Remember to Breathe...

[bluewillowwitch]

Yellow Crayon ,

I loved the update! Buffy is so right! and are on their way to sex. Might as well set that apartment up now. Poor Buffy. I know the pain of a guy saying I love you way too soon. I feel her pain. Can't wait to more. Update soon, please?





Grace

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"Fate keeps on happening."--Anita Loos



"If love is the answer, could you repeat the question?"--Lily Tomlin

[CEsgirl13]

ha, Tor, that was brilliant. Loved the update and love ya too buddy. Hope to see an update soon mah NY buddy!

~The Coolest Delawarian You Know~

(aka-Jamie)

J C

When you choose to hold the rose you are also agreeing to bleed.

[Yellow Crayon]

Thanks guys for the feedback, we know how much I love it. Its like getting an A on a test, a woosh of goodness.



All disclaimers are the same.





Chapter 19

Part 2



Tara got in her room, not more than a minute after she left Willow’s. She got in her room, and plopped herself down at her computer, stared for a few minutes, then got a bottle of water, sighed, and sat back down. She sat quietly, blankly, her ‘Word’ document was open, but there was only a heading, no real words to count for her grade. She knew she had to start it, but the only thing she could think about was Willow.



“My arm’s too short to push you to the back of my head.”

(Races To April)



‘This would be so much easier if I could just write about her.” Tara sighed. She stared at the computer, “Focus Maclay, this isn’t that hard. It’s an essay, write it. No criteria, no research, an easy ‘A’, just write it.” She took in a deep breath, and started to put her hands near the keyboard, but they froze. It was like the body couldn’t move, like it was frozen after every time her and Willow said goodbye. Her body didn’t want to write the essay, but she knew she needed to. “Write page one, and you’ll be done for the day. Just write it.”



“Who the hell are you talking to?” Her roommate said as she sat up from her bed, hair a mess and eyes almost closed.



“Jesus!” Tara jumped. “Sorry… sorry, I didn’t know you were here.”



“Not a problem. I thought I’d pass out in between classes.” Jan said, groggily.



“When’s the next one?”



“Umm... ten minutes ago.” She yelled, jumping out of bed, grabbing any notebook and running out the door. “We’ll talk when I get back about your imaginary friend, k?” She looked at Tara and smiled, shutting the door.



“Essay time.” Tara murmured to herself.



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



“So say a girl feel in deep mad love with another person, say another female. Then those two people were to say, express their love. In a loving way, they make with the love. And then say those two people move to such a state in their relationship and they move in together. Even before the act of love is made… how often is one expected to show love?”



Xander stared at Willow, dumfounded, confused and everything before, after and in between. “That was the biggest brain teaser I’ve ever heard. I mean, worse the SATs.”



“So I speak to you in riddles,

Because my words get in the way.”

(Staind)



“Tall, double espresso with extra whipped cream and hazel nut?” The man at the counter said.



“See, now that I understand.” Xander said, grabbing his drink.



“Boys.” The redhead sighed.



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



Feedback?

Short again, another one soon.

[littlecrazy80]

Great update!

Tara

Willow



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[sam darls]

Ooh..Tori, great update..I loved the "imaginary friend"..hehe..and Willow's speech . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Trape]

Great update! I can totally relate to Tara and not being able to write her essay because of other things in her mind . I've gotta say that I can relate to Jan as well...can't say I've walked in on someone talking to themself before, but the late for class thing...happens all the time. Again I say...MORE!!

[Mikaelah Braenna]

Tara and her imaginary friend ... Great update, more soon, please?



~Mikaelah



~In Loving Memory Of Trish~

Willow: "Where would you go? If you felt lost and alone? ..."

Tara: "To You..."

~~Truly and Forever~~

[Yellow Crayon]

Thank you guys sooo much, love to you all.



All disclaimers apply.





Chapter 20



Willow lie in bed that same night. Listening steadily to the offbeat rhythym that was Buffy’s breathing. There was something missing. There was always something missing. She searched, with patterns, graphs, charts and the only time she didn’t fear a missing piece was when she was with Tara. And right now, right in this very second, Willow felt incomplete.



Willow sat up in her bed, her eyes wide open, no where near sleep. She sighed, and left her dorm for a 4:09AM stroll. Her eyes werent even looking ahead of her, they were plastered to the ground. And her eyes were just staring.



She walked steadily and slowed a little, as she saw something on the ground, written in chalk. The lights above her were shining greatly, and the chalk was simple. It said, “Turn left next.”



Willow didn’t even know if the chalk was for her, but, it was late and she was curious. She turned left and came across another message. “I think you’re beautiful.” And there was a simple arrow up. “I think you’re amazing.” Another arrow. “I think you’re the most incredible person.” Another simple arrow, “You are just simply the best.” And then an arrow facing to the left, in the courtyard.



She walked left from that last arrow, not exactly even knowing where you’re going. She stepped on something, and looked down, the chalk.



“See. I had this feeling that you’d be up, because I was too.” A figure came out behind a close tree. “And I had this feeling that you and your curiosity, would follow, even if it didn’t say it was for you.” The voice stepped closer, alluminated by the light. “And I knew that candle lit dinners were too much and that there’s three words that can be said over an over.” Tara said, as she stepped closer to Willow, feet away.



“You.. you did this?” Willow asked, trying to get her mouth to work.



“Didn’t take very long. I just felt like reminding you that I lo--” Tara sighed, motioning towards the sidewalk.



Willow cut Tara off with a kiss. The kiss tasted of salt, because Willow had been crying. Happy tears of course, but tears nonetheless.



“Pin this one last, because it was the hardest

Yet it meant the most to me at the same time”

(Unsung Zeros)



“…Love you.” Tara completed, as Willow pulled back from the kiss.



Willow just smiled, and studied the contours of Tara’s beautiful face.



“Come over here.” Tara said, as she pulled Willow over to the tree she’d been hiding behind. There, was just a simple blanket. “Come sleep with me.”



“Gladly.” The redhead smirked.



Willow layed down on her side, and Tara rested down next to her, her arm around Willow’s waist. Willow brought her leg back to Tara’s and pulled it forward, in between hers, just so they’d be touching everywhere.



“I love you.” Tara whispered as she kissed Willow’s temple and the two easily fell asleep.









TBC



Feedback?

[Mikaelah Braenna]

Aww.. Tara writing messages on the sidewalk knowing Willow would find it, how sweet. Great update.



~Mikaelah

Willow: "Where would you go? If you felt lost and alone? ..."

Tara: "To You..."

~~Truly and Forever~~

[The Rose24]

Tara is really sweet.

Tara: My heart doesn't stutter.


Tara: Willow, I got so lost.

Willow: I found you. I will always find you.

[CEsgirl13]

wow Tor. This is amazing. :speechlessness: great work buddy!

~Jamie

When you choose to hold the rose you are also agreeing to bleed.

[sam darls]

Aww..that was so beautiful, and so sweet . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[Arwen276]

OH MY GOD!



That was SO romantic! I mean I'M GETTING TEARY EYED HERE!!

WOW !

Amazing, what a beautiful moment!



thank you!



~Arwen

Hear That Baby? You're My Always... Willow

[littlecrazy80]

That was absolutely amazing.



*lil´c*

"Okay, we’re here, we’re queer, let’s kick this shit into gear," Five by Five (Taras Shadow)



SweetAmber

[The girl who talks but do]

It really was amazing...so sweet! I love it!



cath

I like the quiet.

[Spikeizmine87]

Man ok firstly...ive been keepin up with this fic for a LONG TIME, so how come i never write feedback! BAd rose bad!



2ndly..LOVE THIS! I wish someone would write how they love me with some friggin chalk somewhere where everyone could see it! Damn. This is adorable! And I LOOOVVE the lyrics every now and then! it really captures all the feelings! Love it! More soon! Thanks for writting!

-Rose

Dude Im fuckin loved! Im loved and I dont care about anything else! And Im cared for! Im fuckin cared for by someone that MATTERS!

[Trape]

Awww! That was soooo sweet. Tara is so loving; she must really know Willow well to be able to predict her restlessness. Thank you for sharing that beautiful piece with us. Update soon!

[veiled isis moon]

Very sweet and cute story you've got here. I like it very much, and Tara's chalk games were cute and romantic.



Michellex

[Yellow Crayon]

Thanks guys, for all the awesome feedback.

My weeks starting to calm down midly, so I should have an update tonite!



Thanks guys.

[SpiritOfTara]

Yay, update-y goodness tonight! (or... tomorrow morning, lol)



I'm loving this fic- the last part was SO sweet!



~April

Hey," Tara said, "my father's a controlling fruity nut bar who made me believe most of my life that my mom and I were monsters. But I'm not gonna let him decide what I am" --"Monster Island"



I'mmm not as stupid as i look! -- Piper, Taboo



"Life is very short. Try everything you've dreamed about (within the perimeters of sanity and the law) and regret nothing. Oh, and don't forget the sunscreen." --Amber

[Yellow Crayon]

This one’s for Jamie… just ‘cuz I think she’s cool.



All disclaimers apply.

Thanks for all the feedback.



Chapter 21



“Come home with me!” Willow begged, as she threw a few t-shirts into a packback.



Tara was lying on Willow’s bed, arms up crossed under her head. “I went home last weekend.”



“No, you went to your home. Now come to my home.” Willow said, jumping on her bed, flat. Her boy directly next to Tara, except her leg, which was comfortably nestled in between Tara’s.



“Nice fall.” Tara nodded down to the two of them.



“Wasn’t even intentional. Funny how we always *kiss* end up *kiss* like this.” And Willow kissed her one more time, soundly. She pulled away smirking. “Come home with me.”



“Will!”



“Tar!” Willow said in a mocking tone, towards Tara.



“Yeah!” She laughed, sarcastically. “You making fun of me is really going to make me want to go home with you.”



“I’m sorry. Sorry. Sorry. I love you, I love you, I love you.” Willow said, kissing all around Tara’s face.



“Okay. Here’s the deal.” Tara sighed, deafeated.



Willow nodded, stating her readiness.



“I go up tomorrow. You go up tonight as planned. I meet up with you tomorrow afternoon.”



“Deal.” Willow said shaking Tara’s hand.



“You agreed really fast.” Tara laughed.



“Because I knew you’d weasle something in there without me noticing. Like that one time we bet that Buffy wouldn’t go class. And we never really clarified whether we meant on time or not, so you won. Which I don’t think is really fair, because I came up with the contract and the contract makers are supposed to be sneaky.” Willow sighed. And looked down at her hands. “You’re supposed to stop me when I do that.”



“I like it when you do that.” Tara nudged at Willow, and pulled her up for a kiss.



Willow brought her whole body on top of Tara’s and just rested her body weight. Their lips still connected, Willow hightened the kiss. Letting her own tongue swirl around with Tara’s gently.



“Did you know that you’re a great kisser?” Tara asked, sighing as Willow pulled away.



“You’re like the sixth person to tell me that this week.” Willow laughed as she stood up and went back to packing. She only had about half and hour left before she needed to leave.



Tara laughed and went back to watching Willow pack. “Wait…”



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*



After a long goodbye, Willow left for the ten minute drive and Tara left for her room.



She unlocked the door and stepped inside and threw her coat on her bed. A figure underneath the covers stirred and Tara laughed. “So how trashed did you get, that you couldn’t remember which bed was yours?” She reached over and pulled the corner of the blanket a little off the figure.



“What?” Her roommate said.



“Sweet Jesus!” Tara yelled, taking a step back.



“What?” Jan asked, looking over to her left. “Oh… dammit.” She said, pulling the blanket up to cover herself and the person next to her.



Tara sat down, calmy and looked at her roommate, “And how long has this been going on? Are you using the proper protection? Do your parents know? My god, can you put some clothes on?”



Jan laughed and shifted in the bed to find her clothes. “Thanks, mom.”



“I’ll wait outside in the hall while you get dressed. Let me know when you two are… decent.”



“Check, chief.” She said, shutting the door behind Tara.



Tara sat down in the hall and began twiddling her thumbs. No sooner was she a twiddler, did her door open, with a fully clothed Jan and another blonde.



“Now. Proper hello’s are in order. Hey Jan… Buffy, how are you?” The blonde smirked.



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

TBC



New chapter up sometime very soon.



Feedback?

[DreamsToDream]

DEAR GOD BUFFY!!!!! well im sure she has alot of explaining to do..as well as Jan!! Hmmm this could be interesting cant wait for the next update

D2D

[TaraBaby77]

Tori -



I'm so sorry for not keeping up to date with your fic, but I am now and all I can say is WOOHOO!!! Talk about lovin' this fic. I didn't know I had missed so much. Anyhoo, Willow and Tara need to move out already. Or now that Jan and Buffy are, well, (Dawnie's terms) boinking, they should swap rooms. Does that happen??? Do they move out??? I am in a need of an update!!! Anyway, great stuff. Hope to see more soon. =)

Aaron

'Tarababy77'

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"Don't buy into all the media crap. Love yourself for who you are, not what others THINK you should look like. It's DEFINITELY more important in this life to love each other despite our imperfections." - Amber Benson

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[sam darls]

Buffy!! hehe..ooh, this should be fun . Loved the update . Love sam xx

"Sometimes things happen between people that you don't really expect. And sometimes the things that are important are the ones that seem the weirdest or the most wrong. And those are the ones that change your life." - Jessie Sammler (Evan Rachel Wood)

[littlecrazy80]

OMG that was hilarious!!!



*lil´c*

"I am S-E-X-Y" Amber at the FedCon



SweetAmber

[The girl who talks but do]

That was FANTASTIC!!!! cannot wait for the next part!

love'n'hugs

cath

I like the quiet.

[veiled isis moon]

OH MY GOD, that was so funny Tara's reaction to finding Jan in her bed, then realising the mysterious figure was Buffy! And Willow and Tara playing about at the begining was fun too. Great update.



Michellex

[CEsgirl13]

outs: you didnt tell me it was gonna surprise me like that tor! :Tear: lol jk. this was awesome tori, you keep surprising and amazing me and btw-remember what i said last night!

~Jamie

(Tori-Move along,no pee here)

[Trape]

Tor -

Is it ok if I call you that? I don't know you personally, so I don't wanna freak you out . Anyway, that was an AWESOME update, and a total shocker too. Buffys in a lotta trouble now! Can't wait to find out what's gonna happen next, so you better update soon.



Lookit how cute this thing is! . But don't worry, I'm not mad at you *laughs*.

[Trape]

OMG, this one is adorable too! . I guess I like the angry ones *laughs*. Sorry for the extra post, but I just had to get it out...you're not mad, are you? .