Lost and Forgotten

[Irishgrl3]

This fic gets more and more intriguing. Willow and this strange connection she has with Nox... Still trying to figure that out.



Oz and Arionna are going to go ballistic when they find out Willow is nursing her back to health in her dorm room.



And there is still the blond getting off the bus to start a new life hmmmm.... So cryptic. Great update!



I would be lying if I said I was "patiently" waiting for more. This story has me acting like and impatient toddler. Want more now.

Edited by: Irishgrl3 at: 9/2/04 12:55 pm

[kindagay]

Hmm, well, that update didn't ease my confusion. I'm still clueless about the Nox/Tara/blonde girl thing, in fact, even more so now 'cos Willow said Nox has beautiful blue eyes.



Anyway, the update was wonderful & I absolutely adore Willow's protectiveness of Nox



Uh-oh, I'm almost dreading finding out what Oz and/or Arionna might do when they find out that Willow's nursing Nox



Keep up the great work, I'm absolutely loving it



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[sabina]

Hi there



I have just finished reading all that is posted of this story and I have to say that I absolutely loved it



I think it was a great idea to show Oz becoming more and more possessive, his inner wolf surfacing, as he felt Willow began to slip away. It is very believable. But despite that he is really getting on my nerves... Can Nox beat him down and send him away? Please? No? Ok, it was worth a try



I'm kind of hoping that Nox is Tara.



Update soon?

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"I know I was born and I know that I'll die.

The in between is mine.

I am mine!" - Pearl Jam

[WolfNightwind]

I'm still holding to my idea that both Nox AND the blond girl from the bus are Tara. Don't be asking me how they both are the same person, i just got a gut feelin'. Either that or i got gas.



~Bug

[umgaynow]

I anyone else confused? I like the general idea but I have no idea what's going on...could you try and explain the whole Nox thing a little better? Obviously she is immortal in some weird way and her companion made a wish that cursed her, but...also, please make Oz die slowly and painfully or at least have Buffy kick his little wolf balls through the top of his skull...sounds like a plan to me

[RaVeN]

What do you need to know and I will try to draw a road map for you, cant have you lost.



Is anyone else having issues with figuring it out? can I get some feedback in here lol

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Chantry: Now that, you know, the moon's dripping blood and all thats left is freaks and cockroches and all your old friends are zombie like. What's next?



Raven: You know the usual.



Chantry: Your going to Disneyworld with the freaks and cockroaches?



Raven: I was thinking more of survivng thanks, and NO 'Ratworld' that place scares me enough with just the talking rat.

[alysagoddess85]

ok well i for one am not lost or confused. more excited and totally loving this fic. so lets get some more soon...and dont worry about the confusion! lol



~mel

'The Cat in the Hat' is fine, just not during sex.--Alyson Hannigan

[Irishgrl3]

No worries about the confusion! It's one of the things that make the story interesting. Just keep the updates coming, this fic is fantastic.





Anna

[Arron CFF]

I am not really confused. I am guessing and speculating on the who the heck is that, but thats what makes it fun to read. I like to see if I can guess who is that and how do they tie into the story. So I say keep it up

However I do have to agree with the poster above and her comments about

Oz's lil wolfy balls being jammed thru his skull.

Great Job on the Fic I hope to read more soonish

Arron

[WillowTara Addict]

Hey RaVen...



I must tell you how much I love it, actually...I can't because it's almost immeasurable to describe...



It's going really smashin' great! Keep on updating...



But I am already feeling so stupid asking you this, Are you going to reveal Nox as Tara later on? Just that Nox seems so much like Tara so... Now, I am feeling like...

[RaVeN]

firstly I'll do the feedback then I have a short update.



Sam: Hey thanks for reading as always I really appreciate that you that the time



amazonaa: Just think I am more confused then you are, and I am the one writing it lol.Thanks!



tarawhipped: Such kind words thank you I really appreciate them. So what do you think is going on? Please tell maybe then I can have a clue where this is going



alysagoddess85 : Well I write how my brain works and thats a little on the twisted side so ya know lol it comes out as this. Thanks for reading and may I continue to keep you on your toes.



Wimpy: So sorry about your nails, you know gum works pretty well hee hee. Thank you for reading



WolfNightwind: Thats some theory you have there, I wish I had come up with it. I think I know where this is going and it may be some what of a shock lol thanks for reading.



WillowFever: So glad that you are still liking it, and a few twist have been added just for you. Also you haven't even begun to see the not so soft side of Willow I think. Because you know every person has that breaking point.



Irishgrl3 : Thanks for thinking its interesting, I try to make it that way. Keep reading after this update its going to go a little crazy for a couple updates.



kindagay: After tonights update we will see exactly how Oz and Arionna fit into this whole puzzle. Don't forget there is also that "mystery blonde" as well. Thanks



sabina: ohh you know someone is going to knock him over the head with something, but it has to be when I don't have a use for him anymore sorry... I like that you caught the inner wolf fighting for dominance of something he was watching grow away from him THANKS!



umgaynow: After tonights update there will be a much needed very long talk. That should clear a lot of things up for you thank you for reading, it means a lot to me.



Arron CFF: Twist and turns, left and right, up and down its all fixing to start meshing. Or at least I really hope it does lol. As I have said Oz is still useful, when he isn't I may take suggestions on how to get rid of him. Thanks for reading



WillowTara Addict: Smashing well thats a definite great thing! I still am not 100% sure how this is going to lay out. So can't help you with the Nox/Tara thing. All I can say is there are a few more tricks up my sleeve.



I hope I got everyone. This is a very short update but the next 2 will be very long so I will be working hard to get them out as soon as I can, but I do have midterms next week.



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Willow woke with a small smile playing across her lips early the next morning. She had one of the best dreams she could remember about a field full of flowers and plush grass that was so soft you just had to rub your feet into it until they were green. That she had done while sitting at a brook that had babbled away to her ancient secrets of the Earth. Then as the sun was setting she had seen the figure walking toward her. She couldn't make out details at first for the setting sun was in her eyes, but right before it sat down with her she had scene the blue eyes that gave her comfort. As they sat, their hand found each other and it feeling so perfect, so safe, so much like home. They had sat there until the stars conquered the sky and all the light had faded except the light of the moon.



Sighing and stretching Willow stared at the ceiling allowing her eyes to focus and letting the last remains of the dream wash away. Suddenly remembering the figure laying in her floor she curled up at the edge of the bed and looked down to the floor below. “WHAT!” her brain automatically screamed at her. The floor was empty except for the made blanket and the pillow. As if thinking Nox had somehow scooted under the bed Willow fell on her head to the floor trying to look under the bed for her, but she only found her not there with Mr. Penguin. Curling up with the pillow she wondered what had happened and where Nox had gone. She didn’t want to think bad things, she hadn’t done anything that could be looked at as wrong had she? Her brain was going crazy, well crazier then normal analyzing every possible reason to why she wasn’t there.



Looking around the room for a note she didn’t find one from Nox or Buffy. Had Buffy even came home last night? She couldn’t remember anything other then the music then the dream. Sitting back down at the edge of the bed Willow wrapped her arms around the pillow and breathed deeply of the faint scent of sandalwood. Before she knew it tears had started falling uncontrollably from her eyes. Squeezing the pillow harder she felt her heart finally coming to terms with everything that was happening.



She didn’t know how long she had been there before she heard Buffy open the door. But as soon as the she had closed the door she had been hit with Willow wrapped around her crying.



“What’s wrong did something happen is it Giles? Xander? What’s wrong talk to me Wills” Buffy asked her.



Trying to gain her composure Willow took a deep breath as if to go off in babble mode only to be able to just get “Nox is gone” out before she felt the sobs taking control of her body again.



“Oh no it’s okay I promise she isn’t gone” Buffy tried to reassure her in her best soothing tone.



“Hello Buffy no Nox in room, kind of means she ran out and all.” Willow said trying to regain herself.



“No Will honest she isn’t gone. Well okay technically she is gone at the moment, but only for now. When I came in this morning you were asleep and she was watching over you. She asked me to help her change her bandage and then she said she had to leave. Something about having something to go get, but I am not sure what. But made me promise that I would watch after you like that wasn’t already on my list. We are supposed to meet up tonight at the Bronze. She thinks its better that we go on like nothing happened and sees whose side everyone is on. Hate to say it but she is pretty smart in that area.”



“So she isn’t gone?”



“No she will be back tonight I promise”



“What if Oz finds her again? What if something else finds her Buffy? She shouldn’t be alone.”



“You really care about her huh?”



“Yeah I do, I mean I don’t know why I do, but there’s just something there. It’s like when I look into her eyes I see so much, and I feel better just having her near me.”



“Well I guess I have to tell Giles that he was right once again. But I am not sure what you mean by her eyes all I see is blackness. Kind of freaky if you ask me.”



“Giles was right about what?”



“He said there was something in your eyes when just the thought of her was in your head. He said it was even stronger with her in the room, although Xander and I didn’t see anything.”



“Wonder what he meant by that, and Buffy what do you mean blackness of her eyes? Her eyes are very blue.”

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Chantry: Now that, you know, the moon's dripping blood and all thats left is freaks and cockroches and all your old friends are zombie like. What's next?



Raven: You know the usual.



Chantry: Your going to Disneyworld with the freaks and cockroaches?



Raven: I was thinking more of survivng thanks, and NO 'Ratworld' that place scares me enough with just the talking rat.

Edited by: RaVeN at: 9/4/04 12:04 am

[noellebrin]

Raven,

I love the update and am sitting here waiting for more. I so want to know what is going on with Nox's eyes. I was wondering if by the dreams and connection if Willow's past life may have been as a scared Princes who turned her back on Nox? I also wonder what Giles knows. I hope most people are on Willow and Nox's side and Oz needs a butt kicking soon. Thanks for the frequent updates!

Kristin

[WillowFever]

Ok.....where do I start....first of all.....I love Mr. Penguin... hehe....and I can just see Willow sliding off the bed onto her head looking for Nox...so cute....



Okay...now...I am very curious to find out what Giles know's...and I love the fact that Willow see's Nox's eyes as blue....very good....the dream was very sweet....



So....now....later at the Bronze....should be interesting...Can't wait for more sweeite...you are doing great





laters,

Rach

~ ~ Every so often, I like to stick my head out the window, look up, and smile for a satellite picture...~ ~

[kindagay]

Aww, that was so beautiful - Willow's dream read like a fairy tale



Poor Willow going all panicky when Nox wasn't there, & checking under her bed - that was so cute, made me



So, Giles can see something between Willow & Nox - interesting



& Willow seeing the blue of nox's eyes rather than the darkness - that is so beautiful



Keep up the great work



Hugs

Jeanne

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Tara: “Let me guess – you want me to lie on your lap while you feed me grapes, but my sweet, shy, precious, honey you’ve been too shy to ask – yes?” - GROWW by WannaFriendsBe

[amazonaa]

Black and Blue. Hmmphh. Well i can't wait to find out whats going to happen and everything.





Great job. More soon, please.





brittney







"Arn't you going to tell me to 'break a leg'?"

"Break 'em both." Amber Benson as Cheyenne in The Crush

[WolfNightwind]

Well since that theory is wrong i get to come up with a new one!!! hmmmmm. Willow and seeing blue where everyone else sees black ...very interesting.. bet that means Willow is going to break the spell! hmmm, i'm going to have to think more on a new theory but don't worry i WILL come up with one as crazy as my other!!! Keep up the work, i love this story!!!

~Bug

[The Rose24]

Curiouser and curiouser.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[Irishgrl3]

Wonderful update!



Nice dream imagery. It's interesting that only Willow can see Nox's true eyes and I can't wait to see what Giles has to say about the two of them. Looking forward to the get together at the Bronx.

[RaVeN]

Well I had an update to post today, but my laptop went bonkers do to a freak accident. SO! Until I can get it to class Tuesday it is out of commission.



Which in turns means I have to rewrite all that sigh. Must really do multiple backups.



Thanks for everyone reading and enjoying happy holidays!

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Chantry: Now that, you know, the moon's dripping blood and all thats left is freaks and cockroches and all your old friends are zombie like. What's next?



Raven: You know the usual.



Chantry: Your going to Disneyworld with the freaks and cockroaches?



Raven: I was thinking more of survivng thanks, and NO 'Ratworld' that place scares me enough with just the talking rat.

[Grimlock72]

Wow... I really haven't read this story for a while, whole bunch of updates. Good thing about that is it defeats the cliff-hanging



Why doesn't Nox speak or at least not much ? Why does Willow see Nox' eyes as blue while everybody else sees them as black ? Why was Nox so easily ambushed by Oz while she has survived years, even centuries, before coming to Sunnydale ??



It seems to me Arionna is the most damned/cursed one in this story. After all she loves someone who simply put doesn't return the feeling. It sort of serves her right for her selfish wishing but it also does make it rather dangerous to become close to Nox.



Apart from the one-liner about a blonde girl getting of a bus I'm still reading like Nox is Tara one way or another. As I understand it Arionna has a crush on Nox, who was convicted to death because she loved another woman. As a result of that Nox is cursed to live on while never knowing true love. Hmm... that curse is in danger of being lifted then .



I noticed that you said you weren't happy with the last two updates, yet you did post them. Why ?



I liked all the Willow bable, especially this quote:

Quote:

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That's it after the Scooby meeting tonight I am going to have meditation and self therapy time. Willow mentally marked that in her schedule with a blue pen with a heart around it.

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Don't know what to make of Willow so readily assuming Oz stabbed Nox (also know as Attempted Murder). Should be interesting to see Oz act like he's all innocent while Willow and Buffy both know he ain't.



Hmm.. wait a second... I probably wrote this in previous feedback to but Arionna and Oz don't have entirely comptible goals. More to the point; Arionna doesn't want Nox to get hurt, at least I can't see the logic for that... The only way both Oz and Arionna could reach their goals is to somehow keep Nox and Willow apart, not killing either of them...



Should be interesting to see how that unfolds... now if I could just figure out exactly how the story-title relates to the story... heh.



Grimmy

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"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

Edited by: Grimlock72 at: 9/5/04 1:33 pm

[RaVeN]

Hmm all good points Grimlock (every time I read your name I get a Transformers flashback lol) and maybe I can help with some of them.

Quote:

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Why doesn't Nox speak or at least not much ?

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I see this as years of being pretty much alone, her speaking her passion has lead her to what she is today. She feels emptiness and constantly battles with if what she says or feels is correct or not. Or is just going to be thrown back at her. The next few updates will make this feeling stronger, or at least I hope.

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Why does Willow see Nox' eyes as blue while everybody else sees them as black ?

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Hmm I thought a lot about this before I wrote it. I live by the theory that we as humans always have a quality in us that can either a) aways be there but not widely seen or B) sometimes there are just people that bring out the better qualities of us. Nox eyes are the start of that quality that maybe has been hidden over the years.

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Why was Nox so easily ambushed by Oz while she has survived years, even centuries, before coming to Sunnydale ??

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I REALLY love this question Have you ever had a feeling brought forth from you that you haven't felt either felt before, or not in a very long time that no matter what was going on around you, you were completely lost in that thought? Perhaps a first kiss with that person that made every other kiss seem like they never happened. Maybe a child's first cry, or the loss of a loved one. A instance in time that the world seemed to stop, except for the thought of that one moment. Nox felt something inside her stir for the first time in ages, she felt something other then empty. Thats the only way I know to explain it.



As far as Arionna sometimes people love things they know they cant have for that reason even more.



I posted them simply because I really don't like anything I write. It's a jackie flaw I suppose, I love to create but really can't find it in myself to like anything that I do.



Willow assuming it was Oz right off the bat had something to do with his jealousy of her and the treatment of her. She has already witnessed the attitude toward others he has displayed with her. I'm winging that like I said this is my first fic lol.



Umm the story title was named by someone else but I am working on getting that worked in.



Thanks for reading!

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Chantry: Now that, you know, the moon's dripping blood and all thats left is freaks and cockroches and all your old friends are zombie like. What's next?



Raven: You know the usual.



Chantry: Your going to Disneyworld with the freaks and cockroaches?



Raven: I was thinking more of survivng thanks, and NO 'Ratworld' that place scares me enough with just the talking rat.

[ittybittyone]

hey jacks, Stop making goo goo eyes with you know who & get cracking on this fic, you've got me all sucked in & I need more now.

Pleeeeeeaaase!



tray

[alysagoddess85]

ooo...so yet again im on my toes...you just love doing that dont you?! lol...but yea...so nox's eyes are black to everyone but willow? hmm...id love to hear the explanation on that one. i felt so bad for willow when she woke up and nox was gone...but then when buffy explained to her what had happened it was all ok again..and very sweet...i like that nox was watching over willow and then made buffy promise to do the same.



ok...enough from me...more from you!! soon!! please!!



~mel

'The Cat in the Hat' is fine, just not during sex.--Alyson Hannigan

[RaVeN]

Well kinda short in a round about way update. Was sitting here acting like I am studying for mid-terms and this just came out. After these test I promise a longer update, well maybe. Things are up in the air at the moment. I also changed the view on Arionna in the story I needed a switch.





***NOTE*** The poem used in this part was written in parts by myself and a dear friend. Truth be told anything can be figured out by a dark room with one candle burning in it and endless hours of babbling about everything and nothing at all. I will always miss you my friend, and someday the marching will be over, the journey will come to

an end and the dream shall be ours...



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Nox felt relief wash over her as she found her book still resting on the bridge. It had fallen there the day before in her struggle with Oz. Just the day before, yet it seemed almost like years ago. The time that she had spent watching over Willow in the early morning hours had brought her a sense of peace she hadn't felt in such a long time. With a contented sigh she ran her hand over the aged leather cover of the book. Opening it to the entry she had made the day before she found herself rereading the entry,



watch over me

Give me a newfound hope and reason to try or trust

I feel so alone now

Without truly feeling a thing

So unknowing of why or how

I fall from graceless knights

Cruel, hopeless, words echo through

What am I to do?

Searching, praying for motivation

That will bring me back to you

I am drowning in my melancholy ways

I miss your sight

Must I pass through these dull days

Living out such a meaningless daze

And though my life is full of strife

It seems to lack true meaning

Come back, dear angel, into my life

And release me



Closing the book slowly she felt a presence behind her. Turning to face it she was able to make out figure before it stepped through the grove of trees.



"Arionna..."



"Time is up, the game is ready to be played and I must say this time things are a bit more complicated. But no matter, I am sure when it comes right down to it the instinct to survive will take over and I won't have to worry about a thing will I? As long as there aren't any distractions, and I will make sure there aren't any distractions." Arionna smiled smugly at her.



"This isn't a g-game, this is lives that are being taken. Lives of people that are l-loved. I can't do it anymore"



"You can and you will, do you not understand that that little performance that wolf boy gave yesterday was a warning? I swear Nox, do you think I am that blind? He is a simple pawn in the bigger plan. I knew that it would give you a good lesson, if you so dare to go against me I swear your little friend won't be as lucky. I think I would get a lot of enjoyment out of that, you do remember what happened to your mother don't you? You don't want a repeat performance do you? Remember I will stop at nothing and no one to keep you alive. As long as you’re alive, well you know I get to play and I so love to play."



Rage flashed through Nox at that moment she knew this side of Arionna. The side that no matter what she did she couldn't persuade her to any other idea. The night at the Magic Box she had simply listened to Nox, a rarity without physical confrontation. She wasn't in that mood anymore; the real Arionna had come out, the Arionna that would stop at nothing to continue her games of torment.



"I won't allow you to hurt anyone, not this time, not ever again!” Nox felt the courage building up in her more with the thought of Arionna hurting Willow. "I will end this all before I let you do that!"



"Ahhh no stutter I see, getting all strong on me are you? Regaining some of your former self? All that confidence you are grasping for? Or maybe it is hope? When are you just going to face it, if you can't love me then you will amuse me. All this doesn't matter I have seen the soul collector they sent this time. You will fight, and you will win. It will be a pleasure to see the look on your face when you see who it is though. Even more a pleasure watching you pierce her heart with your sword."



Noxs face went pale as she put all the pieces together. She barely had the ability to stand as she felt what faith she had gathered come crashing down.



"No, it can't be... They wouldn't...”



With another smug smile Arionna turned and left Nox to face the demons that were swarming her memory. This town had been the perfect choice, happy with herself she walked to put the next piece of the game into play.

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The sun is getting dim

Will I pay for who I been

Or will I see you dear and wish I could come back

You found a girl that you could TRULY love again

Will you still call for me when she falls asleep

Or do we soon forget the things we cannot see

Edited by: RaVeN at: 9/8/04 1:46 pm

[amazonaa]

Wow! RaVeN. That was great. loved the poem.





More soon, please.





brittney







~Good friends help you move. Real friends help you move the body.~

[Irishgrl3]

Yes, the poem was beautiful.



Can I just say how much I strongly dislike Arionna? Okay I hate her...



What an ending though, ya can't leave it like that. Update soon please?

[RaVeN]

Irishgrl3 and amazonaa,



thanks for liking the poem, it was started last December but was revised and finished around 3AM this morning going from one IM to another.



Thanks and yes I left it there. I have a new twist up my sleeve and I want ti to have my full attention muuaaahhahhah

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The sun is getting dim

Will I pay for who I been

Or will I see you dear and wish I could come back

You found a girl that you could TRULY love again

Will you still call for me when she falls asleep

Or do we soon forget the things we cannot see

[Grimlock72]

Hmm... lets see here...



Arionna pretty much admits she did something bad to Nox' mother, likely killing her as a result . Nox doesn't need Arionna as far as I can tell nor does she particulairy like her.



Sooo.... why is Arionna still alive and around ?? : --> I'm fairly sure that if *I* were Nox and knew Arionna had something to do with MY mother's accident/dead... well there wouldn't be much of Arionna around : -->



Oh yeah, forgot to add; Arionna is most certainly an accomplice to Attempted Murder on Nox. And again I wonder why Nox is still walking this earth ?? Elimenating active threats is far wiser than having to watch your back all the time. (and it still makes absolutely no sense for Arionna to allow Oz attempting to kill Nox, she had no way to know he would fail)



What a silly diversion with 'who the soul collector is' on Arionna's part. If she's bluffing Nox will know soon enough, if she's NOT she just fore-warned Nox... which I don't think was her intention. Unless she hopes Nox will run away from Sunnydale and thusly from Willow... don't see that yet. For some reason I'm think of the girl stepping of the bus, can't realy motivate *why* though.



Arionna is a weird woman, thats for sure. A weird and instable threat. Why is that Nox even tolerates her being around anyway ? It's not like they are friends... maybe so misplaced responsibility from Nox. Yeah, I can easily see THAT happen.



Hmm.. what would happen to Arionna if Nox were killed ?? Does she die as well due to the wish ? Seems that way, at least Arionna thinks that.



Quotes like these:

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if you so dare to go against me I swear your little friend won't be as lucky.

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make it clear that for Nox to have any life of her own, Arionna needs to die. Easy solution I would say : --> After all, Arionna is clearly a threat... even proud of being one.

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As long as you’re alive, well you know I get to play and I so love to play."

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... not if YOU die you don't... : -->



Come to think of it; what happens to Nox if Arionna dies ??



Nox, Nox... how did you ever manage to live this long with such horrible friends around you?? And why does it seem like you only just discovered Arionna's true motivation in life ??



I'm really not liking Arionna, can you tell ?



Grimmy (this story brings up my evil-side I think :-)

--
"You hurt Tara," Willow said too calmly. "The last one who tried that was a god. I made her regret it." -- Unexpected Consequences by Lisa of Nine

Edited by: Grimlock72 at: 9/8/04 3:36 pm

[WolfNightwind]

Ohoh OH!!! *raises hands* i have a theory I have a theory. it's crazy but so are all mu theories. however it just might be crazy enough to be right so i think i'll keep it to myself and see if i'm right. Oh please keep the updates comin' this fic is so awesome.

~Bug

[wimpy0729]

Hey RaVeN! Nice update! But you know, you're getting too good at this evil cliffhangery stuff. You just leave us with more and more questions, and I'm not making any guesses. I'm just going to wait and see what you come up with.



I do have one thing...my own little theory about Willow being able to see Nox's eyes. I think with their connection, she can see deeper into her than anyone else. She sees the true Nox, the one that's been hidden for so many years. So blue...



More soon please!



Wimpy

"There was plenty of magic." ~ Tara