by Anakin1218 » Tue Mar 19, 2002 12:29 am
Im still in amazment that my gf fell for me,we started out as ol friends and the romance sort of grew all by itself We're planing our comitment ceramony next Spring
((hugs)) La,you'll find someone special soon,till than may I respectfully sugest a pet to warm your heart(dog,fish,cat,etc).
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"My heart doesn't stutter" -Tara
by Genea » Tue Mar 19, 2002 12:43 am
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Sugarloaf
Well, dip me in chocolate and throw me to the lesbians!!
by La » Tue Mar 19, 2002 1:22 am
Maybe next year I will get a pet. I'll have my own apartment (I live with a homestay in Korea), and while dogs are the favored pet in Korea, I'm sure I could find myself a cute loveable kitty to take care of!
Keep the cute "I love you" stories coming!
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~La
"No good sittin' worryin' abou' it. What's comin' will
come, an' we'll meet it when it does."
~Hagrid, from "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire".
by Wolfie » Tue Mar 19, 2002 2:08 am
Sharon was - is - the first, and only, person I have decared my love to. We met at 6th form college, which, for all you non-UK darlings, is generally for ages 16-18, although there are lots of older people too. Kinda the stepping stone to uni, often.
Anyhoo, we became friends, and she guided me as I performed the dying swan through various missfired stabs at relationships, all the while getting closer and closer ... But she had a boyfriend - a chap, who was, surely, everything a bf should be: tall, clean-cut, manly, whereas I (when at 17 or so; okay, not so different, now - except the hair is shorter, and I have to work on keeping the tummy at bay), had long hair, very ripped jeans, battered car, and most decidedly non-hunky; why would she prefer me? Well, she did, and, stupid twit I was (am), I failed to see the signs for ages, despite the fact that everyone else could, and told me, REPEATEDLY. Then, after breaking up with her bf (long on the cards, and of course, I held her hand through all of it ), we went to stay at my cousins in Reading - went to London, held hands all day, and in the evening, I eventually plucked up courage to kiss her. I actually said the words "I've been meaning to do this for a long time".
As for the timing of saying "I love you", for the first time to her, I'm not sure. I know I gushed all manner of things, couldn't bear to be apart from her - I still can't - but the next few days, when I know I would have said it, just melted into one, and the details just swim out of this delicious haze, without any kind of sequence, or knowing what we did, exactly when. (I think Sharon said it to me first - I know I was terrified to, even though every fibre of my being was screaming out to, because I was so scared of being rejected - I had doubts as to why she would want to be with me - surely she would change her mind? Thankfully, she didn't). It doesn't matter. I said formally I love you, to her when I proposed six months later. We then went to uni, stayed together, despite living at opposite ends of the country, and have been together ever since. I tell her I love her every day, and she makes me feel ... Complete.
Well, I have adored reading your stories, and now I am going to float through Tuesday, on a bed of warm, fuzzy ether, grinning stupidly as I go. Thankyou.
Luke.
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I am the sunlight on the sides of houses.
by wiccie » Tue Mar 19, 2002 3:14 am
Well, lots of unrequited love as a teen ( and the Band Camp I went to was nothing like the films - Sheesh!), but I didn't say it 'til college and the first GF . Actually, she didn't "get" that we were dating, and I didn't get it that she didn't get it until a few weeks into the relationship when I said "Wi Wuv Woo". Then we both got it.
She was only seeing me to make her ex jealous enough to get back together (and it worked). No, don't even attempt logic on that one - you'll hurt yourself.
Said "ILY" lots of times since then, but I got my soulmate now and it's allllll gooood. Sarah's the only one to hear that phrase from me.
by one-in-ten » Tue Mar 19, 2002 7:06 am
My story is a bit more convoluted I think. The first time I actually said "I love you" was to my first "real" girlfriend in University. It was this girl who annoyed the sh*t out of me during frosh week and then we got to know each other. Eventually we hung out all of the time and when I realized I wanted to spend Valentine's Day with her only I figured something was up. We went out for 3 years before I ran away. The convoluted part I think is that I was actually "in" love way before that. I was interested in a girl in my last year of high school and actually (in hindsight) wooed her (yes wooed) with flowers and presents and the whole bit. I didn't realize I was gay then (how blind am I) and put it down to "friendly" feelings. I realize now that she was my first love ever and I just didn't have the courage to admit it to myself. We had kept close for years and I still carried a huge mother torch for her. She was straight what was I supposed to do? Finally I came out to her and told her I loved her too. (I guess that's the second time). We had a major conversation, stuff happened, we never got together and now she doesn't talk to me at all. My heart still kinda aches for her. I contemplated running away again but decided not to.
After all of that I met my current partner and waited for her to say "I love you" first. She's an amazing person and though we're opposite we work things out. Now we say it to each other all of the time and it never looses it's meaning. I guess I've finally learned something!
Yes I'll pass out barf bags shortly...
kathy
by alexis_18 » Mon Mar 25, 2002 7:57 pm
it's amazing how three simple words can become the most terrifying yet significant things you'll be able to say in your life... *sigh*
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by alexis_18 » Wed Mar 27, 2002 9:53 pm
i remember that day, when i gave my heart away and that person never really knew. it was raining, and the sun was just sinking deep into the horizon. i could still draw pictures of the red skies from memory. jamie and i were still in school, though classes were long over. she asked me to accompany her even for just a short while. i couldn't refuse of course, she was after all, my "everything".
jamie didn't know i was gay, and there really weren't any signs of me being gay so, no one really had any idea that i was truly in love with her.
anyway, we went up the 4th floor and there we were, seated in the stairs adjacent to a small window. she was tracing the drops sliding in the glass with her fingers while i was just glued to my seat, looking alternately at her and the crimson sky as it slowly turned to dark gray. i knew she was sad by that moment. she was hopelessly in love with a boy and she tells me everything about it, which makes me both sad and happy at the same time. sad, knowing that i could never be with her. happy, that she trusts me, and somehow, there was comfort in that.
she was crying, and she asked me what to do... what to do when the person you love cannot love you back. i found it really ironic. but somehow, i managed to look straight into her eyes for a few moments, take a deep breath, and find the courage to say the words... i told her that love doesn't guarantee anything for you in return. when you love, you give yourself *and* more. i told her that love has the strength of a thousand rivers' currents running wild all at the same time towards the same direction, flooding your heart-- that's why you won't be able to contain it. you just let it flow, no matter how much it hurts. you have to let love flow and pray that someday, the current will not be as wild as it was in the beginning so that you can at least be able to bear it. i also told her that even if the flow may decrease its rate, it never dries up. it leaves a mark, a space in your heart which no one else could fill in. i told her that she should let go... and just hope that everything will be fine, and the pain will subside. and when that happens, she should not forget she has fallen in love, because it is a gift, returned or not. it is the truest feeling in the world.
after i finished, i realized that i was staring at my trembling hands and found my own eyes welling up with tears... and she was looking outside. it must have been my lucky day because at least, she didn't caught me offguard almost crying for her. everything was already dark then, the sun has finally set and we were getting cold. my mind and my heart betrayed me when i told her we'd better go, and she agreed. but before that, she held my hand and whispered an almost-inaudible "thanks". i wanted to tell her not to thank me, for she taught me all of what i knew about love just by allowing me to be with her, but all i could manage right that moment was a faint smile, hoping that somehow i eased her pain, by trying to ease mine.
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sorry if this post was too long... i suddenly drifted back to memory lane, and i can't help but type all the events of that day which is embedded ever so carefully in my mind. jamie and i don't see nor even have the chance talk to each other anymore as we have gone off to college. but as young as i was then, i acknowledge that what i felt for her was love, the purest of its kind. and i still smile whenever i think about her, but now, my love for her has changed somehow, i can't describe it. jamie and the boy are going steady for 2 years now, and i guess what i told her doesn't apply anymore, really, but i am happy for her, she became my world for a long time and i will never ever forget that.
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"Knowing I was a lesbian transformed the way I saw, heard, perceived the whole world." -pat califa
by Web Warlock » Wed Mar 27, 2002 10:02 pm
I have said "I love you" to my wife a few thousand times since the first one. And each one is as good as the first and the last.
For those of you out there who have not found your person to say it to yet I am convinced you will.
Natalie came to me when I thought love was as about as far away as the moon. But like the moon, she was always there. I just had to open my own stupid eyes!
I have been hurt by love too, but I can honestly say the hurt is worth it when you finally find your true love.
She is my soul-mate, I know this as much as I know anything. For her, I would have gone through even more pain. Funny how the girl who put through all that pain was the same girl who had introduced me to Natalie in the first place!
Warlock.
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