Fic: Tainted

[nothingman]

Awesome Update Holly!

I sat here and read the entire fic over, it is such a cool story.

Can't wait to see what happens next.

Thanks

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Willow: You two are the two who are the two. I'm the other one. (The Yoko Factor)

[Draco119]

Hi Holly.



I just wanted to say, I love this story. Willow and Tara are so sweet together. You're a great writer, one of my favorites.

I love what you're doing with the characters and the plot.



Also, Fred is one of my favorite characters from the Buffy/Angel worlds so I love reading stories with her in it. You've done a great job and I hope to read more of this story soon.

[Always410]

Wow....I decided I was going to read this because, hey I absoloutly LOVE NANLT! This is such a contrast to the light-ness! But it is equally great! So, again I think an applause is needed! So there it is! I feel so sorry for Tara. No one should have to go through anything even remotly as horrible! Her 'mother' and 'friends' but at least she has Willow, and will have (im guessing and hoping!) her birth-mother as well as Willow to love her. Keep up the great work and update soon!



Your loyal reader,

Jennifer

[Taras Shadow]

Hey Kittens



I realize that this fic has been greatly neglected, and I wanted to apologize for letting it get so far behind. For those of you who are still interested in this story, I will be continuing it within the next week.



Sadly, I can't say that this fic got so behind because of computer problems... It's all me, the writer, who has been set back with ideas and such as to where I went this to go.



Now, I've seen the light and my muse has been on a roll, so hopefully she'll allow me to get to this fic with greater ideas so we can soon get to a conclusion.



Again, I apologize and hopefully you didn't forget too much. Thank you for being patient, I appreciate it.



~Holly~

"I was born 'normal'...life made me strange." - Marina

"I am a tongue whore...you gave me tongue, what am I supposed to do...sit back and keep my mouth shut?" -Me-

"I know who you really are...you're the one who cries when you're alone." - Where Will You Go? - Evanescence

[YMKA]

*looks up....Was that update? Nope....it wasn't update.. but there was a promise for an update LOL



Coolie, there is no need to apologize Don't know about other people, but I will wait for your update forever . It's always worth it Take your time kiddo



Love ya,



M.

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"..I feel you, I taste you, I cannot forget, everytime it rains I get wet..." (c) Ace of Base

"I want to go back to...Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.."(c) Evanescence

"I'm sorry..."- Me " You are NOT sorry" -Holly

[bluewillowwitch]

Holly ,

Nope, didn't forget about this fic. I am glad that your muse is on a roll now. I know how it is when the muse is playing hide-and-seek with you. Can't wait to see where you take this wonderful fic next. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos



"I'm here without you baby/But your still with me in my dreams/And tonight girl, there's only you and me."--3 Doors Down-Here Without You----Mine and My Baby's song.

[nothingman]

Just checking for an update....but alas there is none.

I look longingly hoping that one will appear magically before me...but again nothing.

Update soon??

Holly I love this fic, can't wait for more!

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Willow: You two are the two who are the two. I'm the other one. (The Yoko Factor)

Edited by: nothingman  at: 2/3/04 6:23 pm

[Stroke of Luck]

OH found an update, which i missed Great chapter btw. but when do we get the next one, its been a while



Cu

SoL/Natti

This is a duet, Amber! You need to sing!"- Tony

[Taras Shadow]

Hey Kittens... WOW! Sorry for the LONG wait... I'm so sorry. I'm going to keep up with this now because I now have more ideas where to take this fic. Thank you all for being patient... and others who have encouraged me to start this again. *hugs* Enjoy!



Title: Tainted

Author: Holly a.k.a Taras Shadow

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon, WB, ME, UPN, and other characters belong to me.

Feedback: Yes please, everything is welcome

Pairings: W/T

Rating: PG 13

Summary: AU Tara loses people she loves at a young age. Now learning to live with the one person she cannot stand is going to be challenging…until she meet’s another one like her…but can they see eye to eye and help each other through life’s demanding ways…



**All mistakes are mine.



Previously...



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A part of Tray felt bad for feeling the way she did. She missed Tara and often wished Buffy were Tara sometimes, but she’d also forget in the midst of all her heartache, she was happy. She wanted to accept the fact that her younger sister wouldn’t care about her much longer – Tara was sweet and a very forgivable person, but Tray-Al was starting to do an unforgivable thing: She was starting to let go.



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Green eyes locked on blues and smiles were exchanged. Willow scooted closer to her Tara and held her hand. “You’ll never guess what happened.” She started out calmly. “Last night, after I left you, I went back to the Warehouse and found my address book. I’ve been struggling with the decision for a while now, but I couldn’t wait any longer. Tara…” Willow’s voice dropped an octave, but in a good way as a smile curled up at her lips. “I called my grandparents.”



Tara sat back, her mouth slightly open, her eyes twinkling. “You did?” She asked.



Willow smiled. “I did! I’m so glad I did. They want me to come and visit them this weekend.”



“Oh my God, Willow!” Tara leaned over and hugged the red head. “That is so great!”



Willow and Tara were bouncing in each others arms. “I know! And Tara, I was wondering if you’d come with me? I mean, it’s out of the city….they sort of live on a farm…but I told them about you and they want to meet you.”



“Me? Why me? What they possibly want to meet me for?” Tara asked.



“Because I told them that you were the only friend who has stuck by my side since we’ve met…plus, they kind of know how much I like you.” Willow blushed a bit.



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~Part 10a~ ...A Fear Of Moving On

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Spike pulled into the gas station three hours after being on the road. “Any girly washroom breaks are to be made now,” he muttered, climbing out of the truck.



Fred climbed out as well and looked into the bed of the truck, where Tara and Willow were wrapped up in a heavy make out session. “Y’all need a breather?” she giggled.



Willow let out a disgruntle moan as Tara pulled back, blushing. “We can wait,” she sighed, threading her fingers through Tara’s hair and pulling her back in for a kiss.



Tara softened the kiss before pulling back again. “Will, I need to use the washroom.”



Willow pouted and sat up. “Fine.”



“Come on, we’ll be back here in no time,” Tara giggled and grabbed Willow’s hand as they jumped out of the back of the truck.



Fred followed them into the washroom and pulled out a toothbrush. “I wanna look good for your grandparents,” she called out to Willow, who wondered into an empty stall.



“You have to be on your best behaviour,” Willow said coming out of the stall and towards the sink to wash her hands.



“I can do that,” Fred smiled and filled the sink up with water, before splashing her face.



Tara washed her hands as well and went straight behind her girlfriend, nuzzling her neck. “I can behave too,” she playfully pouted, looking at the red head through the mirror’s reflection.



“I still can’t believe we missed the train, my grandparents spent their money on those tickets and they were non-refundable,” Willow turned around and held Tara around the waist, her eyes gazing into her girlfriend’s.



“But when you called, they didn’t seem angry,” Tara said, her fingers tracing the neckline of Willow’s shirt.



“They weren’t,” Willow smiled softly. “I love when you smile at me like that,” she brushed her lips over the blonde’s.



“Aren’t y’all happy that Spike and I came along?” Fred smiled happily, twisting her brown hair around her fingers.



“Hey, you birds ready? We have three more hours of being on the road,” Spike yelled from outside the ladies washroom door.



“Back to the back of the truck we go,” Willow grinned, taking Tara by the hand as the three teenagers walked out of the washroom.



“Did you need company?” Fred asked before reaching the truck.



Tara flashed Willow a grin and waited for the redhead to answer. “Um, how about a little later on.”



Fred nodded and climbed into the passenger side of the truck as Tara and Willow hopped into the back, laying back down to snuggle.



“Are you nervous about meeting my grandparents?” Willow asked, brushing long blonde hair out of Tara’s eyes.



“A little,” Tara confessed.



“They’re going to love you,” Willow smiled and trailed her hands down Tara’s back, pulling her closer.



“Still nervous,” Tara closed her eyes and rested her forehead against Willow’s. “What if they ask me all these questions I can’t answer?”



“You mean about your life at home?” Willow pulled back and showed some concern for her girlfriend. “Baby, all you have to say is that you’d rather not talk about it, no one’s going to force you.”



“But what if they think I’m not good enough for you?” Tara whispered, her eyes casting downwards.



“Tara, you’re not the one who has to make a great impression,” Willow sighed and pulled back a bit. “I haven’t seen my grandparents in years, and the last couple of years...look how much I have to tell them.”



“Will, you were mistreated.” Tara said softly, cupping the red head’s face.



“And so were you,” Willow frowned, bringing her hand up to lace her fingers with Tara’s.



“Not when my father...” Tara took a deep breath and closed her eyes. “Sometimes I just wish I could turn back time.”



“Don’t we all?” the red head grinned lightly. “But if you did that, we might not have met,” she frowned again.



Tara smiled sadly. “You don’t know that...we may not have met at the shelter...but somewhere else we may have met.”



Willow’s lips turned up into a quirky grin. “I think that no matter what or where, the first meet would be electric.”



“Electric?” Tara giggled and sighed when Willow’s lips pressed against her own.



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Cordelia sat back on the bench park, swaying her feet a bit. “I can’t believe they haven’t shown up yet,” she mumbled, placing her sunglasses back on her face.



Buffy looked at her watch and shrugged. “So they are twenty minutes late, maybe Xander had to work overtime a bit before getting on his lunch break.”



“Whatever,” Cordelia huffed. “I had plans to get my nails done before school tomorrow.”



“So?” Buffy raised her eyebrow. “Go.”



“Where are we going?” Xander’s voice came from behind them, his hand holding Tray-Al’s.



“We were supposed to go for lunch twenty minutes ago Harris,” the brunette scowled. “What took you two so long?”



“It was busy Cordy, it’s hot out and a lot of people want ice cream,” Xander smiled.



“Yea, I never got through the line until ten minutes ago and took five minutes to walk here,” Tray reasoned. “But we do apologize.”



“See Cordy? They weren’t being late to ruin your day,” Buffy smiled and patted the dark brunette’s back.



“Yea, whatever, I’m hungry, let’s go,” Cordelia shrugged it off and headed off towards the small deli café.



“Is that time of the month?” Xander whispered in his girlfriend’s ear.



“Xander!” Tray giggled and shook her head. “You know her better than I do.”



“Relax Xan, she’s afraid of missing her appointment to get her nails done,” Buffy smiled and looped arms with Tray-Al. “Hey, I was wondering if you and I can talk later?” she asked her sister.



Tray nodded. “Sure, about what? Oh! I also have those files to read, your mom asked me earlier today if I went over them yet, I haven’t.”



“Well, whenever is okay with you,” Buffy smiled. She realized that everyone’s world and lives were about to change once her mother’s secret came out and in the open. Buffy was rather excited though, she had a sister, no, two sisters. Every since she found out about this, she always wondered what Tara would be like, or if Tara was safe...



“Are you okay?” Xander waved his hand in front of his best friend’s face, breaking her out of her thoughts.



“Yea, I’m cool,” Buffy sheepishly smiled. “So what are you feeling like, for lunch?”



“I’m thinking a very delicious and fresh salad,” Tray grinned.



“I’m getting something beefy,” Xander stated.



“Ew,” the three heard Cordelia’s disgusted response.



“What’s wrong Cordy, cows aren’t your best friend anymore?” Xander chuckled and squeezed his girlfriend’s hand affectionately.



Cordelia turned around and took her stance, one hand on her hip as her eyes narrowed on the younger male. “You just wait Alexander Harris, one of these days, those cows are gonna make you regret ever eating them.”



“I agree,” Tray snickered. She never ate red meat ever since her father and Karen passed away. It wasn’t that long ago, but she still felt the difference in her eating habits. “I may eat the occasional chicken...but other than that, I want a nice fresh salad.”



“Don’t forget delicious,” Buffy chimed in, grinning from ear to ear.



“Right, and delicious.”



“Bummer, it’s three against one again,” Xander mumbled.



“I’m not judging sweetie,” Tray-Al looked up at her boyfriend and smiled affectionately.



“Thanks.” Xander smiled and leaned down to kiss her lightly.



“Finally, we’re here,” Cordelia and the gang walked into the deli and found a booth, before getting their orders ready.



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Willow murmured soft words in her sleep as the truck pulled onto a small back road.



Tara brushed red strands away from her girlfriend’s closed eyes, studying her every facial expression. “What are you dreaming about Willow?” she whispered, kissing the redhead’s forehead.



“Ponies in leather,” Willow’s scratchy voice whispered back.



Tara burst into soft giggles and pulled Willow closer, snuggling their bodies tighter together. “Ponies in leather?”



“Mmm, yea,” the redhead pressed her lips to the blonde’s neck.



Tara closed her own eyes and sighed peacefully. Willow had talked to her for a good two hours, reassuring that her grandparents would definitely fall in love with her. Tara had been nervous, knowing that her redheaded beauty hadn’t seen her grandparents in years, she didn’t want to ruin a thing.



And there they lay, almost any trace of fear gone and kissed away. Tara’s hands ran up and down Willow’s back, feeling those soft lips move up higher to her jaw line. “Nice sleep?” she whispered.



“The best little cat nap,” Willow pulled back and stared into Tara’s eyes. “Did you fall asleep?”



Tara shook her head. “I couldn’t,” she smiled softly. “My head is all think-y.”



“Awww baby,” Willow leaned down and kissed her again. “What’s on your mind? Is it still the grandparents thing?” she asked in concern.



“No,” Tara shook her head again, averting her eyes up towards the late afternoon sky. “Tray,” she whispered, her voice cracked slightly.



“What about her?” Willow shifted to hold Tara in her embrace.



“Does she even care about me?” Tara closed her eyes and squeezed them tight, feeling tears well up inside. “What did I do so bad to make her run away from me?”



“Oh Tara,” Willow held her girlfriend, as the blonde sobbed in her arms. “We all have our reasons for doing the things that we do,” she reasoned.



“But I’d never leave her,” Tara cried. She couldn’t say exactly what took over her emotions. One minute she was there, enjoying the moments where she watched Willow sleep and feeling her heart grow more, and the next she was in tears over her runaway sister. Maybe it was the fact that deep down she felt alone, without the family she grew up with. It wasn’t like Willow didn’t make her feel like she was at home or at ease, it’s just that Tara always had Tray with her, no matter what, through thick and thin, her sister stuck by her when she needed her the most - until her father and Karen passed away.



She felt her heart sink with the thought of Tray-Al forgetting all about her - moving on if anything. “Can I really forgive her, if I see her again?” she sniffled.



“Tara, you have a heart like no other,” Willow smiled and wiped away her girlfriend’s tears. “I would be furious with Tray if I were you right now, for abandoning me at this great time of need. We don’t know exactly why she did what she did, but to her, if that’s what she needed to do, then that was most definitely her decision.”



Tara looked up with teary eyes and sniffled. “So she had to do this for her?”



“I don’t think she would’ve ran away from you otherwise,” Willow leaned forward and rested her forehead against the blonde’s.



“Don’t worry, I’m in safe hands, with a good family...” Tray’s voice echoed in her sister’s head. “As long as she’s happy,” Tara whispered, curling into Willow’s arms.



“We’re almost there,” Fred opened the back window and smiled. “I can’t wait!”



Willow and Tara smiled at each other, moving their lips together softly.



Tara sniffled again and held her girlfriend as she watched the scenery race by in the beautiful country side.



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To Be Continued...



~Holly~

"I was born 'normal'...life made me strange." - Marina

"I am a tongue whore...you gave me tongue, what am I supposed to do...sit back and keep my mouth shut?" -Me-

"I know who you really are...you're the one who cries when you're alone." - Where Will You Go? - Evanescence

[Stroke of Luck]

Hi Holly!



I hope everything will be fine when they finally meet Willows grandparents, not that they are shocked or anything, if Willow will tell them, that Tara is her GF!



And i want to read that Tray-al and Tara will meet again, pretty soon PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSsss



CU

SoL/Natti

This is a duet, Amber! You need to sing!"- Tony

[YMKA]

Holy potattos....you updated Tainted!!!!!!

I'm totally speechless...lmao cuz it's like a shocker... I'm waking up...and what do I see? You updated "Tainted"!!!! I want more.... Is Tara and Tray going to meet???The suspence is killing me.... LMAO Not rushing....not rushing... ..

W/T were totally cute dude "ponies in leather" dude....you killed me

Dude, you rock!

Keep it up

Love you,



M.

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"..I feel you, I taste you, I cannot forget, everytime it rains I get wet..." (c) Ace of Base

"I want to go back to...Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.."(c) Evanescence

"I'm sorry..."- Me " You are NOT sorry" -Holly

[Cindipitude]

OOOHH!

I LOVED



Much with the kisses and snuggles, the quiet reassurances, gentle support.

*sighs happily*

And Buffy LOL so like her to be all hyper about those files.. it's a good thing Tray told her she hadn't gone over them yet

She would have spoiled it all

And now they are there.. I wonder what her grandparents will be like?



Cindi

"Even the bears wanted me to stay in Canada..."

[bluewillowwitch]

Holly ,

YAY! You didn't forget us loyal "Tainted" fans! I loved the update! I am glad that has to be with her while she is trying to figure out things and since she dosen't have any family with her yet. I hope that Tray will eventually find out that she is Mrs. Summer's daughter and will tell her about and her and will come and be with the Sunnydale gang. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[littlecrazy80]

Yay an update!

I´m sure Willow´s grandparents will love Tara. And I hope that she and Tray Al will meet again asap.



*lil´c*

I´m an actress... I don´t pee. Amber in Augsburg



SweetAmber

[bt bob]

Holly



OMG

i just found this hidden away and read it all the way through....and i have to ask...when u gonna update?

please? i love the way this is going...kinda think i know where...but u the expert!

please update this soon?

be safe



ali xx

[Ze Goose]

I'm loving this fic! I got bored a few weeks ago and started gonig through all of these fanfics and so far this is one of my favorites. I love that willow and tara met so young. I also like the way you describe how much they care about eachother even though neither of them has admitted they love each other yet, you can tell. You're an amazing writer...keep it up!



Udate please!!!!!!!



Alyssa

[SilverWingedNemesis]

Wellllll



I JUST caught up with this fic. I'm really glad to see you're keeping up with it again. Pleases me. You've got so many out there its hard! LOL but.. *sighs* its what I must do.



*runs about looking for more updates*







Nickole

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."

[Kytzya]

hey you...yeah you...how about an update...don't just sit there, watching the screen...go, come on...go do an update...it will make you feel better....and make us happy...come on....go!



Vaya con dios.

[Taras Shadow]

Hello Kittens. Sorry about the delay in updating this fic (or any other). Life's just getting more complicated by the minute, but at least I found some spare time. Thank you all for the wonderful feedback! Love it! Enjoy this one.



Title: Tainted

Author: Holly a.k.a Taras Shadow

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Joss Whedon, WB, ME, UPN, and other characters belong to me.

Feedback: Yes please, everything is welcome

Pairings: W/T

Rating: PG 13

Summary: AU Tara loses people she loves at a young age. Now learning to live with the one person she cannot stand is going to be challenging…until she meet’s another one like her…but can they see eye to eye and help each other through life’s demanding ways…



~Part 10b... A Fear of Moving On~

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“Are you sure they’re going to like me?” Tara asked as Spike turned off the truck.



“Yes,” Willow smiled and tucked a long strand of hair behind Tara’s ear. “They are going to love you.”



“But-”



The redhead pressed her lips over her girlfriend’s softly. “No ‘buts’, baby, you’re loveable.”



Fred hopped out of the truck and looked around at the big surrounding area. “Wow, it’s so beautiful y’all,” she smiled and ran over to Spike’s side.



“Willow Tree?” A soft voice came out from the long wooden built porch.



Willow turned around and found herself looking at her grandparents for the first time in years. She felt her strong defences crumble with one look at her long lost family members. She let out soft squeak before taking small steps towards the porch, soon her steps broke out into a run.



The redhead found herself being swooped into a hug by both her grandparents. She didn’t even realize herself, that she was crying...along with her grandparents. It had been to long.



“I’ve missed you,” the redhead sniffled and refused to let go of the older couple.



“Oh sweetie,” Grandma Rosenberg sighed, stroking her granddaughter’s hair smoothly, kissing the top of her head. She looked over at her husband and they shared the same loving smile.



Tara shifted uncomfortably from foot to foot watching the reunited scene fold out in front of her. Fred stood beside her, and Spike hung out by the truck, pretending to straighten up the truck, these sappy scenes weren’t much for his taste.



Willow finally pulled back, wiped her eyes and smiled, straightening out her clothing a bit. Turning her head, she nodded for Tara to step forward, but the blonde never budged. Smiling at her girlfriend, she stepped off the porch and walked towards Tara, grabbing her hand and placing a small kiss on her lips. “It’s okay baby, don’t be shy,” she whispered.



Tara blushed and nodded, following her redhead down the short path and back up to where the older couple stood. She smiled shyly as they gave her a friendly wave and nod.



“Grandma, Gramps...this is Tara, the wonderful girl I was telling you about,” Willow smiled and looked between the three.



“Your description of a beautiful young blonde did her no justice,” Gramps chuckled and shook Tara’s hand softly.



“She’s lovely,” Grandma smiled, pulling the blonde into a hug.



Willow winked at Tara and gave her an ‘I told you so’ look.



“I’m Fred!” The Texan girl came bounding up the stairs with a big smile plastered on her face. “And that’s Spike, he doesn’t do meets and greets to well,” she sighed and giggled.



“They gave us a ride here, since we missed the train,” Willow explained.



“Oh, well do come in please. You drive all the way out here, we’re going to get you some food in those belly of yours,” Gramps smiled and opened the house door, ushering the three young women in, as well as his wife. “You comin’ son?” He yelled towards Spike.



Spike muttered something and then gave his best smile, walking up the dirt road and into the house.



“Must take a lot out of you,” the old man laughed.



“What?”



“Three young females on a six to seven hour truck ride.”



Spike smirked. “As annoying as they may be, no offence sir, I happen to love the company,” he looked around to see if anyone else heard, “but tell no one.”



Gramps Rosenberg laughed and shut the door behind them, heading towards the dining room with the rest of the gang.



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Buffy bit her nails nervously, waiting for Tray-Al to come out of her room. The envelope was left on the older girl’s bed, and she figured Tray would’ve read the truth by now.



Hearing the door open, the young blonde jumped off the staircase railing and stood there, waiting to see a body appear in the hallway.



“What are you doing?” Tray asked, raising an eyebrow at Buffy.



“I- You- Me?”



Tray chuckled and nodded. “Why are you standing there like you’re on the guard or something? Sneaking out? Cause if you are, you’re doing it wrong... you want to leave the house before someone catches you, not stand in the hallway like you’ve been caught with your hand in the cookie jar.”



It was Buffy’s turn to raise an eyebrow. “Sounds like you’ve got some experience.”



“Pretty much,” the other girl shrugged. “Wasn’t hard sneaking out of my dad’s place...didn’t do it often, but I know not to roam the hallway... next time try a window.”



Buffy smiled. Tray was her sister...she had a sister giving her pointers on how to do something. It was an awesome feeling. “So, did your homework?”



“It’s the weekend,” Tray laughed. “I don’t do my homework on the weekend.”



“Oh, well...have you read...anything...interesting lately?” Buffy furrowed her eyebrows, shaking her head a bit.



“Um, just a Fashion Magazine...why?”



“Uh, well, I’m bored, nothing to do, thought you may have read something that would’ve sparked an interest...”



Tray-Al shook her head, “Not really, that magazine was yours that Anna gave me to read.”



“Oh...okay,” feeling her heart sink, she turned around to head down the stairs.



“Buffy?”



Stopping in her tracks, she turned around and looked up at Tray, waiting for her to continue.



“That file that your mom gave me to read... should I be...scared?”



Swallowing, Buffy didn’t know what to say. “I’m really not sure what it says, but it shouldn’t be that bad.”



“I just have a feeling that whatever it is, it’ll change my life... kinda hesitating because of that. I can’t really have a worse life than I already do... losing my dad and leaving my only sister behind...”



Buffy wished she could just tell Tray the truth, get it over with now. This was killing her too. But instead, she made her way back up the stairs and embraced her oldest sister in a hug. “I’m here for you,” she whispered.



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TBC...



~Holly~

Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone, who will save me from all I'm up against out in this world

- Bright Lights - Matchbox Twenty

"Show me where to touch you." - Tara, It Ain't Fickle (Luciddream)

Edited by: Taras Shadow  at: 5/5/04 1:59 pm

[Mikaelah Braenna]

Welcome back Holly! You have been missed!



Wonderful update. Do not keep us waiting too long for the next, though! Hopefully, life will slow down a little bit for you now.



~Mikaelah



(This mean my favorite one will be updated as well? heh)

Willow: "Where would you go? If you felt lost and alone? ..."

Tara: "To You..."

~~Truly and Forever~~

Edited by: Mikaelah Braenna  at: 5/5/04 3:04 pm

[bluewillowwitch]

Holly ,

YAY!!!! Your back and you brought a wonderful update with you! I love the update incese you couldn't tell. I feel so bad for Tray not knowing what is going on with . I also feel bad for Buffy, she knows this huge thing and can't say anything about it. I love the reunion had with her grandparents. Spike is a trip. Fred is too hyper I think, but then again, she always has been. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos

[SilverWingedNemesis]

*grins & bounces*



I was SOOO excited to see an update!! (and well, for you to tell me you updated )



I'm loving this fic more and more.. I can't wait to see what happens with the respective "people".. willow/tara and her grandparents.. and TrayAl/Buffy/Tara..



YAY!



*grins*



great update sweetie



Love,

Nickole

*hugs*

[Stroke of Luck]

oh hey Holly



Finally an update!:d i missed this story ohhhhh so much *sniff* I loved to see the family reunion, hopefully they´ll have lots of fun, but i bet they will



And Tray has to read the letter already, she is killing Buffy, poor girl...hope Tray wont freak too much



Cu

SoL/Natti

Even in death Baby, i´ll never leave u!

[justin]

I only just found this story, I'm not sure how I missed it. Firstly I'm enjoying it as much as all your other stories, it's very well written.



I like both Willow and Tara in this story. However I have to say I worry about Willow. She does seem to be very tough but I can't help but feel that that'll get her into trouble. That she'll be all like "don't fuck with me" with someone like she was with Spike and instead of just shrugging it off the other person will pull a knife (or, even worse, a gun) on her.



I'm feeling amibivilent about Tray-al, mainly because of the way she seems to have abandoned Tara. It's not so much the fact that she ran off that irks me, but the fact that she's so worried about Tara hating her that she hasn't done anything to help Tara since then.



I'm not particularly keen on Belinda either. She's someone who should never be allowed to look after children. That said I do hope that she somehow comes to her senses and manages to get her life in order, but I think she's blown her last chance of ever having any kind of relationship with Tara, and it was totally the right thing for Tara to leave. Living in a warehouse might not be ideal but at least she's with people who will look after her.



I like all the summerses in this story, even Buffy. Also Xander and Cordelia seem very nice. It's good that Tray-al met up with such nice people, it's just a shame that Tara couldn't have come along. Though then she wouldn't have gotten to know Willow, so maybe it was a good thing.



Anyway, looking forward to more

There's more than one way to do it. - The Perl mantra

Edited by: justin at: 5/6/04 11:26 am

[littlecrazy80]

YAY!!! Great update!



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[mandyanyone]

HOLLSTER!!



You know how much i have missed these two lil cuties!?



well three if we include you... Great update sweetie. All with the love. *sighs* God i've missed it. I haven't read anything in a long time. But i keep up with yours. Cept i am slacking on the sequeal. I will have to catch up on that.



Well Sweet Hollster, I shall hope to catch you around soon. Oh!..I'm saving up to come see you..Road trip it again.



Love ya,



Candy Mandy..

"Introductions are tricky in a lesbian relationship. It's a word game. To my friends she's my lover, to strangers and family members in denial she's my roommate, to Jehovah's Witnesses at the door she's my lesbian sex slave, and to my mother she's Jewish and that's all that matters." ~~~Denise McCanles

[Cindipitude]

Oohhh!

YAY!!!

I loved! This was so cute with Buffy all excited...not knowing if Tray-al has read the folder.. wondering what she will say when she finds out she has another sister

And how cool were those Grandparents!

*sighs* How wonderful to be able to introduce someone you love to your family, kiss and all, and not have anyone raise an eyebrow? It's the way it should be.. and maybe someday in the future it will be.

And Spike's interaction with Grampa.....heheh that was too cute "tell no one" Heheheheh.

Loved this update baby

We Kittens will all be looking forward to more



I love you.

"Even the bears wanted me to stay in Canada..."

[YMKA]

Tease.....you are such a tease!!!!!!! That's it....your new nickname from now on is...Queen of Teasing [well, second to the other one ]...or for short...Teasie....lol .....arg....I can't wait to see what's going to happen with W/T and grandparents..... When Tray will FINALLY read the file...when they[Buffy/Tray/Co]will meet W/T [cuz they are going to meet ...right? ]

I loved this update .....now I'm going to wait patiently for the next....well...I'll have patience for 13 more days tho...lmao



Love ya!

[behindhereyes]

Holly



I'm sorry to hear that really life is being kinda rough on you . I just wanted to say, that I've been intent on reading all of your stories, and my God woman you are amazing . The insight, depth, the way my senses go into overdrive while walking in the worlds you've created. Sure, I'd love to find that your stories have been updated, but that isn't the message I want to convey. I really just want to thank you, for sharing your gift with us .



behindhereyes

Kim

"To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world"

[SilverWingedNemesis]

I love you babygirl.



I miss you.

"Life is eternal; it has no beginning and no end. The loving friends we meet on our journey return to us time after time. We never die, because we were never really born."