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Overdue reply and an status update

Postby hermitstull » Fri Mar 12, 2004 12:57 am

Morgaine: Hey, thanks for reading! A new reader is always welcome. Sorry for taking so long to give a shout out reply.





I am currently plotting out the ending sections of this story, which is taking much longer than expected. I like for things to make sense, plus the added bonus of that pesky reality have slowed the process some. But something will be up soon, hopefully in the next two weeks, life willin'.



Thanks for hanging in there.



hermitstull

"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

Edited by: hermitstull at: 3/11/04 11:58 pm
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Part 18

Postby hermitstull » Thu Jun 10, 2004 10:47 pm

My gosh! Has it really been that long since I last updated?



Yes, it has. And despite all my best laid plans real life has a way of taking up that extra time and energy that you plan on using on finsihing up that story your started like two years ago and still haven't finished.



But as I've said before, I will finish this tale. This story and the continued writing of it means too much to myself and all of you dear readers to let it slip away.



And so, without more preamble, here is the next installment of Do Your Best: Deep



Part 18



Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past

Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have

Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back

And never moving forward so there would never be a past



Easier to Run by Linkin Park




Day Seven: Morning

Demon Reality



“Shit that was close,” the Agent said, getting up. He had thrown his body between the explosion and Tara and Willow. “Are you two okay?”



“We’ll manage,” Willow replied with a brief nod. She rose and offered her hand to Tara, who took it without reply. Barely making eye contact, the blonde turned and followed the Agent through the underground passageway.



Willow sighed and swung in behind. On the surface Tara looked the same. The same old breath catching, heart racing, palms inching to touch Tara that Willow loved. But something had changed, a darkness had penetrated Tara that try as she might, Willow couldn’t light.



She had held Tara for hours after they finally broke through the last mental barrier. The spell that Lucas had placed in Tara’s head, causing her to forget why all of this had started. Tara had sobbed at first, unable to speak. To respond to anything Willow had asked or offered. So Willow just held on, hoping that the tears would stop and she could help. The tears did stop, but Tara still clung to Willow with a desperate grip that spoke more of fear of loss than of love.



“Tara, sweetie?” Willow asked softly. “Do you want to try to get up?”



Silence.



“Okay, how about I get you something? Maybe some water?

Must be a little dehydrated…I know I am.”



Unmoving.



“Do you want me to get someone? Maybe something in the castle can help you feel better…since I’m failing miserably.”



Unnerving.



Willow heard the sound of thunder in the distance. Her scientific mind wondered how a storm could be generated in a sunless environment, with no heating of the air and drying of the land. The thunder got louder and closer.



“Willow,” Tara’s rasped.



“Baby,” Willow’s head whipped around from looking at the window.



“Promise…”



“Anything”



Tara’s deep blue eyes met Willow’s. Almost all of the vibrant brightness that her love possessed was gone. “When the time comes, you’ll do what you must. That when the answer comes, you won’t hesitate. It may seem the wrong choice, but it’s not.”



“Okay,” Willow agreed, confused. “How are you feeling?”



The bedroom door slammed open. The Agent stood before them, much like a amped up Riley Finn once did. “We’ve got to go. She’s mustered up one last attack.”



“Who?” Willow asked, trying to stand, dragging Tara up from the floor.



“The Dark Priestess,” the Agent spat. “She wants to stop the master.” He went to the window and looked out. “Get your travel gear. We’ve got to go now.”





And so they had. Tara had moved a little slowly at first, but soon she was same old Tara on the run, almost. She had followed Willow and the Agent through all the twists and turns of the ancient structure, into one of many hidden passageways that led from the building.



The trio was on their way to rendezvous with Bracus and the rest of his elite guard. From there they would teleport directly to the dimensional portal. Willow was glad to be getting back to Sunnydale, even if it was just a layover. She was worried about Tara. The light in her eyes was gone. And she hadn’t spoken to Willow since her cryptic warning hours ago.



“We’re almost there,” the Agent said, relief creeping into his voice. “I hear some of the others up ahead.”



Within minutes the passage opened up to a massive cavern, as big a two or three football stadiums. Huge lights hung from the brownish roof. The small group was on a upper ledge, offering Willow a bird’s eye view of the area. Most of the floor was covered in large crates, Willow guessed probably full of supplies and equipment. Various vehicles were parked throughout the cavern. Teams of vampires and demons hurried back and forth, carrying what looked like…



“They’re setting up the spell,” Agent replied, as if reading Willow’s mind. “To teleport is a hell of a thing. It makes your insides feel like liquid, and your head feel like,”



“I know,” Willow cut him off, thinking of the last teleportation spell she performed. “It can have a bad affect on some people.”



“Not you?” Agent asked incredulously.



“No.”



“What about Tara? She hasn’t looked so good lately.”



“She’s fine.” Willow replied harshly. “Don’t worry about her.”



They reached the floor of the cavern. The Agent led them to what appeared to be the command area. Willow recognized several of the vampires as ones who had escorted she and Tara to the castle.



Miguel, the handsome Spanish vampire that in her reality had become the Master Buffy had destroyed caught Willow’s eye and smiled. Darla was there as well as Luke, both looking a little worse for wear. Willow noticed Agent grind his teeth when he saw how loosely Darla’s left arm was attached to her body. She would have to feed soon or risk loosing the limb.



“Go to her,” Bracus’s smooth voice brought Willow’s attention back to the moment. The Agent quickly stepped away, leaving Tara and Willow with the Destroyer. “Many say that we can never love. But looking at those two,” Bracus nodded at the Agent and Darla, “I find that argument a hard one to make.”



“One of life’s many fallacies,” Willow replied sarcastically.



“I’m glad to see you both made it out of the castle.” Bracus shook his head a motioned for the women to sit. “I suspected that the Dark Priestess was planning something, but not on this level. I apologize for the inconvenience.”



He paused, but didn’t wait for a reply. “Soon the spell will be ready and we shall be rid of this world for a time.”



“And if you return?” Willow asked.



“If?” Bracus replied hotly. Willow sensed the sudden flare of powerful dark magic that quickly subsided. “When I return, my people shall own this world.” He paused again, Tara’s state ending his next sentence before it started. He got up from his seat and knelt before the blonde.



Willow, unsure what to do, waited. The thought had crossed her mind that Bracus might be able to help, as much as the idea repulsed her. He placed a finger on her temple, pulling away after a few seconds as if burned.



“It has started,” he said softly, his voice full of awe. “She is the key. She is the one who will unbalance the scales.” He looked at Willow, “And you the one who will balance them.”



“What’s wrong with her!” Willow demanded, her worry showing through.



“She has been set free of the knowledge of the past, and weighed down by the knowledge of the future.”



“Okay, would you please speak in English? I’m all with ‘let figure out the rhyming couplet and stop an apocalypse’ but come on! First her, now you.”



Bracus stood. “That’s all I can tell you. At the critical moment, just a few hours from now, she will make a choice that will tip the scales in the wrong direction, and you will have to correct it. Only you’ll know when that moment arrives. And only you will be able to fix it.”



“Sir,” Miguel’s smooth voice spoke behind them. “It’s time.”



“Thank you.” Bracus stepped back. “Ladies first.”



Willow and Tara stood and followed Miguel. They left the command area and headed to were Willow had seen the activity from the ledge. She felt the tingle of strong magic everywhere.



“I believe you’re familiar with this sort of thing,” Bracus commented to Willow as they entered the casting circle.



Willow nodded in reply and glanced around. Miguel, the Agent, Darla, Luke and about fifteen other older, stronger vampires clustered together.



“You’ll need protection,” the Agent said, meeting Willow’s gaze. “At both ends of the portal.”



“You’re not..”



“Hit it!” Bracus’s command cut off Willow’s shocked reply as the circle’s magic came to life.







to be continued....





"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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Re: Part 18

Postby maudmac » Thu Jun 10, 2004 11:06 pm

Oh my goodness!



One :eek for "OMG, hermitstull updated!" ;)



Worry not about the frequency of updates. Because your updates are always well worth the wait. Now, I wouldn't complain if the wait weren't quite so long, of course, but I understand very well what a huge time- and energy-sucker real life is.



And another :eek for the content of the update itself.



Damn, you know how to tell a story!



The scales, hmm? That does not sound good for our girls. But they're in good hands, I know, so I'll try not to worry too much.



Thanks for the update!


and i don't really care if you think i'm strange   /   i ain't gonna change

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Re: Part 18

Postby hermitstull » Thu Jun 10, 2004 11:14 pm

Maudmac-

Glad to see your still with this story. And yes, it was an OMG moment for me as well when I was able to finally finish up this part today and get it posted. Sometimes it's nice to get a day off.



Balancing the scales will be tricky, since there are so many factors to consider and the choice that Willow will have to make won't be a fun one. But I can say that after the angst there will be a sunshine day for our girls.



hermitstull

"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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Part 19

Postby hermitstull » Thu Jun 17, 2004 7:49 pm

It's amazing what can happen when you put your mind to it. Here is another installment of Do Your Best: Deep not in months but in weeks of the last.



Thanks to everyone who has kept up with this tale and pushed it over 11,000 views! And as always feedback is much appreciated.



Part 19





oh so while your growing old

under the gun gun gun

and i will leave them all

well i'm just one poor baby

cause well i will leave them all



i wish i could buy back

the woman you stole



Y Control by Yeah Yeah Yeahs






Day Seven: Morning

Prime



The Chicago team sat quietly in a closet. They had made the small room a rest stop/hideout while on the first level of the massive castle that served as Demetrious’s center of power in Prime. It had taken them hours to fight their way through the countess number and types of demons that awaited them once they had crossed the ring of fire that surrounded the structure and scaled its massive walls.



And that in itself had taken nearly a day.



Jay had learned a long time ago it was best to enter these types of situations with no expectations. To not even attempt to imagine what horrors would await around the corner, in the next room, on the next floor. Africa had taught her that a long time ago.



The door opened quickly and quietly, allowing Claude and Billy Joe to slip in.



“The rest of the way to the stairs appears clear,” Billy Joe whispered. “No more of the welcoming committee.”



“I agree,” Claude nodded, looking at Cleo, “although my magic is a little hampered in our present location.”



“Jay,” Cleo’s clear voice cut through the gloom, “what do you think?”



“How do you guys feel,” Jay asked, continuing to look at the floor, focusing on controlling the overwhelming darkness and power filling her soul. Fighting her strong desire teleport to the main chamber and claim her rightful thrown.



“Surprisingly okay,” Max replied. He looked at the group who nodded. “I mean, one would think that after a major throw down like that we’d be beat. But look at us, still ready to go.”



Jay looked at her four lifelong friends sitting on the floor. She unfocused her eyes and concentrated, seeing a small string of her energy flowing out of them. Well, flowing from her to them. She sensed that both Billy Joe and Claude should be near death with some of the rapidly healing injuries they had sustained during the initial battle. But she was subconsciously keeping them alive, even if her conscious desire was to leave them to their fate and face Demi now.



“If you feel okay, then lets go now,” Jay said, standing slowing. “The thrown room is on the third level.”



The group stood in awkward silence, no one moved.



“Jay,” Billy Joe began to speak.



“Don’t,” Jay shook her head. “Don’t go there. We never have in any other mission.”



“But this one’s different,” Max protested.



“And if we don’t now, we may never get the chance,” Cleo replied softly.



“I know you’re helping to keep us, well at least me, alive Jay.” Claude gave Jay a sad smile. Jay’s eyes widened for a moment, then she nodded. “Just this once we need to.”



“Either way, its our last mission,” Billy Joe added.



“Fine,” Jay’s voice cracked a little as she reached into a hidden pocket in her Kevlar and pulled out a folded piece of paper. The rest of the team did the same.



“Let’s try to keep this short,” Jay said, opening her paper, “Billy Joe.”



“Fine.” He ran a free hand through his short brown hair. He glanced at his paper and began to read. “When I was a kid, I had two goals in life. One was to become a cool monster fighter as part of the Clans, living the way my sister and brother had. Fighting evil, saving the world. The second was to have a family, find someone who loved me for who I was and could accept that part of me would always be on some mission.” He paused, wiping his eyes with his free hand. “And I got my dream with you guys. Thank you for all of your love, support, saving my ass, everything. I would have never met my wife if it wasn’t for you Max. I would have never started my bar if it wasn’t for you Claude. I wouldn’t have made it through school if it wasn’t for you Cleo. And I wouldn’t have survived the Lonesome Road without you Jay.”



“Max” Jay spoke softly.



“You guys are the best friends I’ve ever had. I wouldn’t have found myself, survived myself, and learned to accept who I am without you. I probably would have been trapped doing healings and forecasting forever and never known how much more I could do, be really, if I hadn’t been part of this team. Thank you all of you.”



“Short and sweet, just like you,” Cleo teased.



“Claude.”



“I thank fate for putting us together, that very fist time long ago in another life. It led us to this day and to who we are, and what we are to each other. I know that I’ve probably said this countless times before in many different forms, but I love each of you. And instead of fearing death, I embrace the fate that we’ll be together in the next. Older, wiser, and hopefully just as good looking.”



The group shared a laugh.



“As leader,” Cleo began, “I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to lead. A team in all senses of the word. A family, just like Billy Joe said. But I never thought I could find such good friends who would support me, argue with me, and laugh at and with me for so many years. And who could understand all the hats that I’ve had to wear. Thank you for all that you’ve given me. I love you.”



All eyes settled on Jay. She had been reading her farewell letter, the one she wrote just before this mission started. She had changed it a few times over the years to keep it current, never thinking she would even need it. But that moment was here, and the words on the page were inadequate. Closing her eyes, she focused on the love and the light that the people around her had been over the last twenty or so years and spoke.



“Words can’t express what you guys mean to me. To follow me into hell to try to save my life, it means more to me than anything ever will. And to have the strength to know that if we don’t succeed that you will save the world by killing me, saving my life, my soul, again. We’ve literally been to hell and back so many times, it doesn’t seem real sometimes, the lives that we lead. But our friendship, our love for one another, makes it real. Thank you. And tell Kim I’ll be waiting for her. Always.”



The quintet stood in silence for a moment collecting themselves. With a knowledge born of years of working together, Jay moved for the door, opening it with confidence.









The boys had been right. The last two hundred yards of the ground floor were free of any sort of demon or trap. The group moved quickly and quietly through the silent room, waiting for an attack that never came.



Jay led the way up the long flight of stairs to the second level. She slowed and motioned for the rest of the team to hang back. The second floor was shrouded in darkness, only a few feet visible beyond the top of the stairs.



“I’m sorry,” an eerily familiar voice spoke from the darkness. “How rude of me to leave the lights of for my guests.”



The sudden brightness was nearly blinding and caught Jay and the team off guard. Claude threw up a magical barrier around them while their eyes adjusted.



“Usually your barrier, my dear Claude, would be enough. But magic rooted in light doesn’t have a lot of pull in this neck of the woods.”



Jay felt Max’s barrier fall with little problem as her eyes finally adjusted. For the first time, she felt a sense of sadness at the team’s next opponent. The girl’s slight build and youthful face were deceiving. And the bright smile that danced across her face but didn’t quite reach her pitch black eyes was a lie.



“It doesn’t matter,” Jay said coolly, looking at a version of Willow. “What you did in your reality, to your dimension, it doesn’t matter. You’ll still lose.”



“So you have heard of me?” Dark Willow asked.



“The only one of the many versions of Willow to not be swayed at the end? The Willow the world killer, the destroyer, wicked Red, of course we have,” Jay shot back. “You’re a legend in the dark circles.”



“A legend,” Dark Willow relished the word for a moment. “Really.”



“But not the true Willow, oh no.” The smile vanished from the girl’s face at Jay’s words. The demon fighter began to advance slowly on the dark witch. “Just a poor faded copy in desperate need of a makeover.”



“Bitch,” Dark Willow lashed out with a wave of dark power, sending Jay flying back over the team and down the stairs.



“But still stronger than you,” Dark Willow grinned, turning on the rest of the Chicago team. “So who wants a go first?” She looked at Cleo, “How about you hottie? Want to take a ride on the dark side?”



“Not my type,” Cleo shot back, “Too skinny and veiny for my taste.”



With a howl Dark Willow sent a wave of dark magic at Cleo and the rest of the team. Jumping aside and on to the second floor, the foursome was able to miss being hit.



“Won’t be that easy,” Max said, hurling a fireball at the witch.



“Whatever,” she replied, catching the fireball in her hand and blowing it out.



Billy Joe charged in taking a swing at her with his sword while her back was turned. Dark Willow spun around and caught the sword easily in her right hand. She yanked the weapon out of his hand.



“Have to do better than that,” she said, delivering a crushing upper cut that send him skidding across the tiled floor.



“And now for you three stooges,” Dark Willow said smoothly, looking at Cleo, Max, and Claude. “What do you need?”



“Cool chicks like you out of my life,” Jay said as she appeared behind Dark Willow. A sword appeared in the witch’s chest.



“Ouch,” Dark Willow wined. “Not nice.”



“Bored now,” Jay replied, cutting off the copy’s head with the sword in her other hand. She pulled her sword out and let the body fall to the floor.



“Well that was something,” Claude said, looking over at Jay.



“I’ll say,” Billy Joe agreed, rubbing his jaw. “She sure could hit.”



“She won’t be the first,” Jay said, reaching out with her senses. “This entire floor is full of versions of people from our lives. The worst and most powerful versions pulled from every dimension and reality that Demi could get his hands on.”



“It’s like a bad episode of Star Trek,” Billy Joe said.



“First season Next Generation bad,” Max added.



The group shared a small laugh.



“Oh how sweet, a last laugh before dying.”



The Chicago team turned to face another version of Willow, this time in vampire form. She had several familiar Sunnydale faces with her, including a vampire version of Tara.



“It just keeps getting better and better,” Billy Joe said, following Jay’s lead and launching himself at the nearest vampire available.









“How much longer do you think he can keep this up?” Claude asked, leaning heavily against a massive column. “We’ve been fighting these things for hours.”



“We’re almost there, about two thirds of the way through,” Jay replied. She channeled a little more healing power towards Claude.



“I must say I never realized how good you looked in leather,” Billy Joe said to Cleo, referring to one of the incarnations the team had fought earlier.



“And you never will,” Cleo replied, blushing just a little at the thought of what could have been a future for her.



“Max makes quit a convincing werewolf,” Jay said, taking some of the heat of off her friend. Jay had been a little disturbed at her reaction to the leather clad Cleo as well.



“Part of my family tree actually,” Max replied, rubbing his shoulder. “I have a few cousins who are.”



“Not one of the ones we just…”Claude trailed off.



“Oh, no. None of those we fought were part of my family in our reality.”



“Heads up guys,” Jay said, her body becoming tense. “The next bunch is around the corner.”



The team moved carefully around a bend in the room to face the next version of themselves or whoever else Demetrious sent at them. The group had been pressed a few moments so far, but had defeated all incarnations placed before them.



“Oh my God,” Billy Joe gasped at the group in front of him.



“There is no God here,” he replied. “Only death.”



“That’s right,” Jay said, “take a look. Take a look at yourselves as you were. When you died in some nothing mission in the jungles of a small, sweaty third world hell pit. On the cusp of greatness, isn’t that what you told Tara when you stopped to visit her in Sunnydale Jay? That you guys were on the way to greatness?”



“That was a long time ago,” Jay replied hotly. “I’m not that person.”



“But I am,” young Jay replied back. “And you found glory and we found death. Which brought us here to Prime and our new ‘shadow member’.”



Jay felt sick at the thought of Demetrious having a hold on her, any version of her for so many years. In a way, it explained how the hell god knew the best ways to push her buttons. He had the closest version to herself under his thumb.



“And what do you get in trade for us?” Cleo asked.



“Freedom.” young Jay replied. “Returned to the cycle.”



“As if Demi would honor any deal.” Cleo replied. “You’re smarter than that.”



“He will,” young Jay replied. “I know, as she knows it’s true.”



“It is,” Jay replied looking at the younger version of herself. “They hate him as much as we do, if not more. And he knows freedom is the only thing that would mean anything to us.”



“Why don’t you join us then if you hate him?” Max asked. “We can fight him together.”



“It doesn’t work that way sport,” young Billy Joe replied. “It’s either us or you. And I pick us.”



“And he wins,” Jay shook her head. “You think that at some point you’ll come back and defeat him, don’t you.” She gave her twin a hard stare. “I can almost see it, your future. Hundreds of years from now, you’ll challenge him as another and win. But ultimately you’ll lose and destroy everything, everywhere.”



“I didn’t know I’d acquire the power of sight in my old age,” young Jay scoffed.



“You don’t,” Jay replied. “I just know.”



“Enough chit chat,” young Billy Joe said, swinging his sword up. “Let’s fight.”





tbc..



"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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Re: Part 19

Postby onyxsundrops » Fri Jun 18, 2004 11:37 am

Ooh, I remember this (after reading pages 1/5):blush . So glad that you've updated this really wonderful story. Thanks.



Yvonne:peace

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Re: Part 19-reply

Postby hermitstull » Fri Jun 18, 2004 7:11 pm

Yvonne-

Thanks for coming back to visit this story again!

hermitstull

"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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Re: Part 19

Postby sizzlersister » Tue Aug 31, 2004 5:40 pm

The darkness of this story is at once both intriguing and unsettling. I'm engrossed by the characters, Jay especially - this woman so full of darkness, Tara's childhood hero of sorts.

I'm amazed that with the scope of this story, you're able to keep such continuity even with long periods of time between updates. But hiatuses or no, as long as you keep writing, I will surely keep reading.

Where you've left off here is exciting. Is it just me, or is the idea of different versions of the same people (I hesitate to say good vs evil) fighting just totally f'n cool? Can't wait.



Poor Tara, what an enormously heavy burden to carry. I wonder what kind of monumental decision she will have to make to unbalance the scales...whatever it is, it doesn't sound fun. (But it's fun to read! :D )



more please

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Re: Part 19

Postby hermitstull » Tue Aug 31, 2004 9:31 pm

Sizzlersister!



Welcome to the madness and thank you! The characters that I've created for this story my attempt at dark heroes. Characters who operate with the intention of doing good, and the end result is something that avoids the end of the world and such, but how they get their isn't necessarily on the straight and narrow.



Jay especially falls into that catagory. She has never heistated to get the job done by any means necessary and has been corrupted in the process. The quesiton is not only if she will come out alive, but who will that person be that's left? She's much darker than the person Tara knew as a child, but my Tara from the alternate universe isn't quite as innocent as the one Willow first fell in love with.



Excellent pickup on the different versions thing. Not always as clear cut as good and evil. And the Chicago team's younger version at the end of the last update was much younger and not as tainted as the older version when they died.



Thanks again for the feedback! I've actually started some work on the next update. Hopefully sometime in the next few weeks we'll pay a visit to Sunnydale and see what our girls and vampires are up to.



hermitstull

"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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Re: Part 20

Postby hermitstull » Sat Oct 09, 2004 11:24 pm

Hello everyone!



I've come up for air from RL to deliver another installment of Do Your Best: Deep. I anticipate another 3-4 parts to wrap up this massive tale. Hopefully I can get them all in before the end of the year, but life has a funny way of derailing my plans.



Thanks again to everyone who continues to check up on this story and offer the great feedback. Keep it comming!



Here ya go...



Part 20



change everything you are

and everything you were

your number has been called

fights and battles have begun

revenge will surely come

your hard times are ahead..



Butterflies and hurricanes by Muse










Day Seven: Afternoon

Sunnydale



“You’re going to need to get a doctor to look that over,” Kim said to Faith.



“Nah,” the dark slayer replied grabbing a clean shirt from on top of her bed and pulling it on over her head. She winced slightly as the cloth brushed over the long gash on her back Kim had just sewn up.



Kim raised an eyebrow as Faith grinned sheepishly.



“Okay, maybe,” she stood. “But by the time Hurricane Apocalypse blows by slayer healing should have taken care of it.”



“I’d still like a medical doctor to check it over. My triage skills are a little rusty.”



“Could’ve fooled me. The way you’ve kept us held together over the last twenty four hour is pretty amazing.”



“Thanks,” Kim smiled. “Let’s go check on the others.”



Kim followed Faith out the door and down the hall. “So doc, what do you think about all this craziness?”



“Craziness?”



“You know. It’s not every day you step off a plane and into some geek boy’s wannabe reality.”



“This is more in your face than I’m used to, but remember Faith. Jay’s been doing this a lot longer than both you and Buffy. Some of the stores she and the others have told me,” Kim paused, “I can’t even begin to describe them. They almost didn’t seem real somehow. But now…”



“Seein’ is believin’” Faith stopped at the top of the stairs. “Well, look who’s back.”



Kim looked over the shorter girl’s should to see down into the large living room crowed with people. Off to one side she could see Tara and Willow hugging the rest of the Scoobies.



“Looks like they brought back a little help,” Kim commented as Faith continued down the steps.



“I don’t know if Vampire Kingdom is the kind of help we need,”



Faith replied reaching the bottom. She waved Tom and Paul to join her and Kim.



“So who are the party crashers?”



“Bracus and his crew,” Tom replied, nodding at the person currently talking to Buffy. “He pulled his elite through the portal to lend us a hand.”



“Or so he says,” Paul said disapprovingly. “Some of these vamps are notorious in this reality. Did you catch Darla over there? She’s been dusted for years in our world.”



“Despite Wolfram and Hart’s best efforts,” Tom added.



Kim tuned out the continued shoptalk between Paul, Tom, and Faith. She had little interest in the who’s who of vampires. She made her way to Lucas who was standing off to himself.



“How are you holding up Kim,” he asked, never taking his eyes off of Bracus.



“Okay.” She followed his eyes. “So that was Jay in this reality a few thousand years ago?”



“In some ways. Reincarnation is a tricky area. By all accounts in this reality Bracus is in Jay’s soul’s lineage. And the demon reality is one that holds many things in common with our own.”



“You don’t need to spin me Lucas,” Kim replied coolly.



Lucas turned his head to observe Kim more carefully. The powerful sorcerer studied the doctor for a moment. “Yes, if Bracus had died in that reality he most likely would have involved into Jamison Reed.”



The pair watched in silence for a moment. Bracus had moved aside and was now introducing his lieutenants. A tall, muscular blond man received quite a shocked reception the Scoobies, Buffy in particular. Kim supposed that he was someone the rest of them had known in the past.



“Part of Jay’s power comes from pulling on those darker elements in her history,” Kim continued as a dark haired, olive skinned man stepped forward. He too received more of a stunned look. “I know and accept that about her.”



“That’s good. Especially since it’s the dark elements that have taken over.”



“Not over. Never over.”



“I hope you’re right, Kim. I sincerely do.” He turned and faced her. “I love Jay like a daughter, but the fact is you need to be ready for the worst.”



“Her death has been something I’ve feared for too many years now.”



“Death would be the easiest option and the one I’m least concerned with.”



Kim’s eyes widened a little at Lucas’s statement. She looked away, finally facing something that had crossed her mind but she had refused to consider. How bad could it be if Jay lived, and was evil? Or worse?







Willow had been watching Kim and Lucas talk out of the corner of her eye for most of the introductions. In all that had happened, the red head had forgotten that Kim said she would be here for the last day of the mission. Something that Lucas had greatly upset the doctor from Chicago, so much so that she hurried away from him and back up the stairs.



“You okay there Will?” Xander asked. “You seem a little out of it. Do you need to rest?”



“Huh?” Willow turned and looked at her lifelong friend. “Yeah. Maybe a little.”



Willow turned to see if Tara was tired but the blonde had disappeared from the small group. She scanned the room and let out a small gasp when she saw her girlfriend talking to Lucas.









Lucas watched the young blonde witch cross the room with determination. She was much changed from the last time he saw her.



“You know.” He stated simply.



“Yes.” Tara replied hotly. “I have issues with people tampering with my memory.”



“That was this Tara, not you.” Lucas reminder her. “I am sorry, but it was necessary. If you knew the story behind all of this sooner it could have changed things. And that’s something I couldn’t risk.”



“Who made you God?” Tara bit back. “One trip into the future doesn’t mean that those events are locked into place. One small change in the time line can create an entirely different…”



“Do you actually think I solely went on one vision? One hint of things to come?” Lucas hissed in reply. “I have spent my life researching, double checking, trying to prevent that outcome in this reality and it others. And if you think sacrificing one of the few people in my life who I truly and deeply care about was an easy decision than you have no concept of what we are fighting for little girl.” He took a step closer to Tara. “If and when this works and the thrown of Prime is rightly restored I will pay for what some consider crimes at that time. And you and your friends will not be the ones to judge me.”



Tara didn’t back down. “I’ll be there to watch and cheer them on,” she replied.



Lucas leaned back a little and smirked. “I’ll set aside a pom-pom for you then.”



“Hey guys,” Willow said, causing Lucas and Tara to step back from each other. “Everything okay here?”



“Why yes Miss Rosenberg,” Lucas replied coolly. “I’m glad to see you made it back successfully. If you’ll excuse me.”



Willow watched Lucas slip away into the crowd of people and vampires milling about.



“I’m tired Willow,” Tara said flatly. “Can we take a nap?”



Willow’s head whipped around. It was the first thing Tara had really said to her since Bracus’s castle. She smiled warmly. “Sure baby. I bet there’s room for us upstairs.”





The pair made their way through the crowd and with a wave to Faith and the boys headed upstairs. At the top they paused at the sound of crying. The door to the room on the right was mostly open. Kim sat on the bed, head in her hands, quietly sobbing.



“Kim” Willow asked hesitantly, “Are you okay?”



Kim looked up, surprised and quickly stood. Trying to dry her eyes with a wrung out tissue, she replied over-excitedly. “Hey guys! Welcome back.”



“Thanks,” Willow replied, unsure. Tara wasn’t really paying attention to her conversation with Kim, which disturbed the red head to no end. If anything, Tara was the one for the sensitive chats, not Willow. “How are you doing? It looks like you could use another tissue.” Willow pointed at the frayed one in Kim’s hand.



“Kim is upset,” Tara said, her voice hollow. “Lucas has just made her face her greatest fear that Jay will come back changed. She is crying because she doesn’t know if Jay will still love her, but more importantly if she can still love Jay.” She turned at looked at the shocked expressions on the other women’s faces. “If Jay died or came back evil, the choice would be easy. But it’s that gray choice. The ‘what if’ choice that wakes you up in the middle of the night, isn’t it Kim? Could you still love a vegetable?”



Willow was beyond shocked. The blunt, uncaring assessment Tara delivered to Kim was something she could picture Anya saying without hesitating. “Um, what I think Tara is saying is…”



“I know what Tara is saying,” Kim replied, cutting Willow off. Her voice held the same sort of emptiness that Tara’s did. “And she’s right. Thank you for being so honest with me.” Kim stepped forward and shut the door.



“I’m sorry if what I said to Kim upset you Willow. All I can say is that I only said what she needed to hear. Can we find a room to rest in now?”



“What’s going on here Tara? What did Lucas say to you that’s put in this Anya frame of mind?”



“The fate of everything everywhere rests on my shoulders right now Willow. It’s made me a little testy. I’m sorry.” Tara turned and looked into Willow’s eyes.



Willow smiled a little. Behind the pain and confusion she saw a glimmer of the real Tara.



She took her soul mate’s hand. “Let’s get some rest.”



tbc...

"I was feared and worshiped across the mortal globe. At now I'm stuck at Sunnydale High. Mortal. Child. And I'm failing Math." Anya in Dopplegangland

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