NEW FIC!!! - AU - "Timeless"

[Sappho]

Oh yes... Hee, hee, hee. Pleasant visuals.

~Sappho

Willow: Yeah, that’s me. Reliable dog geyser person.

***

Anya: Give me a beer. Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Looks at him w/ disbelief] Bartender: I.D.

Anya: I’m 1,120 years old!!! Just give me a friggin’ beer! Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Sigh] Give me a Coke.

[Willowtara19]

I.....ummmm......***leaves running and calling out: "Get outta my way!! And clear the showers!!"***



***A few minutes later, comes back***



, CZ!!



I, well, really needed that cold shower...



I'm sorry I took so long to come here to your updates....I'm a very bad kitten....



Buffy and Faith, huh? I really like that idea, you know...



And Willow remembering? That was just.....well, I think you have an idea of what it did to me, don't you?



Update?? Pleeeeeeeeeeease? I swear I can't help asking for them...



Willowtara19

[Red Jassy]

hey

0h my....



wa.. duh.. duh..

excellent... thanks for the update

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Cause you were made for me/Somehow I'll make you see/How happy you make me


I can't live this life/Without you by my side/I need you to survive
So stay with me/You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside/that I'm sorry. » Evanescence

[FIRESIGN]

Chapter Twenty-five



The two lovers lay content in each others arms...warmed by the glow of the fire.



They had made love throughout the night...their bodies entwined...so close together that it was impossible to tell where one ended and the other began...moving together as one hand, one heart, one soul...



“Tara...I’ve never felt this way before...”



“What do you mean, baby?” Tara said, gently kissing Willow’s crown.



“It’s just that...well...before...for as long as I can remember, really...I always felt like something or someone was missing...I mean...I had Oz and all...but even when we were together-together...I just found myself wanting more...feeling like it just wasn’t right...it was so...un-fulfilling...ya know?”



“Uh-huh...kind of like when you’re hungry and you eat something...but it’s not really what you want...so you’re not really satisfied with it.”



“Exactly! ...and you know...Buffy and Xander...they’re my best friends and all...but there’s always just been a piece of my heart that was missing...until now...”



“Really?”



“You make me feel like...like I’m finally whole...like all of the questions that I’ve ever had...well...maybe not ALL of the questions...but all of the questions that I’ve had about myself...and why I was so different...and why I was alone...even when there were lots of people around...they’re all answered now...and that answer is you, Tara.”



“How much do you remember...about me...about us?”



Willow thought for a moment...she didn’t want to say anything that might accidentally hurt Tara...but yet she didn’t want to lie to her either.



“Some things...like our hand-fasting...I remember details from...and others...it’s like I remember the feelings...not necessarily the things that happened between us...but how I felt. Like I remember missing you...how empty I felt...how empty I’d feel if you weren’t with me...”

Willow said, pulling Tara closer.



“What else?”



“I remember loving you...feeling loved by you...it’s the most wonderful feeling in the entire world...and the most terrible when you don’t have it...”



“Oh baby...I’m sorry.”



“No...it’s not your fault...”



“Some things that you did...when we were just...you know...”



“Making love?”



“Uh-huh...you did things to me...the way that you used to...before. Do you remember that?”



“I don’t really remember us actually doing it...but it was like my body remembered...like it just knew where to go...what to do...and I just wanted to show you how much I love you...but at the same time...I was a little scared...you know...that I wouldn’t measure up?”



“You were perfect...”



“Yeah? Really? You’re not just saying that or anything, cause you know you can tell me the truth...it was kinda my first time and all...and...”



Tara cut her off mid-babble, pressing her lips to Willow’s passionately...



“Perfect...in every way.” Tara purred.



“Okay then...I’m a believer!”



“Now why don’t you just lay back and let me see if I can jog your memory a little bit more...” Tara said, pulling Willow back down into the blankets.



“Why Miss Maclay...if I didn’t know better...I’d say you were trying to seduce me!” Willow said, in her best ‘southern-belle’ accent.



“It’s my right you know...to seduce you...wifely privilege.”



“Oh...guess I can’t really tell you no, can I?”



“Absolutely not.”



“Well...in that case...” Willow said, cat-like grin on her face, hands wandering over Tara’s back “...I guess I’m yours for the next...oh, I don’t know...century or so!”



“Mmmmm...do you think we could stay in bed that long?”



“I’m a firm believer that we can do anything we set our minds to!” Willow said, matter-of-factly.



“Well...I’ve kind of got my mind set on something else right now...” Tara said, working her way down to Willow’s nether-regions...





To Be Continued....

Edited by: FIRESIGN at: 9/26/03 4:04 pm

[Washi]

Hehehe, I'm loving this fic. Willow's quest to do the good thing, Tara waiting for her... It's just so good, I'm loving the plot. Plus, horny Willow and Tara!



Great job.

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"See? I've mastered this tact crap." Anya in Tears Of The Goddess by Lisa



The course of love doesn’t always run smooth, especially for the neurotic and accident-prone. ~ LadyB

[The Rose24]

You still have a lot of explaining to do. You are kind of avoiding.



Beautiful update anyway, but are they forgetting they have a mission to fulfill? They seem to be getting caught up in one another.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

Edited by: The Rose24  at: 9/26/03 7:41 pm

[bluewillowwitch]

FIRESIGN ,

OMG! I loved this update! is such a vixen! has no control, she is a goner and she's loving it. I can't believe you left it there! I can't wait to more. Update soon, please?







bluewillowwitch

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[Kerrison20]

"We're not worthy. We're not worthy."



umm...someone really should keep me away from my 'puter when I'm tired.



Just wanted to say loved the update and, as usual, can't wait for more.



Lisa

[Willowtara19]

How could you leave it there? How could you do this to me?? Do you know you're a tease???



I really loved the update, and specially stopping mid-babble!!



You know what? If your stories keep having this effect on me, I think I'm going to announce them in every site I can...



'Kay, I'm off to read the update on "My First"....but not before asking this, of course: Update? Soon?? Pleeeease???



Willowtara19

[LostWithoutTara]

Cute update! I love the intearaction between Willow and Tara - it's so romantic and well-written.

Every time you walk away, I pretend that I'm okay

[Arwen276]

Very sweet update, but when it comes to being vixeny and naughty, you just STOP!



THAT'S EVIL





BAD BAD PERSON!



GET BACK HERE AND GIVE US MORE!







~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[FIRESIGN]

Chapter Twenty-six



Buffy walked back into the room, Faith following closely behind her.



Giles was standing in the corner of the dimly lit room, arms folded across his chest, head bowed in thought.



Xander sat on the floor near Willow, Anya rubbing his back lovingly…



“Hey Wills…it’s me, Xander…hell…you already know that…” Anya squeezed his shoulder, letting him know that she was there for him.



“…Wills…you’re my best friend, you know? You have been for as long as I can remember. I’ll never forget the day that your parents had gotten you that cool chemistry set…you know…the one with all of the test tubes and Bunsen burner and all kinds of flasks and chemicals and all…and your mom had told us not to play with it when they weren’t there…but we did anyhow…because you thought we could make something that would make us the most popular kids in school …and somehow, we accidentally made this acidy stuff…and I kinda kicked it over onto the oak parkay floor in your bedroom…and it ate a hole through the floor and into the basement…and so we pushed your bed over the hole…hoping nobody would notice…”



Giles turned around…listening in on Xander’s story…smiling to himself…



God, you really were something, weren’t you, little one…even back then! What a wonderful wide-eyed child you must have been! Although, I suspect your parents might argue otherwise…



Xander continued “…but your mom and dad did. They were furious. You could have told them it was my fault…but you didn’t…’cause you knew if they told my parents…my dad would…well…you knew he’d beat the shit out of me…”



All eyes were on Xander…none of them, not even Anya, had known what kind of hell he had endured as a child, only Willow.



Xander was struggling to keep the tears from welling up in his eyes as he remembered…



“All of those times that he called me stupid…told me how worthless I was…every time he hit me…the only way I made it through it was because of you…you always had faith in me. You made me feel like I was worth something…because I was your friend…and…well…that’s something pretty darned special in my book…anyhow…just thought I should let you know…I love you, Wills.”



For the first time in her human life…and much to the surprise of everyone in the room with her…Anya said nothing. She simply knelt down next to Xander and wrapped her arms around him, gently kissing the top of his head.



Is that a tear I see falling down the former vengeance demon’s face?



The awkward silence was interrupted by Faith…



“Okay…all of this sentimental bullshit has so got to stop! Why are we all just sitting around here wallowing in pity for Red? We should be figuring out how in the hell we’re going to fight this big bad that appears to be on the way!”



“Sentimental bullshit? Is that what you think this is?” Xander said, standing up and facing Faith.



“That’s exactly what I think it is…you’re blubbering all over the place…just like the night I popped your cherry, X-man…”



“Oh that is so not true! I never blubbered!”



“She popped your cherry? Just what exactly does she mean by that, Xander…you don’t even like fruit.” Anya asked.



“An…honey…I’ll explain it later…”



“Look…don’t get your panties all in a bind…all I’m saying is that we’re wasting time here…when we should be looking for a way to beat the bad guy! Red is doing her part, leave her be…we need to start working on our own ideas…”



“Guys…Faith is right…Willow is doing whatever she can…we need to be doing the same thing. Giles – you and Xander go back to the Magic Box and get everything that you can find that might help us figure out what to do about this Kaliphicus guy…Faith and I are going to go out and patrol…see if any of the local demons are feeling talkative tonight…Anya…you stay here and look after Wills…if you see anything…and I do mean ANYTHING changing at all with her – you call Giles and Xander immediately. Do I make myself clear?”



“Xander…are you going to allow her to use that demeaning, authoritative tone with me?” Anya whined.



“Honey…watch Wills…and that’s an order!”



A seductive grin spread across Anya’s face. The former vengeance demon’s motor was obviously now running in high-gear.



“…Oooh…Xander…the way you just said that…it was so forceful…are you sure we don’t have time to…”



“No…later…much later…just take care of Wills, okay, Sweetie?”



“Oh come on, big guy…can’t you spare her the five minutes? The poor girl is obviously in heat!” Faith said, grinning.



“You shut up! Giles…let’s go.” Xander said, grabbing the Watcher by the arm and heading out the door.



Buffy and Faith weren’t far behind.



“Remember…call Giles if you notice anything…” Buffy said as they headed out the door.



“I know…I know…” Anya said…walking over and grabbing the chair, moving it closer to the circle and Willow.



“Huh. Guess it’s just you and me…” she said, sitting down on the chair.



“It’s about time…there’s a few things I want to discuss with you…”





To Be Continued...

Edited by: FIRESIGN at: 9/27/03 9:21 pm

[bluewillowwitch]

FIRESIGN ,

Loved the update! I felt so bad for Xander. It is so sad what he had to go through and he only had and now she is gone and wth . I can't wait to ee what Anya has to sy. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?







bluewillowwich

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[Willowtara19]

Well, what else can I say but that I just finished another wonderful update? And a might add from a great and wonderful writer, author of the best stories on the board...



Xander's words to were very touching...



And Anya.....well, she's Anya, he he he!!



So the Scoobies are about to act? YAY!! I really like the whole Scooby Gang in action...Tremble Hellmouth, tremble!! ***whispering: Did I get that right?***



I do wonder what Anya has to say to ...



And now.....okay, I'll just sit and wait, I'll be a good girl....***coughupdatecoughsooncoughpleasecough***



Willowtara19

[LostWithoutTara]

That update was really sweet. I felt for Xander, having only Willow to talk to about his abusive family and her going.



I wonder what Anya has to say to Willow?

Every time you walk away, I pretend that I'm okay

[Arwen276]

umm the scooby gang takes action!





wonder what Willow is doing, besides living in marital bliss...





~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[Sappho]

Ha ha. "A few things I want to discuss with you", funny stuff.

~Sappho

Willow: Yeah, that’s me. Reliable dog geyser person.

***

Anya: Give me a beer. Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Looks at him w/ disbelief] Bartender: I.D.

Anya: I’m 1,120 years old!!! Just give me a friggin’ beer! Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Sigh] Give me a Coke.

[FIRESIGN]

“I know…I know…” Anya said…walking over and grabbing the chair, moving it closer to the circle and Willow.



“Huh. Guess it’s just you and me…” she said, sitting down on the chair.



“It’s about time…there’s a few things I want to discuss with you…”



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Chapter Twenty-six B



Anya looked at the small form within the circle...



"You know...I find myself very irritated when you are around much of the time...and even when you're not around...Xander is still all 'Willow this...and Willow that'...it's like I'm never good enough for him. He puts you up on this pedestal - like you're some kind of...I don't know...witchy-goddess or something..."



Anya studied her frail body in more detail...



"...but you don't look like much of a goddess now!"



"And you're small...tiny, in fact...and that red hair...who in the name of all that's holy would ever wish to have a color so irritating?"



But then the former vengeance demon remembered what Xander had said earlier...she could not deny how grateful she was that he had Willow when he needed someone. She doubted that she could have been as helpful as Willow had been during those rough times...



"But...even though I find you completely and undeniably irritating and crass...and you have the worst fashion sense I have ever seen on a human female...you still helped my Xander when he needed it the most...and I guess...I might be just a little jealous because you share so much of a past with him...and I don't. I guess I worry sometimes that you know him better than I do...so...anyhow...I still don't really like you...but I do want to say thanks...for Xander and all...okay..that's it." she said, rather un-dramatically, crossing her arms across her chest.



To Be Continued....



Sorry this is so short, tonight, guys...busy night at work...I promise - tonight's will be better....hope you enjoy!



-CZ

Edited by: FIRESIGN at: 9/29/03 2:29 pm

[Sappho]

That didn't seem very Anya-y. She usually has an underlying caring to all that she does, even during some of the more tactless times. I didn't get that Anya vibe at all.

~Sappho

Willow: Yeah, that’s me. Reliable dog geyser person.

***

Anya: Give me a beer. Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Looks at him w/ disbelief] Bartender: I.D.

Anya: I’m 1,120 years old!!! Just give me a friggin’ beer! Bartender: I.D. Anya: [Sigh] Give me a Coke.

[bluewillowwitch]

FIRESIGN ,

Okay, what took over Anya's body? I didn't think that she could say such nice things. Course she probably thinks she safe since no one heard it. I thought it was sweet. Can't wait to more.Update soon, please?







bluewillowwitch

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"Fate keeps on hapening."--Anita Loos

[FIRESIGN]

Hey Everyone!



Thought it was about time I thank you all for the great feedback you've been leaving! You guys are GREAT!



I know that last night's update wasn't much - and that some of you guys - and rightfully so - were a bit confused about Anya's demeanor in her monologue...I guess that the way I was looking at Anya's character at that point was somewhat like the way she acted towards Willow in "Triangle". She is quite short with Willow - somewhat threatened by her - jealous of what she and Xander share from their past. However, her love for Xander makes her appreciate what Willow has done for him - being there for him throughout the years. I'm sorry if I didn't convey this as well as I wanted to - and promise that none of you will be disappointed with tonight's update. It should be posted within a few hours.



Once again - I would like to thank all of you for your continued support and feedback - please keep reading! You guys are great!



-CZ - aka FIRESIGN

[angelofinsanity]

i word- wow.

honesty, i'm still catching up with this fic, + your other one 'my first' and heck, i've said this once, i'll say it again- YOU ROCK!!! (plus the romantic nature of your fic is just so touching )

right- have to catch up to date with rest of fics- *thumbs up* keep up the good work!



STacy

[The Rose24]

Actually,



I think these are the type of things Anya would say. She probably wouldn't say these things to Willow's face or in front of an audience, but I think her speech is believable.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[FIRESIGN]

Chapter Twenty-seven



Buffy and Faith walked quietly through the Sunnydale Cemetery…waiting for any newly risen vamps or any other “potential stakeables” as Faith called them…



“You’re pretty quiet tonight, B…”



“Sorry…not used to having that much company on patrols…”



“You sure that’s it? ‘Cause I get the feeling there’s something really eating at you right now…”



A young vampire rose up behind Buffy…and without even skipping a step, the blonde Slayer thrust her stake through it’s heart, reducing it to a mere cloud of dust.



“Well…it’s nice to see you’re still on your game!” Faith said with a grin.



“…I guess this whole thing…you know, what Willow wrote in her letter…it’s just sort of got me freaked a bit.”



“Which part?”



“Hel-lo! The whole death thing…you know…all of us…taking a dirt nap?”



“It’s not like you don’t deal with the possibility of death every day, B…”



“I know…but usually we’re just talking about me…not Xander, not Giles, not Anya or Will…just me…”



“You say that like it’s not a bad thing…you dying, I mean.”



“No…it is! It’s just that…well…Faith, you and I both know that we’re older than any of the other Slayers have ever been…most of them were killed by the time they were our age…so it’s really no big surprise that we should die at any time…that’s our destiny…our birthright. Hell…been there…done that…twice! We didn’t have a choice. But the others…they chose to come on board of their own free will…to help me…and now, I find out they all die because of it.”



“It was their decision, B. Not yours…”



“I know, but…I can’t help thinking that none of them would be in all of this if it weren’t for me…like…if I’d really loved them…I would have made them go away…I wouldn’t have let them stay.”



“You couldn’t have made them stay away. It was their choice…and they chose you.”



“Good thing you never made that mistake, eh?” Buffy said with a smirk.



Faith grabbed Buffy by the arm, spinning her towards her…



“I only wish I had.” Faith said, looking deeply into the blonde Slayer’s eyes.





Meanwhile…



Tara lay comfortably within Willow’s arms, bodies intermingled atop a mound of blankets and pillows…



“Mmmmm…I wonder what time it is…” Willow said. 

             

“Do you wanna get up?”



“No! God, no!”



“Actually…I hate to say this…but the sun is coming up…”



“…and?”



“…and as much as I would like to stay here in your arms forever, we do have some responsibilities that we must take care of…”



“Such as?”



“Your training…”



“Oh…that…” Willow said…her voice taking on a hint of dread.



“Sweetheart…you can do this…WE can do this…”



“But what if I can’t…what if I screw it all up again? Xander, Buffy, Giles, Anya…they’ll all be dead…and…I’ll be alone…”



“Baby…you will do it…and you’ll never be alone…I’ll always be with you…”



“How? How can you say that…when I left you before…and…oh no…” Willow suddenly came to a realization “…oh goddess…Tara…I’m going to have to leave you again…aren’t I?”



“You are going to do what you need to do, my love.”



“But I can’t! I can’t leave you now that I’ve found you!”



“Willow…listen to me…we’ve made it this far…we can do this. No matter what happens…our love will survive…it will go on…”





To Be Continued...

Edited by: FIRESIGN at: 9/29/03 8:34 pm

[The Rose24]

I am concerned about Willow having to leave too, but I am sure you will find a way for our ladies to be together.



I am interested in seeing how the training will go.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[bluewillowwitch]

FIRESIGN ,

I love this update! and are going to start the training today. Hope they are ready for it. No can't leave not again! Looks like Buffy and Faith are startng something there. I can't wait to and see what happens next. Update soon, please?





bluewillowwitch

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"Fate keeps on happening."-Anita Loos

[Willowtara19]

Cin!!



I've just finished the last two updates....and I loved them!



I really liked Anya's speech to ....she doesn't really like her, but she appreciates her for helping his Xander...



What I'm really looking forward to is to the training....I wonder what it will be like?



Hey- 's going to have to leave again??? But you'll bring them together again, right? I'm sure you will....and in a wonderful way, that's for sure....



I'm off to read the updates to "My First".....but not without my usual last sentence: Update? Soon?? Pleeeeease???



I couldn't help it!!



Willowtara19

[FIRESIGN]

Hello Kittens!



I hate to tell you this...but I will be away from home for the next couple of days without access to the internet. I'll be returning on Thursday morning. Unfortunately, until then, I'll have to leave you all hanging story-wise. I PROMISE that I will post some VERY enjoyable updates for you by no later than 12:00noon EST on Thursday - so PLEASE check back then...and keep the feedback coming - you guys are the BEST! Again...sorry for the wait, guys...it can't be helped...but I'll make it up to you somehow



Yours,



Cin (aka FIRESIGN)

[Arwen276]

I see some potential with F and B...

and I wonder, with MUCH DREAD, how Willow will defeat the ugly-nasty-meanie.





~Arwen



Ps: have fun on your trip!

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[FIRESIGN]

Chapter Twenty-eight (a)



Tara had laid out a dark blue tunic for Willow to wear during their first training session...



Willow picked it up tentatively...not exactly sure how to put the garment on...



"Um...I hate to be all stupid here...but how in the frilly heck to I put this thing on?"



Tara laughed "...that's the first part of your training."



"Guess I'm not doing so good, huh?"



"You're going to do just fine...here...let me help you..." she said, taking the garment from Willow, and holding it out "...here...step through here...and then this goes up here...and then we tie your belt around it...to keep everything up..."



Willow looked deeply into Tara's eyes "...what would I ever do without you?"



Tara kissed her lightly on the lips "You'll never have to know...so don't worry about it. We've got too much to do today."



"Great..." Willow said, as they headed out the door...



Meanwhile...



Faith stood her ground, looking deeply into the blonde Slayer's eyes.



"What are you talking about?"



"Look B...all I'm saying is that...maybe I've made some choices in the past that...well...maybe I wish I would have done a little...differently."



Buffy didn't want to hear it...she pulled away from the awkward closeness, turning her back on the dark Slayer. Thinking perhaps, that this would make the whole thing go away...but wait...she didn't want that either...



"Like what...what would you have done differently?"



Admitting wrong was something that came hard for Faith, Buffy knew this better than anyone...



"Like maybe...I shouldn't have left Sunnydale in the first place...maybe I should have stayed here...with Giles, you know...complete my...training..."



Oh come on, Faith...what else? Tell me...I want to hear you say it...



"..and?"



"Geezus, B! Don't you see what I'm trying to say here? I shouldn't have left YOU...alright? It's the dumbest thing I've ever done...ok? Are you happy now?"



"Why...why did you leave in the first place?"



"Why do you always have to ask why? What is it with you!" Faith said, not liking the vulnerable feeling that was welling up within her.



"Oh come on! You always do that! Things get a little uncomfortable for you and suddenly it becomes MY problem! Tell me, Faith...I want to know!"



"Damn it! Don't you get it? I left because of you! Do you know how much it hurts to see the one person in this world that you give a damn about going out with somebody else and...well...knowing that she's just going to get hurt again...and knowing that if she was yours...you'd..."



"You'd what?" Buffy said, softly...looking into deeply into Faith's dark eyes...



"I'd..." Faith began...interrupted by the sudden touch of Buffy's soft lips on hers...



Faith pulled away from the kiss slowly...not wanting to forego the velvety sensation, but still wanting now...even more than before...to get her point across to Buffy. She'd waited a long time to say this...and she'd played out the scenario so many times in her head before...but she hadn't been prepared for this...the feelings coursing through her body...



"...love her forever..."



To Be Continued...





Just a little bit of a teaser for you all - I'll be posting more late tonight...