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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby Azirahael » Tue May 28, 2013 6:18 pm

Dib!

Typo i think: "Tint" in the next to last sentence.

I always figure the wand separated the two 'parts' of anyone it hit.

Thus you get the war-machine SLAYER and the tiny blonde girl.
the slayer is minus all the intelligence and people skills, and thus easy to sucker into traps, but mainly, the girl is easy to kill.
Kill her, the Slayer dies too. job done.

Unfortunately, it hit Xander, who doesn't have a nice clean 'fault line' in his being, so you got Spazzy-Xander and Cool-Xander as a sort of side effect.

I was expecting Girl-Willow and Dark Magic-Willow.
The vulnerable girl and the like-unto-a-goddess power and confidence.

Or maybe confident Straight-Willow and vulnerable Gay-Willow.
Now THAT would have lead to some quality awkward moments.

I always liked the TOS Star Trek approach to this: the two kirks were pretty much the same, but as time went by, they started to adapt to not having the other side of their personalities and become more extreme, to the degree that they were in danger of getting dead after a few days.

I guessing you ran out of time?
I mean it was nicely put together, but then POP! done.
Like, maybe even more than canon.

Not, like, bad, but a little jarring.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby Azirahael » Tue May 28, 2013 6:28 pm

P.S: Actually, now that i think of it, the whole 'zap the slayer to kill her' bit makes no sense.

To split the slayer, you have to zap her with the magical bolt thrower, no mean feat.

If you can do that, why not zap her with bullets?
Or fire/lightning/whatever, if you are hell bent on using magic.

Might make sense if you wanted to capture her essence or some crazy, magic-y thing.

Um.

done now. :moo
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Wed May 29, 2013 2:13 pm

One advantage to this over the episode; the problem with CoolXander was, while he was legitimately there in earlier characterization, it had been so subtle before that it was easy to see that version as a demonic counterfeit. Willow's personality traits are pretty obviously aspetcs of canon-Willow. Of coruse I ahve 9 seaosns of hindsight here.

Personally, if the preferences had been different, Green Willow owuld more likely have been straihgt, altho Azirahel's notion would've been more fun. Good you didn't go there, IMnsHO.

the closest i came to any splits in my fics (not a Penns one!) was two alternate diemnsion versions of an unamed Hispanic SLayer meeting at an interdimensional watering hole. They didn't stay in the bar but tooka room together upstairs and I did *not* go into details, but an Alterna-Tara said they were fulfilling a lifelong dream.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby Katharyn » Thu May 30, 2013 11:36 am

So... I wouldn't disagree with your assessment of what the wand was supposed to do, Azirahael, but I still think it sucks as a plan. Needlessly complicated (like you said in your second post) In truth the whole, entire point of the wand (in canon) was to make use of the fact the actor had an identical twin brother. End of. LOL

I see what you mean about Willow, but I'd never go near DMW because I refuse to accept that whole thing along with the rest of Season Sux. Hey, it's me!

Your Trek mirror universe (? I think it is called) analogy is a nice one had I thought about it, but to be honest I'd have had to spend way more time on this episode than I cared to. No, I didn't run out of time, I wrote it months ago and this has been about 16 months so far!! I just never much cared for the episode. The rules said something should happen so it did. Then it got fixed :) I can see jarring and that's not ideal, but you know I can linger if I want to.

Maybe I just did it a normal person would :)

Daddcatalso - Hindsight is wonderful, I will agree :)

If I'd had the good idea and the inclination (of which I had neither) Mirror Trek would've been more interesting (to me) but we're moving right along ;) We have plenty to do even though - as you point out - there's all sorts of fun you can have with this stuff. It's classic sci-fi ground.

It occurs to me now I could've done VW some how, but that would really break from canon... Ah well, nevermind. Next part tomorrow :)

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby JustSkipIt » Fri May 31, 2013 4:25 am

I'm caught up! I don't even know the last time I commented. I love seeing Hope as Faith's sister. I did that in a story as well (but left her name Dawn). They have a fun dynamic here. Everyone seems to be greatly mellowing - particularly Buffy and Faith. I'm very impressed with them all. I'm looking forward to Tara's birthday and wondering which Slayer will throw herself into the void if either...
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri May 31, 2013 8:44 am

Heya, Justskipit.

You WERE all caught up. I'm just about to post another part :)

Hee

I'm pleased Hope is working for you, it's weird how all that comes together. The plan never had all this in. Faith wasn't supposed to stick around this long. Hope wasn't ever her sister (though I knew I couldn't face dealing with Dawn!)

And yeah... if you think of the structure of the season (and the arc from when Faith comes into S4) then this is kind of the calm before the storm for everyone. It was important to settle Faith/Buffy down. They'll never be best friends but... Hope helps here I think. Neither of them is as selfish with her involved.

Tara's birthday... I was just doing part prep on parts 99 and 100 this morning. That's the tail end of 'Family' :)

As to your final comment... You can't expect me to say, can you?

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 86- 05/31/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri May 31, 2013 9:37 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Six
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: Where we see what happens when ‘Out of my mind’ doesn’t have any of its major characters still in play…
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: Well, we’re now at ‘Out of my mind’ and the observant reader will have noticed a few problems with that episode in terms of what we’ve got going here. Since I never bothered with bringing Riley and Buffy together (and his replacement Eddie really isn’t bemoaning his lack of super-soldier status), I killed Spike (by dog!)/Harmony (earlier than I remembered) and oh, yes and Hope Lehane isn’t Dawn Summers… all of the main storylines from the canon have pretty much been neutered. But I don’t see this as a problem… 
What it does let me do is have some freedom to bring in things we’ve not touched on for a while, as well as a couple of moments from that episode that I don’t want to do without (hands up if you can guess what one of them is) Also to show (in the ‘episode’ rather than this chapter) the relationship between Hope and Joyce is actually there, as I hoped I touched on in the past few parts. Finally, as you will see, we can also touch on some of the nature of ‘the Key’ that otherwise wouldn’t be revealed within the story due to the limitations on Tara and Willow’s PoV. (Big limitation there when you think about how things are shown in the canon.)
So this is just around the time of ‘Out of my mind’ but isn’t really that episode. So much.
Thanks to: The person who said ‘if you hate Dawn so much, do without her.’ Oh, that was me  Or my writing alter-ego at least. Of course, if it turns out you really hate Hope or loved Dawn then I’m screwed… because we’re stuck with this now. Umm… look at it this way, without Tara, Faith wouldn’t have been trusted with the Key. So really, it’s all about Tara. Like Hope now?



“Isn’t it a beautiful night?” Willow asked, gazing happily up at the night sky and then even more happily at her girl who was holding her hand as they walked.

“Nothing but the sound of crickets and vampire slayage,” Tara commented.

“Pfft, don’t worry about that, we’re trying to have a moment here. Just look at the stars and let the rest of the world slip by.”

“Moment. Check.”

Okay, so Buffy and Faith were beating on a gang of vampires that had stolen a heart transplant delivery in the mistaken belief that a heart had to be full of blood and that – somehow – it would somehow still be beating and so would taste better than your usual bag ‘o blood take out. Ummm, no. Only in an Indiana Jones movie did that happen.

Not the smartest cookies in the box, that was for sure, but it was giving the Slayers a real workout since there were so many of them in the gang and they were beefy guys and girls too.

Of the heart there was, regrettably, no sign but they’d never supposed they’d be able to return it. Since Faith and Buffy had it all under control, she was happy just to stroll pleasantly. The other two would catch them up when they were ready. Cemeteries really were the place to get away from it all – at least when you had a couple of Slayers on hand to take care of the noisy neighbours.

“So…” Willow started.

Tara knew her well enough to be wary of that tone, of course. How she’d let the word just hang there. Pregnant with possibilities. “Hmm?”

“It really never crossed your mind to take both of me home?” She was still wearing Hope’s red and green scrunchies on her wrist. Both of them. She’d take them off eventually, but they were useful things to have around and her hair wasn’t near long enough again to need them - even if Tara had expressed an opinion in favour of seeing her like that. But then Tara would’ve said ‘yes, I’d love to see you that way’ if she’d wondered about shaving it all off. That was just what Tara did.

Looked to the bright side of all possibilities.

Wants me.

“Aww, baby. Are you going to let this drop anytime soon?” Tara wondered.

“I’m sure your mother taught you not to answer a question with a question,” Willow said, determined to have her answer. Whatever it was. As far as she was concerned it might go to some good natured teasing on Tara’s birthday, not so far away now either. The first one they’d spend together too.

And later on… some teasing of a different kind. Maybe something involving mirrors… She’d been reading about mirrors and fun with mirrors and – yeah.

“Well…”

“You did! You absolutely did! You hussy!”

“No!” Tara objected. “Of course I thought about it – I had to, what if – what if we’d not been able to put you back together? And I guess it crossed my mind when Anya kept going on about it – you know the… sexy part. Except it wouldn’t have been very sexy. Not to me.”

“I don’t know, you forget, I’ve been face to face with a leather clad, inappropriate version of myself before,” Willow said. “Know what I realised?”

“Go on…”

“I have wandering hands.”

Tara grinned. “Yes, you do. But… I wouldn’t have.”

“But you know, if we were ever going to have a threesome,” Willow said. “That’d be the only acceptable way it’d ever happen.”

“You think that’s acceptable?” Tara asked, pulling a face.

“Umm… no,” she said. The tone of Tara’s voice pretty much demanded what was plainly the ‘right’ answer. Being a good girlfriend, as she was always keen to be. Just because she’d considered the possibilities and thought she could cope with the idea of both of her playing with Tara – but not with each other – didn’t make her a bad girlfriend.

And it wouldn’t even have been cheating. Not for her. Not for Tara.

“What makes you think I want a threesome anyway?” Tara asked.

This wasn’t going the way it was supposed to. Another ‘right answer’ was required. Trouble was, she wasn’t sure that there was a ‘right answer’ with the way that the question had been put. “I don’t – I mean – I was just saying that if there was – you know – ever – maybe – a time and a way and if if things had stayed the way they were – then – well - ”

“Neither of them was you, Willow.”

Oh. That.

It did let her off the hook though. Now she could follow up with a theory question that was never ever going to happen. At least, she was pretty sure it wouldn’t. Recent events though… and this being Sunnydale, and all…

Never say never.

Maybe this was the sort of thing a well-prepared Sunnydale girlfriend should know and have discussed before it came up?

“What if I’d been copied? Like, there was two of me. Exactly as I am now. Perfect in every way - obviously. Knowing what I know, feeling what I feel?” Since they were talking hypotheticals, let’s take the variables out of there. That was what scientific method was all about.

Tara thought about it. “A perfect copy?”

“Uhuh – one hundred percent real.”

“Okay… maybe, then, in that one case – maybe then I’d take them both home.”

“Really?”

“Well, one of you could be doing the housework while the other was in bed with me.”

“Really? That’s all?”

Of course a vampire chose that moment to get in their way and confront them. “Couldn’t you just wait one minute?” Willow complained to it. And there was no Slayer in sight. So they were going to get all mussed before they did a spell that would… do something.

And then there was no need.

A low growl heralded the arrival of something dark, short haired and massive… Surprisingly agile too. The vampire screamed as it was torn apart by the two dogs and it only eventually ended when enough pieces had been removed.

Diana.

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Tara was fussing over Callisto, trying to get the large animal – now covered in a light sprinkling of desiccated vampire – to show her the injuries she’d picked up somewhere along the way.

Jupiter was little better, though he wasn’t actually limping. When the chips were down though, they’d sprang into action and been just as deadly as ever. It was just that the dogs looked like they’d joined Diana in a war and come out the other side.

Diana herself still looked immaculate, just as she did when she’d been running through the trees and mud and battling creatures. She was a Goddess, after all. The Goddess, from her point of view. But she also looked… fatigued. And that was entirely new. Something about the eyes, as much as anything else.

She looked… older.

Older than immortal. Older than the girl she appeared to be.

“Callisto will recover, Tara Maclay. The extension of your worry to her is without cause or merit.”

“Sometimes I just like to worry,” Tara said, stroking the dog that seemed to appreciate the attention even if she was going to be okay. After all, all three of them had just saved she and Willow from having to figure out how to deal with a vampire on their own. They’d have gotten there eventually but… this had been easier.

“And worry you should.”

“What happened?” Willow asked before she could.

“The Titan, Prometheus, gave fire to the mortal world and for his kindness he was punished, his entrails pecked at by vultures every day since from then to now.”

“Umm.”

“The days of Zeus are long past and today men have set themselves up as Gods,” Diana continued.

“Right. But… is there – could you just – maybe - tell us what happened?”

Diana looked around her, but it looked like she was reaching out with more of her senses than that. Tara had seen the look before, when she was on the hunt. But… the dogs were quiescent, not even bothering with the cluster of vampires that Buffy and Faith were still doing just fine with thank you very much.

“There is something new,” Diana said finally. “New to this place. I can feel it.”

“Umm, not really. Nothing I noticed. Did you notice anything, Will?”

“The maternity unit, there’ll be something new there – there usually is. And… a new coffee shop opened. Did you want coffee? They do stay open later than most of the others, but for me Café Roulin is still the best - .”

Shops, Tara realised. “There’s a new magic store, you remember Mister Giles? He’s opened a new store. That’s new…”

“Find it.” Diana said, shaking her head. Not a store then. “Whatever it is. Find it. Hide it.”

“Umm, okay…” Tara looked at her girlfriend, confused, but apparently they were to receive no further direction than that and could both be confused together.

“Find something new?” Willow asked. “If she starts asking for something borrowed and something blue, I’m not being a bridesmaid.”

Tara was more worried about what they were supposed to hide. And why?

And why them rather than Diana?

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With her eyes firmly opened for ‘something new’ – but when did she walk around with her eyes closed (though there once had been the blindfold, but no walking that night) – Willow tacked up another of the fliers that Giles had given them.

He was looking to take advantage of the student dollar.

‘The Magic Box – All your magic needs. In a box.’

Personally she was all for keeping the amateurs from causing trouble and not selling them anything that – you know – might go towards opening up a Hellmouth or something apocalyptic. But he said he had that under control and you had to trust an Englishman just because of the accent, so… fliers.

“Oooh!”

“I told you, don’t keep pushing them into hard surfaces,” Buffy said to her.

“I have a sore thumb.”

“Well, I’m sure Tara will suck it for you,” Buffy said, without a hint of anything but good humour.

“Go on,” she said. Resigned to it, and kind of curious what it would be too.

“Go on, what?”

“Go on, say it. Add it in… get the obligatory lesbian joke in there.”

“There’s a lesbian joke?” Buffy asked, confused.

“There’s one that’s just begging to be told. It’s okay, I don’t mind,” Willow promised.

“Will, I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Oh… right. Never mind then. Faith would’ve known.”

“Well, you can write what Faith knows on the back of a postcard. And most of its about sex. So, this joke, if you want to tell it though, you go right ahead. I can wait.”

“No, I never put Tara together with – well, that other word. Not unless, sometimes we say it… to each other and all but - ”

“What word?” Buffy asked, confused.

“Rhymes with ‘suck’?” Willow blushed.

“You thought I was going to say… Oh, come on! When would I ever say that about you and Tara?”

“Anya would’ve…” Willow said, pouting.

“Anya did Dracula. And with his brides too…” Buffy pointed out.

Willow supposed that made Xander’s girlfriend only a little more… flexible than Buffy’s watcher then, but they’d all promised not to talk about that anymore hadn’t they? With a theatrical shrug, she determined that now was the time to change the subject. “Let’s get back to the part where you were engaging me in academic discussion,” she said hopefully.

“Kind of dull, Will,” Buffy said.

“No! No to dull! Not dull at all! You were – you didn’t think it was dull while we were having coffee! You were fully engaged, you were laughing about learning. Oh, Buffy, I’ve been waiting for you to have those kinds of conversations with me since… forever. Since forever, okay? I gave up on Xander in third grade and for a while there Jesse looked like he might be the one. But then… there you were, all shiny and new.”

“You’re not building up to professing undying love, are you?” Buffy asked. “Because you know I’m not that kind of girl and… I think Tara might have something to say about it. She might turn me into something.”

Willow grinned, wondering if she should play it that way – just for giggles. But no… This was a serious point.

“She won’t mind, just so long as I’m only after your mind,” Willow said, winking.

“Hmm, intellectual cheating on our boyfriend and girlfriend?”

“Oh, no,” Willow corrected. “I have these conversations with Tara all the time.”

“That’s what makes it cheating,” Buffy pointed out.

“Oh… right. Yeah. But, you were my first big hope,” Willow said. “I didn’t even think of engaging Tara in intellectual debate until years after I met you. You could say you’re my obsession.”

“Well, if you promise Tara won’t turn me into a frog, because I’ve seen what happens to frogs in biology,” Buffy said, putting an arm through hers when it was offered.

“No, not a frog.”

“Wait, you mean she might turn me into something else?”

“Well, she doesn’t actually have a frog spell, I’ve never seen anyone who has – not really. Frogs are… harder. Because it means changing more about you than say a racoon.”

“She can turn me into a racoon?!”

“Not easily,” Willow said quickly. Trying to be reassuring. “But… yeah. She probably could. Racoons are easier, they’re mammals so it’s really just mass that you have to worry about. A mammal as big as you, that’d be easy-peasy. And she’s never tried it – obviously!”

“Oh. Good. I’m arm in arm with my lesbian best-friend, cheating on her girlfriend – intellectually – and that girlfriend can turn me into a giant racoon, if she wants to keep things simple and not put the work in to make me a frog. Happy days.”

“It’s probably best just to get into it now then,” Willow said, not actually correcting her friend that she wouldn’t be a giant racoon, just a plain old, regular sized racoon. A… Bucoon. Or… a Racuffy. “Don’t fight it anymore.”

Walking with Buffy through the halls – or the precincts – of academia and discussing the finer points of psychology, a shared subject since Buffy had ducked out of drama – was pretty close to realising that long held fantasy. She really might have to admit this to Tara later. Full disclosure and all.

Should be worth a giggle and Tara giggles were just so adorable that she felt like she should be seeking them out whenever she could.

Thinking about that, along with the conversation with Buffy, made her grin like an idiot – Buffy’s words – and then she was labelled by her best friend.

“You – you’re an intellectual slut!” Buffy accused. “You’ll walk with anyone who’ll give you a good, hard, conversation!”

“You got me,” Willow admitted. “I’ll open my mind to anyone. But my legs, my legs are locked to anyone but her.”

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One thing Tara never thought she was going to tire of was how – when they’d been apart – the very first thing that Willow did when they came together in the same place was seek her out. Turned out it was actually one of many things.

It wasn’t anything different to any other couple, she supposed, but that didn’t mean that she didn’t get to take a secret pleasure in it.

Or not so secret.

“Hey, you,” Willow said, touching her first and then looking for what she really wanted.

“Hi,” Tara said, tipping her head back for the greeting kiss.

“What’s happening?”

“Xander’s putting up shelves, Anya’s trying to charge Giles commercial rates for it and – oh – we decide that exploded monkey would be a bad thing.”

Willow didn’t let confusion stand in her way. “I’m really pleased you guys were making those kinds of decisions without me, I’m firmly against exploded monkey too. Not only on behalf of the monkey, but also because of the mess. But… I think I kind of have to ask…?”

“Styx water,” Tara said. “Monkey head.”

“Ooh, that could’ve been…”

“Messy,” Tara said. “Anya spotted it. She knows all kinds of stuff that I’d have to think about for a while.”

The way she saw it, that was a good thing. But there was another of those subtle rivalries there. Not like Buffy and Faith, but Anya and Willow… Willow didn’t especially like the vengeance demon who’d messed with her life once and Anya didn’t like the fact that there was history with Xander there.

Ancient history, but history all the same. Anything she could do to improve things, like letting Willow know that all that demonic experience actually had some kind of benefit for them? That had to be a plus. Yes, I’m being the peacemaker again.

“I guess that’s what thousands of years as a demon does for you,” Willow said, then kissed her again.

“What was that one for?”

“Just because – no, actually, it was because your lips are just so damn kissable. I couldn’t resist after the first time.”

Tara puckered up again, drawing the kiss she wanted and then watched Willow go off to explore. “I feel like a witch in a magic shop.”

“Funny that,” Xander commented, while he was testing the stability of one of the new shelves. Looked pretty sturdy. “You being a witch and this – trying to be – a magic shop.”

Willow stuck her tongue out and no matter what she meant, Tara always found that to be a gesture of some… promise.

“Do you think these are real newt eyes?” Willow asked, coming back to her.

Tara shook her head, ever so slightly. “Don’t be a snob, ‘salamander eyes are just as good’.”

“Ohh, you asked that already, right?”

“I was just interested,” Tara explained. Eye of newt was one of the classics, of course. Though actually of more limited use than you’d have thought since every made up spell included it. But Shakespeare hadn’t written about Eye of salamander, had he?

“Now that Buffy’s arrived, I hope that I can prevail on the rest of you to make yourselves useful while I take her into the backroom?” Giles asked.

It was one of those things he was safely oblivious to, but nonetheless caused them all to look at each other. Had he really asked them that? Did he know what he’d said? If he did, did he mean it as a joke?

“Alright? What – Oh… To clarify, since you all have filthy minds, we’ll be training. Has anyone seen Faith? Or is it a forlorn hope that she might deign to join us?”

“Probably forlorn,” Xander said. “I’m not totally sure what it means, but it kind of sounds like the sort of hope you have when it comes to Faith.”

“Hey, that’s my name, don’t you wear it out,” the second Slayer said, entering the store and looking around.

“You’re tardy,” Giles chided her.

“Sorry, Mom. Late night, or more of an early morning actually. ”

“Well, come on, let’s not waste any more time,” Giles said and led the pair of them into the mini-gymnasium – or perhaps dojo – that had been created in the backroom. Faith brushed past on the way, dropping one of her traditional greetings.

“How’s it hanging, quim ticklers?”

Tara pulled a face – which was what Faith wanted - and continued flicking through the book she was looking at while chaos continued around her. It wasn’t really conducive to in depth reading and thinking, but since she wasn’t a carpenter, nothing else could be put out until more shelves were up and she’d already cleaned the walls this morning, yeah, indulging her passion for old books was okay. Just for a little while.

And watching Willow, of course. Something that was actually taking more of her attention now her girl was here.

Willow caught her looking though, smiled and made her way back in her direction. “You look pleased with yourself, quim tickler. Was she out with Paige last night?”

“She meant both of us, I don’t know and if I’m pleased, it’s because I’ve got the best girlfriend in the world,” Tara clarified.

Willow shook her head. “Nope, you don’t.”

“I think I do.”

“No.” One hundred percent certainty.

“So… who?”

“Me, I have the best girlfriend in the world, because my girlfriend says things like that to me,” Willow said, which seemed like a circular kind of argument when you considered it for even a moment. “You look… you look like a fortune teller or something, sat there with your shawl.”

Actually it was a wrap but… close enough. “And my many warts?”

“Not every fortune teller has warts,” Willow reminded her.

“The last one I saw did,” she revealed.

“Oh… well, you look like the hot kind of fortune teller.”

“It’d be cool to have one here, don’t you think?” Tara asked. “They could have a little table, just like this. Cross their palm with silver and they tell you a fortune. Maybe the people would stick around to buy something too?”

Willow thought for a second. “You know, you could totally do that. You’re more than good enough.”

“I’m… not much of a show-woman,” Tara said, already uncomfortable with the idea despite having come up with it.

“Then you can be the totally sincere kind, who believes in every word she says,” Willow offered. “I mean, all anyone would have to do is look into your eyes and it’d be obvious you believed every word you said. Though… I guess, maybe you’d be too honest?” She offered her palm. “What do you see?”

Tara smiled, happy to be honest about that much at least. “Willow hand.”

“And you like Willow hand?”

“I like both of them.”

“If only hands could talk… the stories they’d tell,” Willow said. “Maybe one more exciting than the other, because – you know – dominance. But what’s that word…?”

“What word?”

“Spelunking.”

Tara laughed, what choice did she have in the face of what Willow was telling her? That was the great adventure for – at least – one of her hands? “Eww.”

Her protest was silenced with a kiss though. “Maybe she can go spelunking again later?” Willow suggested, her voice and her eyes both full of her intent.

“Willow, baby,” Tara said as seriously as she could manage. “There’s being dirty mouthed and – you know – that can be kind of fun, sometimes. But then there are words that are never, ever meant for those purposes.”

Willow’s grin was conspiratorial. That brilliant mind was at work. “So… if I can say it some other way then we can…?”

As if she was going to be able to deny her girl? “Mmm, yes,” she was leaning in as she whispered, Willow’s hand still in hers as she traced delicate patterns in the palm.

“What are you two whispering about?” Hope asked, rounding the book case, a big silly grin on her face. “Oh – wait – maybe I don’t even need to ask. But… what’s ‘spelunking’?”

Tara looked at the woman she loved and abdicated responsibility.

“It’s your word,” she said. “And she knows how to use a dictionary, so you better explain it.”

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 87 - 06/04/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon Jun 03, 2013 9:25 pm

And part 87...

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Seven
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: Continuing during the period of ‘Out of my Mind’ but getting a little more serious…
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So here’s my question, just how acceptable is it to leave the last part on a humorous note for a few days rather than a cliff hanger? I cut it where I did really due to the length, in first draft I’ve been making most parts about 3300 to 3800 words (rather longer when I redrafted). Just because… Also, because some/most of the canon story has been removed from these parts and what’s left is coming up… well, now.
Since you can see the Joyce storyline from S5 is kicking off from here, there’s no hiding it away anymore. Those are the rules, as I explained fairly often already…



“Mmmmm, morning, sweetie.”

As usual Willow’s reaction to those loving words was to stretch. Mostly because it felt really, really good and then after that – once she opened her eyes – because Tara was – also as usual - looking at her and she had a sneaking feeling that her girl really, really liked to see her stretching as sinuously as possible.

Especially when she wasn’t wearing all that much.

How did she know that? Well, first there was the movement of the eyes. Then there was the kissage to exposed curves that Tara liked to indulge in. The sweep of her arm, to the side of her breast… Not really what you might call erogenous zones, at least not obviously, but exactly the ones that were most thrown into prominence when she stretched this way. The ones where it really didn’t matter if you were a Playboy Bunny or… well, less endowed.

Of course it had taken some time and observation to notice this pattern, but research was almost conclusive. Once proven, she’d have to do it even more. Because giving Tara what she wanted was right up there on her daily list of things to do.

“Hey, love… How are you?” Willow asked, fondling Tara’s hair as she received those kisses that just proved her thesis. If only all academic research was so pleasurable. No one would drop out of school. “I’m thinking you’re good.”

“I’m good,” Tara agreed, resting her chin on her hand which just happened to be on Willow’s chest where their eyes could meet easily.

“You’re always good,” Willow said, teasing and wondering just what the morning might hold for them. Shared shower… no, that was something from the past, when they’d had a little more privacy. Here in dorms… well, they had. But that wasn’t something they wanted to repeat.

But it was still something for the future, because they’d get that privacy back again one day.

“Am I?”

“You were good last night. I’m surprised you had the energy to be frisky… after all the fetching and carrying that we did.”

“I wasn’t the one who looked beat,” Tara said. “That was Hope.”

Yeah, the poor kid had looked absolutely tired out. “Joyce will have fixed her up with a meal and a good night’s sleep.”

“Faith’ll have been hunting,” Tara agreed.

“‘Hunting’? Is that what we’re calling it now? With Hope out at Buffy’s she’ll have been doing more than that – and most of the night too. Have you noticed?” she asked as she pushed Tara’s hair back from her face. “We never get asked to babysit anymore?”

“There’s lots of reasons for that,” Tara said, nuzzling against her breasts.

“Oh? Go on?”

“Joyce has more room; she’s closer to Faith and Hope’s place. We could go over there if you really wanted to spend some time with her. Or did you want to do what we did last night in Faith’s bed?”

“Well it’d probably be a novelty for it not to have a man in it on any given night but no, no, no and hell no,” Willow concluded. She felt a little uncharitable, what with Faith liking girls too. But the balance of evidence… yeah, her insult would stack as fact. Maybe if she’d just try hooking up with Paige? Then she’d even consider a double date.

Not that Faith would…

“So…”

“I don’t know, I think I’m just missing Hope a little.”

“We hung out all day,” Tara said, but she sounded as if she felt the same way.

“I know… I think, I was just kind of used to having a little sister around.”

Tara smiled. “You know, that’s what everyone says about her. She’s either a little sister or – in Joyce’s case – someone to look after. She’s just got that vibe about her.”

Willow shifted, something was pressing into her butt. “Oh, there it is… you were talking about vibes?”

“Wrong sort,” Tara giggled. “You know, if you hand it over, I’ll - ” The phone started to ring then, interrupting the thought and they both groaned as the sense of expectation was already there, what with lying on top of each other basically naked… “I’ll sigh loudly and answer the phone,” she finished and did just that.

Willow watched Tara struggle to reach for it, they must’ve pushed it aside last night when… well there’d been that rotation going on, a couple of pairs of sprawling feet and, yes, there had been a clatter… Hmm. There was something to watching someone – Tara at least – stretch too. Not just stretch, but get herself into all sorts of interesting positions.

The urge to… It was almost overwhelming. But she held off. Barely.

“Hello?”

She was stroking Tara’s exposed breast as her girl answered the call, but ceased her playfulness as Tara’s face dropped, listening. ‘What’? she mouthed.

“We’ll be right over. No, we’re coming right now.”

“What?” she asked, the phone disconnected and Tara was definitely upset. “What is it, baby? What happened?”

“It’s Joyce.”

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When they reached the Summer’s house, the ambulance was still there but the paramedics were sealing it up and jumping back in. Even when they called, asking it to wait, it didn’t take any notice and drove off, lights flashing.

“That means it’s serious right?” Willow asked. “The lights mean it’s serious?”

Hope was stood there though at the door, not even dressed. She just had her pyjamas on and she looked… she looked horrible actually. When the girl saw them she ran over, throwing herself into Tara’s arms without any preamble at all – just need, but Willow soon joined them in a comforting embrace.

“What happened, sweetie?” she asked.

“They wouldn’t let me go, because we’re not related and I’m too young and – and – they thought there was someone else here I think, I don’t think they meant to leave me here alone – but they had to take her, they had to – and – and - ”

“Slow down, honey,” Willow said, finding a facial tissue from her sleeve and dabbing at Hope’s tears. “Just tell us what happened.”

“She didn’t know who I was. I stayed last night and she was looking right at me, I came down for breakfast and she was already in the kitchen and she was looking right at me and she didn’t know who I was! She wasn’t just saying it, she saw me, but she didn’t know who she was looking at. She was… afraid, because she didn’t know and that made me afraid and…”

“Shhh,” Tara said, hugging her and that did seem to give Hope some more courage. Worked for everyone, did it?

“Then she… passed out, right in front of me. You think you know what it looks like, from the TV and cartoons, but you don’t. One minute she was on her feet and – she was confused, but - and the next, she just went pale… weak, I could see it. Then she just collapsed. She just fell down right on the spot. I just called 911 and held her. It was all I could think of – I mean, I called you and Buffy but – all I could do was hold her. Should I have put her in the recovery position? I mean, she was breathing, but they say that, right? Maybe I should’ve done that?”

“You did everything right,” Willow promised. “If she was breathing okay then holding her, making sure she wasn’t alone, that was about all you could do. It was what she needed.”

Tara agreed. “You did. You really helped; what if you hadn’t been there?”

“But what if it was my fault? She didn’t recognise me! Did she pass out because I was there?”

“She’s been having headaches,” Tara said. “You know that too. You’ve seen her sit in the dark to get past - This is…” She closed her mouth, realising that she might have just said that this was a lot more serious than it had seemed then.

And it could be, but they didn’t need to worry about that when they didn’t even know… Joyce would be fine.

“You said you called Buffy?” she asked instead. “I got her – I got her after the ambulance arrived. They said they were taking her so Buffy’s going straight to the hospital. We should go too – why didn’t they let me go too? They should have let me go so she wouldn’t be alone on the ride.”

“She’s not alone,” Willow promised, looking at her significantly. Tara knew what she meant, Hope was taking this hard, she’d been scared by what had happened – anyone would be – and she’d done her best, but now the adrenaline was wearing off and she was having to deal with the aftermath. Just explaining was hard enough.

“They’re looking after her. Come on, honey. We’ll get you dressed and then we’re going to the hospital too. We’ll call school and your sister, so she knows where you are, that you’re with us.”

Right now, it was the best that they could do even if it seemed like too little.

What was wrong with Joyce?

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Still, even after they’d gotten home, no one was saying much. What was there to say?

Joyce was putting on a brave face on what had happened, objecting to all the people trying to take care of her now. Because, in her world, a Mom – anyone’s Mom - was supposed to take care of everyone else.

And obviously enough that made them the world’s worst patients.

Willow supposed that Buffy’s Mom was just going to have to get used to it because nearly everyone was here, fussing over her, trying to make her comfortable and bring her things.

She already had about five days of food, already cooked up and prepared. Soup mostly. Then there were stacks of all thicknesses of blankets, books to read – though no one was allowing anything that energetic yet – and a collection of DVD to watch just as soon as Doctor Buffy authorised the handing over of the remote because TV did no one any good, did it?

It was times like these, when you got someone back from hospital, that you realised just how much any one of them – but Joyce especially – meant to the others.

After all, Buffy’s Mom had played a part in raising all of them these last few years. With the Rosenberg’s out of town so much Joyce had become a de facto choice as parental figure. Then Xander had been trying to get away from his rowing parents as much as he could and now there was Hope who hadn’t had much chance to have a Mom in her life for too long now and back while her sister was in a coma of her own making… needed someone.

Mostly that had all been Joyce.

It hadn’t just been the big things, it’d been the little things too. Moments of help and comfort that they’d all taken from someone who knew and understood how much – and when – they needed them.

Unlike Buffy, who had known Joyce her whole life, they didn’t tend to resent those little moments she went too far either. Hope certainly didn’t.

And thinking of Hope… Well, some of what Buffy’s Mom was saying was gratitude, but the rest was Joyce trying to deflect her embarrassment about what had happened by offering up praise of the girl’s quick thinking.

And also worrying about what she was doing here on a school day.

The fact that most of the day had passed with them all in the waiting room at the ER must’ve escaped her.

“She’s a little star,” Joyce said. “But she really should be at school; couldn’t someone take her back just for the last class?”

Tara was the next to take her turn trying to mollify both Joyce and Hope – the girl didn’t want to go anywhere. “Hey, you know Hope, she probably learned more by reading while we were in the waiting room than she’d have picked up in her classes today anyway.”

“I’m surprised at you, Tara,” Mrs Summers said. “You didn’t strike me as someone who had a casual attitude to education.”

“I d-don’t,” Tara said. Willow could tell that she was taking it in the spirit in which it was meant from Joyce’s point of view, which was ‘Lets talk about anything other than me passing out.’

“I expect it from her sister, but we’ve all got to set a better example. Because of Faith.” Then she realised that Hope was right there. “School’s important.”

“I know,” Hope said, ignoring the Faith part. You didn’t want to put yourself between this girl and her sister. “I wanted to go but…”

“Coulda, woulda, shoulda,” Joyce said. But she smiled, which softened her position.

“I just hate her. She’s like Willow, Mom,” Buffy said. “She just soaks up knowledge by being around a book. She doesn’t even have to read it. And obviously I’m so jealous.”

Hope grinned, relief making her look happier than she probably really felt – especially with everyone talking about her. “May I – do you mind if I – go?” she asked.

“Knock yourself out,” Joyce said, to which everyone frowned. “Oh come, I’m not such an invalid that I can’t make a joke.”

Hope smiled that little smile of hers and then left the room. Willow could see that she really was upset again. And it wasn’t because people were talking about her. No, she was upset about everything that had happened.

“She’s a good kid,” Buffy said.

“It scared her,” Willow said.

“She’s tougher than she looks,” Joyce revealed. “She did everything right. She must’ve done…”

“I’m sorry, Mom,” Buffy said. “I should’ve been here.”

“No, Buffy, you should’ve been right where you were. It doesn’t matter whether you were out slaying or with Eddie or in class or whatever you were doing. You were in the right place. You do a lot of good around here, for everyone. Hope was here and everything’s okay now.”

“It… just shouldn’t have been her,” Buffy said.

“Buffy,” Joyce said, admonishing her gently. “I know you don’t like her sister, dear, but don’t you judge her by the same standards. Who we’re related to is the one thing we can’t choose – look at your Uncle Jeffrey.”

Oh, Uncle Jeffrey. She’d heard about the man a few times over the years – usually when Joyce wanted to make some point about where lack of effort or application would get Buffy – but as to what he’d actually done to earn being that example… she was less sure.

“I’ll try not to,” Buffy promised and Willow knew that her friend was basically already there. The only person who was being tarred with the Faith brush was Faith and even that tar was… less sticky? Was this a metaphor she wanted to pursue?

Probably not.

“If she was your sister, you know, I couldn’t be prouder of her,” Joyce said, finally giving in to the fact that she needed to rest, looking sleepy enough to take advantage of it. Buffy’s gestures were enough to set everyone starting to clear the room, but sneakily. What Joyce needed, Joyce would get. “And you too, Buffy. You know that? I didn’t say it enough before – once I knew your secret I mean.”

“You said it plenty,” Buffy said. “You just need to get some rest.”

Willow was drawn from the room by Tara, firmly but lovingly with it.

“Hope did good,” Willow said once they were out of earshot.

“She’s been through stuff, we know that much. She knows what to do in a crisis.”

“Does that mean we can stop worrying about her?” Willow asked rhetorically.

Tara just smiled.

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Diana’s villa was, by any standards, impressive. It was obviously intended to facilitate the kind of entrance that the Goddess was prone to.

So when she swept in - the heavy doors seemingly thrown open with next to no effort at all, though not by her own hand it would seem – it didn’t seem at all out of place.

Tara had already met Ethan there, they’d been waiting in the courtyard, the play of water in the fountains and pools around the Mediterranean style gardens curiously out of place in what – had it not been for the intervention of man – been a desert area. The colours, the greens here were deeper and more reflective of the Goddess’ own eyes than anything that had any business growing.

Everything was just… more.

“Faith hasn’t arrived yet,” Tara explained, feeling that – since she’d been summoned – she should provide some excuse for the Slayer that Diana regarded as her protégé.

“Slayer Lehane’s presence was not requested,” Diana explained.

“Oh. Right. I g-guess.”

“The Slayers are what they have always been, simply weapons, Tara Maclay,” the Goddess went on. “One that you will wield when the time comes. But one doesn’t have a conversation with a weapon.”

Funny, though a few people she knew would consider Faith to be a weapon – possibly one of mass destruction based on prior experience – most of them had definitely had conversations with Faith and a few had even been pretty mellow. She’d had plenty herself.

“The Beast is here,” Diana said with no further preamble, there was no further need to ask what they’d been summoned for.

This was no warning, this was no request to create a force capable of dealing with the dangers that they were going to face – and she’d done her best to bring people together to do just that. One big happy team. Well, two smaller – but happy-ish – teams.

“Sounds like a good time to leave,” Ethan said.

“And where would you go, sorcerer?” Diana asked. “Even Hades has to fear the one that no one in his realm will give name to. But I spit her name… Glorificus. She chose it herself, of course. When it was first trapped here, without form and knowing only rage, it attracted the worship of the cruel and the heartless. And it tore at the other Gods justifying worship that it never needed or sought.”

She and Ethan looked at each other, unused to these explanations from Diana. Usually her speeches came in the form of instructions, rarely the sharing of information. She was kind of glad he was at a loss too. You never wanted to look like the dumbest person in the room though – living with smarty-pants Willow – that was very often the case.

“Now, her ultimate victory is at hand. She has taken form in the last few millennia – even as the pantheon retreated from the world, but her frustration has grown as the Key to her escape, to destruction of this world, has eluded her.”

“A key?” Ethan asked. “As in a lock or a door?”

“A Key to the structure of this reality. Undoing what was created is the only way to free herself and to return from whence she came.”

“Oh, I just had to ask…” Ethan murmured.

“And – and she’s here? You – you do mean in Sunnydale, don’t you?”

“She pursues the Key,” Diana explained. “It is here and so is she. Nothing that you have ever done is more important than preventing her from finding it.”

“We’re sure she doesn’t already have it?” Ethan asked. She considered it a good question, but was very afraid of why the answer must be ‘no.’

“Had she possessed it then it would already have been used, thus it has been hidden from her, sent here. It was in the possession of Roman holy men, fulfilling ancient duties – protected by secrecy. My recent absence was prompted by the fear that she had – finally – discovered its location – and that she had. I was too late to interfere and she slaughtered the believers in the One God.”

“Slaughtered?” Tara asked. When Diana used words like that, you just knew that the carnage had been something… she probably didn’t want to know about. Diana operated at a whole other level…

“They were torn apart from the insides outwards,” Diana said. “bearing the frustration of the one they defied. The Beast… Glorificus. However you name her, the outcome will be the same if she secures the Key. Should that come to pass, no one – not I, not Hades, not the Titans themselves, can prevent the end of everything.”

“But… these holy men? Some of them got away with this key?”

“Or they simply sent the Key here. It is here. Ever has she been where it is, seeking… searching. She has come to these lands and…” Diana paused. “You must find it first and when you do, you must bring it to me – you cannot help to protect it and she will not be far behind.”

“Can – can you protect it?” Tara asked.

Diana’s response sounded hard for her to say and with good reason. A Goddess admitting her mortality “I cannot stand against her for long, but… perhaps long enough.”

“Long enough for what?”

“To destroy it, without the existence of the Key she will be cut off from what sustains her, not the belief of followers but the energy of another reality, another universe. The Key is as much the imperfect seal as it is the key to the lock.”

“The wind whistling through the keyhole,” Ethan murmured. She could see what he meant.

“What – what are we looking for?”

“If it has been hidden, it could be anything, anywhere. But believe, it is here and the holy men will not have left it unprotected.”

“So… to sum up, you have no idea what it is. Where it is other than generally ‘here’ and if Glorificus gets to it first the world ends?” Ethan asked.

“Your understanding is not impaired.”

“So no pressure than,” he said, giving her a grim smile.

Yeah.

No pressure.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 87 - 06/04/13

Postby Azirahael » Tue Jun 04, 2013 8:06 pm

Dib!

Yeah no Pressure.

Really enjoying Hope.

What worries me is Faith.

Buffy is kinda repressed, and she threatened to kill any scoobies that tried to do the strategic thing and kill Dawn.

Imagine what Faith is going to be like if anything threatens Hope?

i know she'll put it all on the line for Hope, i just hope (um,) that she comes out of it alive.

I mean, i know it would be her finest hour and all, but i would be sad.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 87 - 06/04/13

Postby Katharyn » Wed Jun 05, 2013 9:29 pm

Dibbing against yourself again? ;)

I'm really enjoying Hope too. Actually, I tended to find that I was enjoying her even more than Faith. I think - perhaps - because Hope takes an edge off her sister and delivers something new and fresh to write for both of them. After all, I'd been at this a while by then. Plus, she's original. Kind of. Which means I get to play around more and be creative (if you can call anti-Dawn creative!)

Re Faith - well, I wouldn't expect her to be silent. But hey, if Hope isn't as aggravating as Dawn maybe no one will suggest killing her!! I also have some issues with the whole S5 plotline since - in a very real way - it makes not a lot of sense. So we'll be altering things a little to unpick that and do things a little differently.

As to the rest... I really cannot say much now. One way or another. There will be a climatic scene - of course. And there will be a 'calm after the storm' too.

But we're not there yet.

Thanks so much for sticking around, Azirahael

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 07, 2013 5:34 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Eight
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: New canon episode that we’re mirroring – ‘No Place Like Home’.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So this part marks one of those momentous occasions. Well, it was important to me. As I write this I’m looking to canon episodes into the future so I can shape what’s coming a few chapters early. We’ve been touching on ‘Family’ since the very beginning in terms of what Tara believes she is, but before I could start on ‘No Place Like Home’ I had to stand back and look at ‘Family’ for the first time. It felt pretty special…

On the other hand, this isn’t ‘Family’, this is actually ‘No Place Like Home…’

Now also, a few years ago I realised the power of music for writing when listening to ‘Under Pressure’ basically revealed the entire Sidestep story to me. Which isn’t to say that story was contained in the lyrics, but it certainly inspired the couple of hours in which I broke the whole of the first chronicle. So, today was the first time I’ve listened to Queen in absolutely ages and I’m seriously contemplating going back to ‘Another One Bites the Dust’ the next time that I have a big fight to write, but this time ‘Under Pressure’ didn’t give me big, massive thoughts, but then I don’t need to ‘break’ the overall story, it’s all there already. So I was just listening, not really ‘using’ the music and then – with the subject matter – along came ‘Who Wants to Live Forever’ and it’s pretty much becoming a theme for the darker side of this story that emerges because S5 is darker…

Finally, audience participation time… If you’ve not already said, how’s Hope coming across to you? More to the point how is her relationship with the others? Is it believable that she’s close to the others, even as Faith’s sister? I have this weird idea that some of the other’s feeling guilty about how they have to treat Faith actually compensate by being more accepting of Hope.
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“All I’m saying is that you’re not supposed to tinker with Teeny Tinkerbelle,” Tara said.

And she said ‘tinker’ like Tinkerbelle was being molested or something. What was up with that? Because it was definitely not the case.

They were on their way back from dropping Hope off. Since Buffy was off on patrol, refusing to let Faith cover for her, and Faith had her own plans… and someone needed to stay with Joyce after her fall. Why not kill two birds with one stone?

Hope had already proven that she knew what to do if something went wrong and, this way, Joyce got to feel that she was being useful when – in fact – they’d set her up with the same guardian angel who’d already come through for her. But this time armed with phone numbers.

It looked like the perfect solution. And – celebrating that – they’d been talking with Hope and then about Hope and… now they were talking about this.

“But it gave us more light!” Willow objected. Why were they arguing about this now? It’d been more than a week ago, but just because she’d mentioned Tinkerbelle again – because of a book Hope had been reading – now they were into this?

“You can’t tinker with Tinkerbelle. Because it’s wrong.”

Ah. Now she got it. And grinned appropriately. That was one of Faith’s sayings and once it had been explained to her where it came from – an imitation of Buffy learned when the other Slayer had stolen her body - she’d not found it as funny. But every so often she caught Tara slipping into Faith’s vernacular. The first time, she’d had to reassure herself that there wasn’t some freaky possession going on there too.

And she’d come away from that experience very reassured. There were things no body-snatcher would ever be able to duplicate. Things only Tara knew how to do for her.

To her.

With her.

“Because it’s Tinkerbelle? I really don’t think she minds.”

“Because she’s teeny,” Tara pressed. “And that’s what makes it wrong.”

Too much was going on right now for them to really get into anything, of course. They both had school, they had Hope to worry about – occasionally at least – and Tara had Diana’s wishes to consider as well. Fortunately, this time, it’d involved more of Ethan’s time. The Warlock being on the lookout for this ‘Key’ that Glorificus was so interested in, theorising about where and how it might be hidden.

And thus trying to get a start on how to find it too.

Yeah, that was up there in the list of priorities. Had to be kind of important considering that would be the Key that could destroy the whole world… It struck Willow that asking Ethan to track that down was a bit like asking a cannibal to run a plastic surgery clinic. He might do a good job, but you really didn’t want to know what he was doing for himself.

No one had really gotten what she meant. Even when she explained.

“Okay, okay… so we call it something different?” she suggested. “How about… Big Bertha? Does that make it better?”

“I’m…not sure about that,” Tara said.

“I ain’t hearing no objections,” Willow pointed out. “So Big Bertha it is.”

“You going street on me again, Rosenberg?”

“Well, we’re in the street, walking down the street,” Willow said. “It seemed kind of appropriate.”

Tara giggled again, tickling her palm as she did. “Don’t do that.”

“I just thought it was appropriate,” her girlfriend countered. “I wanted to talk to you anyway.”

“All we do is talk,” Willow said.

Tara looked at her significantly.

“Well, okay, not all we do. We do some other things too – I just meant, we absolutely have time to talk. I mean… Please, tell me, what did you want to talk about, Tara?” They might as well make best use of the time they had in transit, so that when they got home they could make the best use of the time that wasn’t in transit.

Sexy girlfriend appreciation, not looking like it was going to wear off anytime soon.

Good.

“I was… I was really wondering if you were planning to do anything for my birthday?” Tara asked, trying to make it into no big deal.

She didn’t think, from the way it had been phrased, that Tara had rumbled her plans, but now was the time to tread carefully. Perhaps a distraction was in order… but they were in the street, so another kind of distraction. “It’s your birthday? When?” she asked, as if she didn’t know that and hadn’t been thinking about it just as much as she could fit in for weeks now.

But time was starting to press.

“Very convincing,” Tara confirmed. “I totally believed you.”

“Why?” Willow asked, moving to phase two of the distraction. The first had been a jokey response but the second absolutely wasn’t anything approaching a lie. No Ma’am.

“I just think… maybe with everything going on that it’s not really a great time to make much of a fuss about it. I mean, it’s not like I’ve been here that long.”

“Fuss?” Willow asked next. “You think I’m going to make a fuss? What makes you think you’re worth a fuss?” Phase three. Vague denial phrased as a question.

“Because you can’t help yourself,” Tara said.

“Not when it comes to you, I can’t…” she confirmed. Phase four. Still not addressing the actual question that had been put to her. This was going well so far.

“I – I just don’t think that now’s the time, okay? With the Glorificus thing and Joyce not feeling great.”

“Oh… You think it’s a party?” she asked, trying to inject some disappointment into her voice. “Did you want a party? I wish I’d known… Tara, I’m sorry.” Five. She’d asked a question, not actually denied a thing. No lie had passed her lips.

Looking good, Rosenberg. You can do this deception in a good cause thing.

“There’s not a party?”

Phase six… avoid the chance to lie and embrace the chance to deflect. “Would you say that dinner was too much? If I’d picked out a nice place with deserts to die for? Just the two of us?”

Questions, always questions. No statements of fact that she could be caught out on later.

Tara smiled. “No, I don’t – I can’t ask you to ignore it, can I? So I wouldn’t say that dinner was too much. Not if the deserts turn out to be as good as you say.”

People talked about lucky seven, but six had worked out just fine... Success.

“I’m not going to lie,” Willow said, absolutely honestly. A little truth to make it all hang together. “The others know it’s your birthday and… I’m sure there will be cards and some presents and maybe even cake. Cake’s good, right?”
“Are you getting the cake?”

“I… might be.”

“Well, make sure they know that it’s not a big deal. Please, Willow. I wouldn’t feel comfortable if… you know, things were happening and we were having a party. It’d be – It’d be ‘wrong’.”

Maybe, even though she wasn’t going to say it, everyone needed a party. A reason to let off some of the steam and the pressure that had been building up. It’d always worked for them in the past, but since they’d come to college… less so. The Bronze wasn’t as accessible and everyone had boyfriends and girlfriends and… Yeah, a party would’ve been a good idea.

If someone had thought of it and been planning it, a party could’ve been a hell of a good idea…

But whether they had or not, she wasn’t going to tell any lies.

Not to this girl who’d know it right away.

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Willow’s attempt to steal a piece of crispy bacon – as any good Jewish girl would when presented with the opportunity outside her home – was rewarded only with a rap on the hand from Hope.

“No! I told you!”

Tara smiled, waving to Buffy as she came through the door. The Slayer rolled her eyes, obviously caught up in the whirlwind that was Hope on a mission. It was easy to see that Faith hadn’t needed to become a Slayer to become the young woman she was.

Not if her sister was any indication.

“This is for Mrs Summers,” Hope said. “If there’s any left when we’re done, you can pick away. Not this plate though.”

“What’s this now?” Joyce asked as she came into the kitchen. She was still looking pale and hadn’t gotten dressed yet either. One of those wasn’t that good and the other was, but at least she looked better than she had at the hospital just after – whatever it had been.

“Breakfast, Buffy and I made it,” Hope said, pulling out a chair for Buffy’s Mom to sit in.

“I helped,” Buffy admitted. “Mostly – you know – by telling her where some stuff was. And… looking for it first when – did you move some stuff around since I moved out?”

Joyce didn’t seem to hear the question, fretting instead about the fact she had company but was barely dressed, she kept clutching at her robe, pulling it closed and… it was kind of disconcerting actually, because it didn’t seem to be based on any real need. It wasn’t like she was in any way indecent, it seemed like more of a nervous thing really.

“Don’t worry,” Willow said. “This is the oestrogen squad.”

That one provoked smiles all around. True enough, since most of the male company seen hereabouts was composed of Xander and Eddie, pretty much every day was oestrogen day.

“But you’re a les - ” Joyce stopped, shook her head. Like she was having a conversation with herself. “What am I saying? I must just look frightful.” Now she was worried about her hair too, that just got out of bed look.

Willow linked arms with her, then took her hand in a show of togetherness for Joyce that was very, very real. “If I wasn’t already involved with the most beautiful, perfect woman in the world, I’d be all over you like a rash,” Willow teased.

“That’s me, right?” Tara asked, but then realised that everyone was looking at her girlfriend.

“Or possibly,” Willow conceded, “that statement might sound kind of… odd.”

“Odd’s the least of it,” Tara said, realising what Willow had said even if she hadn’t meant to. She’d been too caught up with being the most beautiful, perfect woman in the world. It wasn’t always easy to take compliments, but when they were so extreme then it was easy to add a few grains of salt and bring it back down to more realistic levels.

Also, Willow was always doing it. So you got to believe some of your own press, when it was repeated enough. To feel good about it.

“I just think,” Willow started to explain, “That your Mom needs to feel good about herself.”

“And you thought you’d do that by coming onto her?” Buffy asked.

“I didn’t come on to her,” Willow said.

“She – she didn’t,” Tara had to back her up on that.

“Hey!” Joyce said. “At this point, let’s just go with someone wanting to come onto me. I can handle that much, I think. No matter who they are. So, thank you, Willow.”

Hope was grinning, especially as Joyce was admiring the food that had been prepared, cooing over every little touch. The positioning on the plate, the crispness of the bacon and the perfect placement of the eggs. Even some herbs, just for effect.

“You were supposed to be in bed, Mom,” Buffy said. “That’s what makes it ‘breakfast in bed’, you know?”

“If it was breakfast in bed, I’d be worried about why you thought you needed to give that to me. Here I know it’s just because you’re good girls, both of you.”

That even seemed to make Buffy happier. “You know, talking about ‘good girls’ I think you should go back to the Doctor, you know? Follow up, see if there are some tests they can do or something?”

“I’m fine. I’ve just been working too hard – I needed to get some rest and now I have. So now maybe if I can enjoy my breakfast without being told I’m a cripple…”

“No one said ‘cripple’,” Willow pointed out. “But – as the girl who would be all over you like a rash - Buffy might be right.”

Tara bit her lip; she’d never have said that. But then she didn’t have the background with Joyce that Willow did. Maybe if she’d known her for years, she’d have told her that she needed to go to the Doctors too. She looked like she needed to, but… wouldn’t they already be doing tests and things if there was something they could think of?

That was how doctors worked. They got paid for doing tests, tests for all sorts of things. Wouldn’t they already be doing that then?

“Are you going to keep bringing that up, Willow? I mean, it’s going to get a bit old for your girlfriend,” Joyce said, forcing a tired smile.

“It’s – it’s okay,” Tara said. “I can share that much of Willow.”

“Oh, it’s an open relationship. I was – I was in one of those once - ” Joyce started to say.

“Mom!”

“Yes, dear?”

“You were - ” Buffy broke off when she realised the same thing as the rest of them. Never mind what she’d been admitting, Joyce had already forgotten what she just said. Looks passed between them all, even Hope who did a worse job of hiding her worry than anyone else. “Never mind.”

“It’s nice,” Joyce said. “All this. Really nice. But you all need to stop worrying about me. I’m fine, I will be fine. It’s my job to worry about my girl… girls. All my girls. All of you. The things you do… Buffy you came home so late last night, is everything all right?”

Tara happened to be looking at Buffy right then and realised that there was something, but clearly she wasn’t about to admit it now.

“It’s fine, Mom. Nothing unusual. Nothing really dangerous. And nothing I can’t handle. So… you stop worrying.”

Joyce shook her head, though it seemed to cause her some pain in her neck when she did, she rubbed it. “You never stop worrying,” she said. “You’ll learn that when you have kids of your own.”

“I don’t know, Mom,” Buffy said. “I can barely balance my check book. And Tara and Willow are - ”

“Perfectly able to have children if they wanted to,” Joyce said. “Even if – is it turkey-baster you’d use? You know, I could pick you one - ”

“Mom!”

“Umm…”

“Umm…”

She and Willow looked at each other, but the moment had passed and Joyce seemed to be gone again, moved on from what she’d said and completely putting it out of her mind. “Shouldn’t you all be at the opening of Mister Giles new store today? I gather it’ll be a grand affair?”

Hope must’ve told her that, relaying the news from the store exactly as Giles had put it. Who else but an Englishman would’ve described it that way? ‘A grand affair’?

And Ethan didn’t count as he probably saw it all a bit differently.

“Do you want to come with us?” Willow asked. “You’ve got your gilded invitation and everything.”

Buffy’s glare suggested that was probably the wrong thing to say and that, even if she couldn’t make her Mom do what she wanted, she could definitely have a say in getting everyone else to try and get her to rest up.

“I – I mean, if you want to?” Willow hedged. “I don’t know what you were planning, you’re probably already busy and… it won’t be very grand. Hardly grand at all. In fact, someone should probably sue – calling it ‘grand’. Pfft.”

Joyce smiled a little. “Grand or not, I’m not very magic. You kids go on without me. It was… It was kind of a bad night and I want to be all rested for tonight.”

“What’s tonight, Mom?”

“I have my book club, and don’t you dare, young lady. Don’t you dare!”

“What?”

“Don’t you tell me that I shouldn’t go.”

“I… I wasn’t going to,” Buffy said.

Well intentioned liar, well intentioned liar, pants on fire…

“But now that you mention it… Would it kill you to miss a week?”

Tara turned away a little, not wanting to see this conversation unfolding, even though she could hear it. Buffy was afraid, she didn’t know what was wrong with what was right in their face and she didn’t know how to fight it either.

Joyce… Joyce was afraid too. She also didn’t know what was wrong but she might’ve taken things to a different end point.

Buffy didn’t lose; she was just trying to figure out how to win.

Joyce… she was afraid of the battle as much as losing it.

She’d seen all this before, with herself in one of the roles. Of course, there’d been her Dad too, but he’d spent most of that time in a state of denial. Denial that there was anything too serious going on to start and later denial of anything that’d make life worth living and fighting for in favour of going to – or staying in – bed.

I was too young then to say what I thought. Now I’m not. “I think it’d be a good – I think it’d be good for you to get out of the house,” Tara said, very deliberately avoiding Buffy’s look.

“Thank you, Tara. You can have a piece of bacon, if you like.”

She smiled and pinched a piece she refused to share with her girl. But inside, she was afraid too. Afraid that she was right about what she was seeing… It all seemed achingly familiar. And the salty goodness of the bacon did nothing to ease her worries.

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Willow didn’t think much of Buffy’s mini-rant at Tara but since Tara had just let it wash right over her, accepting everything Buffy said without arguing or backing down, she’d just known that stepping in wasn’t something that either of them would’ve welcomed.

Buffy’s need to blow off that steam had met Tara’s serious belief in what she’d said. She had a sneaking suspicion about why that might be. Even in Sunnydale, there wasn’t much call for the word ‘spectre’ but there was one looming over all of this. Tara’s Mom… and what disturbed her even more was that – on some level – Tara was seeing parallels here.

Was that just fear? It’d be very natural and understandable if it was. Or was it some kind of experience that was relevant? To be honest, this was one occasion that she wasn’t sure she wanted to know and definitely didn’t intend to ask…

Change of subject required.

Possible options:

1) Boyfriend enquiry – downside, any potential disagreement with Eddie that might’ve put Buffy in a worse mood.
2) Weather – downside, it was South California. Generally, by worldwide standards, it was pretty good.
3) Sports – downside, she didn’t actually know a lot about sports.

So there could only be one winner, option 4.

“So… anything come up on patrol last night?” Willow asked. It may have been obvious, but everyone seemed to welcome the opportunity to get out of that conversation. And it might lead to a random segue to other acceptable topics.

“Random slaying,” Buffy said. “Two fewer night walkers to trouble the population of Sunnydale.”

“You… slayed prostitutes?”

“No. Night walkers, vampires?”

“Oh… Two. Quiet then?”

“For here, sure. But I was out in the industrial park, for the second one, and - ”

“What were you doing out there?” Willow asked. It wasn’t like that was a place that should’ve been drawing the predators in the middle of the night.

“It’s called patrolling because we keep all the town safe, Will, not just the cemeteries.”

“Touchy…”

“Anyway, I was out there after I killed this vampire, I found something.”

“Was it a shiny penny?” she wondered.

“No.”

“Small model animal?”

“No, why would you even ask that?”

“It’s possible,” she said, shrugging. “I give up then.”

“It wasn’t a game, baby,” Tara confided to her. “You weren’t supposed to guess.”

“Ohh.”

“So I found this.” Buffy pulled the object out into the light.

“Oooh, it is shiny though.”

Just much larger than a penny.

“That’s what I thought,” Buffy said, “I did think it was shiny.”

“I wonder what it is,” Willow said, looking at Tara for any suggestions. A slight shake of the head told her that her girlfriend didn’t have any immediate thoughts either.

“Why did you only ask Tara, Will?” Buffy wanted to know.

“Umm… because… because Tara’s a witch. She knows witchy things. If it was a witchy thing then she might have known what kind of witchy thing it was.”

“I am a witch,” Tara agreed.

“Okay, but couldn’t it have been a Slayer thing?” Buffy asked.

“I guess…”

“If it was a Slayer thing then I might’ve known what it was, right?”

Willow nodded. “Absolutely, you’re the expert on Slayer things – after Giles of course. You’re much better than Faith.”

“Thanks, I think.”

“So? Is it?”

“Is it what?”

“Is it a Slayer thing?” Willow supplied.

“Does it look pointy or have a cutting edge?” Buffy asked, holding it up.

“Umm, no.”

“So… probably not a Slayer thing then. I guess I could tie it to a chain and – nah.”

“Right. Not a Slayer thing. So… we don’t know what - ” she was cut off by Buffy though.

“Actually, I’ve been doing some research.”

Looking at Tara, exchanging a look, Willow had to wonder if that was going to go any better than relying on intrinsic Slayer knowledge. “We’re all ears.”

“So… I found this website - ”

“Shiny things found in creepy places dot com?”

“Be serious, Will? Do I mock when you’ve done the research?”

That was true, Buffy was only ever grateful, occasionally with a side order of confusion with a frustration topping. But mostly grateful. “No… No, you don’t. I’m sorry. Please… what did you find, Buffy?”

“Well, I can’t be one hundred percent certain,” Buffy said. “But I’m fairly certain, it’s an orb.”

“An orb. Really?”

Another word, just off the top of her head, might’ve been ‘sphere’. Either you could get just by looking at it.

Silence reigned for a few, very long seconds, before the tension that had lingered since they’d met up this morning was broken by the laughter. “Okay, okay, I admit it’s all kinds of pathetic. But I did try the research thing.”

“And you used a website, that’s impressive all by itself,” Willow said.

“What can I say, I’m this year’s girl, modern and with it. You think maybe Giles will have more luck?”

“Let’s hope so,” Willow said, just as they reached the store.

“Welcome!” said the man himself as they entered, then realised that they weren’t – in fact – customers about to hand over their money. “Oh, it’s you.”

“Way to greet your Slayer, Mister Watcher,” Buffy quipped.

“I was rather hoping for customers,” he said, sighing. The robe and the big pointy hat she’d found him looked good. She wished that he’d still gone with one that said ‘Wizzard’ on it, it would’ve cried out to the fan-boys and girls and helped him start all sorts of conversations that could lead to sales.

He’d be a good Rincewind.

Instead the caution over the legal position of claiming to be a wizard and the more important risk of looking illiterate had dominated his thoughts. Englishmen… what could you do with them?

“No one biting yet?”

“My line is unbitten,” he confirmed.

“Well, look what I found,” Buffy said, showing him the orb-y thing she’d proclaimed to be exactly that. “I found it last night.”

“Oh? Did something extraordinary happen?”

“Absolutely not, I just dusted a vampire, talked my way out of getting caught by a security guard and found this.”

“It is very shiny isn’t it?” he asked, smiling at the new mystery.

“Go on, you rapscallion, you go and solve the mystery of its origins if you like,” Willow teased.

“Oh, okay. You’ll watch the store?” he asked.

“We’ll watch it like it had real customers,” Buffy promised, then to her when Giles had moved to his personal collection at the back of the store. “What were you thinking with that hat, Will?”

“I think he looks very… distinguished.”

“Yeah, that’s the word everyone would use.”

“Look,” she said. “I wanted to catch you alone.” Tara had followed Giles, obviously hoping to be of some help, or possibly just to learn something. She took her informal position as Faith’s sort-of-watcher very seriously. Too seriously sometimes.

“The party?”

“I… Tara thinks now isn’t the time for a party,” Willow said.

“You’re calling it off?” Buffy asked.

“No. I think we should party like it was nineteen-ninety-nine,” she said. “Or… something like that. But I thought I’d ask you, you know because…” She shrugged. “If you don’t think we should, or you don’t want to come – it’s okay.”

Buffy smiled, touched her arm. “It’s okay, I mean… thanks for thinking of it and thanks for offering but… I’m going to need a night where we can all just be together with nothing else going on. Even if stuff is going on, outside, in there… We’re going to shake it, baby.”

“Really?”

“You know it, but shhh, here she comes.”

Before that happened though the doorbell tinkled again and Giles spun from his books, ready for that customer… Only to find it was Hope.

“Didn’t think you were coming down yet, honey,” Willow said. “You could’ve walked with us.”

“I gave in trying to catch you up,” Hope said. “Your Mom told me ‘quote – go and enjoy yourself – end quote’ but I couldn’t think of anything to do so I came here. When do you open, Mister Giles?”

“Actually, we’ve been open for an hour now,” Giles replied, returning to his table. “But if you have the goods they will come. Speaking of your mother, Buffy, how is she?”

“Oh, we have a highly trained medical staff working around the clock to tell us diddly.”

“Well, I’m sure they’ll come good.”

“And we have other problems,” Buffy said. “The orb, it is an orb right?”

“Give me a moment,” Giles said.

“Surely you can tell me whether it’s an orb or not, I mean, even I know it’s probably an orb,” Buffy said.

“She some did in depth research,” Willow explained. “On its orb like qualities.”

“Thanks.”

“Well, I’ve only had sight of it for a couple of minutes, so you’ll excuse me if I don’t pass judgement on it quite so quickly as that. But almost certainly it’s paranormal in origin.”

“Because it’s shiny?” Willow asked.

“Yes, quite…” Giles said, discomforted not to know any more than anyone else. Give him time though, he’d certainly come good eventually. He always did. “Perhaps you could go back to the spot where you found it?”

“We could have a picnic,” Hope suggested.

“Not really a picnic spot, Hope,” Buffy snapped and if anyone was wondering where the tension was, there it was again… just buried beneath the surface.

“What was frilly heck that for?” she asked as the girl looked hurt and retreated.

“I – I don’t know. She’s always around, my Mom looks after like she’s her own daughter and…”

“You’re not always there,” Willow said quietly. “You have other responsibilities but you want to be there for your Mom. I get it, I do. You know, you should be glad. Me and Tara – we help when we can, but Hope likes being there. She likes having someone like your Mom around to tell her she’s doing good in school and to put grades up on the refrigerator. Joyce likes it too.”

“I know… but she’s not even part of the family, Will… I can’t ask her to do that – and what if she backs out – she’s only a kid. And she’s Faith’s sister. Can I even rely on her?”

“We talked about this, Buffy, your Mom needs to feel like she’s contributing too, you know? You’ve left home; she needs to get that Mom-purpose back.”

“Mom-purpose?”

“I figure she’s been doing it so long for you, must be kind of hard to just go cold-turkey.”

“I guess… I guess I could try to be needier,” Buffy said.

“Or you could just, you know, apologise to Hope?”

Willow watched as Buffy went over to the younger girl. “Hey… I’m – I’m sorry I snapped at you, it’s definitely not your fault. I’m just… You know better than most people how Slayers can be. But… after you made that big breakfast, you can’t be hungry again already?”

“Your Mom ate most of it,” the younger girl defended herself.

“Good,” Buffy seemed happy with that. Appetite had to be a good thing right? “And you know what?”

“What?” Hope asked.

“Don’t you even think of staying with my Mom tomorrow, right?” Buffy said, winking with the eye that Tara couldn’t see but she could.

“Right. Absolutely. Point taken,” Hope said, suppressing a grin after the uncomfortable moment where she thought Buffy was really having a go at her. “I understand you perfectly.”

“Look, I… I have to go get my Mom’s prescription,” Buffy said. “And since we don’t know what this orb is can I leave that with you guys?”

“When haven’t you being able to leave it with us?” Giles asked. “Of course, and please pass on my best wishes to your mother when you see her.”

“Want some company?” Tara asked.

Glancing at her before answering, Buffy finally agreed. “Sure… it’s not going to be very exciting.”

“And this is?” Willow asked.

“I heard that! There will be customers,” Giles shouted from his books.


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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby Azirahael » Fri Jun 07, 2013 7:20 pm

Welcome to the town of dibbington!

Population 1!

Ok, so i know i'm pathetic, but i'm really hoping Joyce doesn't die.

I know, Joyce was about the only death JW got right, meaningful to the story, treated with weight and dignity etc.

But i still don't want any Scoobies to die!
Even if they are only peripheral Scoobs.

Like Faith. or Joyce. or Hope.

See, now i'm worried.
One the one hand, i wanna see where this great sory goes,
But on the other hand, i don't wanna see people die.

So i'm a big softie, obviously.

And yes, like everyone else, i love the Hope/Joyce interaction.
I agree with Tara, i think Joyce enjoys playing mom to her.

(gnaws fingernails)

Eeeek!

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jun 08, 2013 3:37 am

Population 1 - almost like the thread LOL

It's tough to respond to much of what you've said because a lot of it is hopes and speculation etc and so I would risk spoiling things to say too much.

So... Non-specific spoiler follows:

Spoiler:
There will only be one death amongst anyone who could be vaguely considered a scoob. If you think you're soft reading it, these things are also very hard to write!


Also all 'rules' that I've established in the fic will be adhered to.

You're right about Joyce (which means Tara is, but Tara usually is when it's me ;)) Dawn was the best thing that happened for that character and I want it to work with Hope too - even if it's a little convoluted (far too much babysitting going on (even before they know about the Key) considering that at her age Hope could BE babysitting someone else's kid...)

It seemed the best way to link her to Joyce, to keep Faith - somewhat - under control and keep Hope in the story more. I haven't gone into it specifically, but I think that - as we see a little Faith/Hope backstory - you will see why she gets looked after so much. Even though she really doesn't need it.

Now, lets see if the spoiler tags above actually work... EDIT - Oooh, I like that!

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby Azirahael » Sat Jun 08, 2013 4:36 am

Pish! Pish and tosh i say!

U have plenty of fans, they just like to savour the goodness.
Most of them seem to do a few weeks at a time.

I the other hand just guzzle down the yummy story.
Omnomnom.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Sat Jun 08, 2013 1:31 pm

Waht can I say baout this story that i haven't before? Well, umm, nothing. So I won't :-).

I tell a lie. Diana seems to have her full powers, and yet she can't hold back for more than a short time the much more limited by her mortal incarnation Glory? Maybe because that same mortal side means Diana 's role (or that of any other full-functioning god) is restricted in the way it is with any other mortal? Or is there a deeper reason? I already plan to keep reading to I guess I'll find out

(Actually, I've played around with a more powerful version of GLory- she temporaily escapes whatever dimension Ben's death sealed her in in my story about the birth of Dawn's twins. Glory is forced to work with the good guys in her own interests, much to her disgust. Willow and Tara have a n importnat but too small a role in it to include in Pens, even a cut-down version as a chapter in "Snapshots." Or, maybe not....)
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 88 - 06/07/13

Postby Katharyn » Sun Jun 09, 2013 8:34 pm

Azirahael - Thank you for noms :)

Daddycatalso - I don't know... it has gone on a bit :)

I'm pleased you noticed the Diana thing. It's easy sometimes to miss some of the stuff that is going on amongst the T/W and Hope stuff. Yes, there is a reason that is there. (You know there is if I bother to do something that is not T/W or Faith or Hope stuff LOL)

I've just been prepping the parts that go into the 'mythology' (not necessarily truth) around this so you will see an explanation but maybe in about 10-12 parts time. In short though... I have presented Glory as a different sort of God. She and the Olympus Gods are not the same and that has a significant bearing. Rather than making up Glory I've really had chance to explore what it is to be an Olympus God in this world (but through what Glory isn't - if that makes sense)

You really won't see Ben much, certainly not more than referred to though, as there isn't a PoV that can connect them in this story until very, very late. And though all of you readers know who he is, dropping him in there so late is just bad storytelling. It's the same reason we will see scant sign of Glory herself...

As for your story, you could always write the T/W PoV. Turn the story to be theirs, then include it. :)

That's what I've done with 2 seasons now!

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 89 - 06/11/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon Jun 10, 2013 9:38 pm

Apologies for the delay...

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Nine
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: ‘No Place Like Home’ continued… or at least my version of what was happening at the time.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: I really don’t have much to say, for once. Perhaps I’m feeling ill… Usually I can ramble and if you like I could ramble about being able to ramble (look, see) but somehow… nah. The Buffy and Tara conversation may seem a little out of place where it is, but I felt it was something we really needed to see. Just because I don’t want lingering bad feeling amongst the readers towards Buffy just because you haven’t seen what really may have already happened.



“So? Was it everything you hoped it would be?” Buffy asked.

They were stood in line and, for a moment, Tara had no idea what Buffy was talking about.

“Umm - ”

“The ER?”

“No, it-it wasn’t that. I just thought it’d be good to walk with you.”

“Clear the air?” Buffy asked.

“Kind of,” she agreed. And they’d pretty much done that on the way over here.

“I’m not so scary, huh?”

She smiled. No, not so scary. When she’d first met Willow, her best friend had seemed like this great, insurmountable hurdle. Or… at least something a girl had to worry about after stealing Willow away. “Compared to Faith you’re like a pussy.”

Buffy waited. But only for a second. “You’re going to finish that off with ‘cat’ right?”

“Any time now,” she teased. “It’s what they call ‘lesbian prerogative.’”

And Buffy smiled too, but then found something she needed to say. “You know… it’s never been about you and Willow, right? I was never weirded out by you and her – even if her coming out was a bit of a surprise. I mean – it’s not what you expect from your roommate, exactly, but it wasn’t ever a problem.” Buffy was going back over old ground here, but she didn’t mind that, they had the walk back to cover and talking was almost always better than not talking.

“I - ” she was about to reassure her friend but… Buffy wasn’t done.

“Just because I went into sharing a room with Willow when she was – apparently – straight and then a few weeks later it turns out she likes the girls and – you know what I mean about ‘the girls’ – never worried me. Honestly. Because by the time I knew she liked these girls I knew she was into you girl – your girls – um – you, Tara. And you’ve been great for her – for all of us, but mostly for her. I’ve never seen her happier, you know and that makes me happy and… she’s rubbing off on me. I mean – I’m talking like her. She’s never really rubbed – umm - ”

“It’s okay,” Tara said, deciding to rescue her. “I know. It’s about Faith.” They’d had that conversation already too.

“I’m trying, Tara. I really am. But… with everything else - ”

“Really, its okay, Buffy. I get it. That’s… I know what it’s like to have a sick Mom. It’s a different thing to almost anything else. After she’d taken care of you so long, suddenly stepping up and being the one whose looking after her - ”

Trying to look after her. When she lets me,” Buffy corrected.

“That’s why - I just wanted to say, I know it’s rough. So… if you have to vent, don’t worry about it. And if you need someone to talk to, I’m here. If – you know – you want to.” Hopefully Buffy wouldn’t take that as a sign she was being fatalistic about what was wrong with Joyce, but… there were a lot of similarities. It was just going to turn out better this time.

Buffy’s smile was confirmation enough that she got it but she followed it up with, “Are we supposed to hug now?”

“We can – why, do you want to?”

“Umm… No, I’m good. I just thought that might be lesbian prerogative too?”

“Not actually – but I’m, I never read the lesbian rulebook. It might be.”

“Hey!”

“Huh?” Tara asked, thinking she was being called back into an emergency hug.

“Not you,” Buffy said, dashing off through a group of people with barely discernible apologies. “That guy,” the Slayer called back to her. “I recognise him.”

“What – what guy?” What was going on?

Increasing her speed to try and keep Buffy in sight, it turned out the other girl was following a man on a gurney, strapped down to it in fact. Obviously the orderly who was wheeling him along was confused by the interruption and didn’t have much to offer to Buffy’s questions. “Who is he?” Tara asked as she caught up with the Slayer. She’d done Buffy’s apologies for her too.

“He – he was the guard at the factory where I found the shiny orb.”

“Did he have a gun?”

“Umm, yeah, why?”

“So he wasn’t crazy then,” Tara said, fervently hoping that wasn’t the case. Having a gun didn’t mean you were sane, but being employed to carry one… you kind of hoped they might think about that?

“No.” Buffy turned to the orderly. “He’s not crazy, I met him just last night – He was doing his job, he was absolutely fine!”

The man grasped Buffy’s wrist and she was sure that the Slayer could’ve broken free, but instead she allowed him to know he had her attention. “They’re coming! They’re coming!”

“What – what are you – who’s coming?” Buffy asked. “What happened to you?”

“They’re coming,” he insisted again. “They come for you – they get to you through your family.”

“What?” Tara asked when she saw that a penny had dropped for Buffy. What kind of penny it was… that was still an open question.

“Maybe – I think I know what happened to my Mom,” Buffy said, a look of horror descending over her face.

“What? Buffy, she’s sick. It happens. Not everything is about - ”

“Me?”

“Magic,” she countered, by which she included everything supernatural.

“He said about my family,” Buffy insisted. “She’s all the family I have – all that matters anyway, sure as hell no one’s going to get to me through my Dad. And something made him crazy, Tara. Overnight. Do you have a better idea?”

“People have breaks – psychotic breaks - ”

He didn’t. I saw him just last night.”

It was pretty clear to her that there wasn’t going to be much arguing with Buffy in this mood, but reason had to intrude somewhere. Carefully. Maybe just sticking a toe in. “I – I can’t say it’s – I can’t say that you’re not right,” Tara said. “But maybe you’re reaching, your Mom was already sick before this happened to him, remember?”

“Okay… okay… but I’m definitely going back to that factory. Tonight. And this time, I’m going inside.”

“Then – I guess I better come too,” Tara said.

Why did I say that?

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See, I told you the wizard outfit would bring in the customers,” Willow said, “they’re very impressed, they can’t stop looking at you! Even after they’ve paid, they’re still stopping and staring..”

“I rather think that perhaps they’re of the opinion I’m vaguely disturbed, but all the same… Real, live customers! They came in and I gave them things and they gave me money and then they left. It really is quite brilliant.”

Willow smiled, more than happy for him. This was, perhaps, going to give him the purpose to commit to Sunnydale, oooh for the next few years at least.

You know, if he broke the curse of the previous owners of this store…

But no one wanted to see him leave and that had been a very real possibility at one point. He’d confided it in her, he’d been making preparations. But with two Slayers who needed him and a business? Somehow it had all gone away again.

“Congratulations, old bean, on becoming a capitalist running dog,” she said, trying her best accent.

“Thank you very much. I’m sure the old me who was at university would be quite horrified at being a shopkeeper for that very reason but… all the same.”

“You’re not just a shopkeeper though,” Willow said.

“You’re absolutely right, Willow. I’m a shopkeeper in a silly hat.”

“Yes – No. But I mean, you’re part of the great American tradition. You’re putting yourself out there, taking the chance. Setting yourself up in business and buying into the great capitalist mantra. You’re an essential service, you provide the goods that the people in the market require. You know… Mandrake Essence. Where are they going to get Mandrake Essence if not from you? Supply and demand, that’s what it’s all about. And there’s more demand in this town than most.”

“Thank you, but I’m not actually old enough to have forgotten what you would probably call Economics 101.”

She smiled, but apologetically. It was kind of obvious, but there was no doubt that this was a bigger step for her countrymen and women than he was making of it. He really was buying into the system, though perhaps he wouldn’t want to hear that any more explicitly.

After all, once upon a time he’d been a rebel. Not a commie, just… more of a rebel.

As Joyce could testify but had been asked by her daughter to never, ever to talk about again. Not to anyone.

For any reason.

Even if the world was ending.

“Any idea about the orb?” Willow asked.

“I really haven’t had chance to give it a good – Ah, more customers, excellent. Welcome! Welcome to the Magic Box, feel free to browse and please, do let me know if there’s anything I can help you with.”

“You hate people who browse,” Willow pointed out. “Touching things with no intention of paying. Potentially causing exploding monkey head and things if they put them down in the wrong place.”

“Yes, but if they browse and look at many things, it’s been pointed out to me that they’re more likely to buy something. You see, not everyone comes in with a shopping list, Willow. Witness Buffy on a trip to buy clothes.”

Unlike her, Buffy really could stretch that out to a full day event. “Hmm, that could be true. So… the shiny orb?”

“Yes – well – Wait, what is that girl doing?”

“Who?”

“Anya, of course, I thought she just said something about being too expensive? Yes – there, did you hear that? She did it again? She said it to those customers!”

Willow gestured at Anya, trying to get her from spoiling his next potential sale, only the second one ever. Perhaps because it was Anya and any chance to put her in her place was definitely welcome. She didn’t get to do this, not to Giles. “What are you doing?”

“Your prices are too high,” Anya said to him when she came over. “That, for example – it’s unaffordable.”

“To you,” Giles pointed out.

“Yes.” Anya made it sound that was the obvious measure of market forces.

“And are you a customer? Do you actually want to buy it?”

“No.”

“Then… and I know I’m probably going to regret asking you this, why do you care?” Giles asked.

“I’ve come to understand that Xander is not a sugar-daddy,” Anya said, perfectly seriously. “If anyone had told me about sugar-daddy’s before I met him then that would’ve been better – but they didn’t and so I have to accept he’s not one.”

“Umm, correct?”

“But I had been led to believe that he was economically viable,” Anya continued, glaring at them as if they’d said anything about it. Maybe Giles did, but I definitely didn’t.

“But…?”

“He’s not! I’ve never had to afford things before and now I’ve run out of money, he can’t give me any more. Not until payday. And when will that be? Is that how we’re supposed live? Going from payday to payday?”

“Umm, yes,” Willow said. “That’s how most people live.” Okay, it wasn’t something she had to worry about yet, but she had a monthly allowance for all her living expenses and knew how lucky she was to have that and be at college.

“Really?” Anya sounded absolutely horrified, as if this really hadn’t occurred to her before.

“And those powders aren’t cheap, you know,” Giles pointed out. “It’s not like I can just ask a troll for them.”

“I can,” Anya said and you just knew that there was someone she’d dealt with – or had dated – who’d be able to fulfil that order. For a vengeance demon who dealt only with wronged women, it was becoming clearer that she was remarkably well connected. “It’s all waste product, you know? They don’t care. They massage their skin and… poof, this powder comes off.”

“Wait… It’s troll dandruff?” Willow asked, not exactly pleased since she’d made use of some in a spell not a few weeks ago. She’d taken a pinch.

With her fingers.

And yes, she’d washed thoroughly afterwards because that was what you did when you were doing spells and it demanded a –literal – pinch but… eww.

“You know,” another English voice said, “It’s not a bad idea she’s got there – and it’s not their scalps that the trolls massage.”

“Eww. Ew. Ew. Ew.”

“I thought you knew,” Anya said to her but they were interrupted by another arrival.

“What do you want?” Giles asked Ethan.

“Actually, old man, I was just wondering whether you’d met your timely death yet,” Ethan said. “I thought there might be a closing down sale while the place was well stocked. But the young lady has an excellent notion.”

“Young lady?” Anya asked, all flirty and happy. Probably considering whether Ethan might be a sugar-daddy.

Next she’d be asking for his bank statements.

“Oh, you may be a thousand years old, but you don’t look a day over twenty-five.”

“I’m in the body of a nineteen year old!”

“Oops,” Ethan said, chuckling to himself, as Anya retreated in a huff. “Still, my failure to impress the lady is as nothing compared to the chance to do you some good, my old friend.”

“Hmmpf.”

“Don’t scoff, old man. You’re sourcing from the usual suppliers, I assume?”

“Of course, and everything is certified,” Giles noted proudly. That was a big thing for him, to be running a ‘clean’ shop where everything was exactly as it was supposed to be. An assurance of quality.

“And if I know the market – which I do - you’re paying about a three hundred percent mark-up just for that certificate. With my contacts you could go straight to the source with complete assurance of authenticity instead of paying someone else to be honest. Your word would be your bond instead of someone else’s.”

“And you’d just give this away?” Giles was clearly sceptical, but also interested. More likely because it was Ethan rather than because he didn’t like the idea on principle. After all, they’d all seen certificates that weren’t worth the paper they were written on. It was the higher quality forgeries actually spelt ‘genuine’ correctly.

And trolls weren’t big on certification schemes – or it didn’t seem like they would be.

“I rather thought you might cut me in?”

“Excuse me?” Anya interrupted. “It was my idea.”

“And, if you’re interested, I’ll be sure to reward you for it. You did say you were interested in a sugar daddy?” Ethan suggested.

The thing was, Anya really did look like she was just about considering it. “Are you very rich?”

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“Are you very rich?” Anya asked as they walked in the door.

Mister Giles, Willow, Ethan and Anya all caught up in conversation – involving money naturally enough. And… were those really customers?

“No, he doesn’t have two halfpenny’s to rub together,” Buffy said. “Leave the girl alone, Ethan. We talked about this.” Then to Tara. “I promised to kick his ass if he hit on any of you. I was sort of hoping he would though. It’s been too long.”

“Seems fair,” she said and went over to Willow while Buffy continued her warnings to Ethan.

“He’s such a skeeze,” Willow said, brushing her hand and then her arm before reaching her cheek and stroking it.

“He is what he is,” Tara said and kissed her girl lightly on the lips. Here was someone else who was what she was too.

“What’s wrong?”

“Buffy - ” she started, but didn’t get a chance to explain further.

“I know what’s making my Mom sick,” Buffy said. No. She announced it. Like an actual fact. Which it definitely wasn’t.

“Oh?” Willow sounded just as wary as she was.

“The guard, the one I saw last night when I found the orb and then again at the hospital just now, he had this with him and he went crazy. He went crazy overnight. So ha! What do you think of that?”

Almost as a synchronised move, everyone looked at the table where the shiny orb rested and then took a step backwards. “No,” Buffy said, “we should be fine – I mean, I had it with me last night and nothing’s happened to me. I’m not speaking on tongues am I?”

“No, not tongues, but you might be… Buffy are you sure about this?” Willow asked.

“Not crazy last night. Now he’s crazy. Tara saw him.”

Not expecting to be drawn into the burden of proof, Tara fumbled for the right words. Whatever they might be. “There was a guy, he looked kind of…” she shrugged.

“Cuckoo?” Anya suggested with all the sensitivity of a bull in a china shop.

“Disturbed,” she tried instead, going the extra mile for something politically correct.

“I’m not certain,” Giles said slowly, “how this connects to your mother?”

“But he said – I didn’t tell you this part, look… he said that they’d be coming after my family.”

Tara put her hand up.

“We talked about this, baby,” Willow said, pushing it down. “You really don’t need to put your hand up.”

“Not in the air anyway,” Anya said. “I’m told lesbians enjoy fi - ”

“Ahhh! Anya!”

“What?”

“Not now, please…”

“Just say it, Tara, whatever it is. Please say it… Say it. Now.” Willow was pleading, really not wanting the line of investigation Anya had been about to start with to go any further.

She swallowed. Second thoughts, actually letting Anya go on might’ve been preferable to disagreeing with Buffy when she’d worked herself up about this.

She’d been trying – carefully – all the way back from the hospital. But she knew she’d gone about it all wrong, trying to use logic. This wasn’t about logic. “Actually, he didn’t say that they – it – whatever was coming after your family. He just said that ‘they’ did, if ‘they’ were coming – you know, after anyone. And he was disturbed. He also said he was a penguin.”

“That sounds like a reasonable point,” Giles concluded. “Did he actually say there was a threat to you Buffy? Did he know who you were?”

Buffy shot daggers at her with her eyes and Tara smiled weakly, apologetically she hoped. But the facts were the facts and right now they seemed to be in pretty short supply around here. “No… but he said…”

“Then it seems a somewhat tenuous link, Buffy,” Giles said. “After all your mother was already sick before you found the orb.”

“So we’re definitely calling it an orb?” Buffy checked sarcastically. “Just so I can be right about something.”

“Definitely orb-like,” Ethan said, examining without actually touching it. “Shiny too. In fact… I wonder…”

“Don’t tell me you know what it is?” Giles asked, sounds like he was being forced to eat… well, something not very nice even to ask the question.

“Wouldn’t like to say yet, mate, but perhaps…”

“Yes, well, that’s very helpful and mysterious,” Giles added dismissively. “I’m sorry Buffy, but I rather think that we need to deal with what we can see - a very shiny orb - rather than ascribing it properties that really aren’t in any way proven.”

“This – that security guard,” Buffy said. “He could see through what the rest of them see. He said that – or something like it. He said that everything was hidden but now he could see.”

And it triggered something in Tara’s memory. To be fair... it wasn’t the first time she’d heard something like that. “There – there was a man, a crazy man I guess, who spoke to Hope outside the shop. It was a few weeks ago. Right outside.”

“What did he do? What did he say?”

“He… he just seemed crazy, but he was talking about seeing things too. Seemed like your typical ‘crazy’ talk then. At the time, I mean. And disturbed, not crazy because – you know.”

Evidently that put her back on a level footing with Buffy who expressed her thanks. “See, see that? There’s another crazy guy, a few weeks ago. Is it really impossible that something could be making people get sick?”

“Not at all,” Giles said, still trying to be reasonable. “But I should remind you that your mother has had bad headaches and appeared confused. Certainly crazy or disturbed and not changing overnight either.”

“Don’t tell me what’s wrong with my Mom,” Buffy warned him. “I know what’s wrong with my Mom – except – we really don’t. Help me, guys.”

“It might just as easily be some tropical disease, chemical pollutant or… something else quite mundane in origin,” Giles said.

“Something else?” Willow asked.

“Best I could do at the time.”

“How often,” Buffy interrupted, “is it actually ‘something else’? Something that’s not supernatural and in urgent need of Slaying? This is Sunnydale! Even when it’s the swim-team coach breeding fish men, who were the only ones who could help?”

“Fish men?” Ethan asked.

“Don’t ask. There’s this whole thing with Xander not being very undercover,” Willow shook her head. She only mentioned it because Anya was convinced she’d missed out on something.

“The point is, this is Sunnydale. It’s a Hellmouth. Okay? Stuff happens here that doesn’t happen anywhere else and until I hear different, until someone shows me any different then I’m not looking anywhere else for this, okay?”

And the trouble was, no one could show her any different. Yes, Joyce could just be sick – people here still got sick - but who could rule out what Buffy was saying? Two crazy men didn’t make a summer, but one going that way overnight when he hadn’t even really witnessed the Slayer at work or found out what was out there… It was true, that was strange.

“So what’s the plan?” Giles asked. “Since you have all this worked out?”

“Simple,” Buffy said, accepting his challenge. “You all find out what that shiny orb is and what it does.”

“And what are you going to do?”

“I’m going out there. I’m going to hunt down what’s doing this. I’m going to find it and then I’m going to kill it. Then, when I get back, you can tell me what it was. Still want to come with me, Tara?”

“You’re going?” Willow asked.

“I said I would - ” she said, though at that point Buffy hadn’t described it to her as ‘hunt-find-kill.’

Willow, surprisingly, didn’t try to dissuade her though. Perhaps realising that she couldn’t. She was… Yeah, this was something that she did have to. “Sweetie, you be careful… okay? I’ll kick your ass if you come back hurt.”

Tara nodded and drew Willow off for a quieter word. “There – there are some things that Buffy can’t fight, no matter how much she wants to. She could get hurt if she goes charging in.”

“You don’t mean physically, do you?” Willow asked. “You… you think it’s something else.”

She nodded, satisfied that Buffy wasn’t listening to her. “If I’m right… I want to be there for her.”

“Because you know?”

She nodded again. Yes, she was terribly afraid that when Buffy found out there was nothing she could fight, nothing she could do except be there… It was going to hit her so much harder. Because that was something she’d never faced before.

“When are you going?” Willow asked.

“Buffy wants to go tonight… I’m not sure why we’re waiting for nightfall but… I think she feels more comfortable with that side of things in the dark.”

“It’s true,” Willow said. “She does her best work when the sun’s gone down. She’s – it’s a Slayer thing, I think.”

“Faith’s just the same,” Tara commented, thinking on it. “But maybe it’s because of their sleep patterns?”

“Maybe. Sweetie, I get why you want to be there for her,” Willow said. “I think… I think it’s a good thing but what if Buffy’s right?”

“Then I’ll hold her coat. Carefully. At a distance.”

“Just remember all that,” Willow said. “Because if you get hurt out there then there’s no present for you.” With that she kissed her on the lips.

In case she was in any doubt what her present was.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 89 - 06/11/13

Postby Azirahael » Mon Jun 10, 2013 11:36 pm

Dib!

Hee Hee!

Only one Dib, but it's a big one.

I read now!

ok, i read now.
Hmm, confusing.
read (reed) vs read (red).
gosh english is fun.

Anyway:

There might be something of a present-y nature for Tara :)

And i like how she's being all brave and responsible.

Also i find myself curious what would happen if no one actually interrupted Anya.
I mean we all assume she's going to be talking about something dirty, but we don't know for sure, because she never gets to finish.
Maybe she's so used to it that she'd just trail off if no one interrupted.

Looking forward to the next bit.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 89 - 06/11/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Tue Jun 11, 2013 2:08 pm

Hmm, anya and Ethan? Okay, it's just a possibility you're dangling - I've some up with soem tricky pairings my self. In my "Ice Age Buffy" 'verse, Anya and Wesley are married.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 89 - 06/11/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 14, 2013 10:00 am

Oh yes, Azirahael, Tara certainly has presents coming to her :)

The funny thing about Tara, once you start with her in this sort of way, is that - in herself - she doesn't think she's being brave. Certainly not compared to Buffy or Faith. She's just being who she is - which is the beauty of a long story, you can slowly shape who you want that to be instead of just springing a really big change (which this isn't) on the reader.

If no one interrupted Anya I'd have to send my mind to the places she's been. And I'd have to do some research. Some good soul will always cut her off :)

But it'd be fun to do what you said, let her and then find out it was dull or not even there...

Thank you!

Daddycatalso - LOL I think Anya would only be into Ethan for what he could give her to sell... Hee. Thanks

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 90 - 06/14/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri Jun 14, 2013 10:05 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Ninety
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: ‘No Place Like Home’ continued – Buffy is convinced the orb has made her Mom sick.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So… now come my doubts. So far into this story where I’ve been distilling the essence of episodes down, interjecting characters into slightly different roles etc, I wonder if there’s really any value to this story as it is? I’m wondering if – when you all know broadly what is coming next – why anyone would be interested? There can’t be much ‘OMG, I wonder what will happen next’ (unless there is!) Some of that will come later, I mean at the moment we’re still setting up Glory, but it seems like a long time since I wrote much that was original for this. Of course, Dracula had to stay and then there was Hope and now there’s Joyce’s illness and Glory… The start of S5 was kind of packed with good stuff I wanted to keep!
Now… in the build up to Family, it also became obvious to me that Tara had to take the steps that she does in this chapter. What choice would she have?
Thanks to: The person who invented spikes for shoes that you could put on during icy conditions… Probably saved my poor bruised ass today after my slip yesterday! (way in the past by the time you read this, as it will probably be summer!)



“Excuse me,” Willow said and then again as she ran into someone else in her efforts to avoid the first person and – finally – made it to Giles who’d ditched his wizard’s robe, but not the hat. At least not yet.

Maybe he’d forgotten he was wearing it.

“Wow, it’s busy!” she gasped.

“There… there are too many of them. People. Too many people,” he mumbled, barely audible. “People everywhere. Too many of them. I wouldn’t have become a librarian if I wanted to deal with this many people, least of all a school librarian. It’s a calling that’s intended to keep you away from people. People talking, people wanting things. You were just about the only person at Sunnydale High who ever wanted anything from me.”

“Calm down,” Willow said. “Breathe. You’re not a librarian anymore. This is good, this is what you need. People who want things are called customers. And they have money. Money they want to give to you.” It didn’t seem like a good time to mention that at least three people here had been placing friendly wagers on how long the proprietor of the Magic Box would be the current proprietor rather than an entry in obituaries. But that wasn’t going to happen, Giles had a Slayer.

Two Slayers actually.

Two Slayers, each with their own degree of craziness. At least Buffy’s might only be a temporary thing until tonight while they got this orb thing dealt with and Tara would be with her…

“At least Anya’s helping out,” Willow said, though she realised the folly of that as soon as the words left her mouth. Was that really much of a positive?

“Thank you,” the girl said, tucking the bills into the register. And then, with the brightest of smiles, she added, “Now, please go.”

“Umm, Anya,” Willow said.

“Willow?”

“Have you thought about a different way of saying that? ‘Have a nice day’ is traditional. You must’ve noticed. Everyone says ‘have a nice day.’”

“I don’t care if they have a nice day. I have their money. My day is nicer because I have their money. They can have a nice day somewhere else, it’s very busy in here and so they need to go.” She emphasised the final word so that they might hear her again.

Giles shrugged, he plainly was out of his depth and Anya was helping. After a fashion anyway. What was he going to do about it?

“Good talking to you,” Willow said.

“And you, Willow. Now if you, also, will please go? I have customers.”

And somehow she managed to keep being smiley and perky. Why did she have the feeling that somehow they’d unleashed a monster here today? Or a genie that really wasn’t going to want to get back into its bottle? Handling money – other people’s money – was filling Anya with too much glee.

It wasn’t that she thought Anya would steal from Giles, not at all. But there was… just something in her eyes. Evil cackling wouldn’t have been out of place.

Making her way through the customers towards the back of the store where Buffy and Tara were holding fort, Willow was surprised to find them both going through books.

“How’s it going with my two favourite girls?” she asked.

Two pairs of eyes looked up at her. Tara was suitably amused; Buffy just looked like she was interrupting. “Obviously, you’re my favourites in different ways. Because Tara is my girlfriend and that’s a different kind of favourite to my bestest friend… Except, Tara’s kind of – shouldn’t your girlfriend be your bestest friend? I think so. So Buffy’s my other bestest friend. The one I’m not sleeping with. I mean… when we’ve shared a bed it’s not like we’ve been sleeping together - ”

“Will,” Buffy said, breaking into her babbles. “We’re trying to focus here. On the books?”

“Thanks, I was stuck there for a moment, and you – Tara – you just let me go on and on.”

“It’s cute,” Tara said, full of smiles. “It’s always cute.”

“So how is it going?”

“Not so great,” Tara said. Her expression said that maybe she was regretting being the one who’d offered to help go fight whatever Buffy needed to fight. It’d been made with the best of intentions, expecting Buffy to – eventually – realise that maybe it wasn’t something she could fight. But until that point… Something was due to get pounded.

“They’ve been here for hours,” Anya said, coming over in a slight lull and picking up the books that had been pushed aside. “These – some of these are for sale. They’re not Giles’ private stock.”

“And?” Buffy asked.

“And do you intend to buy them?”

“Maybe - ” Tara started, probably wanting to just keep the peace. Did they need that book? No.

“No,” Buffy corrected. Obviously not in the mood.

“Well, even if Giles is confused, this isn’t a library. So… you should rent the table at least. Five dollars.”

“What?” Buffy asked, her ire rising. She recognised the signs but Anya seemed oblivious, holding out her hand in a gimme gesture.

“Five dollars.”

“If this was a coffee shop - ” Buffy said.

“But it’s not; do I look like a barista? Here we have to look at the bottom line. You’re taking up space and stopping people buying books and you’re not even putting them back on the shelves in the right places so somebody has to do that.”

“They – they were already like that,” Tara said. “They were already out of order.”

“Oh. Well, its still five dollars,” Anya said again.

Tara reached for her purse. “I… I don’t have five, I’ve got to go to the bank - ”

“Whatever you’ve got then,” Anya said, reaching to take three ones out of her purse for her. “Do you want some advice?”

“Is it free?” Buffy asked.

“I don’t have any more money,” Tara pointed out. “Well, fifty-eight cents, but…”

“Yes, the advice is free. Of course it is. We’re friends.” Anya beamed, even though she had Tara’s three in her hands. Willow had every intention of giving her girl some cash, but not so Anya could take it and put it into Giles’ register. “Why not try an unveiling spell?”

Willow hesitated, she’d been about to poo-poo whatever Anya’s idea would be. She wasn’t a witch, just a vengeance demon. But a vengeance demon that had been around for a long time… Hmm.

Tara seemed to have the same idea.

“Is that a good idea?” Buffy asked, looking to them for a judgement.

“I wouldn’t have told you if it wasn’t,” Anya said huffily.

“No – I mean, I was checking with Tara? Will?”

They’re only witches,” Anya said. “Witches who didn’t think of the most obvious thing…”

And it was obvious. If anything, Tara seemed to think it was an even better idea than she did. She seemed positively… excited about it? Was that excitement? Not the sort she recognised but… there was something going on there.

“What is it?” Buffy asked. “I mean, I guess it unveils, but what?”

“It’s like – you put yourself in a trance,” Tara started.

“And while you’re in it, you can see any other spells that have been cast. Like, if someone had turned a prince into a frog, you’d see the prince, not the frog,” Willow explained.

“Do we know any princes?”

“Perhaps a better question is whether we know any frogs?” Willow countered, pointing out the hole in that logic.

“I think I get the idea,” Buffy said. “Is it dangerous? I mean, I don’t mind fighting anything you throw me up against, but I definitely don’t want to turn myself into anything else. Including Faith.”

“There shouldn’t be anything that can happen,” Tara said, checking with Willow via a raised, questioning eyebrow.

Willow shrugged. “I’ve never done it, but… I’d trust Tara to know.”

“Why don’t you trust me to know?” Anya asked.

“When you were doing spells like this,” Willow said, “you didn’t have to worry about things going wrong with it.” Being a vengeance demon had obviously given her some sort of grip over reality.

“Oh, right. Well, these things hardly ever go wrong,” Anya said to Buffy.

“Hardly ever?”

“Not if you have a competent witch.”

“She said competent,” Willow said when Buffy looked to her to volunteer. “That means Tara. I’m… I’m more your dabbler if something shiny takes my fancy. Tara’s got it all down.”

“Thanks,” Tara said. “So much.” Then she turned to Buffy. “I’ll, I’ll do it with you – help you I mean, but you have to invoke the spell yourself, otherwise it’d be me that was seeing everything. All it’s going to show you is the signature of any spell that someone else – or something else – has cast. It won’t show you, say, a naturally invisible demon - ”

“Are there invisible demons?” Buffy asked.

“I… don’t know,” Tara said. “But what I meant was – it can’t just be a natural thing that you see, this is the fingerprint of something that’s been changed, altered or hidden. At least… I think so.”

“Well, I guess that’s what it must be,” Buffy said. “Whatever it is that’s doing this. I think – Yeah, I’m going to do this. Just so long as you and Willow don’t run around trying to hit things, because I’m intruding on your territory?”

“No chance of that,” Willow replied. Neither she nor Tara were much good at that sort of thing. In fact Tara’s main workout was running. As in ‘running the other way’ if things got too dangerous. Not only was that a great idea for the mere mortals in the gang, but Tara also looked super-cute in her running gear. Those shorts and the sports bra…

And then she usually got sweaty… which was also a good look.

Yum.

“Well,” Buffy said. “My Mom’s never really been happy about me being a Slayer, I wonder if she’ll burn me at the stake if I get all witchy? Sorry, Will… still a sore topic, huh?”

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Tara focused on the work of making sure that Buffy did everything just right. She had to focus on it because otherwise she’d be worrying about what was going to happen.

It has to be me. It has to be me.

She had to be the first thing that Buffy saw when she entered the trance, the very first thing.

Why?

Because she might see me as I really am.

That wasn’t the way it was supposed to work, she’d been pretty clear on that when Anya suggested the unveiling and she’d had to really think back to when Momma had told her about that kind of spell to make sure that it really did what it said on the tin.

It wasn’t supposed to reveal the inner nature of things; this wasn’t a spell that was supposed to track down all demons. This wasn’t dangerous in that kind of way. It was just supposed to show the magical fingerprint where someone had done a spell. And because no one had done any spells on her – at least not to hide her demon part… it shouldn’t show anything.

But if it did…

Just because it was supposed to work that way didn’t mean it actually would.

If it went wrong then she needed to be the first person Buffy saw. That way, at least, she could try and explain it away. Maybe the spell wasn’t working just right, they should try it some other way, take a little time to get things right? Or if Buffy wouldn’t believe that then at least she’d have time to plead with her, try to make her understand and give her time to talk to Willow and explain before...

She didn’t want to deceive anyone, least of all Willow, but… with all that they had, how could she risk losing it prematurely? How could she hurt Willow that way? And it would hurt her… Willow had been better, a little better, when they met, but she knew what losing Oz had done to her girlfriend. And she liked to think that had been a relationship on the way out anyway…

With them?

She’s my perfection. She’s my completion. She makes me whole.

But it was that ‘whole’ that could betray her. She never felt the demon, she’d never known it. She knew it was there though… she knew because her whole life she’d been told what was coming. And she’d seen what it had done to Momma… how it had slowly eaten away at her, weakened her until…

Buffy has to see me first. She has to be looking right at me.

Just in case.


To that end they were in the living room at the Summers house and Tara had taken up a position on the floor right in front of Buffy, kind of like when she was forming a two person circle with Willow – it still made her smile when Willow called that ‘more of a line’ though Buffy hadn’t gotten the joke – and she really was helping.

She’d never quite ‘decided’ that she wouldn’t sabotage this spell. But it’d been obvious that she couldn’t… Buffy needed this to work and if it didn’t then she’d push on and do something else to help her Mom. And… though she doubted it, maybe Buffy was right. Maybe it was the orb or something supernatural that was to blame?

Maybe it was something she could fight?

I’m not getting in the way of helping her Mom. And we have to try this before going to the factory…

Actually, she couldn’t get in the way, if she did… Buffy would roll over her like a juggernaut. Right now, the Slayer just didn’t care about anything else. It was irrational, but love was irrational. And that was no bad thing.

If love had been rational, she’d never have let herself fall in love with Willow, never let things go as far as they had knowing that within a little less than a year she’d be… She hadn’t heard from Daddy about it, but she knew his feelings on the matter very clearly. Her Momma had expressed the demon at this age – just like her grandmother - and he’d been more than reasonable, letting her get out to college to experience the world.

Letting me find Willow.

She thanked him for that, even though she dreaded the day he’d remind her why she had to leave.

He’d want her home… She was just hoping that he could wait for the end of the year. The semester at least. Then, perhaps, she could do… something.

I have to do something because I can’t leave her. These friends, this life and this place. The books, the learning and… Willow.

I can’t leave Willow.


Which was why she had no intention of letting Buffy get the wrong – or even the right idea – about her and making something happen that she very much needed to postpone. Even if she couldn’t avoid it forever.

“There,” Tara said. “Everything’s there… in the right quantities. Quantity is very important. Almost as important as quality.”

“So… you mean size matters this time?” Buffy asked with a weak smile. She’d eased up, just a little, once she had something she could actually do. Some way that she thought she could make progress and help. It didn’t mean she was patient, but she wasn’t exactly as impatient…

But if she found nothing? What then?

Personally, Tara knew she’d have to consider it a good thing. Worse if Buffy found her and – she hadn’t thought of this before – maybe even blamed her for what had happened to her Mom. How? It wouldn’t be rational. Buffy didn’t need to be rational, not about this…

If she did… Then what?

“I guess,” Tara said, finding the ability to smile through her terror. She wasn’t giving this away, was she? She’d so many hopes for how she might… Even when the demon came, she’d hoped that the calming techniques Diana had taught them would help and – now it could be it was all going away and not because of anything she’d done…

It wasn’t fair.

“Am I that bad?” Buffy asked.

“B-bad?”

“You look worried? Am I that bad a witch?”

“No – I mean - I – I don’t know. I really don’t do magic with anyone else,” Tara said. Wicca group, but that hadn’t been the same. “Willow – of course - ”

“Yeah, she told me about your magic,” Buffy said, in a way which suggested Willow might’ve revealed the way certain spells had made them feel…

“Umm – and my Mom. I did spells with my Mom. She was the real witch in the family. She was… she was g-great.” Also, magic hadn’t felt like that with her.

“I’m glad you’re here, Tara,” Buffy said, squeezing her hands. “To make sure I don’t do this wrong. And… I’m glad you’re here because you understand too.”

Yes. I understand what you’ll do to help her.

I just hope you don’t do it to me.


“Are you ready?” Tara asked.

“Well – How about you remind me again? What happens?” Buffy asked, showing more doubt – when faced with actually doing this – than she’d shown at any point thus far. Was magic really that scary to other people? You had to respect it, sure, but… this was a Slayer. Her courage was epic…

Maybe though…

“You go into a trance,” Tara said. “I’ll be right here. And… you’ll see things differently, I guess. You can still move around, but try not to be too energetic or move too quickly. I think everything’s going to be a little… off for you.”

“You mean it’s going to get trippy?”

“I… I guess.”

“Is this a gateway drug, Tara?” Buffy asked, trying to be quippy about it, but really just coming off as worried.

“I – I don’t think so. I never thought of it that way, but I guess that is what it sounds like. But don’t worry, I’ll be with you and – just if you need to go do something then… leave the trance first. You remember the word?”

Buffy had set a word for herself, it was part of the process of preparing for the spell. There was some word that only she knew that would release her from the trance and end the experience. It was the only way to be sure that you didn’t get caught in there. On the other hand, no one else could know – or use – the word for her.

“Lets get this straight,” Buffy said, “because it sounds worse the more we talk about it. It’s like tripping on drugs and we need a safe word? Damn, you witches have all the illicit fun don’t you?”

But Buffy seemed to know what she was talking about there…

“Umm… If you don’t want to do it?” If she thought there was another way…

“I have to do it,” Buffy said.

“I know.”

“So let’s do this…” Buffy’s big, heroic act in that was to release the sand that she’d been keeping in her hands into the bowl while the incense burned and as they mixed… Tara watched her space out.

She’d had occasion to see a couple of people get high in her life and this… wasn’t like that at all. But there was a vacancy in the real world Buffy. She was someplace else. Here but not here. Theoretically half way between this plane and another one.

First of all Buffy held up her hand and looked at it for long seconds, maybe even a minute, turning it this way and that. Tara didn’t talk to her, didn’t say anything. She wasn’t entirely sure how much of it Buffy would hear. Every word in one way, but nothing in that other state of conciousness. She could break through, if she had to, get Buffy to say the word… but not unless rampaging demons came their way or something.

Or Buffy looked at her.

Will she see me?

It was at her that Buffy looked next, looking up from her hand to the person sat in front of her. Tara held her breath but there was no huge exclamation, no wonder or wariness. No questions. Buffy even reached out for her hand again and Tara allowed her to take it, until Buffy ran her fingers around the ring that Momma had given her and she wore on her thumb. She seemed… fascinated with that but then released her hand and…

That was it? That was what she’d been afraid of?

Nothing… there was nothing there.

Nothing for Buffy to see anyway. She was definitely in a trance, no question about that. She was focusing in a slightly different place to the things she was looking at. And she was… somewhere else. Here, but elsewhere at the same time.

She hadn’t expected Buffy to see her true self, she’d just worried about it. This spell was working as it should do then…

I’ve got a little longer…

Breathing more easily again, she knew now that she just needed to help her friend. Watch over her.

Walking into the den – where Joyce was resting – Tara watched Buffy walk up to her mother, almost as if her own mother was somehow alien to her. Like she was going to prod her in the cheek to check that she was real and there. “Nothing…” Buffy murmured as she looked at the – undisturbed – Joyce. Even in a trance the Slayer was far stealthier than she was. It was she who had to take care not to make any noises that might wake Joyce up.

She needed her rest, despite what was going on around them.

Buffy paused next in front of all the pictures that were up on the wall. Tara had spent time looking at them herself. Most of them showed a younger Buffy, and her Mom. There was a guy there, presumably Buffy’s Dad – she’d never asked - in a few of them. Friends. Places. Moments and memories.

Then there were the ones she’d enjoyed more. Her girl Willow with beautiful long hair. Xander goofing off. Buffy in a prom dress, before it famously got mussed. And there was even one that she was in. A group picture Joyce had taken when they’d been celebrating the end of their first year in college and the defeat of Adam, the exit of the Initiative and – hopefully – the government’s withdrawal from the ‘fighting the supernatural’ business.

It was a strange picture to keep; even Faith and Ethan were in it. But it was such a happy picture, who could say no to it?

Buffy stopped at that one, looking at it intently. Reaching for it. Faith… Faith wasn’t even separated from the group, she was right there in the middle of them. Pumped on victory and for once that hadn’t meant falling into bed with whoever she could find. That time it had seen Hope hoisted on her shoulders, Slayer strength overcoming Faith’s relatively diminutive stature. She’d been ‘too big’ for Giles – who as a bachelor had little experience hoisting kids on his shoulders - and so Faith had done it…

And Buffy was still looking at it. Reaching for it. Something about Faith then? Buffy touched the picture, reassuring herself that it was real, but it was Faith that she was looking at…

A shiver ran through her, if Buffy came to believe that Faith was responsible for what was happening for her Mom… It’d be a Battle Royale and this time to the death, she was sure of it.

Also, it wasn’t true. It couldn’t be.

And if Buffy thought about that, she’d realise it was hardly Faith’s style. If Faith wanted Joyce dead then she’d just kill her. If she wanted Buffy distracted and worried, she’d be more direct about that too. Kidnapping would’ve done a good job… But she couldn’t think of a reason that Faith would want either of those things. Not with Hope being as fond of Joyce as she was…

For sure the Slayer’s little sister wouldn’t know anything about it. Her famous loyalty to Faith wouldn’t have stretched that far.

Buffy seemed to have a purpose though, more determined – but still spaced out – she turned and started up the stairs. More to look at up there? More pictures maybe? No… Buffy eschewed the first two rooms though and went straight for the spare room… The one Hope was in.

It’d been a mistake not letting Hope know. She should’ve taken a moment, explained what was happening and that Buffy might be coming around being a little… odd.

Sticking close though, that was the way to reassure Hope. Buffy would just want to look around the room, see if she could find anything like that orb she was blaming for something it couldn’t be responsible for…

“Hey, B!” Hope said.

Buffy stared at her.

“I mean, Buffy. Umm. Hey?” Hope tried again just as Tara came up behind the Slayer. “What’s wrong with B - ”

“You’re… you’re not…” Buffy was hunting for the words, trying to focus. “You’re not here. You’re not real!”

Tara felt rooted to the spot as Buffy totally shocked her. Hope? She was saying Hope was… what? Unreal? Someone – something else? No… Not Hope. It was a thing, an orb. They knew that. Not Hope.

“You’re not real!” Buffy said again, this time she was lucid and in the same space as the rest of them. She must’ve breathed her safe word and snapped out of the trance. It hadn’t changed her accusation though.

It’d just added to the anger and focus. The Slayer shoved Hope and there was no keeping to her place when met with that much force. “What?! Tara?!” Hope wailed, looking to her for help as she stumbled backwards onto the bed.

Oh My God…

Buffy had a stake in her hand. Buffy always had a stake on her person and she’d never thought to take it off her before altering her reality… Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. She’d had no reason to think she needed to.

Hope hadn’t seen her imminent death yet though and Tara didn’t delude herself that either of them would be able to fight Buffy off. Instead of letting that happened, she grabbed Buffy’s wrist, keeping her from bringing the stake up.

Keeping her from launching herself at Hope. At least right away.

Hope was already upset, tears in her eyes. She had no idea… no idea what was happening or why? If Buffy was right then… she’d fooled everyone. Even herself? This was no unmasking it was… cruel.

It was what she’d been afraid would happen to her…

“No,” she said more firmly than she thought she could. Her grip on Buffy’s wrist was as tight and as hard as she could, for all the good it would do, and she deliberately dug in her short nails. Just to get through the anger.

Buffy whirled on her. “She’s not real, Tara. She’s not real! Let me go!”

“No.”

She couldn’t have stopped Buffy knocking her aside and slaying Faith’s sister. Not for five seconds, not even to buy Hope enough time to run, but the younger girl wasn’t looking to run. She was shocked, she was afraid and she was confused. “Tara!? What’s happening?”

Buffy shook her wrist free of Tara’s restraint, but pocketed the stake. It seemed like as much of a victory as she was likely to get. God… she couldn’t have see that piece of wood sticking up out of Hope’s chest as her life leaked away, could she? Would Buffy really have done that? Here in the house?

She’d seen… something… Something alien enough to scare her into staking a fifteen year old girl?

What could that have been?

And what happened when Faith found out?

“You stay away from my mother,” Buffy hissed at the girl and shoved her again when she tried to sit up. “She’s not real Tara, she’s not what we think she is. Get her out of here – get her out of this house. She’s not real.”

“She’s a kid,” Tara insisted, hoping reason and calm words might cut through the fear and panic that was gripping both of them. Just, in Buffy’s case, it was manifesting as violence. She grabbed Buffy’s shoulder when that didn’t seem to be working. “You just came within an inch of st – of beating up a child. You’re a Slayer – and look what you nearly did.”

Something about her judgement then did seem to cut through Buffy’s certainty. Maybe that was the right tone – but Buffy was right. She did have to get Hope out of here. Not because of Joyce or what she was alledgedly doing but because at this moment, she couldn’t trust Buffy not to snap again.

I can’t see this girl bleeding out on the bed… And I can’t protect her. Not here.

“Hope – get dressed and get your things, please don’t ask questions, just get them.”

She had to get Hope out of here, it was leave on her terms or Buffy’s.

“She’s not real, Tara…”

“You say…” she said, trying to show her friend the insanity of it. She’d been magically high – if you wanted to look at it like that – and almost killed Hope.

What if she’d seen me, the real me… who would’ve stopped her then?

It was the shock. The surprise. That was what she had to tell herself. She had to hope it would change later.

And what if Buffy was right about Hope…?

“Get out,” Buffy said, calm but fierce with it. “Get out and stay away from my mother.”

Honestly, Tara had no idea if Buffy meant her as well.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 90 - 06/14/13

Postby Azirahael » Fri Jun 14, 2013 12:33 pm

Dib!

Wow, harsh!

Poor hope, having a nice quiet evening, then buffy tries to stake her, and chucks her out of her homey-type home.
that'll give you a complex.

And Faith is gonna go mental!

Anyway, as to your thoughts about 'OMG, what happens next?" in the blurb:

I think of it like this: it's like going to a restaurant/food place that specializes in chicken. all you know is that you are going to get something involving chicken. you don't know if it's going to be crispy, spicy, steamed or minced until you get there. but at least you know it's not going to be beef.

And there is plenty of "What happens next?" more so than in a totally original story. at least for me.
For me it's like watching a new episode after seeing the teaser from last week. i have a vague idea what's going to happen, but the real joy is seeing how it all fits into my preconceptions. or breaks them.

Like Hope. we have a key. but she's Faith's sister, not Buffy's.
We have a goddess messing up the plot.

It's exciting for me, because i never know whether it's going to follow canon (not necessarily a bad thing) or veer wildly.
much anticipation.

Why? I do a LOT of work with stories. A LOT. Much 'behind the curtains' work.
so any original story, i can usually guess what's going to happen next, because they usually follow a familiar format.

With this story though, at each established plot point, you have the option of following canon, or not. or ignoring the plot point altogether. or adding a new one.
It's a surprise.
The restriction breeds suspense, for me, because i can't guess. i'm too close to see it, so to speak.

Awesome.

Looking forward to more. :bounce And having a little cry for poor Hope. :sob

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 90 - 06/14/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Sat Jun 15, 2013 1:19 pm

LEaving aside the bovious stuff, I'm glad you're not following canon on the little things where you easily could. Like giving lines to someone else isneta dof Xander, palying Anya's role with slight differences, making Willow less hostile to her, etc.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 90 - 06/14/13

Postby Katharyn » Sat Jun 15, 2013 10:06 pm

Azirahael - Yes, it is harsh. And you're right that Faith is not going to be... entirely happy about it.

And not at all what Tara was worried about. I just had to go there, her worries about being discovered, when this came up. I'm surprised the show didn't, though in truth she didn't sit central enough to the Scoobs to do that sort of thing. Except here :)

I very much like and appreciate your breakdown of the 'OMG what's going to happen next' I think when I wrote that note I was probably feeling a little vulnerable and saw all too much 'retelling of canon word for word' in what I was doing at that moment. On the other hand, I couldn't tell canon as canon was because I honestly don't remember it that well! I've not watched for years. However I was using scripts to inform what needed to be covered....

But I really like what you said there, it was very inspiring and - no matter what may come up that is canon-like - I know there's some hugely divergent stuff too :)

Thanks

Daddycatalso - And more on the same :) Some things I change through lack of memory, but others are changed because - really - of the influence of Tara on Willow (and vice versa). She's a better person with Tara, but that rubs off on you. It's not just when they are physically in the same place. So the Anya thing, putting up with Faith and the like...

Also, differences are fun :)

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon Jun 17, 2013 11:04 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Ninety-One
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: After the distraction of the spell to find the truth, they follow through original plan to visit the factory… But Faith isn’t very happy.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: I am sure there’s no big mystery at the cliff-hanger, but I’m doing it anyway for dramatic effect. Once again, it’s the difference between a novel and posting fic on a board  You guys can’t just turn the page until I let you… Oh, I’m just dizzy and drunk on the power (you could tell, right?!)



Willow knew Tara was coming before she even walked through the door of the Magic Box. Such was the nature of the happy accident of them both being so magically sensitive. Oh, and totally in love… Also it was good for other things, to tingle when your lover was near, let alone touching you.

When the tip of a finger running over your palm could almost make your knees weak… well, that had to make for an intense physical relationship.

All thoughts of touching and sexytimes receded when her girl came through the door though. Her face looked like someone had died… Oh, God, no one died did they? This was Sunnydale, after all. “What is it, baby?”

“It’s serious,” Tara said. “I think – I think you’d better come.”

“We found some stuff out,” Willow said. “Important stuff we wanted to talk to you about – Buffy too. What is it? What happened?”

Whatever her news was, it was obvious that Tara felt hers was the more significant. Usually, when it came to stuff like that, Tara’s judgement was spot on. She had such a lack of ego that she never just assumed her stuff was more important without good reason. So, yes, she was usually right…

Magically sensitive. Intimately wonderful. In love. And right…

It was a winning combination.

“I just took Hope home,” Tara said. “Buffy was about – I think Buffy might’ve killed her if I’d not taken her out of there - .”

“They fell out?” Willow asked, Hope was usually so easy to get along with. She had her moments like any teenage girl, less than most she was sure, but… Hope?

“No. I mean she might’ve killed her. Dead.”

Willow pursed her lips. “Okay… we definitely need to get into that, but… this is pretty major too.”

“Willow, I have to go. I have to get back to Faith and Hope, I have to stop Faith from - ”

“Going after Buffy,” Willow finished.

This could… this could be really bad.

But she needed to get this out too, it could all be connected. Maybe… “Baby, I understand – by which I mean I don’t understand any of it, but I get that you’re worried and that we have to deal with that. I just think… maybe we all have something to worry about. More to worry about. Giles and Ethan found out what the Orb is and we could be in serious trouble. Please, just wait for me – hear them out? Okay? I mean, Faith wasn’t there when you took Hope back was she?”

Tara blinked, shook her head and then agreed to live with her estimate. Followed her over to where Giles was still fretting over his books.

“There’s no way out of it, old man,” Ethan said. “It is what it is and keeping on looking isn’t going to change that.”

“These things don’t just drop off trees you know,” Giles said. “There might be another explanation.”

“What explanation? What is it?” Tara asked, looking at the orb on the table in front of them.

“It’s a Dagon Sphere,” Ethan said.

“We think it’s a Dagon Sphere,” Giles corrected. “I’m hoping for something different – anything in fact - because frankly because the consequences if it is a Dagon Sphere could be too terrible to imagine.”

“I don’t know,” Willow said. “I can imagine quite a bit.”

“What’s a Dagon Sphere?” Tara asked. “The – the short version. I mean, if you don’t mind? I’m – I’ve just got to – go.”

Which just went to show how concerned Tara was, getting back to Faith was really important to her, she must really be afraid of what might happen and how serious this was… that was entirely her estimate on things. Giles and Ethan better live up to it.

On the other hand if one of their Slayers went off to kill the other with what they knew now… Bad, bad news. Even if she didn’t succeed.

“They’re centuries old,” Ethan said. “Perhaps even older than that, probably – that’s when they show up in the records.”

“They were used to ward off great evil,” Giles said. “Primordial evil. The accounts of what the evil was are… vague to say the least. But a number of these spheres were made and distributed to sites likely to be threatened by it, keeping it from entering.”

“These,” Tara pointed to the books, “don’t say what the evil is at all?”

“No, they refer to the ‘Beast’ but then in the same breath, ‘the Nameless one’ which is contradictory, if you think about it.”

“Doubly so,” Ethan agreed. “If you call something ‘the Nameless one’ that’s rather giving it a name.”

“The point,” Giles said, “is that anything unnamed is usually a source of deep worship or fear – perhaps both.”

“Like a God?” Tara breathed, clearly seeing what they had.

“Or something that a God – or a Goddess – would have cause to fear.”

They knew about Diana’s warnings. They knew that the Goddess had fought something and… come out of it in not the best shape. This being the same Goddess who didn’t break a sweat to eliminate a horde of vampires and other assorted demons.

Even mussed would’ve been bad news.

“Where did Buffy say that she found this?” Giles asked.

“Outside a factory,” Tara supplied.

“Outside,” Willow highlighted. “Not being inside. Outside where someone might’ve taken it if they were – just for example – compelled to strip the place of its defences?”

“Letting the nameless one go from the outside to the inside.”

They were completing each other’s thoughts on this, it just seemed obvious where it was going. Scarily obvious. And after what had happened, Buffy was headed out there… possibly about to face something that Diana had cause to fear would end her existence… Along with everything else in the world.

On the other hand, hadn’t Diana encouraged Tara to pull Faith and Ethan together for that very reason? Expecting that they, alongside the Scoobies, might be able to do something…?

Damn it if that didn’t just make it sound like they had a chance… and so running away wasn’t an option?

Running away… rarely an option, to be fair. Not around here. This was Sunnydale. Throw a stone in the air and it’d land on something most people would run from. And they were the ones who had to hold firm…

“Do we want to give the nameless one a name?” Ethan asked. “Eye spy, with my little eye, something beginning with G.”

“Buffy - ” Tara said, just as the doorbell tinkled.

“No, that’s B. I said ‘G’.”

“I really should lock up…” Giles said and they all looked around.

But it wasn’t a customer, it was Faith – pulling Hope behind her by the arm – and looking like she meant some serious business.

Oh. That would be the thing Tara was afraid of.

“Where is she?” Faith asked.

“She?” Willow wondered, not really wanting everyone to find out what was happening from an angry Faith. Stoking that particular fire was likely to lead to some kind of explosion… In no way could that be good.

“Red, I’m not in the mood. Let me make it really clear. Where. Is. Buffy. Summers?”

Not B. Not Buffy. Not even any profanity. Just getting to the point.

Without waiting for an answer, and seeing that Buffy wasn’t – in fact – there, Faith allowed her anger to do the talking. And it sounded very dangerous. “The only person who gets to beat on Hope is me. Now where is she?”

“She’s going to the factory,” Tara said and everyone else stared at her like she was mad, or a traitor. A mad traitor. But… that wasn’t it. Willow caught her girlfriend’s eye and realised that Tara was using this anger she’d been afraid of, turning it into something that might help.

Anyone who knew her knew Tara was clever. What fewer people realised was that Tara was also a great reader of people.

Tara wanted Faith out there too. And right now, in this mood, knowing that Buffy was about to run into something that might be able to kick the Slayer’s ass might’ve suited Faith down to the ground. But putting her in the same place, using her own anger to lead her by the nose?

It was bold, and it wasn’t likely to be forgiven easily, but it might’ve been the only choice they had if things were as bad as they feared.

“I’m – I’m meeting her there,” Tara continued.

“Don’t worry. Just chill out. I’ll take care of it, T.”

Tara shook her head. “I’m not leaving you with her, not in this mood.”

“Good - ” Giles was interrupted by the phone starting to ring.

“You were there, Tara. I know you got B off Hope and that’s why I’m listening to you at all, the only reason, but - ”

“Whatever she did,” Willow said. “Buffy will have thought she had a good reason.” Though threatening Hope, which Tara had already confirmed to her, that was kind of hard to find an excuse for. But there must be one. Not just an excuse. A reason.

“Best case,” Faith said. “She was high. If it was me, I’d get it. Whatever she thought – chances are I did it. But Hope? Give me a break. People call me a fuck up, Red. But I don’t smoke. I don’t shoot up and I don’t go into magical trances that make me want to beat up young kids. Not even this one.”

And Willow really didn’t have an answer for that… She hadn’t heard Buffy’s side. She hadn’t even heard Tara’s side. Her jaw moved, but nothing was coming out so she closed her mouth.

“Nothing to say?” Faith asked. “Good. If you’re coming, T, then you’re coming now.”

“I’m coming too,” Willow said.

“I – I was – Actually I was hoping you’d stay with Hope,” Faith said, just a little less angrily than she had been. Almost like she was asking for a favour. Which was something she never really did. Usually she just expected.

Now she was asking. The world was askew once more. One day it would be so askew it’d actually be right side up again.

“But - ”

“Willow, if Buffy comes back for Hope, you’re one person who can talk her down. You and Tara maybe, but T’s coming with me. Right?”

“She won’t hurt me,” Hope said. “She – she was just mad about something – I don’t know what, but she wouldn’t hurt me.”

It sounded like more of a hope than an honest belief. Hope was shaken, no doubt. Which was why she hadn’t been able to hide something had happened. Even from Faith, who had the empathy of a stone.

“No,” Faith said. “She won’t.”

Tara gave her a look, once again it seemed they were going to be parted but for the best of reasons. “Giles could – I mean Buffy wouldn’t go through him either - ”

“Giles can’t,” the man himself said as he put the phone down. “Giles has been asked by Buffy to go and stay with her Mother until she gets back, apparently she feels I need to keep both Hope and Faith from her door.”

Everyone looked at each other. There was so much going on that no one seemed to have the real, full story. And no one had time to tell it either.

Did Tara know it all?

“I’ll head over there as soon as I lock up here,” Giles added.

“Did she tell you - ?”

Tara must’ve decided that there wasn’t much point in debating any further, everyone apparently knew where they were supposed to be. Even if they didn’t want it to go that way. “I – we need to go,” she said. “All of us do.”

Giving a quick kiss and a squeeze, Tara left, following the impatient Slayer. Impatient at the best of times… This probably wasn’t a good time to be with Miss Lehane. At least that was what she couldn’t help thinking. Paradoxically, it was probably why Tara felt she had to go.

“All of us?” Anya asked. “What do you want us to do?” She, Xander and Ethan had been left without any sort of mission.

“Stay if you like,” Giles said. “But, for goodness sake, lock the doors. People keep wandering in.”

“And what?” Xander replied. “Hope they don’t have blasters?”

“Blasters?”

Was she the only one still here who got what he was talking about? No, there was Faith and Hope… Everyone else just looked blank. Heathens.

“Never mind…”

“Come on,” Willow said, putting an arm around Hope who was nearly taller than her and not doing a great job of hiding being upset. “Let’s go make you some hot chocolate.”

Anya shook her head. “No chocolate?” Willow asked. “Coffee? Juice?”

More shakes of the head.

“What does he have?”

“What do you think?” Xander asked.

Oh… Right.

Tea.

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Talking to Faith hadn’t really helped. The Slayer wasn’t much of a talker, more of a do-er (the clue was in the name) and it was the ‘doing’ she wanted to do to Buffy that Tara was trying to talk her friend out of.

“Hope wasn’t hurt,” she said, trying one more time. “If she was crying then it was just shock, maybe she hurt her butt – but it was the bed she landed on - ”

“Don’t make excuses for her. If Buffy had done that to Willow, you’d be mad as hell. She’s too used to getting away with things because she’s a Slayer - ” Faith paused, “Okay, you could say that about me too. Fine. I’m a bitch and proud of it. But when she does it, everyone thinks its okay just because she’s Buffy and she wouldn’t do anything wrong. Guess what, she’s a fuck up too. And this time she did. I’m pissed, because it’s wrong, okay?”

“You’re right, it’s wrong – I mean, it wasn’t the right thing for Buffy to do. No way. No matter what – Hope’s a kid. But you can’t just go in there and - ”

Faith waved her back, something intangible having alerted her. They were at the factory and it was far from just being shut down, even if – so far – it was deserted and there was no sign of Buffy either.

The ‘something intangible’ turned out to be more tangible than you might’ve thought. What Faith had spotted was a large set of steel doors that… well, you couldn’t exactly call them doors anymore. They looked like they’d been pounded on, eventually pierced and then the resulting damage used as a hand holds to rip them outwards and most of the way off hinges that were nearly as round as her wrist.

In other words something immensely strong had gone through them… eventually. And – if you were to look at where they’d been struck, you might’ve thought you made out the imprint of a closed fist.

Maybe. Except that would’ve been crazy.

And why you even needed doors like that in a factory? She didn’t know.

But that was just the first set… Peering around the damage, she and Faith could see another set beyond them that looked like they’d gone the same way except this time the thing that had done it had smashed away at the reinforced concrete they were set into and ripped them away from the outside in.

“Umm… you couldn’t do all this, right?” she asked as they sidled up to the second set of doors.

“Not without a jackhammer, a generator and a couple of hours…” Faith admitted. Though massively stronger than any man and most demons, a Slayer had limits. And this was beyond them. Way beyond them. Faith pounding with all her might probably wouldn’t have left a dent. She’d have found another – easier – way to get in.

“We should - ”

Tara didn’t finish the thought as through the doors came Buffy. And she obviously wasn’t moving under her own power.

Rather she’d been thrown out of the room beyond, straight across the one they were in and hit the concrete with a thud that surely would’ve been fatal to anyone who wasn’t a Slayer.

In fact, once gravity took over and Buffy slid to the ground, Tara could see that the impact had left an impression where concrete had flaked away. That wall had been undamaged before…

Ouch.

They looked at Buffy. They looked at each other. Then their natural inclinations took over and Faith was watching the doorway Buffy had just come through – argument temporarily forgotten in the face of a bigger threat - while Tara hurried over to the fallen Slayer.

She was still moving, which was good, but she didn’t look well at all.

And then the click of something hard taking steps on the concrete and a woman’s voice, unfamiliar but utterly unconcerned to be discovered here. “Oh… more meat sacks, how absolutely special.”

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Azirahael » Mon Jun 17, 2013 3:14 pm

Dibs! Dibs! Dibs!

Why? because i care, that's why!

That and i'm the Mayor of Dibbington, got to keep the badge of office polished y'know.

Ok, i gotta say, i was expecting Faith to go nuclear.
And anyone who knows her has got to be freaking out right now, because she looks serious.

I mean Buffy threatened to kill her family if they tried to hurt Dawn, and was willing to sacrifice the world for her.
Now take that level of unthinking over-protectiveness and multiply by Faith.

Faith is gonna beat the shit out of Buffy, that's a given.
What happens after, that's a little different.

And i gotta say, canon Buffy always had a degree of self righteousness (which was semi understandable) that was annoying.
But your Buffy walks the fine line between that and outright unpleasantness.

And poor Willow! Knowing that her sweetie is headed into danger, and staying behind to mind the chil'un.
Turn about is fair play :)

I like how you've managed the difficult task of making this Tara more active and outgoing, while still being the Tara we know and love. Rather than an action girl, that has a passing resemblance to her.
I think the key is: that she does all these things, because it's important, and she has to. but she'd much rather not.

She's really well done.
I love brave Tara!

Keep up the good work! :flower

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jun 18, 2013 12:35 pm

Thank you, Mayor Azirahael :)

Faith is by no means calm, but she's also a survivor. She can kill Buffy later, but for now... There's a bigger problem. In a red dress.

Love your 'multiply by Faith' comment, great way of putting it.

The Buffy 'unpleasantness'... I am very aware of this, but I think it's a product of the point of view. I have my problems with her as a character in canon - to the extent I was looking for ways to take her and some others out of this story. But then I came to actually enjoy having her there. What I think you may be seeing (I hope!) is what happens when she's not at the centre of the story. When you can't see her perspective like you could in the show, I think some of the things that annoyed me about her (after S1 really) really become more obvious.

Also, I'm pushing Tara and Willow into the 'heroic' role, which gives Buffy fewer opportunities to shine and make up for things.

But then, I didn't actually watch the show for that character even at the very start :) And no reading is wrong. That's just how I feel about her.

The Tara as more outgoing... well, I think it's actually just making her more rounded. A fuller character and not just 'the girlfriend'. As in Sidestep where she was a product of what happened to her, I do like to think that if the show had given her more she'd have been this sort of person because - as you point out - she's doing the right thing as best she can. And that's just Tara, brave or not.

And, because of that, Buffy has a little less to do and looks worse.

Thank you again.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Kajun » Tue Jun 18, 2013 5:39 pm

Katharyn, What? You thought I abandoned this wonderful story? No way! It’s just proving to be a very hectic year with little time for posting. Finally I have a few moments, with a minimally functioning brain, so I’ll get right to it..

Hope! That was such a surprise and I totally love the change. Dawn was very annoying most of the time, which, I suppose, works for a teenage character, but it was a bit over the top --especially her constant screaming and whining. UGH! Hope is cool though. :grin Somehow, I think Faith would feel protective of her even without the false memories. I suppose we’ll find out in short order how/if the truth about Hope’s origin changes their relationship.

You’re probably expecting me to get on Buffy’s case for shoving Faith’s little sis. Nope. Joyce is very sick and, being in Sunnydale, it’s easy to assume the cause is something supernatural. Plus, the reveal spell supported that idea and points to Hope. That’s something Buffy can fight, and beat. Natural illness is a whole ‘nother story. Tara has experience dealing with serious medical problems and bless her for trying to keep Buffy from going off the deep end –just in case Joyce’s condition isn’t mystically induced. Unfortunately for Hope, Buffy hasn’t properly interpreted the meaning of the spell yet. Damn. Buffy actually handled that much better than I would have. Tara will need to figure things out quick coz once the dust settles from this encounter with Glory, Faith will be back on task of making minced meat of her rival. Yikes!

Willow is getting along with Faith reasonably well and her unwavering support is essential but there’s an awful big load of responsibility on Tara’s shoulders. I know she can handle it but I’d like to see Willow step up a bit more often. I’m not just worried about the amount of stress Tara is under; I’m also worried about Ethan discovering the key. Sure he worships Diana but will his loyalty shift when he realizes Glory is much more powerful? It’s a scary thought that the Huntress would appear worn down and the dogs have battle scars too. If that doesn’t clue the Scoobies in on how dire the situation is.. nothing will! Oh.. wait.. the Dagon Sphere. Someone should point out to Buffy that Hope was in the same vicinity as the sphere and nothing happened which means she can’t be evil. The same can be said for Tara although Tara thinks her demon won’t ascend until her birthday so it’s likely the sphere wouldn’t have any effect on her until then. Ugh. There’s just no getting around it. Tara will continue to carry that burden for a while longer.

Does Ben exist or is someone else *coughEddiecough* serving as human host to the brain sucking Goddess? Are Diana and Glory sisters? What’s going to happen next? Tell me!!!! LOL just kidding, I’m enjoying the suspense that only comes from not knowing what’s lurking around the corner. There are plenty of twists and turns while sticking with the main plot points of the show. I’ve said before this is my favorite BTVS season. It’s pretty impressive storytelling to make me like this version more than the original. Awesome, awesome, awesome! My feedback is gonna continue be sporadic but I’ll post when I can.. for sure! :)
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Azirahael » Tue Jun 18, 2013 6:19 pm

You know, Buffy The Vampire Slayer could easily be renamed 'The Willow Show' or 'The Rise and Fall of Willow Rosenberg'

Not only was she the most developed character, (admittedly in some bad ways) but she had more screen time than anyone, including Buffy.

If i remember correctly, she was in 3 more episodes than Buffy.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 91 - 06/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Tue Jun 18, 2013 7:52 pm

Kajun - !!!!!

I figured/hoped it was something like that. Welcome back, you were missed :)

Yes, Hope is the anti-Dawn. She was written to be good where Dawn was bad, but to keep the elements of Dawn (mostly from S6 that shall not be referred to) that were good. She's also, kind of, influenced by Toni and Faith (Jenny/Giles daughter) from Sidestep. Certainly she got written very similarly to that teenage Faith who I wish I had more time for in Sidestep.

Because it never made logical sense to me in S5 we will have more analysis here of just what the monks did. In fact they'll be worrying about it for a long while. I am a little surprised you are not on Buffy's case, but then she's not been nasty to Tara so... maybe your hackles haven't been raised ;)

You've picked up on something very important re Diana and the dogs there and the battle they had - without winning. Hold onto that thought (for a long time!)

Willow stepping up. This may be my natural bias towards Tara but also, I think that Willow is something of a follower. Tara, not necessarily. I think if she has to step up (as she has had to) then she can do what she has to, but I think Willow - immensely proud - might see her job in that to be all the support Tara needs and to recognise her own limitations. Do you think she knows she doesn't always makes the best decisions? Perhaps when faced with them, when trusting Tara so very much she does see that? Tara's also the 'new' perspective. But all of these characters can and will be wrong. I have said this over and over but it goes against what we usually read here on Pens. They are not infallible. They have, are and will make mistakes that you will not even realise are mistakes until I say, 'right, remember when...?' Hopefully then you will go, 'Ohhh! You didn't just pull that out of your ass.'

See, I am relying on it :)

Anyway, Tara has a LOT of support from Willow. But in a different way than you mean, perhaps. I just love writing Tara this way and so Willow loses some of her chances (like Buffy!)

And yes, all the stuff about the Sphere and what made Joyce ill... all of this is considered :) I have (long winded) time after all!

You just insist on Eddie being something unusual. Okay, he is. Eddie is a freak. He's normal. Truly. He's Buffy's bit of strange - which is to say normal. I am not even kidding or misleading. I'd do a lot more with him if he was a bad guy!!! I can say this because my own rules mean he can't be Ben. Nothing external, nothing unaffected by the changes to the story is being altered. And Eddie was slated to die before Diana came along... (the first canon victim of S4 I believe). It's not Eddie!

As for who Ben is. Well, Ben is Ben. But until we have a perspective that has cause to see Ben... he's just out there. It's a similar problem for Glory. You can't put people in a room with her very often (because she would tear them apart!) so we won't see as much of her as I would like to show you. Ben...? Well, if Dawn is now Hope and Faith's sister there's less opportunity for Ben to play a part too. So... some of this will be covered by 'remember what was happening in canon' notes LOL

Thank you so much for finding the time to catch up and posting about it :)

Azirahael - It's funny, I was just prepping a chapter today where Willow muses on the name of the TV show they'd be in if they were in a TV show. It was already there before your comment, but you can own it if you like when it gets posted :)

Thanks!




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