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Fic: Insight

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Take.A.Chance » Wed Jul 05, 2006 8:54 am

Wow, intense story. Remind me not to read this when Im packing, you made me drop the vase I was holding!

I loved the thing about the scotch, albeit weird hearing the word scotch being used (dont ask, I used to live in Scotland). Youve got Willows character down to a T. Keep up the good work, Im off to find some duck-tape for this vase!
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Insight Responses

Postby KrisBo5 » Wed Jul 05, 2006 11:01 pm

Take.A.Chance,

LOL, sorry you broke your vase. Hope the tape works out for ya. Scotch? I guess it could be weird if one were from Scotland, lol. I’m glad Willow is to your liking, I do my best. Thanks for reading and I hope you stick around for the rest!

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Re: Insight Replies

Postby WillowRulez » Thu Jul 06, 2006 3:00 pm

KrisBo5 wrote:LOL, read it all more than once, eh?

Well, what can I say? The 'STL' bits were just too cool! And how Tara came to read them and so forth
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby KrisBo5 » Wed Jul 12, 2006 3:35 am

WillowRulez,

Well, good then, glad they were cool. Hopefully you’ll get to see more of that in the next update….. Thanks for reading!

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Thianne » Wed Jul 12, 2006 4:51 am

I'm sorry i didn't leave feedback earlier, i really don't know why i didn't. i absolutely love this story, love the idea and how you developed it. i hope to see an update really soon!

Ps: if i could just say something: Take.A.Chance, your avatar is just lovely!
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby KrisBo5 » Sun Jul 23, 2006 7:42 am

Thianne,

No need to apologize for not leaving feedback earlier; I’m glad you left some now! I’m glad you like the story so much. I’m trying to update soon, I am working on it. I am working again now, so RL is busy…. But I’ll do my best to get something up soon! Hope you’ll stick around. Thanks for reading!

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby I'll_Always_Find_You » Thu Aug 03, 2006 10:10 pm

Kris~ thanks for tryin to help with the registering. I just opened another name and contacted a mod that way. Don't know why I dodn't think about that earlier. Anyways where's that update?
Tara~ I'm cured I want the boys!
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby barnabasvamp » Sun Aug 06, 2006 5:55 pm

But I’ll do my best to get something up soon! Hope you’ll stick around. Thanks for reading!


*Ahem* *Taps foot* :shy I do believe I heard this personally when you were headed out of the country! Still waiting honey!

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Kendahl897 » Fri Sep 01, 2006 11:30 am

This has to be the most intense and erotic reconciliation love scene between Willow and Tara that I have ever read. It's truly incredible. Keep up the great work and I can't wait for an update.
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby shyamberlover » Mon Sep 25, 2006 3:06 pm

After re reading this story several times, i am becoming rather desperate to know what happens next. i know that it can only get better. so please indulge this quiet shy reader and update ASAP. cause i love your writing.

Keep it up dude! :pray

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Insight Responses

Postby KrisBo5 » Sat Feb 23, 2008 8:56 pm

Saved from the depths of the computorial phantom zone, some responses to some nice feedback...

I’ll Always Find You. Better late than never… er, see below!

barnabasvamp. Back in country. South Africa and China were great! See below!

Kendahl897. Wow! “…most intense and erotic reconciliation love scene between Willow and Tara….” Thank you. Sometimes I try. By the lack of postings, that’s hard to tell, I know. See below!

shyamberlover. Glad you like my writing. No desperation needed, no, not any longer. See below!

Thank you all for reading this very old story... and inspiring me to pick it up once again and just finish the darn thing!

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Insight, Part Two: Act One(2D)

Postby KrisBo5 » Sat Feb 23, 2008 9:08 pm

Title: Insight
Author: KrisBo5
Email address: KrisBo5@aol.com
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Distribution: This is the narrative form of a spec script I had written for BVS, which is registered with the WGAw, so please don’t publish it or reproduce it in any way, shape, or form.
Spoilers: Season 6. Past “Hell’s Bells” but not up to “Entropy.” Around the middle of those, but I’m taking liberties.
Rating: This covers the story in its entirety: PG-13 to NC–17. This includes sex, some mild violence, language. For this part, specifically, I would say R-Hard R, but I’m not sure.
Pairing: Willow and Tara, of course. Buffy and the others are here as well.
Disclaimer: I didn’t create these characters, those kudos belong to Joss and crew. I’m just borrowing them for the story I did write. As for the notebook entries(I changed some words to fit the context of my story – no offense or infringement was intended) they were taken from “I Still Can’t Believe You’re Gone” by Willie Nelson; “Is It Over Yet?” by Billy Kirsch; “Unlove Me” by Patrick Jason Matthews and Paul Overstreet; “Here I Go Again” by Kim Richey; “Since I Don’t Have You” by Joe Rock with Jimmy Beauman; “Everything I Own” by David Gates; “Lost Without Your Love” by David Gates; “Against All Odds(Take A Look At Me Now)” by Phil Collins; “I’d Rather Miss You” by Bat McGrath, Michael Jones & Anthony Little; “You’re The One” by S. Ferguson; “I Hate Myself For Losing You” by Kara DioGuardi, Jimmy Harry, Shep Solomon; I Just Wanna Cry” by Keith Urban; “Now I Know” by Chick Rains, Cindy Greene & Don Cook; “Everywhere I Go” by Mary Lee Kortes
Summary: The Scoobies have gotten back together, just not “back together.” Tara’s got some kind of “power.” Buffy’s “gone missing.” And, then there are those pesky demons. . . .
Note: This is a little lighter, a little more comedic, a little less verbose. Really, a straight translation from script-to-narrative format. Without further ado, here it is. . .

Insight, Part Two: Act One(2D)

“I tawt I taw a puddy tat. . . .”

Buffy frowned in her sleep.

“I did! I did! I did see a puddy tat!”

Buffy groaned. She rubbed a limp hand across her eyes before slowly opening them. The morning sun slanting through the living room curtains fell over her face in a burst of blinding, golden white. “Oh, Man. . . .”

“And there it is!”

Buffy turned her head towards the high-pitched, helium-lisping sound, and immediately grimaced in pain at the stiffness in her neck. “Ow. . . .” She focused her eyes on the blurry, Technicolor cartoons on the television: Tweety and Sylvester, in their never-ending animated conflict, were scampering across the screen in a whirlwind of chaos.

“Wh-what time is it?” Dawn asked, her voice croaky from sleep.

Buffy turned to her sister, again feeling the glorious ‘morning after movie night’ crick in her neck. The Slayer absently massaged her hand across the back of her neck while she raised the other arm in front of her face. She stared at her wrist, and then pulled it closer to her face; she blinked long and hard and shook her head before opening her eyes to look at her watch. Nothing but blurry black squiggles in a circular field of white greeted her. Buffy sighed and dropped her arm into her lap. “Look at the clock,” she said, and sighed.

Dawn groaned dramatically. “Fine,” she said grumpily, as she pushed herself into an upright, sitting position. The teen frowned, then reached a hand up to her face. “Eww,” she said, and then promptly pulled a slice of pepperoni off of her right cheek.

Buffy stretched her shoulders as she watched her sister pull the offending lunchmeat from her face. “Gross,” she said, though her tone was full of mirth.

“Who you tellin’,” the teen replied as she frisbeed the pepperoni onto an empty pizza box. She wiped the back of her hand across her face for good measure, and then lifted her eyes to the clock on the fireplace mantle. “Six thirty?”

Buffy made a face. “Gross.” The Slayer unfolded her legs from beneath her and slowly stretched them out, feeling the muscles protest painfully. She sat up in the chair and raised her arms above her head, not surprised to hear her back sing out a morning chorus of ‘snap, crackle and pop.’ “Why do I get the crappy chair?”

Dawn looked at her sister briefly before raising her hands in the air in a silent, ‘you’re kidding me, right?’ motion. She glanced at where she had awakened on the floor and then back at Buffy. “At least you were on furniture.”

Uncomfortable furniture,” The Slayer clarified.

“Oh, yeah,” Dawn began huffily, and snatched up another runaway pepperoni from the carpet. “you got it so much worse,” she said, tossing the tiny piece of meat on top of its partner in crime and rolling her eyes dramatically.

Buffy smiled. Then, almost as an afterthought, she looked at the couch. There Xander lay, sound asleep and oblivious to the Summers sisters. Buffy’s eyes roamed over the fluffy pillow, bed sheet and comforter, and her smile faded. “That. . .,” she said, pointing a finger at the carpenter. “. . . isn’t right,” she finished, and slowly pushed herself to her feet.

Dawn glanced at Xander. “So not right.”

Buffy made her way towards Dawn, carefully maneuvering herself over and around empty pizza boxes, potato chip bags, soda cans, and some rather disturbing-looking globs of goo. Standing before the teen, she held out a hand. “Breakfast?”

Dawn grimaced as she took her sister’s hand and stood up. “Um, maybe just some milk.”

Side-by-side, the sisters walked from the living room towards the kitchen. Once there, Dawn promptly made her way to the island and plopped down on one of the stools; she propped her elbows on the Formica counter top and set her chin in the palms of her hands. She watched silently as Buffy retrieved the carton of milk and two drinking glasses before sitting beside her on the opposite stool. As Buffy poured, Dawn said, “Last night was fun.”

Buffy smiled and handed the glass to the teen. She poured herself some milk and set the carton down. “Yeah, it was.”

Dawn took a long drink. “I hoped Willow and Tara might come.”

Buffy raised her eyebrows, then softly cleared her throat.

“What?”

Buffy shook her head and took another drink.

“What?”

“Nothing,” Buffy said. She took another drink.

“Buffy, what?”

“Nothing.”

Dawn fully faced her sister. “What.”

Buffy sighed, then set her glass down. She fully faced her sister. “You know.”

Dawn shook her head. “No, what?”

Buffy gently twirled her glass on the island counter top. “Willow and Tara didn’t come cause. . . they’re, uh. . . at her dorm.”

A moment of silence hung between them, before a dazzling smile spread across Dawn’s face. “All night?”

Buffy nodded. “Mm-hmm.”

“Together?”

“Mm-hmm.”

“Alone?”

Buffy laughed. “Yes, Dawn. Together. Alone. All night.”

Dawn shook her head softly, her eyes glazing over with happiness. “Wow.”

Buffy nodded. “Yeah. . . wow.”

Dawn raised her glass and extended it out towards Buffy. The Slayer smiled and raised hers as well. They gently touched their glasses together with a satisfying ‘clink’ and then each took a drink.

“Hey, guys,” Xander said.

The sisters turned to find the carpenter in the kitchen doorway, disheveled but not looking nearly as bad as they felt.

“Hey,” Dawn said.

“Morning, Xander,” Buffy said. In a slightly sarcastic, sing-song voice, she asked, “Sleep well?”

“Oh, yeah,” he replied, then stretched his arms above his head. “Great.” He lowered his arms and looked around the kitchen. “I’m starving.”

Buffy made a face, but before she could reply, Dawn spoke up. “There’s some pepperoni on the coffee table.”

Xander smiled and rubbed his hands together. “Ah, the Breakfast of Champions.” He turned away and headed back into the living room.

Buffy looked at her sister with incredulous, ‘oh, no you didn’t’ eyes. “Gross,” she said.

Dawn shrugged and smiled.

***

Tara carefully balanced two glasses of orange juice in one hand as she softly opened the door to her dorm room with the other. As the door swished opened, she quickly and quietly moved inside, and then closed it behind her with a low, whispering click. Taking one of the glasses with her free hand, Tara turned toward her bed, and her breath caught and her heart soared as her eyes fell on the figure on her bed: Willow lay sprawled diagonally on the bed, her head near its foot, her feet near its head; her left hand dangled over one side edge of the mattress, her right foot over the other. A tangled sheet covered her from the tops of her legs to the sinking of her lower back.

Tara moved quietly across the small space of the room, stepping over their strewn clothes and the abandoned comforter. Carefully avoiding bumping into Willow’s foot, Tara set the two glasses down on the night table. She slowly turned to look at her sleeping redhead. Smiling softly, Tara took a step towards the bed, admiring for several quiet moments this woman who loved her. Willow. . . . Her eyes began a slow, loving journey from dangling toes, to arcing calf, to hollow of knee and sloping thigh; they followed over the loose swath of sheet and up and over the smooth expanse of back, where Tara felt herself blushing slightly at the thin red streaks her fingers had set into that pale skin. Her eyes moved on then, along delicate neck, and to heavenly face and tousled coppery hair. Tara breathed deeply and closed her eyes, a cascading kaleidoscope of Willow images tumbling over one another in her mind.

Sighing, Tara opened her eyes again and softly bit her lower lip, as she felt the tinge of a smile form. She raised her hands and loosened the tie on her robe, letting the thick, cottony garment fall open. And then, as gently as she could, she raised her left leg and set her bent knee on the bed between Willow’s parted legs; shifting her weight until she was more fully on the bed, Tara set her right leg on the outside of Willow’s, straddling it. Smiling impishly, Tara leaned forward, resting her elbows on the outer sides of Willow’s hips; with fingertips, she slowly inched the sheet lower on Willow’s backside, revealing the enticing hollow of her lover’s back. With a whispering, reverent touch, Tara pressed her lips to the skin there, kissing the warm flesh softly and tenderly. Tara’s lips remained still and firm, and when there was no response from her own sleeping beauty, she slipped the sheet a tad lower, revealing the rising slopes of buttocks. Tara’s lips danced over the skin, placing baby-soft kisses downwards again and again and again . . . .

“ . . . f’geddaboutit. . . .”

Tara’s smile grew wide against Willow’s skin. She raised her lips and let her eyes find her lover’s face. Willow’s eyes remained closed, her features relaxed, void of expression. If Willow had not just spoken, Tara would still be certain that she was asleep. Tara released the edges of the sheet, shifted her weight back slightly, and slid her arms along Willow’s sides. Tara’s body stretched out over the redhead with a controlled ease and practice before she gently lowered herself onto Willow’s body.

Tara’s breasts pressed against Willow’s back, even as Tara’s hips pressed against her buttocks, and Tara’s thigh pressed against her center. . . . helllooo. . . . Willow, slowly awakened by the heavenly feeling of Tara kissing her so lovingly and tenderly, suddenly found her heart racing and her body heating rapidly. Willow breathed in deeply, sighing audibly as Tara surrounded and covered her.

Tara set her chin on Willow’s left shoulder, then let her hand trail up and over her left arm until she cloaked the back of Willow’s as it dangled over the edge of the bed. Her fingers entwined with Willow’s effortlessly. “Good morning,” she said softly, before tilting her chin to kiss her lover’s skin.

Willow smiled, but remained unmoving. “. . . hi. . . ,” she said, her voice still groggy from sleep.

Tara couldn’t help but smile again. Definitely. . . not a morning person. . . still. She gazed at Willow for several moments, feeling her heart fill to overflowing. “Hi.”

“Hmmm. . . ” Willow sighed.

Softly, Tara began to rub her chin against Willow’s skin. “Awake?”

“Mmm. . . .” Willow responded.

Tara shifted a bit, letting her thigh push deeper into Willow’s moist heat, letting her breasts press more firmly against Willow’s back. Instantly, Tara felt Willow’s heartbeat pound through her back and against her own chest, and she smiled. The blonde moved her lips till they hovered just over Willow’s ear. “You feel awake,” she whispered, before nipping the lobe gently.

Willow moaned. . . . totally. . . awake. . . .

Tara released Willow’s ear, kissed the delicate flesh, and then raised her head slightly. “You okay?”

Willow’s eyes finally cracked open. She blinked several times against the morning, feeling the burning sting of not-enough-sleep-the-night-before in them. So. . . totally. . . okay. “Mmm. . . ,” Willow began, then turned her head just the slightest bit, till she glimpsed Tara’s face in her periphery. “. . . yeah,” she finished, and smiled before closing her eyes once more.

Tara considered Willow’s answer, again rubbing her chin over the redhead’s shoulder softly. “Yeah?”

Oh. . . yeah. “Yeah,” Willow replied. After a pause, Willow opened her eyes again. “You?” she asked.

Tara squeezed herself against Willow. “Mmm…” Tara started, rubbing her lips over Willow’s skin. “Yes,” she finished, a deep sigh to her voice.

Something in Tara’s voice, and something in her sigh, made Willow’s brow furrow. She rolled a bit, trying to shift onto her side. With Tara’s body pressed on hers, Willow found that this task was not all that simple. “Hey,” Willow said softly, trying once more to shift herself over to face the blonde. Tara remained where she was, willing her body to stay weighted onto Willow’s. Willow couldn’t help but laugh, a simultaneously breathy and frustrated sound. “Hey,” she repeated, craning her head just a bit more as she tried to turn over again. “Scootch,” she said, half-laughing, half-ordering.

Tara took another deep breath and laughed softly, but she finally relented and did as she was asked. She slid her right arm and leg away from the length of Willow’s body and then shifted herself off of her lover and onto her right side. She relaxed the grip of her left hand, intertwined as it was with Willow’s, and pulled her left leg from its warm haven between the redhead’s.

As Tara moved, Willow instantly felt the absence of heat and warmth from her lover’s body; her skin felt cold and bare without it.

And she didn’t like it.

Not. At. All.

So, despite her only-moments-before sleepy state, Willow quickly rolled and twisted in place until she was comfortably on her back. Once there, she reached out and took hold of the collar of Tara’s robe. “That’s far enough, Missy,” she said, her voice laced with humor.

Tara couldn’t help but laugh, a low rumbling sound deep in her chest. Ooo, bossy-girl. But again, she did as she was asked and held her place exactly where she was.

Willow mirrored Tara’s smile as her hand slid from the robe collar, down the fabric’s edge till she was grasping the side pocket. Willow pulled the robe open and over herself, tugging at Tara’s body. “Scootch.”

Tara followed the order happily and rolled back against Willow, pressing her left leg once more between her lover’s as her body soon covered the redhead as much as her robe did. She felt their bodies come together once more, felt them fit together seamlessly; legs, arms, thighs, stomachs, breasts. . . . perfect. . . .

Willow pushed both of her arms inside of Tara’s robe and wrapped them around the blonde. Tara’s skin was warm and soft as she pressed her hands to it. “Mmm,” she murmured, practically purring as she began to trail her fingers up and down the length of Tara’s back.

Tara smiled softly as she pushed her arms underneath Willow’s shoulders, continuing on until her hands had made their way into her lover’s silky-fine red hair. She let her eyes wander over Willow’s face, over the features that she loved, that she knew better than her own. When her eyes finally reached Willow’s, she found deep pools of green staring back at her. She shifted closer, squeezing Willow more tightly against her as she lowered her eyes.

Willow’s eyebrows drew together slightly. She tightened her arms around Tara, hugging the blonde, as she closed her right leg over her lover’s and squeezed gently. “Hey,” she whispered. She tilted her head just a bit, trying to catch Tara’s eyes. “Hey,” she said again, her voice firm yet tender. “Tara, what’s. . . you okay?”

The tender, almost apprehensive tone of her lover’s voice made Tara’s heart fill to overflowing, and she raised her eyes to meet Willow’s once again. In them, she saw concern and worry and love, all at once, and all for her; Tara’s heart ached with love. She nodded. “. . . fine. . . .” She cleared her throat. “I’m fine.”

Willow shook her head. “No,” she said, pulling her right arm out from beneath Tara’s robe and brought her hand to the blonde’s face, where she cupped her cheek lovingly. “You said that before, but. . . .” Willow ran her thumb over Tara’s cheek, back-and-forth, back-and-forth.

Tara leaned into Willow’s touch, letting her eyes close as Willow’s caress became a gentle, hypnotic rhythm on her skin. . . . Goddess. . . .

“What is it?” Willow asked again, her voice soft, hesitant. A small frown worried her brow, and she ceased her gentle stroking on Tara’s skin. “Do you—” she began, swallowing a hard lump that had suddenly found its way into her throat. “Is it us?” Willow asked.

Tara’s eyes jerked open, finding Willow’s instantly. “What?” she whispered.

“Are you. . . sorry?”

. . . what. . . . Tara blinked. “Wh-what?”

“About last night?” Willow swallowed again.

“No.” Oh, Goddess, no. . . . “Willow, no.” She tightened her arms around her lover, holding Willow’s gaze unwaveringly.

Willow felt her body’s unexpected release, unaware how quickly everything inside of her had become tight-wired and tense while she had waited for Tara’s answer. “No?”

Tara shook her head slowly, firmly. “Never.”

Willow’s eyes closed briefly before opening to find Tara’s once more. A touch of smile graced her lips as she spoke. “I’m glad,” she said. “Me, too,” she continued, a quick, earnestness in her tone. “Never. Me, too, never, too.”

Tara smiled. “I’m glad.”

The room around them filled with silence as they simply held one another. In the distance outside the window, morning birds began to sing for the new day.

Willow’s smile mirrored Tara’s, and gently she pressed her hand more firmly against her lover’s cheek, until she felt its warmth envelope her palm. “Tara,” she said, taking a breath as the blonde leaned into her touch more fully. “Yesterday— last night. . . ” She took a deep breath, sighing as images skated across her mind. “It was— it was so, so. . . wonderful.”

“It was.”

If possible, Willow’s smile blossomed even more. Her body tingled wherever Tara’s touched it. A feeling of complete happiness filled her. She dropped her hand from Tara’s face, moving her arm beneath the fluffy robe once more. “It was,” she agreed. “Better than I remembered,” she continued, then realized instantly what she had said; her eyes widened slightly. “That’s not— I mean, not better than, cause hello? Always good. No, that’s not— not good. I mean great. It was always great. Great. Wonderful. I mean that it’s been so long and I haven’t really, and then we did— we are, and, I don’t know, it just feels, I don’t know, just really, really mag—” Willow’s babbling tirade ended abruptly, cutting off her thoughts mid-word.

. . . whoa. . . . For a moment, Tara remained silent, simply too stunned by the onslaught that was ‘Willow-sentence.’ But seeing the almost fearful expression on Willow’s face, and knowing what word Willow had stopped herself from saying aloud, Tara suggested, “Majorly better than class?” Willow smiled rather halfheartedly at Tara’s attempt to alleviate her discomfort. The blonde leaned closer then. “Magical,” she whispered against Willow’s lips before kissing the redhead tenderly.

Willow opened her eyes as Tara pulled back from their kiss, staring into their blue depths with new kinds of love and gratefulness. She swallowed before speaking. “Yeah. . . that.”

“Will, it’s ok,” Tara said, maneuvering her left arm out from under the redhead until her hand was free. Willow’s eyes questioned her silently. Tara caressed her cheek with her fingertips. “You can say magical.”

“I. . . .” Willow blinked, then slowly nodded. “. . . I know. . . .”

A soft smile played on Tara’s lips. “Magic. . . magical. . . magically.”

Willow smiled. “You’re teasing me.”

Tara quirked her head a bit as her eyes roamed over her lover’s face briefly before settling once more on Willow’s. “Maybe,” she conceded. “Just a bit.” She dropped her hand to the bed, letting her fingers play with the tips of her lover’s hair. “That was a lot of sentence there.”

“Hmm.” Tara laughed and shook her head, causing Willow to squint at her. “What?” Tara shook her head again. “Not fair,” Willow said. “You, all with the silence.” Tara still said nothing, smiling. “See? A minute ago? You were all quiet and ‘I’m fine’ and I know there was something not fine and you didn’t say anything and then the, well, you know, the whole about last night thing came up and then the agical-may thing getting sorted out and now, now you’re all quiet-girl again.” Willow took a breath. “So. . . what?”

“It’s fine. . . I was fine. I am fine.” Willow’s eyebrows arched. Tara took a breath. “This is very weird.”

Willow’s eyebrows drew together. “What is?”

Oh, God.

“What?”

“I was . . . ,” Tara started, then stopped. She could feel the heat on her cheeks and knew that they had just turned a very bright shade of red. Oh, God.

“What?”

“Last night,” Tara slowly began again.

“Yeah. . . ?”

“Well, I. . . I just remember. . . .” Tara stopped again, and shook her head. “It’s so embarrassing.”

Willow slid her hands up Tara’s back, then slowly down again, letting her fingers knead the warm flesh gently. “I’m sure it’s not.” Her hands continued to stroke Tara’s skin, soothing and supportive in their comforting, loving motions. “Tell me.”

Tara worried her bottom lip, as if she were considering her next words very carefully. She sighed, her body relaxing further into Willow’s. “I wanted to— earlier that is, when I seemed quiet. . .” she started again, and Willow softly smiled her encouragement. “I was actually wondering if last night— and I know we just talked about this a minute ago— but I wanted to know if, for you I mean, if I was, if it was, because you— because I . . . .” Tara broke off, stammering and incomprehensible.

Willow’s brow furrowed in further confusion. Why is she all babble-y girl? She sounds like me. . . oh, my God. . . do I actually sound like that. . . ?

Tara swallowed. . . . oh jeeze. . . . “ . . . I just. . . I just. . . remember you being more. . . .” Willow raised her eyebrows, waiting. “Vocal,” she said quickly, feeling her skin flame red as she said the final word. Before Willow could respond, Tara continued quickly. “And last night. . . I was just wondering if I was— if you— cause, um, you weren’t. . .” Tara stopped, letting her eyes fall away. “. . . very. . . .” she finished, her voice barely above a whisper.

Willow blinked. What? Tara’s words raced through her mind. She blinked again. What? Then, like a cloud lifting, Willow understood quite clearly what Tara was trying to ask her. Oh. . . . Willow stared at Tara silently, still trying to order her thoughts enough to make a reply.

Tara’s face and neck had taken on a very, very crimson glow, and Willow knew how hard— how embarrassing— it must have been for the blonde to ask her such a thing. After all of their time together, after all of the intimacy they had shared together as a couple, Willow knew Tara was still quite shy and private about that aspect of their relationship. It wasn’t as if Tara couldn’t be playful or sexual or assertive in that area; quite the contrary, she could, and had. Many times. Many wonderful times. It was just that that part of Tara was very private and very special, and very rare.

And Willow realized that as much as she herself had felt nervous and hesitant— and even scared— about what happened between them, Tara must have felt those same things. Last night had been like their first time together.

Renewal.

Relearning.

Reintroduction.

Of course Tara would wonder if she had pleased her.

If Tara had brought her the same pleasure.

Of course she would.

Willow had those same questions, those same fears. Every touch, every kiss; had they satisfied Tara? Were they what Tara wanted? Did Tara remember them from before? Was it as good as before? Better than? Willow had wanted everything to be perfect. For everything to be what Tara wanted. What she deserved. Willow’s mind had raced with it. What to do; what not to do. How to move; how not to. She couldn’t think of anything else. Nothing else. Not herself. Just Tara. And with all of her mental ramblings, with all of her worries and fears, Willow realized that she had done exactly what Tara had said.

Or rather, hadn’t done.

And, Tara needed to know.

How Willow felt.

About last night.

About her.

Willow licked her lips and took a deep breath. . . . Tara. . . . Willow pulled her arms from beneath Tara’s robe and brought her hands to the blonde’s face, where she gently cupped her lover’s cheeks; gently, yet firmly, she lifted Tara’s face to meet hers. When Tara’s eyes met hers, Willow held them steady in her gaze. “Tara,” she said softly and then smiled. Her thumbs began a slow caressing rhythm over the skin. “Tara,” she said again, shaking her head softly. “I love you,” she said just before she pulled Tara’s face towards her own, until she was able to press a warm, gentle kiss to Tara’s forehead. “I love you,” she repeated, then kissed the tip of her lover’s nose. “I love you,” Willow whispered before kissing Tara’s lips firmly, fully.

Tara inhaled deeply as Willow’s mouth moved against her own. At that moment, Willow could have recited the entire set of Encyclopedia Britannica, American Heritage Dictionary and Roget’s Thesaurus to her, but none of those words would have meant more to her than those three simple words she had just uttered. In those words, Tara knew exactly how Willow felt— about last night, about her.

Those three words meant everything.

And those three words were enough.

They were more than enough.

Tara’s hands tightened in her lover’s hair as her body pressed more firmly against Willow’s. In only a matter of seconds, Willow had managed to not only quell Tara’s fear and insecurities, but also stoke her desire. . . . Willow. . . .

Willow’s hands dropped away from Tara’s face, then snaked around her lover in a tight embrace. She shifted slightly beneath Tara, moving one leg just enough to get some leverage, before she pushed against the bed and rolled them both over quickly. Their lips came apart as their bodies settled, Tara now beneath Willow. Their breathing was quick and ragged, as they stared into each other’s eyes. Willow licked her lips. “Tara. . . ,” she whispered huskily.

Tara swallowed and nodded slowly. “I know,” she said softly, “I know. . . .”

Willow lowered her mouth to Tara’s once more, tasting the sweet fullness completely.

***

“I don’t know why we always have to go to The Magic Box,” Dawn said. Buffy and Xander flanked her sides as they walked up Main Street. “I mean, we were all at our house, wouldn’t it make more sense for Giles to come there?” The teen stepped around a puddle of water before continuing. “Three against one, democracy, majority rule and all that?”

Buffy rolled her eyes and sighed loudly. “Why me?” she muttered to the heavens.

“It’s the whole old-er-ist thing, Dawnster,” Xander said.

Dawn took a moment to think about it. “‘Old-er-ist thing’?”

Xander nodded. “Yeah, you know, unfair to old people.”

Dawn’s eyebrows furrowed in confusion, then rose in understanding. “You mean ageism?”

“Exactly!” Xander exclaimed.

Dawn thought for a second. “Yeah… but this isn’t ageism.”

Xander was quiet for several seconds as they walked on. Then, “Okay, like minorities, then— and girls, too.”

Dawn’s face scrunched up once again. She glanced at Buffy, finding a similar expression on The Slayer’s face. She looked at Xander. “What?”

He waved a hand in the air. “You know what I mean. Prejudism. . . all that.”

“Prejudism?” Dawn asked, mostly to herself. “You mean. . . prejudice?”

“Exactly!” Xander repeated.

Dawn took a breath. “Yeah… this isn’t prejudice either.”

Xander pointed at each of them. “We’re young and able.” Dawn raised an eyebrow. “Giles is old… and I hate to say this, but he’s getting a little slow with the punchy-kicky.” Dawn’s other eyebrow joined its mate. “So, with him being, well, Giles, and old and stuff, and us, being young, we go to him, and him is in The Magic Box.”

“He,” Dawn corrected.

“Exactly!”

Buffy rolled her eyes and sighed loudly. “Why me?” she muttered to the heavens once more.

***

“Mmm. . . do you think we should get up?”

Willow’s left hand ceased its slow stroking of Tara’s calf, resting at her ankle, as she considered the question. She propped herself up on her right elbow and looked at Tara, who half-lay, half-sat against the headboard, her length barely covered by the tangled sheet. “I don’t know.” Her thumb gently caressed the rise of anklebone.

Tara took a slow breath. She glanced to the table beside the bed. “Nine-thirty.” She looked at Willow again and smiled. “I guess we should.”

Willow returned her smile. “Guess so.”

Neither moved.

Then Willow’s hand began its gentle motion again. My Tara. . . .

Tara tilted her head as she watched Willow, the smile never leaving her face. She placed her right hand on Willow’s leg, just where ankle met calf. My Willow. . . .

Contented silence followed. Tara began to worry her bottom lip lightly, and then she sat up, her left hand quickly grabbing the sheet and holding it to her chest. Willow’s lips drew into a pout as she watched Tara prevent the sheet from falling. “Vixen,” Tara said quietly, laughingly, as she watched the redhead’s playful display from the corner of her eye. Willow simply shrugged, as if to say, ‘can you blame me?’ Tara shifted onto her left hip and reached over the side of the bed, having no choice now but to release the sheet as she did.

Willow’s eyebrows furrowed as Tara’s unexpected maneuver pulled her leg away from her hand, and then waggled lasciviously as the sheet covering the blonde fell away. Niiiice.

Tara glanced at Willow, and seeing the redhead’s satisfied smile, couldn’t help but smile as well. My vixen. Tara took a breath and sat back up to face Willow.

The redhead’s smile was on its brightest wattage upon seeing that Tara had decided against re-covering herself. Verrrry. . . niiiice.

Tara released a breath as she brought her hand up from the side of the bed. She watched Willow’s smile falter, then disappear entirely as the redhead’s notebook was set on top of the sheet covering her thighs. Willow’s eyes found hers then, and as Tara expected, there was trepidation and uncertainty filling them. Tara reached out, laying a hand soft against Willow’s ankle. “Is this okay?”

Willow’s eyes dropped instinctively to the bound pages. For the redhead, the air in the room suddenly seemed to be elsewhere; but her heart seemed to be working overtime, pounding uncontrollably in her chest. Willow swallowed and then took a breath. . . . oh. . . . Slowly, imperceptively, she nodded.

“Yes?” Squeezing the redhead’s leg gently, Tara smiled softly. “You sure?”

Willow squeezed Tara’s ankle in return, then leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss there. She met Tara’s eyes and took a breath. “Yes.”

Tara stared into Willow’s eyes, gauging the redhead’s words; it wasn’t as if Tara thought that Willow was lying; it was more that she wanted to know– without a doubt or future regret– that Willow was really sure, really okay with her reading the private tome. She ran her palm over the smooth surface of the paper.

Willow smiled softly, understanding without words, Tara’s continued hesitation. She lowered her lips to Tara’s ankle again, and then shifted and scooched down on the bed until she was pressed against her lover’s side; she rested her head on the back of her hand where it lay on Tara’s ankle. She met Tara’s eyes and waited silently.

Tara watched Willow get comfortable, and sighed inwardly as the redhead pressed her body against her own. With one more reassuring squeeze to Willow’s calf, Tara turned her eyes to the spiral notebook resting on her lap. She flipped the cover open, her gaze falling on the first page.

‘1 Day STL

This is the very first day since you left me
And there's just too many unanswered questions
And I still can't believe that you're gone
But you're gone I'm alone and I'm still living
I don't like it but I'll take it till I'm strong
And all that I can hear myself saying baby is I still can't believe you're gone
And I still can't believe you're gone

You left last night, Tara. I can’t stop crying. I can’t stand up. I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe.

‘2 Days STL

Tell me when I can open my eyes
I don’t want to watch you walk out that door
There’s no easy way to get through goodbye
I’d probably try and talk you into staying once more

I should tell you that I want you to go
I really need to spend some time on my own
Smile and say goodbye
So you don’t see me dying inside
Is it over yet, is it over yet?’

I hid in the bathroom, Tara. I didn’t want you to see you pack. I didn’t want to see you leave. I didn’t want to hear you say goodbye. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to. . . .

‘3 Days STL

Unloose this hold you've got on me
Unlock this heart that can't get free
Unlive the night you kissed and hugged me
Undream the dreams that we both shared
Unfeel the feelin' that you cared
Before you pack your bags and leave
One thing I wish you'd do for me
Take a little time to just unlove me
Unlove me
Untie all the strings between your heart and mine
Unlove me
But do it real slow, so I don't have to lose you all at one time

Tara, I can’t imagine waking up another day with you gone. It hurts too much. You not here hurts so much.

‘4 days STL

Every time the phone rings
I wonder if it’s you
I’ve about worn out those records
We used to listen to
And I curse the day I ever let you in
Cause now you’re gone
And here I go
Here I go again’

You called yesterday. I knew it was you before you even said a word. You asked for Buffy, and I— oh God, Tara, I just wanted to listen to your voice forever. I gave the phone to Buffy without you saying another word to me, and I knew that I never would.


Tears filled Tara’s eyes, blurring the words on the pages she held in her lap. Oh, Willow. . . .

Willow watched Tara for several minutes, watched as the blonde turned each page and read each line. She watched Tara closely, knowing with each turned page, what words lay there. She had those words memorized. She knew them all. Tara’s eyes had filled with tears, and Willow watched her silently, knowing with a welling fear that those tears— at first sad and loving— would turn to hurt and anger as the blonde continued reading.

‘5 days STL

I don't have plans and schemes
And I don't have hopes and dreams
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you....

I don't have happiness
And I guess I never will again,
When you walked out on me
In walked old misery
And he's been here since then...’

Tara, everything has turned to black and white. You were color, and sun and moon, and now there is nothing. I can’t feel anything. I can’t laugh or smile or do anything. Except cry. Just cry.

‘6 days STL

You taught me how to love
What it's of, what it's of
You never said too much
But still you showed the way
And I knew from watching you
Nobody else could ever know
The part of me that can't let go

I would give anything I own
Give up my life, my heart, my home
I would give ev'rything I own
Just to have you back again
Just to touch you once again’

Is there anything I can do to get you back? Should I beg? I’ll beg. Should I crawl? I’ll crawl. I’ll do anything, Tara, anything to have one more chance with you.

‘7 days STL

Lost and all alone
I always thought that I could make it on my own
Since you left I hardly make it through the day
My tears get in the way
And I need you back to stay

I wander through the night
And search the world to find
The words to make it right
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me
I’ve got to make you see

That I’m lost without your love
Life without you isn’t worth the trouble of
I’m as helpless as a ship without a wheel
A touch without a feel
I can’t believe it’s real...’

I wrote down everything I would say to you if I could talk to you one more time. If you would just let me talk to you one more time. I wrote pages and pages, but they all said the same thing: I’m sorry. I love you.

‘8 days STL

How can I just let you walk away?
Just let you leave without a trace?
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me?
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
Well there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now
'Cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take
Take a look at me now’

I know you’re gone. I haven’t heard from you. No one tells me anything about you. But if you could just see me now, Tara, you’d see, I’m so sorry. I miss you. And I’m so sorry.

‘9 days STL

Don't tell me that it's over because I know my heart won't hear
It thinks we'll be together like we've been for all these years
I know this may sound foolish, but you've got to realize

I'd rather be a fool than to say good-bye
I'd rather take my chances that I'll get one more try
I'd rather live a lie than to face the truth
Before I'd love somebody new, I'd rather miss you’

I miss you.

‘10 days STL

Ev'ry night, ev'ry day
You're the one I always dream of
Ev'ry line of your face
Is sketched so plain inside my heart
You've grown so deep inside of me
You're everything I feel and see
And you're the one, you're the one I love’

I had that dream again. The one I told you about last year? Remember the one? We’re walking on the beach and the sun is setting. We’re laughing. And you just kissed me. There on the beach. For everyone to see. And I was never more happy than in that one moment. . . .

‘11 days STL
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know any way
Anymore

It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here?

What am I doing? I can’t do anything. I just miss you, Tara. All the time. Every day, and every night. What am I supposed to do now? You’re really gone… what am I supposed to do?


Tara sniffled and lifted her hand from the page; she wiped a runaway tear from her cheek. Tara looked at Willow, the hurt and ache in her heart pressing against her chest almost painfully. Willow. . . .

Willow raised her eyes to Tara’s, shame welling up as she saw the tears fall from her lover’s eyes.

Softly, Tara caressed the redhead’s calf, back and forth, comforting and gentle in rhythmic strokes. On one last pass, she wrapped her fingers firmly around the slender ankle, holding her lover’s leg securely in her grasp, a silent, unspoken show of support and acceptance.

Willow swallowed the lump that had lodged itself in her throat. She dropped her eyes from Tara’s, letting them settle on her own hand, where her own fingers were wrapped around the blonde’s ankle.

Tara lowered her eyes to the pages once again.

‘12 days STL

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There’s pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and should have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

Would it help if i turned a sad song on
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.’

How can I still cry? How can there be any more tears left inside of me? But I know, Tara, I know I won’t ever stop crying. I’m trying everything, but I know I won’t stop crying.

‘13 days STL

I always wondered how I'd live without you
If you ever said goodbye
Would I just live in dreams about you
With tears in my eyes
Would I fall to pieces when you go
I always wondered how I'd live without you
Now I know

I always wondered what I'd do without you
I found out today
I got up and made a cup of coffee
And time just slipped away
I dressed up and went out on the town
To places you'd never go
I always wondered what I'd do without you
Now I know
Now I know’

I started today. Trying. I did what I should do— dress, eat, school, research— but it all just seems so empty, and I feel so empty. And alone. And I know, Tara, this is my life now. This is how I’m going to live my life without you. Empty. Alone.

‘14 days STL

Everywhere I go
I see your face through the crowd
Everywhere I go
I hear your voice clear and loud
Everywhere I go
You are the light that I seek
Everywhere I go
You have found me’

I saw you twice today. Between classes. Hundreds of students all around and I saw you. Happy. Beautiful. You took my breath away. I started to call out your name, but. . . .


Tara closed her eyes, and took a slow breath. Oh. . . Willow. . . . She couldn’t read anymore. She never knew— could never know or understand— the pain Willow had gone through when the blonde had left. But reading the words on the pages of Willow’s diary, the days and days of pain and hurt regret, she was, at last, beginning to.

Because. . . it was just like hers.

What hers had been.

Willow had shared in her pain and loss.

As bad as the magic was, Willow could still feel. Somewhere, in the back of Tara’s mind, she believed— maybe convinced herself to believe— that that part of Willow had been lost— lost in the magic.

But these words proved her wrong.

These words proved that Willow— her Willow— was there.

Had always been there.

Tara opened her eyes and looked at Willow. “Will,” she said, her voice choked with emotion. When Willow didn’t respond, she cleared her throat and tried again. “Willow.”

Willow lifted her eyes to Tara’s. She could see the hurt there, swimming in pools of blue, and she knew she was its cause. As much as she had wanted Tara to read her words, Willow had known they would cause her lover pain. That she would cause her pain. Again.The shame and guilt of that, it rose again, causing Willow’s own eyes to fill.

“It’s beautiful, Willow.”

Willow shook her head softly.

“Yes.”

“Not. . . not all of it.”

Tara tipped her head, considered Willow’s words. She lifted the notebook and set it on the nightstand to her left. She released Willow’s leg and held out her hand. “Come here.” Willow hesitated for a moment, unsure, scared. “Will.” Willow took a breath and sat up. Tara reached out. “Closer.” Willow scooted closer, till she was at Tara’s hip. Tara took hold of Willow’s hand and gently tugged. “Closer.” Willow couldn’t help but smile; she shifted to her knees, then moved her right leg over both of Tara’s, straddling the blonde’s thighs. Tara raised Willow’s hand to her lips and kissed the palm.

Willow shifted her gaze to the nightstand, to where the notebook lay. She wasn’t sure where to begin. Or what she wanted to say exactly. But she had to say something. “Tara,” she began, her voice barely above a whisper.

“Willow, please. . . look at me.” Tara raised her free hand to Willow’s face, gently cupping the redhead’s cheek; she turned Willow’s face towards her own, but the redhead’s eyes remained elusive. “Look at me.” Willow took a deep breath and met Tara’s eyes. The blonde shook her head softly as she spoke. “There’s nothing ugly in there, Willow.” Willow opened her mouth to speak, but Tara quickly put a finger against her lover’s lips. “What you wrote— what you felt. . . it’s not ugly. . . or wrong.” She made sure Willow was looking into her eyes. “Or hurtful,” she finished.

Willow took hold of Tara’s hand and lowered it from her face; she held it against her chest, over her heart. “You haven’t read it all,” Willow said, her voice low. “You didn’t—” She broke off, unable to finish. . . . you don’t know, Tara, you don’t know. . . .

Tara nodded and gave Willow’s hand a gentle squeeze. “I’ll read it.” She lifted her free hand a tucked a wild strand of hair behind Willow’s ear. “We’ll read it. . . together.”

Willow dropped her head and placed a lingering kiss on Tara’s fingers. . . . together. . . . She lifted her eyes to Tara’s once more.

An easy silence rose between them as they simply stared at one another. After a minute, Tara’s hand drifted to her neck, to her blue and green beaded necklace; she fingered the small beads, rolling them between her fingertips.

Willow’s gaze followed Tara’s hand. “That’s pretty.”

“Thank you.” Tara’s fingers stilled. “I made it.”

“It’s very pretty.”

Tara smiled. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome,” Willow said, as she smiled.

Without warning, Tara’s heart tightened in her chest. It surged with a sudden sensation of love— complete love for Willow. And in that one instant, she knew there was nothing she wouldn’t do for Willow, there was nothing she wouldn’t give. Everything she was, and everything she had, it all belonged to Willow.

It always had.

And it always would.

Tara wriggled her hand from Willow’s; she reached both behind her to release the small clasp of the necklace. She lifted it from her throat and held it out towards Willow.

Willow’s brow furrowed as Tara pulled her hand away, but her confusion only grew as the blonde removed her necklace and offered it to her. Willow shook her head. “No, Tara, I can’t.”

Tara pushed herself up, moving her hands towards Willow neck. “Lift.”

“Tara.”

“Lift.” Willow sighed deeply, then lifted her hair away from her neck. Tara reached around the redhead’s throat, and clicked the jewelry in place. Tara leaned back, resting once more against the headboard, as her eyes lingered on the small necklace; she dropped her hands to rest on Willow’s thighs. Perfect. . . beautiful. . . .

Willow’s fingers found their way to the beads, running over them with something akin to reverence. “Thank you.”

Tara smiled. Then she reached up and tapped a finger against one small green bead. “One hundred and eighteen.”

Willow’s eyes riveted to Tara’s. . . . 118? 118. One bead for. . . for every day we were. . . oh, Tara. . . . Willow felt tears welling in her eyes.

Tara’s eyes followed suit. “Closer,” she whispered.

Willow smiled softly.

And moved closer.

TBC
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Zooeys_Bridge » Sun Feb 24, 2008 8:22 am

wow, really? did no one Dibs this? Cause I sure will.

Kris, Kris, Kris. I love your stories so so much. A few months ago (y'know, back when I had this little thing called 'time'), I had gone back to check Pens for any gems. Well, I came across DF and reread that ho hum, maybe three times. Imagine my suprise when I come across another Kris fic! Hurrah! Naturally, I devoured it. You're just....so good!

The magic between Buffy and Dawn is something I wish we could have seen in the show. You've just stripped all the muck and junk off their relationship and varnished it to a beautiful finish. Bless you.

And what can I say about Tara and Willow? They're both so spot on, in terms of their pain and how they related to it differently. One day I might go back and do proper fb on your other chapters because they're so deserving, but this one? The whole thing was just...gah. The tender lovin' was smooth, fluid, and quite hot. They way Tara woke Willow up, my little heart when 'shmoosh'! But I gotta tell ya, what really made my eyes water was the final bit where Tara gave Willow her necklace. And that realization where the necklace was Tara's way of dealing with her pain. The necklace was her notebook and I love how she just gave it up without a moment's hesitation.

Ugh. Kris, Kris, Kris it's soooooo good. Not to mention the extra squee of knowing you're still writing, so I'll keep my fingers crossed for updates in the future :)
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby hondos » Sun Feb 24, 2008 11:29 am

update Wow...It has been a long,kong time but what a wonderful suprise.
What a great way to start a Sunday.I had given up on this but I am sooo pleased you had not.
I loved the nervousness o0f them here in the morning after.I really enjoyed the entries of the diary.I hope it wont be another nine months for a new instalment but if so I will wait.... ;-)
So glad to see this
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby WillowRulez » Sun Feb 24, 2008 4:07 pm

Wow, I really didnt expect to see an update on this! You havent lost your touch :smash It's such a beautiful story, I hope you will continue it.
As you know I love the STL bits. Since I am going through something similar right now the songs tug at my heartstrings even more.
Especially loved the necklace bit!
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby wimpy0729 » Sun Feb 24, 2008 6:16 pm

Hi Kris. So glad to see an update. So well written, the coming back together, so touching, and you can just feel the love oozing from the girls with your words. Also, some of the best love scenes ever written for our beloved characters. Now I have to go back and re-read from the beginning to get caught back up.

Great job. Can't wait to read more, and soon I hope.


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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby love_2003 » Mon Feb 25, 2008 4:32 am

I just found this story and spent the last couple hours reading it. I really love how you are writing the Willow/Tara story. I hope you keep the updates coming.
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Insight, Part Two: Act One(2D)

Postby KrisBo5 » Sun Mar 02, 2008 8:56 pm

Hello, to everyone. A few responses to some nice feedback:

Zooeys_Bridge, well, lol, a “Pens gem,” huh? Them’s big words for my little story. Thank you. Ok, let’s see… Buffy and Dawn. Well, I wasn’t all that happy with their relationship on the show, for many reasons. I just wanted them to be different, better— as sisters, and as people. I’m not saying I write better than JW, but I just didn’t like the way it went. So, thank you, I’m glad they work so well for you. And, this: “…stripped all the muck and junk off their relationship and varnished it to a beautiful finish.” Really nice metaphor – keep writing, you have a beautiful way with a phrase. Tara and Willow: lol, “shmoosh,” huh? Lol. I’m glad the necklace bit worked; I was hesitating, I almost didn’t write it, but I felt like it was important to show that Tara, like Willow, marked “time apart” in her own special way. Thank you so much for reading, and enjoying the story so much. And, as always, for leaving such nice and flattering feedback. Hope you stay with it to the end.

hondos, hi, Rosemary. Yes, a “long kong” time between updates. As I said, I let this one get away from me, and just only came back and found it again. I’m glad you liked the diary and the “nervousness” of the two. It’s been fun, and challenging, to get entries for the diary— so many songs to go through to match what I need. I’m hoping that it won’t take so long for me to update, too! Lol! Thanks for not giving up, and for taking the time to leave feedback, I appreciate it.

WillowRulez, Glad you love the STL bits. Sorry to hear you are going through something similar. Hope it gets better for you soon. Take care, ok? Thanks for leaving such kind feedback.

wimpy0729, wow… where to start. Some of the best love scenes ever written for the two, huh? Really? No, really? You’re making me blush. Ack, that’s the most difficult thing for me. Very glad you are enjoying the story; I know it’s been a long time between updates. I hope you stick with it to the end. Thanks, so much for the generous feedback.

love_2003, glad you found the story and that you are liking it. I’ll keep writing, as fast as I can, lol, real life permitting.

Thanks everyone, for reading and responding. It's appreciated muchly.
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby GrimCityGirl » Wed Mar 05, 2008 5:17 pm

Wow, I hadn't seen this story before, really glad you'd updated it because reading all of that was fantastic. hats off to you! very romantic. I love the little Dawn/Xander conversation haha "Exactly!" that was great. kudos x
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby shyamberlover » Thu Mar 06, 2008 2:32 pm

Thank you thank you thank you, what a fantastic update, i loved it, especially the beaded necklace, i love the way you did that, thanks again, and ermm more please :pray :pray :pray :pray :pray

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby barnabasvamp » Mon Mar 10, 2008 4:52 pm

:party OMG, she lives! Jeeze Kris, just seems like a year and a half ago I begged for an update! *LOL*
Nice to see you made it back to the states and your hibernating muse has finally awakened again.
Nice update, you certainly haven't lost your touch. Glad you added the necklace part, shows how much they both missed each other.

Any chance of "Darkness" getting a visit from the muse? A girl can dream :gnome

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby foreverchanges » Mon May 10, 2010 3:43 pm

This is quite simply the greatest ever W&T reconciliation fic. It breathes love, tenderness and forgiveness. They permeate every single fucking word.

I found it about a year ago and was elated to finally find the scene as I longed to see it written. I've just read it again and realise it is even better than I at first thought.

Thank you for sharing this, it is a thing of quiet beauty.

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Responses: Insight

Postby KrisBo5 » Mon Aug 02, 2010 4:56 pm

Well, it's been... actually, it's been a couple years, lol, but I am finally responding to the kind posts left on this abandoned fic. I apologize to those who have posted and thank you all for following this one.

leftindust, glad you found the story (two years ago, lol). And glad you liked the Dawn/Xander exchange. I do my best… thanks for reading & posting.

shyamberlover, glad you liked the update (two years ago, lol). I had the necklace scene planned for a long time (and for another story, actually, but it seemed to work here better) so I’m happy that I pulled it off. And, well, two years late… see below.

BV, LOL, I know, right? I have completely fallen off the face of the Earth (or, Sunnydale, at least). Long story, summed up, real life, real job, real sucky, no writing…. I’m happy the necklace part worked as well as it did; I thought it was kinda romantic (but was hoping not cheesy). As for DF, well, that is stalled I’m afraid. I have dragged it out and am going over it, but I don’t know, I’ll try…. And, yes, dream away, girl, dream away! Thanks for hanging in there!

foreverchanges, well, thank you for that high praise, it makes me blush, lol. I’m thinking the scene you are referring to is the “make-up” scene? That was not the easiest thng for me to write, but it turned out better than I thought it would. So, I’m glad that you liked it and that it was close to what you had always imagined for the two. Hope I continue to please. Thanks for taking the time to post!

Thanks, again, everyone. And, finally, update below. Hope it eases the wait till the next one!

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Insight, Part Three: Act Two(A)

Postby KrisBo5 » Mon Aug 02, 2010 5:40 pm

Title: Insight
Author: KrisBo5
Email address: KrisBo5@aol.com
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Distribution: This is the narrative form of a spec script I had written for BVS, which is registered with the WGAw, so please don’t publish it or reproduce it in any way, shape, or form.
Spoilers: Season 6. Past “Hell’s Bells” but not up to “Entropy.” Around the middle of those, but I’m taking liberties.
Rating: This covers the story in its entirety: PG-13 to NC–17. This includes sex, some mild violence, language. For this part, specifically, I would say R-Hard R, but I’m not sure.
Pairing: Willow and Tara, of course. Buffy and the others are here as well.
Disclaimer: I didn’t create these characters, those kudos belong to Joss and crew. I’m just borrowing them for the story I did write. As for the notebook entries(I changed some words to fit the context of my story – no offense or infringement was intended) they were taken from
Summary: The Scoobies have gotten back together, just not “back together.” Tara’s got some kind of “power.” Buffy’s “gone missing.” And, then there are those pesky demons. . . .
Note: This is a little lighter, a little more comedic, a little less verbose. Really, a straight translation from script-to-narrative format. Without further ado, here it is. . .

Insight, Part Three: Act Two(A)


“This is bunk.” Dawn plopped down on a bench, dropping several books on the table in front of her.

Buffy sat across from her, dropping a similar load. “Bunk?” she asked.

Dawn crossed her arms over the tops of the books. “That’s what I said.” Buffy raised an eyebrow. “I mean, where is everyone?” The teen glanced around the Magic Shop, then back at her sister. The Slayer surveyed the shop quickly, then lifted a shoulder. “I thought this was some kind of. . .” Dawn raised her hands and made imaginary quotes in the air “. . . emergency meeting? Yeah, some emergency, right, I mean, where’s Giles?” Again, Buffy non-committed, resting her elbow on the table, her chin in the palm of her hand. Dawn sighed loudly, and then picked up one of the random tomes and started reading.

***

Willow and Tara walked down Main Street towards the Magic Box, their arms linked together, their fingers entwined. The sun was bright and warm, and people swarmed the sidewalks.

“It’s such a beautiful day,” Willow said, taking in a long deep breath.

Tara looked at Willow and couldn’t stop the smile from forming on her lips. Truly, truly beautiful. . . . “Very beautiful.”

Willow looked at Tara, noticed that the blonde was looking at her, not at the sky or at the sun or at some other nature-ly type thing. Tara meant her. Meant Willow. “Stop,” Willow said, bumping her hip against Tara’s.

Tara laughed and squeezed Willow’s hand tighter. “Never,” she said, pressing a quick kiss to Willow’s lips. Willow’s eyes widened when Tara kissed her. Tara tipped her head. “What?”

Willow glanced away, watched several people pass by them. “I. . . you. . . .” Willow felt her skin flush.

“What?” Tara asked again.

A small smile turned the corners of Willow’s lips. She softly shook her head. “You’ve never. . .” She shrugged. “We never kissed in public before.”

Tara digested the words quietly. “No,” she agreed.

Willow couldn’t help herself. “Why now?”

Tara took a step closer to Willow. “We’re together. I love you.” Tara smiled. “Now I just don’t care who knows that.”

Willow felt a lump rise in her throat. “Tara.”

Tara’s smile was soft. “That’s not true.” She raised a hand to Willow’s cheek. “I want everyone to know.”

Willow closed her eyes and took a deep, steadying breath. Her heart ached with love for Tara. How she had lasted so long without her, Willow had no idea. But now that Tara was here, was here with her, she wasn’t going to waste one second. Willow opened her eyes and smiled. “Then kiss me again.”

Tara’s smile blossomed a moment more, before she leaned in and pressed another, longer kiss against Willow’s lips.

Willow raised a hand to Tara’s hip, squeezing softly. Tara. . . .

Tara pulled back, planting one last peck on Willow’s lips before looking into her eyes. “I love you.”

Willow felt tears welling. “I love you, too.”

Tara’s head tilted. She smiled and took hold of the hand at her hip. “Come on.”

***

The four demons moved as one, unnoticed and silent, down Main Street. They were oblivious to everyone they passed, their black eyes focused ahead, focused on their goal. As they neared The Magic Box, their pace slowed. They stopped, stared at the building, ground to roof.

Demon-25 turned to the rest, motioned with a gnarled hand. The others made no response; they merely turned from one another and moved towards the shop. Demon-25 followed. With no effort, they scaled the exterior of The Magic Box, up to the roof. Again, Demon-25 motioned to the others, who moved apart, each walking to a corner edge of the roof.

***

Tara and Willow approached The Magic Box at a leisurely pace. Willow wove her arm through Tara’s, her fingers entwined with the blonde’s; her other hand held the blonde’s upper arm loosely, albeit possessively.

“I hope this doesn’t take too long,” Willow said.

Tara smiled. “Me, too.”

Willow continued. “I mean, if it’s end-of-the-world-kablooeyness, okay, I’m all in, but. . . .” Her voice trailed off as she took a deep breath.

Tara squeezed Willow’s hand. “But. . . .”

Willow held Tara’s arm more tightly. “But. . . if it’s, you know, Hell Mouth update, then, well, I’d just rather be—”

“Somewhere else?”

Willow slowed her steps until they both stopped. She looked at Tara. “With you.” She released Tara’s arm and raised her hand to her lover’s cheek. “I’d just rather be with you.”

Tara took a deep breath and closed her eyes. Sighing, she opened her eyes and smiled. “Willow.”

***

Once more, Demon-25 raised a hand to the others.

Demon-60 reached inside its robe, then slowly removed a glass-encased object: a replica hourglass.

***

Tara stiffened, a small frown creasing her brow.

Willow’s hand froze. Then, slowly fell away to hang in the air between them. “Tara?”

Tara turned away from Willow, her eyes scanning the street around them. “Did you—” Confusion filled her as she searched passing faces and cars.

Willow released Tara’s arm. “Tara? What is it?” The redhead followed Tara’s gaze, not knowing exactly what she should be looking for. She turned back to Tara. “What’s wrong?”

Tara shook her head softly, almost absently, as she turned back to Willow. “Did. . . did you feel that?”

Willow’s brow creased as she shook her head. “What?”

“I. . .” Tara began. Without thought her hand found Willow’s. “I don’t. . . know.” Willow squeezed Tara’s hand softly, a sign of support, a sign of encouragement. “It was just— I don’t know, it was just. . . .” She shook her head again. “. . . weird.”

“‘Weird’. . . . How?”

Tara stared into Willow’s eyes, their green depths filled with concern. Suddenly the blonde smiled and rolled her eyes. “I don’t— it’s nothing.”

“Tara.” Willow’s tone warned that she wasn’t buying the ‘it’s nothing’ answer.

Tara stared into Willow’s eyes. “Really, Will, it’s nothing.” Willow remained quiet. “I think I’m just tired.” She lifted an eyebrow as her head tilted forward in a conspiratorial manner.

Willow couldn’t help herself: she laughed out loud. She felt a blush rise and she shook her head. “Tara.”

Tara smiled. “Yes?”

Willow took a deep breath, and smiled softly. “You’re sure? You’re okay?”

Tara nodded. “I am.” With that, she leaned forward and pressed her lips to Willow’s. When she pulled back, her mouth inches from Willow’s she added, “I really, really am.”

Willow’s eyes gravitated to Tara’s lips, so close to her own. Oh, geez. . . . She raised her eyes to meet Tara’s. “Okay.” She licked her suddenly-dry lips. “How fast do you think we can get this meeting over with?”

“Fast.”

So fast.”

***

Buffy spun around and delivered a solid roundhouse kick to the hanging workout bag. Without hesitation, she jumped up and landed a fierce front kick as the bag swung back towards her. In rapid succession, she delivered blow after blow, never losing balance, never missing her target.

***

The bell over the door at the Magic Box jangled noisily as Willow and Tara entered hand-in-hand. Dawn looked up from the book she was reading. She smiled broadly as she watched the women walk into the shop. “Hey, guys!” she said, her voice sounding as happy as her expression.

Tara smiled. “Hi, Dawnie.”

“Hey, Dawnie,” Willow replied almost at the same time.

Behind the counter, Anya glanced at her watch. “Finally.” She shut the cash drawer. “Every minute closed is profit lost.”

Dawn’s smile turned to a slight sneer before she bounded from her chair and ran towards the two witches. Tara caught Dawn in a hug, smiling at Willow over the teen’s shoulder. “Sweetie,” Tara laughed, “needing air here.”

Dawn released the blonde. “Sorry.” She turned and threw her arms around Willow.

Willow laughed as her arms held the teen tightly. “Hi, Dawnie.”

Dawn let Willow go and stepped back. She took each of their hands in one of her own and smiled. “You guys look great.”

Willow smiled. “Thanks, Dawnie.”

“Can we get on with this already?” Anya stood beside the counter, hands on hips. “If the groping session is over, that is.”

Dawn dropped the witches’ hands and turned towards Anya. “You know what?”

“Dawn,” Tara said quietly.

The teen looked at Tara. “She started it.”

Tara smiled. “Don’t worry, okay?”

“But. . . .”

“No ‘buts,’ Dawnie.”

Dawn sighed, then glanced once more at Anya. She sighed overdramatically. “Fine.” She started off towards the back of the Magic Shop.

Willow followed a few steps behind her. “Dawnie?”

The teen waved a hand in the air. “I’ll get Buffy.”

Anya turned back to the register. “At last.” She glanced at her watch. “Still many hours of money to be made.”

Willow looked back at Tara and held out her hand. “Sit with me?”

Tara smiled and took Willow’s hand in hers. “Always.”

Hand-in-hand, the two witches moved to the abandoned table. Willow pulled a chair out for Tara and smiled. Tara squeezed Willow’s hand briefly and sat, patting the empty chair beside her.

“Willow,” Anya said.

Willow paused, her hand resting on the chair back. She glanced at Anya. “Yeah?”

The Vengeance Demon pointed towards the end of the counter, where a laptop sat. “Can you check that?”

Willow glanced at the counter, noticing several dozen jars filled with all sorts of powders and liquids, as well as a laptop. “The computer?”

Anya sighed. “Of course.”

“Why?”

Anya threw up a hand. “It’s possessed.”

“Possessed?” Willow asked. She heard Tara giggle beside her. The redhead looked at the blonde and shook her head. She kept her eyes on Tara’s as Anya spoke.

Anya sighed and lowered her pen. “It’s not spinning around or anything,” she said, “but it is spitting out information that makes no sense at all.”

Tara smiled softly and squeezed Willow’s hand again. “Go ahead.”

Willow paused a moment longer, then smiled. “Okay.” And then, not caring whether Anya saw them or not, Willow leaned down and kissed Tara softly. When she pulled back, Tara’s eyes were bright, and her smile full. “One Exorcism coming right up.” With reluctance, she released Tara’s hand and walked over to the counter.

Tara watched Willow as she moved across the shop towards the counter, watched as the redhead opened the laptop and prepared to perform her own brand of “magic” on it.

“Where’s Xander and Giles?” Willow asked absently, as she waited for the laptop to boot up.

Anya raised a hand. “Don’t get me started.”

Willow paused. “Okay.” She turned her attention to the items on the counter beside the laptop. Jars filled with powders of all colors, jars filled with roots and herbs and leaves of all varieties. Curious, Willow bent forward and leaned a jar on its side; there inside, a small ‘glob’ of blackish liquid was trying to climb the sides of the glass. What the. . . .

“I mean, is it too much to ask that they provide some form of refreshment if we’re subjected to these mindless meetings?”

Willow set the jar back down and looked at Anya. .“Ooo-kaay.” She turned her attention to the laptop with one last glance at the strange jar she had been examining.

Smiling at the familiar exchange, Tara turned and pulled an aged book from the stack on the table and sat back in her chair.

***

Demon-45 reached inside its robe, then slowly removed a glass-encased object: a small replica Earth and Moon.

***

Dawn re-entered the shop just as the bell above the door jangled. Giles and Xander walked in, hands filled with coffee carriers and donut bags. The teen smiled. “Yummy.”

Xander smiled. “I second that, Dawnster. I even— Will!”

Willow glanced over her shoulder. “Hey, Xander.”

The carpenter hopped down the stairs, his smile widening. “Glad you’re here.”

“Me, too,” she replied, returning his smile.

Xander continued into the shop, passing the last bookcase. “Tara!”

Tara’s eyes widened somewhat at the volume of his voice. “Xander?”

He plunked the two boxes of donuts onto the table and impulsively leaned down and hugged Tara. “Glad you’re here.”

Tara paused briefly, then wrapped her arms around Xander. “Me, too,” she replied, smiling brightly.

Willow’s and Tara’s eyes met and held. Willow tipped her head and sighed softly. Silently, she mouthed to Tara, “Me, too.”

Xander released Tara and sat in the chair beside her. Reaching behind him, he retrieved a folded newspaper and laid it out on the table in front of him. He pulled a pen from his jacket pocket and held it aloft. Glancing at Tara, he smiled broadly. “I love research.”

Tara’s eyes dropped to the paper, and she laughed quietly when she saw that it was the crossword puzzle. “Right. Research.”

Xander touched the pen to his forehead in mock salute, then brought it down to the paper.

Giles walked further into the shop, setting two trays of drinks on the table beside Tara. He gave the blonde witch a smile. “Good morning, Tara.”

Tara smiled. “Mr. Giles.”

Giles cleared his throat and glanced around the shop. “Is Buffy here?”

Dawn grabbed a donut as she plopped down in a chair beside Tara. “Training.” She took a huge bite. “Sthee’s conin.”

Giles glanced at the teen. “Excuse me?”

Dawn started to answer, but Tara put a hand on her arm. “She’ll be right out, Mr. Giles,” Tara said.

Giles nodded and smiled at Tara before walking towards Anya.

Tara patted Dawn’s arm. “Don’t talk with food in your mouth, Dawnie.”

The teen swallowed hard. “Sorry.”

Tara winked and gave her a soft smile before turning back to the book in front of her.

Giles stopped in front of the counter, across from Anya. “How are you, Anya?”

The Vengeance Demon rolled her eyes before crossing her arms over her chest. “How. Am I?”

Giles cleared his throat. “Eh. . . .”

Willow’s eyes darted towards the shopkeeper, her fingers frozen over the laptop keyboard. Uh oh. Anya turned towards Willow, raising an eyebrow. Willow’s eyes snapped back to the screen in front of her, her fingers clacking quickly across the keys.

Anya returned her gaze to Giles, shifting from one foot to the other. “How. . . am. . . I?” she asked again, this time in a more contemplative, sing-song voice. She dropped her arms and glanced around her. “Let’s see. . . .”

***

Demon-13 reached inside its robe, then slowly removed another glass-encased object: a small replica sun.

***

By the time Anya had finished the litany of just exactly “how she was,” every eye was on her. Everyone remained perfectly still and quiet, not quite sure if they should make any sound or movement at all.

Willow’s eyes drifted to Tara’s, then to Anya. She took a deep breath. Okay. . . goin’ in. “Anya?” The Vengeance Demon slowly turned her gaze to the redhead. Willow tried not to cringe under her stare. “Uh, . . . about your computer?”

Anya unfolded her arms and walked over to her. “It’s possessed.”

Willow swallowed. “No.” She shifted her feet. “Not possessed.”

“It is evil though, right?”

Willow glanced at Tara. Tara quickly tucked a stray hair behind her ear and dropped her eyes to the book she held. The redhead looked at Anya. “Well. . . .”

***

Panting loudly, sweating profusely, Buffy stepped back from the body bag, watching it swing wildly from the last assault of fists and feet. She put her hands on her hips and tilted her head back, closing her eyes. She took several breaths in through her nose and released them through her mouth, trying to slow her heart rate. After a few minutes, she took one last deep breath and exhaled. She opened her eyes and raised her head. The bag barely swung on its chain, and as Buffy started past it to go into the shop, she did a quick spinning kick that sent it swinging upwards, the chain straining against the ceiling bracket.

***

“What’s a ten-letter word meaning ‘impending dark, suggestive of gloom’?” Xander asked, eyes glued to his paper, pen tapping against his chin methodically.

Tara glanced up from her book. She opened her mouth but was interrupted before she could answer.

“Xander, what exactly does that have to do with the issue at hand?” Giles asked from where he stood across the room.

Anya stamped several pieces of paper as she answered. “He’s determined to finish one.” She sighed dramatically, the sound making it quite clear to everyone in the room just what she thought about that plan.

Xander ignored Anya’s jibe. “Ten letters?” He held up the pen so all could see. “In pen, people. Help me out here.”

Dawn pulled a book off the shelf and turned to Xander. “Here.”

Giles raised a hand quickly. “Please don’t throw that— it’s a first edition.”

Dawn’s expression was a mixture of offended-meets-hurt-by-way-of-angry. “As if I was.” The teen walked over to Xander, book held out in her hand.

Xander took the proffered item, reading the binding: ‘Roget’s Thesaurus.’ He raised his eyebrows and smiled. “Ooo.”

Dawn gave Giles a quick look before returning to the bookcase.

Giles shifted his glasses. “Yes, well, do be careful, Xander.”

Buffy walked into the shop, the small towel draped around her neck. “Hey, guys.”

Willow turned away from the computer briefly and smiled before returning to the task at hand. “Hey, Buffy.”

The Slayer glanced at Willow, meeting the redhead’s smile with one of her own. “Hey, Will.” Buffy turned her eyes to the table and found Tara smiling at her as well. “Hey, Tara.”

“Hi, Buffy,” Tara replied, a small blush rising on her cheeks.

Buffy walked across the shop until she was beside Willow. “Hey,” she said, her voice low. Her eyes took in the clothes Willow had on and she smiled mischievously. “Nice outfit,” she whispered. “Looks like yesterday’s.”

Willow’s head whipped around as if Buffy had said something completely racist or homophobic. Wha— I. Her mouth fell open but no words emerged. Oh. My. God. She shook her head and quickly glanced at Tara; the blonde witch had her head down. She looked at The Slayer. “Buffy!” she whispered, “that’s . . . that’s just not . . . .” Her words trailed off as she struggled for the right ones to chastise her best friend.

Buffy lifted her eyebrows. “Uh-huh.” Then, she winked and wrapped an arm around Willow’s shoulders. “I’m really happy for you guys.”

Willow laughed and leaned against her best friend. “Thanks, Buffy.”

“All in a day’s work,” she said and stood back. She considered her words briefly before continuing. “Well, aside from the Slayerly carnage, of course.”

Willow nodded. “Oh, of course.”

***

Demon-25 reached inside its robe, then slowly removed another glass-encased object: Buffy's barrette.

***

Giles cleared his throat and sat down beside Xander. “Yes, well then, let’s get started.”

Anya shut the cash drawer loudly. “Really?

Giles’ back stiffened. “Anya, if there’s som—”

“You’re ready to start now?” the Vengeance Demon interrupted. “Really?” She waved vaguely at the front of the store. “There’s still prime shopping time to be had.” She glanced at her watch. “We could just keep talking about the ‘morning after sex walk of shame’ some more,” she continued, and then made a point of looking at Willow.

Willow’s eyes widened and she felt the heat of a blush rush up her skin. Oh. My. God. Despite her best efforts to avoid looking at Tara and giving Anya the satisfaction of knowing she was right about them, Willow glanced over her shoulder towards the blonde.

Tara felt like all eyes had fallen on her. Oh. My. God. She shifted self-consciously in her chair, turning her back to the counter. She knew her skin was flushed red; her shoulders hunched over, and she pressed her face deeper in her book.

Willow’s heart clenched as she watched Tara. Even though Anya’s comment had been directed at her, Willow knew Tara felt extremely embarrassed by it. She turned back to the Vengeance Demon. “You know what, Anya?”

Anya leveled her eyes at Willow and crossed her arms. She smiled. “Yes, Willow?”

Buffy’s eyes darted between Willow and Anya: Witch and Vengeance Demon. Silently, she whispered, “Oh, crap.”

Tara turned in her chair and lowered her book to the table. She swallowed. Willow. . . .

Willow’s fingers tapped against the counter top as she contemplated her next move. Willow could feel Tara’s eyes on her; she didn’t have to look at her girlfriend to know it. She could feel them. She could feel her. Taking a breath, she pointed at the laptop. “Goner.”

Anya’s smiled disappeared in an instant. The Vengeance Demon’s every financial nerve went on full alert. “What?” She moved quickly towards the redhead. “What?

“Yeah, doesn’t look good.” Willow pursed her lips and nodded sadly. “Could really cost you.”

“What do you mean?” Anya asked. “You’re a computer geek.”

Willow chose to let the last comment pass unanswered. She realized, if she had to be just a little mean to Anya in order to deflect the conversation away from her and Tara’s personal lives, she would gladly take any insult hurled her way. “I suppose I could keep trying. . . .” Willow let her words trail off slowly, sounding unconvinced.

“Yes,” Anya jumped in answer. “Yes, you should.” She nodded emphatically.

“Well,” Willow said cautiously, as if she were weighing the pros and cons. “Okay. . .” she said.

Anya nodded. “Thank you.”

Buffy’s brows rose in surprise at Anya’s sincere thanks.

Willow felt her chest puff out. Go, me. She sneaked a quick glance at Tara. The blonde had a brilliant smile directed her way, and Willow took in a deep breath to calm her heart. Oh, yeah, way to go, me.

“Okay, Giles, time is money.” With that, Anya smiled and walked back to the register.

“Uh, yes, well. . . ,” Giles stuttered after a moment. “Shall we?”

***

All four Demons held the objects reverently in both hands. At some silent signal between them, they raised their hands, holding the objects in front of their robed bodies.

***

Buffy faced Giles, leaned back, and rested her elbows on the top of the glass counter. “So, what’s the what? What’d I miss?”

With an overdramatic sigh, Anya responds. “Aside from Willow and Tara having makeup sex and not bothering to hide it?”

Absolute stunned silence followed.

Tara’s eyes widened and her smile quickly disappeared. She glanced at Giles, not too surprised to see the Watcher suddenly cleaning his glasses furiously. Tara looked back at Willow and found the redhead shaking her head softly with an ‘I give up’ look on her face, complete with silently mumbling lips and eyes looking Heavenward. Despite her embarrassment, Tara found Willow’s expression more than she could stand. She laughed out loud.

Willow quickly looked at Tara, more than a little shocked by her reaction. But the way Tara covered her mouth to stifle her laughter and ducked her head made Willow’s smile break loose. Tara. . . .

Buffy turned her head slowly and stared at Anya. Then, she nodded and said calmly, “Yes, Anya, besides that.”

“Oh, I don’t know,” the Vengeance Demon replied with a shrug of her shoulder. “I wasn’t listening.”

***

The demons began to chant, swaying slightly back-and-forth. Demon-60 spoke, the sound like gravel scraping under foot. “Gal-kot, minnust dey Falla, anrak tel, ver benka. Kalvoch tel rahl.”

Gal-kot, minion of the Fallen One, hear us, we beseech thee. Grant us this Time.

The hourglass began to glow inside the glass.

***

Willow glanced at Buffy as her fingers continued their dance over the laptop keys. “I’ve been making the usual checks into Missing Persons, but nothing so far.”

Buffy nodded. “Those doofuses were twins, maybe that’ll help.”

Willow tipped her head. “Worth a try.” She typed in a few words. “And maybe sports? I mean, they were all wearing team uniforms, that’s gotta be something, right?”

Giles closed the book in his hands and reached for the newspaper on the table in front of him. “Excellent idea, Willow.” Buffy made a face at Giles, and pointed a finger at herself. “Yes, twins, excellent.” Buffy smiled.

Xander shook the pen in his hand and tried to write again without any luck. He stared through the clear plastic at the blue ink inside. “What’s with this pen?” He shook it several more times before trying to write again.

***

Demon-13 raised its sun-encased box. “Kalvoch tel pahna.”

Grant us this space.

The sun began to glow inside the glass.

***

Willow held up her hand. “Hey, here’s. . . this might be something. Three weeks ago, a Coach Pentland went ‘missing’ under what the Sunnydale Police are calling, ‘mysterious circumstances’.”

“Ah, yes, Hellmouth speak for the coach becoming something’s Monster Mash,” Xander piped in.

Dawn turned to Xander. “Gross.”

Giles looked at the carpenter. “Yes, Xander, thank you.”

Xander smirked, then frowned and threw the pen onto the table. “Deader.”

Tara glanced at Xander before reaching for her bag. “I think I have one.”

Giles cleared his throat. “Anything else, Willow?”

“Well,” Willow said, as she scrolled down the page on the screen, “Not too much more about him. But, soon after, several students— all athletes— began to disappear.” She looked over her shoulder. “Do you think he’s—”

“Starting his very own All-Star League of the Undead?” Buffy interrupted.

Tara looked up from her bag. “It explains the uniforms.” Willow caught Tara’s eye and smiled. Tara winked and lowered her eyes back to the task at hand.

Buffy’s brow furrowed. “Can you imagine? Eternal life in polyester pants and stirrups?”

Giles raised his eyes Heavenward and sighed. “Lord.”

***

Demon-45 raised the Earth and Moon encased glass box. “Kalvoch tel ledock.”

Grant us this world.

The Earth and Moon began to glow inside the glass.

***

“Sorry, Xander,” Tara said with one last sweep through her bag. She shook her head.

Xander shifted in his chair. “Pen. Anyone.” He raised his hands. “Anyone?”

Giles set the newspaper down and ignored Xander. “It seems there’s a new vampire clan forming, one of the athletic variety.”

From behind the counter, Anya replied sarcastically, “You think?”

As Giles started to answer, Tara stepped in. “S-so, where should we start?” She swallowed. “Looking. . . for them?”

Buffy considered. “Well, . . . student athletes?” She glanced at Willow. “UC?”

Willow nodded in agreement. “Makes sense.” She reached over and idly ran her fingers over the small jar closest to her. “They’d have access to the dorms, the gym, the quad, everywhere.”

***

Demon-25 raised its glass case, Buffy’s barrette suspended inside. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

The barrette began to glow inside the glass.

***

“A writing utensil?” Xander repeated, and clapped his hands once. “Anyone?”

“For Pedwin’s sake!” Anya exclaimed. The Vengeance Demon turned her head left and right, her eyes searching for any type of writing implement.

Willow glanced around the laptop, searching the glass counter top. “There’s gotta be one around. . . .”

Buffy shifted and glanced over her shoulder at the counter.

“Ugh.” Dawn rolled her eyes. “Here,” she muttered as she bent over and shoved her hand inside her backpack. She sifted through the contents, pushing papers and books aside, searching for a pen.

Xander sighed dramatically and stood up. “A pen?” He started towards Buffy and Willow. When he reached the counter, he squeezed himself between The Slayer and witch, bumping them slightly, before he started rummaging around the glass jars.

“Hey!” Anya shouted. “Watch the merchandise!”

“Hold on,” Dawn said, as she tossed items onto the table. “I said I have one.” She frowned into her backpack. “Somewhere,” she muttered quietly.

Xander pushed several jars out of the way. “How hard is it to find a pen?”

Anya huffed loudly and started out from behind the cash register. “Stop manhandling the goods!”

Buffy raised both hands in mock surrender and stepped back as the Vengeance Demon stormed over to them. She backed off, sidestepping Willow until she had moved completely behind the counter, facing her best friend.

“I’m not manhandling, I’m looking,” the carpenter replied, then proceeded to slide a jar into the side of the laptop with a loud clank.

“Manhandling!” Anya yelled.

Willow reached out to steady the rattling jar. “Guys!”

Tara lifted her eyes at the sound of raised voices and clinging glass. Uh. . . . She turned to Giles again, worried that the Watcher was calmly cleaning his glasses and softly shaking his head. She swallowed and turned back to the clustered group at the counter.

***

Demon-25 lifted its eyes to the sky and repeated the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

Anya grabbed Xander’s arm with both hands and tugged. “Man! Handling!”

Xander turned to Anya. “Demon! Handling!” he said as he tried to pull his arm from the Vengeance Demon’s grasp.

Tara cleared her throat and slowly stood. “M-maybe you should—”

“Hey,” Buffy said, as she stepped closer to the counter, holding up her hands. “Cool it.”

***

Demon-25 looked from one demon to the other, then lifted its eyes to the sky again before repeating the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

Xander dropped his eyes to where Anya’s hands still gripped him. “Let go.”

Anya looked at Xander’s hand, which now held a small glass jar. “You let go.”

“Got one!” From across the room, Dawn threw her arm up triumphantly. “Told you!”

“Let go,” Xander repeated, tugging on his arm.

“You,” Anya replied, yanking back.

“Both of you,” Giles sighed and stood up. “Let go.”

Tara glanced at Giles, relieved that the Watcher had finally decided to say something. Thank you.

***

The other demons followed suit, lifting their eyes toward the sky, repeating the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

“Let! Go!” Xander yelled.

“You! Anya yelled.

Dawn stood up. “Xander, here.” The teen cocked her arm back. “Catch.”

***

All four demons repeated the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

Xander took one final, hard pull on his arm, just as Anya released it. Suddenly off balance, his body fell against the counter, his arm sweeping across the glass top as he half-slid/half-crashed into Willow.

***

Bluish-red lightning crashed down from the skies, splitting into four spindly tendrils, striking each glass object held in each demon’s hands.

***

Dawn threw her arm forward, releasing the pen in an arcing toss.

***

As the energy swirled around and through each glass case, the demons repeated the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

Buffy stumbled as she tried to grab Willow.

***

The energy became brighter, more turbulent. The demons repeated the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

Willow tried to balance herself, but the impact of Xander’s body was too much, and she felt herself going over. Her hand grasped blindly for some type of purchase as she fell, but she succeeded only in snagging the laptop as she continued downward to the floor.

***

The energy became blinding in its intensity. The demons repeated the words. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

***

“Willow!” Tara screamed, as she watched Xander slam into the redhead and Willow fall over.

***

Demon-25 raised its voice above the cacophony and shouted the words to the skies. “Kalvoch tel breigh.”

Grant us this prey.

The energy suddenly burst from the glass cases, the four tendrils retracting momentarily before striking outwards, moving through the roof of The Magic Box—

***

—coalescing inside into a singular, twisted bolt of lightning.

Without warning, it shot across the room and struck Buffy dead center in the chest.

***

All four demons lowered the glass cases they held. Demon-25 nodded. “Breigh.”

Prey.

***

Buffy felt something strike her chest, felt herself being thrown to the ground by an enormous, unseen force. The Slayer lay on the floor, stunned. She tried to move, but her entire body felt weighted down. She finally opened her eyes, blinking rapidly to bring them into focus. “Ow. . . .”

***

The laptop crashed to the floor, missing Willow’s head by mere inches. Xander landed on top of the redhead, knocking the breath from her lungs. Dozens of jars rained down over them both, glass shattering, the contents exploding over their bodies and the floor. Smoke plumes swirled up around them in multicolored mushroom shapes.

Dawn’ pen landed harmlessly at Anya’s feet.

Tara rushed to Willow’s side, going down onto her knees beside the redhead. “W-Willow?” The blonde waived her hand over Willow, trying to move the smoke away.

Willow turned to look at Tara, smiling softly at the concern she found in her eyes. Her smile turned to a grimace as she felt the weight of Xander on top of her. “Ow. . . .”

In absolute, utter disbelief, Anya stared at Xander. And Willow. And the laptop. And the destroyed merchandise. “I. . . I. . . I should—”

“Anya,” Giles said cautiously, as he hurriedly walked across the shop towards the group. The Vengeance Demon turned to face him, lowering her arms to her sides. He cleared his throat. “Is everyone all right?”

“I. . . .” Anya began, then shook her head. Raising a hand, she snapped her fingers and disappeared without another word.

“Ow.” Xander gingerly pushed himself off of Willow. “Sorry, Wills.”

“It’s. . . okay.” Willow nodded and pressed a hand to her side. “I’m okay,” she said and looked at Tara. “I’m fine.”

Thank you. . . . Tara closed her eyes briefly and released a shaky breath. She opened her eyes and laid a hand against Willow’s forehead.

“Is everyone all right?” Giles asked again.

“Buffy?”

All eyes turned towards the teen across the room.

***

Buffy took a deep breath and tried to move again. She coughed as she finally managed to turn onto her side. “Guys. . . .” The Slayer pushed herself onto her hands and knees; she reached an unsteady hand up and grasped onto the edge of the counter. “What. . . the. . .” she said as she pulled herself up to her feet and turned to the others.

***

Giles frowned and turned towards the counter. “Buffy?”

“Buffy?” Dawn raced from where she stood at the table, skirting around the edge of the counter and register. She stopped suddenly, frozen on the spot.

“Dawn?” Tara asked.

“Dawn?” Giles craned his neck to look over the counter but thought better of it. He followed Dawn behind the glass case, stopping just behind the teen.

Willow tried to sit up, grateful to Tara as the blonde’s arm slipped around her shoulders to support her effort. “Giles?”

Dawn shook her head, her eyes wide in disbelief. “She’s. . . she’s gone.”

***

Buffy stared, mouth agape, at what she saw before her eyes.

Everyone stood completely still.

Frozen.

Statues.

Frozen.

Willow was hanging in mid-air, a mere foot off the ground, her eyes squeezed shut. The laptop hung suspended just off the edge of the counter. Glass jars dangled in the air. Xander had one arm outstretched behind him as his body arched backwards from the counter, inches separating him from Willow. Anya’s hands were frozen in front of her, her eyes wide. Giles, Tara and Dawn stood beside the table, eyes glued to the scene before them.

As Buffy’s eyes moved from Dawn, she noticed an object hovering between them. It took The Slayer a second to realize it was the pen Dawn had thrown. Frozen. In mid-air. Frozen. Buffy closed her eyes in one long, slow blink. She took a deep breath, then opened them.

“. . . fuck.”

TBC
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby foreverchanges » Tue Aug 03, 2010 2:24 am

Mah Lord! Sensational, I say. You really do know how to make a girl's heart race don't you? Am cock-a-hoop to see this back.

And let's not forget.... DIBS.

Thanks for sharing
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Owl » Tue Aug 03, 2010 4:16 am

I know this update was mostly all 'impending doom' and stuff so I feel kind of odd saying that it made me SO HAPPY! but it did, so I'll say it anyway. This is the first lot of feedback I've ever posted on either of the stories you have here on the board so I have to let you know that I love both of them, oh so much. This update totally made my day, thank you.
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby Zampsa1975 » Tue Aug 03, 2010 7:55 am

Yay for great update-y goodness... I hope Tara's magical senses kick in and she figures out what the demon creepies have done to Buffy...
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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby LonelyTara » Tue Aug 03, 2010 4:33 pm

Can't wait to read more--very, very beautiful reunion for Willow and Tara!
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Insight responses

Postby KrisBo5 » Wed Aug 04, 2010 8:37 pm

Hey, all, just a few responses to the lovely feedback.

foreverchanges, well, thank you. Wasn’t sure I still “had it in me,” writing wise. Haven’t done much of it lately. I’m glad you liked the update. I’m not sure I have every heard the expression “coak-a-hoop” before, but methinks it means ‘excited’? LOL, sounds British…. Glad you dibbed and posted your thought.

Owl, I’m glad that the update made you happy, impending doom or not. It made me happy to finally post the thing! Thank you so much for posting something here about the story, I appreciate that. I’m glad you like both of my stories here, though I have been quite lax. Anyway, glad I was able to bring some cheer to your day, and again, thanks for posting your comments.

Zampas1975, good to see you here. Tara does have some kind of ‘spidey sense’ going on, huh? We’ll see where that takes them….

LonelyTara, thanks for your comments. Happy that the Willow/Tara reunion was to your liking. Too bad all that bad came ‘round! Lol! Hope you’ll stick around as it goes.

Thanks again for all your nice comments. And thanks for reading!

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Re: Fic: Insight

Postby love_2003 » Thu Aug 05, 2010 2:44 am

Glad you hadn't forgot about this story. Loved that last line.
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