Sorry all have had a lot of laptop issues, hope this makes up for it a little.
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The feeling of fear and abandonment raged through her. Every nerve in her body felt like it was constricting and never planed on releasing its grip. Her mind was spinning out of control with thoughts crashing into each other. How had this all happened, what could she do, could she stop it, should she stop it and what about Willow? How could she save her and yet at the same time stop Arionna from her madness? Her breathing became even more irregular and she felt the darkness start to over take her from the lack of oxygen. Then she felt the darkness consume her and still her mind.
She opened her eyes to a lush green field with flowers of every color one could imagine. A smile slowly formed on her face as she turned in a circle to take in the site around her. One thought on her mind she broke into a run for the corner of the field that met the woods. All she could think of was that she was home. Arriving before the cottage she could small the wood from the fireplace filling the air. The scent of jasmine tickling her senses and the warmth of finding home after years of being lost was almost more then she could handle. Then she heard the voice behind her, the voice that could always wash away all her fears.
“It has been a long time since you have come to see me dear heart, I was beginning to think you had forgotten me.”
Turning slowly to gaze upon the fair haired woman she looked into eyes that were mirrors of her own “Never Momma, I could never forget you, you know that.”
“I know dear, it’s just been a long time.”
“I know, I am sorry, things have been hard. I didn’t want to bring that here to you in such a perfect place.”
“But things now aren’t what they seem are they? Things have changed; you have changed in such a short time. But you don’t want to see it, or maybe you do see it and don’t want to admit it because you’re scared what that can mean.”
“Momma please it isn’t like that.”
“Isn’t it, she makes you feel alive, she makes you feel only things you have thought you have felt before. I see this; I have watched the way you look at each other. There isn’t any way to deny that.”
“How have you seen? It’s not possible she hasn’t been here, Oh God I am so confused on what I should do, Arionna she is going to kill her if I don’t fight but momma they sent HER this time.”
“I have seen Willow, remember her dream do you not think she was here? How else would she know? I don’t know how she got here but she did. She came here looking for you. Looking for a meaning behind the connection, looking for you to find out why she now feels complete.”
“It can’t be, Willow doesn’t feel that way” Nox looked down at the ground “and she has someone.” She mumbled in the end.
“Dear heart instead of thinking with your head, why don’t you let your heart feel again. It knows the truth; it wants to be set free. D’Hoffryn may have put that curse on you yes, but only you can break it, the only way to know if you can ever really live is to trust. To trust again means to feel again, all you have to do is to reach out.”
“But it’s complicated, I don’t know if I can trust I mean I know she isn’t going to hurt me on purpose. What is she finds out what I have done, what if she is disgusted then? Can’t stand to even see me? I can’t take it again, and this time, I can’t face her I can’t go against someone that knows me. I can’t believe they sent her.”
“Dear, listen to me, one thing at a time and all the pieces will fit into place. I promise you that it will all be okay if you can just find it in yourself to just reach out. Do you think you can do that for me?”
“I’ll try momma, I really will I promise.”
“Good now come here and give me a hug. I believe you have someone that will be waiting on you soon.”
“Willow, I am supposed to meet her at the Bronze tonight.”
“No sweetie, in about an hour I believe, you know my time isn’t like yours.”
“I’ll be back soon; I won’t stay gone as long as I did this time.” Nox said giving her mother a loving smile.
“I will always be here, there is no hurries, just keep your promise to me and I will be happy.” Her mother told her holding her tightly to her.
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“Buffy we really should get going you know. We both need showers and changed before we go to the Bronze.” Willow said watching her best friend hit the punching bag the last time.
“Okay Will I heard you the first 15 times. I think someone is a little excited about seeing a certain someone if you ask me.” Buffy said poking Willow in the ribs as she walked by to get her water.
“It’s not like that, Nox is just… special… that’s all” Willow said looking down quickly as to not let her blushing face show.
Walking back to the front of the Magic Box the duo started picking up their items from the table as Xander and Anya flirted with each other across the counter. The bells from the door went off causing them all to look up.
“Hi and welcome to the Magic Box, if you need any help please let me know and we are willing to take your cash or plastic.” Anya greeted the new arrival.
“I am not here to purchase anything from this... abomination” the figure said.
“Okay, so someone missed their bowl of happy this morning, if your not here to shop what can we do for you?” Buffy said leaning against the counter.
“I am looking for someone, female about my height, blonde hair, quite type, has a friend with her a real firecracker that one.”
Looking at each other the scoobies all had an uneasy look on their faces. Giving out information to a stranger was something they didn’t just do. On the hellmouth that was like asking for an apocalypse.
“Nope sorry, don’t think any of us have seen anyone like that have you Will?” Buffy asked.
“Nope not that I remember anyways how about you Xander any blondes catching your eyes lately?” Willow asked turning to Xander.
“Hmm blonde hair and about your height, no that’s defiantly someone I would remember. How about you honey seen anyone like that running around?” Xander asked holding his breathe that his girlfriend would play along.
“No, I would remember hitting you about the head for looking at someone like that then making you take me home for lots of orgasms.” Anya said with a smug look on her face.
“Right, thanks then” The stranger said with a look of doubt on her face.
“Well” Willow said taking a step forward “If we do see someone like that is there a name we can tell them? I mean like so and so is looking for you?”
“Yeah tell her Maclay”
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Edited by: RaVeN at: 9/27/04 10:51 pm
She so deserves a good 
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ray
