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Great story

Postby anon » Mon Apr 15, 2002 9:26 pm

Jessan -

I have been enjoying your story. I finally had some time to catch up with your story. (Of course I should have been finnishing my work for tomorrow but oh well.) I am so glad that I caught up with your story. The arguement between Willow and Tara was intense and powerful. Great work. Thank you for sharing and I look forward to your next update.

anon
 


Re: Class Ring!

Postby tommo » Mon Apr 15, 2002 9:57 pm

Nice update; I'm really enjoying this. You seem to have the humorous banter between the characters down really well, and that makes the reading so much more enhanced.



And I know what you mean about Spike. No offence meant, honestly. I'm just odd like that. :)


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No metaphors...just fucking.

tommo
 


Re:

Postby mollyig » Tue Apr 16, 2002 2:32 am

Poor Dawn getting the blame. Ah well, she's a teenager, the more ammunition she has for using the phrase "its' not fair", the happier she'll be.



Looking forward to meeting the God of Love. Wonder if he'll say anything about the other pairings - B/L & X/A, and if he'll do anything about poor ould Gilesy!

I could paint you in the dark, 'cause I've studied you with hunger as a work of art - Collecting you (Indigo Girls)

mollyig
 


Re:

Postby AutumnT » Tue Apr 16, 2002 2:36 am

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I'm just odd like that
Me too. I'm enjoying the story, but fighting against my inner Spike is so very bad for Buffy demon all the way.

Autumn

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Buffy: I could wrestle naked in grease for a living and still be cleaner than after a shift at the Doublemeat.

Willow: Plus, I'd visit you at work every single day. --- "Normal Again" shooting script

AutumnT
 


Re:

Postby chronic » Tue Apr 16, 2002 6:54 am

Really enjoying this, Buffy really is the queen of lame excuses!



I have a really stupid question. What's a class ring? I know its not relevent, I've just never heard the term before.







Autumn, I love your sig. Do you know why it was dropped from the episode? I assume the powers that be decided the viewing public couldn't handle it. Whats really annoying is they wouldn't have a problem if Xander or Spike made that comment. Grr

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All around me darkness gathers,
Fading is the sun that shone;
We must speak of other matters:
You can be me when I'm gone…

chronic
 


Re:

Postby AutumnT » Tue Apr 16, 2002 11:28 am

I have no idea why it was dropped. Could have been for time or something else.



And a class ring is a ring that you buy in high school or college with your school colors and graduation year. They are popular over here. See www.artcarved.com/ for examples.

Autumn

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Buffy: I could wrestle naked in grease for a living and still be cleaner than after a shift at the Doublemeat.

Willow: Plus, I'd visit you at work every single day. --- "Normal Again" shooting script

AutumnT
 


Re:

Postby Grimaldi » Tue Apr 16, 2002 11:37 am

part b was really funny. Buffy should stick to being the slayer, since she just can't seem to be very sneaky (even though she manged to accomplish her misson).



a group spell between Buffy, Xander, Anya and Giles? hmm...okay just went to a weird visual place, i know that is not what you meant :)

"All these people are completely fucked. Metaphorically speaking, that is."



"Well I geuss we'll have to roshambo for it"



"Okay that's it, both of you go to your rooms and spank yourselves"

Grimaldi
 


coool

Postby hellmouthhottie20 » Tue Apr 16, 2002 12:42 pm

iam really enjoying this. I love the way you are portraying anya. I can hear her saying the words as i read them.

Spike = Liam, still getting used to that name lol.

Very good all round. Cant wait for the next update.

one by on the penguins stole my sanity

hellmouthhottie20
 


Re: coool

Postby Lonewolf22 » Tue Apr 16, 2002 1:21 pm

Jessan15: Very cool update, I really liked the Buffy and Willow interaction, and how Willow was after she got back the Doll's Eye Crystal. I can't wait to read more.



Lonewolf

Lonewolf22
 


Comments and Preview....

Postby jessan15 » Tue Apr 16, 2002 7:51 pm

Hi all...work sucks...I can tell you that much...did some writing...still waiting to see if WW is going to help me out, so I should know for sure tomorrow if I am posting or if you have to wait until Thursday.



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Blue77 - Go pick your arse up...you'll need it later. As for the insults...I thought of the same scene when I wrote it. :)



SquishyTrishy - Love is a good thing...either tomorrow or Thursday...more than likely tomorrow...



Drakkenfyre - Such enthusism. * In Best Elvis Voice* Thank you...Thank you very much.



Jae - Missed the point...Spike lied to Tara and said he was looking for something to SHOW Willow. Not take for alterior motive. Thus the reason he said he was going to hell.



LeatherQueen - Yes, Crystal Cleaners...I think I'll have to start using that one in my daily life as well. Maybe that will be my new code for 'reading fanfic'. They're doing a spell alright...LOL



VampNo12 - Buffy and her keen fashion sense, or lack thereof ends up being effective...go figure. And you have a shoe fetish...kinky. Oh I decided the shopping exucrsion will have to be documented for posterity...and as for how to make it up to Dawn...I'm still thinking about that one.



anon - Work? Perish the thought.



tommo - No offense taken. If it's any consolation, Anteros will be threatening Liam's life...



mollyig - How ever will I make this up to poor Dawn...hmm, maybe a trip to the Bronze...and Dawn will never say those words in my fic...I don't write her as whiney as she is portrayed on tv...Oh, Anteros has something to say about EVERYTHING. Believe me.



AutumnT - And who would you like to see Buffy with? Say Faith...say Faith!



chronic - Wow, sorry, I thought that was one of those high school tradition things like cap and gown...guess not. Thanks Autumn for the explanation.



Grimaldi - weird visual place? Wait until we add the God of Love to the mix.



hellmouthhottie20 - Anya's the bomb baby...wait till next time...she gets to shine.



Lonewolf22 - Apparently Willow's pretty darn attached to that crystal. Go figure.



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A few preview lines from the next update from the God of Love.



"Do you have any idea how much its going to hurt me to have to banish them to karma hell? I’ve so enjoyed the view on so many occasions.”



“My, the witch wormed her way into your non-beating heart, did she?”



“I always told you the grass was greener on the other side of the fence. You always were too involved with your work to listen. Typical woman.”



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I am just having way too much fun with this...despite when the update comes...I can tell you that my typical updates flux between 3-5 pages...the next one is a good 10 pages long. So think positive...then its back to our favorite duo...



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Love Will Find a Way

Edited by: jessan15  at: 4/16/02 6:56:06 pm
jessan15
 


Re: Comments and Preview....

Postby tommo » Tue Apr 16, 2002 10:53 pm

Spike's life is threatened? I suppose that would be interesting; although I have to say, I'm more concerned about our two girls right now.


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No metaphors...just fucking.

tommo
 


Re: Comments and Preview....

Postby AutumnT » Tue Apr 16, 2002 10:54 pm

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AutumnT - And who would you like to see Buffy with? Say Faith...say Faith!
Well Faith would certainly be better than Spike any day in my book. But I also believe it would be good for Buffy to spend some time not hooked on the arm of someone else and still happy.

Autumn

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Buffy: I could wrestle naked in grease for a living and still be cleaner than after a shift at the Doublemeat.

Willow: Plus, I'd visit you at work every single day. --- "Normal Again" shooting script

AutumnT
 


UPDATE

Postby jessan15 » Wed Apr 17, 2002 3:09 pm

Ok, changed my mind...I really wanted this things all posted together...so, here is the COMPLETE part 35, which includes the introduction of The God of Love.



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Title: Lost & Found - Part 35

Author: Jessan

Question: Still reading?

Feedback: Yes, bring it on...I can take it. Sniff. LOL

Summary: Bring on the Loveman....

Spoiler Warning: Up to and including "Wrecked" in Season 6.

Disclaimer: They do not belong to me...no copyright infringement intended. Joss is my God. All hail the glorious one. (It just called out to me.)

Rating: PG-13 (Swearing)

Notes: The Summoning ritual...I faked it...no offense intended...I am so sorry...forgive me...thousand times over.



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“She’s been gone too long.” Anya stated as she walked over to where Giles was sitting. She pointed at the clock. “She’s been gone for nearly two hours.” she said biting a nail. “She screwed up. I just know it.” she said shaking her head.



Giles removed his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose. Ever since she had spoken to Xander, Anya had been pacing and watching the clock. “Anya. You need to relax. I’m sure Buffy has everything under control.”



“But Xander…” Anya began.



Giles put a hand up to stop Anya‘s diatribe before it started. “Yes, I know what Xander said, especially considering how you've reminded me every ten minutes since you got off the phone with him.” he dropped his hand to his lap and sighed. “Don’t you have anything to do?” he asked.



“I already checked on everything in the back five times.” she said looking at the door to the training room. “Everything you needed was on the list you gave me, right?” she asked, wanting to make sure that they were ready as soon as Buffy returned with the remaining spell items.



“Yes, everything was on the list.” he reassured her. “And I was referring to something a little more work related.” he said clarifying his previous statement.



Anya threw her arms in the air in annoyance. “How can I think of work when the fate of my best friend is in jeopardy?!” she said as she returned to her pacing.



Giles sighed and returned to his reading.



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Ten minutes later, Anya was still busy pacing back and forth when Xander walked in.



Anya had her back to the door when she heard the bell ring. Thinking it was Buffy, she started to rush towards the door, then stopped dead. “You’re not Buffy.” she stated with a disappointed frown.



Xander flashed her a sarcastic smirk. “It’s nice to see you too, hon.” he said as he walked over and set two bags of food down on the table. “I brought lunch.” he said, pointing to the bags. “Sandwiches from the Deli on the corner.” he said pulling them out and setting them on the table. “G-man? Turkey and Swiss on a Kiser roll, right?” Giles nodded and Xander tossed the sandwich to the watcher.



Anya shook her head and continued pacing once again. “I’m too nervous, I can’t eat.” she said as she stopped to regard her fiancé. “Don’t you realize how dangerous this is?”



“Tuna fish on rye?” he questioned holding up his lunch.



Anya made a disgusted face. “Well, that too.” she said pointing to the sandwich. “Aren’t you worried about what might happen to Willow and Tara?” she said, placing her hands on her hips and glaring at him as he took a big bite of his food.



“Wot’s dere to orry about?” he said with a full mouth He swallowed, then continued. “They love each other so much it’s ridiculous. They’ll get back together.” he said as if he was positive he was conveying a simple fact.



The sun shines. Rain falls from the sky. Humans need air to breath. Will & Tara were made for each other. The facts of life. Plain and simple.



Xander‘s confidence was only slightly encouraging to the worried ex-demon. “But within the next four days?” she asked, finally sitting down at the table.



Xander swallowed another bite. “Have we considered telling them what might happen if they don’t?” he asked.



Anya crossed her arms on the table and leaned forward on them. “Ok, let’s think about that one. Tell the witches have sex or die. Yep, sounds like a reasonable plan to me.” she said sarcastically.



Xander nodded. “Okay, maybe not so much. But what is this God of Love going to do?” he wondered.



“Talk to the man with the plan over there.” she said pointing to Giles, who was sitting on the couch against the back wall eating and reading attentively.



Xander twisted in his seat to look at the watcher. “Hey, watcher man, so what’s the game plan? Or is this one of those need to know basis and I just don‘t need to know?” the carpenter questioned.



Giles finishing his sandwich and balled up the wrapper into a ball. “No, of course not. I’m going to petition Anteros to grant them passage thru each other’s memories.” he said, standing up and approaching the table.



“And this is going to help them how?” Xander asked as he watched Giles take a seat next to him at the research table.



Giles pondered Xander‘s question briefly, trying to determine the best way to explain his intentions. “Willow and Tara’s biggest problem is communication without comprehension.”



Xander stared dumbfounded at the watcher. “Come again.”



Anya jumped into the conversation. “THAT!” she shouted, pointing at Xander. “What you just did. You hear, but you don’t listen.”



Xander considered Anya‘s words then looked back at the watcher. “Oh, so sensitive chats go in one ear and out the other?”



“More or less.” Giles wasn’t about to try and top Anya’s explanation. She had a peculiar way of making Xander understand things. ‘If only Tara and Willow had that capacity.’ he noted.



Anya slapped him in the arm. “So you’re saying you ignore me when we talk?” she said in an infuriated tone.



Xander smiled sweetly at his fiancé. “No, sweetie. I was just grasping things in Xander terms.” he took her hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. He saw the immediate relief in Anya’s face.



Giles nodded his head in agreement. He decided it would be better to talk in Xander terms, rather than using Anya as an interpreter. “Which is precisely what I want the girls to do. Understand what the other experienced on their own terms.”



Xander thought he understood what the watcher was saying, but went for the clarification anyway. “Such as?”



Giles sighed as the most obvious examples that came to mind was also the most painful for the girls. “Willow will never be able to understand what it was like for Tara to face down Glory and the aftermath of said confrontation. Likewise, Tara will never be able to truly understand Willow’s motivations for going to Rack.” he answered.



“Is that the only thing that’s keeping them apart?” Xander questioned.



Anya started counting off on her fingers. “Willow’s self-esteem, Tara’s insecurities, Willow’s past, Tara’s family, magic and each one’s motivation for it.” she rattled off without thinking.



“You’ve thought about this a lot?” he said surprised at his fiancé’s insightfulness in the witch’s relationship.



Anya shook her head. “No, I’ve talked to Tara. She is the kindest person on the planet, but she can twist anything out of whack.” she explained. “Especially when it involves Willow.” she added.



“So we’re just waiting for Buffy?” Xander asked as the bell to the front door jingled.



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“You rang?” the slayer asked holding open the front door. Spike immediately ran inside covered under a blanket.



Spike threw off the blanket and patted out the small flame on his right hand. “There’s got to be an easy way to get around in the daytime.” he mumbled.



Anya stared at Buffy anxiously. “Did you get everything?” she asked impatiently.



Buffy walked down to the research table. “After some close calls, yeah we did.” she gestured over her shoulder with her thumb at Spike. “Mr. Intelligent here tried to take The Doll’s Eye Crystal.” she said rolling her eyes.



Anya‘s eyes widened, then narrowed quickly. “What are you stupid or something?” she scoffed.



Spike walked over to the counter and jumped up on it. “I didn’t know! Why the bloody hell is everyone assuming I should know about some goofy rock?”



“Don’t you ever let Tara or Willow hear you call it that.” Anya warned



“Right.” the vampire said flippantly, adding an eye roll for good measure.



Anya didn‘t want to wait any longer. “So, let’s see the merchandise.” Anya demanded.



“Impatient dames.” Spike chided as he jumped off the counter, walked over to the table, and emptied the booty from his pockets.



Anya picked up the plastic bags and examined their content. “One hair apiece? Giles, no room for error, unless you want to send Bonnie and Clyde back for more.” she said gesturing at the two thieves.



Giles sighed and looked at the bottle sitting on the table. “Why the bottle of perfume?” Giles asked.



Spike picked up the ring. “Well, Tara gave this ring to Willow. So I wasn’t sure if that would make it a 50/50 item or not. I know the perfume is Tara’s for sure.” Spike shrugged. “I figured you would want things that meant something special.” he tossed a look to Buffy. “Which is why I thought the rock would be good.” he said, still trying to justify his error in judgment.



"Reason all you want, you're still going shopping with me." the slayer warned.



"Bugger." Spike swore.



Giles took the ring from Spike and examined it. “Well, considering the ring has Tara’s name on it, I think we’ll use that.”



“Where’s the picture of us?” Buffy asked.



“All this time…“ Anya muttered as she rushed into the office and returned with an 8x10 of all eight of them. “One family portrait.” she said, setting the photograph on the center of the table.



It was taken shortly after Giles had opened the Magic Box. Giles sat on a bench with Buffy and Dawn on each side of him. Willow and Tara were standing sideways facing each other, hugging, behind Dawn. Xander was holding Anya from behind with his chin on her shoulder, behind Buffy. And off in the corner of the picture, further back, Spike was standing with his hands in his pockets looking smug. When the picture was originally taken, no one had realized he was in it until it had been developed. At the time, everyone had agreed it was too nice a picture to discard because Spike was in it. Now Buffy was happy they hadn’t.



“So, this is everything, right?” Buffy asked.



Anya nodded happily. It was finally time to get pro-active in the great Willow/Tara debacle. “Yes, I have everything else we need prepared in the training room.” She looked towards the front door. “Oh yeah, one more thing.” she said and hurried to lock the front door. “No interruptions.” she said looking at her future husband.



Xander stared at his bride-to-be. It was extremely unlike Anya to close the shop for any reason. Yet today, she did so without complaint. “You never cease to amaze me An.” he said, as she rejoined him standing by the research table.



“Why do you say that?” Anya said with a raised eyebrow as they followed the others towards the training room.



He took her hand in his. “Every time I think I know what to expect from you, you turn around and do something completely different.” he said giving her a kiss on the cheek.



Anya was confused by his statement. “What were you expecting?” she asked.



Xander smiled. “You to complain about closing the shop.”



Anya tipped her head to one side and rubbed her chin with her free hand. “Gee, lose an hour’s worth of money or my best friend forever?” she looked back at Xander. “Sounds like a no brainer to me.”



“Yeah, I guess it is.” he said, squeezing her hand. “Come on. You can introduce me to the God of Love.” he said ushering her thru the door to the training room.



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The spell was relatively simple. A circle had been drawn in the center of the room. Inside the circle was a pot already containing many different herbs. Four candles were just outside the circle, representing the four corners.



Giles then instructed each of the scoobies to stand behind one of the candles. Once they were in place, Giles entered the circle with the various items they had gathered. He struck a match and lit the candles in a clockwise pattern starting with Buffy‘s, then Spike‘s, then Anya‘s, then Xander‘s. Giles was pleased with the way the symmetry worked out, having two couples surrounding the circle.



Giles placed the ring to the right of the bowl, the group picture above the bowl, and the necklace to its left. Lastly, he added the hairs to the herbs in the bowl and then dropped a lit matchstick into the bowl.



“Anteros, Almighty God of Love . We, your humble servants of Love beseech an audience with you on behalf of your chosen ones, Willow and Tara. Please come forth.” he chanted.



There was very little fanfare to the arrival of Anteros. A flash of light, and there he was. The God of Love was hardly what anyone expected. He was of average height and average build. He had short jet black hair, neatly styled. He had a deep tan that accented his soft brown eyes perfectly. He was wearing tight leather pants, that showed off his assets. His shirt was old fashioned with billowy sleeves and a tie collar that was unfastened half way down his chest.



Once Anteros had appeared, the gang had shuffled into a line, standing behind Giles.



Anteros looked around the room he had just been summoned to. “Oh sweet heavens. Who does your decorating?” he asked Giles with a high pitched voice. Then he had up his hands, as if stopping Giles from responding. “Oh wait, let me guess. An ex-karate instructor that now teaches gym at the local high school.” he said, shaking his finger with each word. “Am I right?” he asked with the excitement of a child.



“You’ve got to be kidding me.” Spike snorted, eyeing up the man standing in front of him.



Anteros put his hands on his hips and challenged the vampire. “Like you’ve got room to talk dead boy. Would you like to be introduced to my little ray of sunshine?” he asked, gesturing towards the window, causing a thick ray of sunshine to come beaming in, stopping at the God‘s feet.. “I‘ll bet I can fit you into a coffee cup by the time I‘m done.” he said with an amused smile.



Spike took a half step backwards. “Shutting up now.” he promised, justifiably frightened.



Anteros waved his hand and the ray disappeared. “Wise little thing aren’t you?” he said taking a good look at the vampire and giggling. “Oh Me! You’re in love with the slayer! How adorable!” he said pointing between Buffy and Spike.



Buffy was surprised that the God of Love was familiar with her. “You know who I am?” she questioned.



“It’s the aura babe.” he said making an hour glass figure in the air with his hands. “Just screams slayer.” he said tossing his hands in the air flamboyantly.



‘Something else screams.’ Spike thought, then quickly prayed the God didn’t read minds.



He pointed down at Buffy‘s feet. “And the shoes? Tres chic, cher.” he said, gesturing the ok sigh at her with a wink.



Buffy half turned and elbowed Spike in the ribs. “And you called them impractical.” she pouted.



Anteros eyed the slayer and vampire. It was so obvious that they were in love. “And people always want stories of how to overcome obstacles in the name of love. I simply must remember this example.” he said as he started walking around the circle so he could get a good look at the other two people hiding behind the summoner.



As soon as he got a good look, he immediately recognized the ex-demon. “ANYANKA! Oh Me. It’s been like, forever!” he said, walking over and grabbing her hands. “How have you been girl? Cursed anyone lately?” he asked with a devilish grin.



Anya shook her head no. “Actually, it’s just plain Anya now. I kinda lost my powers. Been doing the mortal thing.” she explained.



Anteros looked Anya up and down as if trying to decide if this was a change for the better or not. At last, he broke into a huge grin “Looks like its working pretty good for you.“ he said glancing over at Xander. “I always told you the grass was greener on the other side of the fence. You always were too involved with your work to listen.” he turned to look at Xander as if sharing a private joke. “Typical woman.” he said dryly.



“Really Anteros!” she huffed and swatted at him.



The God of Love took a step back and giggled. “Oh come on now. You know I am only teasing you.” he said, then gave her a knowing look “You’ve got that glow Anya.” he said. “Show me the rock.” he demanded, holding out his hand. Anya place her hand in his, allowing him to scrutinize her engagement ring. “Not bad. Family heirloom?” he said looking over at Xander.



Xander was quite unsure of how to act around Anteros. He decided to go with frightened and respectful. “Um, no sir. It was all I could afford at the time.” he answered with a shrug of his shoulders.



Anteros held his hand up in mock offense. “Sir? Do I look like some old fart to you? Anteros is quite fine with me.” he said, trying to calm the boy down. He looked nervous enough to piss in his pants. “Well, when you get the wedding ring, stop and see the doll on 4th street. She does specialty work that is to die for.” he said closing his eyes, then realizing what he said. “Not literally of course. Totally non-mystical type place. Just great ” he restated.



Giles cleared his throat. “Anteros, I beg your pardon, but if I may interrupt a moment?” he asked.



“You‘ll do great kids.” he told the young couple. “My summoner beckons.” he added as he turned to look at Giles. He suddenly held his finger up, remembering something. “Oh, I have a Four-One-One for you. There’s this really hot gypsy chick that can’t wait to see you. Promised I pass along the message. But she said take your time, she’ll wait as long as it takes.” he said, waggling his eyebrows.



Giles was obviously not expecting any old flame references. He was understandably stupefied. “Ah well, um, yes. Thank you.” he stammered.



Anteros slid up next to Giles and elbowed his side, suggestively. “Always were a sucker for the fine J.C., weren’t you? She was definitely a woman of many, shall we say, attributes.” he said, raising his eyebrows.



Giles blushed deeply. He had difficulties talking about love with the people he considered his children, chatting about the female form with the God of Love was unthinkable. “Um, well, ah. I suppose you could put it like that.” he answered nervously.



Anteros put his arm around Giles shoulder and pulled his ear closer. “Oh, and Olivia? Not the one for you. Keep on looking and pay attention to the one named Rebecca. Trust me. You won‘t regret it.” he said, pursing his lips together and nodding.



At this point, Giles didn‘t know which end was up. “Uh, I’ll do that.” he answered, his typical eloquence completely lost.



“I don’t think I have ever seen Giles at such a loss for words.” Buffy whispered to Xander.



Xander chuckled devilishly. “I know. It’s kinda fun to watch.” he noted.



“Ok, so what’s the what?” he asked as he turned to face Giles. “I heard the call, something about my favorite lesbian witchy duo?” Anteros took in the surprised looks all around him. “Do I even want to know what they did this time?” he sighed.



Giles finally calmed enough to speak meaningfully. “Yes. Willow and Tara. Well, they are having some problems…” he began.



Anteros shrugged his shoulders. “So what else is new? Do you have any idea how much its going to hurt me to have to banish them to karma hell?” he said shaking his head in disgust. “I’ve so enjoyed the view on many different occasions. Two words...Floating Sex.” he said looking over at Spike and Xander. He figured they would appeciate the visual better than the old fuddy duddy in front of him.



“Derailed.” he said as he snapped his head back to Giles. “Ok, my girls, the deal?” he asked again.



“I would like to petition on their behalf.” he declared.



Anteros frowned. “So formal. Fine. Your basis for this petition sir?” he asked, with a slight hint of authority to his squeaky voice.



Giles lowered his head, slightly embarrassed. “I’m the closest thing either one of them have to an involved parent.” He thought that saying ‘They’re the daughters I always wanted‘, seemed a bit corny.



Anteros narrowed his gaze. “Could argue the point, but I get the idea. Tara sent hers packing, what a jerk. And Will’s folks, my Me, have you ever seen two people more stuck on themselves?” he said with an air of annoyance. He looked at Giles and smiled. “Notion granted. The girls are pretty sweet on you pops. And the rest of you?” he said waving to everyone behind Giles.



“We‘re family.” Buffy proudly declared.



“We love them dearly Anteros.” Anya quickly added.



Anteros looked over at the ex-demon with pride. “Anya? You’ve really made a go of this humanity thing, haven’t you? You go girl!” he shouted. “And they say once you go demon you never go back. Pish posh.” he flicked his hand back and forth in the air.



Anya beamed. “Thank you for the compliment.”



“Ever so welcome my dearest.” he responded sweetly. “Okay, surrounded by loved ones.” he said gesturing to all present. “You all want the girls to get with the lovin?” he looked at Spike. “Even you dead boy?” he asked, wanting to be sure.



“Yes.” Spike simply answered, still not looking at Anteros.



Anteros rolled his eyes. “Oh, relax already. I’m not nearly as butch as I pretend to be. I put those damn ceremonial robes on and I look like a girl.“ he said, then took a few shuffle steps wiggling his hips. “So back to the question, why do you care about what happens to the girls?” he asked in a more serious tone. Anteros was genuinely curious as to how his girls managed to win over the heart of a demon.



Spike finally looked Anteros in the eye. He would give the God of Love no reason to doubt his conviction about his next statement. “Tara’s very special to me. I want her to be happy. Willow makes her happy.“



Anteros smiled. “My, the blonde witch wormed her way into your non-beating heart, did she?” he said with knowing grin. “Get down with your bad self Blondie.” he commented to the sky.



“Yeah, she did.” he nodded. “She really did.”



Anteros closed his eyes and sighed. “There is no greater gift than one that is freely given dead boy. I’m glad you learned that lesson.”



Spike’s eyes bulged out at the God’s words. “How did you…?” he stammered.



“It‘s a God thing.” he proclaimed. “Ok, so the gang here is in support of pops. Alrighty, what’s the petition?” he asked, refocusing on Giles.



“I wish that you would allow them to experience each others memories.” Giles explained.



Anteros put his hands up. “Woah Nelly. Slow down there pops. That’s a tall order; like wanting a glass of milk and ordering the whole cow.” he said, shaking his head. “I’ve already tried the mind reading thing. Didn’t help them any, sad to say.” he explained shrugging his shoulders.



“Anteros?” Anya called.



Anteros flashed her a look of utter affection. “Yes, my dear sweet Anya?” he cooed.



Anya momentarily turned to Xander. “How come you never call me loving names like that?” she demanded.



Xander looked wounded. “Cute little sex monster doesn’t count?” he responded.



Anteros covered his eyes and shook his head. “Oh lover boy, do yourself a big favor. Take a few dollars next payday and buy yourself a clue.” he said and turned his head to the side “And I thought virgins were bad.” he commented. “Anyway.” he coughed, recalling Anya’s attention from the lover’s lack of affectionate nicknames.



“Would you consider a empathic dream walk where each girl visits the other’s most bothersome moments?” she asked.



Anteros held a hand up to his chin and stared at the ceiling. “Hmmm, interesting. Now that I could do.” Anteros looks around. “Alright. Let’s do some wheeling and dealing. We need to be all cryptic and stuff. I’m not sure why, but that’s how this works.” he saw the confused looks. “ Just go with it.” he assured them. “I’ll listen to one word suggestions from each of you for a memory to allow each of them to experience.” he turned to Anya since it was her idea. “Anya, you can step on the hot seat first.”



Anya only found the need to say one name. “Glory.”



Anteros sighed. Glory was a sore subject with him as well. “Ah yes, everyone’s favorite hell god. What a skank she was, not to mention fashion victim extraordinaire. I was about ready to bitch slap her ass into the next decade after she laid her hands on Tara.” he said menacingly as his tone dropped to its lowest register.



“Why didn’t you?” Spike asked. If Anteros had taken care of Glory when she laid her hands on Tara, then Buffy never would have…died.



Anteros shrugged as the tension left his body. “Gods against Gods just never works out well. It always ends in a draw and too many mortals and what not end up suffering a worse fate than if we hadn‘t gone at it in the first place.” he said, as if warning Spike not to think about what ifs. “Alright slayer, your suggestion?” he asked.



“Rack.” she spat out.



“Bitter much?“ he noted. “Again with the touching of my girls. Now him, I could have burned to a crisp, but I knew that Willow needed to learn a lesson first. Cause and effect sucks.” he declared “Oh, speaking of burning, oh not too tan one?” he said, turning to Spike.



“Self-image.” he said.



"Oh the irony." Anteros gave him a wry smile. “I could call you on that, but you would argue hyphenation. None-the-less, note hyphenation, a really good point. For some strange reason neither of them is big on that sort of thing. Me knows, I like what I see. Go figure.” he said shrugging his shoulders once again. “What do you say lover boy?” he said looking over at Xander.



Spike whispered into Buffy‘s ear. “I get called dead boy and he gets lover boy? How does that work?” he questioned.



“The ex-demon has connections, I don‘t. Get over it.” she whispered back.



After a few seconds, Xander spoke. “You know, I thought I would have an answer by now.”



Anteros stared at him stone face. ‘There’s always one.’ he thought.



“XANDER!” Anya shouted. “When a God asks you for one word, you give him one word. Not any more than one.” she said peeking out the corner of her eye to see if Anteros was pissed. Probably not. “Do you value your life?” she finished.



“Sorry?” he offered, once again looking like he was going to piss his pants.



Anteros lost his resolve and giggled. “Quite alright. Try again lover boy.” he urged.



Xander took a deep breath. “Spells.”



Anteros closed his eyes and frowned. “Ah, that covers the original break-up.” He opened his eyes and looked around the room. “Did you know that they are the first magical lesbian couple of this century? I just thought I’d throw that out there.” he added offhandedly.



The ex-demon elbowed Xander. “Now you can say more than one word.” Anya said.



Xander smiled. “Go creator of witchy goodness.” he said, thrusting his fist in the air.



Anteros waggled his index finger from side to side. “Ah no. I didn’t create. I only blessed. I’ll have to make sure that gets in there somewhere. Gotta stress the ‘all them’ factor.” he said. Finally he turned to face his summoner. “Alright pops. It’s over to you for the big finish. Make it good. What else do they need to feel?” he asked. He figured the old man would have the most intellectual angle of the bunch.



“Addiction.” he sighed.



Anteros winced. “Ouch sore subject. You really think that’s going to help get them back together?” he questioned. He really didn’t want to subject them both to the horror of addiction, but if that’s what the petitioner so chooses…



Giles nodded his head affirmatively. “They need to understand these things. Words have failed to suit them properly.” he reasoned. His eloquence clearly returning in full.



Anteros stood straight up and threw out his chin. “Spoken like a true Englishman dear sir.” he said.



Anteros looked around and decided that they were finished. “Ok kids. It’s been fun. It’s been real. But I’ve got a virgin on hold in Italy. She says she’s never having sex, ever! And she looks like you two. Absolutely gorgeous. No greater sin in my book.” he said letting out a wolf whistle and waggling his eyebrows at the girls.



“You guys got this cool family thing going on here. I pray to Me that I don’t have to break it up. Friday night, I’ll be back.” he warned. “For better or worse.” he added ominously. Then in a flash of light, he was gone.



“So that was the God of Love?” Buffy said, shaking her head. “Not what I was expecting.” she commented.



Simultaneously, Xander, Giles, and Spike all agreed with her. “Me either.”



“So, now what do we do?” Buffy asked.



Anya cringed. “The thing I hate most of all.” she said leaning against the wall. “We wait.”



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Wow...ok...so much time without the Girls...I guess we're going to be getting to that...NEXT...Let's see...I think we'll be going accoprding to the order they went...so next up...the Glory dreamwalks.



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Love Will Find a Way

Edited by: jessan15  at: 4/17/02 6:23:02 pm
jessan15
 


Re: UPDATE Part 1 of 2

Postby tommo » Wed Apr 17, 2002 6:31 pm

Lovely, jessan. I'm really enjoying this story; you have the group dynamic explored in a really engaging fashion.


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No metaphors...just fucking.

tommo
 


Re: UPDATE Part 1 of 2

Postby LeatherQueen » Wed Apr 17, 2002 8:00 pm

I am SO loving this. And the way they all work so well together despite their differences... they truly do mesh and make a wonderful family of choice. Which is often the best kind. :)



And btw, Anteros? :lol He was great!! Especially the comment about Buffy's shoes... heh.. tres chic!








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"Honey, I'm the original one-eyed chicklet in the kingdom of the blind." - Glory


"Futile... like a FOX, baby!" - Tara in The Late Shift by wiccachica

LeatherQueen
 


Re: UPDATE Part 1 or 2

Postby foreverpiper » Wed Apr 17, 2002 8:09 pm

Wow. I wasn't expecting the God of Love to be like that...but I really liked how he turned out. :) And I love the choices you picked for the 'memory' thing. Those were some excellent choices...heartwrenching for both of our girls, but I really think it'll help 'em get back together...at least...I hope so...



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Once you fall for Willow, you stay fallen.

foreverpiper
 


Re: UPDATE Part 1 or 2

Postby Wolflord » Wed Apr 17, 2002 8:46 pm

Whoo hoo update time. Lets see:

1. GREAT UPDATE

2. God of Love.....not what I was expecting. Reminded me of

Lorne from Angel.

3. Loved the Anya/Anteros interaction.

4. The choices the gang picked...good ones.

5. Can't wait til next one.



:bounce :bounce :bounce

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Sometimes I think of them doing spells and I have a spell by myself.

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Postby Halcyon » Wed Apr 17, 2002 9:43 pm

Love your God of Love and the entire premise, but Spike in a photo? what about that whole vampire thing?



Halcyon
 


Re: UPDATE Part 1 or 2

Postby VampNo12 » Thu Apr 18, 2002 12:50 am

Jessan loved this update! The God of Love what a hoot! I loved all his comments to the gang especially "I've so enjoyed the view on many different occasions. Two words...Floating Sex" (I would of loved to heard that with his squeaky voice). Also loved "Pish Posh".



I am greatly enjoying your portrayal of Anya. For someone so capitalistic minded she really grasps the notion of friends/family. Just for her to close the shop and be willing to lose income says alot about her character's priorities.



The spell was great, and the choices (for the dream-walks) Glory, Rack, self-image, spells, and addiction are very wise concepts for W&T to understand about each other. Maybe if they truly walk in the "other person's shoes" they will finally understand why certain situations occurred (ie. cause and effect), and be able to more forward in a new and improved relationship.



Looking forward to W&T experiencing the dream-walks, and how this will effect their relationship. Let's remember there is a dead-line in effect so hopefully W&T will get down to the sex soon. Can't wait for the next update!

VampNo12
 


AHhhh wow

Postby Little M » Thu Apr 18, 2002 1:41 am

That was great!!! I really loved the Anteros-character.......reminded me a bit of dear old Lorne (I've been watching Angel last night ;) )



You do know how to make people curious don't ya? With your cliffhangers and all that ;) I can't wait to read the next update :)



Mir

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'I go online sometimes, but everyone's spelling is really bad..it's depressing' - Tara

Little M
 


Re: AHhhh wow

Postby mollyig » Thu Apr 18, 2002 3:32 am

“So, now what do we do?” Buffy asked.



Anya cringed. “The thing I hate most of all.” she said leaning against the wall.

“We wait.”




And we wait too!



Lovely stuff.

I could paint you in the dark, 'cause I've studied you with hunger as a work of art - Collecting you (Indigo Girls)

mollyig
 


Update

Postby Drakkenfyre » Thu Apr 18, 2002 10:01 am

Damn, that was funny. I love the God of Love or is he the God of Fashion critics..So funny..can't wait for the next update...

"We few, we happy few."
"We band of buggered."

Drakkenfyre
 


Re: Update

Postby Grimaldi » Thu Apr 18, 2002 11:42 am

that update was so cool. :)

The God of Love rocks, he reminded me of Lorne and the Hercules alternate universe Ares, god of Love.

"That movie has warpped my fragile little mind"



"All day I dream about fuckin' "

Grimaldi
 


Re: Update

Postby bulldog tidnab » Thu Apr 18, 2002 11:05 pm

so i was going to go get something done and then i realized that this fic had been bumped to page 2. something had to be done as this is definetly a page 1 piece of work.



jessan, out of curiousity you dont happen to know a friend of mine do you. because the physical description of anteros and his personality is eerily familiar to me. *G*



now i really am gonna go. my work here is done.



BT

Willow: "Those darn Salem judges. With their less-satanic-than-thou attitude."


Tara: "Oh, honey, let's change it. The Discovery channel has koala bears."



Il est dit, elle me tient.

bulldog tidnab
 


Re: Update

Postby tommo » Thu Apr 18, 2002 11:23 pm

Ah jessan, that was lovely. Heh. I loved it. The God of Love being a campy flamer. Perfect.


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No metaphors...just fucking.

tommo
 


Re: Update

Postby Willowfan » Fri Apr 19, 2002 2:13 am

Jessen, I love this fic....absolutly love it. I just caught up and have to say it's great.

And the God of Love...he wouldn't be green with red horns, would he....he SO sounds like Lorne...I see i'm not the only one who picked up on that...I love it!

ok...now onto my FAV lines:



Xander couldn‘t resist. “Knowing is half the battle.”- You just know Xander loved G.I.Joe.



Giles stood up and stretched. “I do so hope that saying about breakfast being the most important meal of the day is purely speculation.” he muttered, but loud enough that Buffy’s hearing would pick up on the comment.- Giles shouldn't knock the Poptarts....oh no...don't knock the poptarts.



Dawn rolled her eyes. “Pop tarts or tea. There’s a tough decision first thing in the morning.” she said laying back down on the bed.-et tu, Dawnie?



“You’ve just been drafted to participate in a secret lesbian love mission.” Anya stated with pride. "Should you refuse, we'll be forced to kill you."- This is SO Anya...well done!



Giles looked over at Anya from the research table. ‘Surely Buffy was more like Xena than her sidekick Gabrielle.’ he debated mentally. “Dear lord.“ he whispered, closing his eyes. Realizing what thought he had just had, he mentally scolded himself. 'Bloody hell, I'm picking up Xander's viewing habits. What's next? Willow's penchant for prattling on endlessly? Oh that would certainly be a treat considering how long winded Buffy insists I already am. I mean what pointless topic could I ever indulge upon where I would just sit around and ramble on about aimlessly the way she does?' He stopped dead. He was babbling in his head. He slumped his shoulders forward. 'I give up.' he thought and returned to his researching.- I laughed long and hard and outloud at this...I absolutly loved it!!



The sun shines. Rain falls from the sky. Humans need air to breath. Will & Tara were made for each other. The facts of life. Plain and simple.- I think you hit the nail on the head with this one....absolutly right.



I can't wait for the next part....loving this.

Willowfan:)



That's right puppy....Willow's gonna make you bark."-The Wish

Willowfan
 


Life's getting hectic...

Postby jessan15 » Fri Apr 19, 2002 6:14 pm

You know...I had planned on having this wrapped up by the end of April and you know what? It sooo ain't happening...oh well...I do get one day off a week...I'm sure I'll find time somehow...teach me not to start writing until February...dumbass.



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LeatherQueen - Yeah, the group is so different, yet so alike. They're perfect. And it's always about the shoes.



foreverpiper - The GOL is very...different. Certianly his own person. Sadly, that's how I really act. The horror. And heartwrenching choices? You have no idea.



Wolflord - Lorne...see, I don't think of him as quite that flamey...just sensative, like Barry Manalow. As for Anya, yeah, not all her old pals are bad to invite to parties!



Halcyon - Um, wasn't really thinking about it. I remembered them taking his picture in Restless and went with it. Oh, and I know there's been pictures taken of Angel...

*shurgs*



VampNo12 - Anteros is one of the reasons I wanted to write this...I really liked Glory and the Mayor. I liked the happy badguy theory. That's what's good about Anteros, he's so likeable you overlook the fact that he's the one that's gonna....well, maybe...as for Anya, she has come far. Actually, there's already a kink in moving forward...Willow's being difficult. Imagine That!



Little M - Cliffhangers? Surely you jest?



mollyig - Patience is a virtue.



Drakkenfyre - God of Fashion critics? Maybe in my next fic.



Grimaldi - Hercules alternate universe Ares, god of Love...yep, that was one of the inspirations.



bulldog tidnab - You angel, thank you. page 1...what a compliment. :) I think everyone knows an Anteros...



tommo - Campy flamer? Nah...I was going for goofy bisexual actually....



Willowfan - little boys and GI JOE...hand and hand baby. Poptarts are the BOMB...especially the chocolate chip ones. Secret Lesbian Love Missions are always important. Babbling? Xena? Sidekick?



The sun shines. Rain falls from the sky. Humans need air to breath. Will & Tara were made for each other. The facts of life. Plain and simple. - I think I could make an avatar out of this...hmmmm....



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Ok, update...now how busy is my life...I have couple of hours in between jobs tomorrow...possible then...if not...then later tomorrow night. At the earliest 4PM...latest 11 PM EST...the point is...sometime tomorrow...



My favorite line from the next update so far...Anteros - "How Tara deals with the moodiness I’ll never know. Midol. Look into it.”



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Love Will Find a Way

jessan15
 


Secret Lesbian Love Missons RULE!

Postby Sweetjane » Sat Apr 20, 2002 4:39 pm

.........and they certainly do :)



why thankyou jessan , this Fic is so goddamn good :) - sorry that your life is so hectic - obviously you have not yet absolutely mastered the craft of avoidance of banal labour as i have .....ok ok some people call it being a lazy get , but hey............(puts on best voice) i refuse to be affected by peeps judgement.....





i'm gonna go laze in my own den of slack ;)



well you gotta have some principles...



Sweetjane

>"Say i'm weary , say i'm sad , Say that health and wealth have missed me ,
Say i'm growing old but add; Jenny kissed me"

Sweetjane
 


UPDATE

Postby jessan15 » Sat Apr 20, 2002 11:46 pm

Ok, so I'm late.....party after work I wasn't expecting...so I do apologize. So without further ado....



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Title: Lost & Found - Part 36a

Author: Jessan

Question: Still reading?

Feedback: Yes, bring it on...I can take it. Sniff. LOL

Summary: Dreams of Glory

Spoiler Warning: Up to and including "Wrecked" in Season 6.

Disclaimer: They do not belong to me...no copyright infringement intended. Joss is my God. All hail the glorious one. (It just called out to me.)

Rating: R (Heavy swearing)

Notes: Italics are Glory's words exactly from the episode "Tough Love"



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Willow looked around, confused. ‘Where am I?’ she wondered. There were concessions stands and various booths displaying various ethnic offerings. ‘The multicultural fair?’ “No.” she whispered.



She had had this dream many times after Glory had attacked Tara. She looked up and saw a man walking straight at her. Willow stepped out of the way and yelled over her shoulder. “You could at least say excuse me, ya jerko.”



“He can’t hear you babe. And he would’ve walked right through you anyway.” Standing next to the funnel cake stand was the God of Love. “Non-existence kinda works like that.” he said light-heartedly.



Willow looked the man up and down, unsure if she should be frightened or not. He didn’t look over-intimidating, but looks could be deceiving. She was almost positive she was still dreaming, but in the Scooby world, that wasn’t much of a guarantee for anything either. Willow took a small step backwards. “Who are you?” she asked cautiously.



Anteros rolled his eyes. “Ok, relax sweetheart. I’m not going to hurt you.” He considered his statement a moment. “Well, after its over, you may hate me for it, but it won’t do you any physical harm.”



Willow remained still. Absolutely unsure of what to do. ‘Why won’t he tell me who he is? Why am I here? Why is he here with me? Should I run? Would it do any good?’ Finally, she decided to try and get answers out of the stranger who apparently knew more about what was going on than she did. “I’ll try this one more time. WHO ARE YOU?” she insisted.



Anteros put his hands on his hips and sighed. “Aren’t we all demanding? Does Tara like it when you act like this?” he asked with a raised eyebrow.



That got Willow’s attention. Her eyes shot wide, not understanding how this complete stranger seemed to know so much about her.



Anteros sighed and took a few steps towards her. “I would have been the one responsible for that jolt you felt when you and Tara touched for the first time in the laundry room.” he explained.



Willow’s analytical mind starting putting the pieces of the puzzle together. ‘Knows about me and Tara. Knows how we met. Responsible for jolt. “Anteros.” she whispered.



Anteros clapped his hands together giddily. “Ooo, let’s go get you a teddy bear.” he said playfully. Noting her un-amused expression, he sighed. “Yes, One God of Love at your service, so to speak.”



Willow remained still, but skeptical. “Why are you here?” she inquired.



Anteros was no longer pleased with her attitude. He crossed his arms over his chest and glared at her. “Because you two are pissing me off and I made a deal to try my damnedest to help.” he yelled at the redhead.



“Deal with who?” she fired back in a tone that was equally annoyed.



Anteros dropped his arms and shook his head. “You are asking all the wrong questions.” he said.



Willow was now slightly curious. “What questions should I be asking?”



Anteros shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. Why am I here? Am I still dreaming? Is that my girlfriend sitting on that bench over there?” he said pointing at Tara sitting on the bench. ‘If that doesn’t get her going, nothing will.’ he thought.



Willow spun her head around and immediately found Tara sitting alone on the bench. “Tara.” she whispered. “I can save her.” she declared as she looked back at Anteros.



The God of Love shook his head sadly. “No, you can’t sweet cheeks. You aren’t here.” Anteros tipped his head, considering what he had just said. “Well, technically not.” he added.



Willow was getting flustered with the God. “Do you give a straight answer to anything?” she demanded.



Anteros got a huge grin on his face, then shook his head. “Way too easy. Too many comebacks to choose from.” as he looked off to the side.



Willow sighed. “I’ll take that as a no?” she said, letting her shoulders fall forward.



Anteros looked down at the ground and kicked a stone. “You want cut and dry? Fine.” he said, slightly devoid of his normal enthusiasm, then shaking his head. “How Tara deals with the moodiness I’ll never know. Midol. Look into it.” he commented plainly. “I have tried to be understanding and helpful trying to get you two back on the right track. Think of this as my final offer. This doesn’t work, well, this damn well better work.” he told the redhead, talking with his hands almost as much as with his mouth.



“Or what?” she challenged.



Anteros narrowed his eyes. “I’ll be going Anyanka on your ass.” he growled at her.



Willow seemed to cower away from the God. “Sorry I asked.” she mumbled.



Anteros‘ face and tone softened at her timid response. “Ok, so here’s how this works. You’re in Tara’s memory right now.” he explained.



“How is that possible?” she wanted to know.



Anteros smiled proudly. “Anything is possible.” he said with a wink. “So, as I was saying, You’re asleep and visiting Tara’s memories.” he said as they started walking towards the bench Tara was sitting on.



Willow reached out and grabbed his arm. “Why am I visiting this one?” she asked.



Anteros pulled his arm away and swatted playfully at her hand. “Intefruption girl, knock it off.” he squealed. “Obviously because there is something you don’t understand that is directly tied to this moment that is causing you problems in real life. Has Tara ever mentioned Glory to you?” he asked with a concerned tone.



Willow head dropped to the ground as she answered. “She doesn’t like to talk about it.” she admitted.



Anteros nodded. “Then maybe its time you find out why.” He pointed towards the bench. “Go over there.” he said.



Willow shook her head. “I can’t!” she whined.



Anteros turned his head. “You what!?” he demanded.



Willow rubbed her crossed arms. “I can’t violate her memories like this.” she explained.



Anteros threw his hands up in the air. “Ok, that’s it!” he grabbed her arms and spun her to face him. “I’m gonna bitch slap your ass in a minute. Now stop arguing with me. I am trying to help you!” he said, shaking an annoyed finger at her.



After a second, he closed his eyes and sighed. He didn’t plan on telling her this, but apparently it would be the only way for her to go threw with this. “Would it make you feel any better if I told you that Tara was doing the same thing?” he asked.



Willow was shocked. She never dreamt that Anteros was doing this to both of them. “What?”



Anteros nodded. “She’s going to understand what you went through after you found her and then went after Glory.”



Willow was terrified. She didn‘t want Tara to know about that. “NO!! She can’t! I don’t want her to know.” she cried.



Anteros smiled smugly. “Oh she’s going to see it, feel it, even hear what you thought every step of the way.” he explained.



Willow‘s head dropped once again. “Why are you doing this to us?” she asked softly.



The smile disappeared from Anteros‘ face. He truly loved these two women. “Believe it or not, to help you.” he answered honestly.



“Seems more like punishment to me.” she scoffed.



“If love is punishment, then I should chain you to the wall, cause obviously you like the view.” he replied sarcastically.



Willow looked up and searched his eyes. “I can’t stop this from happening, can I?” She would do anything to avoid this.



“Sure you could. Use magic.” Anteros told her with a frivolous tone.



Anything but that. “Screw you.” she spat.



Once again, the devilish smile appeared on his face. “You’re not my type baby.” he said sweetly. “Now go learn something. You’re supposed to be good at that.” he reminded her.



Willow just stood there staring at the love of her life sitting on the bench.



Anteros leaned in and whispered in her ear. “Willow, she doesn‘t talk about it for a reason.” he explained.



A flash of light and he was gone. The moment he disappeared, Willow could hear Tara’s thoughts as she sat on the bench.



‘What were we really fighting about? How did it all get so messed up? I should have put my foot down sooner about the magic. But how did that turn into a fight about her sexuality? Lord knows after what we did the other night, I think its pretty damn obvious she doesn’t want a guy.’



Willow watched as Glory sits down next to her lover and slipped her hand into Tara’s.



“NO!!” screamed out loud. “PLEASE NO!!” she screamed as she dropped to her knees watching the scene unfolding before her.



Tara’s spirits soared when she felt the hand intertwine with her own. A second later, Tara was confused. ‘That doesn’t feel like Willow.’ she thought as she turned at looked at the face that would haunt her always..



Is this seat taken?



Tara’s face went white and her stomach dropped. ‘I’m gonna die. I didn’t even tell Willow how much I love her last time I saw her. It’s not fair. Why did we have to fight?’ she thought



Willow got up off the ground and ran towards Glory. She went to punch her, but her arm went helplessly thru her. “It’s not fair! SHE NEVER SHOULD HAVE BEEN HERE ALONE IN THE FIRST PLACE!” she screamed out to no one.



Oh, this is nice. Just hangin' out, just us girls. You like that sort of thing, don't you?



Willow could feel the bones breaking in Tara’s hand. She reached down and unconsciously massaged her own wrist



Don't ... make a sound.



‘It hurts. Willow. Willow. God I love you. I’m so sorry. Goddess please don’t let her find me when Glory’s done with me.’ she thought.



Willow shook her head. She sat down on the ground in front of her lover. “She was being tortured by a hell god and she was only thinking about me?”



Tara looked around the fair, trying to figure out a way to escape. ‘Is there anything anyone could do to save me?’



“Tara, use some magic!” Willow screamed, as the tears started to roll down her face..



Nah. They won't help you. I'd kill them. You know that. There's no one here that can stop me.

I'll kill her and ... and them, I'll kill him, and her and her, and it'll all be your fault.




Tara felt helpless. If she tried to free herself, others would suffer. She simply couldn‘t live with herself if that happened. ‘No one dies. Not for me. Thank goodness Willow’s not here. I can face anything knowing that she’s okay.’



Willow couldn’t believe what was happening. Here was the love of her life in tremendous pain and being threatened, and her only concern is for Willow’s safety. “It‘s always about others. It‘s never about yourself.”



Kinda funny, isn't it? All these people here and ... no one who can do a thing. Not a person who can help you. But that's people for ya. They're pretty worthless. But keys, on the other hand ... keys are worth a very lot.



Tara was disgusted, but made no sounds. ‘She just licked my hand. I’d be ill if I wasn’t in so much pain and she’d probably kill me just for puking on her shoes.’ she thought.



“Jokes! Near death and you make jokes!?” she said slapping her forehead. “You are definitely my girlfriend.” she said proudly.



Realization dawns on Tara what Glory is talking about. ‘Wait, she thinks I’m the key? Oh shit, shit, shit, shit.’ Tara thought, going into complete panic mode.



You lying little tramp! You're not the key, you're nothing! Just another worthless human being!



‘I never said I was the key!’ she thought. “I didn't-” Tara began.



I hate being lied to. It makes me feel so betrayed. Hey! You wanna make it all better?



‘No, I don’t. let go of my hand. God, it hurts.’ she thought. The pain was getting so intense, she thought she would pass out any second. Unfortunately, part of her was terrified that if she did, Glory would take out her rage on the people at the fair.



Willow shook her head. “Again, worrying about others. How did you do it baby?” she wanted to know.



If you tell me who the key really is ... I'll let you go.



Willow scoffed the idea. “Yeah, like Tara would even consider THAT thought for a millisecond.”



Tara wasn‘t about to give up anything to the hell god. Not her friends, not her family, not her Willow. The only thing she was willing to give up was the thing she valued the least; herself. ‘You can’t have Dawn. I won’t let you hurt her. I’d never let you lay a finger on her. You can kill me…ouch, ouch, ouch. PAIN!!!’



The tears were flowing freely down Willow‘s cheeks. “Oh baby. You were so strong and so brave and willing to die to protect Dawn. You are so incredible.” she said softly.



Think about it. You think your hand hurts? Imagine what you'd feel with my fingers wiggling in your brain.



Tara‘s eyes went wide considering the hell god‘s words. ‘She’s gonna do what? Oh, this is bad. Ow. Pain.’ she thought as Glory broke more bones in her hand.



Willow felt the pain and felt rage surge thru her body. “Fuck you, you fucking bitch. I HATE you.” she screamed.



It doesn't kill you. What it does ... is make you feel like you're in a noisy little dark room ... naked and ashamed ... and there are things in the dark that need to hurt you because you're bad ... little pinching things that go in your ears ... and crawl on the inside of your skull. And you know ... that if the noise and the crawling would stop ... that you could remember how to get out.



Willow‘s heart dropped at the description at what he lover had suffered. “Oh my God. You bitch. If you weren‘t already dead, I‘d kill you.” she vowed.



There were no words to describe the pure terror that Tara was experiencing. ‘Don’t touch me please. Please, don’t touch me.’ Tara pleaded in her head. ‘I can’t scream. I can’t let her hurt anyone else. Willow, wherever you are, I love you.’



Willow stared into her lover‘s eyes. “Oh baby.” she whispered.



But you never, ever will.



The sheer horror of what Glory was suggesting was unthinkable. ‘She’s going to trap me inside my own mind. Ow. Ow. Ow.’ she thought as the bones began grinding against nerves, causing even more pain.



Willow‘s eyes darkened as she stared at the hell god. “You loved every minute of this, didn’t you? Bitch!” she shouted.



Who ... is ... the key?



It didn‘t take Tara long to decide what to do. It was a no-brainer. ‘Do or die. I won’t give her Dawn, no matter what. I’m sorry Will. I thank the goddess that you aren’t here to see this happen.’ she thought, then turned to face Glory. She pursed her lips and narrowed her eyes in a defiant gesture.



Willow heart swelled with pride. “No baby. You were willing to give up everything for your family. You make me so proud. I love you so much.’ she said, never taking her eyes away from her lover, totally transfixed with her girlfriend’s display of unwavering resolve.



Fine. Let's get crazy.



Tara whimpered as the hell god ran a finger down her face. ‘Shit! Nothing to do. Willow, I love you. Willow I love you. Willow I love you. Willow I love you.’ Tara was determined to have her last real thought be of the most important person in her life.



Willow couldn’t control the tears that ran down her face relentlessly.



Tara tried to lean away from the touch, but the hell god pulled her back and jammed her fingers into Tara’s head.



There was a bright flash.



When Willow opened her eyes, she was alone in her bed. “Tara.” she whispered.



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Didn't check it...so you might have found some goofs...I'm tired and will fix them after I sleep. As far as the next update...possibly tomorrow...Tara's turn.



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Love Will Find a Way

Edited by: jessan15  at: 4/20/02 11:55:10 pm
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Re: UPDATE

Postby Pixie gishmock » Sat Apr 20, 2002 11:58 pm

Oh God, jessan. I'm all wrung out. That was so....poignant. I love Anteros, by the way! This update had a great shift from funny one-liners in the conversation between Anteros and Willow to heart-wrenching fear and sadness as Willow experienced Tara's memory. I can't wait to see Tara's reaction to black-eyed "I owe you pain!" Willow. Go get some sleep!

Life is full of changes...The better you are at letting go of things, the freer your hands will be to catch something new. ~from Off The Map by Joan Ackerman
"It's good to be a chicken casserole," Tara murmured before passing out. ~from "Answering Darkness" by Sassette

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