Hi all. Just a note before the part commences to let you know that the posting in this story will be a little less regular for the next week and a half. We're going on a trip and laptops have been banned :( Also, I will have an iPad but hate typing on them and would need to find some internet which is far from certain... So I may post when I can, but probably won't reply to any feedback until I'm back with a proper keyboard

At worst normal service will resume on Sunday 24th.
With that said, enjoy the next part.
Katharyn
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Title:
Tara and Willow – Raiders… – Part FourteenAuthor: Katharyn Rosser & Chewster
Feedback: Absolutely, yes please. Love to engage in the discussion about the story.
Spoiler warning: Nope. And if you’ve not seen a film from 1980 then just tough luck, I’m not keeping it a secret. On the other hand, you’ll probably think we’re genius for such an amazing story.
Distribution: This story was written for Pens. Pens is its home. No archiving off Different Coloured Pens and the Kitten Board please. No conversion to eBook or other formats please. Enjoy it here.
Summary: On the freighter… Tara and Willow time.
Disclaimer: We don’t own any of the copyrights or anything else associated with BTVS, Raiders of the Lost Ark or Indiana Jones. All rights lie with the production companies, writers etc. We are making no money from this series of stories however any original characters and situations remain my property. As this is a retelling of Raiders of the Lost Ark and references other Indiana Jones films, a lot of dialogue and the entire plot has been taken from that movie. Other lines may have come from the script but were not seen in the movie and so could appear to be original when in fact credit belongs to the scriptwriter. Other elements are all the writers. It’s a complex mix and we will not be trying to allocate credit line by line.
Rating: Occasional, tasteful, adult situations and contextual bad language. However by and large equivalent to the movie.
Couples: Well, no one as we open, but Tara and Willow forever.
Text convention: Use of
italics denotes either special emphasis if used for a single or a few words in a sentence OR first person thoughts if used for a whole sentence.
Notes: You may recall this section of the movie where Indy and Marion share a cabin on the cargo freighter they’re taking the Ark on. Some nice moments for the movie there… We’ve tried to do something similar for the girls here. Remember, of course, this was a PG rated scene! And Marion/Buffy won’t be in the cabin this time. After all, she’s still pining for Faith, despite being abandoned in the Well of Souls
Within the Tara and Willow scene, remember also that this is the thirties. Things were different in some ways and very much the same in others. So, when there’s reference to ‘the man’ in a relationship between two women, that’s just the way it might’ve been explained then. It’s the expectations of others that we’re relating…
Also – though we stay strictly within FAQ – this part references the fact that both the girls have had previous lovers. A history is acceptable and we don’t dwell on it, but you’re not going to buy the idea that Willow as Indy hasn’t been with anyone else in her life… Also, it’s all portrayed in contrast to Tara.
Character map: This will only show characters so far revealed in the story, but just to keep things straight between this version and the canon…
Willow Rosenberg = Indiana Jones, Tara Maclay = Tara Maclay, Rupert Giles = Marcus Brody, Riley = The never to be seen again snake in the plane, Faith Lehane = Belloq, Joyce Summers = Abner Ravenwood, Elizabeth ‘Buffy’ Summers = Marion Ravenwood, Heinrich Joseph ‘The Master’ Nest – The Gestapo Guy.
“To old friends and new ones,” Sallah said, raising an imaginary glass in toast.
One of those old friends, Elizabeth, hugged him – obviously they’d had chance to reconnect on their journey here and yes, he’d helped save her life so that was perfectly understandable.
For her part, she’d spent more time with Sallah’s wife and children than the man himself and it was her that she’d miss more, though she valued what he’d done for them.
Her other companion, she noticed, shook his hand. Rosenberg wasn’t averse to a hug, but it perhaps said something about the difference in their relationship. And so, what was she? A hug or a handshake?
When she went to him, it seemed like he was having trouble figuring it out too. In the end, she just hugged him. If a little less effusively than Buffy had. Why not decide that definition of their relationship for herself? He’d proven a valuable friend, risking a lot for people who – unlike him – could easily leave the country. He had a beautiful – large – family who’d been put in danger because of it.
.
Of course, unlike all of them, he’d worked for the Nazi’s and seen their casual disregard for everyone and everything that was not pure and Aryan up close. She couldn’t say that some parts of her own country were much better – in some regards at least - but at the end of the day, he’d sided with the good guys and fought to try to stop their enemies.
Or the good girls in this case.
“Thank you,” she said, hugging him.
“Thank
you, Miss,” he replied, “for taking care of her. Someone had to. One of these days she’ll get herself killed but I suspect you’ll have something to say about when she’s allowed to do that.”
She smiled, Willow was pretending not to notice but she could tell that she’d heard what had been said. “Thank you for this, too.”
They were stood on the pier beside an old tramp steamer, the Bantu Wind, no different from any other of hundreds of freighters that plied the Mediterranean and African coasts. She wasn’t the sort of vessel you’d trust to make it over to New York, but they’d only arranged passage to England and from there the journey would be safer and more secure.
“It is nothing but a small thing,” Sallah assured her with a dismissive gesture. “Insignificant.”
“That’s my ship you’re talking about,” the Captain said, grinning broadly. Sallah had already introduced him as a friend, though Willow had never met him before. Evidently a man with a loyal crew and one who owed Sallah many favours. Most of them had been called in to buy them passage without questions being asked.
Questions like, what was in the Nazi branded crate in the hold?
Not the kind of man likely to walk into a bar in Montana and not likely – from his skin – to have been welcome in certain other places she’d visited back home. That said, he certainly spoke better English than most people in her home state and certainly better than anyone who would’ve taken exception to him south of Mason-Dixon.
It was also very obvious that taking exception to him would’ve been an unsound idea. While he was all smiles now, no man got to Captain – and keep command of – a ship like this by virtue of a brilliant smile. He should’ve lost some of those teeth on his way up and that he hadn’t spoke to both his competence and his ability to be ruthless when he had to.
Not a man to cross then either.
So what did that say about Sallah? His ‘friend’ that he owed favours to?
“You will treat them well, my friend,” Sallah said to him. It wasn’t a question.
“My cabin is theirs,” Katanga confirmed.
“I asked you for two…” Sallah said, looking back at her for some reason.
“And the one next to it,” the Captain said, grinning widely. Again at her.
What did he think he knew?
Buffy sighed, walking past her and not exactly keeping her thoughts to herself. “Then I guess none of us will be getting any sleep.”
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“I think they think that we’re…” Tara paused, not following through with what she’d been thinking.
All the same, Willow got the idea.
She and Tara had been billeted together while Buffy was just next door. Women’s clothes and underwear had – mysteriously – been made available, even though this was an all-male ship. And in a selection of sizes.
Also, the Captain had quite a big bed.
She’d accepted the gift of the underwear, it was past time for a change even if all of it was a little racy for their circumstances, but the dress? That really wasn’t her so the cabin boy had promised to get her clothes washed and even pressed if she just left them outside for him.
Worked in theory, but right now getting them off seemed like it would be a major accomplishment. Sitting in the truck for so long had been the first step in her whole body seizing up. Not a surprise after the various beatings she’d taken in the past couple of days.
“Reminds me of Delhi,” she said.
“Oh?”
“Well, they thought that there too,” she reminded Tara. “And you look…”
Tara had already undressed and put her own clothes out for washing. Already bathed too, which was something she might’ve offered to help with but moving something as heavy as a sponge seemed like impossibility at the moment. So now, Tara was wearing a silk night dress that looked fine enough to – in some places – have been worn to dinner.
Always assuming you had underwear on, which Tara most assuredly didn’t because… well, a girl could just tell.
Another time. Another place, with less bruises and more energy, she might’ve managed to be more excited about that. Now though… it was just an eye thing. Looking, making eye contact and… yeah, they’d shared a moment there. A moment like…
You look good.
I know.
I bet you smell good, after your bath.
I do…
If I had the energy I’d rip that right off you and…
I know. And I’d let you.All through the eyes. Windows of the soul. The naked soul… But right now, naked was – for her – all about getting the laundry done. Nothing more than that. It’d be deeply unattractive if her groaning was simple pain.
“I wanted – Here, let me help you.”
Tara had been about to say something, after Delhi had been brought up, but then her natural inclination to help had kicked in.
I started taking off the shirt too soon.No, the real problem had been that when she started to take off the shirt, she couldn’t actually manage it. She couldn’t move even that far. Every time she tried… ouch. So tempting just to collapse still wearing it but…
She let Tara help her take the shirt off, wincing as – in places – she’d scraped herself badly enough to scab and the dried blood had stuck to the fabric. “I’m a mess,” she admitted. “But… you look great.” There, she’d said it out loud.
Tara was so close and – after her bath – smelled so good. She’d been right about that too. In fact she looked so very, very good.
But then so did the bed. Pillows. Soft, clean sheets.
“I have the feeling we’re not the first women to travel with these pirates,” Tara said.
“I know what you mean. But we’re probably the first ones to share the cabin. At least without the Captain being here too.”
Tara smiled, finally pulling the shirt off and the gasp as she saw what lay beneath pretty much confirmed Willow’s fears. Bruises. Cuts. Scrapes. All things that would heal and fade away with time. Nearly everything did. Of course Tara, sat beside and slightly behind her, knew the origin of the scars that hadn’t.
Naval officer fingers ran down the whip scars on her back. Tara had been there when she received them. Tended them later. Bathed them. Carefully stayed away from the stinging welts as they made love.
Redressing them had been – apart from that last time they had made love – the last thing Tara had done for her in Delhi. Before walking out of her life. Was this going to be a replay? Of the tending, perhaps. Not the rest.
“What were you going to say?” she asked as Tara slipped down to her knees and started to pull at her boots and then her pants. Again, every movement was a torture. But pain was good. Pain meant she was still alive and, in this case, that they’d won.
With Tara looking up at her from down there, she was obviously reminded of other times they’d been in a similar pose. Other places on another continent. They were both a little older, a little wiser and – in her case – a little more beat up. But it was still a delightful scene to look back on. One that was… stirring. Sadly though, she didn’t really feel like being too… energetic.
Even if, somehow, those feelings were still reciprocated.
“I was going to apologise for Delhi,” Tara said. “I… I shouldn’t have walked out on you like that. I didn’t even mean to – it was just that you looked so peaceful, sleeping, that I hated to wake you.”
She lifted her butt up and let Tara pull her pants down for her. “Ow. Ow. Ow. It’s okay. It is – I got over it a long time ago.”
“And it’s not like
you never left a girl in a hotel room…” Tara suggested.
“Actually, I never have.”
“Really?”
“Really…” People had this idea about her, that she was some sort of lothario character. A girl in every port, at every airport and on every dig site. That the crushes of her students were somehow indicative of the content of her personal life when in fact, her style and her looks were good at making certain girls look hard at themselves.
Truth was… there’d not been
many girls at all. Never a student and… never anyone who’d she’d regretted leaving more than Tara Maclay. In Tara she had… it was tough to explain what she had, even to herself, but the thing that came to the forefront was ‘an equal.’
Not in terms of what she knew, though Tara had her own expertise, but more in terms of what drove her, her motivations and her ability to look after herself. To work with her. Could she have pulled off what she had on this trip with Tara?
No. She’d just have been dead.
Sure, Tara had needed her to do the archaeological stuff, but if it hadn’t been for that, she was pretty sure the Secretary of the Navy’s representative could’ve pulled this off. Maybe even better… Tara wasn’t as much for flying by the seat of her pants.
Pants.
Pants off.
Okay, so last time she’d been this close to naked with Tara… Yes, let the washing commence. Old memories flooded back as Tara, very gently, started to bathe her wounds.
Not just the wounds, she was wiping grime and dust and dirt away too.
“You could put me in the bath,” Willow said.
“I’d never get you out of it again,” Tara told her.
“But I’ll be all stinky.”
“No, no you won’t.”
Sensuality was tough, it really was. Aching as much as she did, tired as she was… but somehow being – it was being done ‘lovingly’ wasn’t it? In her own, very different way, Tara was loving her right now. It wasn’t just because she needed wounds cleaned or because they were about to share a bed and one of them stunk to high heaven.
You didn’t do this, like this, without love in your heart.
And after all the things she’d done, this trip and so many others, it was one thing she didn’t dare say or do.
I love you.Maybe she could pretend she was being professional, they had to work together and they weren’t home free yet. Maybe she could pretend it was fear of abandonment, they both had careers that would take them to different parts of the world and – let’s not forget – Tara had already left her behind once.
Maybe she could do those things. But the real truth was that she was afraid to say it first. Letting someone in behind the curtain of the myth of Willow Rosenberg?
She thinks I’m like Lehane, maybe because I’m so competitive and anything that bitch can do I can do more and better… But mostly Tara thinks I’m like her because I let her think it.“So… Buffy,” Willow said, eventually, determined that she had to do something to help herself.
“Buffy?” Tara was confused and – just for a moment – she pressed too hard with the sponge and –
“Ow.”
“Sorry.”
“No, it’s okay – I – you know she’s not my ex, right?” she asked. “She was never my ex because she was never my girlfriend.”
“Really?” Tara was trying to sound casual about it, but she could tell that there was interest there.
“Really. No matter what her Mom might have thought or wanted – for both of us – never. Not even a kiss – I mean that sort of kiss. Never. She’s an ex-roommate – but nothing more ex related than that.”
“Even though she wanted - ”
“She didn’t want,” she promised the naval officer. “Not really. She never made a move, and she would’ve – if she had, you know, wanted. She… Buffy’s always chased the thing that she shouldn’t have. The thing that was bad for her. You’ve seen that. I’d have hurt her far worse if we’d ever got together than I did by – well the things I did.”
“What
did you do?” Tara had stopped washing her and was just looking up at her now.
“I… let them down.” That was the best way to put it. It wasn’t hiding anything Tara might – conceivably – need to know. But it wasn’t getting into other people’s personal business either. “Let’s just say I let them both down.”
At the start of this whole adventure she was pretty sure that Buffy would’ve told Tara just out of spite. Now… that was less the case.
“But it wasn’t anything to do with me and Buffy. Not the way you meant.”
“I didn’t
mean anything,” Tara said, as if bathing a woman in her underwear you were about to get into bed with was something she did every day. “I didn’t say anything.”
“Oh.” Could she take that at face value? Perhaps she had to. “What about you? Is there some girl back in DC? Or in a hula-skirt out at Pearl Harbour?”
Tara shook her head, going back to washing her leg. And still gentle, no resentment there at the question. In hindsight, she thought, she’d been tempting a painful and unpleasant time with that one but… Tara didn’t seem to mind. Perhaps because –
Why were they having this conversation? What did it mean?
“No.”
“Just ‘no’?”
“No, there isn’t.”
Which was… Was that good? It felt like it was good. Or should be good. But…
“There hasn’t been,” Tara continued, surprising her. Avoiding her eyes by paying attention to the task she was performing. “Not for… a while.”
Read between the lines. What was a while? A long time? A year? Eighteen months? Not since before India, at least… Not since… me?Maybe even before that.
I never asked her this question, in India. Maybe I didn’t want to know, maybe I just wanted her… and I didn’t want to know. I never asked her if she was with anyone.There were obvious questions. ‘Why?’ And ‘what happened?’ Things like that, but it really didn’t feel like the right time to ask them. That was all of the past and… what were they now? The present? What about the future? Was Tara waiting for her to make a move?
Am I waiting for her to make a move?
Maybe…
Am I physically capable of it?
Maybe… A move didn’t have to involvement much, actual, movement. It could just be a kiss. A caress… I could manage a caress, right?
Or maybe we should stay as we are. People who were close and now can work together to stop evil men from taking things they shouldn’t have. Maybe that was who they were supposed to be?
Maybe… not.
“You’re a mess, Rosenberg,” Tara said, finding another scar.
“Appendix,” she pointed out. Though she might, had she been a more suspicious person, have wondered just how dirty she could’ve been there… and why Tara had been in that area at all. After all, what she’d spotted was just the tip of the scar, emerging from under the edge of one of the two garments she was wearing.
“Oh.”
“Besides, it’s not the years. It’s the mileage.”
“I never said you were old,” Tara said, blue eyes meeting hers again now that they were off topics that had the potential to embarrass them.
“Good, because you’re a year older than me. Remember?”
“I remember.”
Everything. She remembers everything. Up to and including how it felt… together. I’m not forgetting that anytime soon, either.“I don’t know how you… You won’t have a bath?”
“Like you said, you’d never get me out of it.”
“Then… you need to take this off.”
Tara was touching her brassiere and… what did you say to something like that? “Help me.”
Her eyes closed as Tara leaned forward, arms around her. Not pressing against her, but close enough to feel the body heat. To smell her… And yes, she took a deep breath and only released as Tara undid her brassiere and one of the bags of salt fell from it.
“Really?” Tara asked. “Still?”
“Vital supplies and they give me a boost.”
There were few enough girls – of the very few she’d been intimate with – who’d gotten her this undressed. Mostly they expected her to live up to the role that they expected of her. Tough. The ‘Man’ as some of them had chosen to put it… And – ever eager to please – she’d never let them down, finding her pleasures in those ways easily enough.
With Tara though, she felt like nothing but a woman. And not because Tara took on the role of the ‘man’ either. With Tara, she didn’t feel the need for playing games or adopting roles or anything but
being with her. She felt like herself… nothing more and nothing less. Willow.
Intellectually she knew that when she was with a woman – other than Tara – ‘the man’ was the very definition of what neither of them needed. But there was still that ‘role’ that was expected of her… One, less experienced person, had even asked her the question. ‘Will you be the man’?
And she’d never found the mental fortitude to debate them. To tell them how it needed to be, that being a lesbian meant that there was no man. Instead, she’d just nodded and got on with it.
Not so with Tara…
The delicate, careful way that the other bag of salt was removed and then her brassiere was coaxed down her sore, tired arms was considerate, kind and… She finally opened her eyes to find Tara smiling at her. She’d been noticed…
“You’re not falling asleep on me are you?” Tara asked. And she didn’t sound like she thought the answer was ‘yes’. She knew just why she’d closed her eyes. And that voice… It was enthralling at the worst of times, but now…
So much promise.
I should reach for her, I should kiss her and hold her and tell her that ‘yes, it’s all still there. Everything I felt… more.’
I should do that.Knowing and doing were different things. Somehow… she couldn’t quite make it happen.
So Tara did instead.
Maybe the ability to take action, when no one else could was why the Secretary of the Navy valued her? Or –
No. It’s all about the kiss, stupid.Tara’s kiss on her cheek.
But it hurt. She’d been slugged there. More than once. “Ow…”
Tara tried again. “Ow…”
By now it was a game, the kiss, the promise and the reality were so good, felt so good that she’d have taken a thousand times the pain and thanked her for it if only this would continue.
“Well, Rosenberg, where doesn’t it hurt?”
A good question, one that she’d been slowly discovering as Tara washed her.
All clean now… All clean... and
then Tara had kissed her.
The little
planner.“Here,” she said, pointing to a spot on her forehead. And Tara, obligingly enough, kissed it.
“Here,” she said, indicating her elbow. The other one was all torn up – right through her jacket – but this one… it was still in good shape.
So Tara kissed her there too.
Then her lips.
It wasn’t a long kiss. It wasn’t even a passionate one. But it was a kiss and it felt… good.
“Lie down,” Tara said, helping her do that. “Lie down…”
She was lying down, it was a good… soft… bed…
There was one other place, one other place that didn’t hurt… one more place that Tara could kiss her… One… more… place… and… lips… moving… in the right…
Direction…
“Good night, Rosenberg…” She heard the words and then… she didn’t hear anything.
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