So... guess what!
Studying started to eat my brain from the inside out. I took a well earned writing break tonight
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CHAPTER 7
Kissing Tara was like an out of body experience. My brain refused to believe what was happening. I lay completely still and held my breath, waiting for her to pull away in shock and disgust. After a few long moments however, she opened her mouth slightly and captured my bottom lip between hers. The realization that she wanted to continue kissing me, along with the sensation of her lips against mine was almost enough to make me faint. I let my eyes fall closed and relaxed into the kiss, moving my lips in time with hers.
It was then that everything started to come back to me. A hundred images flashed in my mind within seconds. I watched the replay of the first time that we met. It was the day I fell in love with her. I skipped forward to see our friendship grow, the laughter and teasing; the tears and comfort. Then suddenly, things changed. I saw the day, not very long ago, when I brushed away a stray hair from Tara’s face while we lay together on her bed. Her eyes had flickered, suddenly shining with daring and flirtation. I was confused. I hadn’t noticed that before.
Fast forward to her shy smile and blushing pink cheeks as we danced to Michael Buble in her bedroom before the party. She looked up at me through golden blonde tresses and bit her lip shyly, almost as though she was just as nervous as I had been. Confused, I opened my eyes slightly. It hit me like a violent gust of cold wind.
The reason I had been so crazy the last few months wasn’t because I couldn’t control my feelings anymore... It was because I had begun to sense that she felt something back. However unconsciously, I had felt it. Sure, Tara had flirted and teased me the whole time we were friends... but lately, it was different. There was something in her eyes and her touch that had changed. I was just so wrapped up in my own self-pity that I hadn’t noticed until now. I remembered everything at once, every hint and gesture that I had missed before.
I moved my hands to her face and felt the soft skin of her cheeks beneath my palms. Sighing, I felt my chest swell with emotion. Nerves, love, desire, relief... all mixed in together. A few weeks ago, we had been so close to falling apart, losing each other forever and it was completely my fault. My jealousy and childish behaviour had almost torn apart our friendship and deprived me from the thing that I wanted more than anything in the world. Tara had been trying to show me that she felt something too and I was almost too blind to see it. Years of longing and sadness had kept me from realizing what was truly happening.
I breathed out heavily and thanked myself inwardly for coming to my senses before it was too late. If I had continued to be stubborn that day in the park, this might never have happened. The thought was almost unbearable and even though I tried to fight it with everything I had, tears began to well in my eyes before falling silently down my cheeks.
Tara’s beautiful blue eyes flickered open, full of concern. ‘Will... Are you alright?’ She lifted herself up a bit too look at me properly.
I smiled through my tears. ‘I’m okay.’
‘Then why are you crying? Did I do something wrong?’ She pressed, clearly confused.
‘No. No way.’ I insisted. ‘I’m just... happy.’
The sides of her mouth curled up into a small grin and she looked as though she might cry herself. ‘Really?’
‘Yeah. You don’t know how long I...’ I paused to take a deep breath. ‘I love you Tara... I always have.’
‘I know. I love you so much Willow... I can’t believe it took me so long to realize it.’ She let her hair cover her face as she blushed.
Moving to sit up slightly, I placed a hand under her chin and lifted her face to mine. Titling my head to the side, I let my eyes tell her to continue.
‘I... Well I’ve always known that there was something different about us... about you. You’re the best friend that anyone could have and I feel closer to you that anyone in the world... but I always felt like... I dunno. There was something else that I was missing.’ Tara bit her lip as if trying to think of what to say next.
I sat patiently and waited for her to go on.
‘It was inside of me. Like buried deep down in the pit of my stomach and I pushed it down. I was afraid. I went out with so many guys trying to forget it but it never worked. It was always about you. Nobody ever made me feel the way you did.’ She half-smiled at me and I felt my insides melt.
‘You make me feel so special and wanted and loved. And then, about six months ago, when you were comforting me over my latest dating disaster-‘ She rolled her eyes playfully. ‘It hit me... and I suddenly couldn’t push any of the thoughts or feelings away.’
‘I have to say that looking back now, I did notice something change.’ I laughed. ‘Although at the time I thought I was going crazy.’
‘Yeah I gathered. You never seemed to take any of my hints and I was far too nervous to venture away from subtle flirting.’ She blinked hard. ‘After that party though... I knew I had to let you know. I saw how much it hurt you... I’m so sorry Willow.’
‘Forget about it.’ I shook my head. ‘I was just being silly.’
She smiled softly and took my hand in hers. ‘So after we made up... I decided it was time to take a chance.’ She moved in close and lay down beside me.
‘And I’m so glad that you did.’ Turning to face her, I felt my heart speed up again. I wondered how much of this it could take before it decided to explode. My eyes met hers once again, this time letting her see me for what I really was. I didn’t hold anything back. I didn’t hesitate. Instinctively my hand reached for her hip, running my fingertips up along her side. For years I had wanted to touch Tara like this and now, it was finally happening.
She shivered under my touch and closed her eyes. I never expected that my first kiss would be with Tara but I’d always secretly kept some small piece of hope that it might come true. With renewed confidence, I leaned in and pressed our lips together softly.
Tara responded straight away, wrapping her arm around my neck and pulling me in closer. It was suddenly obvious that she had been holding back before, probably out of nerves or not wanting to scare me away. Her lips crashed against mine forcefully, her warm tongue probing for entrance to my mouth.
At first I wasn’t sure what to do, not really understanding the dance... but I caught on quickly and when our tongues met for the first time, I inadvertently moaned into her mouth. I wasn’t sure what I had expected kissing to be like but it definitely wasn’t this. The feeling was so amazing and overwhelming and it sent sparks of electricity through my body like wildfire.
My head swam through hot bubbly water as I felt her thigh inch its way between mine, crushing our bodies together at every place. I let my instincts carry me through the haze; my mind refusing to form coherent thoughts.
It wasn’t long before she rolled on top of me, our legs entwined, her silky blonde hair falling down all around my face. If there was a heaven, this was it. Her hands were on either side of my face and mine were pressed tightly against her back, moving slowly up and down. I was shocked at first when she pulled her lips from mine... but quickly forgot all about the thought when I felt her hot breath on my neck.
Tara pressed open her lips against my skin, swirling her tongue and biting down gently on my flesh. Of their own accord, my hips lifted up and thrust into her thigh. If I wasn’t so completely lost in the feeling of her mouth against my neck, I would have been completely embarrassed. But suddenly, it didn’t matter as Tara pushed back, grinding against me.
The rattling of a key in the door behind us caused us both to jump.
‘Fuck!’ Tara whispered as she scrambled off of me, flicked the TV off and pulled the covers on top of us. ‘What time is it?’
Through my intense frustration at being interrupted during the best moment of my life, I managed a small giggle. She was so cute... especially when she swore... which wasn’t very often. I glanced down at my watch. ‘Almost 4.’
Tara’s parents were stumbling through the door, obviously drunk from the way they kept laughing and banging into things. Thankfully, they didn’t pass through the lounge and instead fumbled through the darkness of the adjoining kitchen and down the hall before moving into their bedroom.
‘I don’t think they noticed anything.’ I laughed.
‘You’d be surprised. They’re weird like that.’ Tara mused. ‘But don’t worry, next time we’re staying in my bedroom.’
I caught sight of her flirtatious smirk in the moonlight that was filtering in through the window and smiled. ‘I bet.’
She leaned over to kiss me softly one more time before taking a hold of my hand and lacing our fingers together. ‘Big day huh?’
‘I’ll say.’ I grinned.
‘We should probably sleep.’ Tara whispered.
‘Agreed.’
She took hold of my wrist and turned around in my arms. Bringing my hand down across her stomach, Tara sighed in contentment. ‘Night Will.’
I snuggled in close, kissing the back of her neck gently and breathing in the sweet scent of her hair. Our bodies seemed to fit together so perfectly. ‘Night Tara.’
"Now that I know there's something to know, I can't not know, just because I'm afraid somebody'll know I know, you know?" - Willow
by Taralover » Fri Oct 23, 2009 6:00 pm 
Not pushy at all 
