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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Thu Apr 05, 2007 3:39 am

Numen - thanks sweetie for ur comment..i apprreciate it..and for the happy dance too...this elephant makes me always laugh...

Boy, did Tara have one very hot dream! Aftre that I was like "Crap, dream. Amberholic, you're so meanie". But yeah, slow is good.


well u see . i errr already told you in some part u gonna call me meanie and here we are...lol ...and well mmm u see i am afraid it wont stop here...yes of course i am talking about the others updates ....lol

That happens to me quite often, head banging. Don't be afraid, my table is okey.

geee u so read my mind ...and i was wondering if the table was okay...phewww i am really fine now and i can carry on with my day ;-) lol
i do that from time to time when i am frustrated with ppl at work....same old same

And that is part where I actually cried Yeah, I'm big crybaby, but that just triggerd something inside me.


awww sweetie i am sorry that u cried...* slaps myself with a fish* , I do hope they were good tears ...i am a crybaby myself sometimes...yeah yeah even to the point sometimes i do cry when i watch some movies....sigh...i know sometimes it is pathetic * bangs my head against the table * and yes dont worry the table is okay ;-)

thanks for the time you put to read my story and for your comments
have a nice day
So you found out today your life's not the same...
Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday...
And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn...
But you never gave up this easily before...
So why do you choose today to give it all away.......
She's my angel love
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Re: A Bet

Postby Numen » Thu Apr 05, 2007 4:00 am

Yup, the elephant is very fun and cute :pinky

u see i am afraid it wont stop here...

Oh crap, you mean there's going to be more "lets tease more poor readers". That's so mean :shy (thanks for warning)

awww sweetie i am sorry that u cried...* slaps myself with a fish* , I do hope they were good tears ...i am a crybaby myself sometimes...yeah yeah even to the point sometimes i do cry when i watch some movies....sigh...i know sometimes it is pathetic

Save the fish! I mean, save the Amberolic! In a way they were good tears. They were "People usually call me hopeless romantic and in a way I think I'm hopeless romantic. Yet, I wish I could be more like what Buffy said" -tears. But really, they were good tears in "hey, tears, emotions. Emotions is good" way.
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Re: A Bet

Postby Sapphire eyes » Thu Apr 05, 2007 4:12 am

Wow...excuse me while I fall off my computer chair ;)...very steamy, I loved the part about the hopeless romantics as well that was beautiful. Keep up the good work, amazing add! :)
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Thu Apr 05, 2007 4:38 am

Wow...excuse me while I fall off my computer chair ...very steamy,


helps u stand up...sit you on a chair and offers u a very cold drink...switches on the fan....jesus christ sweetie what happened to u ...lol
So you found out today your life's not the same...
Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday...
And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn...
But you never gave up this easily before...
So why do you choose today to give it all away.......
She's my angel love
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Re: A Bet

Postby Sapphire eyes » Thu Apr 05, 2007 4:42 am

Phew hahahha! Thanks! I think the only thing to cure me is another add pretty pwease? ;) heheh :D
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Re: A Bet

Postby Auriam » Thu Apr 05, 2007 5:31 am

Thank you for coming in the board to share your story it's very sweet of you !
I was fan when it were on extraflamey so believe or not i still am :)
Good work :peace :peace
keep doing please :party
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Re: A Bet

Postby Willowtree252 » Thu Apr 05, 2007 8:35 am

:pinky you evil little vixen I forgot about the Dream :rofl and may I say it was hot I love this story and the way you write so I will wait and :pray for another update soon :kgeek
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Re: A Bet

Postby guitar_girl » Sun Apr 08, 2007 7:58 am

Hola, :wave
May I say WOW!! *falls over then gets back up and dusts off all cool like* Sorry I didn't leave feedback sooner I've been a bit busy. FAN-FRIGGIN-TASTIC updates though.:clap This story is a great one when I read it i feel like :dance. :party I :bow to you.
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Sun Apr 08, 2007 9:43 am

Auriam

Thank you for coming in the board to share your story it's very sweet of you !
I was fan when it were on extraflamey so believe or not i still am
Good work
keep doing please


Thank u auriam for encouraging me, i really appreciate that


Dianneswillowtree

you evil little vixen I forgot about the Dream and may I say it was hot I love this story and the way you write so I will wait and for another update soon


lol dianne I can imagine you all red especially ur cheeks ...hun the only solution that can really help you out at this point is a real real cold shower... :smug lol

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Hola,
May I say WOW!! *falls over then gets back up and dusts off all cool like* Sorry I didn't leave feedback sooner I've been a bit busy. FAN-FRIGGIN-TASTIC updates though. This story is a great one when I read it i feel like . I to you.
Later


Hola Hola guitar ,como estas? ;-) it is fine .. you dont need to apologize for not commenting so soon...and i am glad u liked the update ....i hope u wil like the upcoming one too...and i know i was mean with the dream...but what can i say ; i have to... ;-)

All my love...
amerholic...

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Previously

The petite blonde burst in an uncontrollable fit of laughter. When she gained control again she approached her friend " Will, don't worry, we'll find you something to wear. "
Grabbing the keys of Willow's car and reaching the doorknob she looked at Willow who was still behind her desk " Are you going to come soon? Come on let's get you ready "
" Okay...we can do this " she shut her computer down and walked out hurriedly of her office

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Chap 6

Tara looked at her watch; it was 6:50 exactly. The redhead might arrive at any moment. Okay... Chill out Tara and don't get so excited...The blonde was trying to calm down the erratic beating of her heart that was doing its own little dance at the prospect of seeing her stunning beauty. The excitement was torturing the actress, she wanted the doorbell to ring and now. The hands of the clock seemed to move at a snail's pace.

" Oh! " she groaned in frustration as she sat on the edge of the table swinging her feet backwards and forwards. Since she met the hacker Tara wasn't able to do anything at all except thinking about her. The redhead affected her in so many ways.

" Willow...Willow...Willow..." She sighed profoundly "I wish I could tell you that I am falling for you, but I am afraid that you would freak out...What should I do? Telling you is not an option right now... and hiding it will drive me crazy...Will you ever know how much I love you? I don't think you will ever fully understand how you've touched my life.I don't think you could ever know just how truly special you are that even on the darkest nights
You are my only hope. I don't think you will ever fully comprehend how you've made my dreams come true or how you've opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do. You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find unconditional love that exists in my mind, body and soul. I don't think you could ever feel all the love I have to give and I'm sure you'll never realize You've been my will to live. You are an amazing person and without you I don't know what to do.Having you in my life completes and fulfills every part of me..."

Looking at the cover of a business magazine she'd bought earlier today when she did the shopping for the dinner, Tara gazed adoringly at Willow's picture as her thumb caressed the redhead's cheek.

" You're so beautiful." the blonde said softly " Why do I feel that you are so far away from me? Why in your smile there is a twinge of sadness? Who caused you this awful pain? Willow, I would risk everything to see you happy...Even if only you wanted my friendship...Though it will hurt me so much I'll happily comply ...I just want to be a part of your life...Will...Willow... my willow...Do you know what it is like to look up into the velvet night sky, and yet not see the stars? Do you know what it is like to see the songbirds sing their sweet music, and yet not hear their sound? Do you know what it is like to feel your heart inside you, and yet not feel it beat? Do you know what it is like to be in a crowd of people smiling, laughing, sharing their love together, and yet be all alone with no one around? Do you know what it is like when the one you love so deeply and dearly is so far away?

My heart cries out your name and yet there is no reply. All I want to do is hold you in my arms, and I can't. All I desire to do is to kiss your sweet lips, and I can't. I just want you near, and you're not. I curse God that I can't be with the one I love, and yet thank him completely for bringing you into my life. How do you maintain some semblance of normal life, when all I can do is think about you ? Thoughts only make the pain in my heart worse. Oh my God, how
I think about you endlessly!

I pray for the strength to see it through this situation, knowing that someday you will be with me forever. But is that enough? No. Not always. Until you are here in my arms, nothing really helps. The mind is a whirlwind as my thoughts are tossed around like matchsticks in the wind. But the one thought that is all constant and eats away at the core of my soul is a simple one: " Will you accept my love? "

Time can really cause such thoughts to occur. It is only human. I am only human. And so, I wait. For how long? Only time and God can tell. And as I wait it seems as though the hand of the clock move in reverse instead of forward. Each second that passes seems as an eternity away from you. Oh to be an angel, and have wings that I may fly into your arms. To taste your sweet kiss and feel your warm embrace. To love you, to have the pain of needing you, vanishing in your arms, as would snowflakes on a summer day. And to know that we would at last, be together for all our days. Days spent lost in sweet heavenly love; such as we have never known.
Oh God, my Baby, how is it that love can be so wonderful, and yet hurt so badly...And just when I think it is not possible to be fall more for you, a second ticks off the clock, and I discover that my heart is getting more attached to yours than ever before...I..."

DING DONG

" Oh Goddess, she's here! " Tara nearly lost her balance as she heard the doorbell ringing. Quickly she clutched at the table and luckily prevented a nasty fall.

Rushing to the door, Tara took a deep breath and numbled to herself ' Welcome home baby '
Willows head was hidden behind a bouquet of roses, white ones.Tilting her head, the redhead looked at the actress with a breath - taking smile
" Hey Tara " she said as she gave her the roses " Especially for u "
The blushing blonde took them as she leaned in kissing her crush's cheek " Thanks for being thoughtfull Willow, I love white roses, please do come in "

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Tara watched Willow considering her options. ' Oh God! ' The redhead thought to herself ' Tara had gone to so much trouble preparing this dinner '. The food was beautifully decorated and the smell was making Willow's mouth water. There were roast lamb and basic boiled vegetables combo that peeped from under a molten top of béchamel sauce, a Maryland cut of chicken cooked in white wine, a double handful of pommes dauphines or a fettuccine carbonara alternative, marinated salmon, fillet of sole with red wine butter, spring rolls and " Bignets de crevettes ".

" Oh Tara, this is too much! " the redhead admitted in awe.
" It is my simple way to say thank you " Tara smiled warmly at Willow " Besides, I've been starving for ages...You know being actress and all. I've been dieting since ever...Eating very small amounts throughout the day; and since i am on holiday I thought i could cheat for one day...Not that I did all of that just for me...No cause that would be totally not right...I did it for me and you...You see i need a partner to encourage me with the cheating thing and it turned out that I am going to break my diet rules with you..." I'd like to break some other rules with you too she added to herself happily. She looked at Willow blushing heavily as she realized that she was rambling. Actually the blonde never rambled but being near Willow she seems to loose control and words seemed to flow uncontrollably out of her mouth.

Is she flirting with me? The redhead wondered as she looked at the actress ' Nah, I must be projecting things '
" You and me? " Willow asked flirtatiously " Breaking the rules...Wow...Thanks for sharing with me such privilege. And by the way babbling is so contagious! " She added winking at Tara and went to take a seat at the table.

' What! She winked at me! Good God! Her voice is so so sexy...The way she smiles isn't going to help me restrain myself from kissing the daylight out of her...And breaking rules I've got to say I'd like very much to give it a try...Hmmmmm...Let's see...What about breaking the bed while making love...To make her scream my name at the top of her lungs...Wow...It is getting hot in here! ' The blonde nearly gasped as images of a naked Willow and herself making sweet, slow and passionate love. She shook her head and tried to compose herself as she followed the redhead to take the opposite seat.

" Miss Maclay, long time no see," Willow said playfully.
' Well...Well...someone is awfully pleased with herself today ' the blonde thought to herself " Hey just call me Tara "
The redhead looked at her smiling "I called you before only by your first name...It kind slipped out of my mouth...You know at the coffee shop...So may i call you Willow or is it rude? "

'Round blue eyes ...Hmmm...What a beautiful color...She has the kind of eyes I imagine a young Christmas would have, penetrating, and yet, neither intrusive or threatening...Oh Will focus she is waiting for an answer " Of course you can call me by my first name...Not a problem here...Yep not at all..." the redhead finally voiced.

" Great! " replied Tara as she poked a morsel of chicken with her fork " So how's work? "
" Ah no, please. Don't get me talking about work. Not today. Not for a whole month." The blonde looked at Willow quizzically, fork hovering close to her lips not fully understanding why she didn't want to talk about the work
" Problems? " She asked with a bewildered expression on her face.

" No, not at all and please excuse me for my outburst but it happens to be my first day of my holiday and i don't wanna talk about work...You see my best friend Buffy obliged me to take a break because according to her i am so close to a nervous breakdown. She is worried that i might have been overdoing it lately, and somehow she got a point...Ok not somehow but she has every right to think so..." Willow stopped talking, reminding herself to breathe.

She looked at the redhead with one of those intoxicating lopsided smiles, causing the redhead to feel suddenly breathless again, " Oh! I see...so plenty of free time."
" Yep you could say so " Willow smiled back.
" So what do you usually do in your free time? " The blonde asked.
" Meditation, listening to music, jogging...But sailing is my favorite activity ever it helps me relaxing and makes me feel more free...It starts with cracking canvas against a twenty-knot wind and letting the boat go. It's the cocktail of speed, the sluicing of the water parted by the hull, the feel more than the sound of the wind flowing past the mainsail and the basic simplicity of it all." Willow's face has come alive. Her round green eyes sparkled.

' Oh! I can easily imagine her squinting into white caps from behind the wheel of her Farr. It must be a very beautiful view with Willow in her swimsuit...How it clung to all the parts of her body...Her breasts...Ooopppss...The actress could feel a blush cover her cheeks. She began fiddling with her paper serviette, folding it in neat little strips and flattening each with the palm of her alabaster-white hand.
" Really? " Tara asked, finding it difficult to breathe steadily.

" Yep, i own a thirty-eight footer that's anchored at the marina. Sometimes i used to take off on the weekends. " Willow explained to Tara.
" You want to be on our own. Away from everything and everyone, right? " The blonde asked, quickly getting what she meant
Willow nods," Nothing better than making...Ummmm..." She was going to say love but she quickly stopped herself " Ummmm...a very relaxing meditation on deck when all the other yachts are mere little lights in the distance and the boat sways gently underneath "

Tara smiled, gazing deeper into the redhead's eyes " Totally right! "
" I really need to breathe, you know the real kind of breathing, " Willow goes on explaining. " None of that shallow breathing that I do all the time when I'm stressed. Even when I'm not stressed. "

" Hey, I love to sail too, Not that I am a professional sailor but I did it sometimes before. " Tara exclaimed.
" You did? " Willow looked up at the blonde very surprised.
" I admit, it's been a couple of years since my last real sail but I love everything about sailing. I love to stand right at the bow and feel the boat under my feet, as it ploughs through the waves bucking and shying." She stopped a little breathless
" Oh, " Willow breathed out " Yeah, you're a sailor but from what you've told me you consider yourself an occasional one as opposed to a dedicated one. Am I right in saying that? " She nods.

" You do know the Whitsundays are plonked right in the middle of real water, real deep water. " Serious eyes are set on Tara. " And on a sailboat, a lot of things can go wrong. You'll be spending a week in a rather unstable environment. There are tides and winds changes, the rising sea floor along with occasional strong currents, and shelves, and shoals to constantly monitor. And then, of course, if you actually want to sail a forty-footer, you really need at least one semi-competent person with you." She stopped a little breathless. " But you've already sailed the Whits, haven't you? " she asked perplexed.

" Twice! "
" Wow! " the redhead exclaimed. " Maybe we could sail sometime together..." Willow suddenly realized what she suggested ' What happened to you Will... You and her alone in the middle of the sea...really you got nerves...What she could be thinking now? Oh! Stupid me I blew it ...blew it...why I did that? ' She wished she could take all the words back.

Tara could sense Willow was panicking she seemed almost scared by what she have said. " Hey," the blonde reassured, clasping their hands together. " It's okay, " she whispered softly, " I love to go Besides it is always fun to have someone to sail with rather then being alone no? "
" Yes, I'd love to have some company. " not wanting to push the situation the redhead slowly unlinked their hands and looked at the food " Hmmm...The food is delicious! " She wanted desperately to change the subject.

The blonde could tell Willow was uncomfortable. Her mind was racing like it never had before...
She and Willow in the middle of the sea there could be a very wide definite possibilities...But why she panicked? She wished she could know...But whatever it was the problem she will leave it alone and let Willow take care of it and figure out what she wanna do about it...She will happily wait for the redhead to make her own decisions.
" Glad that you liked it. " Tara smiled at Willow.

" Tara " Willow whispered her name softly.
" Yes " The blonde felt that she was going to die. She loved the way the redhead pronounced her name. It was intoxicating.
" I have to tell you that the sailing plan might wait a little because..." She tried to continue.
" It is okay. Whenever you're ready I'll be..." She tried to assure the redhead.
" I know...I mean it is not like I don't want to because I really want but the thing is that... Well, that's a bit of a long story, but the gist of it is that, yes, the yacht is now in the middle of the sea with two women friends of mine. Chris and Lisa. Lisa prefers sailing around the coast, mostly because of the weather conditions here, cheaper anchoring fees and so on...Anyway, their plan had been to get together, just the two of them. Lisa wanted to take Chris out for three weeks at sea. "
" Great. But what a life for this couple! I mean three weeks at the sea " she said, truly commiserating, always a little envious of people who are able to organize a life around regular stays overseas and a total break from their usual routine.

" Well, goes to show no one's ever happy with what they have. " Willow let out meaningfully.
" What does? " Tara questioned.
" Lisa and Chris are about to split up. And they are trying their best to work things out again! " Willow explained, letting her eyes meet the blonde's.
" Oh! " The blonde replied, always a little dismayed when couples who seem to have everything going for them end up splitting up just like this. " Why the split? " the blonde continued asking, eager to know the reason of the break-up.

" Ah, that's a touchy one. "Tara looked more closely at Willow who has begun folding her paper serviette into little Centimeter-wide pleats. ' Whatever thought my question has shaped in her mind seems to have slowed her down.' the actress thought to herself " Is it personal? "
Eyes down, the redhead adds another pleat to the four already made.
" Uh … I'm sorry. I didn't mean to - " Tara stammered fearing that she had annoyed Willow.

" No, that's all right. Yes, it's personal but not in a way that I can't tell you about it. We're friends, right? " The redhead asked somehow hopefully wanting to get so many confusing thoughts out of her head.
Tara nodded emphatically." I certainly would like us to consolidate that. Yes. " Although, she beamed a very wide smile the blonde was somewhat disappointed that the other woman had said, " friends." She wanted to be more then a friend. That's what she longed and strived for. She liked Willow dearly.

" OK, so I'll share that personal little thing with you … as a token of my faith in our budding friendship." A smile has returned to her lips but her hand kept on patting what of her serviette is already pleated. " Chris is a hot … a hot-headed woman." Willow has noticed the quick glimmer of mock interest in Tara's eyes. " Yes, hot too, but that's not the point. She's hot tempered but she seemed to have endless patience when it comes to Lisa. And her escapades. "
" What does Lisa get up to? " Tara asked in order to get some explanation.
" Affairs. Not business. " Willow replied sardonically.
" Oh! " The blonde let out totally shocked.
" They're always short-lived and, years ago, Chris decided that she could live with that. " The hacker continued to explain.

" More power to her. So where's the problem. Why the split? " Tara asked fully intrigued.
" The escapades Chris can cope with, for the sake of their relationship and so on, are with women. You see Lisa falls in love … every so often. Long enough to stress Chris out. Long enough to screw her own little brains out … and then, sheepish, she gets her cute little bum back home to Chris and it's honeymoon time all over again. " She confided gazing in Tara's eyes.

" Yeah, well, that does work for some or so I've heard. But why the split after such a long...practice at getting it right? " Tara asked nervously forcing herself to remain calm under the intense gazing of the redhead.
" The added complication here is that, occasionally, Lisa fell for a man."
" Ah! " The blonde exclaimed.
" Ah, as you say. You see Lisa has already done that four or five times in their ten-year relationship. And amongst the usual concerns that Chris has, one is the fear that Lisa might catch something very nasty. You know what I mean? " Willow asked.

The blonde nodded quickly "And bring that home to her."
" Well, yes, that too, but for Chris that's a secondary concern. What she can't deal with is the thought that, in time, Lisa might become HIV positive and, you know, get ill. That kind of ill. And Chris has finally decided that if she can't stop Lisa from playing Russian roulette then, she won't hang around anymore. " The redhead continued.

" OK, but Lisa might also be at risk screwing around with women. I mean … if some of those lovers of hers happen to be at risk, right? And if everyone's romping around … uh … unprotected. " Tara paused, feeling uneasy about the whole topic.
" Well, yes. But the way Chris sees it, the risk is much less because … Anyway, yes, I know what you mean. I've never been sexually involved with a man myself...Only women...and yet I can understand, kind of, how it might work for other women but - " Willow stopped abruptly, eyes averted. She just told Tara that she is gay...She wanted to see her reaction...Would she be interested in her or not...Would she like to have a gay friend near her...

" But? " Tara interrupted her thoughts. She looked at Willow and found that her fingers have returned to patting the pleats on her serviette. ' Why she is so nervous...Wait...Oh my god...She thought that i would freak out if i find out that she is gay...Oh Willow...My baby... If only you knew...If only you really look into my eyes and see what you mean to me...Oh Will...My Will...
" Hey " Tara reassured clasping their hands together " It's okay, " she whispered softly " You don't have to hide from me...I understand...I really do...I want you to be sure of that...Besides I am gay too..."She finished searching Willow's eyes.

" Thanks, " The redhead replied softly " And i know that you are gay " She blurted out blushing deep crimson as she realized what she have said ' Stupid Willow! You should act as you don't know that fact.' She chastised herself.

Tara blinked and frowned slowly unlinking their hands ' How could she know that i am gay when nobody knows except my family, Sally and Anya...Oh wait...Anya it must be her cause she is the only one who knows Willow '
" Who told you that i am gay...cause nobody knows " The blonde questioned her eyes settled on the last strip of Willow's serviette folding it lengthways. At that rate, the redhead was soon going to run out of things to do to that serviette. An awkward silence has descended on the table.
On impulse, Tara leaned forward and tapped gently on her fingers, the ones busy rolling the serviette into a neat little plug, tucking in the bits that ruffle out as they go. A shy little girl's smile was in her round emerald eyes as she looked up. Tara pulled her hand away.

" Um...Well...You see...I just heard it on the grapvine...You know rumors...Yes rumors..." She stammered out nervously, her heart pounding loudly.
Not wanting to tease Willow she nodded her head understanding " Oh! I see...It is okay, really."
The redhead let out secretly a long sigh that she was holding inside but it didn't go unnoticed by Tara who just smirked at Willow's cuteness resisting the compulsive need that triggered inside her to feel the sensual fullness of Willow's lips against hers.

" So..." Willow began again " You must be really enjoying fame life, having all those fans who love you and are so attracted to you...I mean someone pretty as you would easily have her pick of her admirers. "
' Why I am doing this! I mean as soon as I manage to close an embarrassing topic I reopen another one directly...I am not anymore the wiser woman I've always been...No not anymore...It is over I'll never be able to save my reputation near her...I mean how could I control myself when all I do is daydreaming of her, embracing me, holding my hand and touching my face...I used to dream of that mysterious woman and hope that she would come along one day, like the answer to a prayer, and the music to a song...Like the kind of thing that happens, at a special place and time, that will change my life forever, like a fantasy of mine...Could she be you Tara...I wish I knew...Maybe my heart that once was broken can now finally mend...Oh God! The way she looks at me makes my body tingle all over...I don't know why when she walked into my life everything seemed to change...Even me!...The way I feel for her is so strong, it is the most powerful sensation that I have had in a long time and I am just lost for words when it comes to her...Oh Goddess! Help me! Guide me..." The redhead was babbling in her head like a crazy.

The blonde just smiled back, taken aback by Willow's question ' Wow! She wants to know if I am in a relationship...And in an indirect way too...How smart of her...My baby...The brainy-type that i adore...Oh dear Lord help me to finish this dinner without making something stupid like hugging her, or worse kissing her sensually '.
" Well, we can talk about this after dinner while sipping coffee, does that sound okay? " Tara asked very excited by the prospect.
" Okay " Willow replied, her heart skipping a beat when she found Tara staring deeply into her forest green eyes. She didn't want to look away but she had to cause if she continued that way she won't be able to resist Tara's charm anymore.

It was Tara who finally broke the silence " Great! "She exclaimed as she returned to poke another morsel of chicken with her fork.
The two women continued their dinner talking about L.A. and the places they could visit during Tara's holiday and about so many other subjects.

Half an hour later, they were in the living room sipping their coffee. Tara was really nervous, after all the woman that she had fallen hopelessly for was curled up on the couch near her...And this time nothing was between themselves...Nothing at all...Just some pillows...She could sense Willow's eyes staring up at her, waiting for her to speak, to answer that very important question...
" About your question..." She finally voiced meeting Willow's gaze "I could say that I've never been in ...Um...a real relationship...that might surprise you...being famous and all...I mean people might think that we are lucky in Love...but believe me we are like others...We suffer...we live in pain...only to find true love...It is true that i have dated so many gorgeous woman...But to be honest none of them attracted me...I mean I could never build a future on a false basis...So you can say...I am lonely right now..."

" Oh! " Willow replied quickly getting what Tara meant
" What do you think about Love, I mean what does Love stand for you? " The redhead blurted out of nowhere.

' Oh my god! How could I answer her now...I could never hide my feelings now...I must control myself...How on earth could I restrain myself from screaming at the top of my lungs that I love her...How can i answer you my baby when I am hopelessly and ridiculously into you...How could I look in your eyes when all my body aches just to touch your soft and sweet lips...Oh God help me to get this right...Help me to find the right words that will make her understand what my soul feels towards her...'

" Love...Wow! A very wide subject..." Tara rambled trying to gain some extra time in order to find a very suitable answer " I want a woman to love me in return...A woman that her touch will always be with me and it will burn into my skin...Her soft voice will never be silent like it's forever in my ears serenading every moment and calming all my pain...Her arms will always enfold me like the strength of angel wings, they support and protect me wholly with the safety of a true Love...The way she will look at me will make me feel beautiful and treasured..." The blonde paused just to take some time to breathe and continued her eyes boring into the redhead's eyes
" Love is just an emotion, so strong and so pure, that nurtured and shared with you other half...It is a force to bring the mighty low and with the strength to shame a mountain...It is the union of two souls, two hearts...A flame that through wax and wane will outlive life...My lover will be an angel sent from above to me...My everything...The reason I breathe and live for...I know I am just a hopeless romantic...But what can I do...This is me..."

" Wow! " Willow exclaimed smiling at Tara's term ' Hopeless romantic ' Just what like Buffy called her few hours ago " That is so sweet, so..."
" Romantic " Tara finished.
" Yeah " Willow agreed smiling at the blonde. She loved how Tara seemed to know what she was thinking about. She felt so strongly connected to her.
" What about you? " Tara implored taking unconsciously Willow's hand between hers and caressing it softly.
" What do you w...wanna...know? " The hacker asked with a great difficulty. She wasn't breathing at all...The caress of Tara's thumb against her hand was driving her insane.
" About Love " She said as he unlinked their hands after she sensed the redhead's shallow breath...Actually she heard her gasping.

Missing the contact with Tara's eyes she replied softly " Um...Well Love caused me lots of pain...awful aching...It made me deny Love in my life completely! I don't believe in Love at all! "
" You don't? " Tara asked in surprise " I think in life you can face really bad things but that doesn't mean its the end of the world...You have to get over your problems and look hopefully at the future..." Sensing Willow's sudden change in mood she asked her softly putting a concerned hand on her shoulder " Are you all right? "

" oh, Yes, I am fine " the redhead replied " It is so hard to remember all these memories...It just hurts me more..."
" Oh God Willow! " Tara began " If you wanna talk about it, I'll be more than happy to listen...I want to help you! "
" Thanks " Replied the redhead sincerely " I just want to forget everything about her " Her hands started to shake terribly. Tara's heart was breaking for the hacker...She just refused to see the woman who hold her heart in such situation...panicking and loosing control...She wanted to comfort her...to be there for her...She would do anything just to avoid seeing the pain in her eyes...On impulse, Tara's arms slowly reached for Willow, bringing her into a hug " It is okay to cry, just let it out Willow...I am here to help you..."

The redhead was surprised by Tara's hug but she didn't complain at all. Now that the blonde was near her she didn't want to pull away soon. She buried her head in Tara's neck and tried to speak " I used to love a woman...She was working in L.A. and i don't know if she is still here anymore. Anyway I was starting my new company and barely managing to spent some quality time with her...After all I wanted us to have a bright future...I was working myself too hard just for her...For us..." Tears started to fall down from Willow's eyes staining the blonde's top, but Tara didn't care about her blouse all she cared about was the suffering of her new-found love. She wanted to calm Willow. She closed her arms firmly around her and started stroking her hair.

Oh, Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
’cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

Willow continued her story whispering against the blonde's neck " One day I finished my work and went to surprise her...I entered her apartment...It was unusually quiet...Cause she loved to listen to music and dance..." Her whole body shaked as images of her ex and her best friends were making love flashed into her mind.

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

Tara held her, keeping the soothing motions and started whispering words of comfort and support " Willow...It is okay...Shhhhh...If you want to stop that's fine..."

So if you’re mad, get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if you’re wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

" No I wanna continue! " Willow said in persistence " I just wanna let the pain out...I searched for her and found her making love with her best friend...I was terrified...I couldn't utter a single word...I just bolted out of her place cursing everything made me fall in love with her...Oh Tara...It hurts...It really hurts "
' Oh my God! That goddamn bitch cheated on her! If she will ever get near you Willow again I'll hurt her badly...I swear to God...My poor baby...What she have done to you! '
" It is Okay Willow...She doesn't deserve you...It's all right now...I am here...I've got you...I'll never allow her to hurt you again...never ever..." She vowed to herself and to the redhead as she kissed the top of her head trying to make some of her energy flow into the redhead through her lips.


And when the night falls on you, baby
You’re feeling all alone
You won’t be on your own
I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you

They stayed like this for minutes holding each other while Tara spoke into Willow's ears trying to comfort her pain and her sorrow. The redhead began to relax again and her sobs began to subside...She felt like she was free, there were no pain anymore...She pulled away slowly and look into the calm blue sea of Tara's eyes " Thank you " She whispered " I am sorry I don't know what came over me..."

I’ll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

" It's okay, " Tara replied softly" You were hurting...It was human...a pure human feeling nothing to be ashamed of "
" Tara " Willow whispered her hands clasping the blonde's " Thanks for comforting me...I mean it ...Well you see I felt your energy flowing into my body...It was powerful...My pain just disappeared...It was incredible...I've never felt so peaceful in my entire life..."
" Glad that I helped " Tara responded suddenly shy when she heard the hacker words.

They sat for minutes gazing at each other until Willow broke the silence " You're a witch " It wasn't a question but a statement. She actually felt themselves connecting through magic...The feelings she had for Tara were so strong...She felt that hidden power inside her responding to Tara's will...It was a wonderful feeling...She couldn't help but be affected by it.
" Yeah " Tara ventured softly as the silence between them started to get awkward again.
" My mother taught me since I was a little girl...She live in Texas..We have a ranch there... Sometimes I go to visit and practice some spells with her...And you are a witch too...I felt it...And a powerful one I might add " She finished smiling.
" Oh No! "She pulled her hands away from Tara's waving them frantically in the air " I am not that powerful...Just a normal witch..." Tara just smiled at that " Really " Willow continued " I mean I haven't practiced since a while...so I am not that real witch."

" No you are ! " Tara let out meaningfully blushing heavily at her own words.
" Thanks " Willow replied smiling at Tara. She took a quick glance at her watch " Wow! " she exclaimed " It is one o'clock...I should really go now...Thanks Tara for the great dinner...Thanks for everything..."
" You are welcome Willow " Tara replied, smiling at the redhead.
" Tara? " Willow let out softly.
" Yeah? " The blonde answered breathlessly.
" I was wondering if you are free tomorrow "she began nervously " I mean I'd like to spent the day with you...Tomorrow i just wanna do some crazy stuff...I wanna feel myself live again...I just wanna let go...You know running, going to the sea...Something like that..."
' She is asking to spend the day with her...Well she doesn't need to cause i really want to spend every minute of my life with you willow...my beautiful Willow'
" Of course I'd like to go with you "Tara replied happily.'She had enjoyed our time together and she wants to see me again...Yay me!'The blonde thought to herself.

" So bye and sweet dreams " she finished leaning over to kiss Tara's cheek " I'll call you tomorrow to pick you up is that okay? "
' Did she just kissed my cheek? Oh god! Her sweet lips against my skin felt like heaven...I am flying' She was melting that it was tearing apart inside her...She wanted to kiss her on her lips right there and right now but she was afraid that she was misreading things...scared of being rejected by Willow.
" Yes Willow, I'll wait your call...And sweet dreams to you too." Tara replied with a dreamy look plastered on her face.
" Okay...I'll see you then " Willow flashed her a bright smile, before heading out of the door.

The door clicked closed behind her. Tara leant against the door frame putting her hand on her cheek. She sighed, contented. 'God I love her, Love her, love her so much...I want to tell her that truth I really need to do that I can't wait anymore...No I can't...Tomorrow I'll tell her...Tomorrow will be the big day'
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So you found out today your life's not the same...
Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday...
And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn...
But you never gave up this easily before...
So why do you choose today to give it all away.......
She's my angel love
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Re: A Bet

Postby Willowtree252 » Sun Apr 08, 2007 11:46 am

:pinky I hate cheaters and Willow is in so much pain I know it is hard to trust again after that happens. Tara will open up and let her know how she feels I can,t wait for more it will be full of loving and smoochies :wtkiss
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Re: A Bet

Postby taralicious » Sun Apr 08, 2007 8:17 pm

Amazing job on this story as it continually unfolds in moments of 'aaahhh' and 'ooooo' since they are both moving slowly battling their inner demons and trying to prevent the spectre of the past from overshadowing the bright future they both so richly deserve.
That and the dream sequence Tara had was fabulous as Willow/Tara smut can never go amiss.
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Re: A Bet

Postby Numen » Mon Apr 09, 2007 1:30 pm

Oh, one reaallyy big WOW! You've got some really, really beautiful writing at Tara's thoughts. Wow, again.

" Love...Wow! A very wide subject..." Tara rambled trying to gain some extra time in order to find a very suitable answer " I want a woman to love me in return...A woman that her touch will always be with me and it will burn into my skin...Her soft voice will never be silent like it's forever in my ears serenading every moment and calming all my pain...Her arms will always enfold me like the strength of angel wings, they support and protect me wholly with the safety of a true Love...The way she will look at me will make me feel beautiful and treasured..." The blonde paused just to take some time to breathe and continued her eyes boring into the redhead's eyes
" Love is just an emotion, so strong and so pure, that nurtured and shared with you other half...It is a force to bring the mighty low and with the strength to shame a mountain...It is the union of two souls, two hearts...A flame that through wax and wane will outlive life...My lover will be an angel sent from above to me...My everything...The reason I breathe and live for...I know I am just a hopeless romantic...But what can I do...This is me..."

And for that, triple wow (yup, I'm running out of adjectives. Okey, I think 'wow' isn't adjective. Anyway....) *sighs* another hopeless romantic (who likes white roses, yay. They're the most beautiful flowers)

Oh, is Tara going to tell her?! If she tells, how Willow takes it?! *jumps around* Can't wait
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Tue Apr 10, 2007 2:24 am

Dianneswillowtree
I hate cheaters and Willow is in so much pain I know it is hard to trust again after that happens


Well what i like about ur comments Diane, it's that u try to analyze and assume what will happen next...And for the REAL smoochies will have to wait a little more longer... ;-)

taralicious ---- Thank you a lot Taralicious for ur comment, This Story will actually take time to unfold, since other characters will carry on to appear...As for the dream, I was trying to show the inner desire of the actress who was trying so hard to hide her true feelings...We Will see how longer she will resist in front of the redhead....

Numen

Oh, one reaallyy big WOW! You've got some really, really beautiful writing at Tara's thoughts. Wow, again.


Thank you sweetie for your words...and yes i been focusing on Tara's feelings since the start, I guess in the next few updates, i'll put the spot on Willow's feelings....


another hopeless romantic (who likes white roses, yay. They're the most beautiful flowers)


you got that right, Hell yes white roses are the best, personnally i like them more red ones...As for the hopeless romantic, Numen sweetie sure you are one of them ;-)


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Till the next update....
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Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday...
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Re: A Bet

Postby Sapphire eyes » Tue Apr 10, 2007 6:55 am

WOW LOVE IT! Sorry for the caps but wow! :kdevil More more more!!!! ;)
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Wed Apr 11, 2007 3:51 am

WOW LOVE IT! Sorry for the caps but wow! More more more!!!!


Lol okay sapphy here comes more ....enjoy!!!!

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Chap 7

Tanya dropped in last night. In fact, she had already dropped in by the time Willow got home. A thud were in the hacker's chest. Her big black wrangler Jeep was parked off the street, on the lawn in front of the house, parallel to the driveway, as per her habit when they were a couple, so as not to block her access to the garage when she comes home before her and intends spending the night. The redhead idled the Jeep in front of the house long enough to consider the possible implications of that car on her front lawn.

' Was she had come to spend the night? Of course not. I mean, under the circumstances, what for? Did I even want to see her? Here? Now? What if she had just dropped around for her things? The Holden wouldn’t be on the lawn then, would it? It’d be parked in the street. What if she had parked it there only for old time’s sake? Out of habit? To not have to carry her boxes an unnecessary distance? ' Too many questions were forming a dense hedge that Willow couldn’t see past. She put the Jeep into gear and drove off. She needed time to think.

' She might be gone by the time I came back. How did I feel about that, then? Nothing at all...What I should feel after what she did to me?...Disgust only disgust...Can I even look at her face?...I don't think so...It is true that I didn't give her time to explain...But why should I?...She was cheating on me...And what she is doing here?...Maybe she want her things back...Oh she must be really nuts if she think that I kept her things after these long months...Oh and how in the hell she could have entered my house...Oh Stupid Will...Didn't change the lock from that time although Buffy have warned me...First thing in the morning I will do. ' The hacker couldn’t think straight. She needed a coffee.

The little coffee shop down the road had turned out to be as good a place as any in which to settle her pulse. By the time Willow finally turned the key inside the backdoor lock, she was none the wiser. Except that a little voice, probably that of wisdom, had been whispering to her that, now that Tanya had initiated the break in such a cut and slash way, the prudent thing for the both of them would be to roll forward and not try to turn back.

Back at the neighbourhood coffee shop, She had had time to revisit moments of their week at sea when they sailed. The redhead, waiting for her to appear out of the waves, fearing for her safety. The moment the sun had set on Paradise Cove. And that other moment on the road when a terrible accident had barely been avoided. Her unbridled excitement about the other driver’s skill had confirmed that, truly, Willow and her were mismatched at an odd level.

" Will! You are here. " Standing awkwardly in the middle of the living room, Tanya sounded relieved. She made to come towards Willow but something stopped her.

" Of course I’m here. I live here. " The brunette's hair was loose, curled softly against her cheeks and her grey eyes were settled on her ex.

" What are you doing here? " The redhead asked frostily trying to swallow her anger. She didn't want a fight. She had enough of them. All she wanted was to understand why the brunette was here and what did she want from her...Maybe a confrontation...To cry, to scream, or to talk trying to resolve all the complications of their past relationship ' Just breathe will! You need to breathe...Don't get stroppy now... Do I need to hear her explanations...Maybe she wasn't guilty...Oh Stop it! You saw them for God's sake enjoying what they were doing...Ewwwwww!!! Focus here and try to find out the purpose of her visit '

Tanya swayed on the balls of her feet while her face tried to arrange itself in a smile.Willow's heart used to lurch at that view but not anymore. Her lips and her eyes hadn't the same effect on the redhead anymore.
“Mes affaires! ( My things! ) I thought I’d better come and get them out of your way.”

' Affaires!... The redhead thought her choice of words, in the plural form at that, particularly unhelpful under the circumstances but, of course, she simply meant her belongings. The hacker looked away. The sensual fullness of her lips, the width of her mouth, often triggered an almost compulsive need to feel them against hers. But this wasn't anymore the case. They Didn't have the same effect on Willow as they always did.

Willow moved to the sofa but only to throw her bag on it. Tanya shifted her weight sideways, seemingly undecided as to what she wanted to do. ' Had she hoped I’d plop myself down, pat the cushion next to me in an invitation for her to join me?...Better not!...Cause this isn't going to happen soon...Not now...Not ever....'The hacker thought as she looked at Tanya.
" Nothing very delicate to pack. Mostly kitchen stuff, right? Are you done? " The redhead moved further away from her to peek into the kitchen where quite an assortment of cooking implements,terrines, baking dishes and pans were hers.

" Yes I have the essential. I thought you’d get home earlier so I got here an hour ago.” There were boxes on the floor. Most of them full. A couple still half empty.

" I’ve been held back at work." her first outright lie to her.' And why should I tell her where I was. She doesn't have that privilege anymore...No not anymore...' " By the way, there was some of your clothers here...I...I threw them out in a moment of rage when I got back from your apartment...Sorry for that but I couldn't control myself..." She said as she looked away.' So that was it? She had only come to take her things back. '

Tanya was still standing, polite as a stranger, waiting for permission to sit. Gone was the belligerent stance and the odd clicking sounds that had been oddly symptomatic of her unease the last time we had seen each other. The time she had thrown the name of Kelly almost in my
face, as a challenge." And for my clothes...It is okay...I mean I understand...I would do the same thing if I were in your place...It is really okay..." she said her voice full of embarrassment when she recalled the day when Willow caught her with her best friend in bed .The redhead left her standing there and walked into the kitchen. Once there and blank as to any intention she might have had, she opened the fridge and reached for a bottle of chilled Tattachilla.

" The corkscrew … the good one. Well … the one we use more often, I’ve packed it away, " she volunteered, as she saw Willow rummaging, bottle in hand, through the utensil drawer. She had followed a few steps behind her.

" Of course. What’s yours is yours. I’ll just get the other one for now. " The redhead reached into the jumbled bric à brac in a bottom drawer and rummaged briefly for the wooden handled, T-shaped corkscrew she remembered having tossed in after her last camping trip with Buffy.

Willow was still trying to figure out what her ex-girlfriend might want from her now that she was here, planted in the doorway to her kitchen.'Did I want a token explanation for what had happened? Did I want to be gracious and invite her to join me in a glass of wine I hadn’t planned on having and skate around the situation without cracking the ice? For old time’s sake? To keep the whole thing neat and tidy ? ' Her minds was full of questions...She was having a hard time processing all the confusing thoughts swirling in her head.

As she twisted the corkscrew into the cork, willow became acutely aware of the awkwardness of their stilted behaviour. She used to bound in here, big puppy like, full of energy and almost topple her over with her gusto. And she would exclaim, as one does to an overly enthusiastic
child, ' Tanya, Tanya! Wait a minute, will you? Let me put this down – or finish that,' before she opened her arms to her and hugged her back. Before she let her lips nuzzle her neck. Before she pulled her face back a little to check the colour of her eyes at that particular moment and caress the underside of her lip with the flat tip of her tongue.

While the redhead struggled with the well-ensconced cork, she was aware of her, immobile by the doorjamb. The cork finally began to budge and slide upwards. It popped out with an incongruous satisfying dry sound.
" Tanya, why are you still here? " she had turned around to face her squarely. " I mean, like standing here? "

Tanya looked away through the window and into the garden before bringing her eyes back to her ex-lover. " Why didn't I leave yet? " She paraphrased Willow's question.
" Yes. Why didn’t you load up your car before I got home? Yes. Or … why aren’t you doing it now? " She asked trying to muffle the rage surging inside her.

The brunette sighed. " I wanted to see you . And talk. "
That could’ve been the cue to Willow to let frustration turn to sarcasm and say something like, ' And I wonder what that could be about! ' Or she could’ve exclaimed, ' Well, well, it’s about time.' Instead, tapping the chilled bottle of white wine with the corkscrew, she said, " Well then, you’d better grab a glass and get on with it. " First she blinked. Then she smiled.

" So … what happened? " The hacker asked from her position on the edge of an armchair.
" When? Where? " Tanya asked in complete bewilderment.
" Tanya, to us! " Willow exclaimed a little pissed off.
" Ah, yes. Why Kelly? " The brunette was trying to play for time in order to give Willow an acceptable explanation.

" No, not why Kelly. Why anyone? Why you've cheated on me so quickly? " The brunette stalling was making the redhead bit by bit infuriated.
Tanya was reclining on the sofa, work boots planted on the rug, her glass of wine balanced on the armrest. She wasn’t smiling but she was wearing her relaxed I-can-do-that expression. Willow didn’t doubt she could. She had, after all, all the answers, and four months into her new life without her, the talking about should prove a lot simpler than the dismantling of...of... what they had had.

" Oh yes, conversations, " she said, seemingly lost in thought. " The one thing you think I owe you. "
The hacker nodded. " Will, I’m not good at conversations. You are. " She brought her glass to her lips.

Willow watched her looking at her from above the rim and she waited. " You talk and you reason and you make sense. You always end up making sense. " Grey-slate eyes, serious eyes. Hard eyes that make the redhead feel bad for having made too much sense.
" Uh … well … that’s good, isn’t it, making sense? " The redhead tried to understand what is wrong to have a rational approach for dealing with problems.
" For you. Good for you, yes. Not good for me because at the end of it, I always feel … Oh,I don't know." She looked away. " I just feel confused and not right. Not right. " She sat up on the sofa one hand on her thigh, on her jeans, the other holding the base of the glass on the armrest.

Tensely, Willow leaned forward. " Not right … as in– "
" As in … Oh look, I don’t want to go over it all any more. That’s the point. That’s why I didn’t give you that extra conversation. The one you think we should’ve had by now. " She said as she looked away trying to avoid the piercing gaze of the green eyes.

" Hey, go slow right here, Tanya. It’s not like we’ve ever had a single conversation about pulling the plug on us. Because we haven’t, have we? " She asked trying to reason one more time with the brunette.
" True, It is right. Not a single one. " She answered quickly.
Her lips were tight now. Willow's fingers were tense around the stem of the wineglass.
Her heart was beating too fast. This wasn’t right. What she would’ve liked to do is push the coffee table out of the way a bit and sit near her on the rug. Near her knees. She would’ve liked to dare look into her eyes, to see their movements...The eyes were always for Willow the key to somebody's heart...She wanted to deal with all this situation...To close this chapter of her life...To see what went worng with Tanya...Was she that bad that the brunette cheated on her... Didn't she deserve to have someone faithful...Was it the constant work that pushed Tanya to do so...But that wasn't right she always told her that setting up the company was for their own good...For their future...For their well-being...She have to deal with all these issues... Deal? Do? And do what exactly ?

" Well, isn’t that a little strange the … up and away thing? Tanya I need to talk in order to understand why you did that to us " Willow asked again from her position on the edge of the armchair.
" There you go again with the chatting things. The conversations...We have had them, Will. You know the ones about my childishness, and the ones about my recklessness. We’ve been over that many times. Each time I get up to do whatever it is I enjoy doing. Will, you enjoy thinking. Me, I enjoy doing. " Her hand flashes to her hair to push it back, away from her eyes.

" Right, it’s true. We’ve covered that topic. But... " Tanya threw an exasperated look at the hacker.
" No hold on, Tanya. I’m asking something else here. Uh … Why … the cheating? What triggered that? " Willow wasn't ready to bury her head in the sand. She wanted to know the truth...The whole truth.

" To trigger that? That’s what you want to know? " Again she began stalling. Willow nodded, aware of the lump at the base of her throat.
" Well, that’s the point, there was nothing new. You haven’t moved on from thinking of me as if I’m like … like, oh … I don’t know … something like a child woman. Or … a woman child. You know what I mean. You spend so much of your energy worrying about me, making me feel...inadequate. " Tanya scooted closer to the edge of the sofa. Three fingers around the stem to steady it, she crossed her ankles and rested the glass on a knee.

One strand of dark hair had again fallen forward. "Listen, " she started again more softly, " The bottom line is that you’ve never appreciated me for the way I am. Different from you. Different from your previous lovers. Different from how you want me to be. You want me to be like you. I can’t be like you. I don’t – "

But she was quickly cut in by Willow. " No. I don’t. Oh look, Tanya, you know I love the way– " She was about to explain her point of view but this time the brunette broke in.
" Great, ah, sure! Except for the impulsive bit. I know...You thought a lot of me was great when we...Fell in love. While we...well...You know, during the period when all’s always well. But after a while, I saw it in your eyes. " She flopped once again against the backrest and stretched her legs. Top teeth biting into her bottom lip. " I could see you just didn’t get it. You don’t get me. Look, " she said again, leaning forward, " This is no good. Will,I...I ...That’s not why I waited for you today. "

Willow held on to her breath. Was this her clue to ask her why, then, had she waited for her to come home? But she had already asked that question. In fact that had been the very first question she asked her when she had followed her to the kitchen. She just had wanted to see her. Just to chat with her.
" Look, it just came over me on the yacht...Our first...Oh God shouldn't say first...Our only trip together...That’s all." She looked weary.
" On the boat? " Willow asked disbelieving.
" Yes, on Star Gazer. Why are you so surprised? Didn’t you feel … a bit off, yourself, on that bloody boat? " She asked a little bit angry.

" Stressed, Tanya. Stressed and worried. That’s really how I felt. Most of the time. Sad too."
Sad on Paradise Cove. Sad on the long drive home. Willow guessed a direct answer to her question could simply have been, Yes, she did feel off on that bloody boat.
" You see, that’s what this is about, Will. " Tanya continued softly.

" Tell me about it then. " The redhead implored her ex-lover looking straight in her grey eyes.
" Oh, it is easy. What I see most of the time is that you’re running yourself … ragged. All on nervous energy. " Tanya replied as she leaned forward.
" So? What’s so bad about that? It’s my energy after all. I can do what – " Willow tried to explain herself.
" It’s yours, but you see. I’m around too, you know! " she said strongly, eyebrows dark and knotted. " Uh … I mean … when I was around " Somewhat stricken by her faux pas, she averted her eyes but her eyebrows remained furrowed. " See, I think it’s strange how you manage to look... like...so unfussed. I think that’s the word. Like, relaxed most of the time. But I think, deep down, you just stress out. Way out. Doesn’t show, not really, but it’s definitely there. Yes? "

" Yes. " Willow replied as she nodded her head too in agreement.
" You get all stressed...To make sure things happen for the best. You do the worried-mother thing. " She glanced up." I know you can’t help yourself – "

Hearing her talk about herself that way, as if she was despondent, got Willow all worked up. She had to break in.
" Uh … look, Tanya, let’s get at least one thing straight right here, shall we? I can help myself. I did have a recurring thought, though, during that week at sea. And before. Yes, many times before. You’re right about that. Having you safe was better than having you airlifted. That was my thought, yes. One of my many thoughts while out there. Oh, what the hell! Yes, Tanya, OK...All right, I own up. I thought you might die...That you could die out there. OK? Didn’t you think so yourself … that you might’ve died out there? The times you barely made it back to the boat? " She nearly stopped herself from screaming or yelling at her.

" I had a cramp. " Came the quick reply.
" You could’ve died. " Willow needed to breathe. She needed to exhale. She felt like the furnace on one of the old steam engine. Too stoked. " If not from that, then from something else, from any one of your other ideas. Or...have you forgotten why I was so...so bloody worried about you? " She asked her raising her voice a little bit.
" I haven’t forgotten. I know you were scared." She lowered her eyes and peered inside her glass.

Willow felt aggrieved at that particular moment. Misunderstood even. Angry, she thought.' So, Tanya had her answer. She had moved on to Kelly, that suddenly, because I had fretted too long and too much for her safety. And I hadn’t known how to hide that from her. And I hadn’t
thought hiding it was necessary. Almost a paradox. Not even a complete one. Was that it, then?
That was it. Partially, yes, that was it. But deep down I knew what Tanya meant. I did understand that getting so worked up about her, so worked up about anything for that matter, wasn’t the way to go. Not good for anyone. Not for me, not for her. And that was the bottom line. Something had to give. '

And while Willow had only barely begun to contemplate the idea that maybe she could stop doing that dance around her, Tanya put a stop to it. " I know you were scared for me. But what’s sad, you know...It’s that you don’t have fun like before, Will. Not anymore. You make yourself sad. Much worse...You make both of us sad."

As they misted over, Tanya's eyes lost their grey-slate hardness. Willow felt her ache. Tanya wasn’t enjoying this conversation any more than she was. That much was clear. ' Tanya... What we should’ve done, right at that moment, was just stop talking and hug...just hug. Tightly. Words hadn’t been good for us ...' Willow thought to herself.
The redhead could tell she had more to say, though, and she knew she had to listen to all of it. she knew she had her share of responsibility in this break up. And she knew, too, that Tanya's arms were around her and her hands were gently stroking the back of her head.

Willow couldn't stay any longer seated on the edge of the armchair...No she won't permit Tanya to get away this easily...Not even to forgive her or have this great reconciliation full of happy tears...She got up and turn on a couple of lights around the living room.
" Will, you...you can’t tie me up.You can’t have me nice and safe. You see, I was never your child. But again, I never felt your equal either." Tanya continued her explanation.

' Whoa! Why hadn’t we talked about that before? Should I have asked? '
" And with...Kelly...You feel her equal? " The redhead asked her angrily.
" Ah, Kelly...It is different. How do I say that? " Tanya’s eyebrows quickly frowned. " She’s... well... she’s different from you. " Then she smiled.

The back of Willow's eyes tingled. She would’ve preferred to not have this answer. Not while talking to her about her new lover. ' That particular type of smile, the redhead thought, was only for me because I had only seen it on her lips, in regards to moments special to her, not...in regards to anyone else. I wasn’t quite ready to never kiss her lips and the special spot where they kick up so...sensually. I used to caress that spot, those two spots on either side of her lips, with my thumb, with the tip of my tongue. With my eyes even. And I wasn’t quite ready to stop looking into her eyes for no other reason but to check the exact nuance of the colour of her irises at that particular moment. Mmmphh....Yes will you used to...In the past...I don't need her again in my life...Remember Willow you used to kiss her...You used to want her...But now I don't need her never again...I don't really need someone who thinks that my love is just like a prison...Who think that I am strangling her just because I love her...Great I really needed this conversation just to test my feelings...I am really over her...Ready to move on again...'

" I guess you’d probably say she was a … a cosmic dyke, " Tanya explained " She’s into the... Anyway, she believed that we don’t control anything. She believed that control is out there." She indicated somewhere beyond the sliding doors to the garden.

' Why is she using the past tense...believed...was...Did she broke-up with her too...and why she speaks about her with a great enthusiasm...' Willow's mind was mulling over The brunette's words ' If she split up with her what she is doing here now...Is she hoping that we could be back together now?...Oh Hell no Tanya! think it over...Don't need you again in my life...Now that I have Tara...You have Tara?...What?...Who said you have her...Maybe I would try to make this true...' Her thoughts about the blonde-haired goddess were interrupted by the brunette who was standing now behind her.

" See, Will,that what triggered the cheating...I mean you were so overprotective...I felt like suffocated! The day...the day you caught us making out...I mean having sex...I wasn't sober...Well you see Kelly came over to take me for shopping but she found me crying cause I was missing you terribly...The first she did was hugging me and whispering words of comfort in my ear till I relaxed a little...Then she handed me a glass of whiskey saying that it will help me unwind and make all the stress leave my system...Glass after glass I was absolutely paralytic ...She started kissing me saying that she have always loved me and that I don't deserve a person like you to be my girlfriend...And since I was so depressed I gave in...I mean there she was telling me that she loves me and standing in front of me wanting and needing me...I couldn't take it anymore...I surrended...And...Well...You know the rest. " Tanya was in tears by the time she finished her story.

Willow turned to face her with tears in her eyes " What do you want now Tanya? "

" I want to get back together...I know it is too hard for you...But please baby forgive me...I didn't do it on purpose...I should have told you all of this before you left but I didn't want to see you crying anymore or even hurting....So for all the pain that I have caused to you I am sorry. Believe me, Baby, I do love you and I never meant to hurt your feelings...'

Tanya was now on her knees, her hands covering her face and was sobbing . " I...I...am very s...sorry for that b...but right now I can't s...stop thinking about how much I...I actually l...love you. I don't know if you have been thinking about it or no...but...but I have and all the time... to tell you the truth if I could cry about it I...I probably would because I get watery eyes just thinking about how beautiful you are...and...and how happy I was with you by my side....By being apart and not talking f...for so long, I quickly learned that you...you were everything I ever wanted...It wasn't until now that I've realized that instead of...of complaining about the time I didn't have with you, I...I should've cherished the time I did have, because it was real and f...filled with affection. I didn't realize until now....I love you Willow I love you Baby please help me...Please come back to me...Come back to our love..."

Willow's breath caught in her throat as she saw her ex-lover torturing herself. Even if she hurt her badly but she couldn't see anyone like this in front of her...But Tanya wasn't anyone...She was her ex...A person she shared with so many moments of joy and happiness...she needed to confort her jsut as friends would do...

She sat her glass on the coffee table and kneeled in front of Tanya. She reached over and took her hands in her own but she didn't look into her eyes. She didn’t want to see the panic that had made her heart thump at the thought that her intuition had been accurate ' She wanted her back again into her life '. The redhead breathed out. Her hands were shaking. Tanya hadn’t made love with Kelly on purpose but still she couldn't forgive her.

The hacker was surprised to feel the brunette arms wrapped around her shoulders. Her throat became watery and tight. She felt a burning tingle under her eyelids. ' Please, no. No tears!' She pulled herself out of the hug swallowing hard. She stood up and reached again for her glass,concentrated on bringing it casually to her lips. She tried to dislodge the lump that had tightened her throat with a slow and long sip. She couldn’t look at her just yet.

Looking out of the sliding doors to the garden the redhead tried to talk again " Tanya you realize how hard this is for me?...I forgot you Tanya...I can't be with you anymore...No..No...I can't...How could you complain of my love for you?...How could you say that I was suffocating you...I wanted to take care of you Tanya...You were my life...You were my heart...I was working my fingers to the bones all these months for us Tanya...I wanted to have a happy a life...I wanted you to have anything you dream of...And instead of supporting me and be at my side...You cheated on me...And with who...with your best friend...The one who supposed to be like a sister to you...How could you!!!...Just how could you...You destroyed me...You killed every beautiful feeling in my heart...I just can't Tanya...I can't..."

Pushing herself up Tanya went to stand up in front of Willow. With trembling hands she hugged the hacker laying her head on her shoulder and whispering in her ear " Please Baby...Please I love you...I am so sorry...I can't live without you...I tried Will...I really tried to go on with my life but I couldn't...There are no words from which I can say the importance you have in my life, it seems like everything has faded and there is no color in the world for me. My Love, I know we have been through very hard times and I accept that it was all was my fault but I also apologize to you and you also know that I love you very, very much and can't live without you. So, Baby, please accept my apology and come back to me...Came back to me baby...Please will I love you...Love you so much...Baby i'll die without you...Can't survive anymore...No I can't..."

Slowly she pulled away bringing her lips to Willow. She kissed her slightly " Baby give us another chance...Give our love the life again...I need you will...I love you... "

Tanya kissed her again and again tears streaming down her face "Just love me again as I love you Will....Just be with me again...Let's try to make the things work for us again...What do you say baby...Just tell me Yes...I wanna hear only this word...Please baby..."
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TBC

So, any comments......
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Re: A Bet

Postby Willowtree252 » Wed Apr 11, 2007 8:27 am

:pinky Tanya is a self serving bitch and she dosent deserve Willow back. Now Willow needs to let Tara in and build on it I can,t wait for more
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Re: A Bet

Postby Numen » Wed Apr 11, 2007 11:26 am

Whoa, I'm...Whoa! Okey, breath, breath *tries to get grip of herself* Let's hope I can now write something that makes sense....
My thinking was like "Okey, Tanya is just so going to ask for Willow to forgive her and to take her back....Okey maybe not....Yep definetly no....Oh crap. She asked". Willow, remember Tara, remember Tara.
(You're really meanie, leaving it like that)

This really is story that reach out and really touches something inside me and my knot of feelings. This time...Well, Tanya asking Willow to forgive her and take her back. Without cheating part, that have happened to me; ex telling how sorry she is, how she can't live without me and still loving me and asking if there's any chance I forgive her and take her back. Yup, did that. And somehow that really touched me.

Really, thank you for this fic :bow I hope you know how much this have touched me
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Thu Apr 12, 2007 2:07 am

Dianneswillowtree
Tanya is a self serving bitch and she dosent deserve Willow back


You get that so damn right Dianne....

Numen
This really is story that reach out and really touches something inside me and my knot of feelings. This time...Well, Tanya asking Willow to forgive her and take her back. Without cheating part, that have happened to me; ex telling how sorry she is, how she can't live without me and still loving me and asking if there's any chance I forgive her and take her back. Yup, did that. And somehow that really touched me.


Well Numen as it happened to you, it happened with me too...I can barely think of few ppl who havent been cheated on by their partners...The thing with me it came as a total suprise, I wish i Could have see them together..and get on with it...but nah...I met my Other gf's gf { pfttt gf's gf pretty funny } by accident and from a topic to topic we discovered we had the same gf .....needless to say it was quite a revalation

To cut it short..she came back to me begging to take her back, I refused and couldnt really accept her back in my life, especially when ill be in her arms and think she was holding that woman the same way as she was with me ....made me sick...so she is so simply out of my life... i dont need cheaters...especially who go for 2 or 3 weeks away then come begging...it is really pathetic...Well if they didnt know who I am when i was with them There is no point in discovering it again by another chance...so second chance bye bye

Really, thank you for this fic I hope you know how much this have touched me


Thanks again for reading this fic and commenting Numen...i always look forward for ur comments ...u do elaborate a lot and it is actually good
Anyway have a nice day.....
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Re: A Bet

Postby taralicious » Thu Apr 12, 2007 8:06 pm

Willow needs to utter the phrase which defines the 10th Doctor's persona in the new series of "Doctor Who" and tell Tanya, "No second chances."
Tanya is delusional anyway if she thinks she has a ghost of a chance in coming between Willow and Tara after they have met each other and recognized the strength of their union.
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Sat Apr 14, 2007 3:03 am

I wanna thank again all members who are reading my story and commenting i really appreciate it ...it keeps me going strong especially it is my first fic to write and post

Now for another update...i hope you will enjoy...

Amberholic....
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Chap 8

Tanya loved Willow so passionately and she was so like a Goddess in her eyes. It is true that she cheated on her but she regretted her actions so much. She wasn't aware of what she was doing with Kelly until the next morning when she woke up and found a warm body next to her. At first she thought it was her lover Will, but little by little she realized that the woman lying beside her wasn't her favorite redhead. It was her Kelly her best friend. She cried, yelled and even screamed like she had never done before in her entire life.

She wanted to see Willow and explain to her all the complications of that evening but couldn't find her, even in her apartment where they used to spent most of their time there cuddling and snuggling. After several months of weeping and crying over her past relationship, she reached a decision...She wanted to see Willow, the only love of her live, and ask for her forgiveness even if that will be the last thing she will ever do.

Pulling away slightly from the hacker, Tanya looked into her eyes and whispered " I know that I have hurt you for what I've done and I am asking for your forgiveness and hoping that we could start all over again. I could hardly take the reality of losing you. I really want you back. How I missed you in the last few months of the crisis. These months without you in my life were like without sunshine...You are my sunshine...Your absence in my life means that I am in darkness. I need you in the dark to make my heart shiny again...I need you in the cold for my warmth... Please try and find it in your heart to forgive and forget. If loving you were wrong, I don't want to be right and if living without you is right, I would rather be wrong all my life and have you as a love. I love you and I always will...My beautiful baby...my Will..."

The redhead was so surprised by her ex-girlfriend's actions. Here she was hugging her, nuzzling her lips to Willow's neck even kissing her and above all she was asking her forgiveness. The hacker's mind was blank, it took a long nap. When the whispered words against her lips had stopped, Willow found herself staring disbelievingly in Tanya's eyes trying to recover from her own trance that was induced by the brunette's love words. She wasn't aware that she had dropped the glass that it was in her hand. It shattered into million pieces.

Her hands were shaking terribly. She couldn't speak or utter a single word. Willow was aware that Tanya was watching her face intently and surely saw the moment when the redhead finally made the connection to life again. It was when she pulled away and sank into the armchair. Her eyes prickled again and tears brimmed. The tip of her nose began swelling and the heat rose again to her face as a sudden understanding has dawned on her ' Tanya wanted her back into her life...She was drunk...she didn't do that on purpose...' A little frown fluttered her wide eyes then she blinked. Her shoulders were tense and her lips flattened into a line, as she looked at Tanya sideways before looking away.

She swallowed hard and attempted to speak again " Tanya! Can I believe this? Are you serious? You aren't mad, are you? "
" I am not, " The brunette said quickly.
" And yet, " Willow continued looking strangely at her " Why didn't you tell me before? Oh yes, you would have told me, in a way, but I just disappeared out of your life, I remember! My bad! Absolutely! I didn't want any explanation at all. " She was talking but couldn't think at the same time. Her mind seemed to have stopped working.

Tanya followed her and stood beside Willow staring at her with dry eyes then she went down on her knees so now they facing each other " In the name of our love, forgive me! " She whispered with a dry mouth.
" Forgive you? Oh, Tanya, it's not a question of forgiveness! You were one person, now you are another. How can forgiveness put that right? " She paused considering what she have said. Then suddenly she started laughing in an uncontrollable way, like if she was letting out her frustration and anger.

" Don't...Don't laugh like this, Will...Baby..." She cried her face dead white " That laugh kills me! Willow do you know what you are doing to me? I've been hoping, longing and praying to make you happy again!...Having begun to love you, I will love you forever, in all changes, in all troubles, because you are yourself. I ask no more just you love "

" I repeat, the woman I used to love is not you! " Willow said sternly looking into Tanya's eyes.
" But who is she? " the brunette asked trying to reason with the redhead as she got herself up.
" Another woman in your shape " Willow replied as she looked away with an expression of disgust plastered on her face.
By now Tanya realized how Willow saw her. For the hacker she was a guilty woman pretending to be an innocent one. There was terror in her white face as she saw this. She couldn't stand anymore; quickly Willow stepped forward, thinking that the brunette might fall any moment.

" Sit down " the redhead said gently.
Tanya sat down, her face still full of fear and her eyes wild " I don't belong to you anymore then, do I Will? " She asked helplessly. The hacker watched her sobbing, and waited until the first violence of her emotion had passed.


" Will " she said suddenly in a normal voice " Am I too wicked for us not to forgive me? I told you baby I didn't do it on purpose...It was a fault...A very terrible one...What I have done nothing of it interferes with my love for you...You don't think I planned it Willow, do you? I would not deceive you like that!"
" Deceive me! And like that! Didn't you realize till now what you have done to me...It was cruel Tanya...Just plain cruel...Oh my god don't let me laugh now!...And here is the big joke...It didn't interfere with our love...What is the frilly heck in your opinion would be considered as interfering in our love...You must be so damn crazy or maybe till now you don't know me as well as you think...You killed everything beautiful in my heart...I have so many bad memories, so many moments that I hold myself in because they seem to be all that is left to me...I fell like a ghost created from torn webs of my past...I thought that I was living a great love but I've been only living a lie... I hate arguing with you...Damn I hate hearing that pain-filled tone of your voice...Despite everything we went through you still my friend and I am ready to help you in everything you need...And I mean it...Look Tanya I do forgive you but forgiveness isn't everything"

" Don't you love me anymore? " Tanya asked looking at the redhead with a glimmer of hope in her eyes.
Willow didn't answer this question at first then she looked at her and shook her head firmly
" No I don't, not anymore! "
Tanya was fuming with rage, looking daggers at the redhead across the room. She didn't say anything at all but just glared fiercely knowing that she had lost Willow forever. She looked calm and full of self control but deep down the words of the hacker were like a rag to a bull to her. It was a tremendous blow from which she will never really be able to recover again. The redhead had just confirmed all her fears. She didn't love her anymore and didn't want her back in her life in spite of all her tearful pleas.
" Is there anyone in your life? " She asked out of the blue.

" Why are you saying that? " Willow looked at her with a bemused, even upset expression on her face.
" Is there someone in your life? " Tanya asked again more firmly.
" Cut it out Tanya! You are really freaking me out " The redhead said as she closed the distance between them.
" For the last time, is there someone in your life? " She asked raising her voice.
" You hear me, cut it out! " Willow shouted furiously. The redhead couldn't believe what was feeling that right moment...her blood was boiling -She is usually so even-tempered but Tanya was driving her up the wall by that constant question.


" Is she better than me Will! Sexier...Beautiful...Is she better than me in the bed? " Tanya knew what she was doing. She wanted to provoke the redhead but that didn't go unnoticed by her.
" How dare you say that? " Shouted willow, stamping her foot with rage. Taking several deep breaths in an effort to compose herself she tried to speak again calmly." Tanya, It is not your business anymore...And it is not your place to ask me such questions! "


" Wow! " Replied a laughing brunette " She is surely blowing you're mind off! "
" Get out! " said the redhead, just managing to maintain her composure with a strong effort.
" What? " Asked a very shocked Tanya.
" You heard me! Get out! And quickly! " Replied Willow angrily.
" Willow, I..." Tanya tried to speak but was quickly interrupted by the redhead. " Don't willow me Tanya! You've just stepped out a line here ..Believe me if you continue like that you'll be asking for trouble...Just take my word for it Tanya...Don't try you needle me again cause you'll regret it...Truly regret it..."

" Willow, I am sorry I...I..." Tanya hugged the redhead, tears rolling down her cheeks "I...d... didn't know what came over me...I guess I was jealous...I shouldn't I know but it is more powerful than me...I am so sorry willow...Can we be friends at least? "
" Yes, sure Tanya, we can be friends...We will always be...And please accept that we are not meant to be together " Answered Willow sincerely hugging back her ex-girlfriend.
" Yes, you are right and I am sorry again " She said as she smirked to herself ' Believe me Will, you'll always be mine...Just mine..."

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TBC
So you found out today your life's not the same...
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Re: A Bet

Postby Numen » Sat Apr 14, 2007 3:26 am

Wowwie! You know, in some very twisted and weird way, I'm feeling litle bit sorry for Tanya. But the last lines...Creepy!

Look Tanya I do forgive you but forgiveness isn't everything

So true my dear friend. Sad but true.
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Re: A Bet

Postby Willowtree252 » Sat Apr 14, 2007 9:23 am

Pulling away slightly from the hacker, Tanya looked into her eyes and whispered " I know that I have hurt you for what I've done and I am asking for your forgiveness and hoping that we could start all over again. I could hardly take the reality of losing you. I really want you back. How I missed you in the last few months of the crisis. These months without you in my life were like without sunshine...You are my sunshine...Your absence in my life means that I am in darkness. I need you in the dark to make my heart shiny again...I need you in the cold for my warmth... Please try and find it in your heart to forgive and forget. If loving you were wrong, I don't want to be right and if living without you is right, I would rather be wrong all my life and have you as a love. I love you and I always will...My beautiful baby...my Will..."

Hell she should have thought of that before stupid bitch!!!! people only think of themself,s she had it all and threw it away what an ass. we are getting closer to Willow and Tara together and I am so waiting for it my friend love it so far :kitty
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Mon Apr 16, 2007 3:08 am

Hey Again for all the members reading my story commenting or it, it means a lot to me...now for the next update...i know it is kind-ish short..but it is better than nothing at all...isn't it ? Well i hope you will like it...All my love for you..Thank you again!!

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Chap 9

For the first time of her life Tara really had a sleepless night, moving her and there on her bed trying to figure out a way to put all her feelings into words. The atmosphere of tension and nervousness between them this night was indescribable. She felt Willow's inner struggle when she took her between her arms. If time could stand still, she would have freeze it there just to keep the oject of her desire so close to her heart trying to convey her all the comfort and the security of the world. ' In your arms Willow...there I wanna be...No! There I am meant to be just filled with the perfection of your love ' She sighed as a tired smile wore her face when she recalled the way she hugged the redhead and brought her body to hers, her chin set on the crown of her head.

' Oh! The warmth and the tenderness of your embrace my lovely Willow get my eyes watery...just thinking how beautiful you are and how happy you make me when you are near me make me love you more and more...' her thoughts were running rampant, stimulating every part of her brain and driving her to the point where she thought she was going to go insane. Her thoughts contained just one person...Willow...Her favourite redhead
' Oh God! I am so losing control! ' Quickly she crawled out of her bed and wandered over to the window, gazing out at the mysterious and twinkling stars littering the background of the sky.

All these puzzling and distressing feelings that flickered the redhead's face that night were really complicating the matters for the actress. Though Willow did her best to hide her confusion and tried to sound calm, but it was obivious that she was failing miserably. Closing her eyes, the blonde let her mind wander to important thoughts; thoughts that needed to be thought about. " What am I going to do now? " she moaned out softly, her eyes still delicately closed

" She hurt you badly my sweetie " Tara knew that the redhead went trough a time in her life where she felt worthless and unloved, stressfully trying to pull things together. Suddenly she found her hands gripping onto the metal arms of the chair, her knuckles turning an interesting shade of white " I could never hurt you Will, I love you so much to hurt you like she did. I won't let it happen to you again...No never again..."

The last thing Tara wanted was to take advantage of the emotionnal distressing experience the redhead went through. It was unmistakable that Willow was still recovering from the effects of her ordeal. The blonde wanted to help her see things in a different way, in a happier, enlightening way. Willow was drowning for own fears, completely cynical about love, about hope and security. She needed time to find herself out again and for sure the actress wasn't going to deny her this right. No this wasn't her nature. She can't win Willow's heart like this. Tara wanted to live a true love story the kind of a rose blooming in the Sahara or a river twisting through a dusty land. She wanted to wake up everyday to the sound of her breath on her neck, the warmth of her lips on her cheek, the touch of her fingers on her skin, and the feel of her heart beating against her.

For years the blonde didn't believe that she could experience that kind of feelings. She was convinced that sooner or later she will be alone with no one to share her life with, but the miracle of life shone in front of her eyes when Willow entered her life. Nothing can be compared to the feeling of filling up her life everytime Willow clasped their hands together. The excitement which tortures her while waiting to see the redhead again and the sweet convoluted thoughts that keeps her always awake even when she is exhausted to death.

' Willow, I am so lost in your magic! I think of you endlessly and dream of you each night...I think of your arms being around me though I know that I can't express my happiness...Never...No never I have fallen so hard...You are holding my heart that has never been given away...My first and last true love! '
Heading towards the kitchen to quench her thirst Tara turned to glance into the mirror next to the closet and sighed. "Oh, Will, " she murmured, rolling her hand through her hair, gently messing it. " If you only knew about this lovely mess I've gotten myself into."

She smiled sadly at her reflection on the shiny object. It was pitiful to know that she couldn't say to willow truthfully what she felt towards her. Tara was for sure living an emotional turmoil. She tried desperately to make sense of the jumbled emotions from the last hours, but it was simply an impossible task for her...She knew she ached terribly. That was the only thing she probably knew at that very moment. Not her body, but her heart. She will be always here waiting for Willow, waiting for the day that she will be hers...only hers...
" Oh Tara! Just stop thinking... Things always seems to be much better in the morning...better go to sleep...Tomorrow is my angel's day and you should be totally awake!!!!" With that the actress headed towards the kitchen.

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Ding Dong

" Oh no! " Tara groaned as she slightly stirred in her bed, murmuring something inaudible. She was emotionally and physically drained to get up this morning and how she couldn't be especially after the sleepless night she'd experienced, she kept on tossing and turning for few hours until she began finally to doze, trying to enjoy the rare moments of intermittent sleep.

Ding Dong

" Good God! " The actress nearly popped up in her bed. Jumping out from underneath her blankets she shuffled in her slippers towards the door. " Um...who is this? "

Tara opened the door only to find a bunch of white roses in which there was a lonely red rose held by someone in front of her door. The mysterious person's face was behind the bouquet and the actress was really getting curious to know who is this person.

Slowly a redhead appeared from behind the bouquet, her face glowing with happiness." Hello " was the only word that the blonde goddess heard from her newfound love.

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TBC
So you found out today your life's not the same...
Not quite as perfect as it was yesterday...
And I know it hurts and I know you feel torn...
But you never gave up this easily before...
So why do you choose today to give it all away.......
She's my angel love
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Re: A Bet

Postby Willowtree252 » Mon Apr 16, 2007 3:41 am

:pinky AB I am so lovin this update it shows us Tara,s honor




The last thing Tara wanted was to take advantage of the emotionnal distressing experience the redhead went through. It was unmistakable that Willow was still recovering from the effects of her ordeal. The blonde wanted to help her see things in a different way, in a happier, enlightening way. Willow was drowning for own fears, completely cynical about love, about hope and security. She needed time to find herself out again and for sure the actress wasn't going to deny her this right






Tara deserves Willow and will chreish her always sitting on the edge of my seat for the next update :kgeek
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Re: A Bet

Postby Useful_Oxymoron » Mon Apr 16, 2007 2:14 pm

Ah, a bet fic! And a pretty good and cute one at that. I'd love to see how this continued. The thing that really stood out to me was the way Willow took care of that baggering fan. It was either that or the Harlan Ellison way of dealing with overzealous fans, but Willow took the cuter and smarter option. :) Great story, can't wait for the update.
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Re: A Bet

Postby taralicious » Wed Apr 18, 2007 5:31 pm

Tara, as we all know and love, is filled to the brim with not only girlish glee but also integrity, honor, and nobility.
She is aware that she and Willow's union can not be denied even by the Gods themselves.
Now, all she needs to do is be convincing on the mortal level and assure Willow that her heart will be protected and loved.
Willow has the same idea as she is poised at Tara's door bearing roses...
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Re: A Bet

Postby amberholic » Fri Apr 20, 2007 2:49 am

Dianneswillowtree
I am so lovin this update it shows us Tara's honor


Hey there Diane, you're right about it, that update was meant to show Tara's honor, when she is refusing with her mind and heart to build a relationship with the redhead on the basis of a bet...And that promise she said to the hacker in her head was honest and truthfull...We will see what the future will bring for them...understanding or missunderstandings....and will they be capable to fight their own fears?....Well I hope you will enjoy the next update and I look forward for ur comments...I really appreciate it...


Useful_Oxymoron

Ah, a bet fic! And a pretty good and cute one at that. I'd love to see how this continued.


Thanks Useful_oxymoron for taking the time to read my story, and for ur sweet words to encourage me for more updates...I hope u will like the upcoming installements...


taralicious

Tara, as we all know and love, is filled to the brim with not only girlish glee but also integrity, honor, and nobility.
She is aware that she and Willow's union can not be denied even by the Gods themselves.
Now, all she needs to do is be convincing on the mortal level and assure Willow that her heart will be protected and loved.
Willow has the same idea as she is poised at Tara's door bearing roses...


Well said here Taralicious, you covered Tara's personnaility so well...I cant but agree with u...
Thanks for your comments Taralicious....They do encourage me to post more update

i wanna thank all the members reading my story,hope u will enjoy this update...
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Previously

Tara opened the door only to find a bunch of white roses in which there was a lonely red rose held by someone in front of her door. The mysterious person's face was behind the bouquet and the actress was really getting curious to know who is this person.

Slowly a redhead appeared from behind the bouquet, her face glowing with happiness." Hello " was the only word that the blonde goddess heard from her newfound love.
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Chap 10

" Hey willow " answered Tara under her breath completely astound and estatic to be greeted in the morning by her gorgeous redhead " Will...you look so beautiful...are these roses for me? "
" Well, let's see...I am supposed to meet Tara Maclay and go out with her...wait you are Tara...of course they are for you unless I wrongly heard that I will be going out with you today ... or..." the redhead was beginning her rambling but it was soon cut off when she felt Tara's warm lips on her cheek.
" Thanks sweetie... they are so beautiful...especially the red one " the blonde smiled at the hacker taking her by her hand " Sweetie ...as you can see i am not errrr...well not dressed yet...kinda overslept...can you wait me to take a quick shower? "

" Yes..I'll wait for you...take your time " answered the redhead smiling at Tara.
" Can you get any sweeter? " gazed the blonde deeply into Willow's green eyes searching the beauty of her inner soul...
"Thanks I try..." replied willow not knowing where to look at.
" Hey.. " the blonde picked the red rose and gave it to hacker " For you...is that okay? "
" Yes...thanks... it is beautiful " the couple stood looking adoringly into each other eyes.

They weren't aware for how long they stayed like this mesmerized in their places until the redhead broke the silence " mm...Tara...your shower.."
" Oh..yes...of course...I am going sweetie...make yourself confortable..." She quickly left willow who took few steps towards the couch.
There she sat thinking and thinking about Tara waiting anxiously for her to appear again by her side.

Few minutes later...............

" Hey sweetie, are you tired? " asked the blonde approaching willow on the couch.
" um well...you see..I..." the redhead was rambling heavily, after all her crush was only few inches away from her wearing only her silk bathroom robe. She looked totally hot and sexy...the light material clinging to her wet body showing her curves left nothing to the imagination of the
hacker...and why she would close her eyes to let her mind wander about the blonde's body when the breathtaking goddess is actually sitting now by her side.

" What willow tell me..." Tara looked in the eyes of the redhead deeply waiting anxiously to hear the sweet melody of her lover's voice.
" I...I..." Willow was trying to answer when she felt tara's warm lips on hers moving slowly. They were so soft and tasty.

Encouraged by the blonde's moans the hacker closed her eyes surrendering under the influence of the hot stream of hot kisses given by her lover.
" baby...i love you so much that it hurts..." pulling away silghtly Tara took the redhead's hand and put it over her chest where her heart is supposed to be " See what you are doing to me...see how fast my heart is beating...see how much i love you..." raising her head slowly the hacker kissed Tara's heart repeatedly
" My love..." were the two words that the redhead could muster before bursting into tears.
" Yes I am your love...yours..all yours..don't cry baby..I am here my love...by your side...will never leave you...your tears are so precious to me...don't wanna see them streaming down your beautiful face..." leaning closer the blonde kissed her lover's tears away " I love you ..." she kissed again Willow's forehead " Will..you are beautiful...so beautiful...just looking at your face I realize every time why I am so in love with you..." kissing Willow's lips softly, the blonde's goddess smiled at her love " Do you realize how gorgeous your eyes are...your wondeful emerald orbs...just looking at them I feel the warmth of your heart...so pure... so clean...so angelic...so much love but so much fear... baby i will never hurt you...not me...they are the windows to your soul...to your wonderful soul...my everything you are to me like a white rose...a very tender and soft one..I'll be your shield against storms and wind...I'll water you everyday with my insatibale love for you...Baby...mmmmm...."

Willow couldn't take it anymore...all these words were making her weak as well as powerful; weak in front of the strength of Tara's love and powerful to feel so loved after a long time of pain and betrayal. The actress words of love were so intoxicating...how could they not be when Tara was pouring out her heart to the love of her life...Magical soft words touching the inner soul of any person.
Willow was trying so hard to believe what she was actually hearing...she is loved!!! And by who?? by Tara...the famous actress and the beautiful blonde goddess..{i].' breathe Will...just breathe...'[/i] these were the only words crossing her mind at the blonde's confession but it was totally blank...she couldn't think straight all she wanted to do was kissing Tara senselessly .

Leaning closer she grabbed the blonde's face between her hands stroking her cheeks and listenning to her words ' she is calling me her baby...her life...i like her...like her!!! Are you crazy or out of your mind...you like her !!! Why don't you admit it?!... When you are with her everything seems to stop moving...everything stay still and you just hear her heartbeating and breathing...how can you say like her when you daydream about her smile...when all you want is to hear her calling your name.. like her !!! no ....I love her ...Love???...yes love her...admit it for once in your life... yes I love her...i love you Tara Maclay...I love you so much..oh Baby..my baby...'

"I love you..." numbled the redhead before cutting off Tara's words capturing her lips in a searing kiss.
Caught in the heat of their kisses they didn't realize that they were clinging to each other like dear life kissing passionately.
" Do you believe that I love you? " Tara pulled away looking at willow with questionning eyes. The hacker looked at her smiling nodding her head uttering these two simple words." show me "

The actress didn't need to hear more before taking willow's lips betwen hers.Completely intoxicated by the softness of the hacker's lips and by her own intense arousal the blonde pushed her toungue inside willow's mouth, trembling with excitment as her love opened her mouth to receive it.
The hacker's hands began exploring the Tara's back playing with her silk bathroom robe " oh, baby..." Tara numbled under her breath, breaking their kiss " i want you to make me yours..all yours...I only want to be touched by you...I want you so much, I have never ever wanted someone more like i wan..." the redhead interrupted the flow of words, kissing her love with ggreat passion and hunger..

" I love you Tara Maclay...I really do...i want you badly baby..." the tone of want and desire in willow's voice sent shivers through Tara's body. they were living in an atmosphere heavy with romance in which the actress inhibitions were peeled away layer by layer as her temperature was slowly rising...all she needed at that moment was simply the touch of her lover to send her into a complete and estatic oblivion.
Gazing lovingky in the eyes of her new found love Willow took Tara's hands to stand up then she reached up and slid the blonde's robe from her shoulders...down her arms...and onto the floor... " Beautiful...so beautiful..." she murmured before tracing her lover's body with the tip of her fingers...so softy..so gently...caressing her face...her lips...her neck...her collarbone...her breasts....
Tara closed her eyes shaking uncontrollably under the sweet touch of her love..."Baby...Will...Kiss me...Willow...Kiss me...Willow...Willow[i]..."

"Willow wake up sweetie...you slept on the couch..." Tara slightly nudged the sleeping beauty.
" I...Oh...dear god...I slept...and I dreamed...Um...oh..." Willow numbled blushing heavily when she remembered her dream.
" You dreamed ? " Asked the blonde curiously looking at the red face of Willow.
" U...well..yes...you see we dream when we sleep...so i slept and yes I dreamed...dreaming..oh ...yes...and ...and don't ask me what it was about cause i really don't remember any detail...no...no..i mean yes i can't remember..." the redhead was looking everywhere but at Tara.

" You okay sweetie? " asked a very concerned blonde at the rambling of her love " I mean if you are not... we can go out another day...you are obviously very tired and need some rest..."
" No i am fine and we are so going..." answered quickly willow who opened widely her eyes " see ...look at me I am fully awake and energetic and ready to have fun..."
"Okay...we are so going " laughed the blonde hearing the hacker's eagerness.

DING DONG

" Oh...I'll get the door..I won't be late..." leaned Tara closer to the hacker and gave her a quick kiss on her cheek before leaving.
[i]' Wow..just wow..did she just kiss me...of course she kissed me..cause..well..I was talking with her ...so i am not dreaming...no I am awake ... and dear..look what she is wearing ...her blue silk robe...Oh my god!! the same robe of my dream!!! Oh willow...does this mean my dream will come true...oh come on.. she won't be sleeping with you from the first date...who said date...I mean we are only friends...god Willow stop the damn babbling... you must look like an idiot now..and..."

"Willow... sweetie... I want you to meet my publicity advisor..." Tara interrupted the crazy train of thoughts that has been going in willow's busy mind.
" ummm...sure..of course .. anything for you..." smiled the redhead standing up to meet the actress guest. ' oh God...no....it can't be...Why me!!!...no...no...'
" Tanya!!!!!!!" exclaimed the hacker her face growing pale.
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TBC
P.S : The next update will be ready after 2 weeks...

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Re: A Bet

Postby musicmad10 » Fri Apr 20, 2007 11:19 am

That was just mean leaving it like that lol!! :smash Please please update soon, you have me hooked for sure :party
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Re: A Bet

Postby taralicious » Sat Apr 21, 2007 11:55 pm

God...no....it can't be...Why me!!!...no...no...'
" Tanya!!!!!!!" exclaimed the hacker her face growing pale.

DUN, DUN, DUN...cue that discordant note from "Law and Order."
Just when we think we have all the answers, you change all the questions.
Tenacious and ornery cuss that Tanya is, she had quite the trump card to play, didn't she?
Willow hopefully can make Tara see that no publicity would be preferable to publicity engineered by such a one as Tanya.
Damn her and her meddling ways for interrupting Willow and Tara smoochies.
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Re: A Bet

Postby racch234 » Sun Apr 22, 2007 5:27 am

damn you and your dreams amber lol
i have read this whole story from start to finish the first word that comes is WOW. you have such an amazing way of writing that i just get absord totally into the characters. some i can identify with some i feel for and some i can imagine. i love how the characters are developing and changing. just when you think you have them sussed out they change in the slightest way to make you look at them differently
and the ending at chp10 well my jaw kinda hit the floor.
you meanie to leave it there lol
keep it up amber you have an amazing talent!
i am waiting eagerly for the update just frustrated that i must wait but hey im sure its worth it
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