Jen - Interesting speculation, but how would Tara know about anything that happened in that Episode? Okay, It's a little early today, but let's finish this Episode off. Episodes 9-12 run into each other anyway, so the divisions are completely arbitrary. And what's this - goodness, yet another cliffhanger!
Rating M15 AngstSong credit: “The Moon and The Sea” Kilbey/Koppes/Powles
In the heaving, sweating crowd, Willow found herself trapped, unable to go back or forward. A German exchange student the approximate size and shape of a Black Forest pine tree blocked her path to the exit. She must have been a volleyball player or something, she was practically a giantess. Never mind the little heartbroken lesbian, you just stand right there, ma’am. Not much point saying “excuse me” because I don’t think you could hear me up there. Since she had nothing better to do, ever, Willow tuned into the shouted conversation the student was having with her almost-as-large friend.
“Ja, this cover version, it’s great, I’ve seen the - how do you say?”
“Original?”
“Original! Ja, I’ve seen them many times in Germany. They are absolutely fantastic.”
“But it’s so aggressive!”
“Yes! That’s the really great thing. People hear this music, they say ‘Oh no, these people are Nazis, they are Satanists’, they say, ‘it’s a prophecy of darkness,’ I say this is bullshit. They are just ordinary guys with kids and families. Listen to the words.”
“I can’t,” the friend shouted. “My German isn’t good enough.”
“Okay, okay, it goes, um:
Can hearts sing
Can a heart burst
Can hearts be pure
Can a heart be made of stein -
stone
They want my heart on the right spot
But I see below
It just beats leftAnd then it’s left, two three four, like a march, but really it’s just a big party song and you jump around and go crazy to it.”
“But that’s -”
“Ja, I know. The music is really
schwer, heavy, but the words are sweet and gentle. It’s really funny!” The German tilted back her head and drank a great cooling draught of beer.
Willow turned back to the stage, astonished. Tara was singing about her heart; can it sing, burst, be pure? It beats on the left? What was happening here? And that music, like some ghastly battle of the bands between one really loud horrible industrial rock band, and some other horrible loud industrial rock band, although I can now see that a couple of ex-Dingoes are playing on stage tonight, which kind of explains a LOT. And Tara still wants me! Of course she does. I just let my memories fool me; I thought I was back in that awful time and place when I thought no one would ever love me.
Willow had been so engrossed in the overheard conversation that she had not even noticed that the band had started a new song. The stage was dark; just a single narrow spot shone on the blonde vampire. The band was playing quietly now, a strange, elegantly phrased tune, all interwoven rhythms, muttering bass and muted cymbals crashing like waves on a distant beach. Tara was now at the very front of the stage, taming the savage monster that was the mosh pit. She was leaning out over the crowd, letting the fans at the front shake her hand; smiling sympathetically and waving to those unfortunates too far back to reach her. The redhead set her teeth and drove forward towards the stage.
Tara stepped back half a pace and sang:
“
Surrender smiles, epiphanies
It’s almost everyday.
We look out to sea
Dawn’s early light
It chased the night away.”
“Tara!” Willow screamed. She thought she would be drowned out by all the noise around her, but Tara, with her exquisitely sensitive vampire ears, heard the shout. Their eyes locked.
Sometimes I can’t tell if I’m you or me
Alone in this room with the moon and the sea.Tara smiled broadly and reached out her hand. Willow, still six rows back from the stage’s edge, raised her palms in a helpless gesture, for the crush was thickest right in front of her. Tara wrinkled her brow and made a sad shape with her mouth, and then she stepped down into the crowd and waded towards Willow.
Listen to the space where she used to be
Another life away.The fans parted, a little astonished, as Tara gently but irresistibly pushed them to each side. The vampire took Willow by the hand and led her back to the stage. “I think it’s good news,” she whispered in Willow’s ear. Willow grinned back and hugged her. The blonde helped Willow up onto the stage and pointed to the wings, where there was a small curtained off area where bands could sit and rest between sets. Willow left the stage, and found herself a seat where she could watch and enjoy the rest of Tara’s show in comfort.
When the show ended perhaps an hour later, Willow stood and cheered with the crowd, and the shouts, whoops and whistles echoed from the Bronze’s high rafters. Tara waved, smiled, blew a kiss or two to the audience, bowed and ran from the stage. Once in the wings, she enveloped Willow in a crushing embrace.
“Tara, oohh, I breathe air, remember?” Willow gasped. Tara relaxed her grip slightly, but did not let Willow go. “Good news?”
“Yes, it’s not proof, but it’s the best I can do -” Tara broke off as the rest of the band joined them, together with sound engineers, friends and fans. In an instant the place was transformed; it was almost as stifling as the mosh pit had been. Tara pointed to a spot under the table. Willow looked, and there she could see Tara’s guitar case and the bag of clothes she’d been carrying when she’d left. These simple objects alone spoke volumes to the redhead. “I found an answer - you’ll never believe where. And there’s more; I have to tell you - about why I am - the way I am. This isn’t how I imagined telling you all this,” Tara smiled dryly.
“Tell me later - in bed,” Willow suggested.
“Yes, ma’am,” Tara enthused.
“That was kind of a mixed set you guys played.”
“Yeah, we were - experimenting, trying a few different sounds.”
“Did the experiment succeed or fail?” Willow wondered.
“Musical experiments never fail; they just don’t succeed in the way you expected.”
“Hey, Tara!” came an interrupting voice. “Can you give us a hand here?”
“I’m sorry, Willow,” Tara said. “They want me to help with packing up.”
“Don’t you have, like, roadies or something?”
“No, just the guys in the band. They like it when I do the heavy lifting for them.”
“Can I help?” Willow offered, looking around. “I feel like a bit of a fifth wheel, here.”
“Honey, it’s okay. Packing a band van is an art, it’s best left to the experts. I’m just gonna carry stuff, the guys will pack. Look, it’s pretty boring sitting around here, would you like to get a cab home, I’ll catch you up.”
“I’ve only just found you, I don’t want to leave you again,” Willow protested.
“I know, darling, but we’ve got all night. Don’t you want to - make things ready?” Tara raised her eyebrows suggestively.
“Oh-ho!” Willow smiled. “Now that is a challenge to my creativity. Okay, you’re on.”
“Promise?” Tara reached into her coat for some money for the cab fare.
“Promise.” They shared a kiss. Tara saw Willow safely into a cab and turned back to help with lugging the band’s gear.
Willow’s heart sang as she approached Buffy’s house. She unlocked and opened the door and stepped inside. She stopped in momentary surprise when she saw the assembly in the front room.
“Hi guys!” Willow beamed. “Scoobie gathering? Is this a debriefing from the First Evil ass-kicking two nights ago?” She stopped short as she noticed the new arrival, who had been sitting quietly in the corner. “Oh! When - when did you get back to Sunnydale?”
It took Tara the best part of an hour to get the band packed and on their way. All done, the vampire walked briskly to Buffy’s house. Her eyes shone with anticipation. Soon, Willow, we’ll be together again, and I’ll tell you everything.
Buffy’s house was quiet and dark when Tara got to the front door. She noticed that Willow’s bedroom light was off. The vampire smiled, wondering just what Willow had in mind. Not even a candle? Tara walked into the front hall and froze, looking around her in confusion. The house was too empty and quiet. There was no-one home. No, wait. Faintly, coming from her bedroom upstairs, Tara could hear the sound of Dawn, sobbing.
End of Episode 1.9
Everybody knew Bagheera, and nobody cared to cross his
path; for he was as cunning as Tabaqui, as bold as the wild buffalo, and as reckless as the wounded elephant. But he had a voice as soft as wild honey dripping from a tree, and a skin softer than down. Rudyard Kipling