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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Reallybigpineapple » Sat Jul 23, 2005 6:45 am

Hi!
Sorry to be so late with the feedback for this excellent story!
I'm just a big old historic fics ho', so I love your story more than I can say! It's right up there in my top three with Green Eyed Red and the Rosenberg Institute. The characters all fit so so well into the positions they have been placed and their actions are all very credible. Well, I have a soft spot for Oz, so here's hoping he doesn't get into too much trouble. I'm very chuffed that Anya has such a large part, since I luuurve her... I thought the scene where William told Buffy she was beneath him was very funny...
The image of Tara in a turn of the last century outfit is just a joy forever...
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A huge bonus is also that it's so well written. Of course you're not Edith Warton. You're much more entertaining that that!
Be well and much forward-looking to updatey greatness!
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Thu Oct 27, 2005 3:27 pm

First, feedback replies and then a new chapter…

All: So sorry about the extended hiatus! Not only was I working on the campaign about 15 hours a day, 7 days a week since late July, but my laptop was stolen and I had to start the latest chapter from scratch. Well, the primary is over, and we won! It was exhausting and intense, but extremely rewarding. I did very well delivering votes for my candidate in the East Village, Battery Park City, the Financial District, TriBeCa, SoHo, Chinatown, and the Lower East Side. The dynamic of the New York is even more fascinating to me than when I began this story, and I’m glad to be back.

Artemis: Chris, thank you! It was a tough chapter to compose, and I’m glad the pay-off was worthwhile. I hope I am able to maintain the tension. The Flashman novels sound fascinating, and definitely something a history nerd such as myself would dig, and I’m honored by the comparison. Hope you enjoy what I have in store.

Maccoda: It really means a lot that the story has resonated with somebody so deeply. Myself, I also had relatives come over from Ireland during this same time period and I’ve been living in New York for the last six years, though my great-grandfathers were the last of the cap/bar-owner line, so in many ways I’m also telling my own family history. Thank you so much, and I hope you continue to enjoy the story!

sam7777: I wasn’t sure how people to take to Willow cross-dressing, so I’m glad you enjoyed it. Tara’s path will not be easy, and I have a feeling you won’t like her family anytime soon, but it will hopefully be interesting. Thanks for reading.

the hero factor: Thank you! I worked hard developing this story, and it is the ultimate reward that readers like you notice the details and enjoy it. Hope to have more regular chapters in the future.

watson: Watson, I’m not feeling very snarky at the moment, so I’m genuinely flattered by your awesome feedback. You’ve certainly picked up on the tension I tried to create, and I’m so glad I could write it effectively. As for throwing you a bone, I think you will be happy with the ending for chapter below.

fun in dysfuntion: My wonderful beta, thank you! Your opinion really matters to me, and I do thank you for your kind words. I needn’t tell you about how hard it is to write this tale, and doing it well is the most important thing to me.

cooper: So glad you enjoyed! I do try hard to build intrigue and capture people’s interest, and it’s good to know it worked. I hope you enjoy the forthcoming chapter!

Reallybigpineapple
: I love all feedback, whenever it is given, so thanks! You’ve compared mine to some excellent stories, and I’m flattered. I think you’ll like the directions I take with the different characters, and I assure you that each one has a detailed story arch. And… a more entertaining Edith Wharton? Um, whoa? Hopefully updates will come more frequently now that I am out of primary hell!


Title: Huddled Masses
Author: ringwaldoeuvre (Mary)
Disclaimer: “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” and “Angel” are the property of Mutant Enemy, 20th Century Fox, the WB, etc. Any similarity to any book or movie about old New York is purely coincidental.
Rating: R (For violence, abuse, sexuality; will reach NC-17 eventually)
Pairing: W/T, A/X
Summary: AU. Two women meet through the vice-filled nightlife of New York City, 1884. Amid a tableau of cultural diversity and exploitation, they fall in love and face the odds.
Feedback: Is awesome. You can leave it here or reach me at ringwaldoeuvre@yahoo.com. I am not Edith Wharton, nor do I pretend to be.
Notes: This is un-betad, or however the word is spelled, so all mistakes are mine. And sorry for the delay! I promise I won’t let the Democratic Party interfere with my story again. At least, until 2006, that is.

***Chapter 5: Expectations***

Ira Rosenberg’s voice echoed off the apartment walls, “Willow, have you completed your essay for Radcliffe?”

Willow moved her eyes to her door and answered, “Almost, Dad! Just give me a few more minutes!”

“Well, be sure to bring me the essay before you go to bed tonight. I’ll be in my study,” she heard through the door. The redhead turned her head back to the sheet before her, and tried to focus.

In truth, she had barely been able to concentrate on the assignment. She could not stop thinking about seeing Tara the previous weekend, and the chance that she would be seeing her again very soon. There was something so captivating about the blonde, she could not define or contain her feelings.

The blank lines of the page stared back at her, daring her to describe Tara. She thought of the way Tara’s hand burned her leg at the club, the way her eyes danced in the light, and the way the her laugh was full of life. She was drawn to the girl, that much was true, and she could not fight the desire to return the touch from Tara’s hand.

Willow rubbed her eyes and looked out the window to the stars above. She thought she could glimpse a moment alone with Tara, but her father’s shuffling outside brought her back to the task at hand. She applied the tip of her pencil to the paper and began to write.

***

Tara pulled the dress over her head and smoothed the material down her side. She glanced at herself in the mirror one last time, though she did not know the reason. She did not really care how she appeared before Richard, and she only applied make-up to please her father. Resigned to the evening before her, she stepped out into the hall and made her way to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

“Tara? Richard will be here soon!” The sound of her father’s voice caused her to speed up her pace. She scurried into the kitchen and began cutting potatoes. He stood up and stated evenly, “And remember, you are not to mention your recent employment at Harry Hill’s. He’s an important man, and you’ll not be married until Donnie returns anyway, but we need a little bit of insurance. I trust that you will be on your best behavior this evening.”

Tara nodded as he turned to leave the kitchen, “Y-yes, s-sir. I’ll just get on with the dinner, then.”

After putting the roast into the oven and bringing a pot of water and potatoes to a boil, Tara released a gentle sigh. Her eye caught a stain on the wall and she began to stare. Her mind wandered to the redheaded girl and her gentle nature and innocence. Tara knew girls that worked the streets and lived with other women. She knew they had no desire to associate with men outside their profession. She knew about Walhalla Hall and the Slide, and the things that happened there. She thought how wonderful it would be to take Willow out, how attractive she appeared in those slacks, and she remembered how soft she felt. Her shame at her treatment of Willow was eclipsed by her appreciation of the girl’s attributes. ‘An appreciation I hope to explore,’ she thought before the ring of the doorbell sounded.

The blonde heard the creak of the door and her father’s greeting, “Well hello, Richard. Glad you could make it! This is Frank, his wife Esther and their daughter, Lilah. Come into the parlor and have a drink. Whiskey okay?”

She ducked her head and listened as Richard returned the greeting, “Hello, John. Pleasure to meet you all. Thanks for the invitation, and whiskey would be just dandy. And where is your lovely daughter?”

Tara cringed as the answer came from Frank, “In the kitchen. Lilah, dear, why don’t you join her and see if she needs any help.”

“Sure thing, Daddy,” Lilah responded through her teeth.

The night dragged for Tara. Her father’s stern gaze, Richard’s leering looks, and Lilah’s satisfied smirk were each a punch in the stomach. For the first time ever, she wished she were working in the factory or even Harry Hill’s. Her thoughts drifted to singing at the Haymarket, and the escape those nights provided.

***

Willow changed her dress for the third time. She felt strangely uncomfortable going to see Tara without a suit, but she was glad to have the company of Buffy and Daniel, and she knew that she would not have a reenactment of what happened at Harry Hill’s, ‘Although parts of that weren’t so bad…’

As she walked toward Buffy’s block on Daniel’s arm, she barely noticed the clatter of the crowds that passed or the stench that rose from the street. She suddenly heard Buffy’s voice and realized they were entering the theater, and the three teens made their way to the balcony of the Haymarket Dance Hall. Willow placed her handbag down and noticed Daniel wave to a tall, dark-haired gentleman across the way.

“Who is that?” Willow inquired as he started to walk towards them.

“Liam O’Shaughnessy,” Daniel calmly replied.

Buffy interjected, “Wait, isn’t he involved in Tam- er, politics?”

“We work together sometimes,” the boy answered, keeping his composure.

Liam announced himself, “Hello Daniel, and who are these lovely ladies with you?”

“This is Willow and Buffy, boss.” Daniel motioned to each girl, and he noticed a spark in Liam’s eye as he took in Buffy’s appearance.

“Very pleased to meet you. My name is Liam O’Shaughnessy. Would you care to join me at my table across the balcony? The waitress was about to bring over a bottle of wine,” the dark Irishman offered.

Daniel nodded neutrally while Buffy eagerly hopped to her feet. Willow followed suit, and the three teens soon found themselves seated around a table over-looking the crowd. The redhead had forgotten the odor of the packed audience, spilled beer, and cigarette smoke. She looked to the stage and recognized the girl from the park, Anya, dancing in a line with nine other girls. She turned her attention back to her friends, and the conversation with Liam.

“I’ve been considering getting into the theatre business,” the man said. “Young Daniel here mentioned his evenings out, though this isn’t quite as nice as the Cairo or the Bohemia. Still, people seem to like it, and it does attract quite a crowd. What do you think, Buffy? Do you like it here?”

Buffy blushed and answered, “Yes, of course this is only my second visit. I would love to see more of it.”

Liam smiled, “Well then, I don’t see any reason why I shouldn’t make an appointment with the manager after the show, and you can come by anytime you want. Maybe I’ll put Danny in charge, and you can see any show you like, free of charge. What do you say, boy, want to get into show business?”

“Why not,” Daniel responded blankly.

Buffy and Liam continued their conversation while Willow sharply turned to her friend, “Daniel, is this really what you want? You could still come back to school, you’re smart enough to do whatever you want, and this isn’t for you.”

“Could be,” he tersely replied.

Willow creased her brow and tried to explore the boy’s face amid a sudden burst of applause. As the crowd ceased clapping, her thoughts were interrupted by the announcement, “Ladies and Gentlemen, here’s the woman you’ve been dying to see. We’ve certainly missed her here at the Haymarket, so put your hands together for her return and make her feel welcome. Tara, the Irish Rose!”

Willow froze as the familiar figure strode onstage. Daniel, Buffy, and Liam all turned their eyes to the stage as the audience fell quiet. The redhead was silently grateful that her friends were captivated and she stared, comfortable in the knowledge that all eyes were on the beautiful blonde.

Tara’s blue eyes searched the audience and she began “South Fifth Avenue.” As they lifted to the balcony, she shuddered when she glimpsed the sweet smile that haunted her dreams. Willow was perched up high, eagerly drinking in every note that came from her throat and every gleam in her eye as she stared back at the redhead. She dared to hope that Willow would fulfill her promise and come backstage afterwards. ‘Just keep it innocent,’ she reminded herself, ‘or you’ll scare her away.’ She forced herself to look away as a blush crept up her face.

Willow’s disappointment at losing eye contact turned to anxiety. She trembled to think about being alone with Tara, and she only hoped that she would not embarrass herself. ‘Oh god,’ she thought, ‘should I still go backstage? What if Tara was just being nice? Or what if I don’t, and she thinks I hate her? I’ll do it, I will. I just have to figure out how to get away from Buffy and Daniel.’

She tore her eyes from Tara and glanced at her companions. She caught Liam’s eyes dance between the stage and Buffy’s face, and she realized that Liam was the key. She had to make sure he entertained her friends while she excused herself, and she was confident that he would take care of Buffy, and Daniel would feel the need to be close at hand. Content with her plan, she happily returned her attention to the gorgeous girl that seemed to be nearing the end of her song. Willow could not decide if she preferred watching Tara like this, from a distance, or backstage, up close. Before she could decide, she made eye contact with Tara again, and her breath caught in her throat. ‘Oh yes, I definitely must go backstage.’

The last of Tara’s notes floated through Willow’s ears and the redhead closed her eyes, savoring the moment. The crowd clapped and hollered, and the image of Tara’s glorious pose remained. Willow opened her eyes and the girl was gone.

The redhead was sobered by the laughter of her friends. Liam had managed to move his chair closer to Buffy, and Daniel was occupied by one of Liam’s sidekicks. ‘Now is the time… and my eyes miss Tara,’ Willow thought.

“Hey guys, I’ll be back,” she announced. Daniel nodded, and Buffy did not seem to hear her. She quickly stood and moved to the main level of the theater. The last act of the evening was announced as she wove through the crowd and moved down the stairs.

***

Willow paused and let her knuckles fall on the door. She heard a figure approach from behind the door, and stood up straight as the footsteps grew louder.

“Can I help you?” A matronly woman answered the door.

The redhead swallowed her anxiety and ventured, “Uh… is Tara here?”

A familiar flash of blonde hair comforted the redhead as Tara came into view and said, “Come in, please, Willow. Thank you, Maggie. You can go.”

The large woman allowed Willow entrance to the dressing room. The redhead closed the door and took in her surroundings. Shoes and frocks were draped across the entire room, and it was clear that the room had seen many performers come and go through the night.

“I’m the last to leave. Someone will be around in a while to lock up, but we’re alone,” Tara said when she noticed the anxious demeanor on the redhead. She cleared a chair and offered, “Have a seat while I remove my make-up.”

Willow nodded, smiled, and sat in the chair. She could not help but notice the graceful manner with which Tara cleaned her face. The blonde carefully, but quickly, wiped the color from her complexion while stealing glances at Willow in her mirror. She inquired, “Did you enjoy the performance, Willow?”

“Oh, absolutely! Your voice was beautiful, as always, and that dress is just… stunning on you. I think I could watch you every day of the week, but that might interfere with my schooling,” Willow eagerly replied.

Tara demurely cast her eyes to her hair when the redhead caught her eyes reflection, and continued with the business of disrobing. She could not deny that Willow looked particularly pretty this evening. Her make-up removed and her hair down, Tara reached around to unclasp her dress. She struggled and sighed. She reached around once more and hesitated. The blonde knew what she had to do, and her feelings were a mix of anxiety and anticipation. She slowly stood and asked, “Willow, will you help me out of this dress?”

The redhead thought her head was in the clouds. She did not even realize she had walked closer to Tara. She registered that her hands had moved to the buttons at the back Tara’s dress and heard a loud release of breath. Her fingers shook at first as her fingers brushed Tara’s bare back, and she struggled to push the buttons through their loops. When she reached the bottom, the sight of Tara’s skin was overwhelming. She took a step back, shook her head, and stammered, “Good enough?”

Tara spun around and inquired, “Is something wrong, Willow?”

“No, no… everything’s right, and I don’t understand it.”

The blonde crinkled her brow, suppressed the panic in her gut, and reached out, “Willow, did I do something?” Her left hand reached the redhead’s shoulder and her other hand cupped the girl’s chin, “What’s wrong?”

Willow tightened her lips before answering, “Nothing’s wrong, and that’s what’s wrong.”

“You lost me,” Tara replied with a nervous smile.

“It’s just, I like being here with you, and I don’t really understand it, and things keep getting harder. And I’m supposed to go to college! Not that things aren’t hard for you, but you’re so beautiful and I had so looked forward to coming here and now I’ve ruined it by talking too much,” the redhead finished with pursed lips.

“You haven’t ruined a thing, Willow. A-and I looked forward to seeing you, too. It seems life is hard on both of us lately, as my father is pressuring me to marry soon.”

Willow’s eyes widened, “What? But… he can’t! This is America, and you should be able to be with whomever you want to be with, and you’re better than that, and does that mean that I couldn’t watch you sing anymore? Because I love to see you, and I keep talking way too much.” The girl blushed, realizing she had broached a topic that could ruin her burgeoning relationship with Tara.

“I appreciate the righteous indignation, Willow, but there’s little I can do to stop it,” Tara replied with a sigh. She caught the fierce look of compassion on Willow’s face and tore her eyes away.

“But you should be happy. You deserve to be happy,” Willow declared before moving closer to Tara. She extended her hand to the blonde’s shoulder and trembled at the other girl’s warmth. She moved her hand down Tara’s arm and began to stroke her soft skin; she couldn’t believe how wonderful it was to feel the girl. Tara closed her eyes and bit her bottom lip, and Willow thought the girl was the most beautiful vision in the entire world.

“Willow, I… I can’t do this,” Tara shivered and pulled away.

“Handle what, Tara? Ugh, I’m sorry, it’s all my fault. I should never have come and upset you, and I shouldn’t have touched you and I knew that this was going to happen. I’ll go,” Willow blurted and moved to the door.

“Willow, stop. I can’t do this because-”

“Don’t worry, I know the way out,” Willow responded over her shoulder.

“Willow!” Tara grabbed the redhead’s hand, spun her around, and stared into her eyes, “I can’t hand this because it’s confusing. I do want to be near you, to touch you, to… to k-kiss you. And maybe you should go, because it’s wrong, but life feels so perfect when you’re around, and I would not be able to stop myself if you kept touching me.”

Willow’s green eyes shone brightly. Her chest swelled as she took a deep breath. She gulped and closed the distance between them, “I’ve never kissed anyone, myself. I, uh, sure would like to know what it’s like.”

Tara grabbed the girl’s face and quickly brought her mouth to Willow’s lips. Willow wrapped her arms around the blonde and leaned into the kiss. The sensation of Tara’s lips and feel of her hand along Tara’s bare back made her head spin. She was dimly aware that Tara had opened her mouth and let her tongue slip out, and as she mirrored the blonde’s motion, she smiled into the kiss.

Willow realized that Tara had removed her hands from her face, and she felt disappointed until they were placed squarely on her hips and she felt a gentle pressure pushing her towards the wall. When her back hit the wall and Tara deepened the kiss, Willow thought she was floating on a cloud. Tara seemed to lift her up, and she wrapped her arms around Tara’s neck and held on as tight as she could.

Tara moaned when she felt Willow’s grip. She could not stop her hand from clawing at the top of the girl’s dress. She abruptly paused when she realized they were did not have complete privacy; there was a possibility that someone could walk in at any moment. The blonde gently pushed Willow away, and they gasped for air.

The darkness of Willow’s green eyes were impossible to ignore, but Tara inserted, “We can’t get carried away here, someone could walk in.”

“But I thought you were the last one to use the room for the night?”

“I am, but the door’s not locked and we can’t stay here all night,” Tara responded.

Willow grinned, “I wouldn’t have much of a problem with that scenario.”

“You have parents, and friends, I presume? You certainly aren’t, um, dressed like you came alone,” Tara sheepishly stated while her hand stroked the redhead’s cheek.

The redhead rolled her eyes and knew the other girl was correct. She had been away for a long time, and Daniel and Buffy would certainly start to wonder what had happened to her. She stroked Tara’s hair and replied, “No, I came with my friends, but I only wanted to see you. I didn’t want to break my word.”

“I’m glad you didn’t. I w-was worried I’d never see you again, after l-last time. It was so awful.”

“Certain parts weren’t so bad. In fact, I’d love to revisit some moments,” the redhead replied, leaning closer to the blonde.

Tara drew in a quick breath and closed her eyes, once again reveling in the feeling of Willow’s lips on her own. She could not deny another embrace from the slim girl, and just as she moved a hand to the back of Willow’s dress a knock sounded at the door.

“Tara! We need an encore! The house is still packed and half the performers have left for the night!”

Tara groaned as Willow pushed away, and she noted that the girl was torn between frustration and fear. She smoothed one hand down Willow’s arm, put her arm across her chest and opened the door, “Do I have to, Mike? I’ve already removed my make-up.”

The man reddened as he took in the flushed appearance of the blonde. He stuttered, “The crowd ain’t goin’ anywhere, and the manager is too busy talking to some suit to get them out. Can’t you help?”

Tara grimaced and replied, “Give me five minutes.”

She closed the door and turned to Willow, “I’m really so sorry. This occasionally happens, I just wish it weren’t happening tonight. Can I see you again sometime… please?”

Willow was frustrated at first, since she was fairly certain about the identity of the “suit,” yet soon felt more excited that Tara wanted to see her again. Her frown became a grin, and she wrapped her arms around the taller girl and spun her around, “Of course! I don’t know when I’ll be free again, but the first chance I get I’ll,” she paused, “um, how should I contact you?”

Tara smiled, turned to a table, and scribbled on a piece of paper, “This is my address. You can write to me, but don’t visit. My f-father, he doesn’t like strangers. And I’ll be here again next Friday. Just tell me I’ll see you again, please?”

The blonde was answered with a gentle kiss. She reached for one last embrace before the other girl smiled and left her alone to dress.

Willow skipped along and climbed the stairs, returning to the balcony just as Tara began her song. Though the audience was packed, she felt like the only person in the room.

***End of Chapter 5***
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby watty » Thu Oct 27, 2005 5:48 pm

Welcome back! And in good form with a great update. Of course with the kiss, but much more. I'm happy that they both thought about what their short time spent together previously meant to them, and how quickly they came to accept that they do have feelings toward each other. No hand-wringing, sweaty-palms angsty uncertainties. It's like they know, even though these must be unfamilliar feelings.

You've included so many subtle hints and details of the type of obstacles that will come their way. Ira will not approve. John Maclay will be incensed. Buffy will not understand. Daniel will react badly. The new character in Willow's circle, this Liam, he'll try to exploit it. I sense only Anya and Xander will support them. The outlook is not good, I hope they can overcome these.

Back to the scene in the dressing room, and Tara
knew what she had to do, and her feelings were a mix of anxiety and anticipation. She slowly stood and asked, “Willow, will you help me out of this dress?”

Tara the Irish Rose Seducer! She is a vixen. :lol

The kiss. Sigh. Oh so sweet. And the small confusion leading up to it, but no awkwardness. It's so cleanly done, thanks for not dragging it out. I love it. And I love it more knowing they will see each other, there will be more.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby histchic » Thu Oct 27, 2005 6:17 pm

I was this close to my first dibs! Stupid power button. Anyway, just wanted to let you know you aren't the only history nerd out there. I LOVE this fic, the history, the New York references, little nuances like Tara's surname keeping her in certain professions. Totally bowled over by Tara's dad trying to hitch her up with the Mayor*coughreallybigsnakecough*(I just got done watching Graduation again) No Faith? But an almost Spike and Buffy hookup, and him ditching her for her social position, nice reversal of canon. And praise your Muses for not dragging out "does she feel the same way"!! :bounce :bounce :bounce

I'm drooling over all the history and Willow/Tara goodness so I'll be ready and waiting for the next update soon?(hint hint hint)

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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby the hero factor » Sun Oct 30, 2005 6:55 pm

An update, yay!

Well, Lilah's kinda a bitch, huh? And not in that fun, pain in Angel's ass way that she was in canon. Stupid Lilah. Of course, Tara's father isn't pleasant either, wanting her to marry Wilkins. Poor Tara.

But the part with her and Willow together was lovely. The first kiss. *sigh* I can't wait for them to see each other again.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Artemis » Mon Oct 31, 2005 7:36 am

Y'know, it occurs to me that, if Tara weren't so sweet, and head-over-heels with Willow and Willow alone, she could go through the sapphically-inclined women of New York City like a female Casanova. "Will you help me out of this dress?" Mmm, yes ma'am :x But of course, it is just Willow who gets to be the object of Tara's (probably mostly-unintentional, in the sexy sense) seduction, and I really liked how they both stuttered and umed-and-ahed and had to wrestle with their words to say what they wanted to say.

Liam's got me worried - there's a guy with his mind on big plans, and big plans have a habit of grinding little people beneath them. Daniel, too, has me worried, in the way that he doesn't seem especially interested in anything much. He has an idea of what he wants, but beyond that, it's all the same to him. I wonder just how much of the consequences of his association with Liam he'd be willing to just shrug and ignore.

Mr Maclay, as is so often the case, needs a good kicking. Willow may be speaking out of semi-naivete, but she's right: Tara deserves to be happy, not used as a resource to secure someone's else's happiness.

It's great to have you and your huddled masses back :bow
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby sam7777 » Mon Oct 31, 2005 11:35 am

Expectations is a great title for this chapter. At this point both Willow and Tara know they are interested. The tension between them is palpable. Now they just need more opportunities and impediments no doubt. I like the details of the period with Liam's Tamany hall machinations. Oz is getting in depp and he will be losing more than Willow (who's already lost ;) ). And poor Tara is looking at a shut gun wedding. Nice update!
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby tarebear » Tue Nov 01, 2005 4:47 am

:wave hiya!

i just got a wind of your story through the sticky update and when i began reading, i was just so bowled over by how much i'm beginning to love the story you've created for us... and by the end of chapter 5, i was just absolutely in love with this story!... it gave me a glimpse of new york city as it was... it was amazing... it was so vividly written that it wasn't a stretch of my imagination to see the sights and sounds as if actually being there... buffy wanting more to marry for money so that her family may have a better future rather than marrying for love, anya and xander doing back-breaking work day in and day out for their dream house, oz's nonchalance about everything that's really going on (there but not really), willow wanting to please her parents and make them proud of her and yet still longing to know what's out there in the real world being sheltered most of her life, and tara dreaming of a chance to concentrate on singing without the deathgrip her father seems to have in her life.

bravo! :bow :bow :bow i'm beginning to love reading period pieces more and more.

can't wait to find the next chapter! soon please! :bounce :bounce :bounce :bounce


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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Sun Nov 06, 2005 10:36 pm

watson: It’s good to be back! I felt a little rusty at first, so I am glad to see that you liked the chapter. I admit the kiss scene was extremely difficult to write. It was a tough process because this is only my second story, and my second “first kiss.” I wasn’t sure about the pacing, and tried to make it seem that Tara knew it was possible to be with another girl because of her exposure to “vice,” while Willow didn’t exactly understand her attraction, yet could not resist Tara’s advances. I can neither confirm nor deny your speculations, because that would be cheating, but I hope you like where I take the story. Thanks for the feedback!

histchic: Another history nerd! I am not sure about your area of expertise, so I hope this story feels accurate. Let me know if I am way off the mark with my presentation of NYC in the 1880s. Glad you like my interpretation of canon, and the pacing of the W/T kiss, though, not to give anything away, their path will certainly not be made any easier by being so self-aware. I’ve already got the next chapter started, and hope to have it up as soon as possible. Thanks!

the hero factor: So glad to see someone else who appreciates Lilah’s deliciously bitchy attitude on “Angel.” I do love Stephanie Romanov. Glad you liked the chapter. Hope to have more soon.

Artemis: Thanks, Chris. Perhaps I’ll write an AU Huddled Masses, just for you, in which Tara breaks the hearts up and down the island of Manhattan like it was going out of style. Or not, we’ll see what my schedule allows. W/T’s interaction with Liam will be a bit complex, as will their relationship with Daniel. I just hope it’s still compelling to the reader. As always, I appreciate your wonderful feedback. Glad to be back.

sam7777: Thanks for noticing the title. I do put some thought into each chapter title, and it’s great to have it noticed. It was meant to indicate the mounting pressure on all the characters, in their individual ways. I am so glad the tension between W/T was palpable, considering that was exactly what I hoped to achieve. Hope to have more soon. Thanks!

tarebear: Hello, and thanks for the feedback! It is always nice to see new readers that like my stories. I am so glad I was able to make NYC seem real to the reader. Period pieces can be very engrossing, but they are hard to write. I hope to have more soon. Again, thanks for your kind words!

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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Boadecia » Mon Nov 07, 2005 12:13 am

i love this fic and i cant wait for the next installment! keep up the good work :)
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Sun Jan 08, 2006 11:41 pm

Boadecia: Thanks! Though I’ve had a bit of writer’s block, I hope you like the next installment. I love writing this story, and plan to continue.


Title: Huddled Masses
Author: ringwaldoeuvre (Mary)
Disclaimer: “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” and “Angel” are the property of Mutant Enemy, 20th Century Fox, the WB, etc. Any similarity to any book or movie about old New York is purely coincidental.
Rating: R (For violence, abuse, sexuality; will reach NC-17 eventually)
Pairing: W/T, A/X
Summary: AU. Two women meet through the vice-filled nightlife of New York City, 1884. Amid a tableau of cultural diversity and exploitation, they fall in love and face the odds.
Feedback: Is awesome. You can leave it here or reach me at ringwaldoeuvre@yahoo.com. I am not Edith Wharton, nor do I pretend to be.
Notes: (1) This chapter begins the evidence of my Brooklyn bias. Can I help it if I live in the best borough?

***Chapter 6: Coney Island Dreams***

Tara stared into the loom, lost in her thoughts. The rumble of the machinery reminded her that she was not dreaming, yet she still felt that it could not have been real. It was too wonderful to have been real. They had kissed. She had kissed Willow, and Willow had kissed her back.

The scream of the afternoon bell sounded through her ears, and she rose from her station. The other workers floated past her as she made her way to the dark exit. When she stepped into the street, she noticed the setting sun reflected off the windows of the nearest building, turning the panes bright red. ‘Like Willow’s hair,’ she thought before the noise of a pushcart reminded her that she was in public, and she was due home.

Thoughts of her father led to thoughts of her pending marriage to Richard, and thoughts of Richard led to reality. Who was she kidding? She and Willow could never be together, they only just met and it would never work for any length of time. Willow was young, and she herself only a bit older, and that was ignoring the obvious obstacle. There was no way two women could love and live together without cutting themselves off from their friends and family, unless they loved each other so deeply that it would be impossible to live any other way.

A thought began to plague Tara, ‘what if she doesn’t care for me, as I care for her? What if she thinks it was all some horrible mistake and she never wants to see me again?’ Her stomach began to tie into knots at the idea that Willow would never return to her dressing room, and she resigned herself to conquer her feelings for Willow and move on with her life.

‘But…’ she thought, ‘but Willow is so fair, so charming, and that kiss was so perfect.’ Tara wrestled with her emotions as she made her way south. She could not deny that she had feelings for Willow, strong feelings that she ever had for any of the men that entered her life. She had never wanted to kiss a man and knew she preferred the company of women, and she could not shake the desire to see Willow again and press their lips together.

Tara looked up and realized she was in front of her tenement building, but she could not bring herself to climb the steps. She decided to go for a brisk walk down to the East River and watch the boats come in before she returned home. The smell of the fish market lingered from the early morning trade, and businessmen filed onto the ferry. As she perched on a bench, Tara noticed a boat that had probably come from China. She had never actually seen people from Asia before, only pictures in books. She realized that though this group was new to the city, ‘each of us was new at some time.’

***

Willow walked into class and felt disoriented. Things seemed brighter, somehow, since she and Tara kissed. She paused to remember the sensation of Tara’s lips against her own, and how soft the other girl felt. She knew she had to devise a way to see the blonde beauty again, or else the memory of their kiss would drive her mad. Her legs began to tremble and the redhead started forward to her seat.

Miss Calendar had begun writing the lesson on the chalkboard. Willow noticed Cordelia leaning across the aisle, in deep conversation with William, before she spied Buffy sitting in the corner. She needed to ask Buffy about making plans for the weekend, and the next time she would be able to see Tara. She slipped into her seat, took her books out of her satchel, and turned her attention to Buffy. The other girl seemed distracted, and Willow inquired, “What’s on your mind, Buff?”

She shook her head nervously, “Nothing, except Cordelia Chase’s big mouth. Why is she talking to William?”

The redhead shrugged, “Couldn’t say. And anyway, I thought you were over that big jerk? What about Liam?”

Buffy frowned, “I am, completely, I… I am. I just cannot believe that I am considered below that harpy Cordelia Chase. She has got all the money she will ever need, and what can she see in him? Everyone knows his mother will always be the most important woman in his life.”

“I can’t answer that, Buffy, I’m sorry.” She shuffled her feet and realized how she could change the subject, “Hey, Buffy, how about we have some fun this weekend? We can go to the Haymarket on Friday and have a night out on the town and you can get that jerk off your mind. What do you say?”

Buffy cast her eyes at William and Cordelia and muttered, “I suppose.”

The redhead, with her mission almost accomplished, was compelled to improve her friend’s spirits, “C’mon Buff, it will be fun, and you can’t let William upset you like this. You can still have fun, and there are plenty of opportunities for you to nab a man.”

Miss Calendar’s voice pierced the air, “Class, please quiet down! I will not waste my time reviewing this when it comes times for your exam, so I suggest you pay close attention.”

As students made their way to their seats, Buffy’s mood suddenly improved and she whispered, “You know what? You’re right! Let’s do it. Let’s go wild! Why don’t we go out to Coney Island on Sunday? We can take Daniel, and maybe he can invite Liam. It’ll be fun!”

Willow paused. She thought about her plans for Sunday, and realized that there was no reason she could not go on an excursion with her friends. Plus, the only time she had seen the ocean was during her voyage into New York Harbor, and it was so magnificent. Catching her friend’s eye, she nodded her approval of the plan, and the class settled for the afternoon lesson as Willow returned to her thoughts of Tara.

Was this wrong? What would Buffy or her parents think? Her rabbi would certainly tell that it was wrong, yet she could barely bring herself to feel guilty when she thought of Tara’s smile.

***

Anya dipped the rag into the polish and leaned forward to shine her shoes. She paid varying attention to her shoe and her friend, having detected something amiss in the Irish woman’s mood. Only when she could see her face in the toe did she sit up and address Tara, “So what is going on, Tara? You’re acting weird and that last song came out a bit strange, even for you.”

Tara did not turn around, but continued to fasten her hair behind her head at the dressing table. She sighed, cognizant of the obstinate dancer’s question, and decided to reply, “Nothing is wrong, Anya. Go back to your shoes.”

“Like hell, Tara. Is it your father? Or Richard? I have told you that if you need to stay with me, you are welcome. Xander may not like it, but as long as I give him orgasms he’ll do what I say.”

“It’s nothing, Anya. Would you please leave me alone, or at least help me get into this dress?”

Anya stood and responded, “I still think that something is going on with you. Turn around, and we’ll get you into this pretty dress. It must have cost a lot. You own this? Wait, of course not. Your father takes your wages.”

Anya continued to speak. Yet as the Russian dancer’s fingers grazed her back, Tara shuddered at the memory of Willow’s touch. The girl’s hand was so soft, and she could not bear the idea that she would never see the redhead again. She closed her eyes and felt her knees buckle before she crashed to the ground.

Anya knelt down and swiped the mussed blonde hair, now in disarray, from Tara’s face. She could barely make out the Irish woman’s words, “What if she never comes back? How… what…”

“Who are you talking about, Tara? What is wrong? You need to spit it out before I force it out. And trust me, I make the Cossacks look like cuddly kittens. What is going on?”

Tara wrapped her arms around herself and looked at her friend. She suddenly realized that Anya really was her friend, and she might be able to talk about Willow. The Russian had seen a lot, and never seemed to judge the girls that did take up with other females. She breathed, “I met someone, and I don’t know what is going on.”

“Met someone? Who? Who did you meet that is reducing you to a puddle on the floor? More to the point, which guy am I going to have to beat that is making you cry like this?”

The blonde let a laugh out, but held back the truth, “It’s silly really, we had seen each other a few times, and w-we kissed. And now I don’t know what to think.”

“Well, he’s clearly an idiot. You are beautiful and talented and there are so many men, scumbags though they are, that would give an arm and a leg to marry you, Tara. This is preposterous that some jerk is upsetting you when you could easily strike out on a career of your own and leave them all in a ditch, including your father. I’ve heard enough. Who am I, or specifically, who is Xander beating?”

Tara had heard enough and interjected, “It… it is not a man, Anya, and I appreciate your compassion.” She took a breath and whispered, “I met a… I met a girl. She’s young, and she doesn’t know what she wants, except that she certainly wanted to kiss me last week. And what if I scared her, and she never comes back?”

Anya took in her friend’s words and felt guilty. She knew there were women that wanted to be together, but she never suspected that Tara was one of them and felt bad for never noticing this about her friend. Regardless, she didn’t care, and returned to comforting her friend, “Tara… it will be alright. Where did you meet this girl?”

“We m-met in the park, and she came to see me sing a couple of times after that. The last time she came to the dressing room after my song, and I just could not stop myself. She is so beautiful, Anya. She is cute and sweet, and she did not push me away, but I let myself care about her and now I need to know if she cares about me.”

“Wait, that girl we met in the park a few weeks ago? In Central Park?”

Tara nodded, “The same.”

“Well that’s just silly Tara, any fool could tell she was totally in love with you. I practically had to pry you two apart. You kissed?”

The blonde found comfort in her friend’s mirth and affirmed, “Yeah, and I do like her quite a bit. And she seemed to like me, too. It almost feels too good to be true.”

“Talk to her. Figure out what she is feeling. If that doesn’t work, kiss her again and see how it goes, okay?”

Tara grinned and resumed her place at the dressing table.

***

Willow walked into the Haymarket with Buffy and Daniel, more scared than she had ever been in her entire life. Everything was the same. The men in the crowd, the waitresses balancing trays of beer, and the musty air were becoming familiar to the redhead, yet she felt like she was floating in uncharted waters. Strangely, she could almost sense that Tara was in the same building. She decided to take her chances, and excused herself from Buffy and Daniel before Tara took the stage, claiming that she needed to find the washroom. She was petrified when Buffy said she would accompany her, but felt a huge relief when her friend spied Liam in the balcony and decided to follow Daniel.

The redhead found it difficult to put one foot in front of the other. She was suddenly overcome with the notion that Tara may have regretted their kiss, or that she had changed her mind about caring for a foolish schoolgirl. Tara was a woman, and such a beautiful woman, and Willow was an awkward girl that knew so little about the world. ‘No,’ she declared to herself, ‘I will go to her dressing room, and find out for myself, damn it!’

She suddenly found herself in front of a closed door, and hesitated before her knuckles rapped on the door. She heard movement behind the door and was met with a cold stare and a startled, “What do you want?”

Willow smiled weakly at the Russian dancer and choked, “Uh, um… is Tara here tonight?”

Anya squinted her eyes and blurted, “Oh! I thought I recognized you, Willow. Tara, your schoolgirl is here! I’m off to do my number, I trust you’ll keep each other company. Or I will personally kick you.”

As Anya moved down the hall to wait backstage, Willow’s eyes explored the dressing room until they found the gorgeous blonde sitting at the dressing table. Tara’s reflection did her beauty no justice as she finished applying make-up in the vanity mirror, and it was only until she spun around to face Willow that the redhead was floored by the other girl’s radiance. Her jaw sunk slowly, incapable of forming words as the singer rose from her bench and approached the redhead.

Tara broke the silence, and it was the most magnificent sound the young girl had ever heard, “Willow, I am so glad you came.”

Willow let her eyes scan the room, trying to look at anything except the luscious singer that stood in front of her. She stammered, “I, uh, wasn’t sure you’d be glad to see me. You know, after…”

Tara nodded, understanding the girl’s full meaning. She could feel Willow’s anxiety coming off her in waves, and she sought to comfort her immediately, “It was lovely, and I admit I also had the same doubts, Willow. I, uh, half thought I would never see you a-again, that you would never come b-back.”

For the first time since their meeting, Willow said nothing. She let her eyes fall on Tara and she smiled, having seen the warmth and concern coming from the woman’s blue eyes. She stepped forward and replied, “I wasn’t so sure myself. I mean, a week ago I didn’t even know I could feel like this, and now I am a nervous wreck. I… I think about you all the time.”

The blonde grinned, “Me too. I thought you might not like me, or that you’d be too a-ashamed to see me again, and it drove me insane.” She cupped the redhead’s face with her hands and looked the girl square in the eyes, “But Willow, you have to believe that I do not regret a thing. I would not have done anything different.”

“Me neither, although I can only imagine what my friends and parents will say if they ever find out that I kissed a woman. Tara, how can we do this? I care about you, but isn’t this wrong?”

Tara’s crinkled brow was the only response, so the redhead moved her hands to Tara’s hips and continued, “This feels right. I don’t mean that I think it’s wrong, but I am so confused. How can two women even be together?”

Tara chewed her lower lip, knowing full well the technical details of how two women could be together. She removed her hands, and stroked Willow’s hair, “There are ways. It is not easy, but I do know that women can live together, support themselves, and be happy.”

Willow’s head was spinning, ‘Tara likes me, she does not regret out kiss, and she is not turning me away!’ She suddenly felt the overwhelming urge to be closer to Tara, and rekindle their previous intimacy. She moved one hand to grasp Tara’s hair and she claimed the woman’s lips with all her power.

The blonde was drowning in the sensation of Willow’s lips. She had wanted to be closer to the redhead, and suddenly the girl was everywhere at once. She wrapped her arms around the girl’s lithe figure and deepened the kiss. She could barely contain her smile long enough to open her mouth and let her tongue begin to play.

After several moments, they pulled apart and Tara gasped, “Oh god, Willow. I have thought of nothing else.”

“Neither have I, Tara, neither have I. Now… please kiss me again.” Their lips crashed together and Willow slowly became aware that her body wanted more contact. She wanted to wrap her legs around Tara and engulf her. She wanted to swallow her whole and be inside her, all at once. Her brain kicked in, and remembered that they would not be alone for long. She regretted her fearful instincts, ‘Stupid brain, what have you done for me lately? You better have done well on Miss Calendar’s exam!’

As Willow withdrew from Tara, she could only concentrate on the feeling of the blonde’s heavy breath on her cheek. She ventured, “Anya will be back soon, and I have to ask you something, okay?”

Seeing Tara’s urgent nod and wandering eyes, she continued, “I have a question for you. On Sunday, I will be going to Coney Island with my friends Buffy and Daniel. I think Buffy is inviting some guy named Liam, and I know Daniel will be bringing some of his friends from his, uh, gang, or whatever they call themselves. It’s risky, but would you want to meet me there? We could just talk, and be together. You could bring anybody you want, I just want to see you away from all this. I… I want to see you in the sunlight.”

Tara dragged her attention away from Willow’s curves and considered her plans for Sunday. Ruefully recalling her routine, she muttered, “I have to accompany my father to services in the morning.”

The redhead’s face fell and she tried once more, “Well how about the afternoon? You don’t have anything going on in the afternoon, do you?”

Tara’s smile lit up the room, and she supplied, “We’re through about 10:00 in the morning, I could catch a ferry and get out there by the time you set down for lunch?”

Willow grinned and said, “Meet me on the beach by the roller coaster, okay? And I’ll try to make sure my friends are on their best behavior, though I can’t speak for that dancer, Anya. Did I do something?”

“Oh, um… I, uh, told Anya about our kiss. She doesn’t care that you’re female, but she’s a bit protective. I thought I’d never see you again, and it was making me crazy. And now… I would very much like to kiss you again, okay?”

Willow’s lips fell on the blonde before the words were out of her mouth. They pulled away just as the bustle of the dancers in the hall signaled Anya’s imminent return.

***

The following Sunday, Buffy, Willow, Daniel, his friend Devon, and Liam met at the Tammany façade to begin the journey to Coney Island. The dark Irishman’s coach set forth from 14th Street and they slowly wound downtown to City Hall and across the Brooklyn Bridge. Willow was dumbstruck by the sight of New York growing small, and the sudden commotion of Brooklyn. She knew millions of people lived in the city across the river, and her father told her that it was one of the most populous municipalities in the whole nation, but she had never been off the island of Manhattan since her arrival in America.

The sight of brownstones and storefronts were soon replaced by the pastoral grace of the villages that thrived off the land and the pioneers seeking a new life. The coach followed the long road to Flatbush and headed south, the smell of seawater drawing the travelers closer to the beach.

The discussion was lively but Willow could pay little attention. The quaint houses and rolling hills captured her eye and she could not tear away from the scenery. She could scarcely believe that such a life was possible so close to New York, and their arrival at Coney Island did not dissuade her that the city of Brooklyn held much to discover.

***

Xander, Anya, and Tara set out from the dock at eleven in the morning. One ferry and two coaches later, the group found themselves looking out at the Atlantic Ocean from the boardwalk of Coney Island.

Tara stated, “Well this is pretty, isn’t it?”

Anya exclaimed, “My goodness, I’ve never seen this ocean!”

Xander was puzzled, “Didn’t you arrive by boat?”

With a toss of her head Anya replied, “Foolish Xander. I got here by train. Spend some time away from South Street, in the future? Listen, I traveled by boat to California and by rail across the continent. All very pretty, actually. Lots of mountains and plains, though not nearly as grand as the mountains in Russia. All just as pretty as this ocean, or whatever you call it. I could have easily settled down in one of many towns. Still, I had to come to New York City, since this is where all the people go.”

Tara could not suppress her laugh at the blunt truth coming from her friend, but was also mindful of her purpose. Aware of the time, she gently suggested, “Shall we find a place to lunch, then?”

Anya smirked, “Oh please, why don’t you just tell Xander and I to go away and you can go find your schoolgirl. Or do you need us, so it doesn’t seem that you came alone?”

The blonde shrugged meekly, “If it was the latter, would you hold it against me?”

Xander chimed, “Not as long as you get some food in my stomach. Now where are these kids?”

Tara spied the roller coaster in the distance. She motioned to her friends, and they walked forward.

***

The redhead gazed at the ocean, a blanket the only thing between her plain green dress and the rough sand. The brisk autumn breeze tempered the heat of the sun, and the only thing that she heard was the chatter of Buffy and Liam, and Daniel’s austere silence as his mate spoke of the passersby. She glanced behind her to the boardwalk, hoping to spot Tara. Her rumbling belly instructed her to eat a sandwich, and her arm idly reached for the platter of food. Her midsection was a mess. Her heart was thumping wildly while her stomach ached, and as the meal wore on she began to wonder if the blonde would ever come.

Willow could have sworn she glimpsed Tara walking in the distance. Her hips swayed just enough to balance her steps in the deep sand. Her hair, though pulled behind her head under a hat, shone in the sun and her sky blue dress hugged her body in such a way as to leave the girl mesmerized by the vision on the horizon. Before long, she rose to face bright blue eyes and hug the blonde.

She whispered into Tara’s ear, “You came! Thanks goodness, I was beginning to worry that you might not have been able to make it after services.”

Tara assured the girl, “I wouldn’t be anywhere else, Willow.” Stepping back, she gestured, “Do you remember my friends Anya and Xander?”

Recalling her encounter with Anya, Willow sought discretion, “Of course, from the park! Nice to see you again, funny coincidence and all. Come and join us! We’ve plenty of sandwiches and lemonade to go around,” Willow said before she smacked her forehead. “Ugh, where are my manners! Tara, Anya and Xander, this is Buffy, Daniel, Liam, and Devon. Can they join us? Can’t very well turn away friends on a pleasant day like this!”

The group quickly approved and made room for the newcomers. As they each took their seats, neither girl regretted the risk they had taken to rendezvous in such a fashion, as the glow of the afternoon made them feel as though they were seeing each other for the very first time. Willow’s eyes sparkled as she took in Tara’s shining face.

After the last of the food had been consumed, many had expressed a desire to ride the roller coaster. The roar of the speeding car and the exhilarated passengers could be heard at every point along the boardwalk, and Liam had agreed to pay for each fare.

Tara was petrified. She desperately wanted to speak to Willow alone, and she had no inclination to cheat death on the wooden roller coaster. Spying the photographer’s booth, she tugged Willow’s sleeve and pointed to their escape plan. Willow nodded.

“Tara and are going to go see the sights, maybe take a photograph. We’ll meet you back here within the hour. Have fun without us,” Willow announced to the party. The blonde caught Anya’s grin as she took Willow’s hand and led the redhead away.

The girls walked along the boardwalk, arms linked at the elbow and hips brushing close. They passed vendors selling candied apples, toys and flowers. A boy stood on a box advertising a woman that breathed fire and another spoke of a man that swallowed swords, but neither girl wished to step behind the curtains. They walked to the railing to look out at the water.

Tara closed her eyes and took in the sounds. The clatter of the feet pounding on the boardwalk, the laughter of children playing in the sand, the screech of the seagulls, and the crash of the waves against the beach resonated in her ears. She opened her eyes, expecting the sight of the surf and the wide horizon, and instead found two round eyes eagerly looking back at her.

Willow wanted to kiss Tara. She leaned her head forward but the sight of the passersby stopped her motion. She whispered, “I really want to kiss you, but I’m afraid.”

Tara felt the same, and regretted it immediately, thinking, ‘Why should we be afraid if our feelings don’t hurt anybody? We care for each other, it is something that is just between us.’

Willow continued, “I’m afraid and I hate it. There are so many people here, and it could cause more trouble than it’s worth. But, the more I look at your lips, the more I think they are worth more than I will ever have. I wish there was a place for people like us… I wish there was a word for people like us.”

Tara hesitated and supplied, “There are many words for people like us, but I don’t care for most of them.”

“Then, can I just call you ‘my Tara,’ or just ‘Tara?’”

Tara smiled and felt bold, “You can call me ‘yours.’”

Willow’s smile outshone the bright sun that hung overhead and requested, “Well my Tara, can I ask a favor? May I have a photograph of you? I never want to forget this day.”

“You may, but I know that I will never be able to forget the day I saw you… during the day, away from the dark of the theater.”

“I do miss the privacy of your dressing room,” Willow chuckled.

“But that’s not real, Willow. The world is not my dressing room, and we have to live in it. Wherever we go, we will not be able to truly be together. There will always be someone there to judge us, and it could ruin our lives. Your education and my singing… it would be impossible unless we gave it all up.”

Willow found herself making a statement she never thought she would make: “I don’t care. I will find a way to see you whenever possible. I have never felt more alive, Tara. I know I am young, and a month ago the biggest thing on my mind was a history composition, but I don’t feel like a schoolgirl when I am with you. I feel like a woman, and even if you push me away you cannot take back what you have done to me.”

Tara felt tears come to her eyes. Here stood a human that she could love, and from whom she could receive love in return. She never thought it was possible to feel so strongly for another girl, and now she had words of love on the tip of her tongue.

Unable to kiss the redhead, she tilted her head and stated, “I will never push you away, Willow. I want this. Now let’s go get that picture.”

***

A brief time later, Willow and Tara were reunited with the group and they decided to return home. Liam, recognizing Tara from the Haymarket, offered the singer a lift back to Manhattan. As she began to decline, Anya announced that she and Xander wished to remain in Brooklyn overnight and examine the fishing docks of Sheepshead Bay. Left with the prospect of traveling alone, she reluctantly accepted Liam’s offer.

Before she boarded the coach she gave Anya a tight hug and said, “Thank you for today. I don’t deserve a friend like you.”

“Oh please, you deserve ten friends like me. Or at least five. I am a very, very good friend and at least as valuable as two friends. Besides, I want to get Xander away from the fish market. There are good docks out here and it could be a chance for us to make a life. Now go before the seat next to Willow is taken by that oafish friend of Daniel’s!”

Tara blushed at the thought of a long coach ride seated next to Willow. As imprudent as it would be, she certainly did not want another person to have the pleasure of being near her redheaded beauty. With a spring in her step, she climbed into the coach to find that Willow had saved the space next to her. They exchanged a knowing smile as the coach jerked into motion.

Buffy sat with her arms crossed tightly across her chest. Willow noticed her friend’s odd mood and inquired, “Something wrong, Buffy?”

The petite girl leaned close to her friend and quietly fumed, “Oh Willow, you missed it! That Cordelia Chase was walking on William’s arm, rubbing it in my face. Thank goodness Liam was there, he was a perfect gentleman. And I would bet Liam doesn’t need his mother’s approval before he takes a lady out! Oh, I could just scream, but I had better not discuss this any further or I’ll appear indelicate in front of Liam.”

Liam was paying attention to a different blonde, and finding her friends diverted, broached the topic he had been itching to discuss with Tara. “So, do you like working at the Haymarket?”

The conversation was a welcome distraction for Tara. The blonde had quickly become enthralled by Willow’s proximity, and the warmth of the girl’s body sent tingles up and down her spine and she did not think she would be able to keep her hand from caressing the other girl. With Willow deep in conversation with Buffy, she answered, “I love to sing, and the Haymarket is better than most places.”

She could not think of another thing to say to the man, having only just met him, so she declared, “Thank you so much for taking me in your coach. It is very kind of you.”

He ignored her gratitude and pressed further, “I also noticed that you go by the name ‘Irish Rose.’ Is it safe to assume that you hail from mother Ireland?”

Tara nodded, “I do. Came over a few years ago. Don’t I still have an accent?”

“Nary a lilt, lass. My own accent is fairly weak, but I have to rouse the spirits of the boys fresh off the boat, so I do my best to keep a trace of the native tongue. Now tell me, how would you feel about a change of management at the Haymarket? Would you care to stay on?”

Uncertain of the direction their conversation had taken, Tara ventured, “I should like to stay anywhere that will allow me to sing for a decent wage, s-sir. And I would hate to see something happen to Mike or Anya or all the other performers, they are so wonderful.”

“That could be arranged, Tara. Look, I will be frank. You are looking at the new owner of the Haymarket, and I’d like to get you some exclusive numbers from Harrigan and Hart. We’re going to take New York by storm, and there’s no one I would rather have on board than a fellow Irishman like yourself. Can you come to my offices on 14th Street next week to discuss a contract?”

The blonde smiled wide and replied, “Certainly, sir! Thank you so much, Mr. O’Shaughnessy!”

“Please, call me Liam. Or boss, whichever feels natural.”

Tara considered the possibility that the coach was a cloud, and she was floating in heaven. She had Willow, and for the first time in her life, she had hope.

***End of Chapter 6***
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby tarebear » Mon Jan 09, 2006 3:20 am

me first! me first! :bounce :bounce

okay... off to actually reading hehe
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby sacinema » Mon Jan 09, 2006 3:41 am

Wow. Nice update. Did I ever said it before? I love your story and your wrighting style. It's so wonderful how you catch up the time period. I can almost see Tara and Willow in ancient dresses, coaches and in the dressing room. woohoo for the kissing and all the tension between these two.

Anya is great and funny. Very good characterisation. Only Buffy get's me in some trouble. What's going on with her. She should leave that bastard William and concentrate on Liam. The first isn't worth a while and the second is more to her style. But where were Daniel and Devon? Weren't they riding back in the coach, too?

Please give us another update soon and a little more daring scenes between our girls. Can't wait to read more. Tara an Willow rules.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby tcurti3 » Mon Jan 09, 2006 8:40 am

Thank you for the wonderful update. I adore this fic. NYC has such a wealth of history and I think you capture the period very well.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Boadecia » Mon Jan 09, 2006 3:46 pm

yeay yeay yeay yeay!! wooo! hehehehe okay spaz attack over. That was great and so heart felt *swoon* I love those moments when you realise the other person feels the way you do!

Cant wait for another update with kissage-y goodness :p
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Artemis » Sat Jan 14, 2006 2:45 am

Very sweet :x I especially liked the scene between Tara and Anya - this is an Anya I really enjoy (which is neat - I thought canon Anya tripped over the line from 'forthright' to 'pointlessly annoying' far too often). I'm glad Tara has her support.

Liam's support, however, worries me. On the surface it looks like things are looking up for her careerwise, but I wonder what Liam might be hoping for in exchange for his patronage - and if Tara's not happy with what he wants, what the fallout might be :paranoid There's no denying Tara's caught his eye (well, why wouldn't she?), but is he interested in her as a performer or a lover? Perhaps his support will lead to Tara being able to become independent of her family, and she'll no longer have to worry about her arranged marriage or any of that - but if Liam wants her for himself, he could cause a great deal of trouble, and getting away from him may be just as difficult as getting away from her family.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Useful_Oxymoron » Sat Jan 14, 2006 6:10 pm

I just have to reply to this story. It's wonderfully detailed and beautifully written. You really bring out the feeling of the time-period. New York history is not my area of expertise, but I'm getting the itch to read up on it. :)

It's so odd (but in a good way) to see these characters playing around in another setting that's so radically different. Spike/William as a mother's boy is hilarious. Willow is wonderfully naive, Tara a lot more streetwise. It's great to see these two interact.

Keep up the good work. :D Please![hr]
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Wed Jan 18, 2006 12:01 am

tarebear: Your enthusiasm is flattering. I, um, hope you liked the chapter!

sacinema: Thanks. I was a little anxious writing Anya this chapter, I hope she feels accurate and entertaining. Buffy, on the other hand, will... be revealed in time. I have planned specific arcs for each character, and Buffy certainly has one. I just hope you trust me. I realize I did not explicitly mention Daniel and Devon in the coach, though I had intended for the reader to understand that they were present. Thanks for helping me realize I was not sufficiently precise with my language. I hope to have more within the month. Alas, RL is a bit overwhelming at the moment. New job and all. Thanks again!

tcurti3: Thanks! I do loves me the NYC history, and I'm glad someone appreciates it as well. Hope to have more soon, though RL is demanding. Again, many thanks!

Boadecia: Like, whoa. I don't think I've ever warranted a spaz attack, so thanks! I hope to have more soon. I'm sort of "in the zone" all the time, given my shiny new job. Let's hope it translates into another chapter within the month. I have goals and stuff, I swear.

Artemis: So glad you liked. I was most worried about the Anya/Tara scene, since it came so easily. Oddly, when a scene is easy to write, I fear I must be doing something wrong.

Again with your speculation! Liam is, well... the Liam/Tara storyline will be revealed in time. I had hoped someone would pick up on his creepy undertones, but trust me when I say I have a plan. I can't say what happens, but I am glad my hints are not going unnoticed.

Useful_Oxymoron: You should totally read up on NYC history! It is so rich, and I could recommend a plethora of books/websites. I am so glad you like my story. I love alternate settings, and I am glad you like this particular setting. Hope to have more soon. Thanks!

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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby watty » Fri Jan 27, 2006 8:11 am

Heh, looks like my writer's block extends to feedbacking too. [** um what's block-y about "great update! I lurve it tons!!!! Plz update soon!!" -- conversation overheard between snarky watty and lazy watty**]

What a lovely update. Both are enjoying the after effects of the kiss and the stage where they're constantly wanting, looking for more. Society be damned. Chuckled at Willow's manipulation of her friends to "meet" Tara at the same time that Tara confesses to Anya. Whatever we think of Anya, she has my admiration for her quick acceptance and support.

“Talk to her. Figure out what she is feeling. If that doesn’t work, kiss her again and see how it goes, okay?”

That's such great advice! Because witness that second kiss. sigh. how romantic.

But of course there's angst ahead, the risk they took to meet, the stolen hour in the middle of a crowd, are all due to the prejudices that abound in those days. Honestly, we're still today fighting those prejudices.

‘Why should we be afraid if our feelings don’t hurt anybody? We care for each other, it is something that is just between us.’

Not wanting to turn this into a social commentary, but this is such an apt observation of the thoughts that each one of us have. We just want to live our lives, love who we love. You've put this in a subtle way in this fic, from you, my dear snarky Mary, I expect nothing less. Masterful. :clap
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Mon Jul 10, 2006 8:21 pm

watty: You may conduct as many snarky inner dialogues as you wish, I still insist that I am not Sars. I’ve taken the girls a little further with the next chapter, I hope I manage it okay. This is still kind of new to me. Sadly the lack of update has nothing to do with writer’s block, but the blurred line between work and real life. It’s actually been great to write again. I hope you continue to like it.

Title: Huddled Masses
Author: ringwaldoeuvre (Mary)
Disclaimer: “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” and “Angel” are the property of Mutant Enemy, 20th Century Fox, the WB, etc. Any similarity to any book or movie about old New York is purely coincidental.
Rating: R (For violence, abuse, sexuality; will reach NC-17 eventually)
Pairing: W/T, A/X
Summary: AU. Two women meet through the vice-filled nightlife of New York City, 1884. Amid a tableau of cultural diversity and exploitation, they fall in love and face the odds.
Feedback: Is awesome. You can leave it here or reach me at ringwaldoeuvre@gmail.com. I am not Edith Wharton, nor do I pretend to be. If anyone feels like serving as a beta, holler at me.
Notes: Sorry for the long hiatus. I work. A lot.

***Chapter 7: Judgment Day***

Lilah had tried her hand at cooking, and the blonde was left to deal with the aftermath. It was bad enough they shared a bedroom, but Lilah seemed to deeply loathe her for some unknown reason.

“Tara, come in here after you finish cleaning up,” John Maclay’s order rung through the hall.

Tara’s ears perked as she continued scrubbing the stove. She lingered over the grime, hoping to delay the short walk to her father’s room. When she had convinced herself that there was nothing left to clean, she sighed, tossed the brush into the sink, and slid to her father.

“Ah, good. Tara, we need to have a talk. The situation with Donald has become dire, and I must leave as soon as possible. In order to pay the train fare, you must put in a couple of shifts at the Bismarck.”

Tara turned white. She thought about the lewd behavior from the men, and what was expected from the women. She knew her singing ability would only entertain the clientele for a short time before she would be expected to circulate among the crowd and settle on a customer for the evening.

“Tara, did you hear what I said? I said you are going to the Bismarck, but only for a couple of nights. I don’t want you getting into that lifestyle, there is too much at stake. You’ll be going on Saturday night. It’s all been arranged.”

Tara gave a silent nod to acknowledge her father’s words. She only wished that she could become so horrid that no man would want to lay a hand on her. She also did not want to mention the possible contract with Liam. If her father found out that she had a more viable future, he would do whatever it took to keep her in his grasp. No, she would suffer in silence until she got to Liam’s office on Monday.

She wandered into the parlor to do some reading before she retired to bed. It was only Wednesday, three days since she and Willow had their rendezvous at the beach, and she had been saving the note in the mail. She had managed to slip a piece of paper with her address into Willow’s palm a few days ago in the Haymarket, and she longed for some note from the beautiful redhead. Now it appeared that her wish has come true.

She settled into a volume of poetry, hiding the note between the pages. Walt Whitman seemed to write so well, yet she needed to read what Willow had written.

Dear Tara,

I know you want to hear all about me, but I hope you’ll forgive me if all I do is expound on how lovely you are. My life has not been the same since you entered it, my sweet Tara. You make all the elementary things seem so complex, and you make the complicated things seem so simple. When we are apart, I cannot sort my feelings. Yet when you are near, my emotions could not be clearer. You drive me to distraction, Ms. Maclay. I have never known a person like you, and I doubt I will meet someone that intrigues me as you do.

If we must learn about each other through correspondence, so it will be. I moved here with my parents when I was very young. My father is a professor at New York University, and my mother helps workers get better conditions. They want me to go to college, which is actually better than most of the parents of my female friends, of which I really only have one. I think you’d like Buffy. We’ve been friends for a long time.

When can we meet? Surely, my going to the Haymarket is not going to suffice. Please, help me see you. It is becoming hard, wondering when I will see you next. Please write back.

Fondly,

Willow


Tara closed the letter and let her eyelids close. She shook at the idea of seeing Willow again, and yet she knew it needed to happen soon or else she would burst. Every time she thought of the redhead she could barely contain the smile that threatened to break out on her face. She knew she needed to figure out a way to see her regularly, or else she would go mad. It was risky, but Willow was worth it.

***

Buildings hunched over Henry Street, and the sun lit the road like a valley nestled between large mountains. The redhead stood outside, lingering and waiting for a glimpse of the blonde, her Tara.

Willow knew she was taking a chance. Tara might push her away, but the last few days had been interminable. She had not been able to think of a single thing that did not lead to memories of the blonde. The sun shone like her golden hair. The tenement windows glimmered like her blue eyes. Yet nothing could capture her full voice and the mirth within, especially when she addressed the redhead.

“Willow?!”

The girl shot her head up and saw Tara looming over her. She quickly rose to her feet and tried to hide her blush. She cleared her throat, “Oh gosh, I was hoping you wouldn’t see me. I just, you know, since I had your address and all, I wanted to see you. It’s early yet; I was just on my way to school. I just, I… I had to see you. The last thing you need is some schoolgirl following you around. Do you hate me? You probably hate me!”

Despite the impropriety, Tara found it impossible to be mad. She had been desperate to lay eyes on the redhead ever since they parted ways on Sunday, and the sight of the girl before her was the best thing she could have had before her shift at the factory. She managed a smile before she answered, “I’m not mad, Willow. Please, breathe.”

Willow let out a sigh and eagerly looked up to the blonde, “Did you, um, get my note?”

The blonde nodded, “I received your letter, and please rest assured: I have been racking my brain. I just can’t come up with a regular place we can meet. I live in close quarters, as do you, and I rarely have a moment to myself, let alone a moment for the two of us.”

The redhead chewed on her lower lip. These fleeting moments were wonderful, but she needed more. She just wanted to be able to have a conversation with Tara. Okay, not just talk… but their relationship had been based on quick interludes, and she wanted to find a way to see her away from a dirty theater, and away from her friends. Still, she would settle for those backstage moments until they found a way. She ventured, “So, in the… meantime, are you at least going to the Haymarket this weekend?”

It was Tara’s turn to chew her lower lip. She grimaced and replied, “Actually, no. I’m going somewhere much worse.”

“Oh no, not Harry Hill’s again! I hated that place the first time around, and I don’t fancy sneaking in again and having my wallet lifted. I don’t want to think about you there or any place like it.”

“I’m sorry, Willow. My father has is all arranged. I’m going to the Bismarck. I only know what I have heard about the place, and none of it is very nice.” Tara turned her head to the ground and offered, “I would love to see you on Saturday afternoon. Perhaps you and I could meet by the river? It’s not far, and it’s not particularly nice, but the water’s pretty and we could at least talk without much interference.”

“That would be wonderful. How about this Saturday? I could be down by the river on Pike Street around 11:00 a.m. Would you be able to meet me then?” The redhead’s eyes were hopeful as she waited for Tara’s response.

“I think that could work. Until then, my sweet Willow.” The blonde grasped the redhead’s hand and dared to kiss the back of her hand. Seeing the other girl’s happiness, she stepped off to go to work. She never thought she could ever be so happy going to the factory.

***

Tara stood by the water, letting the sun reflect off the water and onto her face. She looked across the river and saw the bustle that took place even on a Saturday. She loved the moments when the sounds of the city could wash over her like a wave. New York has its merits, and she took pleasure in the fact that she would probably live the rest of her life discovering everything the city had to offer.

She was starting to fear that the redhead might not be able to make it when she felt a familiar hand slide over her shoulder. She turned her head to see Willow, looking at her with smiling eyes and lips curled into a grin. She placed one hand over the redhead’s and turned to face Willow.

“Thank goodness you came, I wasn’t sure if you would have been able to escape your parents.”

Willow shrugged, “It wasn’t so hard, I just told them I needed to go to the library. They both seem to have such a passion for reading and school, especially my reading and my going to school, it was easy to get out of the apartment. It just took me longer than I had anticipated getting down here. I’m sorry I’m late. Forgive me?”

Tara smiled, intertwined her fingers through Willow’s hand, and replied, “I don’t think I can be mad when you are near. One look at your pretty face makes time stop and life feels wonderful.” She gestured north and suggested, “Would like to walk for a spell? Like I said, it’s not very nice, but we’ll be mostly alone.”

The redhead nodded and answered, “After you, Miss Maclay.”

The two girls walked and talked all afternoon. The conversation wound between their pasts and their futures, their dreams and their goals. They fell into a comfortable silence, and their own thoughts began to occupy them. Tara felt more comfortable with the girl than with anyone else in her entire life, except perhaps her mother. She loved the way they could talk about anything, the way Willow’s face lit up when she talked about school, and she could not help but regret that she did not have the same opportunities or encouraging family that Willow had. She also recognized an ache in her chest whenever the other girl was around, and a desire to let her hands linger over her lithe frame.

Willow was lost in Tara’s presence, and the joy of just being together. The redhead loved the way the sun bounced off the water and illuminated Tara’s face. She looked around and found that there were no people in the vicinity, so she ventured, “Tara, you look so beautiful right now. You have to know that I have been desperate to kiss you all afternoon.”

Tara shuddered and craned her neck to assess their environs. They had wandered to a secluded point along the river, but she still feared that they would get carried away and be discovered. She took note of a large tree with a broad trunk, and she grabbed the other girl’s hand and quietly responded, “Willow, there is nothing I want more. Come with me, but we must be quick.”

The two girls walked at a brisk pace until they were behind the tree, and their lips met furiously. Hands grabbed at shoulders and fingers wove into hair, bringing them as close together as humanly possible. Their kiss was urgent at first, and gradually slowed to allow them to explore the other girl’s mouth. The kiss ended slowly, and they rested their foreheads together.

Willow was the first to speak, “I really needed that. Oh Tara, you taste so good.”

Tara blushed and grabbed the other girl’s neck, “Me too, you have no idea how often I think about feeling your lips against mine.” She breathed in loudly, “But I am worried about being out in public like this. Willow, if we are caught it could be very bad for both of us.”

The redhead nodded reluctantly, “I know, I just couldn’t resist. As much as I love to see you, I would not trade these touches for anything. We could meet like this, or I can come to where you sing. Think you’ll be returning to the Haymarket anytime soon?”

The blonde shrugged her shoulders, “I couldn’t say, possibly next week. My father has me going to the Bismarck for now, but I’m planning to go see Liam about a steady contract. If I knew I could have better pay, I might be able to move away from my father. I know I haven’t told you much about him, but he, well, he… isn’t very nice.”

Willow dipped her head, “I know, and I’m sorry. And I would love to see you out on your own! This city would bow at your feet, Ms. Maclay. I just hope I can follow along for the ride.”

“Are you kidding, Willow? I would want to take you with me, or at least have you near me as often as possible.” She reached out to cup the redhead’s face, “And I think it should be pretty clear that I like to have you near me.”

The sound of a pair of children running ahead of their parents caused Tara to tear her hands away from Willow. She immediately regretted the action, but when she looked up she saw a pair of understanding green eyes looking back at her. She offered a weak smile, grateful for the forgiveness of the redhead.

Willow leaned forward, took one of Tara’s hands into her own, and whispered, “It’s okay, Tara. I’m just glad we can be together.”

Tara sighed and responded, “I feel like we spend more time wishing things were different than actually being together. Let’s just enjoy the time, we have, okay?”

The redhead nodded and suggested, “Let’s take our time going home, okay? I should get home soon, anyway.”

“You know I love to stroll on your arm, Miss Rosenberg. Now, let’s head back.”

The girls wandered back along the East River, and as it began to grow dark, they said gentle good-byes.

***

The redhead sat on her bed, lost in thought. She knew she might anger Tara with what she was about to do, but she could not help it. Willow felt like Tara was the center of the universe. Before they had met, she was a girl that did her lessons and spent time with her friends, but not too much time, and thought that life was simple. She couldn’t bear to think of Tara in that place, all alone, with no one looking out for her. If she could be with Tara, it would be wonderful. But that was not as important as the blonde’s safety, and she was determined to go.

She rose and checked her appearance in the long mirror once more before heading out to Bismarck Hall. Although this was her second excursion in male garb, she still felt nervous about her ability to blend into society. Her black suit contrasted sharply against her pale skin and red hair, which was tucked tightly under her cap. ‘Plus, I do want to look good for Tara,’ she mentally added.

Her mother was at a meeting and her father was locked up in his study. She shouted to her father, “Dad! I’m going to Buffy’s!” before she went out into the night.

***

The exterior of the Bismarck left much to the imagination. The dark entrance was identified only by the collection of men loitering by the door. Daniel told her where it was, only after she lied and told him that she heard about it and someone told her not to go near it at night. The boy, considerate of his friend, told her the location only with her safety in mind.

It was not difficult to gain entrance to the saloon. Men snuck glances at her as she walked in, sizing her up. The redhead meekly crept into a secluded booth, which allowed her to maintain a view of the stage. A magician finished his act, in the meanwhile she signaled to a waitress for a drink. Two singers performed their acts before they descended the stairs into the crowd. Willow glimpsed one girl immediately set upon a gentleman in the audience, and she trembled to think that she had been too late, she has missed Tara’s song and the blonde was already occupied.

Just as her fear began to get the better of her, the redhead heard a gruff announcer introduce “The Irish Rose,” and Willow’s throat dried up like the Sahara. She caught sight of Tara on the small stage, and she suddenly felt that she was in heaven. Despite the unsavory surroundings, she loved to see Tara sing under any circumstances, and tonight was no exception. The blonde was as lovely as ever, standing out from the scene like a diamond in a coal mine. Willow could not decide if she wanted everyone in the audience to sit up and take note of her beauty, or leave their prying eyes to the other girls.

Willow suddenly became petrified. Tara did not want her to come here tonight, and the reason was clear. She was not the sort that was welcome, and she did not have the money to keep Tara in her presence. Tara was gorgeous, she could fetch any man in the room. And each of them was definitely interested in her company.

The song ended and Tara descended a set of stairs to the floor of the saloon. She glanced around and saw that many were interested, but she knew she could get a better price if she withheld her services for a time. She decided to take a turn about the room and really assess the potential customers. She spun past the bar and glimpsed a flash of red hair that she would never forget. Her throat almost closed when she saw Willow, dressed as a boy, looking back at her.

Needing to protect her safety, and if she was honest with herself… be close to the redhead… she slunk over to the booth that held the adorable girl. She sat down next to Willow, threw one arm behind her back, and urgently whispered, “Oh Willow, why are you here? Don’t you know how dangerous this place could be? You should not have come,” she put her other hand on the redhead’s thigh, “but I can’t help but be very glad that you did.”

Willow gulped and replied, “I’m so sorry Tara, and I just wanted to be here to protect you. You told me about this place and I wanted to be here to help in case things got rough. And I know we saw each other this afternoon, but it is becoming difficult for me to be away from you for very long.”

“Willow, I appreciate your concern, and believe me, I appreciate that I w-will be able to, um… touch you… as if you were a real boy and I was a girl,” Tara suddenly blushed, “fulfilling her duties.”

The redhead suppressed a grin before she placed one hand on Tara’s knee and the other across her cheek. “I admit, I did consider the convenience of the setting.”

Tara shivered under Willow’s hand, and remembered the potential dangers, “Willow, did it occur to you that… in a place like this… I would be the one that would have to protect you? But, oh god, Willow, when I see you it almost becomes too much.”

“I’m so sorry, Tara, I can see now that I should not have come. I’ll go. I hope you don’t get into any trouble.” the redhead replied before she moved to depart.

A pair of hands kept her in her place. Tara looked the other girl square in the eyes and stated, “Willow, please don’t go. It may not be perfect, and I’ll probably regret this later.” She took a deep breath, “but you are here and I want you to stay. Besides, have I mentioned that you look rather handsome?”

The redhead smiled and leaned forward, bringing her lips to Tara’s ear, “I was hoping I did, especially since I definitely wanted you close to me tonight.”

The sensation of Willow’s breath on her neck overwhelmed the blonde. She quivered, “Oh Willow, can you please kiss me? Now?”

Willow first brought her lips to Tara’s pulse point, letting her mouth linger over the other girl’s skin. Hands started wandering, and the girls began to forget that they were in public, though technically, their conduct was expected amongst the clientele. Willow moved her lips from Tara’s neck down to her mouth, pausing only to slip one hand behind the blonde’s neck and pull her closer.

Tara put her hands on Willow’s waist and gasped, “Don’t be alarmed, but I’m going to do something. Just stay close, okay?”

“I don’t think it would be possible for me to tear myself away,” the redhead responded with raspy breath. She suddenly felt the blonde’s fingers undoing the buttons of her shirt.

“That’s good to hear. It’s lucky you chose to sit in a booth, or else I wouldn’t be able to do this,” she replied as her hand snuck into the opening of Willow’s shirt and let her fingers stroke the soft skin beneath. She paused to look around and make sure people were not looking too closely, while she reveled in the sensation of the girl’s skin under her fingers. She knew it was dangerous, 'But god, I've been wanting to touch her all day.'

Willow closed her eyes and felt her head spinning as they kissed. She was barely aware of the din of the bar patrons, and the only smell she registered was Tara’s sweet perfume. She could not have hoped for the other girl to touch her in a place like this, and she could not believe how wonderful it felt. She pulled back and let her eye lids shutter open to take in the sight of Tara looking back at her with dark blue eyes. She felt Tara’s hand move up and down her side, gripping her waist and pulling her closer.

Their lips met passionately, hands continued to explore in an attempt to pull the girls closer together. Tara’s hand remained under Willow’s shirt, and the redhead snuck a hand under the waistband of Tara’s skirt, hoping to pull up her blouse and feel her luxurious skin. Tara released a groan when she felt the path of Willow’s hand, and smiled lightly when she felt the other girl lightly touch her back.

A voice hit in Willow’s ears sharply, “Hey there, you done with her yet, mate?”

They pushed apart as Willow angrily stood to face the intruder. She did not even realize she had such a short temper until Tara entered the picture. As he inched closer, the smell of beer and cigar smoke came off him in waves. She knew he would pound her to oblivion if they came to blows, but she could not quell her anger at the interruption of her time with Tara.

Tara rushed up and threw herself between the redhead and the tall man that leered down at her. She faced Willow and put her hands on her shoulders, hoping to stop the girl from moving toward an almost certain beating. She caught her eye and whispered, “Just go, Willow. I would not have been able to stay much longer anyway. Please, don’t get hurt on account of me.”

Willow heard the worry in her voice, and as her face barely softened, she told the gruff man, “Almost, give me a minute and I’ll try to forget your lack of manners. Now back off, and I’ll be on my way.”

The man gave Tara a smirk that left his intentions clear, and she gave him a look to assuage his need for attention. She instructed him, “Please go back to your table, and I’ll be with you shortly.”

As the man walked away, she spun back to see Willow’s downtrodden face. Her heart ached at the realization that their night had come to an end. She led Willow to the booth and leaned close one last time and said, “I’m so sorry, Willow, but I have to go to him. I won’t let anything happen, for you. I am so very sorry. Do you believe me?”

Willow nodded, and she knew her love was telling the truth. ‘Wait, love? Where did that come from? Enough of that, Rosenberg, pay attention to the beautiful girl that is standing in front of you.’

Tara offered a weak smile and said, “It’s best that you go. I cannot apologize enough. I don’t want you to see me… working. Can I see you again, soon?”

Willow nodded again and she placed one last kiss on the blonde. As she turned to leave she felt a hand pull her back, and she found herself in Tara’s arms once again. The blonde demanded her attention, “Will you please tell me that you believe me, and not just nod your head? I’m so glad you came. Really. Please tell me you believe me?”

The redhead realized that Tara would have just let her leave if she wasn’t really serious about her feelings. She answered, “I believe you, Tara. I just played this night out differently in my head. I guess I thought that we could maybe be alone, or something.”

“And please know that I wanted nothing more than to be alone with you, Willow. It is getting harder and harder to stop being close to you. And…if your wandering hands are any indication, you feel the same way? Please, just know that you are the only one that I want to be with.”

Willow sighed, “I know, Tara. I guess that deep down, I do know. I’m just not used to feeling anything for anyone, not to mention anyone feeling something for me. This is all new for me. And knowing that he will be able to touch you, and roll out the cash to spend more time with you, it just… it’s upsetting. I’m sorry. We’ll talk soon, okay?”

Tara smiled, content that the other girl’s feared were calmed. As she lost sight of the schoolgirl, dressed so smartly as a boy, she recalled her the man that was waiting for her. She knew she could keep him at bay, but it would take a lot of alcohol, and possibly slipping something into his beer, to knock him out and get away. She hiked up her skirt and walked back into the bar.

***

The redhead turned the knob to her apartment as quietly as possible. She began stripping her clothing, and blushed to think that her shirt had been unbuttoned once already that night. She heard a rustling in her father’s study and began to quickly tiptoe to her bedroom. She was too late.

“Willow, is that you? I wanted to speak with you about-” Ira Rosenberg’s eyes widened and his jaw froze. “What are you wearing, Willow? Did you go out in public dressed like this? Where did you go? Tell me!”

Willow’s head sunk. She didn’t know how to answer her father’s inquisition, and she knew deep down that she had to lie, or face a much worse punishment. She couldn’t tell him about Tara, but she would have to admit where she had gone. Okay, maybe not say that she went to the Bismarck, but the Haymarket. That place wasn’t so bad.

She steeled herself and turned to face him, “I’m sorry, father. I don’t want you to be mad at me, I just wanted to have some fun. I knew I had to dress up to get into the bar, some place called the Haymarket, I think it was called. I just went into the first place I found.”

Ira’s eyes remained hard, but revealed the concern that he felt for his daughter. He shook his head and ordered, “You will go to your room, and we will talk about this tomorrow with your mother. I can tell you now, you are not going to be allowed out of our sight for a very long time.”

***

John Maclay emerged from the Church on Oliver Street. His eyes squinted with the sunlight, but he soon recognized the figure of Richard on the corner of St. James Place.

“Richard, what brings you down here this time of morning on a Sunday?”

The tall man smiled tensely, “I have come to inquire about the status of your pretty daughter, John. You assured me that we would eventually be married, and I have respected your desire to wait until your family is reunited, but I am growing impatient. When do you expect to have Donald back?”

“Coincidence would have it, my friend, that I am leaving to go west next week. I expect to return with Donald within the month,” John replied.

“Excellent news, Mr. Maclay. I hope you understand my impatience, but a man my age cannot afford to waste a single day! It’s been a long time coming for me, and your daughter certainly is the finest girl I’ve laid eyes on in, well, a good long while. Please extend my regards when next you see her.”

“You can tell her yourself, Richard. She’s here, only lingering with the pastor for a time.”

As the reply left John Maclay’s lips, Tara stepped out into the street. She glimpsed the two men conversing and felt a chill pass through her body.

***

Across town, another mass ended and the parishioners exited onto the street. Buffy Summers stayed close to her mother and sister as the crowd left the church. She had glimpsed William Blythe and his mother in the congregation, and hoped that she would not be forced to speak to the boy. He had already tried speaking with her once today, but his words of apology were cut short when his mother joined his side.

The sun hit Buffy’s face and she followed her mother to extend regards to Reverend Giles. The tall preacher was speaking with another tall man, a police officer by the looks of his uniform. She heard her mother suddenly speak.

“Oh Reverend Giles, I just wanted to tell you that your sermon was wonderful, as usual. Thank you. Oh have you met my daughters, Buffy and Dawn?”

“I do not believe I have had the pleasure, Mrs. Summers,” the preacher answered. “And this is Lieutenant Riley Finn, of the police.”

Both girls curtsied gracefully. Buffy turned her eyes from the priest and then let it rest on the lieutenant, who was letting his own eyes travel up and down the girl’s figure. She turned red under his gaze, and suddenly wished that he would turn around and walk the other direction. Fortunately, her mother chose that moment to give her regards to Reverend Giles and lead her daughters home for a leisurely Sunday afternoon.

***End of Chapter 7***
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Boadecia » Tue Jul 11, 2006 12:53 am

YEEAAAAYYY i love this fic!!! Twas wonderful as always. As usual I have nothing constructive to add just much "yeeeayyying" lol cant wait for the next chapter :smash
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby sacinema » Tue Jul 11, 2006 5:09 am

Wonderful. You did it again – an update. I so love this story. But now I fear for some darkness to come between the two girls. My, it must have been so hard living in this time period being a woman and worse being a gay woman. Maybe the big city of Ney York will give them some place to be together regularly. But there is this slight feeling you will let them suffer for some time before you actually give them a happy ending.

Can't wait till Tara get's to speak to Liam. I hope she will actually manage to talk to him. Please, her father is not allowed to destroy this for Tara. She has to get away from him sooner than later. Otherwise she will not be able to turn this Richard person down.

In the beginning I had a hard time with the ancient English. Maybe because I'm not a native speaker it's not that easy to read for me. But I love how you manage to write them so Willow and Tara like and at the same time giving them this ancient behavior and speech. Thanks a lot. Well done.

Even if Riley's behavior was a bit out of line – I don't think it to be appropriate letting one's eyes travel up and down a girl's figure in the late 18th century – I hope he is able to get Buffy away from this awful William. I wonder what you have in store for her. For a while it looked like she would end up with Liam. Not complaining here. He seems nice anyway.

Already seeing forward to the next update.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Useful_Oxymoron » Fri Jul 14, 2006 5:20 pm

Ah, a new huddled masses! I love it.... but I hate the Maclay family (minus one member of the Maclay clan, obviously). Sometimes I wish this story'd take place in the thirties... because that would mean King Kong would be availiable to step on Donald Maclay. :)

Poor Tara, having to endure those 'people'. At least Willow was there to improve her evening somewhat... and now Willow's in trouble and Tara's being forced to marry? :paranoid Please don't take another 6 months for an update, I don't think I'd survive that long a wait.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby willow_tara_always » Sat Jul 15, 2006 6:56 am

aww yay i love it. keep it coming. xx
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Knock yourself out » Tue Jul 18, 2006 2:17 am

I have just discovered this story and it is wonderful. The last chapter with the booth scene was splendid; the thought of Willow dressed as a boy and the circumstances allowing kissing and touching were great.

I love uber stories and this setting is a real bonus; the detail feels accurate (though I did notice a “guys” and some “okays” that seemed jarring though I do know the words were in currency) and makes for a rich, textured background. It must have been very frustrating being a woman (especially for the poor) and I like your exploration of the difficulties of being a lesbian too. However, Tara and Willow also have to contend with being Irish and Jewish too…

I love your use of other canon characters like mummy’s boy William and a forthright Anya (a character who I feel was treated very poorly in the series, rather like Tara in many ways, so it’s good to see characterization that picks up on the Anya’s strengths).

I feel honoured that people take the time to write these fantastic stories particularly for those of us who can’t write at all. All in all, a marvellous achievement, I am looking forward to reading more and I urge anyone who hasn’t read this to get started now.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Knock yourself out » Tue Jul 18, 2006 2:18 am

I have just discovered this story and it is wonderful. The last chapter with the booth scene was splendid; the thought of Willow dressed as a boy and the circumstances allowing kissing and touching were great.

I love uber stories and this setting is a real bonus; the detail feels accurate (though I did notice a “guys” and some “okays” that seemed jarring though I do know the words were in currency) and makes for a rich, textured background. It must have been very frustrating being a woman (especially for the poor) and I like your exploration of the difficulties of being a lesbian too. However, Tara and Willow also have to contend with being Irish and Jewish too…

I love your use of other canon characters like mummy’s boy William and a forthright Anya (a character who I feel was treated very poorly in the series, rather like Tara in many ways, so it’s good to see characterization that picks up on the Anya’s strengths).

I feel honoured that people take the time to write these fantastic stories particularly for those of us who can’t write at all. All in all, a marvellous achievement, I am looking forward to reading more and I urge anyone who hasn’t read this to get started now.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby watty » Thu Jul 20, 2006 11:50 pm

Welcome back, Not!Sars. Every update you bring us is an event worth celebrating indeed.

Willow's note to Tara made me sad, it was tinged with so much resignation about their difficult circumstance.
It is becoming hard, wondering when I will see you next.

I find it easy to put myself in Willow's boots, that not seeing Tara is almost becoming physically painful, yet she knows there is little chance of it happening.

Ah, their afternoon together, how bittersweet. Wanting more. Never knowing when they'd get another chance. Stealing a kiss.

So brave of Willow to disguise herself and go to the Bismarck. Unlike our generation, it really wasn't the thing to do for someone as sheltered as Willow. Great improvisation by Tara, to be close to Willow and even cop a feel!

You've begun to crank up the tension -- John Maclay's expectations for his daughter, Tara's opportunity with Liam, Officer Riley and of course Willow being discovered by her father dressed as a boy. I won't snark, because I'm too busy looking forward to the next part.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby Artemis » Sun Jul 23, 2006 5:43 am

Willow's note was really, really sweet - and moving at the same time, in the way that she and Tara are in a situation where they're so much not in control of their own lives, and have to try to work their actual desires into the framework that other people have built around them. It's particularly notable with Tara, of course - grrr to her father, he needs a slap in the back of the head, preferably with the QE2 - but also Willow, with the sudden prospect of her life being very, very restricted (Tara-time included) when she's discovered in her male attire.

There was a real bittersweet feel to her meeting with Tara - the way that they both knew Tara was in a terrible situation, and was just getting along on the hope that things will get better somehow, but at the same time they both were making the effort to enjoy their brief moment together. It's as if their love is straining, against all the demands on them, and I hope it breaks free soon. Though I suspect there's to be plenty more trials and tribulations to come.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby ringwaldoeuvre » Fri Jul 28, 2006 8:39 pm

Boadecia: Thanks for your enthusiasm! I love feedback, even if it is just to say it doesn’t suck. I hope you like what is coming!

sacinema: Sorry it’s been so long since the last update, but I work a very demanding job, and I often do not have the intellectual energy to write when I get home from work. Liam is going to become a more prominent figure in both Buffy and Tara’s lives, I hope it works for the reader. Things with Riley are also going to become complicated, thanks for noticing my attempts to foreshadow! Things are going to be rough, but hopefully compelling.

I am so glad you like my dialogue. I toil over it a great deal, and it’s hard to make it accurate and accessible. I hope to have an update in a time that is shorter than six months!

Useful Oxymoron: Now you’re making me want to write a story set in the 1930’s. Thanks for that.

The angst is only getting warmed up, but I hope to devote more time to the story. I am a fan of your work, and I’m certainly glad you like my story. I promise I will get an update posted before Christmas. Work is draining and occupies a lot of time, not to mention the attention I must pay to friends, Netflix, and my PS2/Xbox. It’s a hard knock life.

willow tara always: Thanks! I hope to have sooner rather than later.

Knock yourself out: Thank you for your wonderful feedback. I do put a lot of effort into each update, and I am glad they are appreciated. It would be terrible if I put hours of work into each chapter, only to go unnoticed.

I admit that there are some inaccuracies. Some for the purpose of the narrative, and some because I just miss the details. It’s something I strive to overcome, and it’s good to know that I slip up. Thanks, really. I hope you like what’s coming.

watty: Thank you muchly, fellow snark enthusiast. You can tell I’m not Sars because I don’t update as frequently as she updates Tomato Nation. I try to compensate by adding snark to my daily life. Despite the darkness of my stories, I’m really a very funny, nice person. I swear.

Glad you liked my elevation of the tension. Things are only getting warmed up, in more ways than one. I just hope I can pull it off. This story is hard to write, which is part of why it takes so long. Thanks again.

Artemis: I am glad the note was effective, it was my first. They are surprisingly hard to write. The tension is definitely increasing, and will not let up any time soon. I am so glad things are resonating with you, considering how hard this story is to write. I am promising myself that I will have an update before Labor Day. Halloween at the very latest.
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Re: Huddled Masses

Postby toasterovnofdoom » Fri Aug 01, 2008 10:36 am

needed to be bumped. update?
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