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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 80 - 05/11/13

Postby faolan228 » Sat May 11, 2013 9:43 pm

JFC, Hope sounds exactly like my little sister. No Death poll for hope. Nope. Nope, nope, nope.

But she's an adorable little smartie pants and I want to squish her. As stated above, you really did blend into this better than canon did. Can't wait for more.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 80 - 05/11/13

Postby Azirahael » Sun May 12, 2013 1:41 pm

P.S: Told you Faith was the REAL Slayer! :)

And it matters!

God help anyone who goes after Hope.

I actually see this as a great opportunity for Faith to build some bridges with Buffy.
They may not get on, but Faith is going to need some help.
And as much as she may hate the idea, she's going to have to ask for it.

I sit here on the couch wriggling in anticipation :)

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 80 - 05/11/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon May 13, 2013 2:13 pm

Daddcatalso - Hi, thanks very much :)

Yeah, I'm not going anywhere near that joke you didn't want to mention LOL.

Other fics? Sadly I wouldn't know, but I suppose there are only so many combinations. Though I do wonder how Faith and (real) Dawn could have gotten along! LOL. My Faith... no patience for that ;)

I commented on the blending below, but thank you :) And definitely, not a ten year old. On the otehr hand - for story reasons - I need to keep protecting her (even before there is a real reason to) which is something she won't understand... She'd be fine. She doesn't need to be babysat but... somehow it still happens. Unlike Dawn who could get herself in trouble in a nunnery.

LOL

Thanks again!

Yes!

Finally, someone - Azirahael - likes a character I want to be likable!! :)

Hope is... she may be one of my fave things about this story (if only because she exists alongside Faith who is my other fave thing)

The smarts? Well, I may not play those out as much as I hint at here, but she doesn't need to be showing that all the time...

You read her as Dawn, occasionally I still write the name (if not the character!) And yes... she is very different from Dawn. She is not Dawn except in as much as she is the sister of a Slayer. End of connection. Oh, and Monks made her.

We'll get more on the 'terrible fate' as we go, but it's really not crucial to their story. It's just their background...

Thanks for being supportive!!!

Faolan - Hey, no there will be no Hope death pool. Poor kid has other things going on!

I wasn't concious of a better or worse job on blending if only because I can't remember how good or bad it was in canon! :)

Thank you!

Azirahael - again - Umm, I thought I told YOU that Faith was the real Slayer. Or Faith told the others that... but I wrote her :)

Umm, who could be going after Hope if she has to exist? Remember the rules... that which comes from outside the changes in Sunnydale still happens...

I won't say it, but you can tell what I mean. Right?

And you're right... Faith does need help.

Wriggle and wiggle away :)

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 80 - 05/11/13

Postby Azirahael » Mon May 13, 2013 3:32 pm

Squeee!

I cant wait!

*bounce*bounce*bounce*bounce*bounce*

*wriggle*wriggle*

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 81 - 05/14/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon May 13, 2013 9:28 pm

Well, since you wriggled so nicely, everyone has already replied and I'm far enough ahead to be able to... please find the next part below :)

Also, it may interest you to know, that I recently added a PWP bonus part to the mix. That will come up after 'The Real Me' ends... :D

Just cos.

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Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-One
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: ‘The Real Me’ continued.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So I’m really hoping that the last part will have gone over okay, we’re still in ‘The Real Me’ of course, but that was the big, bulky information-dump introduction to Hope. I guess I wanted everyone to see where ‘Hope’ comes from, rather than just making her ‘Dawn’ with dark hair, extra height and more up top.
I’m also anticipating speculation, about the deep, dark secret… Of course, months before I post, I have no idea what I’ve already given away as I write this but I will say it’s not essential to the story and I may not ever clarify it. You don’t have to, you know? There are things that shape us, that stay with us, but when things look up – you don’t have to dwell on, talk out or deal with. Or we might… I have to say, I’ve actually enjoyed these Hope parts, both Tara’s introduction to her and Hope’s own words. I guess she fits into usual High School kid that I tend to write, really. Toni from Sidestep was complex but not bitchy. A good kid really and I think that’s where I’m going with Hope, but do we really need another, bitchy Lehane girl? I’m guessing not, that might be too much. I figure that if they were too alike they’d either take over – or destroy – the world.
Thanks to: Anyone who ‘gets it.’



“Everything, okay?” Willow asked as Tara led Hope back in. Since she’d been asked to wait outside because of the very dead, very bitten and thus not very bloody body, something had to have happened to reverse that.

Tara was all for keeping Hope out of the life that the rest of them had to lead.

“Just some crazy guy,” Tara said, tipping her a look that said she shouldn’t go into it now. “Don’t worry, she’s fine – but I wanted to bring her back in.”

Hope had sat herself on the other side of the store, already writing in her journal. Probably about the crazy guy. That was probably enough to make anyone’s journal. ‘Dear Diary, today I got shouted at by a crazy guy.’

She did love that journal though… everything went in there. Or maybe it didn’t. But everything looked like it went in there. You couldn’t see someone like Hope doing it half assed.

“It’s a good job you went out then,” Willow said, kissing her girlfriend on the cheek, noticing Hope watching them and then writing in her diary. “You think she really writes down every time she sees us kiss?” They’d speculated on it before, but there was often a flurry when they did.

“I don’t know.”

“What about when we…? Do you think she… makes notes?”

“We’ve been keeping it down,” Tara reassured her. “Haven’t we?”

“At least when she’s in, I guess.”

“So what do we know?” Tara asked.

“People who know vampires better than I do,” Willow replied, pointing at the small circle – more of a triangle since there were three such experts – “say there were four of them. At least. Probably happened last night.”

“I guess that must be right then,” Tara agreed. “Since they’re the experts.”

“Hey, T, did you let the squirt back in?” her sister asked.

Tara nodded, not going into details. Telling Faith some guy had been shouting at her sister would be… bad. For him. And a distraction from what was important right now, Willow got why Tara didn’t say. It’d been dealt with. It didn’t need to be FUBF’d.

Effed Up By Faith.

“She’ll be okay, she knows stuff happens,” Willow pointed out.

“She’s fifteen,” Giles said. “A tad on the young side to be exposed to - ”

“I’m right here,” Hope said. “Right here, you know? You’re talking about me and I’m right here.”

“There’ve been thirteen year old Slayers,” Faith reminded him while she ignored her sister. But Willow considered that they were probably both right, for different reasons.

“That doesn’t mean it was a good idea,” he said, miffed to be accosted by his own history lesson. Who’d have thought? And by Faith?

“I’m going to head out, T,” Faith said, pointedly ignoring the man who was officially her Watcher – or unofficially since she was actually still wanted on suspicion of crimes she’d definitely committed – and instead informed Tara.

“No, you’re not,” Buffy said. “This one’s mine.”

“Two lots of head are better than one. There’s never been a time that’s not been true.”

“Oh, God, listen to yourself - ” Buffy started.

“You’re watching your sister,” Tara interrupted before the innuendo could get any clearer. Clear enough for Hope. “Remember?”

Faith was about to say something to them, then turned to look over to her sister instead. “Hey, Hopeless?”

“Yeah?”

“You okay sticking with the witches?”

“Yeah,” the girl shrugged like she didn’t mind at all. She’d spent more time with them than Faith, after all.

“There, see? Sorted.”

Buffy wasn’t having it though. “You can’t just assume that Tara and Willow will - ”

“No,” Tara said, sighing. “It’s okay. We’re going to see your Mom later, Buffy. She can come hang out if she wants. Joyce will be glad to see her again.”

“But my Mom’s working tonight,” Buffy said to them. “So she won’t be watching Hope. Look, why don’t you just tell Faith she’s got to do it, before she gets away?”

“Later!” Faith called and it was already too late.

“Maybe she’ll find the vamps, that would have to be worth letting her off the hook,” Willow said, trying to keep the peace. Trying to be a good girlfriend and friend both, even though her natural inclination was to side with Buffy.

“If Hope were my sister…” Buffy said, letting the rest of it just hang there. A huge sigh.

“So what’s happening now?” Hope asked. “Did someone call the police?”

They all looked at each other, no one had actually thought to do that… yet. But it was a good point. “Oh yeah, that.”

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The detective that finally came around – once the police had turned the store into a crime scene – was kind of cute, for an older guy, but he didn’t want to speak to me. There were plenty of people there who weren’t telling him what was really going on and I think he kind of knew it.

But that was okay, because he didn’t want to hear it. All on his own he decided it might’ve been a gang thing. Everyone nodded when he said it and just said things that fitted with what they’d said. And when he wondered if the killers might have been on something, Giles had mentioned ‘the scourge of PCP in Sunnydale’ and that was that… everything back to normal.

I don’t really know what PCP does, but I do sometimes wonder whether there’s ever actually
been any in this town? They all use it as an excuse so much, seems like it should be more common than candy if so many people were on it?

It’s not real though, not real at all.

You know what is real though? What my sister’s going to do to them. Faith’s out there, hunting them down. Buffy and the others will be out there soon too. They’re leaving me with Buffy’s Mom – or at least at their house. Turns out Joyce is off to some function for her gallery tonight and so everyone had to decide who was looking after me.

Like I really need looking after? I mean, I’m fifteen and pretty soon they’re going to have to get used to leaving me on my own. It’s not like I’m a kid, is it?

But Tara was the lucky one; we could’ve just gone ‘home’ if they’d not moved out of the Rosenberg’s today. But for some reason – I think it’s because of all the spell defences on the Summers house – I usually get watched round here anyway. It’s okay, Mrs Summers has a neat spare room with a bed and a desk. They call it the guest room, but it’s really all mine. I can do my homework, watch TV, take a nap if I want to.. Sometimes I have to do that; they can be so late getting back.

When people talk about a good night’s sleep, I usually end up wondering what that is? How many hours? Usually I wake up when they get back, I like to do that. So I know everything is okay. It was the same when me and Faith were travelling. I think that’s where I get it from.

So Tara’s coming around after she and Willow move in into their new dorm room. I wonder if Faith’s actually going to get around to moving us into the apartment she keeps telling me about, or will she just give me a key, point the way and that’ll be it? Probably that. She’s not really… well, organised.

Or well organised.

Earlier, I told Mrs Summers that I’d asked Tara again to show me what she and Willow do. I should’ve waited for Buffy’s Mom to go out because she got all flustered and I had to say – again - that I meant the witchy thing, not the lesbian thing and then – just because I said ‘lesbian’ she got all shocked. Like it was a dirty word or something.

I guess, if you look at the internet, it kind of is. Not that I do that… but Willow’s told me more than once about her she’s pissed that anything she wants to look at always comes back – in the search – with a lot of porno first.

Mrs Summers doesn’t
mind lesbians, she obviously likes Tara and Willow a whole lot. But I think she thinks I’m a vulnerable, young mind and that if you say the word around me then I might just get made into one. Is it that simple? I tried it you know, I said it out loud ten times, looking at the swimsuit section of an old catalogue and it didn’t do anything for me.

I don’t think I’m a lesbian.

At least not because of saying the word.

But just to be sure I switched to the guys swimsuits and said ‘heterosexual’ out loud ten times too. Why do all those guys look like ken-dolls? I mean they have muscles and everything but nothing – you know – down there. Not that I was looking. Not much anyway.

I think Buffy kind of regrets letting her Mom in on the whole ‘I’m a Slayer thing’ because now, when Joyce asks how things are, whether there’s anything she should know, Buffy actually tells her. And that started another ‘loud discussion.’ Anyone would think I was Buffy’s sister the way that Joyce sometimes tells her off for not keeping me out of the way and things.

I’m not a baby, but sometimes I think she thinks I am. Maybe just that I’m the normal girl – and I guess I am, compared to Slayers and witches and ex-demons and… Xander. Also, she doesn’t think that Faith’s looking after me right and so she expects Buffy to do her part – along with all the others.

That’s okay though, I like them all well enough and Faith’s done me the biggest solid already. You know, apart from the
other thing, she stuck around here.

We could’ve been on the run now, I guess she’d have taken me with her – she always said she’d never leave me behind - and… it was bad enough when she was in hospital and everyone was looking after me and saying it wasn’t my fault. But leaving it all behind to be on the run with her? I’m glad we didn’t have to do that.


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“Hey you,” Willow said, coming back into the room with what should be the last box.

Tara smiled to herself, anticipating the slightly breathless kiss before it even landed on her neck. They’d been carrying boxes full of their stuff – and been together - for long enough that it was definitely the physical effort that lead to the lack of breath. Not the occasion.

Moving in together was old hat, almost. They’d practically spent half of last year in the same bed and then they’d moved into the Rosenberg house so they’d done it once. Now they were just moving together. It felt like less of an occasion.

“Sure you want to do this?” Willow asked.

“Move into dorms?”

“Share a room with me again, without much in the way of personal space,” Willow said. “You know, just a room. Not a whole house.”

“No question,” she said. “But if there was one thing I’d do differently…”

“What?” Willow asked, enfolding her in her arms from behind.

“I’d get a Slayer, maybe two. Perhaps even a Slayer’s sister. You know, to help us move.”

“We’ve moved everything now and do you really want Hope – or Faith – going through our stuff?”

“We don’t have many secrets,” Tara said, holding Willow’s hands under hers. “I mean there’s that one, small box but... you’re right. No one should be going in there.”

“Anyway, you had your chance,” Willow said. “You could’ve brought Hope here and she could’ve helped you while I’m out. Or… were you trying to escape?”

“Says the girl who volunteered to go hunting?”

“I asked first.”

“No,” Tara admitted. “I… This place isn’t very big, but also I feel like we should keep Hope going round to see Joyce.”

“Empty nest syndrome?”

“Some of it was really good, she’s got back into her work in a big way, but every so often she says something that tells me she’s missing having someone there now Buffy’s in dorms again.”

“You’re so thoughtful,” Willow nuzzled up against her neck.

“Hope likes her too, I think – I think it’s a good idea for her to have a mother figure, don’t you?”

“Lord knows her sister doesn’t meet the criteria. She means a lot to you, doesn’t she?”

Tara thought about that, or at least the reason. “I always wanted a little sister, but instead there was just me and Donny… he wasn’t much like a little sister.”

“She’s a good kid. Can you imagine if Faith was like her?”

She shook her head as she decided. “Probably she’d have been a rubbish Slayer.” And a rubbish Slayer would’ve been a quickly dead Slayer, so… no.

“You think?”

“Buffy and Faith, they’ve both lasted longer than most – that’s what Giles says anyway. I think maybe that’s because they think for themselves.”

“Hope thinks for herself too,” Willow pointed out.

“I think, maybe, I meant that they don’t just do as they’re told. They improvise. Sometimes they improvise a lot. They’re more alike than they seem, you know?”

“Don’t tell them that,” Willow said, “they might feel the need to have another fight about it.”

“Better on the practice floor than out there,” Tara said. “I mean, I know that it’s both of them, but I figure it does Buffy more good than Faith.”

“No way!” Willow didn’t let go despite her shock at that statement.

“Oh, I know what you mean. I can see why you’d say that,” Tara agreed. “But I think that for Faith it’s one of those things that if she gets alienated again then she could easily go right off the deep-end and this time there’ll be no bringing her back.”

“No one will give her the chance,” Willow warned, as if she didn’t know the stakes. “But what do you mean about Buffy then?”

“She’s got like an… everyday need to get rid of all that tension there is between them.”

“You think there’s tension?” Willow asked.

“Not that kind of tension, that’d be like those stories on the internet,” Tara said. “People who’d never, ever hook up, getting together.”

“Funny stuff.”

“I guess.”

“So, beating on Faith does Buffy more good but there are more serious consequences if Faith doesn’t get to do it?” Willow summarised.

“I really think the alienation that’d push Faith away would actually happen if Buffy fell out with her,” Tara said. “I mean, really fell out with her. Gave up on her.”

“I think, maybe, you’re right,” Willow decided. “And this, Tara Maclay, love of my life, is why you’re essential to all of us. You figure stuff like this out and then you do something about it.”

“Anyone could - ”

“No one did,” Willow interrupted, holding her. “No one did. No one realised that, deep down, Faith did need other people. Maybe she doesn’t even realise it herself – she’d deny it, I’m sure. She needs other people to approve of her, someone to tell her she’s doing a good job.”

“It’s not me though. Hope does that,” Tara said. “She just knows her sister, what Faith needs. So I think mostly I picked it up from her.”

Willow kissed her neck again, but denied it. “I don’t think so. I think you’d have her pegged anyway. You’d have figured Faith out. Hope’s just a useful guideline.”

“She’s more than that.”

“Well, not just a useful guideline, she’s a good kid too.”

“And the rest. Do you think they’ll be okay?”

“In the apartment?” Willow asked.

“Yeah.” With Faith about to take her sister to live in an apartment that made their dorm look like a dog house, ill-gotten gains, she was worrying about it. Not the location. Just… how things would work out.

“Maybe. I can see why you’d worry though.”

“I think… with a little help, they can make it into a home. Like this place,” Tara said.

“Home, isn’t a place,” Willow promised her. “It’s just where you are.”

Pulling Willow’s hand to her lips, she kissed the back of it. “Thanks, love.”

“Oh, it was my distinct pleasure. But don’t worry, she’ll be fine. She’s fitting in, she’s ready to go back to school… Nothing to worry about.”

“Who do you mean?” Tara asked. “Faith or Hope?”

Willow laughed. “I can see that could be confusing. I actually meant Hope.”

“I just… I don’t want her to feel like an outsider,” Tara said.

“The unsaid part of that was ‘like me’ wasn’t it? You’re not an outsider, Tara.”

“I sort of am,” Tara said. “And that’s okay. I’ve not been around as long.”

“No. You’re one of the good guys,” Willow said.

She didn’t mean to freeze, to tighten up. But she knew she did because Willow reacted to it. Holding her. Their skin in contact. How could she miss it? “What?”

“Nothing,” she lied. No, it wasn’t nothing. Would they think she was such a good guy in a few months time? Or… would she be the great deceiver in their midst?

“You’re so good you keep everyone from killing each other,” Willow said. “You’ve got Faith and Ethan working for us instead of causing trouble. You’ve got your own Slayer – just with no salary for being her Watcher in all but name. And… well, I know that you’re an insider better than anyone. I mean, you’ve been insider me often enough.”

Tara groaned. It was a truly terrible joke at just the perfect moment.

Willow wasn’t done though. “I doubt that you could possibly have been more insider me…”

She groaned again.

“Sorry, sorry. But… Stop worrying. We’ll be fine here. They’ll be fine there. We’ll help if they’re not,” Willow promised.

“Okay. I get it, I should stop worrying.”

“Didn’t I just say so?” Willow asked.

“I just wish Faith would… get it,” Tara said. There was a connection between the sisters, one that was diamond hard and could never be fractured. But around that things were more fragile… “I know they’re close and I know they’ve been through a lot that neither of them wants to talk about – but it’s almost like Faith has no idea how to deal with her. She’s been a sister much longer than she’s been a Slayer but she’s better at killing things.”

“As long as they’re happy, as long as we’re happy, does it matter?” Willow asked.

“I… guess not. Shame there’s boxes all over the bed,” she said, glancing at it.

“Oh?”

“I was thinking being insider the most wonderful girl in the world,” Tara said.

“Oh? What time’s she coming over?”

Willow squealed as Tara pushed her backwards onto the bed. They’d find a spot.

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“So, you ginger snatch goblin, you’ve still got that ‘just got fucked’ look about you.”

Willow groaned, though not in the same way as she’d been groaning when Tara had been… okay, she wasn’t going to give it the name that Faith had just in general principle. And ‘snatch goblin’? Was Faith even aware of both levels that worked on?

But she and Tara, they’d been making love enthusiastically enough that all three naughty words were merited.

“You should probably be grateful I only said it now,” Faith added, as if that made it better.

“Oh, yeah, you’re definitely learning,” Willow acknowledged.

“Or maybe your girlfriend’s a good influence on me?”

“My girlfriend? What about yours?”

“No goblin going on for me. Yet. Give it time though.”

Willow sighed. “Maybe we should be like hunting, instead of having conversations I really don’t want to have?”

“Don’t worry. Keep thinking your happy thoughts, Red, I’ve got it covered.”

And that was the thing, Faith was probably right. Somehow she’d gotten herself into patrolling, just with Faith, when there were plenty of people who could’ve come along. But Tara was with Hope while Buffy’s Mom was about to go to work. That’d leave Buffy and anyone who wanted to go along to pick up another patrol route and there were plenty.

But between them they should be able to track down four marauding vampires who’d been killing people in their town. Somehow though she felt like she was riding with Billy the Kid, while Buffy was Pat Garrett.

Except… that really didn’t hold up, did it? Bad analogy. No biscuit. Faith – unlike Tara - probably wouldn’t get it anyway so she kept her mouth shut.

“So, how are you and Hope settling in?” Faith hadn’t bothered asking about their move into dorms, so… Olive branch. She’d make the first move.

“Stuff got moved,” Faith said, shrugging. “One place is pretty much like another.”

“Must be nice to have your own space though,” Willow suggested. Especially since it was a luxury apartment with a value well into six figures. Yeah, that must be nice.

“I could say the same. Your new neighbours know you’re there now, after whatever she did to you that got you looking so freshly… plucked?”

“No…” she said, happy to go with the pretence. Sure, sound was bound to travel and walls weren’t all that thick. But – for all they knew – their neighbours hadn’t moved in yet. Or hadn’t been in at the time. All sorts of reasons to believe that… no.

“Liar.” Faith didn’t seem offended by it though, just as if the denial was as much as she could’ve expected.

“And Hope?”

“Hopeless? Well, she’s, I don’t know. I leave her to her own – whatsit? – devices as much as I can. Give her room to be independent,” Faith said.

Was that really what it was? Or couldn’t she bothered? No… It was more like Faith’s concern operated on a different level. That until it got so serious she had to take notice then… she could just leave her sister to it. “Do you have to call her that though?” Hopeless? Really?

“No, but I like to. She doesn’t mind.”

“How do you know? Have you asked her?”

“No,” Faith admitted. “But she hasn’t tried to scratch my eyes out, so I’m calling it as good as confirmed.”

“No, that’s what you’d do,” Willow told her. “Not her.”

“Well, then thank God for Tara, I guess.”

“Mmm, thank God… and say what now?” Willow asked, not expecting the outright praise of her girl – not that Tara didn’t deserve it.

“And you.”

“Umm…” Now she really was on unsure footing. Faith’s saying ‘thank God’ for me? Without being sarcastic? Ummm… “Buffy… is that you?”

“No, it’s not fucking Buffy! It’s me. Jesus! Every time I say something – I don’t know – nice I get accused of being Buffy again.”

“All right, all right. So… are you coming onto me then?” Willow asked, running out of plausible ideas for what might lead Faith to give her a compliment.

“No. I’m just saying… thank God for Tara and if Tara’s going to do all that happiness shit then… she needs you around too. Hopeless does too. You two are her favourite dykes, you know that, right?”

“Wow, thanks. I think I'm tearing up here. It’s just – it’s just your way with words. It’s like poetry, really. It touches my soul.”

Faith laughed. “You know me, Red. That’s about as good as it’s ever going to get.”

“I know, I know… I’m just wondering why?”

“Ethan,” Faith said.

This just got weirder and weirder. Ethan was influencing Faith into what? Good behaviour? Showing appreciation of others? If this wasn’t Buffy, then they were surely in serious danger of an apocalypse. Maybe things had already fallen apart and the whole world was irretrievably askew? Hadn’t she noticed while they were in bed?

Or this could be some weird, alternate reality. Yeah, that could be it.

But it was one where Tara still made her feel very, very good and so… was there a rush to get home?

“He kind of pointed out that there’s better ways to get what I want than to fuck or hit people. Or both, sometimes. Of course, he said it fancier than that.

“And so, I don’t think I said ‘thank you.’”

“You still haven’t,” Willow pointed out. Being told that she hadn’t wasn’t exactly the same.

“You get the idea though,” Faith said, “Just take what you can get.”

“Okay, okay…”

“You’ve stuck by her, Tara I mean.”

“That’s what I do,” Willow said. “I’m like crazy-glue Willow.”

“Can’t have been easy,” Faith said. “After… well, what I did. Standing up for her against all your friends. Standing up for me too – even if it wasn’t about me?”

“That didn’t come into it. Giving you a chance was only fair to Hope. There was talk – not from any of us, mind – about her being taken into care. If Joyce hadn’t intervened…”

Faith’s lips were pulled tight. Touchy subject, obviously. “She wouldn’t have gone.”

“I don’t think Child Services give you any choice.”

“All the same. She wouldn’t have gone. But… not many people stood up for us, not for either of us. Tara did, and you stood with her, Red. More important… you’ve stood up for Hopeless. Even if I fuck up again - ”

“You’re not going to f – you’re not going to do that.”

“Jesus, Red, you’d think you’d be able to say it, if you’re doing as much as I know you are.”

“Well,” Willow hedged. “You’re making it into a bad thing and whatever I’m doing, I guarantee it’s not a bad thing.”

“No… I guess not.”

“You’re not going to screw up though, right?” Since she was out here, all alone, with Faith. The renegade Slayer on probation… yeah, now was the time to worry about that. “Hope needs her big sister. When you were in hospital. It took a Slayer to drag her away just to get some rest or some food.”

“Me? I’m a Slayer, Willow. My days are numbered and the numbers aren’t as big as y’alls. That’s just a fact - ”

“You can’t know - ”

“Don’t blow smoke up my ass. I know it. You know it. We all know it. But if I’m going to go, I’m going to go kicking and screaming while I’m still pretty. And on the way, I’m going to kick death in the nuts.”

“Tara told you that?” Willow asked, because she was pretty sure she’d heard something like that before.

“Something like it, some TV show from England,” Faith said. “Seemed like a great idea though, no matter where it came from. Point is – and I’m never going to say this shit again – I know that the kid will do great with all of you guys around. Just… she’s fifteen already. That’s what I really wanted to say, she’s fifteen and… don’t you dare let her go into care. Don’t let them even try. Don’t let them even talk about it. Right?”

“What, what is it?”

“Willow,” Faith said, putting her on alert by using her actual name. Stranger and stranger. “This isn’t for me – what I’m asking. It’s for her. No matter what, don’t let them try to take her down that route. Take her away, take her somewhere. Or – if you have to – you tell her to run, hide her, whatever… but don’t let them try to put her in care.”

She’d never heard anything like that before in Faith’s tone. Absolute concern for someone else. Laced with terror of the outcomes. It couldn’t have been more surprised if Faith had started talking to her in fluent Swahili.

But she was adamant that it shouldn’t happen. She sounded pretty adamant that Hope wouldn’t let it happen. And if Hope was going to fight it, then someone else had to stand with her and do the same.

“I… I promise. But… you’ll be fine. Just so long as you stay pretty.”

And then normal service was resumed. “Aw, shit, in a couple of years, she’ll probably be taking care of me. Reminds me, I need to leave some money for her to bail me out.”

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Postby DaddyCatALSO » Wed May 15, 2013 10:08 am

This is all a pretty straightforward unfolding here. Odd seeing Faith acting like a big sister - interesting (and very much *not* impossible) to retcon back to her S-3 storyline and going to work for the Mayor.)

Poor Tara; knowing what she "knows" about herself and evaulating her unofficial Watcher's role in that light.

Really curious how "Real Me" is going to unfold without my second-favorite 'verse character acting as sort of a "Glory in miniature" in it.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 81 - 05/14/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Wed May 15, 2013 10:08 am

How the heck do I keep doing this? I must be hitting somethign twice I think I'm htting once.
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Postby Katharyn » Thu May 16, 2013 9:46 pm

Daddcatalso - I'm nothing if not straightforward :) It is a little odd having Faith as the sister, because after writing her so long in bad girl mode (even if it's moderated) changing her even a little feels weird. But I am pleased it doesn't strike you as 'impossible.' I very much agree about S3. I actually think that the Monks version of events of S3 actually throws a whole new light on Faith and I was having those thoughts myself when I wrote it.

Poor Tara for now... but we know she'll get past it :)

As for your second favourite character as Glory in miniature? I have to assume you mean Dawn? I had never considered her that way as a parallel of Glory, but it is - definitely - there!

Thanks.

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Postby DaddyCatALSO » Fri May 17, 2013 8:36 am

Umm, no, my second favorite Buffyverse charcater is actually Harmony, who if I recall correctly is no longer around in this story and who, in this episode *only*, acted as sort of a miniature Glory.

But, yes, "Family Faith" has always interested me - while I don't really show any scenes of it, Faith is a mom in my main ficverse, altho little Kharissa only has her real mother for 2 and a half years *sob.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 81 - 05/14/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri May 17, 2013 12:33 pm

Ha, yeah... I got confused by the episodes as I did a blitz on part prep and tripped from The Real Me to Out of my Mind in a day and so had them mixed up.

Also... there's a funny story about Harmony.

See, I kind of forgot she was dead. (Remember I have a crap memory and wrote these parts about 6 months apart in 1st draft)

So until I was preparing the part to be posted I had her in there and then I thought to myself 'wait, didn't I kill her already?'

And on looking, yes I had.

Emergency (not very satisfying) measures were required as you will see...

And, oh, you killed Faith too? I did that and caught all sorts of shit for it... Though I think - in dramatic terms - it did what the story required. Now everyone thinks I will kill anyone (which is useful for building tension!)

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 82 - 05/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Fri May 17, 2013 12:38 pm

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Two
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: The final chapter that parallels ‘The Real Me’.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So, here we are at the final part of ‘The Real Me.’ We won’t be dipping into Hope’s journals any more after this, but… I think we have a flavour of who she is now. That was the point of these chapters, as it was for Dawn in the canon. We’ve touched base with a few things and so… to the ending of the story part of the episode. A little bit of fun…
Just one thing though, I kind of missed out some of the irrelevancies that would end up in a fifteen year old’s journal. Maybe they’ll come back a little in redraft, but I can go on and on enough as it is… do you really want me to add all that in too? It seemed like a big enough info-dump without all that. 
Anyway, remember how I said that I can’t… well, remember things? Even in my own stories (though in my defence my stories are very long and take a year to write)? Well, I know I did, I did it recently. I think. Well, apparently – I realised just as I was preparing this part for posting – that I forgot I killed Harmony back in the very early days. Actually Oz killed Harmony for biting Willow. And then… I had her show up in this part, just like canon. Cough. You can see how that might be a problem, huh? The blinking death list used to be so easy and clear.
Not to mention final… So what we have here, rather than resurrect her, is a different – bitten – cheerleader who didn’t survive the attack on the Mayor. They might look and sound the same but aren’t all (TV) cheerleaders blonde and a little dim? (I just mean the TV ones! And yes, I’m including Buffy…)


No one thinks I understand. They all think that I’m too young to get these things. But I am fifteen. Just because I’m not having it doesn’t mean I don’t know what sex is. I mean, look who my sister is! She’s like the poster-child for enjoying herself in someone else’s pants.

And by now I pretty much know some of what two girls is about too. That’s what happens when you live with people who are in love and can’t keep their hands off each other when they think you’re not looking.

So I know enough to recognise when Tara’s got a happy on. She and Willow
did it. And they said they were late because they were ‘unpacking’. Unpacking each other more like!

Different folks, different strokes though – that’s what they say isn’t it?

And I’m the last one Faith surprised by making time with a girl. I know her better than anyone and it’s not the first time.

She’s my sister, I pretty much know that the best time to catch her is after a slay-n-screw. That’s what she calls it, anyway. When she’s feeling that good, you can pretty much get anything you want out of her. Plenty of people have – that’s what Buffy would say anyway. But being as both the Slay and the Screw usually happen at night, one after the other, it means staying up really late if you want something off her that doesn’t involve doing the nasty.

Willow’s different, she’s never more approachable than when someone tells her she’s great at something but I suppose Tara telling her she’s great in bed would count. I don’t know, I never asked. Unlike my sister, everyone else takes that sort of thing personally.

And Anya. Of course.

Tara’s different again – I guess everyone is. Tara… she’s not easily fooled. Good mood, bad mood – I don’t think I ever saw her in a
really bad mood (not even if she’s got the cramps and having a crappy day too) – she pretty much weighs things up. So… her having a happy didn’t give me any special opportunity.

Just means you come at things differently though.

Mostly, tonight, we talked about Faith. Mostly, I mean, we were talking around her but she was the thing that kept coming up. Everyone’s really happy that she’s ‘changing.’ I don’t think she is though – that was my point. I think Faith’s just being who she was going to be before everyone else abandoned her.

Everyone but me.

I didn’t say it that way, but… before Tara was around people here weren’t too nice to Faith. Didn’t give her much of a chance. That’s not really all their fault, she did bad things but that’s what I think even though they were really good to me. They don’t understand that.

They don’t know.

My sister could’ve just left me, but she didn’t. She came back for me. I’m not forgetting that and no one else would if only they knew. But they don’t, do they? We don’t tell them, so how would they?

I think sometimes that I could tell Tara, that she’d keep it to herself. Or Tara and Willow really. But I promised and…

Back now. I was kinda getting all deep and dark there for a minute but now I’ve gotten a soda. Grape! Last thing I’m gonna say, I do wish Faith would grow up a bit more. It’d be nice to have a big sister who wasn’t just older and stronger than me. One who kind of acted that way? It’s like they say though, I’m the serious one. I think that’s gonna get more obvious now that we’re living together, just the two of us.

And she’s going to school! They’ve been talking about that forever, but now we’re so close to the semester starting? Don’t think I ever believed it, but we’ve been shopping and she’s got some stuff she’ll need (she had to ask me what though! Who’s the big sister now then?!)

I know what’s gonna happen, if we’re both there. They’ll start going on about Charity. Charity’s the other girl our Mom wanted but never had. Where’s Charity? Did you get your clothes from Charity? Faith and Hope and… the other one that never was.

Least Faith’s a Slayer though; anyone who tries to pick on me this year is getting pounded!

Kinda makes me smile. It’s a power I shall have to use wisely and sparingly – as Mister Giles would say – because I’ll only get to use the surprise once. Someone will
really have to make me mad before I go to Faith.

But it’d be nice to know she’s there.

And when I do…?

I just hope she doesn’t get thrown out…

Tara asked me, the other day, whether I miss my Mom. I can tell that she does and I think she thought I should feel the same. I don’t. I don’t miss my Mom, I miss
having a Mom, but not her. Not the person. Not for one minute.

I don’t remember many good times with her. There probably were some, but they’re really not very clear. Only with Faith. And all of these guys we’re with now. I think I upset Tara with that one. Made me feel –

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The smash had woken her from a doze, to be honest. Falling asleep on Mrs Summers couch was no disgrace. It was a comfy couch and she’d done that more than once before. But falling asleep when someone was throwing rocks?

Or – hey, actually that was a rock with a note attached?

Tara’s heart was pounding from the surprise and being woken up, her thoughts going a hundred miles per hour. Startled, that was what she was… startled. No better word presented itself, but neither did anything else happen. Just the intruding rock.

By the time Hope came running down the stairs, she’d managed to take a few deep breaths, calm herself and get a hold on things. The panic subsided when she realised that there really was nothing else actually happening – at least not immediately. Not that a broken window wasn’t bad enough but as warnings went… it was pretty mild stuff in this town.

Welcome to California where an arsonist can put a torch to your house with a match and striker because everything as so dry here. But nope, there was no burning… Just a rock and a note.

“What was that?” Hope asked, a little breathless.

“I don’t know yet,” Tara replied, taking notice that Hope had probably been asleep too – or at least lying in bed. “Go put your jeans on, honey. Whatever it is, you’re not meeting it bare legged.”

“Sorry,” Hope said weakly and went back up the stairs before calling down to her. “Hey, Tara, there’s someone on the front lawn.”

“They’ll be the ones who threw the rock,” Tara said to herself, it was an unnecessary observation really as she picked the offending article up.

‘Slayer. Come out and die.’ The underline had been done really neatly too. With a ruler, by the look of it. Three times. Just to make the point.

In different colours. If she hadn’t known better, she’d have suspected Willow from that alone.

But taking her girlfriend out of the equation, what was she left with? It was someone who knew Buffy about then? But also someone who hadn’t stuck around long enough to realise that the Slayer – neither of them in fact – was actually home. Or didn’t know what she looked like. One girl, about that age, might be good enough, right?

Either way, Joyce was going to be ticked about her window. Now they had to make sure things didn’t get any worse. If she’d be annoyed about the window, imagine how she’d feel if the place got burned down?

So she pushed the drape back and took a look at the collection of vampires waiting on the lawn. Yup, they were definitely vampires. And… not a very impressive bunch either. One, two, three, four. Just the number they’d been looking for actually.

But… kind of sad. Pathetic, even. Yeah, more ‘pathetic’ than sad.

After all – not even considering all the other vampires and supernatural creatures Buffy, Faith and even she’d faced - they’d all just faced off against Dracula who – at least – had looked like a proper vampire.

And with the added bonus of great hair too.

Appearances could be deceiving. But appearances would have to be [i]very
deceiving to make those four look very threatening to a Slayer.

Unfortunately they didn’t have a Slayer here right now… which made things a little more awkward since her offensive combat magic was… lacking.

“I can see the drapes twitching, Slayer! Get out here and die.” You had the feeling that the last word would’ve been underlined too. If you could verbally underline, in different coloured pens.

The rather short – but big haired - woman at the centre of the group seemed to be the leader. The other three – two men and a woman all around the same apparent age when they died – contributed more than a few half-hearted ‘yeahs’ to punctuate the point.

Now, there was one who looked a bit more enthusiastic than the others, but mostly the other three didn’t look like they wanted to be there at all.

After all, whose genius plan had been throwing a rock through Buffy’s window? And only a day or two before she left for college again and they could’ve just walked into the dorms without worrying about being invited in at all?

And since this was a real home, they didn’t have entry privileges. That was something they all knew – though Buffy had made the mistake of inviting in Dracula – and would be very careful about. Except, they didn’t have to be careful. They didn’t live here, so they couldn’t invite anyone in.

Unless Hope’s part-time situation counted? Was Joyce baby-sitting enough to count? Better the girl didn't take the chance – though she’d been raised with a Slayer and should know better.

Did know better.

Hope’s reappearance, now properly dressed apart from her bare feet, saw them look at each other and then Tara showing her the view from down here.

The taunting continued, but she was really more worried about the neighbours complaining about the noise than the actual vampires at this point. Lacking anything as dangerous as guns, flaming torches or a bomb, there didn’t seem to be much that they could do as long as they remained outside.

“They don’t look too bad,” Hope said, peering through.

“Looks can be deceiving,” Tara replied, feeling the same way but equally like she should be the voice of caution here. A miscalculation could be more than just embarrassing, it could be fatal. She’d never hear the end of it from Willow or Faith if they were killed by stupid vampires. That’d just be embarrassing all around.

“Kinda dumb though,” Hope noted.

Tara nodded, it was tough to deny something that was just so obvious. “Yup.”

“Taunting a Slayer on her own lawn?”

“Yup.”

“They could’ve burned us out or taken someone captive to make us come out or something but… what are they going to do? Threaten to spill the trash?”

“I think, maybe, they’re appealing to Buffy’s pride.”

“But Buffy’s not here,” Hope pointed out. “Otherwise, I think she’d have gone out.”

“Yup.” That really was the situation. Undeniably.

“She’d have probably quipped by now.”

“Probably.”

“Along with getting angry about the window. She’d probably ask them for money before it all burned up when she slayed them. Faith does that, sometimes. Well, she used to.”

“Shakes them down?”

“For every penny,” Hope confirmed.

“Figures.”

“We didn’t have much,” Hope said, sounding like she thought she should defend her sister.

“I understand,” Tara said. “Hard habit to break.”

“Course, even after she’d shaken them down my sister would’ve killed them all by now. If she didn’t need the money then probably with a crossbow. All except the leader. She’d have kicked her around a bit first. Just because.”

“Yeah, you’re probably right.” That was pretty much what Faith would do. Hope knew her sister.

“So what are we going to do?” the girl asked.

“Well, what we’re not doing is going out there, right?” Tara was very firm on that point. Stupid vampires or not, they were faster, stronger and more instinct led – thinking with their stomachs – than either of them were. This was still a dangerous situation in spite of the comedic - borderline pathetic - elements.

“Right. Got that. So we could just wait for my sister, or Buffy – Buffy’s more likely to come home first.”

“Yup.”

“More than likely Faith will end up… somewhere else. I was going to say under someone, but she really – it’s not always under. In fact – it’s not often under. Even with – never mind.”

“I didn’t need to know that. Why do you know that?”

Hope shrugged.What are you gonna do? “We’re sisters. So, we’re waiting for Buffy then?”

“We could,” Tara mused. “But I’m just worried in case Mrs Summers comes home before them. If she pulls into the driveway then instant hostage and they look less pathetic and more dangerous.” Or worse. And she didn’t want to say what they both knew well enough.

“So? Maybe talk to them? Do you think if we tell them there’s no Slayer here? Maybe they’ll leave?”

It sounded like the wrong thing to do, it really did. But… she couldn’t think of any better idea and these were – apparently – the dumber kind of vampire.

“Stay inside,” Tara said firmly.

“I will. Don’t worry, I know the rules. I knew the rules before you did.”

“I mean it, Hope,” Tara said, looking at her.

“I know, Tara. I will. Really, don’t worry.”

“Okay then…” She opened the door and instantly the cat-calling stopped and the vampires that had been in the middle of the lawn were right in her face.

But on the other side of the threshold so… not getting past that.

“At last! Slayer! Wait – who are you?”

“Who are you?” Tara countered.

“I’m – I’m the vampire that’s finally going to end the Slayer’s miserable life.”

“Yeah!” the enthusiastic one behind her said. “End it.”

The other three shook their heads, like they were embarrassed by him. Maybe they should be embarrassed to be here. She wasn’t about to taunt them with that though. Tara figured that you earned quips through slaying and she was neither flexible with her double-entendres nor a noted vampire Slayer. The odd one, here or there, kind of in passing. And when she had plenty of backup. That was it for her.

“Who are you then?” the leading blonde asked. Her face had softened from the demonic scowl to those of a cheerleader type.

“Just a friend,” Tara said, not about to give this creature any more information than it deserved. After all, it might smarten up… Animal cunning could go a long way too. No body would’ve called Mr Tiddles God’s gift to feline intelligence, but look who’d brought home the most… pieces when she’d been growing up.

“I hope you look good in black,” the vampire said.

“Why?” Hope chirped up from beside her.

“For the funeral, who are you, little girl?”

“I’m not a little girl. I’m the Slayer’s sister.”

You could almost see the cogs turning. It was slow work, painfully slow. What this vampire should’ve been wondering – if it knew anything about Buffy – was ‘what sister’? Then there was the very obvious physical difference between Buffy – that she was looking for – and Hope who was someone else’s sister. The hair for a start. The shape of the face. Skin tone.

And although the cogs were turning, they never quite clicked into place. Instead the vampire abandoned its laboured thought process and went back to taunts.

“Your first funeral,” the vampire said, feigning regret. “And you’ll just be cute as a button. Seriously though, I love your nails! Oh my God! Where did you get them done?”

Hope just laughed at her. “You think you’re going to kill a Slayer? You and what army? My sister’s going to kill all your friends and then she’s gonna kick you around the garden.”

Even that – seemingly worthless – taunt had its effect. You could see the realisation clicking into place with the others. They were on a Slayer’s lawn. On her porch. Even if they didn’t know much, they had to know that they needed more than a rock with a note tied around it to beat her. Else why call her ‘the Slayer’ at all?

“I am going to kill her, she’s interfered with my plans for the last time.”

“She’s not here,” Tara said, unable to resist the open goal.

“Damn it,” the vampire said. “Okay, now she’s interfered with my plans for the last time. But never again! You here me?!”

Was now the moment to mention that there were two Slayers? A fact this creature didn’t seem to be aware of. Nah… there was a point that taking advantage of someone else’s deficiencies just started to become cruel.

“But I will kill her. And… maybe her friends. All those sad losers she hung out with. Xander Harris. Willow Rosenberg, that creepy old guy with the tweed – what was his name anyway? Kyle? Something like that?”

“Giles, dumbass,” Hope said. “His name’s Giles and - ”

“Go. Away.” Tara said it firmly, cutting the girl off. Actually she was hoping it might happen too.

“Go away,” the vampire mocked. “Go away. Is that the best you can do?”

“Is this the best you can do?” Hope countered, kind of undermining the quiet calm Tara was trying to apply to the situation.

“Your sister’s dead meat, little girl.”

Hope laughed. “You don’t even know who you’re talking about, you dumb bimbo!”

“Hey,” Tara said, turning to the girl. “That was uncalled for.”

“Well, she started it - ”

“Bimbo? You – Well, you look fat in those jeans!” the vampire accused.

She didn’t, Hope pretty much had Faith’s physique which meant she had to try really, really hard to look fat in anything. But since she didn’t burn off the calories as fast as a Slayer either she ate sensibly.

“Come in here and say that!” Hope challenged, grinning and obviously excited. Tara just hoped that she was right, that part time residence and having a guest room that was basically yours didn’t count.

Instantly the vampires all shifted their visage, returning to the demonic side. “Thank you, so much for the invitation…” the vampire said. “Kill them both – we’ll wait inside for the Slayer.”

The leap of the first vampire was… comical. If there’d been a pane of glass there, in the door way, or if this had been a cartoon, then the vampire would splatted against it with a whooomp and slowly slide down it into a heap at ground level while everything else just stopped.

Tara turned to Hope. Pleased that they’d both been right, obviously, but feeling that as a vaguely parental figure she really ought to say something. “Now, Hope, that was just cruel.”

“Oh come on, they deserved it!”

“But – but you invited us in?” the lead vampire said, trying to step over her fallen comrade. “Brad – move, you’re in my way.”

“And you look like a mime,” Hope said as the vampire ran her hands around the invisible barrier.

“You – you invited us in. That’s the rules – it’s in the rules – once you invite us in - !”

“Sure I did,” Hope said. “Come on it, have a seat.”

Nothing changed, they still couldn’t get in. “I – I don’t understand.”

“It’s not our house,” Tara said. “We can’t invite you in. She shouldn’t have even said anything like that, she knows better but - ”

“Now you’re in trouble,” Hope said, spying the same thing as Tara had beyond them.

“What?” the vampire was confused.

“Hi – wait, is that Tracy? Tracy Atkinson-Phillips?” Willow asked.

“Willow Rosenberg… I haven’t seen you since you and your little buddy got me killed.”

“You and Harmony, two peas in a pod.”

“Talking of peas,” Tracy said. “You should think about a wonder bra, you really should. But you’ll do… you’ll do for now. I think we have a hostage.”

“No, not going to happen. And it’s not my house either. You even make Harmony look smart… Did you hear what happened to your little friend? She got ripped apart and then we staked her.”

First there was anger and then grin spread over the vampires face. “Willow. I must say… your taste in clothes is better now you’re dressing yourself. Did you miss the fact that you’re out here with us?”

Willow shook her head, but it was Faith who answered her. Her girlfriend hadn’t come back alone. “So am I. How you doing there, Hopeless?”

“I made a vampire – that one – jump into the threshold; he fell flat on his face. That was pretty funny. We laughed – did you see it?”

“Shut up!” Tracy cried – her name was Tracy right? “Shut up! Who are you anyway?” Was this an ex-classmate of Willow’s then? Another cheerleader who’d used to make her life hell? Had any of them survived the ascension of the Mayor?

“Me? I’m her sister.” Faith seemed in no hurry to slay them and Tara didn’t even think Tracy had noticed the weapon that Faith was carrying. That axe… well, it wasn’t something you just walked around with, was it?

“Minions… Snack time!”

“Minions?” Willow asked, laughing. “You have minions, Tracy? After so many years as Cordelia’s lackey – No, wait! You weren’t even in Cordelia’s radar. You were Harmony’s lackey and that’s all kind of pathetic. So, I’m not really surprised it’s come to this. Kinda predictable and tragic, really.

“Funny though.”

“Shut up! You’re all going to take me seriously when you’re dead!”

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“Tracy Atkinson-Phillips has minions?” Buffy laughed and Giles was also feeling the mirth. Willow wasn’t sure he’d actually remember a girl who’d not really visited his library much, but he didn’t like to be left out when he could avoid it and this was something he could get into.

Willow felt that a correction was totally required though. “Well, technically, Tracy had minions. She’s very definitely in the past tense.”

“What did you do?” Buffy asked.

“Me? I just stayed out of trouble, ducked inside and watched once Faith got busy.”

“Wasn’t really much of a challenge,” Faith said, her arm around her sister on the couch, pulling her in and overwhelming the girl’s attempt to resist her. “Hopeless here had already taunted them enough that I didn’t have to bother thinking of anything to say. One minute there were four. Then… there weren’t.”

“So long, Tracy,” Buffy said.

“No, we saved you something, B.”

“Really?”

“Well, she threw a rock through your window, looking for you – even though Hopeless and Tara were here, I think that’s still your job to explain to your Mom, right?”

“I… guess.” Buffy didn’t sound very certain, but that was because there was no good news from Joyce’s perspective. Except that everyone was safe, and that would count for a lot. But she still had a broken window that needed replacing.

“So, we saved you something.”

Faith led the way outside.

“You kept her out here?” Buffy asked, looking for where Faith had put her… doggy bag.

“Didn’t think you’d want her inviting in, just in case.”

“Good call,” Buffy said. “I wouldn’t have invited Tracy in when she was alive – let alone now. Do you know, when I tried out to be a cheerleader, she put gum in my hair? I had to go buy peanut butter and everything.”

“She’s pissed at you though… no idea why.”

Buffy looked down at a miserable looking Tracy, covered in grass stains, with broken nails and bits of tree in her hair. “Don’t think I care. Where – why did you have chains?”

“Never know what might come in handy,” Faith explained. “Be prepared, that’s what Giles always says. Besides… they look great as a belt.”

“Oh.”

Tracy looked up, seeming to gain a little strength. She was chained to the main support for the back porch, the length of the belt only just giving her room to move that much.

“Ah, Slayer, we meet at last - ” Tracy managed to say past the constricting effect of the chain.

“Tracy,” Buffy said. “We’ve already met. We went to High School together. You put gum in my hair when I tried out as a cheerleader.”

“What – did I? Doesn’t matter. You’ve foiled my plans for - ”

Swoosh.

Whoosh.

Pitter-patter of settling ashes and the slide of a chain down a wooden post.

“All of them, all the cheerleaders. They always did like to hear herself talk,” Buffy said, withdrawing the stake. “But she never had anything worth hearing.”

“She liked my nails,” Hope said, showing them off.

Buffy looked and grinned. “Wow, they are pretty… what colour is that? Where did you get them done?”

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Everyone likes my nails.

That’s pretty cool. Maybe I’m even a trend-setter. My sister does that, lots of girls started wearing tank tops when she came around – not Tara though, much as Willow wants her to try – but I’ve never done that before. I found something everyone thinks is cool and now they’re all wanting it too.

That rocks. Get it? Rocks?

So Mrs Summers got a rock through the window, Faith killed a bunch of vampires, justice was done for the old guy with the shop and my nails are totally a hit. That’s a pretty good time right there.

That shop though, Mister Giles actually bought it. I heard him saying that he didn’t really have to put a lot into it, something about the terms of the lease being just for magical purposes and the rent being really low on account of not being able to hold onto previous tenants, but he has something to do when Faith and Buffy are in school and no one’s talking about him leaving any more.

And he said I could have a job if I wanted one, Saturdays and vacations – obviously – but it’d be nice to have some money that Faith hadn’t stolen or hadn’t come from the work she did for the Mayor. That’s what we’d be spending otherwise, and I don’t want everyone else to be like they have to give me some so…

I’m in my new room in the loft apartment… We moved in this morning, that’s why I’ve not updated my journal until now. The place is… it’s dusty. I know what I’ll be doing today, cos no way my sister will. She doesn’t do ‘domestic’ and I wouldn’t if I had a choice but… someone has to clean up.

That’ll be me then.

I don’t mind. Much. She got us this place – best not to mention how – and it’s all ours. There’s money to go with it too. And I have a huge room and she says I can put up any posters I want to. Do whatever I like with it. I’ll have to think about that one though, get it right.

For now… I think we’re both still amazed. It’s just an apartment but it’s bigger than Mom’s whole house. So, we have somewhere to live and a job if I want one… That’s all pretty cool too.

Oh, I need to go look up a movie, I’ll add it to my list. When Ethan went around to the Magic Box – that’s what Giles is calling it – he said that the owners there had the life expectancy of a ‘Spinal Tap drummer’.

Sounded like a bad thing, but the movie sounds pretty cool, even if it is really old. I think it might be like black and white or something. It was made in the eighties so it could easily be.

Actually, I’m not sure that Mister Giles is going to make any money at his shop. He’s already promised discounts to witches, lesbians, slayers, Scoobies and old rivals from his university days. Seems like that might be his entire list of customers! Willow was excited though, she thinks maybe that she gets a triple discount for being a witch, a Scooby and a lesbian.

Faith and Buffy are gonna train in the back room now, he’s getting it all set up. When they fought today though, there wasn’t the same amount of tension there. I think Buffy’s coming around a bit more; my sister saved us – kind of – even if it was from the dumbest vampire gang since the Gorches (whoever they were!) Buffy kind of appreciated that.

My sister… Faith told me I should have boys over. She told me I should play loud music and get in trouble. I think she wants me to be a brat. That, I’m no one she knows how to deal with if I’m not doing all that stuff.

Boy, is she in for a surprise.

I wonder how long it’ll be until she invites Paige around?


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Next part – The next part is a bonus chapter to make up for the mess in this one. Tara and Willow sexy times. Why? Because. I thought of a word. One word. And then I had to write a scene around it. The scene became two. Two became a chapter.
Tell me honestly, perhaps it’s just me, but the word is ‘pendulous’ – what do you think of when you see that word. Think of it like word association. I say ‘pendulous’ and you say?
PS – The word isn’t in the context you might think! I am well aware of the lack of pendulousness… (yes, that was a clue!)
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 82 - 05/17/13

Postby Azirahael » Fri May 17, 2013 3:24 pm

Still kinda pissy about the last chapter, but hey.

Anyway,i really liked the journal entries of Hope.
They really give us insight into her and her life with Faith, which is good.
And i like how she sees Faith, warts and all, and still stands by her, still loves her.

I think Hope i gonna be good for Faith.

And you better not kill Faith!
I got enough of that with canon, and a well-known jerk who likes to kill beloved characters.
Hell, it's his defining trait, i don't think he's done a show or series yet where he hasn't killed the nice guys.
Practically a one trick pony.
/rant

Anyway, really loving the Hope-journal bits and the glimpse into her mind.

Looking forward to more, carefully and with feelers out, looking for mean hurties.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 82 - 05/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Sat May 18, 2013 4:02 am

Pissy about the last chapter, Azirahael? Why?

I really did take the journals for Hope from Dawn, but actually it makes more sense to me for a girl like Hope than Dawn. Or maybe I just feel that anyone who writes that sort of thing should have something worth saying? LOL

As for her relationship with Faith. She has a sister's perspective. Faith has always been there. Always been the same (even before she became the Slayer) and still came through for her in a big way. And yes, I think Hope has already been good for Faith. The ret-con of the history (and the fact Hope exists and the others are invested in her) is good for Faith anyway IMHO.

Kill Faith? Moi? When did I ever... oh.

We won't have more Hope journals because we're going back to T/W perspective but Hope will definitely be around and a big factor in who is where for all the subsequent episodes.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 82 - 05/17/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Sat May 18, 2013 2:03 pm

I really *am* liking this version better; Hope is more interesting than Dawn in several ways. And the minions are even more laughable without Mort than with. Really, the whole thing with their being in the apartment together, I just like it. And tRacey was fascinatingly stupid -alsoa Grad Day causalty?

Interesting as to how GLory's Ben, ben's Glory will play out with no non-huamns around to see thru it. Really interested in what you'r e planning there.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 82 - 05/17/13

Postby Katharyn » Sun May 19, 2013 1:19 am

Thanks, Daddcatalso - I am struggling, after so much time, to think of anything that made dawn interesting. Certainly not in S5 apart from her being a mystery. She wasn't even an interesting mystery! Faith and Hope living together was just something that came to me when I couldn't justify placing both of them with anyone else. But as we will see, Hope has a place to sleep just about everywhere... She's the most babysat 15 year old you could ever meet!

Yes, Tracy was a graduation day casualty too. Of course, she was - originally - Harmony due to my memory so... Yeah. LOL

Ben and Glory... You have hit the nail on the head. Not just about Ben but also the trouble with Glory too. There is no PoV character who can really pick this up. It's not Game of Thrones. There aren't 15 different viewpoints at work. Just 2... and if they are not in the room then they don't get to experience it. That has made me have less Glory than I would've liked... Because - you know - Yum.

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Bonus Chapter - 05/20/13

Postby Katharyn » Sun May 19, 2013 9:28 pm

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Bonus Chapter - Pendulous
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: Tara and Willow sexy times. That’s it. There’s really not much point than that and you can easily skip it if that’s not the sort of thing you like to read. Oh, wait, look at where I am.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: I’m changing the rating for this one. I don’t use explicit words, but its pretty clear what is going on is highly charged stuff.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: So… Why did this come to me? Why have I written this? It’s a sexy scene, but that’s not the point. The word, that was what came to me. And then I started to think about it. And then I started to put it in a Tara and Willow context. And then I started to have fun… ‘Pendulous.’ For the record I’ve never had a conversation like this when I was… accessorising. *COUGH* Though, the term ‘accessorising’ is something that someone I’ve known has used. *COUGH*
Thanks to: This is really one of those thanks to everyone things. Because – basically – without you guys I wouldn’t get to have so much fun with the girls. I just wouldn’t go there. In point of fact, I’d probably still be tinkering with the very first part of the very first fic I wrote, trying to make it perfect (when really it was just getting long) But for kittens, I wouldn’t be exercising my imagination.
Tara and Willow’s exercise? That’s something different again…




Willow lay back, looking up at the woman she loved moving above her. Once upon a time she’d have wondered what she should do with her hands. But… her hands seemed to know where to go and what to do.

There was just so much smoothness. So many curves. So much impact that they could have.

Who needed hands when she had eyes either? This was the kind of sight that just… well, it drove her to the tiny movements that she knew Tara loved and needed at the moment.

This was a new one. They’d played with the ‘accessory’ before, several times in fact. But up to now they’d been quite traditional in their thinking. The one who’d been – um – doing the wearing had been on top and the one who… hadn’t had been underneath.

She was learning that tradition was something that definitely had its place (and what a place), but you didn’t want to limit yourself. Oh no you didn’t…

Somehow she’d imagined that not being able to be – perhaps – as active as she’d been thus far, not ‘driving’ things along would’ve meant that she wasn’t having as much fun.

Not so. Not so at all.

Hands. Eyes. A very insistent pressure in just the right place for her too…

“So, you know what’s weird?” she asked as she pressed upwards to meet Tara’s downward movement. They were in perfect synch by now.

“Baby, I don’t care,” Tara groaned.

Okay, maybe not perfect synch.

“Sure you do,” Willow said. “I know you – your skin is right up against me. You care for now…”

Her baby wasn’t that far along. Not so far along she couldn’t appreciate something weird.

Not yet. Tara was on the long, slow climb to the point where nothing else would matter but barely in the foothills so far.

“So, do you know what’s weird?”

“Are you bored?” Tara asked, looking down at her.

“Bored!? No!”

“Then – why aren’t you just into this? Us?” Tara asked.

“I am into us,” she said, pushing both up and back, having figured out just what that did for Tara. Worked for her too. “You know that you turn on my brain as well as my body.”

Tara had done more than turn her on. Oh, yes… Tara had delivered to the sort of places that – a year ago – she’d never really understood actually existed.

Twice.

And that was just tonight. She’d need to update the tally to check the overall position but… Lots. And for now… “Am I bugging you?”

Her lover groaned again, partly with the sensation. Willow knew she was still having fun. There wasn’t much – with so much touching going on – that could stop them short of… well, stopping. She actually wasn’t sure actually how ‘regular girls’ – those without the magical connection that rippled through their touching (somewhat damp) skin felt at moments like this but… Tara was fine. She was still having fun and she wasn’t – yet – insensible.

When there was no other choice, sure, she’d close her mouth. Maybe around Tara’s nipple as just one of many attractive destinations.

“Nnnno.”

“So, weird,” Willow said. “‘Pendulous’. That’s weird.”

She waited. One. Two. Three movements. She hesitated to call them thrusts because of there was any ‘thrusting’ going on it seemed more like Tara was thrusting herself downwards. Her own movements were slight, completing that circuit. Just enough to get to the right places.

Obviously that had taken some learning – for both of them. Earlier experiments had been… vigorous. And bruising.

Better this way.

“Pendulous?” Tara finally asked.

“You know, ‘Pendulous.’ Like – well, like breasts. Which is kind of my point.”

Tara clutched at her own though that probably wasn’t – entirely – about the words. “You think I have pendulous breasts?”

“No!” Willow gently removed Tara’s hands and stroked her thumbs over the hardened tips, making her lover sigh again. She liked the way they moved. And felt. Moving and feeling. Her hands or no ones…

Except, you know, when Tara was… playing with herself. That was sexy as all the sexy things in the world squared. Cubed even. It was sexy cubed into the nth dimension. Physicists didn’t have a word for what that was. But she was beyond being a voyeur, at least for tonight. Now they were together, they weren’t parting until they unwrapped their limbs from each other in the morning. By which she probably meant a hand or a foot wrapped over a wrist or an ankle.

They might not really be ‘wrapped’ but they’d definitely be touching.

Back to the moment though.

“Okay – not mine – so… mmm, so why would you be thinking of pendulous breasts? Now?” Tara asked. There was just a hint of uncertainty there, but it was mostly a playful question. Positioned as she was – doing what she was doing – there was no way Tara could be anything else. Besides, the one thing Tara could be absolutely certain of right now was… there was no one else for her.

She could feel it. And right now, she could feel it in every part of her.

“I wasn’t thinking about pendulous breasts,” Willow said. “Just the word. Pendulous. It popped into my head. Just the word”

“Why? Do you want… more?” This time Tara was teasing for sure. Since Mom had bottle fed her, there’d really only been two pairs of breasts in her life and that was all she wanted. Every gay girl should have four breasts in her life and she did. She was happy with what she had, thank you very much.

In every way.

Tara breasts? They were just as perfect a fit as the rest of her. Nope, she wasn’t looking for any different breasts in her life, her hands or her mouth. But she could see that – maybe – this hadn’t been the finest time to make use of the example.

“No. It’s just the word… Pendulous. I don’t think I ever heard it used for anything else. That’s what I find weird, you know?”

“I… I – mmm, there, yeah, I guess I didn’t either. But - ”

“Why does it matter?” Willow completed the question for her. “You know me, something pops into my head and I just have to explore it.”

“Like me?” Tara asked.

“Mmm, yes. You popped into my head and my heart and I just had to explore you too.”

They lapsed into silence for a while as Tara leaned forward and – yes – gave her one of those breasts to kiss, before their lips joined and their tongue flickered back and forth instead.

Accessorising is an art.

She realised it as she adjusted to Tara’s leaning towards her, to the need to follow the sensations and sounds of pleasure that rippled from her lover. Once Tara straightened above her again though, briefly reaching up and back to fasten her hair back up in what might’ve been perfect posture…

“Minx,” Willow said.

Tara held the pose while she stroked her fingers up the side of Tara’s breasts, into her pits and up her arms to feel the subtle curves of her muscles.

“I know what this pose does for you,” Tara said. “Plus my hair – ooooh.”

“Your hair was in the way,” Willow said for her, she’d just given Tara an extra firm movement at just the right moment. Her girl was getting closer to the point that words other than ‘love’ and a few choicer instructions to go where she needed to would be superfluous.

Time to take her there…

She upped her game, following those hints of what was working, what wasn’t. Pleasuring a woman, pleasuring Tara, had actually proven to be very scientific. Evidence based. Repeatable.

“It’s the same the other way,” she said, finally unable to help herself. Otherwise, what if she forgot to say later? It was easy to forget the whole world in Tara’s arms.

“What?”

“Breast – big breasts – other people’s big breasts, I guess, they’re always pendulous in books and things. That’s what they say.”

Tara shook her head, momentarily beyond words. She’d have to shut up in a moment, if her read of her lover was accurate and she liked to think it was. Sexually, Tara Maclay was an open book.

There was a pun there about smart, sexy student girls and their open legs.

I’m stroking exhibit A.

I’m stroking her in more than one way. Another pun. I’m just punalicious tonight.


But truthfully, she didn’t know about any other smart, sexy student girls. Just this one.

And herself, of course. She always felt smarter – and sexier – around Tara than at any other time.

Exhibit B.

Pop quiz.

B goes into A how many times?

Quite a lot, actually. Enough that I start thinking about it…

“Maybe if you put your mind to it,” Tara said, still obviously enjoying herself.

A lot. It wasn’t like her girl was struggling to keep things going. Once or twice she’d made that kind of mistake and they’d just… petered out.

“I didn’t think it was my mind that you were enjoying right now,” Willow replied, holding her lovers sides and pulling Tara down just as she went the other way. She grinned at the reaction too. The widening eyes. The gasp. The clutching fingers.

“Are you done with other women’s breasts now?”

“No more pendulousness,” she promised and did it again. “But – is that a word? I mean I think it could be a word. It sounds like it should be a word. How about I stop and just go check - ”

And then she saw it. Felt it at the same moment. The edge of desperation that said so many things.

No.

You’re not going anywhere.

I need… you.

Do it. Do it now.


So she did.

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“Mmmm,” Willow moaned, appreciating what was being done to her.

Making Willow moan was easy, of course. But it was also one of those things that she loved to do. There was a sense of accomplishment out of all proportion to the (lack of) difficulty that was usually involved.

Perhaps she didn’t think about that in the quite the same way as her girlfriend - she wasn’t competitive about it and she certainly didn’t have a chart fastened by the mirror that (though Willow would never admit it) seemed to gain a couple of ticks for every orgasm that Willow gave her – (it filled two sides now) but…

There was nothing selfish about this.

“It’s all about me,” Willow said.

Huh?

“I – I was just thinking about how there’s nothing selfish here,” Tara said, digging her thumbs under Willow’s shoulder blades. “And you go and say that? You’re just full of inappropriate comments tonight.”

“Well, it’s not really ‘inappropriate’ per se, and it’s been all about me and then it was all about you and right now it’s all about me.”

She was sat astride her woman, resting over Willow’s thighs as she massaged her. The oil was – after an unfortunate experiment – suited for the purpose and not one that they sometimes ‘accessorised’ with.

Yeah… that hadn’t been the right thing to do. But hey, no one taught you this stuff. Much as Willow liked to look things up on the world wide web, there were things you shouldn’t be sharing, or taking from the internet. Of all places.

So, like the lesbians of old – there must’ve been a time when everything was pretty new after all – they’d figured things out for themselves. She’d wondered, once, about speaking Diana about Lesbos. It’d never happened though. Somehow asking a famously virginal goddess about what might’ve happened on an island that’d given her sexuality its name was just… no.

Even a Goddess who attracted a lot of Sapphic leaning Wiccan’s to her – amongst other people.

“You’re right,” she confirmed happily. Even though it was a lie, since the whole night had been about them. Just different facets of them. “It’s all about you. You. You. You.”

She stroked Willow’s skin just above the curves of her butt cheeks. “You’ve got a mark here.”

“It’s the harness,” Willow said. “I think it was twisted.”

“I told you that you should’ve let me help you get it on.”

“I’m a big girl; I can put my strap on myself.”

“You’re not so big,” she replied. “It’s not like I wasn’t down there anyway.”

“But you were doing other things.”

“Not once you - ”

Willow squirmed under her, chasing a sensation no doubt. “Keep still, I don’t want to fall off again,” she said. It hadn’t been tonight, but the combination of smooth skin, oil and a wiggly Willow could actually be a risk to Health and Safety.

“That was pretty funny.”

“No, it wasn’t! I could’ve hurt myself.”

“But you didn’t. And we learned that oil and big movements, too close to the edge of the bed when you can’t get a grip, not a good thing.”

“You’re not too big to be spanked either,” Tara told her.

“Oh, promises, promises.”

She rolled her eyes, even though Willow wasn’t able to see it. “I don’t get the attraction. I just… don’t.”

“You’d do it though. For me.” There was a little smile there; she could see one corner of it since Willow’s head was turned to the side. Eyes closed though with her hands up under her head. Had to be since they weren’t going to invest money – or space – in a proper massage bed.

This way was better.

“I would if you asked,” she agreed. But only if Willow specifically asked for it, rather than idly wanted.

“Maybe then you’d get it.”

“Not to be – indelicate, but - ”

“Baby, I have a point of order here. You’re sat on me, we’re both naked and we just… well, we just did something very nice. I think we’re well past ‘delicate’.”

Tara wasn’t so sure about that. For a while there, Willow had been talking and loving her, she’d been delicately poised between pleasure and disappointment. Chasing the pleasure and staving off the disappointment of her girlfriend’s overactive mind. That was Willow though. She was a thinker. Even now, even relaxing under her attempts at a masseuses attentions, Willow was still thinking. Most girls – she tended to think – would’ve just emptied their minds.

Maybe, for my girl, this is an empty mind?

“Let’s turn it around. How do you know you’d like spanking?” she asked. Maybe logic would help.

“In other words, did anyone ever do that for me?”

Anyone? There was only one anyone she could mean and…

“I guess.”

“No.”

“So…?”

“You might as well ask how did I know, when I met you and before we made love that that it’d be one of those moments that redefined everything in my life?” Willow asked. “Okay, there’s a little bit of apples and oranges going on there and one’s much more important than the other – but – you get what I mean, don’t you?”

“You know better than to answer a question with a question,” Tara said, pleased to hear that falling for her had been more important than being – pleasurably – swatted on the butt.

“So spank me then? If I’m being bad?”

“You – I don’t get it,” Tara said again, drizzling a little more oil onto lover’s smooth skin. Even smoother now. She was always loathe to get it all over the sheets but given everything else going on the sheets were already headed for the laundry.

“Don’t get what?”

“You don’t know you’ll like it, you’ve never had it – you can’t really know.”

“I told you, I knew with you. I knew – before… I mean, Tara, come on. We both remember how ready I was. I mean, I was ready.”

It was true. Even back then, inexperienced as they’d both been, Willow had undeniably been ready. Maybe she hadn’t understood, exactly, what she was ready for. But the ‘ready’ part, that was so undeniable.

“So?”

“So, I must’ve known on some level or I couldn’t have been that ready? If I hadn’t known then I’d have been all ‘maybe it’ll be great, maybe it’ll be something that takes me a while to get into.’ But really it was you and me and – ready or not here I come. See what I did there?”

She smiled to herself. At once she had the animated Willow – in her words – and the relaxed, satiated one – under her hands. It was still an attractive combination.

It was Willow. “Yeah, I see what you did, minx,” Tara said.

“It’s not all you did,” Willow replied.

“Yeah, apparently I marked and hurt you.” She ran her fingertips over the red mark that the twisted leather had left behind.

“No, I did that to myself,” Willow replied, reaching for her hand and gently reassuring her. “But if you wanted - ”

“Baby, don’t take this the wrong way but…” she paused, wondering how she was going to say it.

“You don’t want to spank me?”

“I don’t want to spank you.”

“Even if I’m the only girl in the world that you would?”

“Even if you were the only girl in the world that I would.”

“Even if I’d been bad?” Willow was smiling again, still relaxed, still with her eyes closed and still making the noises that said ‘yes, that’s just right.’ This – that they were talking about – it was really just one of those things on Willow’s expansive – but shrinking – list of ‘things to do before we get out of bed.’

The one that was next to the – suspected – orgasm tally sheet by the mirror.

“You could never be bad enough for that.”

“Oh? Is that a challenge?” Willow asked.

“No. Just the facts.”

“But… if a girl could be bad enough?”

“Don’t even try,” she said firmly. She was serious when she said there was no way Willow could be bad enough for that. Somehow she just saw it as… It didn’t seem sexy to her. Maybe – evidently – it did to Willow, but not to her. So while if Willow asked, she would, it would really all about her girlfriend and not about them.

Maybe… if they got all the other stuff off the list? But that would take a while… What with how they kept going back over familiar ground? How many massages since the first? And just now, she felt she was getting good at them.

“I feel too relaxed to be bad,” Willow said. “You’re super good at this, you know that?”

“It’s the trim nails,” Tara said. “Means I can really dig in without hurting.”

“Nope, it’s not. But I like them for other reasons. Getting back to being bad though…”

“I told you. No.”

“Could Faith be bad enough?” Willow asked.

“Faith?” It was, actually, very possible that girl could be bad enough to earn something – but not in the way that Willow meant. Definitely not that way. But… “I suppose so.”

“You’d spank Faith? But not me?”

“Only to discipline her,” Tara lied.

Willow opened one green eye, looking up at her from that still relaxed position. “You know, you’re playing with fire here.” Not that anything else had changed, no extra tension. If there was one thing Willow wasn’t worried about it was her and Faith. Even though most girlfriends surely would be.

“You asked!” Tara laughing, fighting the urge to giggle. Not very successfully.

“Mmm, I like that. When you giggle your breasts are all…”

“Never mind my breasts,” Tara said. “You’re all oily and…” She pushed her thumbs all along the side of Willow’s spine, working up, up, up and… there it was.

“Ohhhhhh, how do you do that? How do you find – uhhhhn… exactly what I need?”

It wasn’t the first time Willow had asked the question. But it was the first time that it hadn’t been focused on something a little more intimate…

“I can just feel it.”

“What?”

“Tension.”

Willow would’ve shook her head, but in the position she was in that was all but impossible and it just made her upper body jerk a little. Firm hands put a stop to that. “There’s no tension,” Willow promised. “No tension at all. You – you already wrung all the tension out of me.”

“Really?” She pressed her fingers into one of those spots again and Willow’s moan was equally as voluble.

“There’s no tension,” Willow groaned. “I don’t know what that is – but it’s not tension.”

“Feels like tension to me.”

“Well, it’s not. Tara’s Tantalising Tongue took care of that. Twice. Patent pending by the way.”

“What’s this then?” Tara asked, finding another spot to work on. This time it wasn’t quite as powerful a reaction, but all the same.

“I don’t know… Oh – wait. I do know.”

“Oh?” Tara asked, a little more cautiously. Willow sounded like she had a ploy.

“Could be tension. Could be a build-up of – you know – the sexy tension.”

“I thought my Tantalising Tongue (Patent Pending) had taken care of that?” she checked. “Twice?”

“No, I mean yes, but this is new tension. This is – well, relaxing as this is, it’s also all kinds of sexy. It’s slippery and it’s firm and it’s soft and it’s – Tara… you’re sat on me. I can feel… well, you. On me. I’m pretty sure you’ve been rubbing on my thigh.”

Had she been doing that? Actually… it was kind of possible. No, it was probably even likely. Oh yeah… look where the oil had gotten.

“Oh.”

“And you were talking about spanking - ”

You were talking about spanking,” she corrected.

“We were talking about spanking. Let’s agree on that.”

“Sure it’s not Faith tension? We were talking about her too.”

“No… this isn’t that kind of tension. You know how this might go away though…”

Tara sighed, but it was a happy one. After all what was it she was being asked to do? Something she delighted in and - apparently – had some skill for.

Patent pending. Though, it might not be about the tongue.

This time.

“You talked me into a massage…” she said, quite willing, but despite that making the point. After all, sometimes they really did need to sleep. Just because there’d been no hunting or anything tonight didn’t mean that they still needed to stay up all night. They’d actually called this an early night.

“The CD hasn’t finished yet and please, don’t try and tell me you’re not in the mood.”

Oh, not just yet. But the mood was hardly elusive. Willow just had to look at her so and…

Yeah, there was the mood.

“You know…” Willow said. “You really don’t even have to move from where you are if you don’t want to.” Reaching over the edge of the bed, Willow handed it to her.

“We’re accessorising again?” she asked.

“Just don’t get the straps twisted. I like your skin pristine.”

With a silent apology to their neighbours on the other side of the wall, she got ready to take care of her girl.


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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Bonus Chapter - 05/20/13

Postby Azirahael » Mon May 20, 2013 12:09 am

Dibs!

Also: Fuchsia! The accessory is Fuchsia-coloured!

Somehow i just know it.

It's a gift i know.

Gotta go, on a roll, somewhere else.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Bonus Chapter - 05/20/13

Postby Azirahael » Mon May 20, 2013 1:07 am

Ooops.

The internets, they broke.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Bonus Chapter - 05/20/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Wed May 22, 2013 9:58 am

Hmm, this chapter makes a lot rush thru my ind, problem (as alwyas with me) is to separate out the relvant parts.

I'll start with serious. It makes so much sense that, over the course of the months thye've been togethher (also, considering how very new, in different ways, this is to both of them,) they introduce new approaches to their sex lives gradually. And it's just so great seeing how even the new seems just right to them.

Okay, that's taken care of. I guess they were using the duplicated missionary postion ebcause that's how they've mostly seen and experienced?) m/f sex, so they figured it was the most predictable(?) way to start until they got used to the accouterment. this seems like a plausible second step. (I couldn't quite tell. Was Tara in the classic straddle position on her knees -like the Buffybot and Spike in the cemetery- or was she in what I call the "Linda Hamilton position" with legs straight back?)
I imagine this is a more logical second step than the "dog style" (which I much prefer to call "in the front from the back," personally) featured in some of the fantasy sequences in "Neverland" (also featured, repeated over and over and over, in 2 all-f/f pornos I rented back in '89.) But they'll rpobably get tot hat and enjoy it.

Personally I've never wanted to write a W&T story using an attachment,b ut Buffy and Faith -I have a vague idea for one in my "Ice Age Buffy" 'verse involving handcuffs, apaddle, and a"16-incher." ...I think I'd better stop now
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Bonus Chapter - 05/20/13

Postby Katharyn » Wed May 22, 2013 11:38 am

It is certainly a peculiar thing, Daddcatalso and Azirahael... I have written some truly 'detailed' and 'graphic' things in my time and had fun doing it. I even have what some people would class a 'pornographic novel' I wrote and yet with the girls... nah.

I just cannot do that. I will hint. I will suggest. I will make things very, very clear without using the words, but I just don't - quite - go there. LOL. So when you come back with feedback that you've been very generous with I both welcome it and cringe. I don't cringe because of what YOU wrote, I cringe because of what I wrote. And because it's the girls. There's a weird disconnect between writing it and then knowing someone is reading it LOL. If it wasn't the girls, I so wouldn't care. Some people I never thought would do so read my 'porno' novel and that was less embarrassing than this with the girls LOL. I feel so protective of them. I was the one who 'invaded' their privacy to bring it to you and I don't regret it (it was fun!) but talking much more about it... just seems weird. I'm a freak ;)

And so - this once - I'm not going to go into all the feedback in the detail I usually would. I read it, I appreciate it and thank you for supporting a 'difficult' part to feed back on but I won't get into the details... Because I am a wuss when it comes to the girls. Or because of my day or something.

THANK YOU THOUGH :D

That means no colours, no positions and... I am so blushing right now. :)

Other than to say, DCA, your 'serious' point... you are absolutely right. There wasn't one, wild week where everything just happened. They're exploring and having fun and - you know - sometimes it probably just sucks and they chalk that up to experience and move on (or back!) And if I had a serious point in this part it's what you said, or hinted at. It's the trust between them to be those people.

Normal service will be resumed in the next part in just a minute...

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby Katharyn » Wed May 22, 2013 11:41 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Three
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: First part of ‘The Replacement’
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: Okay, we’re in unknown territory here. I seriously considered skipping over ‘The Replacement’ or just back referencing it afterwards as it was an episode I never liked at the time. Also, it has no Tara… On the other hand there’s some story progression in there that proves useful and it has the potential to be a lot of fun. Also you all know my rules by now, if it’s an external factor (big bad coming to town etc.) then that needs to be at least referenced and taken care of, but I can change the internal dynamic stuff because events would change that. So here goes… bear with me if this isn’t great and most likely it will whizz through the timeframe quicker than I usually would with a shortish part to start with.
Course if it’s wonderful, then it’s more me than usual 
Thanks to: All of you for putting up with me this long. We should be more than halfway now!



This was, in many ways, Tara’s nightmare.

Not the fact that she was pressed up against another girl in a very small space, because yeah, she could deal with that. Nor was it about that girl not being Willow because, she could press up against whoever she needed to and Hope was neither a stranger nor anyone that Willow would be jealous of even though they had labelled her – along the lines of her High School year book – the Lehane sister most likely to date.

Not that she’d date, just date. Period.

The comparison with a nightmare wasn’t even about the public performance aspect of things, since they seemed to have attracted a crowd and everyone was here, around the piano that Mister Giles had moved into one of the backrooms of his shop. He’d found it in the basement, taken a shine to it and then used both the Slayers to actually manage to get it back up to the ground floor.

Ethan had come up with some smutty jokes about that too.

But, okay, so public performances weren’t her favourite thing in the world, but since she wasn’t having to speak she should’ve been okay.

What was really bugging her was that… she was sucking so hard.

It wasn’t difficult, that was what Hope had said. It was what Willow had said too. And no, it probably wasn’t difficult if you’d been taking piano lessons for a good slice of your life – which both of them had. It shouldn’t have been difficult anyway, you know, because Hope hadn’t set out to embarrass her. No way, she wasn’t that kind of girl. Nothing like Tracy or Harmony or that Cordelia girl Willow had always hated.

Hope was a good kid and had – genuinely – pulled her into this because it was going to be fun.

Fun. Right.

I don’t have the coordination. No, that’s not it. I don’t have rhythm.

Willow hadn’t accepted any of those answers though. Her girl was convinced that if you could dance – and she could – and do other things involving counterintuitive movements in different directions at the same time that you didn’t mention in this company – which she also could – then she could do this.

And ‘this’ was sitting beside Hope on the piano stool with basically three keys to press at specific times, in certain orders. Hope was giving her cues, banging their legs together as a prompt, and if her timing was right then the key was wrong. If the key was right then the timing was off. For some reason… “I’m just not getting this,” she apologised to her partner when they next paused.

“No, baby, it was very good,” Willow insisted. The others made various platitudes about that too. But she knew when she was sucking without having to be told all about it.

“Maybe,” Tara said, “if you average Hope and me together her excellent becomes a very good with my not so great effort.” She put her arm around the younger girl, giving her a squeeze. “You’re great though, you shouldn’t let me drag you down like that.”

“So what’s it like?” Hope asked.

“What?”

“Finding stuff you’re not good at.”

Tara shook her head, laughing. “Oh, honey, there’s soooo much I’m not good at.”

“I never saw it. You cook, you’ve looked after most of us at one point or another, you’re a witch - ”

“She’s got a hot girlfriend,” Willow said, provoking more laughter.

“All that, so now… you can’t play the piano that well. Is it a big deal?”

“It wasn’t any sort of deal,” Tara said, “until you made me.”

“I didn’t know you’d have such a problem with your fingering,” Hope said. “Who could possibly have thought that you would?!”

Silence descended and Tara narrowed her eyes, looking at her young friend. Did she know what she was saying? If she didn’t then was she going to figure it out? Apparently not.

Ah, an innocent Lehane. How long could it last?

“For the record,” Willow said. “There’s no problem with Tara’s… Right. Umm, I thought she was very good, for a beginner.”

“Willow’s is much better,” Hope said, seemingly not getting it. “It just is. Her fingering is spot on, you really remember your lessons, don’t you?”

“Umm…”

“Honey,” Buffy said gently to Hope. “You might – I don’t know, want to talk about something else.”

“Why?”

“They’re lesbians,” Anya said. “Fingering is what they do. It’s all about the hands, you know? I read that. I’m widening my knowledge.” And obviously proud of it.

“And you started with the Lesbian Guide to Sex?” Buffy asked.

“Yes, actually she did,” Xander answered for her.

“If Xander ever leaves me - ” Anya started.

“Like that’s ever going to happen.”

“If you do, then in addition to requiring some elaborate form of revenge, I expect that I will need a pointless, rebound fling. It seemed just wrong to exclude half the population from the pool of possibilities. Or even within our circle, lesbians and bi-sexual women are statistically over-represented.”

“I am not bi-sexual,” Willow said firmly. “I’m one hundred percent lady-loving since the very day I met Tara.”

“Sheesh, Willow, does everything have to be about you?” Anya asked, exasperated.

“You didn’t mean me?” Willow asked.

“I think she meant my sister,” Hope said. “Faith’s… well, I don’t keep track of who she’s been with but, I’m pretty sure there were girls in the mix. And there’s Paige, I mean – I don’t think they’ve done it yet but…” She shrugged.

“No one ever said she wasn’t an equal opportunities sl – sl - girl,” Buffy said.

“She even did Xander…” Anya added, glowering.

“Where did Faith go anyway?”

“Umm, she’s doing her… homework,” Hope told them.

“Really?”

“She was when I left, anyway. And she was swearing all the way through it. School’s making her curse a lot more than usual and Ethan told me that he’s met sailors with cleaner mouths than her.”

“I’ll bet,” Buffy said.

“Talking of which, this little interlude has been lovely,” Giles told them, “but you did all come around to help me get the store ready for opening? Not, actually, for a piano recital?”

“Just remembered,” Buffy said. “I have homework too. A - a paper to research. Got to keep those grades up – there’s no Slayer scholarship to skate by on.”

“And we have to go the store,” Xander said, taking Anya firmly by the hand. “Big shop to do.”

“How much can you possibly cook on the hotplate?” Willow asked pointedly, seeing where this was going.

“You’d really be surprised,” Xander said. “But actually – that’s news, me and Anya, we’re looking to get a place. Together. Soon… but maybe we can talk about that another time?” Like Buffy he was heading for the door and taking Anya with him.

“Wait!” Willow cried. “You’re moving in together? We have to talk about that!”

Tara wasn’t sure where Willow was going with it, but maybe she just meant that it was something anyone would need to talk about.

“Why?” Xander asked. “You and Tara are living together, Buffy spends all her nights at Eddies. Me and Anya… well, we’re pretty much living together but - ”

“The cat peed on the hotplate,” Anya said. “We can’t cook anything without there being a really bad smell, but soon we’ll have our own place. I will no longer be the girlfriend of a man who lives in his parent’s basement. I’m very excited. I think the sex will be hotter and wilder when he’s not holding back as much.”

“Okay…” Willow said, smiling over at her. “Maybe it is time that you got out of here, we’ll finish up with Giles.”

“Oh, so someone is going to stay with me?”

“Count yourselves lucky you didn’t have to haul a piano up the stairs,” Buffy called back, already passing through the door. “See ya.”

“I carried the stool,” Willow said quietly, but then, with the others gone came over to her. “So… your fingering doesn’t meet Hope’s approval?” She was trying not to laugh, but wasn’t really doing a great job of it though.

“Ha ha.”

“I figured it out now,” Hope said, blushing. “What I said. I – I have no way to know what Tara’s – umm – fingering is really like, but I hope – I hope that it’s great. I do, I – I’m not going to say anymore. But if the floor would just open up…?”

“Move, sweetie,” Willow said and Tara gladly relinquished her place on the seat. “Let me show you some proper fingering, Willow-style.”

Tara grinned, settling back for a moment to watch as Hope counted them into another attempt. But this time, instead of just pressing a few keys as she’d done, Willow was playing the counterpoint lower down the keyboard.

It may, perhaps uncharitably, have run through her mind during that performance… I’ll show her fingering.

“W-would you like me to come and help?” she asked Mister Giles while Willow and Hope started to compete, trying to outdo each other. Hope would win, eventually. It was Willow who was the rustier, not having had lessons for a while, but she still sounded great.

“I wish someone would. My labour force seems to have somewhat melted away.”

“The piano was probably a mistake,” she commented. “There were other priorities, I think?”

“Perhaps, but we have had some fun with it. I never quite expected that we’d all end up clustered around it. Just like the good old days.”

“Marvelling at how bad I am at it?”

“No worse than I would’ve been, I assure you,” he said.

With the door to the backroom still open, they could hear the competition between Hope and Willow. They really were both pretty good. If there was one of them though that had to be good at everything she did, it was Willow. Hope was in for a hard fight here, because Willow wouldn’t give up. Not if she could get to be best. It was just in her DNA.

“Where do you want these?” she asked, spying a box of books marked for shelves, rather than his private collection which would be locked away.

“Ah, we’re starting A at the shelf by the door,” he said. “But I think that’s somewhere around T…”

Tara pulled the box open. “Trump’s Theology,” she read. “T – T – good guess.”

“I’m not guessing,” he said. “It’s all very carefully planned out.”

“Of course.”

“And there’s absolutely no chance that I will end up re-ordering everything in a few weeks or days,” he added.

“Absolutely none. And I’ll tell Faith and Buffy that, if they ask. They’ll be avoiding helping Xander and Anya move soon anyway.”

“Ah, a match made in hell,” Giles said.

“Do you think?”

“Certainly not heaven, which was my point. I suppose that in a curious way that could never have been anticipated, they’re very well suited to each other.”

“Better than Xander and Willow would’ve been,” Tara said, starting to put the books out and ordering them as she went.

“Ah, that’s something we can talk about?” he asked. “Not that I’ve had any desire to. That pairing always struck me as rather… odd.”

Tara nodded. She was comfortable with the past; it’d made her girl who she was today. Both the friendship of Xander and the mistake that they’d made in thinking it could go further and still work. “Some people are just friends, that’s all they can ever be. Other people… they can be whatever they want.”

“I’d agree with that thesis,” he accepted. “There’ve been plenty of occasions in my own life where I’ve had cause for regret that I approached things from the wrong direction, or took things too far.”

“You know, the others can’t think of you dating,” Tara said, feeling like there was some sort of bond between them now that let them say these things. He kept pulling her up to his level in terms of their relationship. Both with the Slayers and what they should expect of each other too.

“I fear that they’re rather more afraid of the idea of old people getting more intimate than they are of my actual dating.”

“You’re not that old though,” Tara said.

“I don’t think so,” Giles replied. “Though men my age who keep company with a young woman of Buffy’s age – or younger – are almost universally frowned upon.”

“Or very rich.”

“A quality I neither possess nor aspire to.”

“Okay, that’s T” she said, disassembling the now empty box for storage or reuse.

“That’s part of T,” he replied. “There’s plenty more, I assure you. Try that box over there. Behind the…demon!”

Tara span around, almost face to face with a tall, scaly demon wearing robes and generally looking scary.

“I seek the Slayer,” it said in accented, but passable English. “Are you she?”

“Am I she?” she repeated. “No, no, I’m not she. I mean, I’m not her - ”

She was completely flummoxed, caught off her guard. How had it just gotten in here without being seen? In the other room the piano was still being played so he hadn’t come through there or hurt anyone and much as she might like to call Willow, her girlfriend was better out there, watching over Hope and keeping her out of trouble.

“Back demon!” Giles said, dashing forward to her side and brandishing an elongated, wooden statue which… Umm…

“I think that’s a fertility - ”

“That’s a fertility god,” the demon said, interrupting her. But she’d been right. It was easy to tell, the imagery didn’t leave much to the imagination in terms of the overall shape.

“Nevertheless,” Giles said and proceeded to beat the demon over the head with the neo-antique, elongated and very phallic carving. At least he was doing the wielding; Willow would never have let her hear the end of it if she’d been the one.

“What’s happening?” Willow shouted from the door while Tara held up a hand, keeping her from coming closer. Not so much for fear of her girl getting hurt – though obviously that was in her mind – but just so that Hope would have someone with her.

Willow wasn’t happy, but she got it, catching hold of Hope’s arm and keeping her back just as the demon grabbed hold of Giles, examined him while hanging with his feet off the ground, kicking uselessly and then tossed him aside.

“You are not the Slayer, you do not concern me.”

Then it turned to her. “I’m not the Slayer either,” Tara said. Everything that she could think to do would take more than the moment that she had. Everything except… Looking past the demon at one of the book shelves, she reached out with her mind and got a magical – and tenuous – grasp on the biggest, heaviest book she could see and… jerked it off towards the demon, hitting it on the back of the head.

And to follow up, given the second that she’d gained, she gathered energy to herself and then pushed it into him. Mostly it was theory and a little experimentation with Willow but… it worked. Or at least it seemed to.

For a moment the demon was staggered, then he raised his arm and… absorbed the energy that she was using into something strapped to his wrist. Not only was that gone, but then it was coming back at her and she found herself sat flat on her ass, staring up at him.

“Tara!” Willow cried

“How - ”

“You are not the Slayer, you also do not concern me.”

With both of them thus dismissed, it turned and swept away, leaving through the door with a sweep of its long cape.

It looked kinda impressive.

Which was more than you could say for the smell.

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“So I beat it round the head, this side and that,” Giles said, showing off his skills once more.

Willow would’ve been impressed by the recitation if she hadn’t seen the ultimate outcome.

“With the giant penis?” Anya asked.

“Oh… I thought it looked familiar,” Faith chirped up. “Remember that, B?”

“Ha ha,” Buffy stuck her tongue out for a moment. “I think you’ll find it’s a fertility god. It’s a fertility god, right?”

“Very good,” Giles said, setting the ‘giant penis’ back on the shelf where he’d taken it from.

“You saw the label, right?” Willow asked her former roommate quietly.

“It was my first clue,” Buffy said. “But also, yeah, I can totally see what it’s supposed to look like now.”

“The point,” Giles said, “was that it was the first thing that came to hand with sufficient girth and weight to do some real damage.”

Willow winced, wishing that he hadn’t picked ‘girth’ as one of the measures since –

“I don’t know about you girls,” Faith said. “But I’m all about girth.”

“Oh yes!” Anya told her.

“Lesbian,” Tara said, putting her hand up and excusing herself very quickly.

“Uhuh,” Faith said, “because a lesbian never puts anything - ”

Willow coughed loudly, drawing attention not to her but to the fact that Hope had – very fortunately – come back into the room.

Faith glanced at her sister, sighed and then gave it up in the face of their silent instruction. Kind of. “It’s not like she’ll never find these things out for herself.”

“Find out what?” Hope was sucking on a lollipop, but wasn’t stingy and did the rounds to offer another to anyone who wanted one.

“Nothing we need to worry about now,” Giles said.

“Anyway, we were discussing my heroic defence of the store.”

“Tara helped,” Willow added, just wanting to get that in there.

“I didn’t really help,” Tara said, “I mean, it didn’t do that much.”

Willow, who’d never given much thought to offensive magic until now, was willing to concede that it hadn’t driven him away, but it’d impressed her all the same. Tara could, in extremis, do this stuff that should’ve worked. “Not every demon has a hard enough head that throwing a book at it wouldn’t have helped.”

“I do wish you’d not chosen a book,” Giles added, but he didn’t sound too upset.

“Sorry.”

“You had your hands firmly around the giant co – statue,” Faith pointed out.

“And that energy thing, when you pushed at him – it knocked him off balance, I think he had some sort of thingamabob on his wrist that let him absorb it,” Willow said. “At least that’s what it looked like. Not every demon would’ve had one of those. With another demon, it could really have worked.”

“You know,” Faith said. “If we’d been calling something a ‘thingamabob’, you’d have been telling us we were being inaccurate, or giving us a name for it or something.”

Buffy, though surprised, nodded in agreement.

“Oh!” Tara exclaimed, hugging Faith briefly.

“What the - ” Faith was confused, but not fighting off the hug too forcefully. “Red, your girl seems to be into me. You mind?”

“No!” Tara said. “You – you said ‘we’ and you included Buffy.”

“I did?”

Willow nodded, Giles too.

“Slip of the tongue, but you’d know all about that too,” Faith said. Not bad as double-entendre went either and she extricated herself from Tara who brushed hands with her as she went back to her seat.

“So he really ran away from your weight and girth, huh?” Faith asked.

“It was more that he turned and swept out, majestically,” Giles said. “Wouldn’t you agree, Tara?”

“Looked majestic t-to me.”

“Bright side,” Xander said, after he’d been fiddling with a puzzle box from the shelf for some time – no success – “you’re not dead or unconscious which, really is doing better than your predecessors here in the store.”

“He’s not opened yet,” Anya countered sniffily, as if she’d placed a wager or something... She did have some contacts who might take that kind of action.

Or so she’d always suggested.

“You’re right, honey, would anyone like to join me for a swinging chorus of the ‘We told you so’ symphony?”

“Now, that’s not fair. As I recall you were all very glad that I’d decided to stay in Sunnydale,” Giles said.

“True,” Willow agreed. “But we did warn you about the life expectancy of the owners of this place. I even looked at it over the last ten years, through notices of deaths… Only one person has ever walked out of here, feet first.”

“Really?”

“Dum-dum-da-dum-dum-da-da-da-dum-de-dum.”

Funeral march.

“Yes, absolutely hilarious, my sides are absolutely splitting, but if we could get back to the demon involved then, perhaps I might avoid you all having to come to my funeral service simply to tell me that you told me so.”

“Ooh,” Xander said. “Touchy!”

“Ah, here it is,” Giles said, finally finding the page in the book that he’d been looking for.

“Isn’t that the book - ” she started to ask Tara, only to be silenced by a look. Tara wasn’t proud of herself for flinging that – with the power of her mind – at the demon. Now it turned out to be the same book that was needed to research it? Coincidence or what?

“The demon,” Giles said to interrupt her, “is called Toth. Last of the Tothric Clan.”

“Does that mean we get to make something extinct?” Faith asked, looking a little less bored at the possibility.

“Guess so,” Buffy agreed.

If that is necessary, it may well do,” Giles said. “I don’t suppose there’s much chance that he was looking for one of you just to invite you to tea.”

“And I don’t drink tea,” Faith said. “So… count me out even if he was.”

“The Tothric Clan were always very sophisticated. They were users of tools and devices, rooted in the supernatural to be sure, but engineered all the same. At one point they would’ve seemed considerably more sophisticated than anything humans were using, their history stretches back quite some considerable time. As that time has gone by, however, humans have become more ingenious and the advantage they once had over us has been eroded and their numbers have decreased.”

“That’s almost sad,” Willow said. “Except, you know, for the part where he came after Buffy and Faith. That part’s not sad.” Nor the bit where he might’ve given Tara a bruised butt. If he had, then she was just going to have to be extra gentle tonight with what she was clutching while they were proving Faith right… Lesbians did – sometimes – appreciate something, umm… inside.

Was it wrong that she was anticipating finding out about those bruises? No… Call it perks.

“Did he want both of us?” Buffy asked. “Either of us?”

“He said ‘Slayer’,” Giles said. “He might be yet another adversary unaware that there are two of you.”

“Spend thousands of years being the one girl in all the world and then a replacement comes along prematurely…” Buffy shrugged.

“There’s nothing premature about me,” Faith said. “You died. That’s your own damn fault. I don’t know why everyone still thinks you’re the real Slayer. You just kept hanging around.”

“If we could please get back on the topic?” Giles asked, not letting the two slip into bickering. Even if bickering was better than wailing on each other or actual argument.

“Okay, where do we find him? Does your book say?” Buffy was pretty sceptical, because why would an old book know that.

“Actually, it gives a fair indication,” Giles said, before Tara could volunteer her own opinion. “The Tothric, faced with the spread of humanity and it’s incursion into their traditional spaces, took to using human cast offs as the basis for their technology.”

“And he smelled,” Tara said. “He smelled like… well…”

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby Azirahael » Wed May 22, 2013 12:56 pm

DibS!

I read and then give feedback.

Feedback to the feedback from before the new bit:

I totally agree.
For my own titillation, i write myself some very graphic naughtiness.

But i could never do that with the girls.
I just... it feels a little like perving on my sister, just wrong.

I did have a go at some smut, with Heather (Vampgirl73) 's help, but it was really stressful.
Faith/Buffy got some second base (i think) smooching and boobage.
Willow and Tara got naked in the back of a big American car.

I wanted it to be sexy, but also sweet, a difficult balancing act.
Also, i am not myself a lesbian woman, so there's that whole, 'This is not my culture, i have no knowledge bit'.

Which may not be a handicap for you, i don't know :)

anyway, more to come after i have a read :) :bounce

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby Azirahael » Wed May 22, 2013 1:54 pm

Ok, this bit:

“I didn’t know you’d have such a problem with your fingering,” Hope said. “Who could possibly have thought that you would?!”


Heh heh.
Nice.
Plus Anya making revealing, yet alarmingly accurate comments, when is that ever not funny?

So yeah, not a lot happened, but that's ok.
It's not all about driving the plot ever forward, sometimes it's just nice to see them having fun, and being friends.

Plus Tara's reward scheme? Awesome!
Do something good : Get a Tarahug™

It's way better than a Scooby snack!
Hell, i wanna do something good now :)

I liked it.
Happy kitten :) :kgeek

Bye!

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby DaddyCatALSO » Thu May 23, 2013 12:43 pm

I definitely like Telekinetic Tara. Interesting you turned a statue of a female goddess-figure into an outright phallic symbol. Deifntiely worth it for the Faith jokes alone. (Altho the original name Oofdar was a pretty good -triple-play on words in its own right.)

The diea of incorproating music into the "Scoobie lifestyle" appeals to me. Reminds me of the weekend get-togethers at Joss's house, with the Shakespeare readings and the sing-alongs. Would've enjoye dbeing a fly on the wal with a video cam for those.)

Re the feedback to the feedback; well, Iw rote my fic about their first time because I felt a need to put it in writing - then posted it, and its followups because If igured if I got it wrong, somebody here could offer constructive criticism. :-)! Your post got me to thinking - the only way for me to write a sex scene which isn't explicit is to skip it entirely. IT's a sylistic quirk with me. Most likely because I started sneaking looks at my dad's pornographic novels at a too-impressionable age 1- before I was actually readign much regular fiction written for grownups 2-before I really understood what sex was in practice. Not a great thing when you think about it.

I actually did one of my fics where tara assumed a similar position, but no appliances were involved - it was just the best position for Willow to do patellar sex on her.. Which is really smething I hope I just made up but probably isn't.
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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby Azirahael » Thu May 23, 2013 1:20 pm

patellar sex... that's a new one.

Def putting that in the book :)

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 83 - 05/22/13

Postby Katharyn » Sat May 25, 2013 5:36 am

Azirahael - It may surprise you to know that the 'fingering' line came after the piano session rather than before it :) On the other hand once I did the piano, how could I not go there?

Anya... yes, like Faith, you can rely on her to tell it as it is. :)

I'm pleased you can live with the pacing... It's me, I get to play with the girls longer this way :)

As for Tara, I think she just likes to hug!

Thanks so much.

Daddycatalso - TK Tara is one of those things that I just think she can do, when she's not just the girlfriend of a sidekick, without turning into some 'magic as the fix for everything' kind of girl. And yes, it's certainly true that the arrival of Diana caused Giles to end up with a different fertility symbol on his shelves. Of course, it may just have been Anya's stock control and interest! :)

I think - and you must've noticed - that I just like the idea that they have lives outside of the adventures. Season 5 - especially - is one where there are gaps between episodes where they just have to live. Sure, at the end, all the episodes pretty much run together, but despite the building crisis in S5 the early and middle episodes just aren't structured that way. For me, that's good. Because they do get to live. Sure, everything else is there in their minds. But they know enough to understand that they can't live in fear or waiting for the worst to happen.

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 84 - 05/25/13

Postby Katharyn » Sat May 25, 2013 5:37 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Four
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: Following on from the demon’s attack in the Magic Box, parallels the episode ‘The Replacement.’ Just a little different.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: I’ve chosen to follow the storyline of ‘The Replacement’ in the broadest sense. I didn’t, however, decide what was going to happen to whom until I actually got to the point. All I knew was it wasn’t going to be Xander. And because I made another choice that forced me not to alternate the PoV as I’ve usually done all the way through. That may give you a clue. I’m using the scenario to make a point though… see if you can see what it is? . As ever with me, I will usually beat you around the head with things I want you to know until you can groan it…
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“You’re right, it smells like exactly what it is. The city dump,” Willow said. “No one can deny you bring me to the nicest places, baby.”

Tara tried to avoid inhaling through her nose. Being a mouth-breather for a while didn’t seem like a bad idea, but the smell of the place was so strong that you could almost taste the stench too and though it was generally bad all over, in places it was especially foul. Blame that on a hot climate.

Would a little breeze have been too much to ask? Maybe to carry it off?

“Sorry,” she part said and part coughed.

It wasn’t just her judgement that had led them here, Giles had agreed that the odour had been… distinctive. That was what they’d said, the research had agreed and now they were here, it was just that. The massive accumulation of everything that humans wanted to discard, all in one place and at varying stages of decomposition. Yes, under the hot California sun… well, it’d been hard to imagine.

Now she didn’t have to imagine anymore, she’d probably still be tasting it for weeks and as Willow had pointed out, there might have to be some burning of their clothes. Maybe ritually, if there was some small god out there that needed that kind of wardrobe sacrifice. At least they’d gone and changed first – not everyone had.

“Not your fault. But I’m glad we left Hope behind,” Willow said.

“Yeah, she gags easily,” Faith said. “Might not bode well for her future.”

“You shouldn’t say things like that,” Tara said, throwing her hands up. Faith had gone too far with that one.

“It’s not nice?”

“No, it’s not nice.”

“Okay, sorry.”

“Did she just apologise to you?” Willow asked, surprised. If she’d – It’d sounded like Faith meant it.

“Yeah, I apologised and it’s not the first time so don’t make out it is and – damn, I just stepped in… something. You guys need to start attracting a better class of demon.” Faith looked around, pretty much in vain, for something scrape her boot on. Everything around her looked just as bad.

“Why? I’d have thought this was just about your level,” Buffy said, but without the usual bite that would’ve laced her words.

“There’s only one person here’s ever bumped uglies with a demon,” Faith said, just as sweet as you like.

Of course… that wasn’t true. Not if you had a liberal definition of ‘bumping uglies.’ But there was only one person who knew that they had, that was certainly true.

Hope was back at the store with Xander. And with Anya – of course - who’d started to express an interest in the business. Willow was already worrying it might mark a return to her supernatural past, but Tara’s impression was that the cash register was a bigger draw to Anya. Pretty much empty right now, but the way Anya’s eyes had kept drifting to it had been just like she’d looked at those bars Xander had been selling for a while. Nasty things, but a source of money and – to Anya – money was proving to be a good, good thing.

Right now though, the shop wasn’t open and there wasn’t any money to be had. Not even if Giles was ready to take on staff - which was an offer he had made - probably looking for cheap labour... She’d been thinking about it herself, but taking a job like that seemed like thinking a little far into the future.

What with things that were going to happen all too soon. Things she couldn’t look past. Brightly lit as the road she was on with Willow was, there was that dark cloud on the horizon…

But she had to look to the here and now. They were in a dump, loaded for bear – or demons from Clan Tothric – and had no idea where their quarry was.

Of course it was while she was thinking that way she found she didn’t have to worry about it.

The demon landed right in front of them with some agility - and an actual swoosh of a cloak - on top of an old refrigerator. This thing flew? No… more like super-jumped or something. Next thing, it was pointing some sort of rod in their general direction and an old milk carton exploded with a shower of… Yeah, that was stale milk in there.

More stench.

“Eww,” Buffy cursed, covered with the glutinous stuff. “That is just nasty.”

Both the Slayers were already trying to close the distance on the demon, struggling for footing. And when Giles fired his crossbow the bolt looked like it was going to hit it, then – inexplicably – it changed direction and split open a bag of garbage instead.

Toth – the Toth? - didn’t hang around, just waiting for Slayers to come up and behead it or anything so suicidal. With a spring, it ascended another pile of garbage, somehow managing to stay surefooted on an uneven surface and within seconds of landing, it was blasting again. Weird bolts of energy from that rod making the air sizzle as it fired towards the Slayers. Either or both of them seemed to be the target. Even so, it made her shriek as Buffy crossed her path and that brought one of those bolts within inches of her face.

Luckily there was no fountain of sour milk, but she could feel the power within that bolt of supernatural energy. It wasn’t just destructive. It was… It was like it would change something?

Strange thing to think in a tense moment.

Anyway, that was the sense of it that she had in a split second when it was whizzing past her face.

“Tara!” Willow cried, grasping a stake that was going to prove useless.

“I’m okay,” she called back. They’d started out side by side and then been separated by the surprise attack, but Willow had been close enough to hear her shriek and naturally it had worried her. But it was as she was looking in that direction that she saw Willow lose her footing and stumble into Faith, catching herself against the Slayer who bent to keep her from going further down the pile of garbage.

And because of that misstep, instead of hitting Faith… the next energy bolt hit Willow.

“Willow!” This time she was the one screaming her lover’s name. Willow didn’t do anything except collapse once it hit her, held off the ‘ground’ only by Faith’s grip.

She was relieved – and yes, a little surprised – that Faith shifted her focus and grabbed Willow more robustly, hoisting a girl who was easily her size over her shoulder like she weighed no more than Miss Kitty.

“Willow - ” Tara said, trying to get across the garbage and going to Faith as fast as she could. She was alive. Willow was alive. That was the first thing that mattered. Everything after that was fixable. I know she’s alive. I can feel her.

She was dimly aware that Giles was coming to help and that Buffy was still making for the demon. That was right, someone had to fight him – but it wasn’t going to be her. Her priority was Willow. “Give her to me!” she said to Faith as soon as they got to something approaching even firm ground.

Faith resisted the urgency of her instruction, making sure that she put Willow down carefully and in a position from which it’d be easy to move her into the recovery position. Tara figured that out only afterwards, managed to mouth ‘thank you’ to Faith before she turned to Willow who…

Didn’t look marked at all.

Her eyes were closed, her hair was mussed and she looked… peaceful. Tara had watched her girl sleep often enough that she recognised the state. Willow was still breathing – her chest was rising and falling - and she had that sense of her girl, when they were touching skin, she always had.

Not hurt, not distressed but not quite… right either.

“She’s okay, I think,” Tara said, running her hands over the spot where the bolt had hit but… it wasn’t even mussed and there was a lot of mussing going on in this place. She checked further, not understanding… But nothing...

“Perhaps I should take a look,” Giles said. Tara didn’t move or give him space. She was the one looking after Willow. If that demon came for her again then she’d be the last barrier. If Mister Giles had possessed one skill – first aid training for example – that she didn’t also have then she’d have let him.

But he didn’t.

“Or I can stand here,” he said easily, his hand on her shoulder. “She’ll be okay.”

“I know,” Tara said. “I know she’ll be okay.”

She has to be okay.

“Demon’s gone,” Buffy said, breathing hard. “We’re clear. I lost track of him the second Willow went down. How – is she okay? Tara?”

“She’s still with me,” Tara said. “We – we need to get her to a doctor. I – I don’t know what’s wrong with her. She’s not – there’s no marks, no wounds…” The idea of some kind of energy blast marring Willow’s smooth skin, wounding her, threatening her life… all of it was horrible.

The idea that she could be taken away from her. Facing up to what it was that they were doing.

“We’ll take her to my car,” Giles said. He’d threatened that no one was riding back when they got here, but now his concern about the dirt and stench in his new car was overridden by what had happened to Willow.

That was the way it should be.

When she wasn’t answering the more important questions, then she was talking to Willow. Putting her face close to Willow’s telling her the things they’d do, telling her she loved her. Her hands still roamed over her girl, making sure there really was no injury but she couldn’t find anything. Outside or under her clothes.

What if it was mental? What if it’s her mind, her personality? What then? The part of Willow that she treasured the most, the part that Willow herself was most proud of, her intellect and her capacity to love… what if it was that?

“I’m with you,” she promised. “I’m with you and I’m not going anywhere.”

“Umm, Tara?” Faith’s question was accompanied by a general silence of the others.

“You were going for the car,” she reminded Giles, ignoring Faith who’d done her part. “Go and get the car, bring it to the gate.”

“Tara - ” Faith pressed again.

“Get the car!” she insisted. “Buffy, help me carry her, please – help me carry her. We have to take her - ”

“Tara,” Faith said more quietly, but somehow more urgently.

What!?” She didn’t have time for anything else. Nothing else mattered. She whirled on the Slayer, angry and hurt and not knowing what else to do. What did Faith want? What could be so important?”

Inadvertently Faith took a step back. But… in her arms was someone else. Someone with clothes like Willow’s. Someone with red hair. Someone unconscious and…

Looking at the girl who was in Faith’s arm and the one who was held in hers…

“Willow?”

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The hospital hadn’t turned out to be the right choice and – dumbstruck – Tara had allowed Giles to drive them back to the Magic Box instead and now both Willow’s rested – side by side – on the camp beds that the new proprietor had determined were likely to be necessary.

Probably not for this though…

No one had seen this coming.

And the pair were a source of fascination to everyone. A source of confusion to her too. Because…

I can’t tell the difference.

They were both – outwardly – Willow. Absolutely Willow. The hair, the skin tone, the reaction to the change in temperature from outside to inside. The clothes even had the same stains and marks on them from the dump – at least from before they’d fallen in different places.

“This should be easy for you,” Anya said. “There must be things, intimate things that you’d know that no one else would have seen?”

“What?”

“Well, you’ve seen parts of - ”

“No, I mean – you really think I’m going to strip her off – them off and look at them…?” Yes, actually, there was Willow’s birthmark which was… well, it was in an interesting place. And there was that tiny mole – more of a beauty spot actually. But… no. That wasn’t the way.

One of these Willow’s mustn’t be real. But she was damned if she could determine which it was. They looked, felt and even breathed the same. She was sure, even if she’d taken Anya’s suggestion – and she definitely wasn’t going to go there – then they’d have been the same down to that level of detail too.

More so because… they felt the same. Put her temple to that of each of the Willow’s and they felt like Willow. A little different to how she’d have expected, but there was no sense in which there was some sort of alien presence there. And if whichever was the mimic could mimic Willow to that degree then might they not have her memories and her feelings?

Wasn’t that how a mimic would have to do it to fool her above everyone else?

“I know what I’d do if it was Xander,” Anya said.

“We know, strip them off and - ”

“Hope they both woke up. Then I could have sex with them without cheating on anyone.”

Even Faith was skeeved out by that one, and that was saying something. One of these things wasn’t Willow, no matter how much they looked at her. Getting them undressed to figure out the difference… well, that would be a betrayal of the real Willow, her girl. Let alone doing what Anya suggested.

Eww.

“You okay?” Faith asked.

Tara looked at her, curious about the sudden concern. Casual, empathetic questions weren’t really Faith’s thing.

“Okay, I know, I’m not usually all touchy feely, but… Any idiot can see how much she means to you. She’ll be fine, you know, everything always is for you guys. The bad things – well, you can’t say they don’t touch you, but the bad things go away for you guys. She’ll be fine.”

It sounded, for a moment, like there was a hint of bitterness there, but she didn’t have the energy to deal with it, not now. Willow was all she could worry about. “Thanks,” she said, instead.

And she did appreciate it, she really did. It meant more to hear that from Faith – whatever the reasons behind it – than it would from one of the others where you already knew it.

“You were pretty fierce back there, T,” Faith added.

“I’m – I’m sorry - ”

“No,” Faith said. “I know why you were. You should try fierce more often. Suits you. That girl of yours, she’d probably even find it sexy.”

Tara looked back at the Willows. But… which was her girl? “Probably…” she admitted. She had this feeling, only explored a little way, that Willow would be more than happy if she was a little more leading, a little… a little more of a top.

They were already happy, but… it was just that sense that, though her girl would never ask, she’d hint from time to time… Just for a night. That’d be all it needed. Faith would certainly approve, not that it mattered what Faith approved of.

Maybe I will, if she gets better. If she wakes up, tells me which one is real then… I’ll do anything that makes her happy.

“Like I said, she’ll be fine,” Faith said again, not waiting for an answer to her suggestion.

“Thanks,” Tara said. “I – I needed to hear that.”

“Yeah, right. Everyone’s telling you the same thing and you needed to hear it from me?”

“Yes,” Tara said. “I really did.”

Faith didn’t do platitudes. She wasn’t a great judge of… well, anything and she mouthed off basically all the time. But she also didn’t say stuff just to make people feel better. So… when she said something like that, it actually helped her think that it would be true.

“Hey, hey, hey,” Buffy said. “Look.”

Faith was also pointing back towards the Willows where one of them – on the left - was pushing herself up, opening her eyes and obviously groggy and disorientated.

Tara’s first instinct was to rush to her, hold and hug her, stroke her hair except…

She paused and watched those green eyes focus on her. Saw her girl’s oh-so-familiar face light up in relief and then some confusion.

Was this her Willow? Or was that the other one?

“Tara?” Willow asked, the confusion obvious in her voice too. Perhaps a little emotional pain. After all she felt bad, she was hurt and her girlfriend wasn’t rushing to embrace her.

Then she looked at the figure on the camp bed beside her and jerked away, recognising what had them confused. “What’s that?” Willow demanded.

No. A Willow demanded.

“We could ask what you are,” Buffy said.

“I’m – I’m me, what happened?”

“You – or she – was hit by a blast from that demon, do you remember that?”

“At the dump?” the Willow asked, sniffing.

“That’s right,” Tara said. “Then the demon was gone and suddenly there were two of you…”

“Or one of me and a demon that looks like me,” Willow said, about as far as she could get from her doppelganger while not losing the benefit of being on the bed. She looked shaky, though that might be surprise.

Tell me you’re real, give me a way to believe it.

“Or that,” Tara admitted, since it was what they were all thinking.

Tell me. Please tell me.

“I say we should fry her – it – the demon,” the Willow said. “Force it back into its real form.”

“Sounds like my sort of plan, T,” Faith commented. “Flaming torches all around? Throw another red on the barby?”

“And if the other one is the real Willow?” Buffy asked, not bothering to hold back any of her sarcasm.

“Oh. Right. So… we fry this one?”

“We don’t – we don’t fry anything,” Tara said. First thing out of this Willow’s mouth was the suggestion of frying something else? Some other her? Could be a demon, could be – she supposed – a copy. But the suggestion itself didn’t sound much like her girl. Willow wasn’t prone to rushing to very final action. Not unless she was really worked up and though her girl was plainly daunted by what was happening here… she didn’t look like she was scared or angry.

Which made the suggestion of frying this other Willow a bit unexpected.

“Not until the other one wakes up and we find out what’s going on.”

“Speak of the devil,” Faith said.

“Devil?” the newer Willow murmured? “There’s a devil? A demon?”

The same process of waking up, the eyes revealed. The confusion as to where she was and everyone was gathered around her. Why her Tara wasn’t coming to her and then why she was looking into a mirror that wasn’t doing the same things as her? “Who? What?” Then back to her. “Tara? Baby?”

Everyone else looked at each other, but the two Willows were looking to her.

“Now they’re awake,” Anya said. “You could tell them apart if you have sex with them both - ”

“Anya!” Both Willows spoke up at the same time, expressing their mutual dismay at the idea.

“I wish everyone would stop interrupting me,” Anya complained. “I’m serious. You’d be able to tell which was the real one then, I’m sure. I mean… I’m sure you like to do whatever you do.”

“Are you kidding?” Faith grinned. “Tara goes down like an elevator.”

She glared at the Slayer who wasn’t exactly helping if she was siding with Anya’s arguments. And that was a step beyond examining them intimately, which she’d already ruled out. No way, no how was she going near whichever of these was the wrong one. Or guessing. Besides, it wouldn’t be much a mood-maker was it? More of a buzz-killer.

“Couldn’t - ” Hope started to say something and then stopped herself, biting her idea back.

“Speak up, Hopeless,” her sister instructed. “Sure as hell, no one else knows what’s going on.”

“Faith… please. Come on, Hope, right now we’re looking for any idea,” Tara said, even the Willow’s seemed to be desperate, and who wouldn’t be?

“Couldn’t… they both be real?” Hope asked. “I mean… you can’t tell the difference so, couldn’t they both be Willow? What if the demon didn’t replace one, what if it just made a copy?”

Tara had to admit that was something she’d been resisting, it was just natural to her that there was only one Willow and that Willow was her Willow. She had the only Willow in the whole, wide world and maybe now there was another one? Stranger things had happened to the Scoobies before, she supposed.

Two Slayers – but they were different girls. Very different girls.

“That’s actually a jolly good idea,” Giles said, moving back into the group with a big book – the one she’d thrown at the demon in its first attack – in his hands.

“You think Hope’s right?”

“I think I need to read the rest of this section so, please, talk amongst yourselves.”

The Willow’s were glaring at each other and speaking softly. It seemed like they might be exchanging threats. Or claiming her or… something. Since she didn’t know which one she should be comforting, she had to just give them a little space – or give herself that space while they had to live with it.

“Nuhuh,” Buffy said. “Both of you stay right there. I don’t want you getting confused because… damn, you look just the same.”

“We should mark them,” Faith said. “So we can tell the difference.”

“How?”

“I could break one’s finger.”

“You’re not breaking Willow’s finger – either Willow’s finger!” Tara said.

“Yeah, dummy,” Anya interjected, “Tara has a lot of use for Willow’s fingers. All of them, from what I hear...”

Closing her eyes briefly, she let that wash over her, and saw that both the Willow’s were pissed at Anya and Faith both. But the one on the left, who’d woken up first looked like she was on the edge of zapping the pair of them. There was a build of magic in the air, like when she and Willow were gathering energy to themselves to try a spell. And it was that Willow… the other one was… afraid and looking to her for protection.

“What if I was right?” Hope asked quietly when she came over. “What then? What if there are just going to be two Willows from now on?”

I wish you hadn’t asked me that.

“I don’t know,” Tara said. What was she supposed to do? Pick a Willow? Leave another Willow? At first glance one seemed more vulnerable and she knew she’d be drawn to the one who would be more obviously hurt, but then she’d have to deal with the temper of the one that was rejected?

NO.

That wasn’t happening. She couldn’t choose, wouldn’t choose. If someone could make a copy of Willow then it could be undone… but which one would cease to exist? It’d have to be both and then get one back or else… It wouldn’t be rejection. It’d be murder.

“Oh God,” she said, realising just how bad this might be.

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 84 - 05/25/13

Postby Azirahael » Sun May 26, 2013 4:26 pm

Wicked!

I like how you put thought into this.

In so many shows, Buffy included, they do things like erase alternate timelines, or dimensions or COPIES of people without bothering with the moral consequences.
"Everything's back to normal, stop thinking now."

About the only time i've ever seen it explored was in Farscape. Two Crichtons, both real, big stress when one of them dies.

I do have one suggestion, Anya style: not a three-way, that would be a little creepy, but imagine Tara cuddled in between two Willows. Would that be the snuggliest thing ever?

As long as you leave sex out of it, bed time could be fun.
Plus epic embarrassment when they wake up and one Willow bitches out the other for cupping a boob.
Which is what they are made for, i mean who doesn't do that when snuggling?

Or better yet when one willow inadvertently gropes the other Willow.
Or fighting over who gets the good pyjamas and who gets the backups.
Or angry-sexy Willow wanting to sleep naked.
So much fun!

Really hanging out for the next bit now! :bounce :bounce :bounce :bounce :bounce

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Re: Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 84 - 05/25/13

Postby Katharyn » Mon May 27, 2013 9:00 pm

I try to put thought into everything, Azirahael ;)

Just kidding.

No, I really don't think about it usually. It just comes to me. The ending, that has required some thought, but everything in between start and end? Just flows... LOL

Like I said, I was going to skip this episode or gloss over it 'Oh, remember the time Xander got duplicated and Anya wanted a threesome?'

But once I decided to keep it and once I decided that it was Willow... then there were some obvious things I just couldn't do. Tara wasn't going to sleep with them (both) and she was going to be concerned about them all. And she wasn't going to betray either of them with the other...

Of course, there's already been a Willow doppelganger (which I didn't realise until I read your 'cupping a boob' comment) and I think - if you're going to have another Willow and play games with her (not sex!) then VW would've been more fun in that sense. But we're mostly going to see this from Tara's side because I am not a good enough writer to do PoV from both Willow's and make it clear which is which!

Thanks for the suggestions, though the story is already prepped for posting :)

Next part will be tonight

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Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda - Chapter 85 - 05/28/13

Postby Katharyn » Tue May 28, 2013 11:53 am

Title: Tara and Willow – Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda – Chapter Eighty-Five
Author: Katharyn Rosser
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. That’s why I write for this place, to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Not sure why I am bothering, really, but Season 4 and Season 5 of BTVS.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: Continuing this version of ‘The Replacement’. Willow has been split in two after being hit by Toth’s weapon, however they aren’t sure exactly what happened to her yet.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS. All rights lie with the production company, writers etc. I am making no money from this series of stories however all original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a missing scenes and alternate reality fiction lots of scenes are new versions of those seen in the show, as such dialogue and situations are taken from the show. I’m sure you can tell which. All credit for those aspects goes to the original writers.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the show.
Couples: Tara and Willow forever, that’s all I’m bothered about.
Text convention: Use of italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: Yeah, we’re still in Tara’s PoV as this opens just because I really don’t want to figure out how to write two differing Willow PoV and make them distinctive enough to differentiate… Of course you all know what the characters don’t – even the Willows – so I’m not having to maintain that tension.
Also, the canon episode had a fundamental problem in that the motivation of the demon seemed to be absolutely bizarre in terms of creating two Slayers, one that was “weaker” and one that was “unkillable” but without carrying that to any logical conclusion. Here I’ve tightened that up…
Thanks to: Girlfriends who tolerate insomnia and let their SO slip away to do something productive at unreasonable hours. Yeah, that’s when the first draft was written.



Eventually they’d had to let the Willows get up, stretch and make sure that they were uninjured. And – rather than follow Faith’s finger breaking suggestion - one had a red scrunchie around their wrist and the other a green. Fitting colour choices, of course. That left Hope with her hair running free and looking pretty good with it like that, even if she was obviously uncomfortable and had to keep pushing it back.

Tara had been asked whether there was any spell that could detect demons but – mildly panicked – she’d had to demure and say that she didn’t have her books. That maybe she could look into it later if Mister Giles didn’t come up with anything but… by now she was pretty certain that Hope was right. These were both Willows. Not demons…

In which case the only demon that spell would reveal would be me and they wouldn’t let me near Willow then. I wouldn’t be able to help her. They might even think I was part of this, even if they didn’t get to realise just how long I’d been hiding in plain sight from them.

So for lack of anything better to do – and to keep her minds off her troubles while Giles was doing research – she’d been teasing Hope about her free flowing hair. It really did look good that way, even if it needed a trim.

“My friend, Delia,” the girl said. “Her Mom and Dad were splitting up. Her little brother was going with her Mom, but she had to choose between them. Her Mom and her little brother or her Dad. She didn’t want to, but the judge made her do that – cos of how she was old enough to get a say and all.”

“I’m not going to choose,” Tara said, looking at the two Willows. Both of them kept looking to her, understanding why there was a distance between them but wanting it closed.

“What if – not even if there’s nothing anyone can do?”

“I can’t choose. I won’t. I’ll find a way to change it…”

“But they both love you, right? I mean, if there’s not a demon in one of them which would be like, bad.”

“I guess,” she said, that thought touched her on too many levels. It was just wrong that she wondered for a second what that would mean. If two girls with demons in them were made for each other? No matter how they got in there…

“What about Diana?” Hope asked. Her thoughts were all over the place now, trying to come up with ideas that might help.

“No one’s seen her for a while,” Tara said. “I checked with Ethan. Maybe she’d know what to do, or which was which, but I really think they’re both… her.”

“Okay… well I’m all out of ideas,” Hope said, sounding upset.

“Me too,” Tara said. “I just hope Mister Giles comes up with something.”

“No,” Hope corrected her, “you want to be looking this stuff up yourself.”

“You’re right. But… he knows what he’s doing, where to look and so I’ll just have to wait.”

She looked up as the two Willow came up to her at the same moment, side by side and looking like twins with something on their collective mind. “We want to talk to you,” the one on the left said. Red scrunchy.

Green spoke next. “One at a time. We agreed – we wanted to toss a coin for who was first but neither of us had one so we did rock, paper, scissors and she won.”

At least one of these was still Willow, so how could she turn her away entirely?

“Okay,” she said, wondering if she’d hold herself together if Willow – either Willow – started talking about love and god help her if they started sacrificing their own happiness. Were they convinced that they were both Willows now? The suspicion between them did seem to have subsided a little, though they were obviously still rivals.

Rivals for me.

She tried to smile as Green withdrew, the second placed Willow probably worried about what Red would say, that some sort of decision might be reached before she had chance to influence it. Not only would Willow’s urgency to be first in everything she did be at threat, but also rejection.

Tara had to pay attention to Red first though.

“I heard what you said to Hope,” Red Willow told her.

“What about?” Tara asked, trying to remember what she has said, they’d been all over the place after all and she’d said a lot of things that maybe she’d only have wanted one, real Willow to have known about.

“Not choosing,” Red said.

“Oh, that.”

“I – I don’t think that I can accept that,” Red told her. “I don’t want to be without you.”

“Do you want her to be without me?” Tara asked, looking at the other one and knowing that Red was the one who’d been all about frying the other Willow to prove she was a demon in disguise.

I wonder what you’ll want in a few weeks, when I…

“It’d be sad, she’s me – she is, I believe it. But she’s not like me, she’s not the girl you want. She’s… she’s a bit of a wimp; she only gets animated when we talked about you. She doesn’t care about the demon at all, she’s afraid of it.”

“And you want to kill it.”

“Look at what it did – look at what it did to you by doing this to me? Us…” Red said. “I want it gone and I want you. I’m sorry, Tara, but after everything we’ve been through, all of that… I want what we promised each other. I want us to be together. I want to wake up with you. I want to stroke your hair while you fall asleep. I want to make love to you. I want… I just want what we always said. Is that so bad?”

“No,” Tara said. “It’s not bad.”

“But you’re choosing her?”

“I’m not choosing,” Tara said again.

“And if this isn’t fixed?” Red asked. “All three of us have to be alone because you can’t hurt her?”

“No, because I can’t hurt you.” You being the collective both in this case… It wasn’t actually hard to know what to say here. This was still Willow.

“I know what it’ll do to you,” Red said. “And I know you mean it too – but that doesn’t mean that I’ll give up.” She looked like she was looking for a kiss, but Tara didn’t move to give up what she wanted, and that in turn made it clear that she wouldn’t – couldn’t – kiss this Willow. Even though she wanted nothing more than to wrap her arms around her girl, kiss her and get the comfort she was already bereft of.

It was hard not to and right now she had two Willows. Even though she thought she’d lost rather than gained.

“I… I understand. I think, maybe, I should talk to her,” Tara said, looking at Green, her heart breaking as she saw the distress in the other Willow’s expression while she talked to someone who seemingly offered her everything that she could.

“If you have to choose, baby, please… make the right choice,” Red said. “I’ve known, I’ve known since the moment you first looked at me, that we’re going to be together for the rest of our lives. Please, love, don’t let some damned demon get in the way of that.”

Which Willow? Which demon?

Because she didn’t think that Red would actually leave her side by moving away, Tara left Red there behind her and went over to where the Green Willow had been watching her from. This was a different girl, there was no question. She was almost in tears but trying to be strong. It was easy to recognise Willow at her most vulnerable.

Not such a copy as much as a… split?

“Hi,” Tara said, something to break the ice.

“Hi.”

“Don’t cry,” Tara said as a tear started to roll down Green’s cheek. Just one, but she couldn’t hold it back and it was pure reflex that saw her reach to smudge it out of existence and her fingertip came away wet. She hadn’t meant to touch either of them and she knew that Red would probably be bristling now.

It wasn’t a triumph for Green though, to get what Red hadn’t.

“Can’t you hold me?” Green asked.

“I… No. I can’t hold you. I can’t hold her. Because that’s not fair, is it?”

“I need you, baby, please, I – No… I know, you’re right. You’re right. You’re always right, Tara.”

This Willow wiped her own cheek this time, another tear.

“I… I know you said you won’t choose,” Green said.

“That’s right,” Tara replied quietly.

“I want you to. If you – if there’s nothing that can be done. I want you to be happy. I don’t care – I do care, of course I care but I want you to be happy. You have to do what makes you happy and not choosing won’t make you happy, Tara. It’ll just make all three of us miserable. So… if you have to, if it comes to that, I want you to choose her. She won’t let you go, I know she won’t and I don’t want to but – I want you happy, I said that right?”

“A few times,” Tara said, swallowing hard as this Willow offered to give her own happiness up in favour of her rival and counterpart.

“Maybe – maybe we could still be friends?” Green asked. “It’d be weird and I guess she wouldn’t be too happy about it. But – we said that we could be friends if me and Oz had… We could’ve still been friends then, could we still be friends now?”

“I…”

Tara knew now how much harder it’d be to leave this Willow, she didn’t have the confidence of Red. It was going to hurt her even more and she was making this gesture…

Please, say that we could be friends, Tara. Maybe I could get through this if I still got to see you, hang out sometimes…”

“It won’t come to that,” Tara said. “I’m not going to let it.”

“Eureka,” Giles said and they both looked up, everyone had turned to the man who – hopefully – had the plan.

Or some information. Something anyway. Hopefully that had just been perfect timing.

“I’ve done some reading,” he said. “Thankfully Tara didn’t manage to destroy the book, the spine’s dented but nothing - Yes,” he interpreted their looks. “Yes, anyway. As Hope thought, and Tara confirmed, these are both Willow or more accurately they are both Willow’s physically and even intellectually, but the emotional core that makes a person more than a walking contraption has been split asunder. I think Toth was trying to do this to a Slayer, split either Buffy or Faith.”

“Okay,” Buffy said. “I’m not seeing the sense of it, three Slayers – or four – instead of two…”

“Yes, well if he’d succeeded, I think that he’d have actually reduced the capabilities of both the halves, if you want to call them halves. Yes, one Slayer would’ve been a more capable, stronger fighter but equally she would’ve been bereft of many of the qualities that have allowed Buffy – at least – to thrive as the - a Slayer for so long, she would’ve been lacking empathy, the ability to maintain friendships.”

“Toth wanted to turn me into Faith?” Buffy quipped.

“Ha-fucking-ha,” the other Slayer retorted.

“Who’s joking?”

“What about the other Buffy – or Faith?” Tara asked, wanting to understand what had happened to Willow.

“She’d have been less focused, less capable as a warrior, but probably more compassionate and concerned with others.”

“Yes… that’s what happened,” Tara said definitely. It was exactly what had happened and the two Willows exchanged a long look as they took the news in.

“But neither is ‘wrong’,” Giles said. “In fact they’re both essential parts of the whole. Somehow they can exist separately now, but if one were to die then the other would inevitably follow and that may have been the crux of Toth’s plan, to target the physically weaker specimen once they were split. Or to hope that one half of the Slayer would destroy its rival and thus itself.”

It made a sick kind of sense and she said so. “I think we all know which Slayer Buffy was more likely to kill,” Anya said.

And yes, there might’ve been something to that, a few weeks ago. Not so much now though. There was something more important than motivation though. “So, they’re split,” she said. “How do we put them back together?”

“If I was still a vengeance demon then you’d just wish for it…” Anya said wistfully.

“But you’re not so… Come on, Giles, put Tara out of her misery.”

Tara gave silent thanks to Buffy for the intervention.

“Ah - ” Giles said, and she knew it wasn’t good news. “I haven’t quite got to that yet, I thought perhaps it was more important to - ”

“Talk rather than put Red – and Green – together again?” Faith asked. “Who’d have thought actions spoke louder than words?”

“Well – oh, demon!”

The demon, Toth, had appeared again, moving silently into the store through the back door probably. Giles really needed an alarm system for this place.

“I will not miss again, Slayer.”

But he did. Giles’ warning was enough to send both Buffy and Faith spinning into action. No matter how good or ‘technological’ this demon was, as a marksman he was kind of limited. Or maybe it was his weapon? A poor workman blamed his tools.

The roar of frustration that followed ripped right through her, but all she could think was to get Willow down, behind cover. What happened if either of them was hit again? No matter how inadvertently? Would they be further subdivided? Three or four Willows? No…

Red Willow had already hit the floor, but Green willow wasn’t so fast, frozen in near panic as the Slayers both vaulted the furniture in a race to get to Toth. This time there wasn’t anywhere he could go either, always assuming he wasn’t teleporting. Grasping Green Willow, she pulled on the girl and brought her down under the large table at the centre of the room – which, clearly, was becoming their planning and meeting area since not many stores would need one otherwise, it was taking up valuable floor space.

Also – Giles being who he was – the table that filled that role was plenty sturdy and might even be polished enough to deflect an indirect hit, if it was energy and all. That worked like light, right?

Shuffling under the table, she watched the feet of the action. Her friends scrabbling around while the Slayers were much more animated, jumping, leaping and occasionally kicking, barely staying in place for more than a second or two before they were on the move again.

If they did hold still it was to trade punches and blows, but then she briefly saw Faith’s hair and face as she went low and swept the demon’s feet from under him.

“Didn’t you get the memo?” Buffy asked.

“There are already two Slayers,” Faith completed and one of them stabbed him. She could hear the wet, intrusive sound after the cracking of bone where the stake (?) pierced its chest cavity.

“Is it safe?” Xander asked from somewhere else.

“I don’t know about safe, but it’s plenty dead,” Buffy said.

Tara started to come out from under the table, but was stopped by Green Willow. “You saved me.”

“You saved me,” Tara told her. “Not now, but… you’ve still saved me.”

“No, I think that was – that was the other us, the one that was whole. What will happen to me if… if you put us back together?”

“You’ll be whole again,” Tara replied.

“I’m afraid…”

“You don’t need to be afraid,” she promised. “You’ll be with me. It’s how we can be together. When you – her – when you’re whole again.”

“I feel whole…”

“But you’re scared, you’re scared of yourself,” Tara said. “You don’t want to be scared any more do you? I know you don’t want to let me go and I don’t want to lose you. I’ll lose you if you don’t find the strength to be Willow. I don’t want to lose you.”

It took a long moment, but Green Willow nodded.

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Willow looked at everyone looking at her.

“I… I don’t think anything happened,” she said. “I mean… I’m still – did you do it yet?”

“Oh yes,” Giles said. “We did it.”

Tara stepped up to her, putting her arms around her. It felt good, it felt right. But… “No, Tara, you didn’t – not until I’m me – we’re… Where did she go? Where did - ”

[i]Which one am I?[i]

Tara didn’t say anything, instead she stroked her arm, down to the very tip of her longest finger and used that tint connection to bring the hand up, into view.

There were two of Hope’s scrunchies around her wrist.

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If I wanted a little pussy, I've got my own to play with.

Chance in *Chance*
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