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TITLE: Close Quarters
AUTHOR: Laragh
CHAPTER RATING: NC-17
DISCLAIMER: Willow, Tara and any other characters from the Buffy the Vampire Slayer franchise belong to Joss Whedon, FOX, ME and a whole host of other entities, none of which are me.
SUMMARY: What happens when Willow and Tara are thrown together far away from home? Tara has secrets, Willow has a lonely past. They both want to be loved. Can they find it together? (Of course they can, this is me!)
SPOILERS: AU fic, so at most minor references or pieces of dialogue
FEEDBACK: Yes please
Chapter 19/20********
Previously:Quote:
Willow chuckled nervously, rooted to the spot.
“You never used to sleep naked.”
Tara fixed the redhead with a steady gaze.
“I don’t want to sleep.”
Willow opened and closed her mouth a few times as she processed what her girlfriend was saying.
“Tara...are you sure? ‘Cause I don’t want to do anything if you’re only doing it ‘cause you think I’m expecting it after you said you wanted to earlier. I’m not, I only booked the double bed ‘cause it seemed silly to have two singles when we could cuddle. Or if... if this is because of some adrenaline rush after everything that’s happened today...Or because you said you wanted to make it up me, I don’t want our first time to be because of any of that.”
Tara shook her head.
“Willow, I asked you to make love with me earlier because I thought it was going to be goodbye. But I’m asking now because I...I want it to be me giving you myself forever. I want us to give each other ourselves forever.”
Willow closed her eyes for a moment as she nodded.
“Okay, um I should...I should go out and get candles and um, rose petals and...music, do you want music? I could download some romantic music. I can’t download candles but I’m sure there’s a shop nearby I could be out and back in-”
“Willow, I just want you.”
Willow’s eyes opened and she inhaled slowly.
“Well you can have me.”
Tara looked between a mixture of relieved and ecstatic as Willow starting walking towards her. The redhead lifted her t-shirt over her head and dropped it on the floor, her jeans following soon after with her bra until she was standing at the edge of the bed in just her panties, suddenly bashful.
Tara had seen her without pants plenty of times when they’d been roommates, since Willow had had no issue with getting changed in front of her and she’d seen her completely topless almost every night for the almost four months the physical side of their relationship had included touching.
But she’d never seen her completely naked.
And she was shy.
Tara saw Willow drop her head and begin to nervously play with her fingers. Sensing what was wrong, she pushed her own insecurities aside and pulled the blanket away, letting Willow see all of her for the first time.
The redhead’s gaze moved up when she saw the movement out of the corner of her eye and she gasped as her eyes started roaming along her girlfriend’s nude form, her mouth going dry – the moisture rushing somewhere decidedly south – when they landed on the brunette curls between her legs.
“Oh...Tara...”
Her shyness completely receded; Willow hooked her thumbs into her panties and dragged them off her body, stepping out of them before she climbed onto the bed, alongside the brunette.
“Are you cold?”
Tara was confused by the question but shook her head.
“Okay,” Willow replied, grabbing the blanket and throwing it on the floor, “Just thought...now we can see each other properly.”
Tara could only squeak a response as her own eyes roamed down Willow’s body, her breathing becoming laboured.
“Willow, you’re...you are so beautiful.”
“You’re the beautiful one,” Willow replied as her hand ran down the brunette’s side and over the curve of her buttocks, “God, you’re...stunning. I love you.”
“I love you too, Willow. So much.”
Their eyes ran up and down each other’s naked bodies for a few minutes until their gazes locked with one another and their lips met hungrily.
“Oh you’re gorgeous,” Willow moaned as her hands tried to touch Tara everywhere, “Mmhh, so beautiful.”
Tara sucked the redhead’s bottom lip into her mouth and let her own hands start to explore. She was a little tentative at first, in stark contrast to Willow whose hands were groping and fondling every piece of flesh they came in contact with, which she was enjoying very much.
“Is this okay?” she asked as one hand cupped the smaller girl’s butt cheek.
“Baby, you can touch anywhere,” Willow mumbled as their lips met again and again until she suddenly pulled her mouth and hands away from Tara, “Shit, am I being too hands-y? I’m sorry, I’m just um...really, really...you're just so beautiful.”
Tara blushed but couldn’t help a proud smile. She was turning Willow on.
“It’s okay,” she grinned happily, “I was enjoying it.”
“Oh,” Willow replied, grinning as well, “Well okay, then. But um maybe we could slow down a little? I wanna, you know, feel every moment.”
“Sure,” Tara nodded, easily, “Slow is good.”
Willow threw her arms around Tara’s neck and moved her face so it was just a centimetre away from her girlfriend’s and nuzzled their noses together affectionately for a moment before capturing the brunette’s lips again, passionately but tenderly.
Tara let her hands hold the redhead’s waist and both enjoyed the new intimacy of simply kissing naked. They spent many long minutes doing just that until their kissing became more heated and Tara’s hands began to drop lower to Willow’s ass again. Their tongues started to ardently clash, the duel moving back and forth between their mouths until the need for oxygen became too great and they pulled back.
Tara instantly dropped her lips to the smaller girl’s neck and she kissed the skin there before poking her tongue out and swirling it around.
“Ohhh, baby, yea,” Willow moaned, tilting her neck into the pillow, “Mmmhhh...”
Tara leant herself further into her girlfriend’s body and extended her tongue further, licking from the base of her neck and up to her ear, which she then nibbled on.
Willow moaned again. Tara knew exactly what spots to hit to make her turn into a puddle of desire, she’d given her neck the same wonderful attention many times but the redhead craved more. She loved what her girlfriend was doing to her, but she wanted to experience new sensations too. With that thought in mind she pulled Tara’s lips back up to hers and kissed her firmly for a moment before rolling the brunette on her back.
Tara gulped as she looked into the redhead’s eyes; they were a darker green than she’d ever seen before. They were both breathing heavily and the brunette gasped when Willow suddenly dropped her head and took one of her nipples in her mouth.
“Oh my...oh my goddd...”
Tara threw her head back against the pillows in pleasure. They’d only ever used their hands in their explorations of each other and both girls were now wondering why on earth they’d been limiting themselves.
Willow moaned as she wrapped her lips around her girlfriend’s nipples and sucked. The feeling of the taut bud hardening in her mouth was unlike anything she’d ever felt before and the sounds of pleasure coming from above were unlike anything she’d ever heard. The combined sensations sent a flood of arousal through her as she continued to suck.
Tara balled her hands into fists at her side, her nails digging into her palms as she struggled to contain the white-hot desire coursing through her. She’d been having more and more physical urges for Willow’s touch as the days had passed in the school and had been finding it increasingly difficult to stop when their make out sessions had gotten very heated in the past, but it was nothing compared to what she was feeling now. Willow’s naked body against hers and her mouth around her nipple...it was pure bliss.
Except Willow was only focusing on one side. And her other breast was starting to feel the strain of getting no attention. She wasn’t sure if it was appropriate to just ask her girlfriend for what she wanted or if she’d even be able to get the words out if she could. So, unable to take the strain anymore, she quietly brought her own hand to her breast and pinched her nipple.
Willow heard a soft sigh from above and felt a movement off to the side. She cast her gaze to the right, her eyes widening when she saw what the taller girl was doing. She raised her head and Tara let out a disappointed groan before opening her eyes seeing the redhead looking at her shyly.
“Um, did...did you want me to...?”
Willow glanced at the brunette’s hand and Tara nervously snatched it away from her breast, letting it hang by her side before blushing.
“I didn’t want to ask.”
“Oh baby, please ask, whatever you need,” Willow reassured, before a small blush rose on her cheeks as well, “Was what I was doing...did you like it? ‘Cause I kinda have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing, I just had this urge to feel you like that and-”
“I loved it,” Tara cut her girlfriend off, biting her lip, “Really, really loved it.”
Willow got a goofy smile on her face and giggled. She was about to drop her head again when Tara rolled them so she was on top.
“Can I show you what it feels like?”
Willow’s eyes lit up and she nodded vigorously.
“Uh huh. Yea, I’d like that. Please.”
Tara settled her body comfortably on top of her girlfriend’s, her head above her chest and started kissing circles around her breasts. She watched as the redhead’s nipples hardened into taut peaks without her even touching them and both girls groaned when she finally took the bud in her mouth.
“Oh god, Tara...” Willow strained her entire body at the touch, “Oh god!”
Tara brought her hand up to the smaller girl’s other breast and squeezed her flesh as her mouth gave the other side an uncertain suck. Willow let out a sound between a cry and groan that Tara decided she liked hearing very much and repeated the action, rolling her girlfriend’s other nipple between her fingers in synch with her sucks.
“That feels good, baby...yea...mmhh, really good...”
Willow gasped in pleasure as Tara pinched her particularly hard and her hands flew to the brunette's hair to hold her in place. She couldn’t believe the amount of pleasure coursing through her at that very moment and was enthralled by the fact that they were only starting, with so much left to explore and experience. She could feel herself getting lost in her girlfriend’s touch though and as much as she wanted to just give herself over to it, she wanted their first time to be extra special even more so she gently pulled Tara up and kissed her.
“Was I not doing it right?” Tara asked, pulling away, though Willow was quick to continue kissing her.
“It was perfect, baby,” Willow replied between kisses, “Just had to feel your lips again.”
The redhead rolled them onto their sides and tangled their legs together as they languidly kissed, enjoying the simple contact until both felt a palpable ache in their groins and they knew it was time to take the final step.
“Tara...?” Willow asked, pulling away and tucking a piece of hair behind her girlfriend’s ear shyly, “Do you like...you know, penetration? ‘Cause um, I know
I’ve liked it when I’ve done it to myself, but if you don’t I can focus on just...other things.”
Tara blushed and resisted the urge to duck her head.
“I don’t know.”
“Well did you like it when you did it yourself?” Willow asked, slightly embarrassed to be bringing up the topic but figuring the more she knew the better she could please the brunette.
Tara blushed harder but kept her girlfriend’s gaze.
“I’ve never...”
She glanced downwards in indication and Willow’s eyebrows rose.
“You’ve never...experimented with the self-love?”
“No,” Tara replied, embarrassed, “I never would’ve dared in my father’s house or at the school...and I didn’t really know...I just never tried, okay?”
“Hey, it’s okay, I didn’t mean anything...” Willow trailed off before softly stroking the brunette’s hair, “We’ll figure out what you like together, okay?”
Tara gave a small nod, then a shy smile.
“I really want you to though. I mean, I really want you...inside me.”
“Yea?” Willow asked with an excited smile, “Really? ‘Cause...wow...that would be...”
Tara gazed into her girlfriend’s shining green orbs for a few moments before taking a deep breath and rolling them again so she was straddling the redhead, a knee either side of the smaller girl’s hips.
“Take me, Willow.”
Willow could only stare for a moment as she took in the sight of her girlfriend completely exposed atop her and rested her hands on the brunette’s hips, giving them a light squeeze.
“You’re still sure?”
Tara nodded.
“Make me yours completely.”
Willow felt her heart burst with emotion and moved one hand down, her fingers lightly trailing through the hairs of her girlfriend’s mound as she savoured the anticipation of the moment.
This is it. We’re making love. No going back now.She moved her gaze up and locked eyes with the brunette as her fingers drifted lower and sank into the abundant wetness waiting for them.
Tara gasped but didn’t drop her gaze. She felt Willow’s soft fingers glide through her most intimate place until she hit against a bump and a sharp jolt of pleasure went though her.
“Oh!”
Willow’s eyes lit up.
That must be her...She moved her fingers over the bump she’d just hit against and rubbed it lightly, making Tara throw her head back and moan loudly, which in turn made Willow grin.
Oh yea. That’s it.“Is that good?” Willow asked softly, “Do you want...harder or...?”
“So good,” Tara whispered in a throaty response, “Maybe...maybe harder...”
Willow pressed her fingers down more firmly and continued her circular motion on the taller girl’s clit for a few minutes as Tara’s moans got louder and more unrestrained until the redhead couldn’t hold off any longer and moved her fingers down.
“Baby...can I?”
Tara hazily opened her eyes and locked them with her girlfriend again. She trembled in anticipation for a moment and nodded.
“Okay,” Willow replied, more than a little nervous, “I’ll use one and I’ll push in really slowly. Is that okay?”
Willow wanted to make sure Tara knew exactly what was going to happen since this was such a new experience for her. She knew that touching herself wouldn’t feel the exact same as when Tara would touch her, but at least she had some knowledge in what to expect in terms of sensation whereas Tara apparently had none.
“You can do whatever you want,” Tara answered shyly, “To me, I mean.”
Willow smiled and twirled her finger around for a moment to lubricate it before positioning it at the brunette’s entrance. She never let her eyes leave her girlfriend’s as she started to slowly push inside, her finger gliding in easily. They both grinned when she was fully inside and Tara bit her lip.
“Wow. You’re inside me.”
“I know,” Willow said in gleeful awe, “You feel incredible.”
Tara blushed and focused on the feeling of her girlfriend inside her for a moment. It felt amazing, but she craved more.
“You can use two fingers...I want you to fill me completely.”
Willow exhaled slowly and pulled out of the taller girl, pushing two fingers in this time. Tara whimpered, her eyes shutting tight and her features contorting into pain.
“Shit,” Willow cursed, starting to panic, “Shit, shit, did that hurt? Of course it hurt, you whimpered. Oh god, I’ll pull out, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry...”
“No,” Tara replied loudly, her eyes still closed. The second finger had stretched her completely and had caused a flash of pain but she didn’t want Willow to leave her, “Just give me a second. Don’t...don’t move.”
Willow stayed deathly still, afraid to even breathe in case it somehow hurt her new lover until Tara’s hips started to rock gently against her.
“You can move them, Willow,” Tara said quietly, the stretched feeling having turned into one of complete pleasure, “Mmhh, yea...”
Willow cautiously retracted her fingers and then pushed them back in again, watching her girlfriend’s face intently for any sign of pain or uncomfortableness. When Tara’s only response was a throaty moan, she settled into the rhythm and took in the entirety of what she was doing.
“Tara, I love you,” she said, mesmerised by the sight of her girlfriend, “God, I love you, I love you so much.”
“I love...I love you too.”
Tara struggled to form coherent thought, much less think or say anything. She’d never known pleasure like what she was feeling right then, it was as if Willow was engulfing her completely, overtaking her and owning her.
And she was more than happy to let her.
She moved her hips a little faster and moaned when she felt the redhead venture a little deeper within on the next thrust before, then gasped sharply when she an overwhelming jolt of pleasure go through her as the pads of her girlfriend’s fingers hit against something inside her.
The sheer intensity made her fall forward, her palms landing flat-out above Willow’s shoulders and their faces just inches apart.
“Tara, was that...?”
“Hmm?” Tara asked, her eyes shut tight as she tried to roll her hips in a way that would give her that intense feeling again.
“Your g-spot, baby,” Willow replied, deciding it was no time for coyness. She knew her anatomy and had a general idea of where she was supposed to search for her lover’s spot inside, but didn’t think she could’ve reached it on her first try, “Was that it?”
“I...I don’t know,” Tara answered unsurely; she’d read the term ‘g-spot’ in her brother’s magazines and had a very basic understanding of what exactly it was but all she really cared about that moment was experiencing the sensation again, “Can you...?”
Willow understood and bit her lip in concentration, then on her next thrust upwards, curled her fingers again and reached in the same general area she had before. Tara groaned loudly, her forehead moving down to rest against the redhead’s.
“Sweetie, I really don’t know much about all of this,” Tara panted; loud, errant moans slipping out between her words, “But just keep doing that. Please.”
Willow nodded, though it was lost on the brunette since her eyes were still shut tight, and continued in the rhythm Tara was setting with her hips. Neither said a word, both lost in the new feelings until Tara’s eyes suddenly flew open and she gazed down at her girlfriend, looking alarmed and scared.
“Willow, something’s happening.”
She felt something rising inside her, like a giant ball of heat and tension was building in her stomach. There was this urge shooting through her, a wanting for the tension to release but was slightly frightened by the sheer intensity of the feelings.
“It’s okay, baby,” Willow gently soothed, “Let it happen. I’m gonna hold you.”
Tara closed her eyes for just a second, collecting herself before reopening them, wanting Willow’s green orbs to be the things she saw when she let herself go for the first time.
“I got you, baby,” Willow continued to whisper comforting words to her girlfriend, “Never gonna let you go. Not ever.”
Tara exhaled slowly as she felt pressure inside her begin to break and continued to gaze into her lover’s eyes as the redhead softly kissed her. The kiss was all she needed to explode completely as she felt her insides fill with warmth, intense pleasure racing around her entire body.
“Willow...”
Willow barely heard her name, it came out in such a quiet whisper, but watched as her girlfriend’s eyes glazed over and felt her whole body tense above her while strong contractions around her fingers held her firmly in place.
They both stayed in a trance, eyes and bodies locked together for several long moments until Tara suddenly gasped and collapsed completely on top of the redhead, her head burying itself in the crook of Willow’s neck.
Willow turned her head slightly and inhaled the scent of the brunette’s hair, gently removing her fingers from their warm cocoon and running her hands up and down Tara’s sweaty back.
“You’re so beautiful, Tara. You’re the most beautiful girl in the world. I love you more than anything, baby. You’re so beautiful...”
Tara felt herself relax, a pleasant tingling radiating throughout her body as Willow whispered in her ear and brought her back to reality. She couldn’t quite comprehend everything she’d just experienced – not just the physical sensations, though they were beyond anything she’d ever thought possible, but the emotions coursing through her.
The love, affection, adoration and passion she had for Willow had all come completely to a head but as well as that, she felt the love, affection, adoration and passion that Willow had for her. The way her girlfriend had so tenderly and lovingly worshipped her body made her feel things she’d never felt before.
For the first time in her life, despite Willow telling her on a daily basis for months, she felt beautiful.
“Tara, are you okay? You’ve just been really still for a while now...if you need more time you could just move your toes or something so I know you’re okay...”
Tara smiled against Willow’s shoulder and jokingly wiggled her toes against her girlfriend’s shin before raising her head and resting their foreheads together, her eyes shining.
“There aren’t words...”
“You don’t have to say anything,” Willow replied, leaning up for a quick kiss, “I know.”
Tara cupped the smaller girl’s cheek and gazed at her adoringly.
“Willow?”
“Yea?”
“You make me feel beautiful.”
Willow felt an emotional lump rise in the back of her throat but she pushed it down and smiled.
“I told you I was gonna make you believe it.”
Tara placed another quick kiss on her girlfriend’s lips.
“Only you could.”
They kissed, slow and deep for the next few minutes until Tara pulled back and glanced apprehensively down the redhead’s body.
“Will you help me? I want to...I need to make you feel as good as you just made me feel...but I um...I don’t really know...”
“I’m not exactly an expert myself, Tara,” Willow chuckled nervously, “I’ve never done this before either.”
“You did a pretty amazing job just then,” Tara replied and they both blushed, “You’ve...you know what you like...maybe you could just...guide me a little?”
Willow nodded quietly.
“I can do that.”
They kissed softly again for another minute before Tara took a deep breath and pushed herself off the redhead’s body, sitting back on her heels between her girlfriend’s legs.
Willow bent her knees accommodatingly and heard the brunette audibly gulp as she exposed herself.
“Oh wow...Willow...” Tara stared in awe as she took in the sight of her girlfriend’s core, her pink flesh and downy red hairs. She was enthralled by the fact that she could see that Willow was physically dripping with desire, moisture spilling out onto her thighs, “Beautiful...”
Willow was happy to let her girlfriend stare at her – they were giving themselves to each other after all and Tara seemed transfixed. But her whole body was humming with need, to a degree she’d never felt before and she didn’t know how much longer she could handle not being touched. Still, she wasn’t sure exactly to say to the brunette.
What the hell’s the proper etiquette in asking your girlfriend to make love to you before you explode? ‘Hey, Tara, think you could bang me please?’ God, Willow, whatever you do, don’t say that...“Tara...”
Tara snapped to attention at the throaty sound of her name being called and looked up at Willow’s face, seeing her darkened and pleading eyes. She nodded to herself for a moment, recollecting how the redhead had touched her before moving a hand down and cupping her girlfriend lightly. Willow gasped and jerked at the contact, her head straining back against the pillows and her eyes closing.
Tara let one of her fingers slip between the smaller girl’s lips and into her waiting wetness. Willow moaned and concentrated on not bucking her hips, not wanting to pressure her girlfriend in any way but couldn’t help the instinctive thrust they gave when the brunette hit against her clit.
“Oh baby, yea, there...” Willow encouraged, then remembered the brunette had asked for guidance, “I like, um...light but fast.”
Tara put the pads of two of her fingers over the bump in her girlfriend’s flesh and began gently but quickly moving them back and forth.
“Like that?”
“Just a teensy bit harder...not too much...oh yea...oh god, yea, just like that... “
Willow held her hands over her face and groaned loudly as Tara sent jolts of pleasure throughout her whole body. Touching herself had never made her feel the way she was feeling right then, like her whole body was on fire and consumed by desire.
Tara kept her fingers at a steady pace, in awe that she was seemingly able to give her girlfriend so much pleasure. And if the sounds coming from Willow’s mouth were any indication, she definitely was. She watched as a light flush rose on the redhead’s chest and heard a loud hitched breath.
“Oh my....”
Willow felt herself swiftly nearing her peak and was about to let herself fall when she realised she wanted to feel Tara inside her when she crashed. And she wanted Tara to experience being inside her as well, since it had been such a remarkable experience for her when she’d been inside the brunette.
“Baby, can you slow it down?” she asked breathlessly, knowing she wouldn’t be able to control herself for much longer, “Don’t stop, just slow.”
Tara slowed her fingers so they were just lightly rubbing over the hard nub and Willow exhaled slowly.
“Sorry, Tare,” Willow said after a moment of composing herself, “I just really want you to be inside me when I...”
“Oh,” Tara replied with a blush and a gulp, “Um, do you want that...now?”
Willow fluttered her eyes open and bit the side of her lip, smiling.
“Yea.”
Tara stilled her fingers completely and Willow let out a soft sigh at the loss of contact but spread her legs further in invitation. Tara gulped again and was plagued by a sudden insecurity as she looked back up into her girlfriend’s eyes.
“Are you sure you want it to be me-”
Willow cut the brunette off by reaching down and squeezing her hand.
“Only ever you.”
Tara cast her eyes down.
“I’m sorry if it’s not good.”
Willow heaved a quiet sigh and pulled at Tara’s hand.
“C’mere, baby.”
Tara moved so she was hovering above the redhead’s body again and was surprised when Willow captured her lips passionately, errant moans escaping the redhead’s mouth as she hungrily sucked on her girlfriend’s bottom lip before taking a hold of her cheeks and pulling them apart, breathing heavy.
“Whoa,” Willow gulped, blinking a couple of times, “God, I only meant to give you a quick peck to let you know that however you touched me would be wonderful but...couldn’t help myself. Tara, I need you so badly. I just wanna feel your long fingers deep inside me and-”
“Willow!” Tara hissed, embarrassed but had a small, reassured smile on her lips, “I’m...I’m gonna make love to you now, okay?”
Willow nodded eagerly and used her hold on her girlfriend’s cheeks to bring her down for another, slow, loving kiss.
“Just do what feels right. Anything, okay?” she whispered when they pulled apart, “I love you.”
“I love you, too,” Tara whispered back before sitting back on her heels again and smiling in a mixture of nerves and excitement, holding up her hand shyly, “One or...?”
“Two,” Willow answered, somewhat shy as well, “But will you be gentle? I’ve...you know, done it myself but you can only reach so far with your own...”
Tara nodded, looking down at the redhead with nothing but love.
“Of course.”
Willow kept her gaze firmly on the blue depths staring down at her and felt a tear come to her eye when two fingers slowly but steadily entered her. She blinked it away, not wanting Tara to think she’d hurt her – she hadn’t, she felt nothing but joy and completion at the touch as she connected to her girlfriend in a new way.
“Oh Tara...”
Tara almost moaned at the feeling of Willow surrounding her, so warm and embracing. She gently started moving them in and out, in the same way the redhead had done to her and felt the redhead’s hips start to answer her thrusts as they found their rhythm.
She watched as Willow’s eyes closed and her hips starting moving faster, longer moans escaping the smaller girl’s mouth. Tara desperately wanted to make her girlfriend feel the same pleasure she’d been given and tried to think back on what exactly the redhead had done to get to...that spot...but she’d been too focused on just feeling at the time to have registered how exactly it had been done.
“Will?” she asked after another moment, “How do I...how do I reach...?”
Willow took a few seconds for Tara’s words to seep into her lust-filled brain but she opened her eyes again when they did.
“I’ve never found it on my own, baby,” she admitted with a moan as Tara’s fingers still moved in and out of her, “You can uh...curl your fingers...somewhere on my front...feels kinda rough...and spongy...”
Willow trailed off and Tara started curling her fingers on each upward thrust, feeling around for a different texture and frowned when she failed to feel anything different after a few minutes. Willow saw the frown and started to speak again - sure, she was curious as to what it might feel like if the brunette found her spot, but not at the expense of Tara thinking bad of herself or not enjoying the experience as well.
“Tara, don’t worry...mmhh, what you’re doing feels so good. You don’t need to – uhhhhhh ahhhh oh fu- ahhhh!” she spluttered as overwhelming pleasure starting shooting through her, her hands going to grip the sheets, “Oh god...oh my...oh
god, baby, you got it, right there, that’s it.”
Tara’s face lit up; she did feel a coarser area of flesh under her fingertips and delighted in the fact that she knew the pleasure Willow was feeling and that she was the one to be giving it to her. She stayed quiet as the throaty moans and low groans of her girlfriend filled the room for the next few minutes until she felt flutterings beginning around her fingers and saw the redhead’s body was starting to arch upwards.
“I’m...I’m...” Willow strained her neck against the pillows as she felt her body tense for a long moment until a long burst of ecstasy shot through her, tumbling to every nerve in her body, “Tara!”
Tara’s eyes widened in delight-filled awe; she’d just made Willow reach the heights of pleasure and the redhead had screamed her name when she’d gotten there. She kept her fingers in place until she felt the contractions die down and gently removed them, automatically bringing them up to her face and giving them a curious sniff.
She felt a fresh surge of arousal go through her at the musky scent and extended her tongue, giving a small lick.
Oh wow. So yummy...She put her fingers completely into her mouth and sucked them clean but found it wasn’t enough.
Mmhh, I need more...need to taste more...Acting on nothing but instinct and desire she lay down on her stomach and dropped her head into Willow’s core, letting her tongue reach out to touch and taste whatever piece of flesh it came into contact with.
“Holy fu-”
Willow gasped in shock, sure she couldn’t be feeling what she thought she was feeling.
Is she...?She glanced down and thought she might pass out at the erotic sight of Tara; her hair splayed out over her thighs and her head moving up and down between her legs.
Oh my god, she is.The many, many times Willow had imagined Tara doing that particular act – and she had notched up quite the fantasy count in their months together – couldn’t begin to compare to the actual feeling. Tara’s tongue was warm and soft and was gliding against her heated flesh in the most delicious of ways.
“Mmhh, don’t stop...”
Tara felt both encouraged and nervous as she heard her girlfriend call down to her. She really didn’t want to stop, she felt consumed by Willow’s aroma and flavour and didn’t think there was anything in the world that could be better than what she was experiencing in that moment.
But she had no idea what she was doing. She’d started on impulse and though she wasn’t regretting it, she was wondering how to exactly go about things. She knew that just absently letting her tongue roll around wasn’t going to satisfy her lover and she wouldn’t be able to do it for much longer without it just being teasing.
Okay...um...where was her...oh there! Okay, light and fast, that’s what she liked...light and fast...Tara ran her tongue over Willow’s clit in the same rhythm she’d used with her fingers.
“Mmhh, oh Tara...” Willow moaned, feeling almost drunk with pleasure, “Harder...”
Tara pressed her tongue more firmly against the redhead’s pleasure nub as she stroked it back and forth.
“Harder...”
Tara knew she couldn’t apply any greater pressure with her tongue, the wriggling muscle just wasn’t strong enough, so decided to try using her lips instead and wrapped them around the taut bud, sucking softly.
“Ohh, ah, yes, yes!”
Tara smiled internally and continued sucking.
She likes it light with my fingers and hard with my mouth...have to remember that.Willow rested her hands either side of her girlfriend’s head as her hips started, of their own volition, grinding themselves into Tara’s face, a fresh rush of ecstasy rising in her.
“Amazing, Tara...you’re incredible, baby...feels so good...”
She felt the pleasure in the pit of her stomach begin to bubble again and could only smile dreamily as it broke and radiated throughout her entire being, moaning her girlfriend’s name softly as her hands gripped the brunette’s head tightly.
“Tara...”
Tara felt her own mental exhilaration as she felt Willow come against her and gently scooped the flowing juices into her mouth until the redhead’s grip on her head loosened. She raised her head and started kissing a straight line up her girlfriend’s stomach, through her breasts and to her mouth, their lips softly meeting, Willow moaning and pulling back in surprise at the flavour of Tara’s lips.
“What’s wrong?” Tara asked softly, her brow creasing.
“Nothing,” Willow replied with a small, curious smile, “I can just taste myself on you.”
“Oh,” Tara responded, self-consciously bringing a hand up to her mouth and wiping away the last remnants of the redhead’s pleasure, “Sorry.”
Willow bit her lip with a smile and shook her head.
“Don’t be. It’s kinda sexy. Kinda really sexy.”
Tara blushed but smiled as well.
“So it’s okay that I did that?”
“Oh Tara...” Willow replied, trying for a moment to think of what to say before sighing, “Like you said. No words.”
Their lips met again tenderly, conveying an extra expression of love until Willow pulled away, turning her head to the side, yawning. The action made a yawn rise in Tara’s throat as well and she brought a hand up to cover her mouth as the emotional and physical exhaustion of the day’s events caught up with them both.
Tara reached over to retrieve the blanket from the floor and covered them. She was just about to get into a comfortable cuddling position when Willow suddenly spoke up.
“No.”
Tara’s face visibly fell and she looked slightly shocked that Willow seemed to be rebuffing her after everything they’d just shared but she tried to compose herself and moved off to the side.
“I can sleep on this side,” she said quietly, “It’s a big bed.”
“What?” Willow asked in tired confusion before realising how her girlfriend must have interpreted what she’d said and quickly pulling the brunette back to her, kissing all over her face, “Oh baby, no, I want you right beside me, never gonna let you go, remember? I just meant no, we can’t sleep yet. We have so much to explore still and I wanna do what you just-”
Tara cut the redhead off with a weary but tender kiss that lasted several moments until the brunette pulled back and nuzzled their noses together.
“We have forever, remember?”
Willow gave a fatigued smile and a small nod.
“It’s been a pretty shattering day,” she said with another quiet yawn, “You know, emotionally.”
“Yea,” Tara whispered back, her lids drooping slightly, but she fought it, “Willow, I need you to know how much everything you’ve done for me means. No one else in the world...the things you’ve given up-”
“Put on temporary hold,” Willow cut her girlfriend off, “And I would do anything for you. You. Are. My. Everything.”
The redhead punctuated each word of her last sentence with a kiss before pulling back and somewhat uncertainly tucked a piece of hair behind the brunette’s ear.
“I know you already said it wasn’t but...you didn’t...you didn’t feel like you had to make love with me because of what happened today, right?”
Tara just smiled and shook her head and Willow smiled as well, giving a small laugh.
“I knew that. That was all...it was all love.”
“Yes,” Tara replied softly, “It was.”
Willow’s smile got wider.
“And it was amazing.”
“Yea,” Tara repeated again sleepily, “It was.”
Willow saw her girlfriend’s eyes begin to droop and gently stroked her hair.
“And I’d really like if we could hold each other while we sleep.”
Tara chuckled quietly.
“Do you want to be the big spoon or the little spoon?”
Willow gave a small giggle.
“In future, either sounds good to me, but tonight can we be facing each other? I want your beautiful face to be the last thing I see before I fall asleep.”
Tara blushed, then nodded and moved so that she was lying alongside the redhead. Willow adjusted herself onto her side as well and shuffled so there was barely room for air between them. Their legs tangled together and they wrapped their arms comfortably around each other’s waists as their heads rested on the pillows.
“Love you, Tare-bear.”
Tara leaned forwards and placed a final, warm kiss on her girlfriend’s lips.
“I love you, too.”
Tara watched as Willow smiled at her words and her eyes closed, her breath evening out in under a minute as she drifted off into a much needed slumber.
She could feel the steady rise and fall of her chest against her own and marvelled again at how truly magnificent her girlfriend was and smiling when she felt Willow’s unconscious form cuddle even closer into her.
“I’ll always love you, sweetheart.”
Tara’s voice was a whisper in the air, before her lids closed and she too succumbed to sleep.
Neither girl was sure what the next day, week, month or year had in store for her. But as long as they had each other by their sides, they figured it really didn’t matter.