buffy and Faith covered their ears in pain.
She stood red faced and breathing hard in the stunned silence.
“Ow,” muttered Faith.
“Listen to me!” Dawn hissed. “I’m telling you this for Giles ok? However bad it is for us, and it’s bad, really-really bad. It’s ten times worse for Giles.”
She looked at Buffy. “He cried Buffy. Giles cried.”
Buffy looked shocked. “But he’s Giles! All stiff upper lippy and and... Giles-y! I mean he was a bit sniffle-y when he thought Willow was a vampire, but he doesn’t cry.”
Xander spoke quietly. “He did cry once.”
He met Buffy’s gaze. “He cried after Glory. When you died.”
They sat in silence, absorbing the impact of that statement.
“Twice,” Willow said.
All eyes turned to look at Willow.
“He cried when we were at the Devonshire coven together,” she said.
She squeezed Tara’s hand. “We talked about Tara and he cried then. We both did. He felt as though he’d let us down by leaving and he held himself responsible for what happened.”
“This is bad. This is really, really bad,” Xander said. He turned to Dawn. “What could possibly be that bad?”
“You’ll find out in a minute, when he’s freshened up a bit. I’m telling you all this so you don’t attack him when he spills the beans.”
She looked around. “I’m serious you guys! Don’t you dare attack him. This is way, way worse for him than it is for us and it’s bad for us.”
“I’m worried,” Tara said, wearing an expression that matched her words.
Xander held his head in his hands. “God, this is like being in the hospital waiting room. Waiting for news that someone’s not gonna make it.”
“You can’t give us a little hint, D?” Faith asked.
“Look, I’m not trying to be funny here you guys. I could tell you, but it would be worse than if Giles told you, so just wait. Wait, and be all supporto Scoobies to Giles ok? Because he needs us now.”
They sat in silence, the tension climbing suddenly as they heard Giles’ footsteps approaching.
He opened the door to a sea of worried faces.
He sought out Dawn. “Did you...” he asked.
Dawn shook her head slowly. “No Giles. I just told everyone that you had bad news, and that we need to support you. I didn’t want to make it worse,” she said sadly.
He gave her a small but grateful smile.
He looked at the worried faces.
They took in his haggard appearance and bloodshot eyes.
Willow asked. “Giles are you ok?”
He stared at her for a brief moment, lost to thought.
He shook his head.
“I’m sorry Willow, but I am very much not ok. Truth be told I am rather drunk.”
“Giles I’m freaking out over here. What was in Andrew’s big book of badness?” Xander said.
Under his breath he muttered. “Why can’t books ever contain good news?”
“Andrew’s book... where is Andrew?” Giles asked.
“Sleeping. He hasn’t slept in days. Vi and the gang are out too,” Xander said.
“Ah well then. For the best really,” Giles replied.
“Andrew’s book was a Codex, a book of laws or rules for the inner Council of Watchers members. It was only to be read by the
ruling members of the inner circle, not the likes of us, the front line Watchers.”
He looked around at the Scoobies. “You may recall, there is something of a separation between the likes of myself and Wesley, and the rest of the council.”
There were a number of nods.
“There is good reason for that divide. It seems that the purpose of the Council is not to Watch over the Slayer potentials and the Slayer, but to
Watch them. And if they cause trouble, or live too long... to put an end to them.”
Stunned silence settled once more.
“What, the fuck?!” Faith growled.
Xander did not look the slightest bit happy. “What she said.”
“How?” Buffy said.
“That we have an answer for. Why, we don’t know, but how? By encouraging rigid adherence to council protocols, using training methods that leave the Slayer inflexible in battle, separation of the Slayer from friends and family, all but guaranteeing a sense of disconnection and hopelessness, the Cruciamentum and of course, the Council’s famous wet-works teams.”
Buffy hung her head and Faith spoke. “Man I knew there was something twisted about that test. I mean I get that sometimes you gotta have hard tests, but what are you supposed to gain from that?”
Tara put her hand up and looked a little self-conscious when all eyes turned to her. “Um, if it’s not too much trouble, what is the Cruciamentum?”
“Let me field that,” Xander said. “Basically, they get the Watcher to shoot their Slayer up with mystic tranquilizers that take away all their Slayer strength and speed. Then they dump ‘em in a box with a vampire and see who comes out. They do all this without telling the Slayer what’s going on.”
“And what is supposed to be the point of this test?” she asked Giles.
“Ah, to test the Slayers inner strength, to see if they are up to the task of fighting evil.”
“By having them fight evil without their powers? The powers that they use to fight evil?” she asked.
“Yeah, that is a bit like testing a fighter pilot by having him wrestle a cougar,” Willow said.
It went quiet.
Willow looked embarrassed. “The kind with teeth and claws? That goes ‘Rowr?’” she said, making claw shapes with her hands. “Shutting up now.”
Tara took Willow’s hand. “That seems like they are testing the Watcher more than the Slayer.”
“They were to a degree,” Giles said. “I was told it was a test of character by Quentin Travers. I was told big things were in my future after the test. And deportation, unemployment and abandonment if I didn’t go along with it.”
“He fought them,” Buffy said. “They considered him a failure for trying to end it, and they fired him.”
Giles looked away. “You give me far too much credit I’m afraid. I still performed the test. I still locked you in a house with an insane vampire, in spite of my better judgement.”
Buffy shrugged. “You still did better than every other Watcher before you. And I forgave you for that badness ages ago Giles.”
“Seriously dude, they had you brain-washed from like, the time you were in tweedy diapers. You were doing well to be able to even put up as much of a fight as you did. And you got them to cancel it for me, which I gotta say is all good.”
“I think that may be a factor of Buffy still being alive, more than them actually cancelling the test,” Giles said sadly. “Most likely they would have started up again once they were back to one Slayer, one girl they
could manipulate.”
They sat in contemplative, horrified silence.
“Guys this is crazy!” Willow blurted out, attracting a wall of surprised looks. “Look, I’m not saying this is all puppies and kittens, because it’s not, it’s definitely of the bad.”
She nibbled on her thumb, deep in thought. “There’s something missing here Scoobies, something we’re not seeing.”
“Uh Will? We’re kinda missing everything, I mean they were bad guys, right?” Xander said.
“No. Uh, I mean yes. Sort of. Um,” Willow babbled.
Tara rubbed small circles in her back, seeking to give comfort and to help her think.
“What I mean is that the way they were acting makes about as much sense as monkeys hopped up on suspicious bananas.”
Xander blinked. “Uh, I’m gonna go with ‘Huh, what?’”
Willow frowned, clearly trying to corral all the whizzing bits of her thoughts into a coherent package for delivery.
“Ok, think of it logically. The Council was doing something that made sense to them right? Evil and twisted sure, but for some serious plan-type thing.”
Slow nods greeted this idea.
“Now it doesn’t make sense that they were protecting the Slayers based on what we’ve just heard.”
More slow nods.
“But it doesn’t make sense that they wanted the Slayers gone either, otherwise they would have just arranged a series of quiet ‘accidents’ for the potentials, like they were planning for Faith.”
The light dawned in Xander’s eyes. “So you’re saying that they were too evil to be good, and not evil enough to be evil either.”
Willow bobbed her head cheerfully, until the grimness of the subject they were discussing penetrated.
“Um, yup, that’s pretty much it. They must have wanted something other than the death of the Slayers, because it would have been way too easy to um, kill off all the potentials over the centuries.”
Buffy stepped in. “So what did they want us for Will? I mean it can’t have been to fight evil, otherwise they would have helped us, you know? Paid us a wage for saving the world like Giles does, or something.”
“Mebbie they did want us to fight the vamps an’ shit, they just wanted us under their thumb. So they killed us off ‘fore we wised up and told em where to shove their stupid rules,” Faith said.
“No,” Giles said. “I have not read the codex in detail, but there is talk of a sacred duty, a calling from on high that requires the Watchers to do these things. Control was only part of it.”
All eyes focussed on him once more.
“There’s rather a lot of hyperbole, including words like corruption, purity and perversion.”
Giles fiddled with his glasses, a clear sign of nervousness. “They were peculiarly passionate about stamping out any feelings of the, ah, Sapphic persuasion,” he said with more than a trace of embarrassment.
“Huh?” said Xander. “Once more in English please, for those of us that have trouble using the brain part of the head.”
“They really didn’t like gay Slayers,” Willow translated.
Xander blinked in surprise. “Oh.”
He put his hand up hesitantly, looking as though he expected to have things thrown at him at any moment. “Um, why?”
Giles pinched his nose tiredly. “Really Xander, do try to focus on topics of more import. We have discovered that the Watchers Council have been arranging the deaths of young women almost from the beginning of time. We have more important issue to deal with than why they were a bunch of reactionary idiots as well.”
Tara spoke up. “Has anyone noticed that quite a few of the younger Slayers are gay?”
Xander and Giles looked blankly at Tara. Faith and Willow raised their hands.
All eyes turned to Faith and Buffy.
Buffy’s eyes widened. “Hey! I’m not gay!” she protested.
This gained a few raised eyebrows and a smirk from Faith. “I’m-I’m,” she stammered.
She shot a look at Giles and gathered her wits. “I’m Buffy, and I love Faith, and that’s all I care about right now," she said, hugging Faith’s arm tight to her.
Faith pressed a kiss into her hair. “S’ok B, you don’t see me in any pride parades either.”
Giles smiled slightly at the exchange and gave Buffy a small nod.
“Uh, Right. So now we have learned that Buffy is really not into Birkenstocks and flannel, what were you saying Tara?” Xander said.
Tara smiled. “Just that I’ve noticed quite a few couples in my short time here.”
“And the mini-me’s practically own the Peach,” Faith said.
More blank looks, this time with Buffy added.
Faith looked amazed. “Seriously? It’s called the Peach Pitt for crying out loud! It has a giant pink peach on the roof!”
Now everyone was having puzzled looks, except for Tara and Willow, who had cheeky looks on their faces.
Slowly, as though talking to children, Faith explained. “It’s a gay bar. Mostly for girls. They do coffee and food during the day.”
“But I go there all the time!” Xander protested.
Faith laughed. “It’s ok Xandude, they don’t check your pride membership at the door, you’re allowed to go there and still be straight,” she cocked her head at Giles. “eh G-man?”
Giles looked only slightly embarrassed. “They have a much greater respect for the rocky horror picture show there, I must say.”
This garnered a number of amazed looks.
He defended himself. “They have poetry readings, open mic nights and have an excellent selection of teas. It’s all very grown-up I assure you.”
Faith whispered to Buffy,
‘he did a reading once. Called it ‘lament of the fallen,’ something he wrote after you died. Not a dry eye in the house.’Tara looked puzzled and looked around, almost as if she was listening for something. She shook her head and gave Willow a squeeze.
“So is that a thing then? Slayers are all large with the gay love?” Xander said, carefully not looking at the blushing Buffy.
Faith shrugged. “Maybe. I hear this sorta thing happens at girls boarding schools, never been to one to find out though.”
She scratched her head thoughtfully. “About half the girls I know anything about have girlfriends. Birdie and Xena both figured we ran a gay boarding school, based on the number of gay chicks passing through the Peach. So yeah, I figure it’s probably a thing. An’ that’s without getting’ into whether they’re only into sisters, or they just ain’t fussy.”
“I’ll add it to the list,” Xander said, making squeaky noises with the marker as he put new notes on the big whiteboard.
“So we have disappearing dead people, Watchers being giant economy-sized poopy-heads and big gay Slayers to look into, along with a rebellion in heaven that we somehow got blamed for.”
“You’re getting good at this stuff Xander. Go you,” Willow said.
While Xander had been summarizing, Faith had watched Giles sink further into himself, his gaze lost and despairing.
She stepped into the circle of people and attracted everyone’s attention. “Hey guys, I think we’re forgetting something more important than evil Watcher dicks: the good Watcher guy right here.”
All eyes turned to look at Giles.
“G-man, this is some nasty crap to lay on us, but it ain’t your fault,” Faith said.
He opened his mouth to protest, but Willow forestalled him. “You didn’t know,” she said.
Tara continued smoothly on. “And if you did know, would you have been part of it?”
Giles looked horrified. “Good heavens no!”
“Then don’t go looking for guilt Giles,” Xander said, squeezing his shoulder. “No more pain. Remember?”
Dawn took his hand and squeezed it. “You have nothing to be forgiven for Giles, ok?”
He nodded. “You are right of course, but I cannot help but feel a measure of guilt by association.”
He raised his hand to stem their protestations. “One does not simply solve ones emotional problems by being told to do so, no matter how right the telling may be.”
He focused on Dawn and Xander in particular. “I will be alright. I won’t be happy for a long while, but I will survive.”
He blinked and wove slightly as if in a breeze that no one else could feel. “Ah yes, the drinking,” he said, and promptly fell into a chair with a groan.
Willow looked around worriedly. “Um, there might be one other thing,” she said. She mimed a key turning to Giles.
Sadly in his inebriated state, he could make neither head nor tail of Willow’s hand gestures.
She panicked when she saw that all eyes were on her and her somewhat suggestive hand gestures.
“Don’t worry about it! It’s not even a thing really, it’s a mini thing, a thing-ette, a thing that’s not even really a thing. Um, could we all pretend that I never said anything?”
“Uh, no?” Xander said. “C’mon Will, it’s obviously something, otherwise you wouldn’t be all spazzy like this. So come on, spill.”
“C’mon Red, let’s get alla bad crap out in one go, like a band aid or wax job y’know?” Faith said.
Willow winced and ducked her head slightly. “Promise you won’t kill me?” she said, looking at Buffy.
“Me?! Why are you looking at me Will?” Buffy said, looking puzzled. “You didn’t wreck my favourite top did you?”
Willow shook her head. “Nu-uh, no purpley stuff, I promise!”
Buffy, looked puzzled for a moment before the light dawned. “Purple-y stuff? I thought it was Dawn who wrecked my peasant top!”
She scowled at Willow. “Purple is sooo not my colour.”
“Which neatly segues us onto our topic: fun things to do with Dawn.”
“What?! When did this become about me?” Dawn protested.
“Um, remember ages ago when you were really grumpy ‘cos you didn’t have any superpowers? Well, um. To-da! It turns out that you do.”
Buffy frowned. “Dawn has super powers? Is being annoying a super power now?”
“I have super powers?” Dawn said, blinking in surprise. “Cool! Can I fly?”
Willow frowned. “Why does everyone always go for flight?”
“Ah Will? Can you fly?” Xander asked.
“Well yes, but-”
“And can Tara fly?” he prodded.
“Well yes, but-”
“With you two as our examples, I rest my case,” Xander said with a grin.
“So I can fly?” Dawn asked excitedly.
“No, no one’s flying!” Willow huffed.
“Just so you know, this doesn’t sound very super. The power of not-flying seems pretty sad.”
“Well you can open locks, how does that sound?” Willow said.
“Why would I want that as a power? No-one around here ever locks anything. It’s not a whole lot of use.”
Giles interjected at this point, the confusion in the explanation giving his brain time to catch up.
“It’s not that no one ever locks anything Dawn. Many things around here are in fact very locked indeed, they just open for you. Like my locked and magically warded safe.”
“Also the office door, the sanctuary door and the civil defence shelter door,” Willow added.
Dawn’s eyes got big. “Ohhh,” as the light went on.
“Is that because she used to be the Key?” Buffy asked.
Willow cringed slightly. “Um, no. It’s because she still is.”
Dawn sighed dramatically. “Existential angst here we come.”
Buffy's voice snapped. “What! Will, you can’t be serious! We left that Key stuff behind years ago!”
“Sorry Buff, Glory is dead and the conjunction she needed to use Dawn is long gone, but Dawn is still Dawn, and still the Key.”
Dawn sighed. “Does this mean someone’s going to come after me to open some other portal? ‘cos I have to say, that part of my life was all suckage.”
Willow brightened. “Actually I have good news on that front.”
“Pretty people from around the world will flock to Diamond Falls to worship at my feet?” Dawn said innocently.
“Um, nope, not unless you release an album, or star in a movie about sparkly vampires. No, Giles and I have been doing some research. Well really Giles has, but I helped a little.”
Giles spoke up softly. “Glory predated the written word, which is why it was so hard to find anything useful on her. The Key is older still, so old that almost nothing is known, by anyone.”
“And yet I still get carded. I want my driver’s licence changed to show my real age,” Dawn grumbled.
“You wanna be ancient?” Willow asked, slightly worried.
“When nine hundred years you reach, look as good, you will not,” Dawn quipped. “I could make a killing selling moisturiser.”
“So what I'm trying to say, in between y’know, outbreaks of random silliness,” Willow continued. “is that it’s pretty unlikely that anyone is going to come after you about this.”
“Yay me. I'm totally over that phase where everyone keeps trying to kidnap me. Now I'm all Grrr! And I have weapons,” Dawn said miming stabby things and shooting.
“There’s more good news,” Willow said.
Dawn smiled. “It’s like Christmas again, only rather than tiny Jewish Santa bringing gifts for me to unwrap, I get the gift of not-kidnapping.”
“Remember when you had that bad time with the ‘am I real’ thing?”
At this, Tara silently reached out and squeezed Dawn’s hand, giving a supportive smile as she did so. Dawn held on to the silent support.
“Ugh, not likely to forget that. I still have some faint scars from that whole deal.”
“Well Giles has been looking into the whole thing after he started to wonder about the whole Key... thing.”
“Um, right? This was good news you said?”
“Yup. Giles looked into the spell the monks in Bohemia supposedly cast to turn the Key you into you and plant you in our lives.”
“Supposedly? That’s a worry-word,” Dawn said.
“Well, memory is kinda fuzzy at the best of times, and is kinda easy to mess with, as I have unfortunate experience with,” Willow said looking around guiltily.
Tara gave her a reassuring hug, and after a pause to appreciate the hug, Willow continued.
“Um, a spell to alter the memories of hundreds or even thousands of people across the world would be truly epic in scale and power. And to do that to people you had no contact with or connection to, would be impossible. And it wasn’t just memories, you had stuff, pictures and little knickknacks, like that pebble with the hole in it you got from the beach. Little things like that.”
Dawn looked worried and glanced at Tara for support, receiving a squeeze in return.
“There’s no spell to do that. No spell in the world can create a life from whole cloth Dawnie. It’s not just a matter of power, it’s also a matter of complexity. A spell might hold for a day or two, but not years,” Willow said.
Giles picked up the explanation. “Any attempt at a spell of that magnitude, even a failed attempt, would be felt throughout the magical world. The power unleashed by Tara’s return was felt across the globe. If the spell that Willow is describing were possible, it would be felt by every living thing. And it wasn’t.”
“Uh, what are you saying here Willow, um, Giles?”
Giles smiled. It was a genuine smile despite his inebriated state. “My dear, I am saying that you are real and always have been. The spell to create your existence from nothing does not exist. It is doubtful that even the gods would be able to do such a thing.”
Buffy interrupted. “Wait, so what did I see when Will cast that true seeing spell on me?”
“The truth at that time, Buffy. Dawn has always been real, at least now she has. Simply put, reality has been re-written. Once you were an only child. Now, Dawn has always existed.” He took his glasses off to give them a polish, a clear sign that he was thinking.
“Dawn’s life is every bit as real as yours is Buffy, the only difference is that it was not always that way.”
Dawn held up her hand as though she were in class. “Um, yay for me being real and so on, but if I can ask a dumb question... who did this?”
“And who would have the power to do this?” Tara added.
“And why?” Buffy chipped in.
Giles sighed. “I'm sorry girls, I do not know the answers to any of those questions. Information on the key is almost non-existent.”
He looked up. “I am, to my knowledge, the foremost authority on the key, in all the world. And I know very little indeed.”
The group sat in silence for a while. The silence threatened to become uncomfortable.
“So we go and get some information,” Dawn finally said.
“Huh? From who? I thought Giles just got through telling us no-one knows anything?” Xander asked.
“Not from who, from where. Giles, you said those monks were from Romania, how about we go there and get some answers?” Dawn said.
“The Czech Republic actually, formerly known as Bohemia, but close enough I suppose.”
“Right, so we go to the land of checkers and do some digging. With any luck we can find some books or surviving monks or some clues as to what was going on, besides ‘Glory: Bad.’”
Silence abounded.
“Yeah, so I'm gonna go ahead an’ say it. That’s the best plan I heard in a while. At least since Andy-Pandy came up with the idea of hooking the x-box up to the giant screen in the war-room,” Faith said.
“What! You can’t be serious?” Buffy protested.
“G-man? How long you been researching this key biz?” Faith asked.
“Off and on for the past two years.”
“And?”
“I have found nothing new.”
Faith nudged Buffy's shoulder with her own. “There ya go B. If research guy can’t find it in two years, it can’t be found. Goin’ to where the key was kept for alla them years seems like a good move.”
Willow perked up. “Think of it like an exciting Scooby adventure overseas.”
Buffy frowned. “Who were you thinking of bringing on this holiday?”
Dawn interrupted. “I was thinking of asking Willow and Tara to help me.” She frowned as Buffy started to protest. “You can come too, if you like.”
“Dawn there’s no way I'm going to let you go off to some dangerous old monastery in some crazy country where all the locals are called ‘Vlad’,” Buffy said in a very determined tone of voice.
Dawn looked annoyed. “Buffy, you don’t get it. I am going to the Czech Republic, whether you like it or not. If you behave yourself, I'll let you come too.”
Finally the words penetrated Buffy's armour of big-sisterly concern. “You’ll
let me come?!”
Faith groaned and closed her eyes, mentally bracing herself for the blast.
Xander winced.
Dawn’s expression was utterly unyielding, her own version of ‘resolve face.’
“What were you expecting? For me to wait here, while you go to the only place in the world that has any connection to me?”
Buffy's own expression was similarly resolute. “It’s not safe, and I don’t want you in danger.”
Dawn folded her arms and looked down at Buffy. “No Buffy. That’s not your decision to make.”
Both Summers girls glared at each other with absolutely unyielding expressions. The silence dragged on, no one being insane enough to get between two sisters having a row of this magnitude.
The answer to the age old question ‘What happens when an irresistible force meets an immovable object?’ was apparently: ‘everyone nearby gets really uncomfortable.’
Tara sighed, and smiled just a little. Really this was business as usual for the Summers sisters. More than almost any other thing, this convinced her that she was truly home, playing peacemaker to the sisters.
“Um, Buffy? Dawn didn’t say you couldn’t come, just that she’s coming too. So why not come with us and make sure she’s safe?”
While Buffy was chewing on that, Tara spoke softly to Dawn. “Dawn, you know how crazy with worry Buffy gets when it comes to you, maybe take your fighting things with you so you’ll be safer?”
Dawn raised an eyebrow as she stared at Buffy. “So, you coming or what?”
Tara gave her a mildly disapproving look. “I don’t think that’s helping, Dawn.”
Dawn met Tara’s gaze levelly. “I know Tara. I’m sorry if it makes you uncomfortable, but this is about establishing my place in the world.”
“Hey!” Buffy protested.
“Buffy, you died so I wouldn’t have to, and that messed you up in ways that took years to heal. I will always be grateful and I will always love your overprotective streak. But that doesn’t mean you get to control my life, it’s mine to risk if I choose.”
Buffy continued to glare fiercely at Dawn, but the tenor of the look had subtly shifted from Buffy's ‘implacable glare’ to Buffy's ‘annoyed at losing an argument’ glare.
“God, I wonder if this is how mom felt?” she huffed.
Dawn smiled slightly, magnanimous in victory. “Probably.”
Buffy slumped, Faith poked her in the butt with the toe of her boot. “Gotta let ‘em grow up some time. Now’s as good a time as any.”
“Fine, but I'm going to the Republic place with you, if only to stop you doing horrible things to the locals sense of fashion.”
Dawn grinned. “Deal.”
Xander opened his eyes cautiously and un-scrunched his face, surprised that the room was not in ruins. “I’d say, ‘let’s all go Bohemia’, but we can’t all go. Vampires are starting to show up in town way more often, and more are rising from local graves.”
“There are plenty of Slayers to handle that particular detail Xander, but we cannot have the entire structure of the new Council simply up and vanish for a week. If Dawn is going to be overseas and likely Willow as well, I can’t simply have you disappear with them.”
Xander pouted. “Nuts. I was looking forward to a bit of overseas spy-stuff.”
“I don’t doubt that there will be other adventures,” Giles said gently.
He looked at Tara. “I imagine if Willow is going, you will be as well?”
Tara smiled and nodded.
“I imagine the same goes for you Faith?”
“Oh hell yes. You couldn’t pry me from B’s side with a crowbar and a gallon of lube.”
Giles grimaced. “Thank you for that charming visual.”
“No prob, watcher-boy.”
“Ignoring the issues of the entire council going off on an adventure, I don’t think it’s wise to send any more people. The local folk are likely to think it an invasion as it is.”
Tara spoke up. “Five’s about right for this sort of thing. Any less and there’s no backup, any more and you lose cohesion.”
All eyes turned to Tara.
“Um, sorry? Did I say something wrong.”
“Check you out Blondie! Wearing big sister’s clothes,” Faith said.
Shrugging her shoulders and smiling shyly, Tara said. “Two years. Other world. Life of adventure and mayhem. You pick things up eventually.”
She chuckled. “Just be glad my other friends aren’t here, they’d just wade in and shout at everyone, or maybe steal their stuff.”
“So, how do we find this chequered monastery?” Buffy asked.
“I can scry for it,” Tara said. “It shouldn’t be too hard to find, which will save us quite a lot of time on recon, then maybe Willow can teleport us there?”
Willow grinned cheerfully and muttered “Cool monster fighter,” before absorbing what Tara had said. “Um, maybe. Teleporting isn’t an easy spell, but if I can see the location in your scrying, it should be a bit easier.”
She frowned. “Probably easier than trying to smuggle a bunch of weapons and stuff into an eastern European country though.”
Willow smiled as she realized it would be her and Tara’s first spell together in quite a while.
Tara’s return smile was radiant.
Willow basked in her smile until she realized that everyone was grinning at her dopey expression.
“Um, well, anyway it’s going to take a few days to pin down the location, gather supplies and cast the teleport spell. I’ve never done one for a group before, so I'm going to need all the stinky herbs and stuff. I figure we’ve got a couple of days before we are ready to go.”
Buffy brightened. “Plenty of time for a shopping trip!” she chirped.
A number of ‘looks’ were exchanged between the Scoobies.
Buffy protested. “Hey! Don’t be like that, I'm not obsessed with shopping. That’s Cordelia, not Buffy. Plus Tara can’t keep borrowing other people’s stuff, she’s home now, she needs her own stuff.”
“Oo-oo!” Willow said waving her arms around excitedly. “I also have to fix up her ID and stuff, ‘cos she’s all with the legally dead and stuff. Imagine explaining that the police if you ever get pulled over.”
Tara smiled at the excitement visible in the two friends. Faith caught her eye and grinned.
“That’s a lotta ‘stuff,’” Faith said.
“Actually Willow, I wanted to talk to you about that,” She said, her expression turning solemn. “I don’t want to be Tara Maclay anymore.”
Willow looked shocked. “What!”
“The artist formerly known as Tara?” Buffy quipped.
“The Maclay side of my former family caused me nothing but pain and heartache, for most of my life. They had me convinced I was a demon from the time I was a child, dominated my life completely, and no-one helped me when I was hurting.” She looked down at her feet for a moment, a flash of the shy girl she once was.
When she looked up her gaze was calm, confidant, perhaps a touch determined. “I don’t want to be a Maclay anymore.”
Her face lit with a wry half-smile. “I think one day not too far away, I might change my name again, but in the meantime I'm done with ‘Maclay.’”
She sent on her private line to Willow,
‘Sweetie, does Tara Rosenberg sound ok?’ she sent tentatively.
Willow gasped.
The Scoobies knew something was up, Willow’s smile was radiant with joy, even though her eyes were glittering with tears.
She flung herself at Tara and engulfed her in a hug as huge as possible for a delicately built woman.
Faith whispered to Buffy,
‘Think I know what happened there.’Buffy gave her a puzzled look as Willow and Tara embraced fiercely.
‘Later Hon, I'll explain later,’ she said with an affectionate one-armed hug.
Willow and Tara appeared to be attempting to become one being, so tight was their embrace. And they showed no desire to stop any time soon.
The Scoobies stood around looking slightly puzzled, with the exception of Faith. Faith had a knowing smile on her face, cute dimples and all.
After the pair separated from their bone-crushing embrace Xander cleared his throat. “So I'm gonna go ahead and look like a dummy again but, uh, what were we talking about?”
“We were talking about names Xander. I had just said that I didn’t want to be a Maclay anymore.”
“Then the rampant huggage broke out,” Buffy added helpfully.
Were you thinking of your mom’s maiden name ‘O Lehane?’ ‘cos I have a story to tell you about that.”
“’Ó Liatháin,’ but you were pretty close.”
“What’s your story Xander?” Tara asked.
He smiled. “Too much to tell right now,” he said smiling. “But your story is a bit shorter, or at least the bit I found is.”
All eyes looked at him expectantly.
“Ah, right. I should make with the ‘splaining then. So, given that I can’t pronounce Tara’s mom’s name to save myself, and to me it sounds like ‘Lehane’ I wondered if maybe you and Faith were distant cousins or something.”
Faith looked quite surprised and gave Tara a measuring look. The object of her scrutiny looked back and quirked an eyebrow. “I guess I could handle dangling Snow White here from my family tree. Might spruce it up a bit, y’know?”
Tara smiled and turned to Xander. “What did you find? Are we cousins after all?”
Xander scratched the back of his head ruefully. “Uh, I have no idea yet. I only just started looking. The story is more about Faith I guess.”
“So what did you find about Faith, Xander?” Willow asked.
Faith grumbled. “Not feeling too great about you poking into my past X-man.”
Xander held up his hands in surrender. “I know, and I'm sorry. I was just trying to find out if you were related to Tara, ok?”
“Xander!” Buffy said sharply, cutting through the grumbling. “For the love of puppies and kittens! What did you find about Faith?”
“Oh! Uh, right. So I was looking through birth certificates and stuff in government databases, trying to find out which Lehane family was the right one, when I found something a bit wiggy.”
“Wow, Xander. You a hacker now too?” Faith asked.
He grinned. “Nope. Will did the hacking thing, I just looked through the databases she hacked. So anyhoo, I found a birth certificate for you, complete with very cute footprint.”
Buffy grinned hugely at this and poked Faith in the side.
“But the weird thing is this,” he said holding up a print copy of the sheet. “You’re Faith Lehane alright, but your mom’s name is listed as Sharon Green. It looks as though you got your name from your dad.”
He handed Faith the sheet and Buffy looked curiously over her shoulder. “Ohmigod! You’re older than me! By like 3 months!”
Faith gave her a weird look, but turned back to the page. “This is whack. My Da’s name is Dave, not uh… Owen.”
She frowned. “Ma told me more than once. The way she used to sleep around, I always used to wonder y’know?”
She turned to Tara. “Any Owens in your family, T?”
Tara’s brow furrowed in thought. “Not that I know of. Though my family was not the most talkative about family issues.”
Tara rubbed her nose thoughtfully. “I had an uncle Owain I think. Mom used to talk about him sometimes when things were bad. They stopped talking before I was born. I, um, don’t know why.”
“I wonder why Ma lied? I mean, I figured she changed her name when she married my step-da. But why lie about it? I mean I never met Dave OR Owen, so why bother?”
They all sat in silence for a time, puzzling over the possible reasons.
Finally Faith broke the silence. “Fuck it. Hey Blondie? Wanna be my cuz?”
Tara stifled a giggle at the bizarre question and bobbed her head cheerfully. “I think I like my new family members a lot more than my old ones,” she said, gesturing around at the assembled friends.
Faith grinned. “Now you guys hafta like me, ‘cos I'm related to Snow White over here.”
Buffy rolled her eyes. “Goof.”
“Hey Will, how are you going for getting us to the land of garlic and unpronounceable names?” Buffy said.
“I think I have most of the stinky herbs and crystals for the teleport spell already. I just need to check my books for the spell details and practice it a bit before we go, then it’s eastern Europe, here we come,” Willow said.
“Then doctor Buffy prescribes shopping, for both furniture, stylish yet affordable clothes, and knickknacks for Tara’s space.”
“Birkenstocks?” Faith said, smirking.
Buffy rolled her eyes in response. “If you like. I still want some warm footwear though, this is Colorado, not southern California. They have actual weather here, Faith.”
Faith’s smirk didn’t fade.
Buffy brightened. “Hey I know! Tara, your new car has a really big trunk, could you take us into town for the trip?”
Tara bobbed her head cheerfully. “I can do that. Why? Were you planning to come back with the whole town?”
Buffy shook her head cheerfully, her blonde hair swishing about energetically. “Nope. Half will do, hence the need for significant trunkage.”
“Plus we get to take a spin in your wicked ride,” Faith added.
“Neat!” Buffy chirped. “I haven’t seen the Tara-mobile yet.”
“Winona. Her name is Winona,” Tara said.
“And she’s bad-
ass B,” Faith chimed in.
“Whee! Mochas and muscle cars, tomorrow’s going to be fun!” Willow chirped.
“Witches on wheels, awesome.”
“You don’t mean ‘wicked?’” Tara said with a little smile.
Faith shook her head. “Too many wubble-you’s”
“C’mon B, time for bed an’ snuggles an’ alla that healthy relationship stuff.”
Faith held out her hand to Buffy and hauled her to her feet.
Buffy gave Faith a speculative look, before scooping her up and carrying her off in the direction of her room.
“Night guys,” she called over her shoulder.
Faith's expression was filled with surprise. “Wow, check you out B. All large with the butch now?”
Buffy rolled her eyes. “I don’t mind you manhandling me, or woman-handling as the case may be. But now it’s my turn. So I'm carrying you off to bed.”
Faith smirked, secure in Buffy's arms. “Baby you can woman-handle me all night.”
Buffy smiled shyly, looking down and flushing pink. “Alright.”
Faith looked shocked, her smirk vanishing. “Really?”
Buffy blushed, but nodded.
Faith looked uncomfortable. “Uh, B? I didn’t mean to put ya on the spot or nothin’. I was just having a little fun teasing ya.”
“I know,” Buffy said, her shy smile still in place. “It’s ok, I don’t mind the teasing.”
She climbed the stairs with Faith in her arms. “If I hadn’t gotten used to it yet, it’s a bit late to start complaining now.”
Buffy stopped in the Scooby lounge, still holding Faith to her. “Faith? If it’s ok with you... could you take me to bed and... and show me how to love you?” Buffy said, her voice halting.
Faith nuzzled cat-like into the soft spot below Buffy's ear. “If you do the same for me babe. I... I never loved anyone before B. Show me how not to screw it up?”
Buffy smiled softly. “We... we can learn together.”
“Ya mean...” Faith trailed off.
Buffy nodded slowly. “I mean. Ok?”
Faith nodded, and Buffy carried her across the threshold into her bedroom.
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