Fic: Only in my dreams

[pikescoob]

I'm with Grimaldi, that had me gigglin' too It's cool of Buffy to make an effort to get to know Tara...I wonder how long she'll remain clueless to what's going on between W/T Excellent update



--Michelle

[vix84]

I get back from a long boring evil meeting and find an update~!! *skips* Yay! I loved Willow and Tara needing to go off at school and spend time alone, that was so sweet.



Yay, Buffy is finally working it all out. Silly Will, being all too-much-info over the phone. Can't wait for their little girls' night, and I have this feeling that something interesting is going to happen there!



Lovin' your fic! Can't wait for more xox

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"Willow laughs, kissing her. Soft and sensual. Deep love territory."

Seeing Red, Shooting Script

[pacou]

Awww, I missed so many updates! (My damn brother played again with my PC, although its not his any longer and so the Internet wasnt working for two weeks My brother is so stupid!!!)



Um...anyway, Im happy to see a lot of good updates and now Ill be off to read...



And ... he he...will there be an update soon? You know, not asking for me, Ive plenty of updates to read, but asking for all the nice kitten here



-Viv-

Well, we can answer questions.
Tara - Checkpoint

Dont dream it, be it.
Rocky Horror Picture Show

[Urn of Osiris]

OK...so here I have had an opportunity to read your fic. Sorry I was a bit busy on my own and somehow I've missed this one. My bad



But I'm here now and Completely enjoying it. So much wonderful falling in love heart thumping goodness. As I have just finished all 10 parts there is too much goodness to quote. I will say the chocolate/cake part was very sweet. Just a great falling in love story.

Urn of Osiris
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"Anyone else waiting for it to go
'poof'? Maybe we can cover it with flowers." Willow...Hells Bells

[MissQuirky]

Great update! Tara almost slipping and wanting to kiss Will in school... i can soo see how difficult that would be. Wondering how this lil Girls Weekend thingy is gonna go, can't wait!



~Ashley~

[TheWhiz]

Just read the last two updates! Sorry for the delay but life has been kinda hectic!



Anyway, loved the updates. Love how their relationship is developing-very sweet Keep up the fantastic work!

"I am a whiz...If ever a whiz there was"


"Make your own kind of music"-Mama Cass

[ExtraFlameyWT]

This should be funny...a Buffy, Willow, and Tara movie night? and Buffy doesn't know ANYTHING...hehe. Can't wait to see where you go with this. Great update!



Aimee

*****
"I'm not going to throw up or over exercise myself into oblivion to look like a model. People tell me all the time, 'You'd work all the time if you just lost 20 pounds.' What am I going to do, cut off my head?"-Amber Benson

[pacou]

Wow, Im finally all caught up now and I love where you have taken things!



The Movie Night will be fun, I bet there will be some funny scenes between those two and Buffy, you know they... not able to take hands off each other



Thanks you, wonderful parts you have written so far!



-Viv-

Well, we can answer questions.
Tara - Checkpoint

Dont dream it, be it.
Rocky Horror Picture Show

[ExtraFlameyWT]

Hey, just popping by wondering if there will be an update soon...I love this fic. Hope there's an update soon



Aimee



edited to add: WOO HOO!! I'm gay now! Go me!

Edited by: ExtraFlameyWT at: 10/24/02 8:59:36 am

[Tara22]

update is coming soon



congrats!!! I just love being gay now!!! (not that I have been yet, but I can't wait to be gay now!!)

Tara: Every time I... even when I'm at my worst, you

always make me feel special. How

do you do that?











Willow: Magic

[pacou]

Its great to hear that!



Now school calls me, but when Im back Im sure there will be an update...in 6-7 hours right?



Looking forward to the update!



-Viv-

[Tara22]

yay!!!!! I finally got the update written!! gosh darn year 12!! I mean... it is way too time consuming and stressful!!!



hope you guys like it!!!!!!



thanks for all of your reviews!!! I can tell you, that when I first started writing this fic I NEVER thought I would get this far!! you guys totally rock!!!!!! Thanks so much!!



Edited to add: Oh my gosh!! I have a lightning bolt thingy and I never even imagined that I would ever get one!! Thanks so much guys!!!



Will: Thanks! glad you enjoyed!! I had some good laughs writing that part... isn't Buffy just little miss naive?



mollyig: ooh! no need to feel cynical, I am in total aggrement with you there! I see ulterior motives! glad you liked the class part!!!



BV: thanks I have to aggree with you... oh! and this update should answer your question



Karen: thanks! glad you liked!! and you checked before you went out, aaaaaaw shucks , you are so nice!



Ron: glad you liked!!!! hope you like this next part!!



celia: thanks!!! glad you like!!! yep, Buffy = dense *nods* 'you mean Tara has a crush on Oz?'



Grimaldi: thanks!!! I must say that, that was my favourite line in the last update!! oh... and I love your avatar!



Michelle: thanks so much!!! like I said above, I loved that line too!! hehe... yes... let's see what it takes for Buffy to find out about them....



Vixy: yay!!! *grins* see! I updated? proud of me? thanks for your review!!! really glad ya like my fic! spoiler: keep an eyes out for certain er... things we both know in this ficcy



Viv: welcome back to the world of the net! (although I suppose you have been back for a while now... *hangs head in shame*) darn brothers!!! I know the feeling!! sorry the update wasn't there after school but...um...it will be today! so it's all good then... right? glad you liked my updates!!!



Urn: thanks!! I have no complaints about you not having read my fic, I mean, look how many darn amazing updates of yours I have gotten to read because of it... a sacrafice totally worth making! I am so happy that you like my fic!! I love falling in love fics... well, this is actually my first fic ever (besides one song one) but I'm pretty sure that this it my favourite fic style to write...



Ashley: thanks!! me too! ... it would be close to impossible to keep away from Tara, and Willow is just amazingly strong, I mean check her out in this update! this is true willpower (hehe... pun intended)



TheWhiz: no problemo!! I have no issues with waiting for reviews! I mean, hey! at least you reviewed ya know thanks tons!!! glad you like it!!!



Aimee: yay! thanks for the review!!! hope you like where I took it! sorry I took so long *hangs head in shame* I'm a bad little kitten...





and now... for the long awaited Part 11!



Part 11



“so... you like it here, then?” Buffy asked, looking Tara intently in the face, grasping on to the thread of conversation as if it were the last. The girls had been sitting in the room for nearly an hour just talking, and much to Buffy’s dismay they hadn’t found all that much to say to each other. Even the lately bubbly, cheery Will, didn’t have much to say.



“uh…y-yeah…I mean, it’s…it’s great… It’s a beautiful place” Tara said almost shyly, “and I’ve made great new friends” she added giving Willow a meaningful glance and brushing her arm up against Willow’s arm, softly and slightly, so as to make it just barely noticeable.



Willow gulped at Tara’s touch and smiled, “well, we love having you here Tare! That’s me!” she said grinning overly cheerfully at Buffy, “miss-welcoming-squad!, well… actually I’m more miss-attempt-to-be-welcoming-but-actually-making-a-fool-of-myself!”



Buffy nodded, “oh yeah” she said grinning, relieved that the conversation had turned to something that she knew about , ‘the stories I could tell you about Will, Tara! I mean, some of the things she’s done! Like this one time, there was this cow and…”



Willow gave Buffy a death glare, “don’t you dare tell her that!” she said squealing, grabbing the pillow on the couch next to her and flinging it across the room at Buffy, where it landed, hitting her square in the face.



Silence filled the room as the girls took in what had just happened, and then there was the glint. The little evil eye glint that said, ‘woah be you! Here it comes…’, as Buffy picked up a pillow, aiming it at Willow, who squealed and ducked under Tara’s protective arm. Tara was laughing, until the pillow landed in her face. She looked shocked for a moment, then smirked, picking up the pillow and throwing it at Buffy, this time hitting her in the head.



Now it was Buffy’s turn to look shocked, she hadn’t expected Tara to be much of the pillow throwing type. She looked into the blondes face, and saw a small challenging grin, and not one to be outdone Buffy picked up another pillow ready to pummel Tara. Mayhem ensued as Willow joined the battle, fighting to protect her lady loves honor against the evil witch Buffy.





***



“oh my god!” Willow said laughing hard, “I haven’t done that in years!”



The three girls were sprawled out on the floor of Buffy’s room, legs and arms spread flat across the ground, too exhausted to stand up.



Buffy nodded, turning over to face Willow, who was next to Tara, “that was classic, just classic, I mean, who woulda thought that I could kick both your butts?”



Tara glanced at Willow with a smirk, and then looked at Buffy, “if I weren’t so beat right now, I’d make you eat your words…”



Willow nodded, “yeah…me too!… we so won, Buffy!”



Buffy grinned, “well, I dunno, what do you consider winning? Collapsing on the floor of my room after I chased you around the house?”



Willow snorted and Tara laughed, “you? Chase us? Not quite the way we remember it, hey Will? And might I point out that you were collapsing right beside us!”



Buffy sat up, her head resting on her arm, as she surveyed the two girls, a small pout on her face, “that is way unfair! I mean, you two outnumber me! You’re like one and I’m one, but a not as strong one! I mean, you’re like two in one! All powers combined ya know? And,” she said gasping dramatically, “I seem to have no allies”



Tara stopped laughing for a moment, taking in Buffy’s words, ‘she’s so right’ she thought, her heart swelling with happiness, ‘we really are like one person now, I need her and she needs me, we complete each other’



Willow knew exactly what Tara was thinking, as she looked over at her, seeing the emotion in her eyes. She reached out, and poked Tara, a small, very unrelated action, but she knew that Tara would understand what she meant. “Go us!” she said softly, grinning, her eyes sparkling as Tara looked at her.



Tara returned the grin.



The two girls continued to smile at each other until Buffy moved to stand up, breaking them out of their gaze.



“I don’t know about you two, but I could sure use some ice cream about now! I mean ‘phew!’ I am SOOO hot here!!” she said fanning herself, “what do you girls say? Ice cream and a movie, or we can have ice cream and a deep, dark, secret, truth or dare session?” Buffy asked looking at Willow and Tara.



Tara laughed, “hmmm... what do you think Will? I’m gonna safely say that ice cream it is!”



Willow laughed, “oh! Yep! Me too… I choose ice cream…”



Buffy looked frustrated, “but…but… you are SO avoiding my question here!!”



Tara looked at her innocently, “oh, I’m sorry Buffy, what was the question?”



Both Tara and Willow cracked up laughing at the look of irritation on Buffy’s face.



“I said…”



“no! It’s ok Buffy!” Tara said quickly, interrupting, “we were just picking… I don’t mind really, either is great!”



“Will?” Buffy asked, looking her way.



“um… can we do ‘eenie meenie minie moe’? I mean… they are both good ideas…” Willow said, looking a little uncomfortable. “Ooh! I know! I’ll think of a number from one to ten and then each idea can choose one, and the one closest wins!” Willow finished excitedly, glancing from Buffy to Tara, seeing the looks she was getting, and then realizing just what she had suggested. “ok…fine…. Maybe not such a good idea… but you guys haven’t come up with any better!”



Tara smiled, very used to Willow’s quirkiness; it still always brought a smile to her face. She loved Willows spontaneous burst of excitement, and her little ideas, life was never dull with her around and there were never shortages of things to say, although sometimes, the best conversations were the ones when neither girl said anything.



Buffy shook her head at Willow’s babble, grinning, “ok, well, we CAN use your idea Will”



Willow looked confused, “we can?”



Buffy nodded, “yep, just give the idea voices”



Willow looked even more confused.



Tara nodded quickly, finally grasping what Buffy was getting at. “Will, you pick a number from one through ten and write it down, I’ll be truth or dare, and Buffy can be movie night. We each pick a number and the closest one, we go with!”



“ooohh…” Willow said, catching on, “ok! Cool!”, she thought for a moment, “oh! Got it!” she said scrawling down a number on a tiny piece of white paper and folding it over, placing it on the bed, “Go on, guess now!”



Buffy grinned, “okie-dokie, I’ll be first! On behalf of the wonderful movie line up we could be having I say… eight!”, she glanced at Willow’s face, hoping to get some sign of how close she was, but was disappointed when her face gave away nothing.



Tara looked at Willow, “my turn?”



Willow nodded



Tara smiled, “my guess… my guess is one”



Willow walked to the bed, picked up the piece of paper and handed it to Tara, who unfolded it and read it.



“and one it is, exactly right…” Willow said smiling at her.



Buffy pouted, not used to losing, but brightened when she remembered which idea did win, “oooh! So we get to play truth or dare then!! Yay! Now for the ice cream!” she said excitedly running out of the room, expecting Willow and Tara to follow her.



Tara walked over to Willow and leaned over, whispering in her ear, “could be fun” she said softly, almost seductively, brushing close against Willow as she walked past and out of the room.



Willow stood there, mouth gaping, and then ran to follow her girlfriend and Buffy into the Summer’s kitchen.



***



When Willow entered, Tara was seated at the kitchen table looking as if nothing had happened.



Buffy was rifling through the freezer in search of the ice cream.



“I know, it’s in here somewhere!” she grunted, “oooph! No wait! I got em!”



Willow sat down at the table and threw a glance Tara’s way.



Tara smiled sweetly at her, looking to anyone else perfectly innocent, but Willow could

see the mischievous Tara glint in her eyes.



“and so we have ice cream”, Buffy smiled proudly placing two tubs down on the table, along with three bowls and spoons.



“ah Buff? Two tubs? You really hungry, huh?” Willow asked eyeing the ice-coated tubs.



“no silly! Different flavors!” Buffy picked up one tub. “here we have a nice vanilla, everybody loves vanilla, and here” she said putting down the tub and picking up the other, “we have chocolate, yummy yummy chocolate, what can I get you Tara?”



At the mention of the chocolate ice cream, Willow stiffened, ‘yeah! Like my need to kiss her isn’t big enough already… mmm… chocolaty Tara lips… please don’t have chocolate! Please don’t have chocolate!’



Tara smiled at Buffy, “oh um… the vanilla sounds great”



Willow let out a sigh of relief.



“but, I must say it’s the chocolate that does it for me”



Buffy nodded, scooping some chocolate ice cream into a bowl.



Willow couldn’t bring herself to look at Tara, her heart was already beating way too fast! And she was breathing hard.



“And you Will?”, Buffy asked



“oh…um…I’ll…uh…just go with a nice safe vanilla” she said, her voice coming out strangely higher than normal, she hoped Buffy wouldn’t notice, “I mean, who doesn’t like vanilla, right? Vanilla is like the world wide flavor, right? You know, it’s the one with those ads… the ‘I’m Mr. Happy and I like vanilla ice cream so you should too!’ ads… right? I…”



Buffy interrupted her by shoving the bowl into her hands, “uh…yeah…whatever… here ya go!”



Willow accepted the bowl and picked up her spoon, preparing to take a bite.



“good stuff?” Buffy asked, sitting down at the table, taking a huge bite of her ice cream, “shall we play then?” she asked, grinning.



“yep” Tara said smiling at Buffy.



Willow glanced tentatively at Tara, just in time to witness her take a bite of her ice cream. It took everything she had not to run over there and throw herself at Tara when she saw her begin to suck on the chocolate ice cream filled spoon. She didn’t eat the bite whole, no, instead she licked at the spoon and sucked on it, slowly and carefully.



“Will? How about you? You ready?” Buffy asked, throwing her best friend a strange look.



“wha! I mean… yeah! Sure!” she said, looking down at her bowl and taking a bite of her own ice cream. “ask away!” she said, then thought, ‘anything to take my mind off of…’



Buffy grinned, “ok! I’ll explain the game…”



Tara smiled to herself, she knew she was driving Willow crazy.



“so, you get it then right?” Buffy finished “basically you HAVE to answer the truths when you choose truth!’



Willow and Tara both nodded.



Buffy smiled excitedly, “ok! I start!” she said, completely oblivious to the tension around her, “hmmm… Willow!” she said, verbally pouncing on Willow, “yes you! truth or dare?”



Willow looked thoughtful, she hated playing this game with Buffy, because whenever she chose dare, Buffy would give her these horrible things to do! ‘But then her truths are usually pretty safe…’ she thought, ‘well, sure it’s been like a year since we’ve played and I don’t really remember but… truth still sounds more appealing… I could never forget those dares’ she thought shuddering.



“Will?”



“Oh…um…truth”



Buffy grinned wickedly and Tara watched with interest.



“ok…umm…I know! do you like someone? And I don’t mean in a friend way! In a Xander sort of way!”



Willow looked shocked, how could she have been so stupid! It hadn’t even occurred to her that Buffy would ask something like that, because, honestly whenever she had played before it hadn’t mattered, Buffy knew about Xander and there had been no one else… But now...



Tara looked at Willow, her heart going out to her, but at the same time extremely curious as to how she would answer that question.



“well?!” Buffy pressed.



“um…actually no” Willow said, looking down at her ice cream bowl, the idea coming to her at the last minute, ‘thank god for twisting words!’ she thought! ‘I love Tara, Xander is a guy and Tara is a girl, AND in an entirely different league as Xander’



Buffy squealed, “oh my god! Will!!! Come on!! You so do!!” she griped.



“ah ah ah Buffy!” Tara said, “you’ve had your question, I do believe that you have to wait your turn”



“bu! But… that is just cruel!” Buffy said, whining.



“that’s life”, Tara said with a grin



Willow glanced over at Tara and gulped as she took another bite of her slowly melting ice cream.



“Truth or Dare Buffy?” Tara asked



“Truth” Buffy said



“um…



***



The game lasted another hour, until all the ice cream was eaten and the girls could barely keep their eyes open.



“We should go”. Willow said, standing up and stretching.



Tara nodded her agreement, making her way towards the door.



“let me walk you guys” Buffy said



Willow shook her head reluctantly,



“Will…nighttime… Sunnydale…” Buffy reminded, “besides” she added glancing at Tara, “I just feel like a walk, you know my thing for nighttime strolls”



Willow nodded, resigned, as Buffy walked them home.



Upon reaching Willow’s house, Buffy offered to walk Tara home.



“no! I mean… no…it’s ok…she’s sleeping here tonight” Willow rushed “thanks for tonight Buff it was fun”



Tara nodded her agreement, smiling.



Buffy nodded, watching the girls enter Willow’s house, she turned and walked towards the cemetery. ‘well, that was an interesting evening… Tara sure is cool and she and Willow are really close! Really really close actually’ she thought almost surprised, ‘but man! I wish Willow would tell me about the guy! I mean! I am SOO sure she has the hots for someone… she seems so over Xander…’ she thought. Willow had refused to admit that she liked someone but Buffy wasn’t conviced, she grumbled to herself “she better tell me soon…”.



***



Willow walked passed the living room where her parents sat watching tv, and after calling out a brief ‘we’re home’ , headed up the stairs to her room, Tara in tow. The moment the latch fell into place Willow pounced on Tara, she backed her so hard into the wall that they could actually feel the blow. Willow kissed her passionately, with all her strength, trying to make up for the deep longing that had been building up.



“do” she said each word between little small kisses “you know how much you drive me crazy?”



Tara was writhing under her touch, ‘oh god!’ she thought ‘I’ve created a monster… and hell! I love it!’



The two girls moved over to the bed so that they could be more comfortable, and they lay down, kissing each other passionately, softly, teasingly, until they were out of breath, and then as soon as they could, kissed some more, exploring, never taking their eyes away from the others.



***



as sleep was overtaking them, Tara snuggled close to Willow, “Will?” she asked quietly, “you awake?”



“yeah baby, what’s wrong?”, Willow asked pulling Tara closer in her arms



Tara paused for a moment, took a deep breath and then asked, “what happened with the cow?”

"Will, I know what sparkage means, and it's definitely, one-hundred percent, there" - The Crying Game (by Vix84)

Edited by: Tara22  at: 10/27/02 1:19:20 pm

[vix84]

OMG! So many things I loved...where do I start...*mumbles to self...beginning, always the beginning*



OK, well first, the Tara-arm brush! I love cheeky Tara, doing evil things while stupid Buffy doesn't catch on...

Quote:

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“ah Buff? Two tubs? You really hungry, huh?” Willow asked eyeing the ice-coated tubs.

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I don't know why, but that had me lmao! I guess it's really me-ish, the piggy icecream overdosing...mmmm ...



Which brings me nicely along to my next topic, Tara and chocolate icecream...an intriguing combination. Willow was so cute, being all embarassed and avoidy, and getting vanilla...pfft, vanilla!



I don't even need to mention the Mr H and genderless cow....*wipes tear* You truly are the best, m'dear! *hugs* I reallly want to see that ad, I think we should make it someday!



Yay, smoochies!! What a nice way to end a fic...every fic should end like that, and begin, and all the bits in between!



Loved the update! Thaks to your muse!

_________________


Willow laughs, kissing her. Soft and sensual. Deep love territory.
Seeing Red, Shooting Script.

Edited by: vix84 at: 10/27/02 4:18:08 am

[pikescoob]

Cool update I remember having get-togethers like this with pillow fights, ice cream, and truth or dare back in the day...those were also the same parties where someone's bra would end up in the freezer and we'd dunk someone's hand in warm water to try and get them to pee their pants in their sleep maybe that was just my town, lol. Buffy is still quite clueless Lookin' forward to the next bit



--Michelle

[stereo33]

I always check for your updates before I go out, it's like law or something! I loved this one, when is Buffy going to get a clue? I liked the pillow fight and the realisation that they are like one person (that was sweet). Also choosing the ice cream (the chocolate wins again) and the truth or dare was fun. The best bit was Tara thinking she had created a monster (& loved it) that was great

Thank you

Looking forward to more when you have time

Karen

[shootingstar]

Heya T,



See I said I would come and read and read I did



Loving the story so far, Buffy's dense-ness is always entertaining she really needs to buy a clue! The pillow fight was cool...it's been ages since I had one, I want one lol!



Thanks for a great story



Luv Star x

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No it was the frogs! Take them! They stole the pie...
-Sleeping Willow in Loco2's >insert imaginative title here<

[littlecrazy80]

Just found this fic, and I loved it.



Buffy being so clueless is really funny.



*lil´c*



Unter den Blinden ist der Einäugige König.

[Ginner WTluv]

Hey, hey. Just caught up with this fic. I LOVE it!! Buffy it soooo dumb I wonder if she's going to figure it out....

Willow and Tara are so cute Can't wait for the next update. Your writing is brilliant



~ Jen

“Sleep well baby?” Willow asked, a little more pep in her voice now that she had a dose of morning caffeine.




“Like a log until my pillow got up and left.” Tara smirked and playfully slapped Willow across the shoulder. ~ All You Wanted - Nath

[aiscool]

great update. I liked how Tara was totally driving Willow insane with the ice cream licking .



Buffy still thinks Willow is into some guy she is in for a suprise.



thanks, A

sigh.......Is it difficult or time consuming? Anya

[pacou]

Yay, you finally made it!



I know, probably this post is unimportant and not of value, as Im only telling you Im glad to finally be able to read an update!

And now Im off again, I hear a certain fic calling my name ..."come here Viv, fine update-y goodness waiting for you, come, puut, put, put" Gosh, its so calling me! ...



-Viv-

[MissQuirky]

Lovely update! A very nice 'Girls Night'!! Pillow fights, ice cream, Truth or Dare... those things are definitely essential for a girls night of fun! And they so beat Buffy's ass in the pillow fight!



Tara choosing chocolate, very nice torture for Will after the big cake baking thing. But she still got to taste Tara's chocolaty lips in the end... which i hafta to say was very niice! Who can't love a good ol' W/T make-out session in the bed! I know i do!



OK I soooo wanna know what the hell happened with Willow and the cow!! Ya can't just let it pop up in the update TWICE and not give the full load of details missy! If yer just gonna let us leave it to our imagination... well you don't know how my imagination works, it'll create things no one would ever think of happenning, so ya gotta spill!



Lookin forward to the next update! Its gonna be Soon, right?



~Ashley~

Willow: We can come by between classes. Usually I use that time to copy over my class notes with a system of different colored pens. But it's been pointed out to me that that's, you know... insane.

Tara: I said quirky.

[Cindipitude]

Ok Chel..

Starting from the beginning since I was bad and read but left no review



Let me just say, no matter how morbid it sounds, that I actually like the idea of Willow coming down with Depression.

I mean, it's the Hellmouth! Buffy has her mom and Giles and later a sister, not to mention all her friends..and even she feels like running away a good part of the time.

Willow has parents that are never around (except to burn her at the stake) and has a few friends that tend to lean on her rather than be there for her.

So it's understandable that the pressure of what they do every day would start to get to her, and when it does she has no one to lean on.



Really liking this Tara. She's sweet and shy with a strong streak of sensual.



I really like that Tara's dad seems supportive of her. He doesn't put her down or beat her, but when a family is that close a death really tears things apart.

So sad that he doesn't want to be around Tara because she looks like her mom, and how great was it that Tara made him a homemade cake anyway?



I hope that Buffy and Xander really start to realize the other side of friendship in this fic. Which is being there for those you love. I'm thinking that Buffy is making strides towards that goal, but Xander still seems clueless for the most part. And as he is her oldest and dearest friend, technically the one that should know her best.. that troubles me.



As far as memorable parts....wow...Willow's smile when she meets Tara. The mutual nerves over the sleepover ...I laughed so hard when Tara paniced over Willow being one minute late

The making of the cake was awesome, cocoa everywhere.. that would so be me.. and was just pure Willowluck.



Sneaking smooches outside the school, Tara watchiing Willow sleep and not wanting to wake her, the Spoon of Chocolatey Goodness (just so sensual that), and pushing each other into the wall so hard they could feel it....just great



heheh I wanna know the story with the cow too!



Nice work Chel

I'm still drooling over thoughts of chocolatey Tara lips and tongue.

More pweeeeze?

*pulls out the innocent pout with a dash of shimmering eyes*

Umm...if thats not enough I can throw in a lip nibble

[LeatherQueen]

Chel! I finally finished reading the whole thing. Very nice. I like this. And chocolate ice cream Tara sounds oh so yummy.



But you know what would make this extra extra yummy? The Cin and Sugar Special. I'm sure Cindi would be HAPPY to describe it in detail.



Looking forward to the next update!

"We've got the only librarian who can rip off your arm with his leg. People respect that." - Terry Pratchett

[jdcioffi]

What DID happen with the cow?!?



Excellent ... please update soon.



I happen to love Buffy's certainty that Will's in love ... best friend intuition, I guess. Just needs a tweek in the gender department, lol.



More soon?

JD

"Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying, "maybe..." (Jeff Buckley - The Last Goodbye)

[pacou]

Buffy is so damn stupid! But thats what makes her being Buffy, that and the slayer thing...



Loved the icecream part I can so imagine Tara taking bites from chocolate ice cream...



Thanks, Im so waiting for the next update now, to see whats gonny happen!



-Viv-

[Grimaldi]

loved this part the pillow fight was funny, especially with Buffy pouting because she was outnumbered. loved Tara being sneaky with the arm brushing and her comment about chocolate. really curious about the cow story.

Dude, we're surrounded by perverts!
No! Well, okay. No. Pez!

[mollyig]

I love Vixen Tara teasing Willow with the ice cream.

Adding up the total of a love that's true, multiply life by the power of two
Indigo Girls

[barnabasvamp]

Yipes, Buffy is still so dense..How long will it take her to figure this stuff out?

So cute with the ice cream.

BV

"In front of total strangers won't you kiss me, Flowers for no reason but you miss me - OOH, I wanna be in love"

Melissa Etheridge-Skin

[Cindipitude]

again......maybe cow is explain in next part?

maybe maybe?

looking forward to More Chel

[Tara22]

Ok, and here is my new update... this update is very different from my others, in that it contains quite some angst... which, in contrast to my last one will stand out even more... still...hope you girlies like it.



Review thanking time!!



Vixy: *sobs* I know you won't get to read this for a LOOONG while but I am gonna say it anyway... thanks for the long review and constant nudging to update! *hugs* thanks to my muse? funny that... I was gonna say the same to you... thanks Vix!! hope you are having a great time in that strange new land accross the sea!! *hugs again* Miss you lots!! *feeds you meusli*



Michi: thanks Mich!! glad you liked the get-together... hm... can't say I quite remember the bra in the freezer gag but... that's not to say that it never happens



Karen: Thanks so much!! *hugs* you are so sweet!! I'm really glad you liked my update!! thanks for understanding about the evil year 12 *slaps her exams*



Star: so glad you liked!!! ... aaaaw poor star.. *smacks you with a pillow* here *grins* you're having a pillow fight!



lil'c: thanks!!! glad you like!!! hehe...yeah silly silly Buffy... *thinks of the cow*



Jen: thanks!!!! aaaw... *sniffles* my writing is brilliant? thank you SO much!! hope you like the next one!!



A: ... glad you liked the ice cream!! it appears to have been quite a favourite with some kitties... *raises an eyebrow at one in particular*



Viv: ...wow...you're drawn to my fic*stunned into silence* yes...that would be a compliment...it takes alot to silence me!! glad you liked the ice cream *grins* so do I! lol... hope you like the next bit!!



Ash: aaaw... glad you liked the night!! mmm....Tara tongue...chocolate... oh yes... the cow...well...read below.



Cind: Thanks so much for all of your review!!! *hugs* I'll forgive you for not replying before... you know I couldn't be mad at you!! hmm... thanks for all the help with this next one! you truly are the best *big grin* yes...yes you are. There is a little section in here just for you...no wait...make that two sections *waggles her eyebrows* <--- see the second? *grins*



Lea: Thanks for the review!!! *hugs* I'm glad that you liked it!! *grins* oh yes...hmm...cinammon.... how to write that in *grins* just read ahead and marvel at my ingeniousness!



JD: glad you liked!! yes..er..the cow...once again...read below.



Grimaldi: glad you liked!!hm... cow story...yes well...see below *whimpers*.





mollyig: thanks!!! me too!! how nice... chocolate Tara tongue



BV: thanks!! lol...glad you liked!!!



dum DUM DUM yes....the cow....how to let you all down gently... um..well...the cow is a very long developed story that I am sorry to say is not only mine to share, kind of a personal thing...BUT! don't go all 'aaaaaaaaaw' on me yet! Vixy and I have a story totally devoted to Willow and Tara in cowland!! so, reading that should appease your quirkiness fix...



it's called 'Take me home country road', we have six chapters so far



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Edited to add (fixed the link!)



yes,well, it's that time again... posting time... like I said... this chapter is VERY different from last, but hope you like it anyway...



PART 12

dedicated to Cind and Lea of course for their constant urgings and support, and to my darling Vixy... you are the very best!! writer and friend...





“Willow? Sweetie?”



“hmmm?”



“I love you”



“love you too baby, more than anything”



Willow sighed contentedly, her head resting against Tara’s bare stomach. She ran her hands up and down it, enjoying the silky feeling of her skin.



“I never thought things could feel any better Tare” Willow started softly, “just when I think that they are the best they can possibly be, and that there can be nothing more amazing then kissing you… I was wrong”



Tara nodded, running her hands through Willow’s hair. “You just take my breath away Will” she said with a smile, “every little thing you did… every little thing you do, pure heaven”



Willow smiled, lifting her head and bringing it up to Tara’s, “no…I’m in heaven just looking at you”, she leaned over and kissed her softly, and then pulled away, remaining a few inches above her lips.



“can things be like this forever Will? You and me? Together..” Tara asked



“naked?” Willow offered



“oh, yes, well, that too… it’s just that life is so perfect when I am with you. All my problems just seem to vanish”.



Willow kissed her again, this time a little harder. They deepened their kiss, trying, with all their might, to never let go.



When the girls were out of breath, Willow lay her head back on Tara’s stomach, tracing her bellybutton with her fingers, “mmmmm” she said softly “Tara belly”



Tara laughed as Willow leaned over and kissed her stomach.



“my Tara belly” Willow said in a mock possessive voice.



“yes…your Tara belly Will, always”. Tara smiled as Willow kissed her stomach again, running her tongue over her bellybutton.



“mmm… you still taste like cinnamon Tare”, Willow said, grinning up at her lover.



“yes…actually…Will...I’ve been meaning to ask you about that…for someone who has no clue in the kitchen you sure know your spices and chocolate”, Tara smirked down at her.



Willow gave a fake sigh, “what can I say baby?” she said grinning “guess I’m just a natural when it comes to fixing beautiful young blondes”, she paused and thought about that for a moment, “actually no…just beautiful young blondes that answer to the name of Tara Maclay and happen to be my girlfriend”



Tara smiled and Willow snuggled closer to her.



The girls lay this way for a while, the silence speaking for them, basking in the strong love that seeped from every one of their pores.



Willow ran her hand up and down Tara’s body, “you’re all sweaty baby” she said.



Tara grinned, “oh… and why is that? Could be because a certain someone has WAY to much energy”



Willow lifted her head and gave her a mock pout, “if you want me to stop I can…”



Tara interrupted quickly, “not that there is anything wrong with excess energy, I for one am an extreme fan of…”



Willow silenced her with a kiss, “my rambles have rubbed off on you”



Tara grinned, “that’s ok Will, I am quite happy with anything you rub on me”



Willow laughed and then her face turned serious. “Tare…” she said, as she rested her head against Tara’s.



“hmm?”



“I’m ready…”



“what?” Tara asked, “ready? Will…sweetie…it’s a little late for that”, she said with a grin.



“I want to tell them baby… I want the world to know because…well…you are my everything and you make me who I am… I am not complete without you baby...and I need you…I want to shout it to the world, that I have the most amazing girl in existence and I want them all to know just how much I love you… nothing that feels this good can be wrong Tare…I am so sure of that”



Tara turned to face Willow, tears streaming down her cheeks.



“oh… don’t cry baby! I’m sorry... shh”



Tara smiled softly, “Will… you make me so happy… you make me feel so special…to you it doesn’t matter what I’ve done…or where I’m from…or how many friends I have…I was so blessed by coming here…and I am so grateful to whoever runs things up there…because I have you Will…I don’t know if it was a fluke or some divine fate…but I have you”, the tears continued to stream down her face, “you make me feel so loved”



Willow moved so that her face was on top of Tara’s, “oh baby” she said kissing her tears, “you are loved…I love you so much…I could never tell you just how much…you…could never even understand how much”



Tara smiled, “if it is even close to half as much as I love you then I’m set for life, and far beyond”



Willow smiled and kissed Tara softly.



All of the sudden the room filled with beeping. Willow groaned and looked at Tara.



“do you have to go baby?” she asked sadly.



Tara nodded, sitting up, “I’m sorry sweetie, daddy really needs my help with something for his work and he doesn’t usually ask me for anything, I have to go meet him now”



Willow nodded, resigned, “yeah…spending time with your dad is a good thing… you should probably get dressed first…, I don’t wanna share my Tarebare. or” she stopped and looked at Tara “in this case my bareTare”



Tara laughed, surveying the room, “good point Will but…where are my clothes?”



Willow’s floor was littered with various articles of clothing and containers.



“umm… maybe under the bed, I was not really careful with where I threw them”



Tara grinned, walking to the bed, getting on her knees, and looking underneath it. “here they are…” she said, beginning to pull them on.



Willow’s face fell as, slowly, more and more parts of Tara skin were covered.



“don’t worry sweetie” Tara said, walking over to Willow and handing her, her clothes. “there will be plenty more time to become newly acquainted with Tara belly… but…you should put these on”



Willow nodded, still sad that Tara was leaving.



Once both girls were fully dressed, Willow stood by her room door, waiting for Tara to leave.

Tara walked over and kissed her once, hard. When she pulled away Willow reached out for her, wanting more.



“nuh uh Will…I’ll see you in a few hours and we’ll see about it then”, she said, a smile on her face.



Willow nodded, “and then we can go tell Buffy and Xander about us, right?”



Tara gave a huge smile, “right”



***



An hour later, once Willow had cleaned up her room, she went down to the kitchen to get some breakfast.



“Morning Mom!” Willow said chirpily, not caring, like she usually did, that her mom had hardly looked up when she entered.



“well, you are in a good mood Willow”, Sheila Rosenberg said, looking at her glowing daughter.



“yeah….I guess I am”, Willow began humming to herself.



Sheila Rosenberg just shook her head and continued to read her newspaper.



Willow went through the process of making toast, completely oblivious to her surroundings, all her thoughts on a certain blond.



Sheila Rosenberg snorted, “that is disgusting!”



Willow looked up at her mom,“what is Mom?” she asked, before taking a bite of her toast.



“Homosexuality in teens has been progressively rising, yearly the number of teens ‘coming out’ has risen quite substantially” Sheila Rosenberg read out.



Willow stopped mid-chew and went pale.



Sheila continued, not even noticing the state Willow was in, “you’d think the parents of those…those problems,… would have picked up on it! I mean, what sort of mother can’t tell what her daughter is thinking and feeling!”



Willow just stared at her mother, unable to speak.



“Homosexuality…what a concept! It is absolutely disgusting!!



Willow looked at her mom , and said quietly “no…”



Sheila looked at her daughter, “what did you say?”



“no” she repeated again, her mouth suddenly going dry, “...I mean… what about all of those times that you said that love is love.. and all those conferences, talks at the school....you were even honored at the PFLAG awards banquet, didn’t you mean it? Love is love …it’s natural…”, she said, a little bit louder.



Sheila gave her a strange look. “no Willow. It is not natural. It will never be natural. Just as it will never be accepted”



Willow was finding it hard to breathe, “but… it’s love… how can that possibly be unnatural?”



Sheila Rosenberg shook her head, “Oh Willow…” she said, sighing exasperatedly “you have a lot to learn”, she gave her one more glance and then turned back to her newspaper, Willow’s presence, once again ignored.



Willow was frozen. She couldn’t move. She couldn’t think. Finally she got control of her legs and ran past her mother, out of the kitchen and up the stairs.



‘they’ll hate me…they’ll think I’m gross….they won’t want to know me…I’ll lose them all…they’ll hate me’



Upon reaching her room, she ran inside and slammed the door shut, unable to move anymore, she sunk to the floor, sobbing into her hands. She was so confused.



***



Tara walked up the path to the Rosenberg’s house and smiled to herself. Her morning had been reasonably enjoyable and now she would get to see Willow, making this a perfect day in her book.



She knocked on the door and was greeted by a smiling Mrs. Rosenberg. “Tara, please, come in.”



Tara entered the house, “thanks” she said with a smile.



“Willow is upstairs in her room, you can go on up”



Tara smiled once more then made her way to the stairs, she couldn’t believe it, they were finally going to tell everyone! She understood how Willow had felt, because, honestly, she was also scared. Letting people know about this… in a way…it was like sharing this deep part of her that had always been hers alone. ‘What if people disapprove? What would daddy say?’ But Tara knew that no matter how scary it was for her, it was far worse for Willow. Willow had lived here her entire life, ‘she has friends and a proper family.’ Telling them was a big step and Tara was so proud and amazingly happy when Willow spoke those words. ‘I’m ready’



Tara paused outside of Willow’s door and smiled, “I’m ready…” she said quietly to herself, “we’re ready”.



She slowly turned the doorknob, a smile on her face. “Will! I’m he… oh god!” she said quickly, her smile completely gone as she ran over to Willow’s side. “oh sweetie…what is it? What happened?”



Tara pulled her into her into her arms and Willow sobbed into her chest.



‘they’ll hate me…they’ll think I’m gross…they’ll hate me…’



“Willow…darling…please talk to me. Please… what’s wrong?”, Tara held her close, Willow was shaking in her arms.



‘they’ll hate me….they’ll think I’m gross…they’ll hate me…’



“Will? Sweetie? Darling?” Tara pulled away from her and brought her hand up to her cheek, wiping away the tears that wouldn’t stop coming, “you told me once that you were here for me… and I told you that I was here for you… and I am… I’m here to listen and help and comfort…I’m here to joke when it’s needed and cry when it’s needed, and to hug and to kiss…. Talk to me Will…I love you more than life itself and I need you to talk to me…I want to be here for you”



Willow finally looked Tara in the eyes, “they’ll hate me…”, she whispered



Tara looked confused, “oh…baby…who? Why?”



“all of them” Willow said, her voice cracking, “I thought it was all ok…that people were accepting…would learn to accept it”, Willow looked at her hands, “learn to accept us… but before…my mom…I found out that everything I’ve seen is all a cover… everything I’ve known…everything I’ve learned” Willow looked Tara in the eyes, “people aren’t accepting at all… they fill our heads with lies….and it scares me Tare…I” her voice cracked again as the tears began flowing more, “ what if they hate me? Think I’m gross and disgusting? And never want to know me again?”



Tara looked shocked, “oh…Willow” she said, pulling her to her, letting her cry against her, “my poor Willow”, she stood her up and brought her over to the bed, then had her lay down. “just rest sweetie” she said, running her hands through her hair. Tara felt like crying, seeing the pain Willow was in, not knowing exactly what had happened, but feeling the impact of it at the same time. “just rest”



Willow lay on the bed, curled up in a ball, “stay with me Tara” she said softly, “don’t leave me”



Tara lay down on the bed next to her, “never darling, I’m here”



Willow sighed and said in barely above a whisper, “what are we gonna do Tare? What are we gonna do?”

"Will, I know what sparkage means, and it's definitely, one-hundred percent, there"- The Crying Game (by Vix84)

Edited by: Tara22  at: 12/22/02 8:37:59 pm